I'm back from a whirlwind of a Con, and I had a really great time.
I got up to Seatac on Tuesday, and worked with the Logistics team to load up a massive truck full of all the things that help make the con run; computers, moniters, a big server thing, and numerous other heavy things that got shrinkwrapped onto pallets. After that I spent my time wandering around the con, meeting new people, hanging with old friends, and just generally having a good time of it. I spent a large chunk of time in the tabletop gaming room again this year, and other than a few little instances of drama that room was packed and lots of fun.

At the end of the day I might not have ended up partying to the extent that I wanted to, but I did end up spending time with a lot of interesting people, and hearing a lot of interesting stories. That's what I go to rainfurrest for and this year was the best one so far. Next year seems far away, but I'm already excited for it.

As of 12 minutes ago I'm 22 years old. What even happened to that past year? Damn.

Welp, That sure was an election that happened there. It sure is fun to live in washington state in the coming months, I guess? *Shruuuug*

Anyway, Things are going at about the same pace as usual, It's started to rain near constantly which means that it's going to be a pretty typical fall and winter around here. My birthday is coming up, but since I'll be turning 22 it isn't super exciting or anything. Hope everybody has been having a pretty good time lately all around. :>

Had a fun time at Con this year, as per usual. It had a few low points but the vast majority of it was fantastic. I resolved a few lingering issues, hung out with some of my favorite people, and finally met some friends I have wanted to meet for a long time.

Making new friends was exciting too. I probably frequented the tabletop gaming room a little too much, and I got to meet a lot of people while volunteering at reg. All of that was a blast.

Never got to swim at the Con due to a lot of dumb room shenanigans and the seeming issue of something absolutely insane happening in the pool area every single day of Con. Maybe next year?

I'm sure I'll post more under this journal as I think of it, but for now I'm totally going to crash.

Hello! Just filling anyone who bothers to read this on what's going on in my life. My mom's been getting better after her accident, but still needs help getting taken care of, so every week I spend a few days at her place. That hopefully will either not change, or reduce soon. However my sister took advantage of this opportunity to go to school and get a j ob, both of which were things I was really interested in doing. Because of that, My mom lost one of the two people who was supposed to be taking care of her. I'm not really sure how to express exactly how my sister's actions have made me feel, but I guess I'd say I feel a bit... resentful? Maybe that's not it. I'm not really all that good at expressing myself.

Other news: Got new glasses today, I can finally see again decently. It's almost weird to walk around with clarity of vision at this point, but It's really nice to have.

I missed out on my little fun vacation, because plans on the other end got shifted, so I'm not going to be taking a week and a half off from helping my mom like I thought I would...

Also I'm going to go see Scott Kurtz and Kris Straub at the triple door at the end of August with a good friend, so that should be super fun.

Anything you all want to talk about? Feel free to nudge me and let's have some discourse. :>

You know, the days where you get strange urges to look at odd pornography? Those days.

So I headed out of town for the weekend and apparently I am going to be like a stone's throw from Canada. Neat.

Whoo.

So yeah, Skyrim sort of distracted me from people forever. I always give people my number so they can text me though.

Happy thanksgiving to all my USA friends, and I will have skyrim stories later.

My roommate and I got skyrim, but our TV isn't wide enough to display all of it. Even without the HD it is beautiful, but I am actually not a big fan of the Elder Scrolls Franchise. Still, I've decided that I'm going to treat it like bioshock, running around with magic in the left hand and weapons in the right, unless the situation calls for something different (Like blocking, note to self: That is important.). I like that the lockpicking is more like Fallout's lockpicking, and I also like how easy it is to favorite what you want to select and change up what you are using on the fly.

I've just started, but I am feeling optimistic about it so far.

I get really really anxious whenever I have to cancel plans with people, and feel like I am being pretty much the worst person when I back out of something. But, when every night I am getting invited to hang out with people last minute or dragged along to some social occasion I only found out a few hours prior I sort of start to go nuts because I do not have time to do any personal maintenance like clean the house or do the dishes or cook.

So today I decided to say that I was not going to be able to make it to the WOD game my DM was going to run, to do some life maintenance, but I feel pretty awful about it and I wonder if I should have just forced myself to go... Bluh.

It is hard to try to please everyone and still be happy with yourself.

So, while continuing my playthrough of Fallout: New Vegas, I realized I had never actually gone to the underground arena to finish the quests there. Deciding I had some spare time to kill while activating Veronica's quest flags, I started to go around and collect eggs for Red Lucy. It was these circumstances that led to me bringing back the last batch of eggs, deathclaw eggs and her offering to sleep with me. I shrugged, and accepted her offer, which immediately gave me a level up. We then proceeded to go to her room and get it on... Veronica followed and watched and it was sort of creepy.


In slightly related news the Great Khan Questline is broken and not letting me have them break their alliance with the legion... so.... whoops.

Been playing all the Fallout DLC lately, though I did things in the wrong order. I played Old World blues first, which was very good, and very enjoyable. I laughed quite a few times at what happened during it, and it is the one DLC I have played so far that I would actually not mind going through again a time or two.

After my antics in the big empty, My social character I created finally had one combat skill: Unarmed. The Saturnite Power fists you find there are fantastic and abundant, and can be made even better by a toaster that's hellbent on world domination, of all things.

After finishing up that DLC and having a blast, I approached the next DLC with enthusiasm, and headed for the abandoned bunker of Father Elijah in hopes of conquering the Sierra Madre. My hopes feel flatter than I could have guessed.

The first impression of the Sierra Madre, specifically the Villa, was that it was quite cool... That changed as soon as I walked away from the fountain. Everything is red, everything, and the monsters were sort of terrifying at first what with my lack of good weaponry, and the way they hopped around and ran at me in droves. As I got the companions (The only good part of the villa honestly, I liked all of them, even Dean Domino. Also, For reference I was torn between having Dog be Dog and be God... But that eventually worked itself out.)) The entire place is filled with booby traps (Not an issue if you have God), Poison gas (Mitigated by Dean), and radios that will make you explode and are the hugest pain in the ass I have had to deal with in a long time (barely mitigated by Christine.). After going through this long arduous process of getting the companions then escorting them places, and dying to radios more often than I'd like to admit, and getting a gauntlet that's a beartrap that snaps when you punch enemies, I finally got in the casino itself.

Guess what? Surprise surprise it plays just like the villa did except there is less red, and the are these Holograms that don't seem dangerous until suddenly they turn bright red and start shooting beams out of their faces. The best part of the DLC was when I left the Sierra Madre with seven gold bars in my pocket. Seven out of... well... a lot more, but still... I am never going to need caps again.


I just started Honest hearts, and I don't know how I feel about it yet. It's not BAD like Sierra Madre was, but it's not as fun and enjoyable so far as the Big empty. Still, Joshua Graham seems quite cool, and the story is being expanded really well...


I'll report back to you all once I've conquered Utah and finished walking that Lonesone Road.

Peace.

He's pretty awesome and you should look him up on youtube. That's it.

The DP thing has ran it's course. I'm doing well enough. In a band now. It's alright, we could be better.

Could use some recommendations of movies, TV shows, and music to listen to, that way I can pop some more stuff on the PS3 than the entirety of Daria.

Oh man guys. I just want you to know how much I love DP. It is pretty much my new favorite thing. I have been spending so much time watching and reading about DP lately. It is just so obscene.

You know I mean Deadly Premonition, right?

Basically I "work" for my mom. Yes I know it's not a real job. It also hardly pays any money so any criticism you have can go away for right now there are more important things to talk about in this post.

Anyway, while she goes to work for twelve hours, I am at her place cleaning, doing dishes, taking care of domestic stuff, as well as the animals, and making sure dinner is ready... or breakfast... when she gets home.

Now, because my mom is working like 84 hours a week right now ( 7 days a week, 12 hour days) with strange rotating shifts between dayshift and nightshift that won't make much sense until the mill is running properly, I am stuck for a good amount of time at her place, staying in my old bedroom, having no social life.

There are benefits to this as well, the bed is more comfortable, and I have less time to think about things that would upset me, but that's neither here, nor there.

The end result of this however is I feel like I do not get to spend time with any of my friends, which makes me look like some kind of huge jerk. Not to mention all the spare time I get off is usually already set up for me to be doing something.

How the hell am I supposed to balance this and a social life?

Speaking of social life, I had the weekend off because I was invited to go to Sakura-con. I went. It was fun. I met a lot of homestuck cosplayers, attended a panel about persona, and ALMOST got to participate in a foam sword tournament but I didn't get to because of time constraints. Oh, also I played duck duck goose, musical chairs, and a game called ninja.

But yeah, if I am not online much, the reason is: WORK... well.. it's barely work, but whatever.

Wow. You post on one FA group to say that you're a rat and all of a sudden you get swarmed by the dang things and swept away in a tide of rodentine curiosity. Not that I mind. I have actually been looking to spend time with rats; so I suppose this is a favorable outcome. It does make some sense to have this weird sense of camaraderie if I stretch it and say that rats generally live in packs of sorts? Either way, good times in Ratmont High.

How is everyone doing lately? I know that I have a tendency to not post anything, but I'm still doing fine, everything in my life is going pretty well, and I hope it's doing the same for you. A lot of things have been going on, but nothing I really feel like talking about now, but It's been nice to chat with all of you when I get the time.

It is ludicrous how much time I lose to work. All the time, all of it.

RL stuff came up so I am delaying the next part. Whoop whoop.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four:Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.


Alright. Let's get down to business... Seven things that cross my mind a lot... I think I can manage that,

1. What are my plans for the day?

2. I really need to get a job...

3. Some people waste too much time getting good at things that aren't even important.

4. I wonder how X is doing, I have talked to them in a long time.

5. I am amazed at some of the things we have these days.

6. So many people talking to me all at once! Aaagh!

7. I could really go for some Y right now...

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four:Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.


Okay, so It's day three time. Eight ways to win my heart. I'm going into this thinking 'oh god I can't even think of one way' but I am pretty sure it'll be easy for me to come up with 8 ways in the long run, I suck like that.

1. Play a musical instrument, or be good at singing. I'm a huge sucker for musicians, whoops.

2.Be romantic. I am a pretty romantic, I like romance. I like the idea of dating, of going out on a moonlit stroll, of dinner by candlelight.

3. I'm a sucker for a dude with a shaved head, where it still has like, the stubby hairs. I could rub that all day long if a guy wouldn't object to it, I mean damn.

4. Be open minded. Just...seriously. do it.

5. Be forgiving. I make mistakes.

6. Be able to converse, even when unhappy or angry, like a calm, rational person. If You can't adequately express your feelings about something then how are things going to work in the long run between us. I really hate getting into fights with people.

7.Be kind. It means a lot to me when I see that someone is a really nice guy. You don't have to be an angel, I like my guys to have a bit of an edge to them too, but it helps to not be a complete dick all the time either.

8. Give me space when I need it, and spend tiem with me when I feel alone.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four:Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.





Day Two: Nine things about myself. Well..shit. I'm hypercritical so Instead of like harping on every single miniscule flaw I have, I'm going to like...choose my words more carefully or something I guess.

1. I tend to ramble and carry on and choose really complicated ways to explain simple things and I'm a bit long winded I guess but that's pretty much the same thing and oh god punctuation fail.

2. I really, really enjoy cooking. It's so awesome, you have no idea.

3. If I can smell food, oftentimes I can taste it, without having taken a bite of it.

4. I am really computer retarded, and require a great deal of handholding for tasks some people might consider easy, because Derrrrrp.

5. I'm afraid of Power outages. Seriously. Also Needles.

6. Hate Sports games. Love Puzzle games and RPGs, VERY bad at shooting games (Turn friendly fire off if you plan on playing with me)

7. I have moved out of my mom's place and am trying pretty hard to get a job

8. I'm kind of a hypocrite. Like, kind of a lot of one.

9. I am god fucking AWFUL at talking about myself. This meme was a stupid idea, now I have to finish it. Fuuuuck.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four:Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.


Okay, So from what I gather day one is like... anonymous vague statements that people are probably going to misinterpret as referring to them. I can dig it. Let's be ambiguous. Also let's watch me get halfway done with this thing and never finish. Hell yeah.

Okay, without further ado, DAY ONE:

1. It's your fault I have such a negative view on such a large group of people. I love you, but I also hate you, and that's really tough for me.

2.It's so nice to have someone to talk to that makes me feel as awesome as you do. Thanks.

3.We've known each other for a long time and even though our friendship has been on and off it speaks volumes about your character that you stay friends with em, and I really appreciate that.

4. There is no nice way to say this, but I've had you blocked for about a year and a half, and I think you need to move on, because I really don't want to talk to you.

5.I worry about you, and about all the boyfriends you've had. Stop dating people because you pity them and start dating people because you LIKE them, maybe even LOVE them. It kills me to see you with these pity boyfriends, and it's cruel to them too.

6.I know you don't want to do it, but for my sake, go see a doctor. Please. Your health is obviously getting worse, do something about it.

7. I've always resented you a little bit, but I know you're a pretty nice guy. You've netted yourself a keeper, so don't fuck it up.

8.You can NOT read my mind, you do NOT know what I am thinking, and you are NOT the judge of whether I am happy or not. Why don't you worry about your OWN problems and mind your OWN business, instead of worrying about me? I'd really appreciate it, thanks.

9.I don't like you just because you draw things, I like you because you're actually a pretty cool person, and you and your friend are slowly starting to change my opinions on that large group of people I mentioned earlier.

10. I've had a crush on you since I met you, pretty much. A few long years of pining over something I couldn't have, occasionally tasting the forbidden fruits you had to offer, then going right back to pining. I've decided to try to move past it. I have better things in my life now, things that are important to me, people that are important to me that I can actually have. I'm going to stop letting this little fantasy drive me crazy and start to move away from it. Thanks for all the time we spent together, though.


Okay! That's done with! A few of those were for real life people, but a good chunk was for internet people. I can't wait to see everybody who reads this (one or two people) Immediately starting to go like, "IS THIS MEANT FOR ME?" Because yeah... It's happened to me before,