So, my birthday is in 7-8days from now, but Im definitely NOT looking forward to it. Ill be turning 28, and more than likely wont even have anyone hang out with or anything. Just another bad birthday, is all. 11th year in a row ><

If i get even just 1 gift in any form, Ill be utterly shocked, but happy for once.

any coloradans out there on telegram? join the gaycoloradofurs group ^^


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So, as things have been dwindling for me, i found some people I really care about. But my phone time ends in 2 days and I have to stay in touch with them..They are willing to help me get my life back.

So here comes my proposition;


im selling my services to buy myself more phone time, this requires meeting up irl, so im calling out to other furs in colorado. if you want to know, send me a note.

Im not proud of what im trying to do for this but that shows how serious I am about fixing my life.

Yaaay

Https://telegram.me/gayCOfurs

I've been working on stories from 3 different series I made..aaaand have a few yummy right out naughty random stories near completion ;) Stayed tuned boys and stock up on the lube ;D <3

I can't stand being here anymore, I keep getting harassed by the police department here and I 've began having breakdowns way too often... I'm begging anybody who can come take me away from here.. Preferably out of Colorado for that matter.

lll look for work and help out around whoever's house with cooking/cleaning until I get a job.

Please :( I'm so scared that if I stay here much longer, something really bad will happen..-whispers fearfully-

Just letting you guys now im still on telegram, Koriek (Tsaikun) ^^

Hey guys i have Telegram messenger in my phone now ^^

Koriek if anyone wanta to chat or anything :D

Things on my end have finally eased up somewhat. A little is betterthan nothing, right? Anyway, my depression has nearly been fixed, yay~ i went and saw a psychiatrist, and was put on prozac xD money situation is still rough and i am still living at my uncle's house. Thinking about getting checked for bipolar (to make it officiall) and some other head things :P umm.. what else...

I think thats it for now ^^

Stay safe you guys, and be well!~ <3<3

so heres another update on whats happening on my end of 'life'.

i had been kicked out from where i was living a few months ago, and had no choice but to move 50something miles from Lamar to a tiiiiiny town called haswell here in Colorado. population here is literally about 30 people :/. Ask any coloradoan and they will tell you that this place isn't even on the map anymore i think. I am still looking for work but now i have to travel 25 to 52 miles in any direction to even apply anywhere. -sigh- not to mention trying to get gas money for my aunt to let me drive her Jeep that far.

I desperately need to get out of Colorado and get everything settled. Living in the middle of buttfuckegypt like this has eroded my once solid grasp on my sanity. but now.. i really worry about what might happen if i cant get out.

i would ask if anybody close to southeastern colorado or anyone near colorado period could help move me out and in with themselves, so that i could go out and find a job eazier but.. i dont want to sound like im just asking a free handout or anything like that, because being that kind of person really goes against who i am.

can anybody who reads this please send this journal out to everyone they know that would be interested in helping me out, even just helping me find out about any and all available work between Lamar CO up to La Junta CO? I would be greatly in anyones debt that could this for me.


I'll try to update/answer notes/answer comments again as soon as i can. Hope to hear from you guys again soon!

just letting everyone know im still kickin xD still no internet though x.x im using a friends phone real quick to do this journal. will try to get my old phone reactivated asap! TTFN :3

My net is getting shut off possibly today or tomorrow, so i wont be able to get on for awhile. I have a job interview tomorrow and it'll hopefully go well; so if it does i can probably get my net turned back on once payday comes.

I'll miss you guys and i'll try to be back as soon as I can get on *Hugs for all* ; ;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xvmR.....w&index=45

Nyaaaaahhhh!!! Miyaviiiiii!!! <3 *fanboy squeal*


Lyrics

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Imagine nothing in the morning light
If the world ended we had one last night

So every man has danced through history
Around the fires from the clouds to seas
And in our life we have an instinct for us
To move, to move, to move

If you come with me don't fall behind
With the horizon in sight
Just imagine let go of your mind
Like we're on the edge of light

We'll be going like

Yeah oh "We want it all" oh oh oh oh
We want it all
Yeah oh "We want it all" oh oh oh oh
Before it ends tonight

So tell me what this life is all about
'Cause we've been close but time is running out

Imagine dancing on horizon's floor
We do what's natural to us once more
The world might end tomorrow but one thing
I know, I know, I know

If you come with me don't fall behind
With the horizon in sight
Just imagine let go of your mind
Like we're on the edge of light

We'll be going like

Yeah oh "We want it all" oh oh oh oh
We want it all
Yeah oh "We want it all" oh oh oh oh
Before it ends tonight.

If you come with me don't fall behind
With the horizon in sight
Just imagine let go of your mind
Like we're on the edge of light

We'll be going like

Yeah oh "We want it all" oh oh oh oh
We want it all
Yeah oh "We want it all" oh oh oh oh

We'll be going like

Yeah oh "We want it all" oh oh oh oh
We want it all
Yeah oh "We want it all" oh oh oh oh
Before it ends tonight.

It ends tonight

Before it ends tonight

I'm not going to be on for a few days because the assholes here decided to go and shut our power off for no god damned reason.

I'm done being the nice guy; it's time to knock some heads together. See everyone later.

So not looking forward to Sunday's arrival.. x.x

why? Cause it's my birthday; one of the worst days of the year for me. I'm gonna be turning 19 again LOL (actually turning 24 v.v)

The eggs.. they are on the attack! ; ;

It's the revenge of the eggs!
The ones that weren't cooked right,
Poached wrong,
or just way too yolky!


They're coming! @.@;

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This is what happens when i am left to my own devices. XD

I just remembered what else i was gonna put in my last journal XD I just don't feel like editing the other one x.x


Anyone play Final Fantasy XI still? :3 I still do, if anyone plays on Fenrir server, add me to friends list; Koriek is my ffxi IGN, and my alt character is Seauke.

Koriek = Mithra (Main character)

Seauke = Elvaan (Side-project character)

Have no idea why i set that as my Journal subject, lol.


Just checking in to let everyone know that i'm doing alrightish but am safe =3, and I miss mah awsum buddehs!

"If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart. There'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?"


^

Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free—
I'm

Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free
And

Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change and it all will fade to black
Will tomorrow ever come? Will I make it through the night?
Will there ever be a place for the broken in the light?
Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay, or should I go?
I've forgotten how to tell. Did I ever even know?
Can I take another step? I've done everything I can
All the people that I see I will never understand
If I find a way to change, if I step into the light
Then I'll never be the same and it all will fade to white




Ever on and on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free—
I'm

Slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am, who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I can't break free
And

Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know
If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change and it all will fade to black
If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart. There'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?
Can you tell me who you are? Can you tell me where I am?
I've forgotten how too see; I've forgotten if I can
If I opened up my eyes there'd be no more going back
'Cause I'd throw it all away and it all would fade to black


Best Song Ever. <33

I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything

You held me down, but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Louder, louder than a lion
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me roar

Now I’m floating like a butterfly
Stinging like a bee I earned my stripes
I went from zero, to my own hero

You held me down, but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready ’cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Louder, louder than a lion
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You'll hear me ROAR
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're gonna hear me ROAR...

Roar-or, roar-or, roar-or, roar-or, roar-or

I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Louder, louder than a lion
‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me ROAR
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You'll hear me ROAR
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You're gonna hear me ROAR...


^

I'm tired of peoples bullshit, I'm finally putting my foot down.

I managed to slip onto my friends computer again for a small moment xD

I have been thinking lately and I have come to the conclusion:

I am going to work as hard as i can on my novels and such and try very hard to get them published, so I can have enough money to make my life stable. Once i've done this, I plan on going around the world and kickin' it with my favorite furs =D And go to All the furcons that i can, and pretty much just enjoy life without constantly thinking about or worrying about, what I'm going to do, how i'm going to have to scrape money together all of the time just so i can keep my family from being out on the streets.

Then theres having to worry about a good friend irl who's in a pretty bad spot; his mate (who he's been with for..gods know how long) doesn't seem to really talk to him anymore or anything, and I don't want to say the wrong thing and wind up having him get pissed off at me or something Dx Ugh..
Poor guy..

Anyway, where i live...there is a landlord that is nothing but scum, he doesn't help get any of his tenants' houses fixed or anything and makes THEM pay for the things that need to be done. =/ He then manages to scam them out of having to pay extra money each month for something that he made up. I honestly think he's heavily into cocaine and the reason he does all of this to his tenants is to pay off his dealer xD At least, that's what i've put together from rumors and stuff that i've heard.

In other words: I can't wait until Karma comes around and bites the fuck out of him. >:3

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to rant on and on xD I'm going to try to get my internet turned on again as soon as possible. Til then, i'll talk to you all later! *Can't help but wonder if anyone reads these anymore* XD

Just letting everyone know that i'm doing alright =3

I've just feeling a little ill atm, I think i caught a cold from a friend irl >< He took a drink from mah Coca-Cola.

JUSTICE SHALL BE MINE >:3 lol, anyways, I'm headin to bed. Talk to y'all later

That when you are sleeping awesomely, like.. after sleeping/waking up every 2 hours every night, that your body seems to get pissed off at you? D:


I was sleeping fantastically for once, and my body suddenly goes "FUK U >:V" and makes my foot cramp up all crazy >.< Stupid body..Ima gonna trade you in for a full prosthetic body! D:<

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4433011/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9692912/
Go go go =D


Is my bed time now. xD