If anyone read my last journal it was a pretty good indicator where things are going to end up. I'm still going to be leaving FA and it'll be longer than a hiatus for sure , but I'm doing my best to work on a few pictures before I do and I'll give my profile some tweaking a bit as well. But overall I'm not dead yet (on FA. I'm not suicidal, keep your mind off the morbid stuff.)

If you find yourself somehow missing from my watchers list, don't fret. I'm just trying to reorganize it a bit to have a better rotation on those that something FA should be wise to implement so you'd have more freedom in how who you watch and what you fave can be displayed in a more customizable setting. What artists and what pieces of art you want seen more should be on top.

I'll be editing this journal at times with my progress as I'll try to put them up as I finished if I can instead of all at once. Whichever works out best.

~T

Edit 1: It's been awhile and no I didn't leave as I do make comments but I've had to do a bit of soul searching as I worked on 1 gift art to get me started. I'm going to work on several within this month while doing my best to get better. I've been sick for most of september and also plagued with working. While I try to brainstorm some ideas in how to properly draw certain fursonas/characters for people I should be able to get back on the pace of things as I'll probably upload images one at a time as I finish them.

I may push myself to make a seperate art account here while keeping this page more of a personal one for me.

Wrapping up many things here as I sent out somethings in the mail to those I was trying to get things for. One box in particular should be arriving today to them.

It's nearly been seven years, and I've looked on these pages, all the art I've faved, the people I've watched. All the contacts I've had and what fond memories I've made. Some good, some bad but all are memorable.

I don't see myself posting much to these pages, and I have spent more time away and looking on other things though it seems art for the most part follows patterns like anything else. Those I have watched do show promise to set something creative in an otherwise sea of repetition where many styles here blend almost together from artist to artist.

It's like moving from one stage of life to the next, especially even from gaming. New systems that do little but increase power but will almost provide the exact same experiences. It's why I tend to mostly play the Wii U and games from steam these days and whittling through my ps3 catalog that I need to finish. Though I didn't make many submissions here due to what I was working on, or what I had to do offline I did experience much these years in ways that will be memorable. By no means I will be completely disappearing as of yet, but I'll probably make less comments to art and go more on a hiatus after finishing up contacts of getting certain art pieces from some artists before I do.

Media today seems to put less effort into things and sadly that will continue a downward spiral of what was done over ten years ago in the 90s to which I can say much of my own inspiration came from in the dedication and quality from art, programming and things in general were. Today seems like a wasteland compared to it from the shows to watch, movies, music. Too much laziness that can even be trickled here to what some people produce.

My only advice to any artist that draws, writes or creates is to take the road less traveled and stand out in their own style. It's good to take inspiration from things but also let your experiences be your guide to what you can make. I know I didn't fill these pages with things but there's still ways in the future to do so. Living life though and experiencing all of that always holds much wonder and someday I'll try to share that more creatively somehow.

I can still be found on skype and other messengers and steam, etc, but I will be less frequent to this art community in general, but it's been fun.

Until then.

The launch of the Wii U reminded me also of something special six years ago, to which was when I waited in the line with sixty other people, freezing at a target. Watching many people share their stories in what they would do with their Wii. It was hyped up like many of the latest video game systems of the time and the dawn of the last gen war with the sony ps3 being released shortly after it.

I recall working at a local Wendys and the drive thru window in making enough money in order to get it. At the time I also had a few friends and we debated on which would be better the PS3 or the Wii. Long story short I recall that night in what I left in order to get it. At the time spending much of my free time on furcadia which did bring me here afterward and what adventures would follow.

A year after that time, nearly five years ago to this day, I would visit  bluefiredragonz and share it with her family. It was a lovely visit to say the least, which would bring me the joy on that black friday shopping at a Best Buy in Minnesota to get my Sansa Mp3 Player 2GB that I still use today, it holds over 625 songs too. At the time Zelda Twilight Princess was all the rage and I did bring this along with wii sports.

Skip a little over two years later and my visit to Florida and to  Drache-Lehre and showing off its capabilities with New Super Mario Bros Wii and again more Wii Bowling. The weather was hot, but the fun to be had with everyone was memorable and around christmas time of that year.

Skip again beyond to about August when I brought my Wii to share again but in Montana. You can see where this is going. Slightly hotter than Orlando could be for sure, but it held its twilight moments in my hotel room with a bit of Zelda Skyward Sword and the one Wario Game.

I could not also forget the times playing the Simpsons game, Spider Man 3 and both Mario Galaxies, especially the second one which truly pushed the platforming metal and was worth the reward using the motion controls. It took 40 hours to complete fully.

The Wii was a blast for what titles and how it was used though the night before was something of an adventure. Waiting outside at Target I did for the most part due to the stores all selling out of pre orders since september, around the time of my younger brother's birthday. Went to the casino and ended up winning 45 bucks back then but missed out on the white ones at game stop. That was ok because I only wished for the black one.

Now during this time of night, making frequent trips home due to it being close by to my house that it was possible to do so. No one did show up to my luck atleast 6 am which I found out by staying there that long at times later on. I took a breather to attempt to get one at Walmart which was also nearby around close to midnight.

Now when I tried to get in line there for the Wii U there was several there and I asked about the line and was told where to wait after a group was there by the photo development booth. Now a gentleman with a cart was also told to get in line but was not there and clearly told after I was, yet the one walmart worker allowed him to go ahead. Now we both wanted a black wii u but turns out the walmart employee refused to say on how many they had left that were not preorders. Turns out my luck was this person was able to get the last black. I was not at all happy by the turnout. I told them off in that person was not ahead of me but they allowed me to see the white one to which I told them I wasn't interested after seeing it. To which they also tried to sell me just the games without the one I was trying to get. Not a very good tactic in selling things.

Long story short on that end, back to Target with a resolve to get a system and eight hours later I did get the black wii U at Target, which goes to show seemingly I was geared like the previous system generation the one I was to purchase. Which in a humerous way predates itself to the gamecube purchase I made on launch at the very same Target. So the three current gens of nintendo systems, same place I purchased them.

Booting up the Wii today, I did like many have done using a SD card and transferred the wii shop purchases to the Wii U and was greeted by a wonderful and cheerful waiting screen of pikmin at work to deliver my data back and forth.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T9q4uaI5sIY Something like this. I think it was a way for everyone to see their data in a memorable make its way to a new destination in a loving way.

Now a few hours later or a few moments before this, I was greeted again checking that oh so familiar weather channel on the wii as to look back at it. A channel for the past six years felt like a home every time i booted it up. With it's memorable music and weather at the fingertips, it was always good to see where I was and what every place I had visited had in that time. I was greeted by this song in particular: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FYFTSh5MRg4 It was as if my old friend knew. It was time for it to rest. The memories left in notes of the miis made along with what I played would live on in its calendar, but it also knew with the passing of those files it was time to let its new sibling take over. The Wii's time fading to memory like the gamecube and N64 before it, I listened to the song and just recalled all those special memories made over these years that included it and things in general. Like I have typed here, it's been a wonderful journey even with the ups and downs.

Things as simple as a gaming system that we keep in our homes can hold so much joy in part of who we share them with. Where we go and what we do with our time. I find my time well spent even when things did not go well as the good memories are what always live on. So as everyone else here unravels your Wii Us if you purchased them, don't forget the memories you made of your past systems and what joys they brought you. Embrace also what the new may make, and hopefully the next five or so years will be just as memorable. To which I hope they are.

Now if they can find a way to give me the weather and news channels back on the Wii U (The wiiconnect 24 is not on the Wii U) Perhaps updated but somewhat like its predecessor like this would be nice.

I will update this journal a bit more, but thought to place hold something a bit nicer in the meantime. As it's amazing in how much time has passed since I first came to dwell on this website. A long time really as I still recall the past company in being here. Expect some art to be uploaded each day for a few days.


Being upload for the occasion will be:

Friday - a piece from  Scarlette_Noire

Saturday - two from  SnowMoonstone

Sunday - two special images from  omegaltd

Where to begin. What began as a trip of hope turned out to be ok in some standards and in other ways it just reassured of what recently transpired with someone from a past of a cycle they seemed to repeat.

*A fair warning, this journal might be long and I am going to try and type it quick so my laptop doesn't overheat*

The good - got to see a new area, take in the sights, see the people and really see things for a trip that you would expect and really have a great time.

The bad...where to begin? To make an incredibly long story short, for approx four to six months of the year I did have a LDR (Long distance relationship) with someone and part of my trip was to see more of them instead of behind the computer. Not to divulge much information on them, but I think in some cases this was probably a good wake up experience as to how some quite possibly use others for their gain.

Now this individual who I shall not name I had been helping support them in their bind to get away from an ex well before easter, so that started a tab of sending them funds to which peaked at this trip on or about $1000 so no small change. This was before I got there mind you. (I even gave them $190 for several bills well before getting my hotel room. - $376 for 7 days/nights cheap compared to others for the luxury I got from it) From what they told me because they could not accommodate an extra person at their place. Now that I could easily understand and when I got there, certainly made a lot of sense. In the most part, the money I did send did help them, but it seemed to not make much of a dent for the situation.

Their place? The first thing to notice was the smell. It was bad and so was the condition of the inside. It made my room at the hotel seem like a luxury suite and what I paid for it as it was inexpensive from others I found my room much more fitting than their place. This also begs a question if you are close to someone is it polite to bring up or anyway to bring it up in a manner that doesn't hurt their feelings? What was redeeming in that standard was their skill in the kitchen and those hours it was rather nice. Dinner was a saving grace of enjoyment with her and her family. To which they were rather nice.

Another quickly approaching problem was timing. Having a fortunate conversation earlier this morning with them again online probed further into an issue I had with them after I got back. They spent more of their time up all night and sleeping in the day. Whereas I would be up for the day they made little effort aside their parents in getting them up in order to be around well before a certain hour in the afternoon. I kindly got some of the continental breakfast for her and her folks and made an impressive juggling act of beverages when I took enough for four from the hotel and walked my way back to her place over several streets which her family told me were not so friendly. Quite the opposite during the day. Maybe there was a few bad eggs to cause trouble, but all her neighbors were delightful in convesation, so on some days it was more like an adventure in who I met next.

Now after the first two days of settling in for a week for a stay, I managed to only see them in the afternoon if fortunate for a couple of hours. Unless it was for the fair which I paid for her and her parents and anything at that ($90+). I would greet her family around 8 or 9 am and give breakfast goodies and retire back to my place for the next 3-5 hours to wait, playing some of the games I brought that I hoped to share, including my wii with several I thought would interest her to play. Sadly for this, it only became solo as she never wanted to play any. This and going back to my place which I asked on occasions without hinting toward the space and air issues of hers, left it she could have enjoyed a bit more comfort and get quality one on one time - the reason for the trip. This too didn't really happen. So overall if you do not count spending time with her family...in seven days I probably got close to actual four hours of time within those days I actually spent time with her. Two of those hours were when I first got to the hotel in just hanging out before dinner that day. I spent the rest of the time doing stuff for her and her family. I felt more like a butler or a maid in helping out which I do not mind some of the tasks but there has to be limits.

The worst - not only picking up the tab, but feeling like having to pay an admission fee to see them. Every day I went over there I was expected to pay for something in helping them out, now this was after spending 190 before getting there in several bills. This came the form in grocery shopping, several gifts (I did not mind this or the groceries to an extent), her cigarettes - which to my surprise she smoked a pack a day and at $5 a pack and this to be needed every day it added up. Not much to say but it seemed whenever they saw something interesting, I was expected to buy it. Her mother was the biggest issue on this, pointing out at times on stuff they wanted over several needed items. Now here's the kicker as there had been some issues prior to the trip so were were in between being together or not, and the trip in a way was to get everything started on a better foot and perhaps get closer if things were to work out.

Now during the first night and watching the Lorax, which I purchased and packed with the plush as I bought her the blu ray + dvd combo. I expected this purchase to be the little extra in watching a movie with her and something physical she could keep for once due to just seeing bills a lot and have something fun. The movie part was ok, though for most of it, she spent time on her laptop and how we were angled, I ended up seeing some conversations due to how large that screen was. Her laptop was huge compared to mine I should point out. She was flirting and getting rather intimate with two other guys in messages during this. So during the last part of the movie I felt shot and sad as this would be the only beginning to how many were courting her in reality. It came to about four or five other guys she was keeping close as she started to openly talk about them in normal conversation in how they wanted to help her. Which up to this point I was since april covering full bill for just about everything. This is a point where you have to ask yourself where you fit in with them? And if she was caring for all these other people then why couldn't they help as much as I did. It hurt and that's probably the best words I can put it, and the fact of going back to my room alone at night time over the course of it.

This is when I returned on each consecutive day when her parents were up on their routines that she had been up all night online. From stating earlier was a normal trend even prior to showing up there as there was no change in her pattern. Now of course if someone works its understandable you won't see them every day,but when its their case you question if they would want to see you. I got that answer this morning, simply put she was up during that time but chose not to see me, she didn't want to.

Furthermore on this conversation I had with them she tells me she found a boyfriend and on skype basically showed him off as he was right there with her as she was playing WoW. It was someone local and it was one of the ones she was iming at the time while I was there.

But I am getting ahead of myself. Around day five, I started to recall all of those I left here that were close. I thought of each and every person, but did not have my laptop to keep in touch. As this laptop in its current state could possibly not go through inspection with TSA due to the bottom screws had fallen out some time ago, have no idea where those went. It became more apparent at the added purchases she wished for me to buy is when I started to say no to them, especially the cigarettes. There came a time when somethings were just wrong to keep buying and responsibility should have taken place. I tried to balance what was essential and what wasn't in a sense, but any time I did for these last few days she took it not well. They gave me a ride back to the airport on day seven which I paid for the gas for the car of course and made my way back.

In a nutshell there should be signs when in any LDR that would red flag when it is better to perhaps part ways before a meeting at all, or just let them help themselves. Though there is a grey line to that in how much you care for them, and in a way you see how bad it is for them in general. Only you wish they were more wiser in what they invested the money in. Even now from what I could tell nothing is really going to change in her direction soon, just more debt. Especially when they refuse to get assistance or a job. You can only help someone so much before they have to walk that road alone.

I did enjoy somethings of the trip and those good times I'll cherish over what could be seen as bad. Now I know many here are in such circumstances where they are in LDRs but the unfortunate thing is not all of them work, it happens.Some of that goodness can only turn out to be a fantasy. All you can do is get up and move on. You have to be careful though as too many just use the four letter word to better themselves, not caring on who they use over it.

Though I maybe single at this time, I'm thankful for those that do show support, lend an ear and show more compassion than I received from someone I should have gotten it from. I thank each and everyone of you for that. You know who you are, even if several are busy in their own lives. You are thought of, especially by me.

Won't be back until the 23rd approximately so the next few hours are going to be rest and readying my suitcase in what i'll be taking. Though for the trip of going by plane, I am a little uneasy as on getting there on time, etc but overall I'm sure things will be ok.

Though there is much on my mind, I only hope things will be smooth and those here do well and take care of themselves. I guess even though I thought what to put in this journal for the time right now, I still can't find the right words for it. I'll be apart of this site for nearly six years by the end of the month, and its been some ride and I only hope it gets better, along with those artists I do watch.

After a bit of venting and such, mostly taking it easy for the weekend and like anyone else helping my dad for father's day after getting things for him like a card, season 8 of two and a half men and nascar oreos and boxed candies. Overall, these days have been a little better than previous, hopefully more will soon follow.

To those celebrating it, or have a father that is going to celebrate it, happy father's day

I'll be another year older and supposedly wiser. I'm not sure on the older part, but the wiser can apply. With each year in doing things we learn more and can experience much. I supposedly did from the job I worked and those I have been around. Though some were more blessings than others, the past year wasn't horrible, but there was much able to be done.

This year I have more of an outlook on what I need to finish and do. A story for someone that's long overdue is on the top of my list, along with finishing a few games on my ps3 including mass effect 3 (the multiplayer can be annoying but addicting). I would ramble on but I don't think many need a lecture at this hour. However everyone spends their day, spend it well. I should be about here among other places on the webs or on my ps3. It might be somewhat a milestone for this year for me, but it's still just another day.

Until my birthday but I really don't feel much older, mostly in knowing more as from the years that progress. Though instead of reading as much books I have a habit of collecting video games I still need to playthrough. (Right now I have over 14 playstation 3 titles to contend with and skyward sword.) So it looks as if I will be busy with that at times for awhile.

The weather here cannot make up its mind either. One day is snow and the next is rain or sun. Either mother nature is playing a practical joke, or we're being set up for something much bigger later this year.

Is what you make of it. Be it you have someone to enjoy and share all its tidings, or you find yourself alone. The latter is what I will be looking at this year, even though most of 2011 was not as such. To save on drama and long posts I did have someone special, but how things tend to be that it can sometimes not last with them.

We wish it would for whatever reason it might be, things tend to fall apart. What you take from it, learn and what you experience can make you a better person or one for the worse. I feel from past endeavors that I have made progress. Being open more in some areas while still being that devoted and in most cases there. Unfortunately I never did get to spend the holidays with them and how things tended to become more of fights overall in the end, I can only think of how things were better when they weren't so bad.

I can still remember what I did for them to make it special in what gifts I got them, and how I got them. The happier times of the things we did and what games we played among other things. I only wish there was more of those memories and it's always hard when you part ways from others. It's something I try to avoid, but it seems more these days you get those that are close to you move on in different ways and it's very unsettling and heartbreaking.

This day however like every one before it can be a gift or a curse. Depends how you spend it and make it special. Keep those dear to you and spend time with them, try to make today more of a blessing. I will.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3110750/ If you're looking on needing to get something to help make some better pictures why not give it a shot? Deadline is 1-30-12 if you're interested.

and to all Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas. May all your wishes come true and next year be a good one.

Well it's been a few days past the holiday atleast and its been quite well. I managed to get the limited edition zelda 3ds from gamestop as well as pick up several skylanders figures from target today.

It's quite interesting how popular that game got, especially the figures. Sonic Boom sadly if anyone is looking for is going for atleast double or triple the retail value online, so try to find it in store if you can. I was fortunate to find two at target, scooped them up along with a stealth elf.

More to follow after a bit more rounds on Saints Row: The Third for the ps3 along with castlevania, both games are very addicting.

After a few hiccups, sneezes and other such ailments I'm finally starting to get better. It's been a long week as I have had to work and deal with perhaps is a case of the flu that has been going around.

After recent events with many different outlets has gotten me back into working on things after some strange ways of being inspired. I think the topic of the day however is why others take an easy way of an approach of things.

If I recount much of my past, those I have wished to be with for instance ended up with others since it was easier where as I ended up ignored and eventually forgotten by some to an extent. There have been moments in trying to rekindle a kind hello, but easily discarded among a mix of things and other unpleasantries that would soon address me with.

What gets to me is like in other things in life, people tend to strive just to do enough or what is the easiest seeing this as the reward or claim victory over what they have supposedly done. This boils in some thought to those we call legends simply by how they did work hard to ensure ways of breakthrough and some might call evolution of things from media and music and culture. With the recent passing of Steve Jobs, a part of innovation for the time being can be considered dead along with him, as many that weep now are ones that relied on him to invent the next best thing in what way to move on in life through devices. Life however is not as easy as that as to throw money at these people or anyone else and expect resolution.

It's like getting hit by a car while riding a bike for another time (which has happened to me very recently) where as an insurance company for this person that did the damage with their truck to my bike can just get them to pay for it. Easy way out without a real consequence. Truth be told that if I was not a defensive rider on my bike that this conversation would not be taking place. I would have been part of his grill and then as easily under those tires without being focused or attentive to my surroundings, as in thinking of more than just myself. You have to see a bigger picture on things, not just what lies ahead of you. Yesterday I was easily reminded of that, I just wish another was in that aspect as to why I wouldn't feel so down like I was now but slowly trying to change that around. The emotion does help and can be turned positive with focus on works that I have now had inspiration to do over what happened.

I only wish others thought more like this now, because as it stands if too many don't broaden such horizons there might not be anything to really shoot for, and I would love to drive a flying car instead of watching transformers 3 on a mobile phone.

There's a lot to be said in being around places for such a spell, but there's also much to say on what can happen and what else you happen to stumble upon in your travels. Each year we get older, wiser (hopefully) and that it will bring promise in what we are able to do with out lives.

In a way, I have mostly drifted on this site as a watcher, becoming less frequent with each day in posting, but that can be chalked up to the work schedule. I can recall many things however in what drew me to this site and what has happened since then.

There have been those that I wish were around more, or got to see what else they have done with their lives as several have parted ways. It's sad to think on but overall it's how things can change. Also there's been several good things especially with company and what I work on now, though I am far from having a dream job, I should overall try to change that perspective a bit in the near future. My current one does not make too much money or enough really.

It's funny to look back on journals past and see what has taken me to this point. It's a lot of procrastination on this place sorry. Though life offline has certainly been adventurous.

As much as I would like to acknowledge those here with words, I've certainly typed many in my time. Instead, I would like to push myself in order to draw or write something for those individuals. I have been working on a story, bits and pieces here or there I summarize when the ideas come to me. Other than that, it's been something in being here. Good or bad, it's been enjoyable in what things have gone in each turn around the bend and I only hope there is more surprises in the future, good ones.

~T

P.S. I am thankful in knowing and for the time being I am able to share in others lives, it's truly what makes many adventures memorable. I hope all of you are doing well in your time here or elsewhere.

I don't put much here but I am always active by comments or browsing the new stuff of watches. In the meantime with this year passing I do more things offline as well as work on art, games (currently playing dragon age 2 for the ps3 along with a few other games.) I hope everyone is keeping well with the flooding waters or snow, just an interesting thing as always in how the weather is lately and for the day.

Summer is here and need to fill this page with more things. Seems there's been much drama too lately with dA and FA but not going to discuss that. For now settling to sketches I have been working on and thinking about games to go through again.

I've been looking at the let's plays on you tube and been considering doing a few. After watching many they can get entertaining...most of the time.

Because it's not for me, though we all have tight pockets these days and me not being any exception there.

Help a delightful dragoness friend by the name of  SnowMoonstone who's in the need of taking commissions or she won't be able to keep power in her house. This might not seem like a big deal to many but during the summer months this can be not good and even deadly due to the recent heat waves that hit the area and throughout the state. The pricing is rather inexpensive for how well her art is (which means you're getting a steal) and that might be the biggest draw to those needing to get art fairly.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1557204/ That's where you need to go to get all the info you need so why not take a look?


I know there's other needy furres out there and in this case is no different. Might see more bulletins like this as well from others that also need it. If you aren't able to get one, spreading the word is always good too.

It's my birthday today

For being reasonable this year and actually picking movies deserving of awards. I'm doing this in before the end of the oscars but it was rather funny how quick Tom Hanks just opened the envelope to usher in the winner.


For all those that like Avatar, I'm not really in that camp as it does have the visual arts and cinematography that it should have won which it had done so. (I'll have a review sometime when I upload many of those I have from all the movies of the year.)
The academy awards this year was not too bad. There was some numbers of interest with the Neil Patrick Harris dance number to be questionable but amusing nonetheless.

What was also nice was the John Hughes tribute and all the actors and actresses present for it.

Worst Moment: Ben Stiller dressed up in full avatar costume

In a nutshell it was a great night for the Hurt Locker and not Avatar, taking only 3 of the oscars and not for best picture. There were many movies that rightfully shined tonight as they should. The year wasn't too bad for cinema.


Award List:

Best Picture
The Hurt Locker

Actor in a Leading Role
Jeff Bridges

Actor in a Supporting Role
Christoph Waltz

Actress in a Leading Role
Sandra Bullock

Actress in a Supporting Role
Mo'Nique

Animated Feature Film
Up

Art Direction
Avatar

Cinematography
Avatar

Costume Design
The Young Victoria

Directing
The Hurt Locker

Documentary Feature
The Cove

Documentary Short
Music by Prudence

Film Editing
The Hurt Locker

Foreign Language Film
The Secret in Their Eyes (El Secreto de Sus Ojos)

Makeup
Star Trek

Music (Original Score)
Up

Music (Original Song)
Crazy Heart"The Weary Kind (Theme from Crazy Heart)"

Short Film (Animated)
Logorama

Short Film (Live Action)
The New Tenants

Sound Editing
The Hurt Locker

Sound Mixing
The Hurt Locker

Visual Effects
Avatar

Writing (Adapted Screenplay)
Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire

Writing (Original Screenplay)
The Hurt Locker

Being in NY has had it's ups and downs. Mostly from being sick and had laptop difficulty due to the ac adapter acting up.

I noticed though that even on my first flight back that most of the airports are not doing too much different except extra bits of security here or there. That I did notice was random bag searches when going to DC from Orlando which was interesting enough.

There's too much snow and I have probably a sinus infection, due to that part aching more than most of my body even though I do get the aches and pains associated with a cold. My laptop's ac adapter is holding up alright, but it's not exactly perfect. I was thankful to have at least that much as it's really not holding up as it used to and was nearly dead. Even with a temporary solution, I'll still need to get a replacement so my time online will be iffy like it has been for the past week.

In all places I am typing this entry up at the airport. Seems as though Fl there wasn't too much to do for getting a job. Unfortunately it does happen and you have to think of what's best to do in the moment in doing it. Therefore I'm heading back to NY for a bit. The cold is something I'm not looking forward to and those leaving behind.

Sometimes it has to be done though, and this time I was able to do a bit more here which was promising. Assessment aside, I need to do quite a bit in NY so I can return to FL to go to school again. As I need residency for it to be cheaper, and without money you can't count homeless as a way to claim it. One thing about the trips in being someplace else is the refreshing nature of someplace new and what can await in the future. There is much that can behold including promise of better experiences. Perhaps that is what makes this trip harder to be heading back before really wishing it. Still even if it feels to be leaving a part of myself here and it does ache when thought upon what will be missed most, it's worthwhile to keep that stride to persevere and do more.

Even with sadness there's strength. Goodbyes are never easy and they can be difficult, but it doesn't mean forever. When I get back to NY, I plan to start more drawing in attempts to really push myself to work with commissions and other types of artwork to help bring in more income sooner. I have someone to thank there even if my art wasn't at it's best as it was fun to draw for them again and not be as rusty. I estimate that 1 or 2k would be enough for a longer stay and would allow me to have enough to find decent work and college.

Soon I'll be on the first plane to Washington DC and at the IAD airport this time which is different than the other. (I can't remember it's name.) I wonder what monuments I'll see from the airport this time. Last year I was able to see the Lincoln and the Jefferson monuments at night and to that it was really something special being at the capital for that short time. I suppose you have to look at most things like an adventure as this trip certainly was with many twists and turns upon it. There are things that will be most memorable that for even a slightest moment I had to just stop and just savor it, like my visit to Epcot. The way the lights at dusk illuminated the park outside the British pub was beautiful.

There were many more moments like that, but it's best not to fully describe them here as some art might be better. The laughter and fun times I'll miss greatly, just being around someone that it's been a long while can feel like home simply by the warmth felt and eternity again without. Those memories are always the best souvenirs, more than any physical item can contain, even the words to describe it aren't easy. It's always a risk to do anything, but even without finding a job it wasn't a failure or even a step back. It was rewarding and worth the experiences to get here in the first place.

An hour left and it's hard to type with all those memories rushing back. Maybe that's what makes it all special, including those that will be missed dearly. (I can name one or maybe two.) Still as the sun sets here in Orlando and night will bring me to Washington DC and then Buffalo, it's been memorable. NY might not feel completely like home as it used to, but I do have a place for my momentos from the trip. My tickets, my xmas cards and my dragon statue. Along with those precious memories that again lead a promise to return again someday soon.

I hope everyone is able to enjoy a good meal and take it easy. Even if some might have to work on the holiday I hope you can find some joy in it as the 2009 holiday season is upon us.

I have my own things in the work that I should unveil soon, but for now it's a Thanksgiving lunch(dinner) and waiting at a store until black friday morning and then work. It won't be too bad as long as it doesn't snow.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving and stay safe and well all,

TS

The past five weeks have been relatively busy for me. I've been working a new job up here and there's been some ups and downs to it. Being up at 5:30 am but getting out by 3pm isn't too bad. I've been in training for this job for the past five weeks. It's a call center one that deals with medicare part d so in a nutshell I will be helping the elderly with their medication coverage for the new year with enrollment and general plan updating.

Good news for this exercise of five weeks was that I completed the training and have normal hours plus a pay raise. Working on phones was not something I enjoyed much but I did far better than I expected.

With the holiday season coming up and having a steady flow of money is going to be a good thing, but in the long run I'm prepping to leave again and looking toward finishing college. (It's long overdue.)

Right now basking in the weekend to unwind from that stressful five weeks as the actual work is ahead until the end of the year. (If I decide to stay at this job long enough at this location here.)

Lately after not much on here anyway, I've been working on other projects than art. Mostly game making and messing around with sprites. Sometime in the near future I might be able to present what I have been working on.

I'll try and post several pictures I have been doodling with in the moments of recess I've had too.