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Posted 13 years agoI feel confident and stuffage, so I'll open up three slots for three lucky doods, doodettes (or anything in-between) to get something drawn for free. You like free stuff, I like free stuff, we ALL like free stuff! Want free stuff? Come on and comment below or send me a note of what you want! Original the character donut steel, porn, clean... whatever! Just say what you want (the more descriptive the better), add a reference of sorts for good measure (so the chances of fucking up is reduced) and cross your fingers! Pitch your ideas to me. Make me WANT to draw them! Whore your ideas out until you feel dirty and need to scrub the shame off in your showers! Let's go go GO~!!
I'll peek at things, maybe ask a few questions, and in a week I'll close things up and chose the three lucky duckers. :3
I'll peek at things, maybe ask a few questions, and in a week I'll close things up and chose the three lucky duckers. :3
All of my want.
Posted 13 years agoI took a nap this afternoon and dreamt something awesome. I dreamt I got a stylized plastic bag (pretty cool shot of a Misdreavus on one side in black and orange, Mismagius on the other in blue and purple tones) and inside was the object of my desire. A sort of fleshlight inspired sextoy with a Mismagius in delicious japanese rope bondage with the most lewd facial expression I have ever seen. Before I could examine it further I naturally had to wake up, because that's the unwritten law of naps.
If only something like this existed... then I would throw money haphazardly and get one.
If only something like this existed... then I would throw money haphazardly and get one.
Week of weeks.
Posted 13 years agoMeh, dunno about the title, but I figured I'd give you a guys a head-s up on what's been going on.
First off, my sister, her fiancé and their kid came to visit this week. Should've been nice and all, but... well... it was chaotic. Very, very chaotic. We're talking about Wrestlemania 3, ye-eah!! No, but... bags, clothes, glasses, STUFF lying around everywhere. For someone that's a minor neat freak like myself, that loves to have things in order and being able to move around somewhere, this was a pain in the ass. And their kid... geez... for being almost 8 months old it yelled, cried and screamed like there were atleast two of them. I've never seen anything like it before, which my mother could chime in with. While it was nice that they came to visit, it was perhaps a bad time to do so. And I noticed my sister had put on some weight. Yeah, when you've recently had a kid you got a bit of excess weight lugging around, but she's above 100 kg or something now. It was a bit of a shocker... but that's what you get on a heavy sugar diet.
The funeral on tuesday was really simple yet beautiful. I got to see my uncle and his waifu, which was nice, but there was a very low turnout for the ceremony itself. However, what shocked me the most was the fact my brother was there. Yeah, same brother I haven't seen for the past... seven years or so? But... it meant a lot that he was there. I barely recognized him. I shook hands with him and looked at him, thinking there was something very familiar about him, but then he said: "Don't you recognize your own brother?" and then followed several seconds of awkward staring and disbelief, shock and whatnots.
But yeah... dad's buried, the funeral marked a moment when we could all just start relaxing.
On the following day my mother had something of a panic attack that scared the living hell outta me. She had chestpains and was all scared, thinking she got a heart attack and was going to die. So I sat there with her, trying to calm her down. Eventually she did calm down, but she were still kinda worried... as were I. She found out later during her scheduled appointment to the doctor on friday that it was triggered by stress, which made sense considering the funeral and the chaos at home.
My sister and her cohorts left on friday, and there was this... calm. The atmosphere was so different, so peaceful and serene... and I loved it, I really did. It was nice that they visited, yeah, but it was way too chaotic for the both of us. Badly timed visit, although it was nice, like I said.
Well... it feels like I'm starting to move on as a person finally. Sure, I'm busy most of the hours of the day, but I get some time to unwind and do other things, such as now. And you've seen the pics, so that hasn't slowed down too terribly. What's more important is that I enjoy drawing again. :3
But yeah, some good, some bad, but things are starting to look up. Next journal better be just silly or happy or something... but I figured I'd let you all know what's going on. So anyways, take care, have a good day, and all that goody stuffs! :3
First off, my sister, her fiancé and their kid came to visit this week. Should've been nice and all, but... well... it was chaotic. Very, very chaotic. We're talking about Wrestlemania 3, ye-eah!! No, but... bags, clothes, glasses, STUFF lying around everywhere. For someone that's a minor neat freak like myself, that loves to have things in order and being able to move around somewhere, this was a pain in the ass. And their kid... geez... for being almost 8 months old it yelled, cried and screamed like there were atleast two of them. I've never seen anything like it before, which my mother could chime in with. While it was nice that they came to visit, it was perhaps a bad time to do so. And I noticed my sister had put on some weight. Yeah, when you've recently had a kid you got a bit of excess weight lugging around, but she's above 100 kg or something now. It was a bit of a shocker... but that's what you get on a heavy sugar diet.
The funeral on tuesday was really simple yet beautiful. I got to see my uncle and his waifu, which was nice, but there was a very low turnout for the ceremony itself. However, what shocked me the most was the fact my brother was there. Yeah, same brother I haven't seen for the past... seven years or so? But... it meant a lot that he was there. I barely recognized him. I shook hands with him and looked at him, thinking there was something very familiar about him, but then he said: "Don't you recognize your own brother?" and then followed several seconds of awkward staring and disbelief, shock and whatnots.
But yeah... dad's buried, the funeral marked a moment when we could all just start relaxing.
On the following day my mother had something of a panic attack that scared the living hell outta me. She had chestpains and was all scared, thinking she got a heart attack and was going to die. So I sat there with her, trying to calm her down. Eventually she did calm down, but she were still kinda worried... as were I. She found out later during her scheduled appointment to the doctor on friday that it was triggered by stress, which made sense considering the funeral and the chaos at home.
My sister and her cohorts left on friday, and there was this... calm. The atmosphere was so different, so peaceful and serene... and I loved it, I really did. It was nice that they visited, yeah, but it was way too chaotic for the both of us. Badly timed visit, although it was nice, like I said.
Well... it feels like I'm starting to move on as a person finally. Sure, I'm busy most of the hours of the day, but I get some time to unwind and do other things, such as now. And you've seen the pics, so that hasn't slowed down too terribly. What's more important is that I enjoy drawing again. :3
But yeah, some good, some bad, but things are starting to look up. Next journal better be just silly or happy or something... but I figured I'd let you all know what's going on. So anyways, take care, have a good day, and all that goody stuffs! :3
Upcoming events of eventfulness I guess.
Posted 13 years agoI will get to see my sister tomorrow for the first time in two years. It's a pretty big moment, and sadly, I can't help but wonder how things will go. Everything feels like a huge ass mess right now, and despite how much I try to do things like cleaning and whatnot, it still feels like it's not enough. But we'll see once we get to that point, I suppose. Gonna meet her fiancé too and their child. It... feels surreal, but I hope things go well while they're staying. I hope the dog won't cause any problems... it's a bit on the fiesty side.
Speaking of that, one of my mother's lesser liked brothers came to visit yesterday and really shook her up. Trying to compare their mother ending up in an old folks home to losing a husband for starters... his usual bullshit and rants about all these people out to get him, trying to run him over and whatnot, every dog in the nation trying to bite him... you name it. He's a bit of a drama queen at the age of 60 that blows everything out of proportion and is paranoid as fuck. But what really upset my mom was how he cornered the dog up against the table leg, because for some reason he thought she'd bite him, and started threatening the dog. If he so much as tries to do something the next time I see his ugly mug, I don't want to see him ever again. Not going past the doorstep, not going to talk with him... if bad comes to worse, I'd probably punch the asshole. Me, being typically swede, just get upset and grit our teeth and move on. That's how it's always been. But ever since my dad passed away, I've been having these bursts of anger. But that's normal, I guess... being angry and sad over losing someone way too soon, leaving behind a huge burden and emptiness that can't be filled.
The funeral is due tuesday. It will be my first... I have no formal wear, but it should be alright, I guess. What matters is the thought, and not appearance, right? I'll get to see my dad's older brother again... been way too long. I met his son last friday, and he's had some kind of relapse and was drunk as a skunk. He seemed like the kind that would always know what's best for someone else... you know those people. Know-it-alls or something... it was tolerable for a bit, but then I was getting annoyed with him. But I'm polite, so I didn't say anything. I'd prefer if he wasn't drunk that day...
He will be missing the funeral though, since he comes home from a vacation in the afternoon, and the funeral is in the morning. It's still so surreal... almost a month has passed and it's still so... unreal.
There seems to always be something to do around here, but oddly enough, not all moments are depressing or bad. I mean, we still laugh every now and then, talk... I'm usually doing chores, but she tries as well. I guess she has to keep herself occupied as well to get through this. According to a neighbour that's been very helpful, and the person we spoke to at the funeral agency, it could take atleast a year to get over something like this. It's tough... I seem to be managing, but in truth, I seem to be taking this a lot better than she is. Well, maybe from an outside perspective... I don't even know how I'm feeling sometimes. I feel blank, and I associate that with being okay. Sometimes I can't find the energy to do something although I really have to. Earlier today I pretty much hid under the covers for a few hours just to pull myself together.
God, what a goddamn pity journal this is, anyway... but I thought you guys should know what's up. I get by, although sometimes I just feel like giving up. All the tremendous feedback I got with my last journal was... kind of overwhelming. But I want to thank everyone, each and every one of you, for your support and your kind words. It really means a lot to me... even if I sometimes don't know what to say, how to say it, or if it is the right thing to say.
Speaking of that, one of my mother's lesser liked brothers came to visit yesterday and really shook her up. Trying to compare their mother ending up in an old folks home to losing a husband for starters... his usual bullshit and rants about all these people out to get him, trying to run him over and whatnot, every dog in the nation trying to bite him... you name it. He's a bit of a drama queen at the age of 60 that blows everything out of proportion and is paranoid as fuck. But what really upset my mom was how he cornered the dog up against the table leg, because for some reason he thought she'd bite him, and started threatening the dog. If he so much as tries to do something the next time I see his ugly mug, I don't want to see him ever again. Not going past the doorstep, not going to talk with him... if bad comes to worse, I'd probably punch the asshole. Me, being typically swede, just get upset and grit our teeth and move on. That's how it's always been. But ever since my dad passed away, I've been having these bursts of anger. But that's normal, I guess... being angry and sad over losing someone way too soon, leaving behind a huge burden and emptiness that can't be filled.
The funeral is due tuesday. It will be my first... I have no formal wear, but it should be alright, I guess. What matters is the thought, and not appearance, right? I'll get to see my dad's older brother again... been way too long. I met his son last friday, and he's had some kind of relapse and was drunk as a skunk. He seemed like the kind that would always know what's best for someone else... you know those people. Know-it-alls or something... it was tolerable for a bit, but then I was getting annoyed with him. But I'm polite, so I didn't say anything. I'd prefer if he wasn't drunk that day...
He will be missing the funeral though, since he comes home from a vacation in the afternoon, and the funeral is in the morning. It's still so surreal... almost a month has passed and it's still so... unreal.
There seems to always be something to do around here, but oddly enough, not all moments are depressing or bad. I mean, we still laugh every now and then, talk... I'm usually doing chores, but she tries as well. I guess she has to keep herself occupied as well to get through this. According to a neighbour that's been very helpful, and the person we spoke to at the funeral agency, it could take atleast a year to get over something like this. It's tough... I seem to be managing, but in truth, I seem to be taking this a lot better than she is. Well, maybe from an outside perspective... I don't even know how I'm feeling sometimes. I feel blank, and I associate that with being okay. Sometimes I can't find the energy to do something although I really have to. Earlier today I pretty much hid under the covers for a few hours just to pull myself together.
God, what a goddamn pity journal this is, anyway... but I thought you guys should know what's up. I get by, although sometimes I just feel like giving up. All the tremendous feedback I got with my last journal was... kind of overwhelming. But I want to thank everyone, each and every one of you, for your support and your kind words. It really means a lot to me... even if I sometimes don't know what to say, how to say it, or if it is the right thing to say.
My dad...
Posted 13 years agoMy mother just came in. She got a phone call... he didn't make it. He passed away. The damages to his heart was too severe. I didn't get a chance to tell him I loved him once last time... I'm so shocked... I can't stop shaking...
I have no idea what's going to happen now... if I'm absent for a while, you know why. I just... don't want to believe it. My dad's gone... he's really gone...
I have no idea what's going to happen now... if I'm absent for a while, you know why. I just... don't want to believe it. My dad's gone... he's really gone...
Dad's hospitalized.
Posted 13 years agoIt never ends.
While I was out for a walk with the dog, my dad passed out at home. Mom got on the phone and called for an ambulance. My dad's been complaining about having trouble breathing lately, and coughs up thick, white phlegm. Today it seemed to be worse than ever, and I told my mother she had to call for some help, because he looked absolutely destroyed, and just kept throwing up.
Like I said, while I was out, my dad passed out briefly. When I got back home my mom told me that, and she were on the phone with the emergency service. I had to meet the ambulance, but it was a nervewrecking wait until I saw it coming. Had to keep the dog in the kitchen so they could get to work, asking questions and running tests. When they got him to the ambulance, he held on to the vehicle... and they both grabbed him and lead him to the stretcher. He blacked out for a moment there, and I could just look. Eyes open wide, gargling... it was horrible. THey got him in, ran some more tests and gave him something I believe. After a little while he was conscious again. The paramedics told me he'd either end up in E.R or Heart Intensive care, then they drove off.
It's barely been over a month since our old dog died, but now I'm standing infront of the possibility that my own dad is going to die. This fucking year, I swear...
I'll be busy taking care of things here at home. I dunno how things will progress, but I can only hope it will be for the better. I'd better go back to my mom now, see how she's doing.
While I was out for a walk with the dog, my dad passed out at home. Mom got on the phone and called for an ambulance. My dad's been complaining about having trouble breathing lately, and coughs up thick, white phlegm. Today it seemed to be worse than ever, and I told my mother she had to call for some help, because he looked absolutely destroyed, and just kept throwing up.
Like I said, while I was out, my dad passed out briefly. When I got back home my mom told me that, and she were on the phone with the emergency service. I had to meet the ambulance, but it was a nervewrecking wait until I saw it coming. Had to keep the dog in the kitchen so they could get to work, asking questions and running tests. When they got him to the ambulance, he held on to the vehicle... and they both grabbed him and lead him to the stretcher. He blacked out for a moment there, and I could just look. Eyes open wide, gargling... it was horrible. THey got him in, ran some more tests and gave him something I believe. After a little while he was conscious again. The paramedics told me he'd either end up in E.R or Heart Intensive care, then they drove off.
It's barely been over a month since our old dog died, but now I'm standing infront of the possibility that my own dad is going to die. This fucking year, I swear...
I'll be busy taking care of things here at home. I dunno how things will progress, but I can only hope it will be for the better. I'd better go back to my mom now, see how she's doing.
Dateups.
Posted 13 years agoDad brought home a miniature pinscher gal last night, after about two and a half weeks worth of scouting for a new dog. Parents are happy as fuck, which is great, cats are a little distrustful of the new little rocket racing around in here. It seems to have some sort of fear/respect for me and tends to shy away if I'm around. I must have a really dreadful presence...
My dad has also decided to quit smoking after about four decades of it. His airways are so packed with phlegm and junk that he's got trouble breathing, and decided it was for the better he quit because he only felt worse smoking. Wouldn't mind if he decided to do this five or ten years ago, but atleast he's realized it's not doing him any good. If he'll actually be able to, that's a whole different story. But I hope he can manage without his cancer sticks.
Also caught a sore throat and a cold yesterday. Today I spent some time purging my system in the bathroom. Feels kinda meh. I don't feel all that bad aside from the throat aching a bit if I swallow. Nothing too serious, just a minor inconvenience.
Yesterday I got a glimpse about all the stuff people are planning for Valborg. Some are gonna go to LAN parties and play Diablo 3 like crazy, others are gonna go partying, or have a barbecue. Me...? Same as always. Stay home, do nothing. As if anyone would consider inviting my boring, uninteresting ass anyways... but seeing as I'm sick currently, it doesn't really matter if I were invited for something or not.
I had a conversation with a guy yesterday about art. He said there are no wrong ways to express yourself in, and that people who says otherwise can go fuck themselves like the elitistic douches they are. I took this to heart quickly. I've also been filled with such rage that I haven't enjoyed drawing for quite a while, and the more I try to fit into a mold, the more I realize it just won't work. I'm going to try and turn that anger into something creative. If I can't enjoy drawing anymore despite that, I'm just going to quit. What good is it to try and try and try and try and just get more and more stressed and pissed off about something that's supposed to do the opposite?
My dad has also decided to quit smoking after about four decades of it. His airways are so packed with phlegm and junk that he's got trouble breathing, and decided it was for the better he quit because he only felt worse smoking. Wouldn't mind if he decided to do this five or ten years ago, but atleast he's realized it's not doing him any good. If he'll actually be able to, that's a whole different story. But I hope he can manage without his cancer sticks.
Also caught a sore throat and a cold yesterday. Today I spent some time purging my system in the bathroom. Feels kinda meh. I don't feel all that bad aside from the throat aching a bit if I swallow. Nothing too serious, just a minor inconvenience.
Yesterday I got a glimpse about all the stuff people are planning for Valborg. Some are gonna go to LAN parties and play Diablo 3 like crazy, others are gonna go partying, or have a barbecue. Me...? Same as always. Stay home, do nothing. As if anyone would consider inviting my boring, uninteresting ass anyways... but seeing as I'm sick currently, it doesn't really matter if I were invited for something or not.
I had a conversation with a guy yesterday about art. He said there are no wrong ways to express yourself in, and that people who says otherwise can go fuck themselves like the elitistic douches they are. I took this to heart quickly. I've also been filled with such rage that I haven't enjoyed drawing for quite a while, and the more I try to fit into a mold, the more I realize it just won't work. I'm going to try and turn that anger into something creative. If I can't enjoy drawing anymore despite that, I'm just going to quit. What good is it to try and try and try and try and just get more and more stressed and pissed off about something that's supposed to do the opposite?
420
Posted 13 years agoHurr drugreferences. Am I cool yet?
Dad's turning 62 today, mom's turning 53 on sunday. I've never been good with presents so I'm kinda stumped... but I'll get them something, just not sure what.
Weather's all balls. It's not sure if it's autumn or spring yet so it's cold and snows occasionally. Kinda depressing that spring gets delayed over and over and over and over and overandoverandoverFUCK!!!
Feeling so unmotivated today to do anything, though... so we'll see what happens.
No, I won't make one single interesting journal.
No, you can't have that.
Okay, maybe one bite...
Dad's turning 62 today, mom's turning 53 on sunday. I've never been good with presents so I'm kinda stumped... but I'll get them something, just not sure what.
Weather's all balls. It's not sure if it's autumn or spring yet so it's cold and snows occasionally. Kinda depressing that spring gets delayed over and over and over and over and overandoverandoverFUCK!!!
Feeling so unmotivated today to do anything, though... so we'll see what happens.
No, I won't make one single interesting journal.
No, you can't have that.
Okay, maybe one bite...
Doodling with a pen is funfunfun~
Posted 13 years agoIf dicking with a tablet is anything like this, I'm totally getting one when I move out. Damn, I haven't been doodling like this since my nine month absence from a computer that I had a while back. Working out something old in a new way. Like a redesign of major proportions. Ohh man, these proportions~ ´w`
So... yeah, just wanted to make this little pointless hurrnal.
Oh yeah, and I grew a moustache. Mostly just to see if I could look decent in it, since I've never really tried growing one before. I look a lot more like my dad now, but... psshhh... details~
So... yeah, just wanted to make this little pointless hurrnal.
Oh yeah, and I grew a moustache. Mostly just to see if I could look decent in it, since I've never really tried growing one before. I look a lot more like my dad now, but... psshhh... details~
Tragedy strikes.
Posted 13 years agoThe family's dog, a rottweiler just five years old, suddenly collapsed in the hall and died. I heard a loud thud and my mother panic, and I rushed down to see what happened. I saw him just laying there, and I sat by him, trying to keep him conscious while they called for help. No friends answered, one had a terrible back ache to the point he couldn't stand, and the nearby veterenarians couldn't come either. I've never felt so powerless... sitting and petting this big dog as his life was coming to an end. A neighbour finally came after my dad scrambled to get someone with a car to take him to a veterenarian.
It would've been too late anyways. It might've been a heart attack, going by how sudden it was. Even if we got him on the way, it would've been too late. There was nothing wrong with him, aside from a loss of appetite lately. It just feels so wrong...
My mother is devastated, but I'm more worried about my father. It's been his closest companion now, and sometimes I felt that he was the anchor that kept him going through the days. Now... he's gone. It doesn't help that he's been feeling ill lately, and he's getting noticably thinner... I don't want my dad to die.
I noticed today he was so short of breath when we were going home from the grocery store. It's scary... you see this relentless man that never, ever gives up, stubborn beyond belief and unflinching man... the man you've held and loved with a mix of deep respect and admiration... to see him get so worn down. I don't think he's got much time left. And without his trusted dog, he's got one less thing to live for.
I don't know what to do...
It would've been too late anyways. It might've been a heart attack, going by how sudden it was. Even if we got him on the way, it would've been too late. There was nothing wrong with him, aside from a loss of appetite lately. It just feels so wrong...
My mother is devastated, but I'm more worried about my father. It's been his closest companion now, and sometimes I felt that he was the anchor that kept him going through the days. Now... he's gone. It doesn't help that he's been feeling ill lately, and he's getting noticably thinner... I don't want my dad to die.
I noticed today he was so short of breath when we were going home from the grocery store. It's scary... you see this relentless man that never, ever gives up, stubborn beyond belief and unflinching man... the man you've held and loved with a mix of deep respect and admiration... to see him get so worn down. I don't think he's got much time left. And without his trusted dog, he's got one less thing to live for.
I don't know what to do...
Life - the final frontier.
Posted 13 years agoToday I made another big step towards an independent life. I signed my contract to my own apartment so hard I became a loli with magic powers. Well, almost. ;<
As of July 1st I'm gonna be living in the fridge... I mean, on my own. Kinda funny how two years ago, this seemed like a distant dream. Soon enough I'll either get back to studying or hunt for a job. I've grown up a lot in such a short span of time... makes me wonder how I could be so doubtful of my own abilities.
While I was still downtown, I decided to pick up a mechanical pencil and a sketchbook. By request of
I'm gonna be practicing more with a pen to get the feel of something different instead of dinking with a mouse all the time. Might be practice for a tablet sometime in the future. For the time being I'm still gonna make atrocious MS Paint work, but I'm considering moving on with medium and program. I just don't know when, but I keep the option open.
Speaking of, after my latest coloured picture, he hooked me up with a bunch of tutorials on anatomy and whatnot. Hopefully something will stick and I can continue to improve myself. I also wanna thank 
and for giving me tips and critique, and for bugging me to try something new. I also wanna thank 
for being such a bundle of happy, feel good vibes every time I see him on MSN.
And thanks to all of you watchers, commenters, random passerby people, curious cats and crazy people taking an interest in what I try to cobble together and call art. Without you doods, this would've felt kinda pointless. I know I can be a pain sometimes and maybe a little cranky, but thanks for your support. :3
As of July 1st I'm gonna be living in the fridge... I mean, on my own. Kinda funny how two years ago, this seemed like a distant dream. Soon enough I'll either get back to studying or hunt for a job. I've grown up a lot in such a short span of time... makes me wonder how I could be so doubtful of my own abilities.
While I was still downtown, I decided to pick up a mechanical pencil and a sketchbook. By request of
I'm gonna be practicing more with a pen to get the feel of something different instead of dinking with a mouse all the time. Might be practice for a tablet sometime in the future. For the time being I'm still gonna make atrocious MS Paint work, but I'm considering moving on with medium and program. I just don't know when, but I keep the option open.Speaking of
, after my latest coloured picture, he hooked me up with a bunch of tutorials on anatomy and whatnot. Hopefully something will stick and I can continue to improve myself. I also wanna thank 
and for giving me tips and critique, and for bugging me to try something new. I also wanna thank 
for being such a bundle of happy, feel good vibes every time I see him on MSN.And thanks to all of you watchers, commenters, random passerby people, curious cats and crazy people taking an interest in what I try to cobble together and call art. Without you doods, this would've felt kinda pointless. I know I can be a pain sometimes and maybe a little cranky, but thanks for your support. :3
Ideas~!
Posted 14 years agoWhile I'm working on this not-so secret idea for a certain trashcan wearing gentleman, I've also felt the need to make my yearly Tessie pic. For those that are a bit unfamiliar with who this is (since I'm kind of neglective like that), it's this thing here doing these very weird stuff. Yes, links are 18+.
Not exactly original, but oh well, there you go. Anyways, to get to the point, I'm interested in what you, the viewer, want to see her do. Just throw out your ideas, anything, if you have any. I want you to decide what's going on. No preferenses, be it clean, dirty, smart, silly, herp or derp, just as long as the idea makes me feel inspired!
So yeah, best idea wins, basically. Not exactly a contest, or what to call it, but mostly a viewer experiment... get you involved, or something like that. No limits, just pour your ideas over me like water! :3
Not exactly original, but oh well, there you go. Anyways, to get to the point, I'm interested in what you, the viewer, want to see her do. Just throw out your ideas, anything, if you have any. I want you to decide what's going on. No preferenses, be it clean, dirty, smart, silly, herp or derp, just as long as the idea makes me feel inspired!
So yeah, best idea wins, basically. Not exactly a contest, or what to call it, but mostly a viewer experiment... get you involved, or something like that. No limits, just pour your ideas over me like water! :3
New year, nostalgia like crazy.
Posted 14 years agoWithin the first two hours of waking up I had IMMENSE nostalgiagasm and listen to some 12+ year old techno tunes, and started sketching something.... that I actually missed doing. I mean, sure, I got some lineart half-done already for a more serious pic, but I work on impulse. Not a bad thing, gotta sieze the moment and all.
Hopefully you guys had a nice new year's eve, with lots of colourful explosions and whatnot. With or without bubbly, fizzy wine knockoff that's so high class. :3
Mmmmm... room still smells like popcorn~ <3
Hopefully you guys had a nice new year's eve, with lots of colourful explosions and whatnot. With or without bubbly, fizzy wine knockoff that's so high class. :3
Mmmmm... room still smells like popcorn~ <3
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No clever title.
Posted 14 years agoCouldn't think of any, so... why bother?
Requests were finally done, thank goodness. I might decide to do more of that in the future, but it's nothing you should pester me about.... yet. Need some time to calm down and work on some other stuff I've had to hold back on in favour of getting everything done for those that waited. But if I decide to do another round of requests (free shit is always nice, right?) I'll make a journal about it. Although I do like the occasional subliminal message... le hint hint. I know I may sound a bit negative, but all in all it was pretty fun. Feels like I learned something from it. Ofcourse there's exceptions to the rule...
Another thing that's been buzzing around in my head is that I want to take a small break from drawing pokémon. It's fun and all, but I want to draw other stuff as well. Like... draw more Weipahr, maybe something tentacle related too since I love that stuff, wanna do a pinup series of the Ironclaw Gremlin classes... stuff like that. Maybe even little gifts and fan art of other stuff, that's always nice.
Uhm... I think that's all, really.
Requests were finally done, thank goodness. I might decide to do more of that in the future, but it's nothing you should pester me about.... yet. Need some time to calm down and work on some other stuff I've had to hold back on in favour of getting everything done for those that waited. But if I decide to do another round of requests (free shit is always nice, right?) I'll make a journal about it. Although I do like the occasional subliminal message... le hint hint. I know I may sound a bit negative, but all in all it was pretty fun. Feels like I learned something from it. Ofcourse there's exceptions to the rule...
Another thing that's been buzzing around in my head is that I want to take a small break from drawing pokémon. It's fun and all, but I want to draw other stuff as well. Like... draw more Weipahr, maybe something tentacle related too since I love that stuff, wanna do a pinup series of the Ironclaw Gremlin classes... stuff like that. Maybe even little gifts and fan art of other stuff, that's always nice.
Uhm... I think that's all, really.
I'm an uncle now.
Posted 14 years agoYes, after some acute c-section action yesterday a boy was yanked outta her body. This makes me officially an uncle, and that's... pretty awesome. My dad's as stoic as ever though, but my mom is flipping out. I'm something inbetween them both... stoicly flipping out.
Request status~
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Clock.
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Anonymous request. Cleck.
Cluck.
Clöck.
Clåck.
Cläck.
Request status~
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Clyck.Anonymous request. Cleck.
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Clåck. Cläck.10k views? Thanks.
Posted 14 years agoEvaluation time!
Posted 14 years agoSnagged this from because I'm curious about this. If I get more than one response to this, I call it a miracle of sorts...
PROS
01. I like when you draw: ___.
02. I wish you drew more: ___.
03. I wish you drew more fanart of: ___.
04. I wish you drew more original art of: ___.
05. I wish you drew a comic of/about: ___.
06. I wish you made a tutorial about: ___.
07. My favorite part of your work is: ___.
CONS
08. I dislike when you draw: ___.
09. I wish you drew less: ___.
10. My least favorite part of your work is: ___.
OTHER
11. If I had to describe your work I’d say: ___.
12. If I had a question to ask about your work it’d be: ___?
13. The main strength & weakness of your work is/are: ___ & ___
Requests checklist~
Done
Click.
Clack. (You may want to get started on your half of the thing. Hint hint.)
Clock.
Clyck.
Anonymous request. Cleck.
Cluck.
Requests that need to get done already.
because I'm curious about this. If I get more than one response to this, I call it a miracle of sorts...PROS
01. I like when you draw: ___.
02. I wish you drew more: ___.
03. I wish you drew more fanart of: ___.
04. I wish you drew more original art of: ___.
05. I wish you drew a comic of/about: ___.
06. I wish you made a tutorial about: ___.
07. My favorite part of your work is: ___.
CONS
08. I dislike when you draw: ___.
09. I wish you drew less: ___.
10. My least favorite part of your work is: ___.
OTHER
11. If I had to describe your work I’d say: ___.
12. If I had a question to ask about your work it’d be: ___?
13. The main strength & weakness of your work is/are: ___ & ___
Requests checklist~
Done
Click. Clack. (You may want to get started on your half of the thing. Hint hint.) Clock. Clyck.Anonymous request. Cleck.
Cluck.Requests that need to get done already.
Suggestion box! (CLOSED)
Posted 14 years agoAka. "I will draw you stuff, for free, because I feel like it."
Granted, I have one little picture to get done before I can jumpstart this, but I figured.... why not!? However, before we get started, and damn I hope you read before suggesting something, I'm gonna lay down the basics for this.
1. Simple one character requests (hovercocks optional), with no background. The requests will be coloured, but backgrounds and additional characters will have to go in favour of smooth and fast completion. I hope that's not too big of a problem.
2. I will draw adult stuff, but would prefer clean art.
3. Reference sheets help a lot. Please direct me to one if you can provide me with it, or be as descreptive as you can with your character. I want to draw as accurately as I can to match your expectations.
4. I reserve the right to say no. There are some things I just won't draw, be it some fetish or an idea I don't particularly like. If I turn you down, feel free to request something else. But don't try to force me into doing something against my will, that's just gonna piss me off. Be civil, and I'll give you a nice approach. :3
5. Be patient! I can't stress this enough. I get angry fast when I'm being pestered with questions on how the progress is going, or if you're pushing me to get it done quicker. I'll come to you with progress reports and updates. Just relax.
6. You may upload the finished product to your gallery if you wish, just give credit and it's all cool.
7. Requests go here, or in notes. No exceptions.
8. If I do something that's not a request, don't get upset. I may get an idea I wanna work on as well.
I'll keep five slots open for now. I don't want to be overwhelmed with work, since... well, this is the first time I do this. Gonna keep a few reserve slots open if I like your idea so much I wanna drown myself in more work. :3
Request status:
1. herekittehkitteh - OC (DONE) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6403006/
2. roy_mccloud - OC (DONE) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6395190
3. pdxyz - suggestive OC stuff (DONE) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6459700/
4. lucardevoir - adult OC stuffing (DONE) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6477806
5. Anyonymous request~
Reserve slots:
1. illarion_russianassassin - OC
2. smegma.king - rule 34
3. legion_beast - OC
4. godhammer - OC
Gonna update this periodically.
Regular slots are filled, but will accept a couple more if they're good.
Granted, I have one little picture to get done before I can jumpstart this, but I figured.... why not!? However, before we get started, and damn I hope you read before suggesting something, I'm gonna lay down the basics for this.
1. Simple one character requests (hovercocks optional), with no background. The requests will be coloured, but backgrounds and additional characters will have to go in favour of smooth and fast completion. I hope that's not too big of a problem.
2. I will draw adult stuff, but would prefer clean art.
3. Reference sheets help a lot. Please direct me to one if you can provide me with it, or be as descreptive as you can with your character. I want to draw as accurately as I can to match your expectations.
4. I reserve the right to say no. There are some things I just won't draw, be it some fetish or an idea I don't particularly like. If I turn you down, feel free to request something else. But don't try to force me into doing something against my will, that's just gonna piss me off. Be civil, and I'll give you a nice approach. :3
5. Be patient! I can't stress this enough. I get angry fast when I'm being pestered with questions on how the progress is going, or if you're pushing me to get it done quicker. I'll come to you with progress reports and updates. Just relax.
6. You may upload the finished product to your gallery if you wish, just give credit and it's all cool.
7. Requests go here, or in notes. No exceptions.
8. If I do something that's not a request, don't get upset. I may get an idea I wanna work on as well.
I'll keep five slots open for now. I don't want to be overwhelmed with work, since... well, this is the first time I do this. Gonna keep a few reserve slots open if I like your idea so much I wanna drown myself in more work. :3
Request status:
1.
herekittehkitteh - OC (DONE) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6403006/2.
roy_mccloud - OC (DONE) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/63951903.
pdxyz - suggestive OC stuff (DONE) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6459700/4.
lucardevoir - adult OC stuffing (DONE) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/64778065. Anyonymous request~
Reserve slots:
1.
illarion_russianassassin - OC2.
smegma.king - rule 343.
legion_beast - OC4.
godhammer - OCGonna update this periodically.
Regular slots are filled, but will accept a couple more if they're good.
So I got this that someone got from that...
Posted 14 years agoWhich basically means I did one of those personality gigs. I like those things, I'm curious about myself so much it's silly. Snagged link from 
that got it from someone else. Said link be: http://www.signalpatterns.com/psych_central
You are Original, Accessible, and Upbeat.
Original
You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.
Accessible
You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.
You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.
Upbeat
You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.
Organized
You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it's the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it's only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you're not satisfied until you reach it.
You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don't understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time.
Prudent
You look before you leap, think before you act, consider what you're about to say before you open your mouth to speak; that's why you rarely have to eat your words.
You usually don't get excited easily or blurt out the first thing that comes to mind without considering the consequences.
Introspective
You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.
You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.
Aesthetic
You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.
You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.
Laid Back
You prefer to do your own thing, in your own way, rather than attempt to force your will, or your ego, on a group. You're happy working on your own, taking your sweet time, and focusing on the job at hand.
You're not pushy. You're not interested in imposing your will on others, taking charge of every situation, being the first to raise your hand in class, or insisting on being the winner of every argument.
Self-Contained
You like to stick to your own business and leave the power struggles to others; you know who you are and what you believe in, but you don't see any reason to impose your values on everyone else.
You generally don't get involved in organizing or motivating people, and you don't feel the need to always be seen as a big public decision-maker.
Cooperative
You enjoy teamwork, play well with others, and prefer getting along to winning.
You're not compelled to win every contest nor to be right all the time.
that got it from someone else. Said link be: http://www.signalpatterns.com/psych_centralYou are Original, Accessible, and Upbeat.
Original
You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.
Accessible
You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.
You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.
Upbeat
You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.
Organized
You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it's the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it's only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you're not satisfied until you reach it.
You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don't understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time.
Prudent
You look before you leap, think before you act, consider what you're about to say before you open your mouth to speak; that's why you rarely have to eat your words.
You usually don't get excited easily or blurt out the first thing that comes to mind without considering the consequences.
Introspective
You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.
You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.
Aesthetic
You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.
You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.
Laid Back
You prefer to do your own thing, in your own way, rather than attempt to force your will, or your ego, on a group. You're happy working on your own, taking your sweet time, and focusing on the job at hand.
You're not pushy. You're not interested in imposing your will on others, taking charge of every situation, being the first to raise your hand in class, or insisting on being the winner of every argument.
Self-Contained
You like to stick to your own business and leave the power struggles to others; you know who you are and what you believe in, but you don't see any reason to impose your values on everyone else.
You generally don't get involved in organizing or motivating people, and you don't feel the need to always be seen as a big public decision-maker.
Cooperative
You enjoy teamwork, play well with others, and prefer getting along to winning.
You're not compelled to win every contest nor to be right all the time.
I've seen some shit...
Posted 14 years agoWent to a rage you lose thread on /tg/. I can only sum this up with two words.
Fuck. Life.
That is all.
Fuck. Life.
That is all.
THUNDER
Posted 14 years agoHE'S THE SAVIOUR OF THE FORESTS AND ALL THE ANIMALS!!!
Sorry, but unless you're familiar with a Swedish radioshow, that won't make any sense at all.
But yeah, first thunder thingie of the year around here, and it had to start with a lightning strike pretty close from where I live. So apart from that very sudden bolt, things were alright, and the rain poured and poured and poured. And now it's.... blue skies again. This weather is very bipolar.
Also got my Windir CDs yesterday. So far it's awesome, there's a nice mix of folk music, viking metal and black metal. If you're curious, go check it out.
Not sure how to end this little pointless update, so I'll just stop.... here.
Sorry, but unless you're familiar with a Swedish radioshow, that won't make any sense at all.
But yeah, first thunder thingie of the year around here, and it had to start with a lightning strike pretty close from where I live. So apart from that very sudden bolt, things were alright, and the rain poured and poured and poured. And now it's.... blue skies again. This weather is very bipolar.
Also got my Windir CDs yesterday. So far it's awesome, there's a nice mix of folk music, viking metal and black metal. If you're curious, go check it out.
Not sure how to end this little pointless update, so I'll just stop.... here.
Best cure for hot summer days?
Posted 14 years agoMind = blown
Posted 14 years agoListen to these three songs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZPjRTvMAptg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ibpm6YLPY_8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V4u6.....eature=related
I was shocked. And also, for the hell of it,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-_XvOAF8zk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZPjRTvMAptg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ibpm6YLPY_8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V4u6.....eature=related
I was shocked. And also, for the hell of it,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-_XvOAF8zk
Nightmares, lack of sleep, and tired...
Posted 14 years agoI haven't been able to sleep well for like a week now. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have nightmares so frequently. Last night I dreamt I was getting attacked and eaten by a lion, despite me holding it in a headlock and jamming an ice pick in its eye. It got pretty pissed about that, and then I woke up after it ripped my arm off and started chewing on my torso. After waking up and checking if all limbs were intact I went back to sleep again.
This time I was in prison. I just wanted to get out. It was a sort of claustrophobic, suffocating feel to the place, despite it being... well, not so crowded or cramped. Walls turned to glass, but I couldn't break them down no matter how hard I tried. After failing to break things down, I just sat there... looking out at the world, the world I wanted to go out into, but being unable to do so.
The subconscious mind is strange... and the way we interpret things. The prison dream feels like my struggles and fears to go out and be part of the world, like there's this invisible barrier I need to tear down. My fear and insecurity, perhaps. I think we all dread something, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem to yourself or someone else. It could be something real, or just a figment of your own imagination. When I think about it, both dreams seem to be centered around conquest. Something I need to overcome to achieve the things I want. I didn't win against the lion today, or tear down the walls... but who's to say I'll never be able to? There'll be a time when I'll overcome the obstacles. But that's not today. Today I'm just giong to relax with my friends, get my mind off things, and if I still feel like I got something left in me by the time I get home I might doodle a bit.
Do you have a lion to beat? A wall to tear down? You don't have to tell me what, but... do you also feel like there's something in life you want to overcome? I'm just curious.
This time I was in prison. I just wanted to get out. It was a sort of claustrophobic, suffocating feel to the place, despite it being... well, not so crowded or cramped. Walls turned to glass, but I couldn't break them down no matter how hard I tried. After failing to break things down, I just sat there... looking out at the world, the world I wanted to go out into, but being unable to do so.
The subconscious mind is strange... and the way we interpret things. The prison dream feels like my struggles and fears to go out and be part of the world, like there's this invisible barrier I need to tear down. My fear and insecurity, perhaps. I think we all dread something, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem to yourself or someone else. It could be something real, or just a figment of your own imagination. When I think about it, both dreams seem to be centered around conquest. Something I need to overcome to achieve the things I want. I didn't win against the lion today, or tear down the walls... but who's to say I'll never be able to? There'll be a time when I'll overcome the obstacles. But that's not today. Today I'm just giong to relax with my friends, get my mind off things, and if I still feel like I got something left in me by the time I get home I might doodle a bit.
Do you have a lion to beat? A wall to tear down? You don't have to tell me what, but... do you also feel like there's something in life you want to overcome? I'm just curious.
