I just found out that the voice actor for Lord Frieza, Christopher Ayres died in his sleep. In 2017, he was diagnosed with end-stage COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease) and needed a double lung transplant to continue living. I guess it only delayed the inevitable as it was announced yesterday through his twitter account.

It is a horrible pain to know that the voice of one of my favourite villains is gone. 😭😭😭

I don't know if Linda Young could fill in for future roles, or if someone else can. But there's only one Christopher Ayres. May he be happy with the Teddy bears amd marching bands, assuming that's his idea of heaven, rather than Frieza's life in Hell.

Christopher Ayres (1965-2021)

https://www.ladbible.com/entertainm.....at-56-20211020

Its been 20 years since 9/11 happened. I remember watching the news as a child, struggling to grasp what was going on when this happened. I probably kept switching channels between this and thinking that this couldn't be real.

But it was.

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My football club decided to have us do a two minute silence to honor the lives lost that day

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Still can't fully grasp why all this happened.

I’ve been playing in my Xbox 360 over the last couple of weeks. I’ve learned that there’s going to be a server shutdown on December 21st for Halo games. Check this video for the full story. But basically it means that if you want to get all the achievements for Halo Xbox 360 games. Nows the time to get them. Lots of features are going to stop permanently.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNERV2-hk8U

This is why I’m playing games with this discord group. They’ll help you with whatever achievements you haven’t got yet. It’s been helpful and fun to work with other players. My only regret is not getting Spartan Assault on the 360, I don’t think it’s available anymore ;-(. It’s still available on the Xbox one though.

https://discord.gg/Dqgh9tGy

It’s not just halo either, Rockstar is shutting down all servers on December 16th

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z6N3rpHqWDw

I will look for a new discord group for Rockstar achievements.

It’s the first day of August and it’s been a while since I posted a journal.

I meant to inform that I passed on all my assignments, some barely, others with good marks.

I also had been experiencing problems with my office cleaner job as I hadn’t been paid for May and June and, come to think of it, I haven’t made my invoice for July. I better get to it afterwards. I found out why. My boss’s brother was in a car accident and she was focused on his well-being. Ouch, that’s not good. I still have my weekend job, thank goodness.

My football training has finished and will not come back until September. Luckily I can attend football games at the Stadium, where I volunteer as a steward cleaning up the rubbish left behind by the fans. I also get twice the money I originally get. Yippee.

I feel behind on things I should’ve done a long time ago…

Today I’m now 32. 32 years old now. I’m having a much more positive birthday compared to last year.

My parents got me personal license plates for my car, my sister from Italy has given me a new shirt and mother made me a cake. We went to a pub and I had a tomato soup, followed by halloumi cheese with grilled pineapple burger. Delicious!

It’s not all positive though, my router has arrived as promised but after setting it up my WiFi is still not fixed. I also still have work to do with various things.

I feel like tomorrow will be very busy.

I got my Covid-19 vaccine at last!

It’s been a long time since I made a real journal. But here goes.

I’m using my iPad to write this as my Mac is still not working properly. I sent it to an independent technician, thinking that’s more cheaper and reliable. The good news is that my Mac can now functioning, but it’s restarting frequently, even if I just leave it alone, saying that it’s experienced a problem and needs to restart. I need to get back in touch with him.

I’ve moved home again, this time I’m hoping for much less monthly costs but time will tell if my parents’ new strategy will work out.

I’ve recently joined a fitness program with the intention of getting rid of the overweight feeling I have experienced in just constantly eating. This is a bootcamp sort of training, where I also have to change the meals I eat, if I can get my parents to accept the new recipes I was given. I did one of them but it’s not enough IMO.

Next week is my birthday and we are going to a pub to celebrate. If not for COVID-19, I would probably invite more people.

I’m still thinking about my finances, even though my parents say to me repeatedly that I don’t need money. I’ve got two home projects to complete, one is a side story involving Campolina, to give a bit of her backstory, but also to give a bit of development between herself and her master.

The other is for YouTube, during the unpacking, I found a newspaper published on the day I was born. This was something my late grandad did for both me and my estranged sister. I somehow still have mine, don’t think my sister did. No matter. I just took a look at it and now, I need to work out which camera to use.

May the 4th be with you!

For the last several months I’ve been learning much about biology, chemistry, environmental, forensic and other types of science. I enjoyed learning a lot and I look forward to the days I can debate and discuss subjects to learn new facts with my tutors.

I look forward to another lab session in May. All the time I spent pretending to do the lab reports with just sheets of paper and just YouTube videos were a struggle for me to do the labs properly.

I have another exam next week on Tuesday morning. I plan to revise more and more to make sure I get the facts clear. I also got my previous exam results and I passed with more than half my marks, according to another website in the university. I just feel like why did I have to wait for this?

Recently I watched a BBC Panorama episode about fly tipping. It’s clear to me that we have a serious crisis in regards to our waste disposal. When even licensed waste disposal organisations can’t be trusted. Last I checked, if you hire someone to dispose of the rubbish and they fly tip. You can be liable to be charged and convicted for fly tipping if you can’t show who did this. This is something you can either educate the public about or have to experience first hand. Not something I appreciate either way.

I talk about this as there’s a possibility for me to get the street cleaner job still, as the person they wanted to hire has left the job.

Last night my cat disappeared for most of the day. I went looking for her for hours to no avail. The good news is that she’s home now. The bad news is that it’s clear she’s been caught in something, a barbed wire? I don’t know. She’s hurt but not severe. Thank goodness.

As for COVID, my sister and my nephew got the virus. So far, both are ok. My parents also got the vaccine and will get the second one in time. I’ve yet to get mine but I will soon.

It’s been a while. I’m doing another laboratory session this week and the next. My first one was stressful enough. I got my mark on it and it was 50/100. This qualifies as a pass, but it’s still not something to brag or be proud of. I don’t know how everyone else did. This is feedback and I should make sure I check on what to do for my other lab report to make sure I don’t repeat the same mistakes.

I’m still waiting for my exam results. They’re taking longer then I expected. Not a pleasant experience. Its getting worse, my tutor has given me a practice assessment that is part of another exam on April. The questions are a nightmare to say the least. Even one of my fellow university students who’s years ahead of me in chemistry is finding these questions extremely hard to do and they’re multiple choice questions. To me, it’s not enough to make a guess and hope for the best, I need to understand how I come to this conclusion that makes me believe that this is the right answer.

It’s snowing where I am, that’s the only positive thing I can really say.

I’m moving house, the lease is going to be signed and I’m starting the process of moving items into my flat.

I want to say that my landlord's son is a good man and I can get along with him. But today he's gone a bridge too far with me.

A few weeks ago he told me that I was leaving my thermostat too low and that I was risking damp and mould to develop, which I can understand, but he did so by entering into my flat without my permission. My parents and I were displeased to say the least.

Today he has done so again and it's because he found my ipad chargers plugged in and complained about it being a fire hazard. He was worried that I run the risk of causing an electrical fire through a faulty device.

I felt violated, because he went into my home without my knowledge or consent and I handled my response badly, my parents felt there was a communication failure between him and all three of us and they felt that how things weren't handled well either but the damage is done.

Now, I've been given a month to pack my stuff and leave. My parents told me he was unstable and he and I have a history of disputes because of the way he lived and his history wasn't very positive, as well as how he ran his flat.

Yet, I also feel responsible for the way I did things. I wasn't very stable and I did cry a few times there due to the stressful nature of Covid-19, exams and university, I did try to correct problems but I think I should have been able to do things better, not helped by my impulse instinct to respond and I wasn't a good talker of disputes. I'm seeking help and I know that I will be attending some therapy sessions.

Either way, I had hoped that I could've moved home without animosity between him and I, but that's simply not happening. Had my application to the shared ownership been successful, I probably would have been more positive. Now, it's a dark day.

I’ve done my exam. I found the experience extremely nerve racking. Quite a few questions that I swear Weren’t covered in my lectures. More worryingly was that there were 50 questions, not 15. Following my submission of my answers I misread the first question thinking that I got it wrong. Double checking it I’m now confident that I got that one right. There’s just too much stress of it all, triple checking your questions to make sure you got them correct, finding parts that you just can’t remember and as you look back, you realise a question you answered may be have been answered incorrectly. Nothing can be done now, waiting for my results is still scary, I need to get at least 20 out of 50 to get a pass. I feel like I need to get 35 correct to really pat myself on the back.

I’ve returned to my flat and I’ll start moving more of my belongings back in. But lectures return next week. I have a bad backache and I feel horrible.

It’s been nearly two weeks since my last journal, and I’ve been overwhelmed by the amount of things to think about. I doesn’t help that my MacBook is still broken from a hardware failure so I’m typing this from an iPad.

I have an exam tomorrow regarding chemistry ⚛️. The amount of time I spent revising the subjects we covered over the days has been significant. Yet, because of my struggle with procrastination I feel like I haven’t done enough. The exam is a 15 minute multi choice exam.

The topics that I will be involved in are atoms, elements, orbitals, ionisation, bonding elements, organic chemistry 🧪, alkanes, alkenes, alkynes, chemical reactions, to name of the top of my head.

I’m confident on my understanding of orbitals, elements, and what alkanes, alkenes and alkynes are and I should understand how bonding works, but I still think there are parts I need to check again. Like the difference between a covalent and ionic bond.

There’s also the fact that that I will be doing the exam at home. The whole system is in uncharted waters due to COVID-19.

I still haven’t heard anything about the new house. I’m no stranger to remembering to applying for things and not hearing back. I still hope to get the new house.

I recently joined a U.K. based Facebook group that wants to help people with finding the right side hustle, something that can help me with finding a way to help me out with a purpose that can be useful in the morning and maybe in the evening.

I hope that there are people who can help me retain my confidence, and my mental well-being.

All this, even without the MacBook hardware crash has taken a lot of mental energy. I still want to write stuff with my characters. But I have no idea what to write. Maybe some small time stuff, I don’t know.

Wish me luck on my exam, guys. Tomorrow morning is the time.

Happy New year to you all.

Just before the new year's day, we have been hit with another tragic moment.

Tom Kane, one of Star Wars most prominent voice actors, has suffered a massive stroke and has left him unable to speak.

Mark Hamill wishes us all to pray for a full recovery.

https://www.msn.com/en-gb/entertain.....ne/ar-BB1cokBO

There’s an overwhelming amount of things that have been happening in my life that I didn’t get around to talk about.

I’ve got an exam on Wednesday 13th involving chemistry and I’ll need to revise my exams.

We are looking for a passive Christmas this year with family coming over, but with COVID-19, we had to make the uneasy decision not to bring them over. I was hoping to invite my next door neighbour to the Christmas dinner, but he has someone else coming over. There are times where a last minute cancellation just aggravates me to no end.

I did mention of a job I hoped to get involving cleaning up my town, I didn’t get the job. Sigh, sometimes I just can’t seem to get a lucky break. I did take part in a litter picking event that was thinking of the hedgehogs. I filled up quite a lot of bags.

My parents and I have applied for a new house, which is still a short distance away from each other, slightly further but still a liveable distance. It’s much nicer than my flat and looks more fresh and has a second floor. Best of all the monthly costs will decrease by a significant amount if all goes to plan. Still, it’s got some competition.

When all is said and done, I want to make 2021 a more positive year, but I’m not holding my breath. I think it’s going to get worse before it gets any better.

Perhaps I can share a few things I find online?

Just learned that Jeremy Bulloch has died from complications with Parkinson's Disease.

Rip the greatest bounty hunter in the Galaxy! (16 February - December 17 2020)

I really really hated 2020.

Well my term in university is all but over and I managed to get my assignments done, but barely.

I had to submit a poster project on a subject and I chose "Deforestation" as my subject. I'll probably post it here if I want to. Don't think I hit the mark with it but my fingers are crossed for at least a decent score.

The other assignment was a lab report for a broad bean, where I planted a broad bean inside a makeshift plastic bottle. I think I managed to write a good lab report with a few online references, but I wasn't satisfied with the results and didn't think we had enough data to test our hypothesis. Oh well. I just hope I do well.

But before I submitted my assignments, I was experiencing massive amounts of stress, and after finally submitting the assignments did I get overwhelmed by nausea and then I lost my dinner.

I was groggy and sick. But that wasn't the worst of it. My mac book has crashed again and this time it's got a folder with a question mark on it when I start it up instead. I'm told this is a hardware problem, in which my mac book cannot connect with the hard drive. This is without a doubt the most upsetting development. The good news is that my university work is on a separate laptop. So I haven't lost any university related materials.

But my mac book has crashed after two months I got it fixed and I don't know if it's repairable or I should buy another mac book.

Now I've seen everything!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZ0viMxYDA4

Just learned the David Prowse, the man who played Darth Vader has now become one with the Force.

RIP Darth Vader 01/07/35- 28/11/20.

https://www.starwars.com/news/david-prowse

I just learned that Kirby Morrow, who voiced Cyclops (and Goku, Dragonball) in X-Men evolution (2000) died aged 47.

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowb.....es-age-47.html

Norm Spencer who also voiced Cyclops (and Drax) in the X-Men animated series (1992) in August 31st.

https://www.cbr.com/x-men-animated-.....-spencer-dead/

Just yesterday David Hemblo, who voiced Magneto in the 1992 animated series has passed aged 79.

https://movieweb.com/david-hemblen-.....x-men-magneto/

Just shocked. I can’t say anything about it.

Over the last couple of months, my university time has been seriously taking a lot of my brainpower, not helped by my worries about affording my flat costs.

I've been going through lectures on atoms, ions, elements, mass molars, balancing equations on Chemistry, learning about various ions, and how we test them. Learning about cells, their structures, their components, and learning how each component works in eukaryotic and prokaryotic cells. Recently my university is adopting some kind of laboratory simulation program called Labra, which simulates lab experiments and giving us quizzes to answer. A couple of these simulations take place on Mars and Titan, implying that we will colonise them in a decade or two. As a boy, I always wanted to go to outer space.

There's a lot of stress in learning everything, maintaining my timetables, and my appointments with my support assistants. What's really stressful is trying to do what's called Moodle Quizzes and not losing my mind in wondering if I get the right answers or more importantly not getting stressed out over trying to know what I'm supposed to remember and know. It makes me feel absolutely not confident in passing the exams I know I'll be taking at the end of the course.

It's not helped that there are no shortages of financial worries in my head. Despite my parents' reassurance and their finances, my desire to make money online on a number of things has caused a lot of arguments between my parents and the results are nothing short of horrible. The less I say about them the better, all I want is to sort out my list of things I can do to help myself in the near term. What's more disconcerting is that my parish council advertised a job as a street cleaner for my village and chances I'll be getting the job as I have an interview on Friday. I'm just worried that my studies will be affected by the job. What's more is that I managed to arrange my local surgery to get me to clean their car park of litter every fortnightly, paying me £20 for each cleanup. I've done a great job clearing up the litter there, but I haven't been paid yet. It's not yet the end of the month and already I'm interested in finding another car park that's just a short walk, or drive, to clean up for Saturday, but time, as well as looking into the subject will tell. What's also happened is that my boss for my weekend office cleaning job has found another client for me in the town I live nearby and is interested in seeing if it works for me. This will mean more money but I'm not convinced it's going to be enough. Still, I need to take time to adjust, otherwise, I'll overwhelm myself and I've already been down that road...

This afternoon, my mother and I took the dogs for a walk around a park a ten minutes drive from where we live, and during that time we decided to take a different path to found a large quantity of litter and large junk scattered around which I felt annoyed by and I wished I had my grabber and sacks to clean up the mess left there. I hope to get that place cleaned up. The Week reported less litter found but ITV says that facemasks are contributing to the plastic pollution crisis.

I did do some more cooking last weekend and I'll post the pictures later on.

On the subject of uni, one of my homework projects is to create a poster on a science subject and I decided to tackle deforestation. My written material isn't scientific, just filled with emotional claims that may not be all true. So I need to get refernces to support my claims. What's strange, is that they want me to take research in my subject from a non-white scientist, i.e. a black, hispanic, asian or some other ethic background that's not Caucasian. I find it bizarre, but I'm not really complaining.

This poster project is deadlined on 10th December, so while I have time, I can't afford to procastinate on the subject. Which is why my mum ordered a book and a tomato shaped egg timer to test "The Pomodorro" method.

Today’s Halloween is a sad day as one of my favourite actors has slept his final night at the age of 90. Most people remember him as James Bond, or as Indiana Jones’ father. I personally remember him playing a dragon in Dragonheart

I like dragons.

My MacBook has suffered a malfunction due to some update I tried but didn’t work for some reason. Next thing I know was that my Mac wouldn’t let in past the login stage. It was upsetting. I didn’t properly back up all my stuff. My electrician has no choice but to factory reset.

The good news is that my written stuff such as Isaia Sanfilippo bio is still intact on both my iPhone and iPad, and my passwords are written on a book so I can login still when I get it back.

University wise, I’m in a real struggle to keep up with my studies. I managed to get a new laptop but I can only use it for university work. I still haven’t managed to get all the software and stuff to work to my studies, yet. On the other hand, money wise, I managed to get my local surgery to pay me for cleaning up their car park of litter. However, my parents insist I’m overcommitting myself and I won’t be able to cope if I keep up with this. It’s frustrating to think I need to do something to help my financial well-being and it’s hard, not helped that my parents keep telling me I don’t need money or another income. With coronavirus, I keep thinking P the economy is going to get worse.

Tomorrow morning is the first day of my University course. I'm doing an environmental science course as I'm very concerned about the environment as I believe everyone else should be.

This is at a time where I am most needed to help with the world and I hope to make a difference to people who need it most.

For the last few months what I've been trying to do is start some kind of business opportunity online. The last few months haven't been good. I have lost a bit of money in a failed strategy and it doesn't help that my mentor who was supposed to help me with the business has abandoned me.

Since then I went through what many entrepreneurs would call "Shiny Object Syndrome". In other words, I have no clarity and no structure in place to run a successful online. I had hoped to make money online through Affiliate marketing and my head doesn't want to give up in finding something I can do to help me achieve financial independence. My parents say that this course will help me land a 5 figure job. I hope so and then I could help with the environment. That's kinda what I want to do with the world.

Unfortunately, with the university tomorrow, I have no choice but to put a business venture in the back seat for who knows how long. I've gone through too much in my life. I hope I can find the right people at the university and I hope that one day. I'll no longer worry about being helpless and in fact, can make an impact on the environment. I'll probably post a journal but I also have a blog on Blogspot, so feel free to check there. I've posted a few more articles.