Ive updated my profile a little bit but not much to make a difference. I am thinking of getting rid of a bunch of useless photos on here like the bracelets and acrylic art. Im not active on here. Ive lost like all my furry friends I had but ya know, life happens.

I guess I can say, I live in an apartment with my bestfriend and his dog that I claim is mine now. Her name is Lexi and she's Boxer. I work in fast food unfortunately and hate my job but there's not many jobs here unless you work in Healthcare. Ive been a CNA and its just not for me.

Ive tried crocheting and I just get bored with any project I start. I wish I could make stuff I see other furries making. Id love to sell stuff on the side but my art skills sucks. So im just at a loss in this world.

If anyone stumbles across my page and makes it this far. Im proud of you. Anyway, hit me up. Id like some new friends to talk to.

What's up my fellow watchers? ^_^

Do you even check this profile to see what I'm up too? Do you even miss me?

I just wanted to get away if that makes any sense. I'm tired of this bullshit and I need to do what's right for me whether it be respect or something else.

You can take away everything but you can not take my dignity, pride, strength or integrity. I will not back down. I will certainly say, "Fuck it, I'm done" cause your just wasting my time and effort that isn't anything to me.

You thought you knew me... Naww you don't know jack shit about me.

Just wanted to make an update and see who wanted to comment lol School is driving me nuts right now and I dont wanna do it but .... I must... So come by and say Hai! lol

“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.” Buddha

I'm thinking about making hemp necklaces and bracelets to sell. Only thing I need is more hemp and beads, especially paw print breads. I could even possibly do dog tags, it would lil more but it's be cute and worth it =] What ya think?

Not moving till tomorrow at 7am.

I finally got to 666 XD I'm not satanist I was just happy and bored. WHATS UP!!!!!!!!

This is an old poem I found on an old myspace account on March 28th, 2008


Leave me alone in this pain I desire
It’s not like it can go any higher
Taking it’s toll on me
Tell me to just let it be
Nothing can replace the pain
Sitting here in the cold rain
Her heart fainting to a slight beat
Living on the cold hard street

Having this pain I Desire
Singing a church Choir
Hearing the bells sound
As my head goes round and round
Living till death
As i take my final breathe
One last look
At the world as if it was a book
Reading the final page
Finally being let out of a cage

Letting go of everything I had
Looking back on what was so bad
Watching ones i love cry
Crossing over as i slowly died
The world flashing before my eyes
Being able to hear all the cries
Hold my head from the sound
Wishing to feel the ground

After the first week of school. I get fucking SICK! I have no insurance so i'm fucked. Sore throat sucks. I think im getting worse but im trying to make it stop!

I'm going to force myself to school even when sick.

(Found this on my myspace blog, I wrote it 2 years ago and never continued it)

I wake up on a cold wintry morning, standing up and walking to the entrance to the cave, looking at the beautiful snowy white trees. I sniff the air and stretch my front to my back legs. I look around to see nothing insight, not even a paw print imprinted in the snow. I walk through the snowy wonder land, listening carefully for anything suspicious.

I hear a twig crack and i turn my head and there stood another wolf, crossing on my territory. He was looking straight at me with demonic red eyes, flashing his fangs. I thought to myself that he was quite sexy but he was on my territory. I faced him with a calming look and yelled "What are you doing here?" He responded in a rough tone "Why do you care?"

I started to slowly back away from him as he came toward me, I replied calmly "You are on my territory, This is my warning. I am a lone wolf and I wish it to stay that way." He looked at my angrily, responding "I will not take orders from you! I will do what I wish.." I suddenly changed in mood from calm to anger. I stared at him and made a low growl, trying to hopefully make him back off. He yelled again speaking in a scary voice this time, "You do not scare me girl! You should be running away right now like all the rest I have come across."

I stood my ground, letting him know that I wasn't going to move. Feeling the winter wind blow through my fur like grass. A few minutes of just staring at each other, the other wolf backed down showing gratitude for my efforts by saying, " Well...I shall not hurt you this time because you have been brave enough to stand up to me when, especially since your a female." I looked at him with surprise and respond, "Well thank you for not causing any problem and for respecting me.

Was a fuckin Blast!!!!!!!!!!!

I saw Anti Flag <3, Drop Kick Murphys, The Casualties, Some other punk band...(Was walking around), Eyes Set To Kill, Bring Me The Horizon (and almost got killed), Suicide Silence, and some other metal band, Automatic loveletter (SUCKS!)

Why is it that my grandpa is always mad at me... Even if I look at him... -sighs-
I might as well go back to Virginia... seriously... I didn't come here to be treated like this or shit.

And Now my grandma is talking about me to him behind my back... How fucking lovely. Thank god I'm leaving tomorrow for 3 days... ^_^

Everyone is full of shit anyway...

Eminem - Not Afraid

"I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid) to take a stand (to take a stand)
Everybody (everybody) come take my hand (come take my hand)
Well walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let'n you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'mma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'mma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now"



(I'm so happy he came back with a strong song like this, He's always been like a hero to me. Now I can stand on two feet again. When everyone else falls I'll still be standing. You'll never understand what I've been through, nor would you even care. I've changed back to my old self. I will not tak e any shit from anybody. I'mma fight for what I believe in. You want to talk shit. Say it!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpB4CU7EQxE

Ever since one night... I'm now back to being myself, constantly thinking how this world sucks and why am I here. What is the purpose of living... Not everyone lives the dream they want. I'm a girl who stares out the window for hours even if I'm not thinking. I'm sick of people saying that they know what it's like when they don't even know... I just want to throw my life away like I did once before for 2 years. "I do it for the drugs, I do just to feel alive!" - Smile Empty Soul. I wish I was heartless again and didn't care about anyone in the world. There was no drama at all =]

Well last night almost turned into a complete wreck because when I got home from the hookah bar my two friends came over while my bf was already there and so I was slapped in the ass soo hard I got up and started crying. I left my room and went to my fathers and my bf found me and was like "cmon get up" and then I tried locking myself in the bathroom but then I gave up since I knew the my friend was alot stronger and could just pull me over his shoulder. And also was when My friend tried to get my bf to let me play GH3 on first player but then threaten my bf that if he didn't then his shoes were going to be thrown outside. My bf kept it up and my friend kicked one shoe off the railing onto the slightly snowy ground then the other one. Then I decided to take a shower, My two friends decided to talk in there well my bf was out in my room play ps3. Here's where everything got fucked up...: When I got out of the shower my bf was gone! I looked to see if he grabbed his shoes and he did and left. I called him and he was like "Oh so Eric isn't standing next to you calling me too" ,thing is is that I was down stairs while Eric was upstairs. I got really pissed and Eric apologized many times to me and after he'd left I called my bf again and he did pick up. I told him eric and his girl left and if he wanted to come back he could. He was just like "Ok... right.." Then I was just on my computer and my dog slightly barked and then 5 minutes my bf walks into my room and I'm just like "WTF!" then we went to bed....

It's 1:31am and I don't feel good... I'm thinking it the sandwich I had at Glory Days but I'm not sure.... Maybe I'm finally getting sick... I have no idea... I'm tired and I have to get crap from the store tomorrow and clean my room and the house to make daddy happy... I have another idea for a drawing but its probably going to take sometime before its something I haven't drawn before. XP But Now .... I go night night. BYEEEE

I am finally back into drawing!!! But it's not really my passion.. I don't know what my passion is anymore but I am able to be inspired again to draw XP