it is amazing how people continue to use me and act like my friends and then get mad or offended when i retaliate against them for the sake of my own mental health, i am delusional enough as it is i dont need asswipes pretending to be my friends in order to milk me for something or to ease their own conscious

you do not love me you never loved me and i know it in my heart that you never have and that you are fucking lying to me and it kills me every single day im alive if i could afford it financially i would kill myself without even thinking about it. nobody likes me and every single one of you are either lying or somehow feel obligated to interact with me. if you can you will hang out with anybody else but me. i am the last resort. i have never been wanted in my fucking life never truly all i want is to feel that but it will never happen because somehow im inherently defective. you hardly fucking talk to me anymore, youre always with them always having fun always having a good time without me. im nothing to you, i know whats important to you and im simply not entertaining enough to make the cut and i guess im sorry that ive become so invested in you. thats my fault. please leave me to sleep forever i cannot go on this way anymore i hurt every day because i know you dont actually like or appreciate me like you say. nobody thinks im nice. i do things out of the goodness of my heart and people feel obligated to say im a nice person because of that. nobody actually believes im a nice person. im a slimey, slippery lowlife and i know thats what everyone thinks of me i know it i know it i know it im a fucked up fuckup im emotonal suicidal whiny clingy sad im too much for one person im too much for any person and you will do anything to escape me i know you will. you give me the bare minimum of attention and i want to die i want to fie i want to die i want to die i want ti die i want to die i want to die ithean wantj tido ewan tito wiant wiant want ti=od jwiaant to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die dON TTOALK O ME LIKE YOURE INTERESTED IN ANYTRHING I HAVE TO FUCKING SAY DONT TALK TO ME DONT LOOK AT ME NO NO NON O NO NO STOP DONT LOOK AT ME LEAVE ME ALONE LEAVE ME TO SLIT MY WRISTS OPEN WITH THE RAZORBLADES I HOARD IN A COPY OF IMAGININGS OF SAND LEAVE ME TO DRIP ON EvERY PAGE THE CORNUCOPIA OF EMOTIONS i fEEL ON A DAILY BASIS LEABVE M ETO DRAIN THE LIFEFORCE THAT YOU TOLD ME YOU THOUGHT WAS OS PRECIOUS WHY WOULD YOU LIE WHY WOULD YOU LIE TO ME ABOUT SOMETHING LIKE THAT WHY AM I A LIE WHY I SMY LIFE A LIE WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY ME WHY ME WHY ME WHY ME WHY ME WHY ME WHY ME I SHOULD NOT BE ALIVE. LIFE CONSTANTLY TRIES TO ASSASSINATE ME AND SO DOES MY OWN MIND I SHOULD NOT BE A LIVE IVE DONE NOTHING TO DESERVE LIFE AND YET I KEEP DODGING DEATH DODGING THE INEVITABLE DODGING WHAT IS RIGHT AND DODGING WHAT IS TRUTHFUL DODGING AVOIDING DUCKING UNDER THE TRUTH OF MY WORTHLESSNESS I AM TRASH AND I CANNOT CHANGE MY DESTINY

animal crossing

wow

wowowowowowowow im feeling good enough to play video games im so excited

there are days where i feel like im slowly losing everything and falling apart

those are fun ey

why are people seeing this stuff

this was not supposed to happen

ok so can you believe there are drawings in this gallery i actually like

yeah me neither

*careens neck backwards until it snaps open releasing a black sludge as i speak in tongues*

hey can i borrow something

sure feel awesome to not feel worthwhile at all

w/e

man this shit blows

man

im in the middle of a stupid drawing now

and im looking at all these other stupid drawings

and im just like

damn

theres some effortlessness in these shitty excuses for porn that isnt in my shitty excuses for normal drawings

what the fuck is that

that pisses me off really badly why are my regular drawings shittier than my already shitty porn this is literally rage inducing i am so pissed off right now and i want more alcohol i am actively hating myself

why cant this be with me when i try to actually do something decent natured for myself why am i not creative at all thats such bullshit

fucking hate myself

whatever

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXlD95VDqlo

*toots on a horn* is suicide viable yet

*someone dumps a bucket of water on me*

yep haha

wow thats motivational but also seriously depressing

my porn isnt even good or anything im baffled but i wanna jump off a bridge right now

lmao fml

this account legitimately makes me hate my own existence how did i get talked into this dumbfuckery

oh well

i hate everything and i dont care about anything

you know if it wasnt for my boyfriend i wouldnt be doin any of this shit lmao hahaha

life is a crazy bitch

hahahahahahahahaha