Starting now I will be on hiatus.

If/when I draw anything at all it will be posted only to my patreon.

I need some time.

Up until I made this decision I had been avoiding my computer at all costs.
I can't draw, I can't find the motivation or want.

Right now I really hate it.
I hate drawing.

And I have ideas and comics I want to work on but the pressure being put on me to make money or compete is too much to handle right now.

I need to get away from everything.

Please understand that this decision is what I think is best for my health.

I can't carry this pain and anger anymore and try to ignore it.

If you enjoy my work please consider my Patreon, the link is in the header.

I want to say I will be gone for a month or so, at the very least until I'm better.

Thank you.

-- Tsu

BUT!

If you already paid for your sketch than no need to fret, they are all in the lining stage, then adding gray scale and then done!

But I need to pass out for a while.

Did get the water bill paid tho!
Tsu can has showers and wash laundry thanks to you all! <3

See you in a few hours! @3@

-- Tsu

Emergency commissions!

My husband told me I need to get around 55.00 to pay the water bill this month.

I will be doing grayscale sketches for only 10.00 each to try and make the amount I need.
Images will be limited to two characters and no image sets of three or more.

I need to not burn myself out over this. ;^;

My contact email is below and as always my Patreon and donate links are in the above header.

Please consider helping me out, this was asked of me out of the blue and I am doing all I can to get what is needed.

_{sigh, I'll never find time for personal projects ever again will I? ;3;}

-- Tsu

Payday is a few days away and as usual food starts to dwindle fast.

So my husband went out and got some cheap McDonalds burgers, and he's fine with eating that stuff, me tho, I don't have a great history with it.
So now I'm kind of sitting here debating on eating that damn thing or not eating at all.

I probably will end up eating it because- food, ya know.

Bleh.

Bleh I say!

-- Tsu

I think- all the death this March finally caught up to me.

I've been massively depressed since yesterday.
You always want to think you can handle things like this, my friend's death, then my grandma's, everything just-.

I haven't been able to do anything really, I barely eat, I sleep but I wake up more exhausted and in pain.
I need and have responsibilities to do but I don't have any motivation or energy at all.

I want to apologize for that, I have so many emails to respond to and works to finish.

I'm sorry.

-- Tsu

She just texted me and told me my grandma, her mom, passed away.

I'm not sad about my grandma, I made peace with her passing a long time ago- but my mom...

My grandma was mean and abusive towards her children, my mom got some of the worst of it, but my mom is the nicest, the fucking greatest mom I could ever hope to have. She did her very best to raise us all without her mom's abusive and mean influence.

But she also tried to be a good daughter, when her siblings refused to take care of their mom she took charge, she took her to all her appointments, always made sure she had her medications, and was recently taking care of all of my grandma's affairs for when she passed.

If you could all keep her in your thoughts and if you pray, that would be great. She needs all the strength and support she can get. I'll go see her later today when my husband gets off work.

Thank you.

-- Tsu

As always feel free to ignore, you are never obligated to donate/or help me just- _{don'thatemefor beingpoorandinbadsituationsallthetime;A;}

Everyone, I really need some help.

Without a working shower I cannot keep myself clean and I’m still on my period.
I will make this short because, ugh, I hate doing this.

I need, at the very least, five dollars to just get what I need, some wet wipes, more toilet paper, stuff to keep me clean through all of this.
If you can donate that would be amazing, if you can’t that’s fine too.

I am just at the end of my rope here and so frustrated, I don’t know what to do. Money goes so fast, especially when you have so little to begin with. I was not expecting nor prepared to experience my period at all.

Thank you for your time!

Donate: www.paypal.me/SimplyTsuperb

-- Tsu

_{p.s. will be cross posting Patreon commissions here tonight, sorry for the wait with those, Tsu has no concept of time.}

My cat caught a mouse!

My little tough tortie, MOON THE UNDAUNTED, has braved the den and ended the life of a mouse that has scared her poor mother twice too many times already!
Praise to Moon!

I woke up and she was playing with it by the bedroom door and I have never been prouder!
This mouse had me convinced we had a ghost until it ran out and stared me down a few weeks back, ever since then I would hear it scamper around, knocking things over and running out at random times to just look at me and then run, but no more!

It's been a pretty terrible past few days, had my period start, a year overdue but here it is, shower head broke while I was in the shower, and- well, just stressed constantly, but Moon has proven herself a warrior this day, someday her kittens will retell her tale!

I'm so proud of her! ;w;

-- Tsu

Being the only person working on a very overgrown lawn is not fun.

Two days of this and barely made a dent in all the weeds and such, some patches are taller than I am!
Covered in sweat.
Ugh, I can't feel my hands, typing is hard lol

Could someone toss maybe, five dollars my way, so I can fill my tub with ice?
Whoo.

Donate: www.paypal.me/SimplyTsuperb

Texas heat man, and this is deep south Texas so mix in a constant 80% of humidity and just- wow. Tsu is a messy Tsu right now.
(hugs and kisses)

_{gunna take a little break, I'm sweating way more today than I was yesterday. ;A;}

-- Tsu

It's been a really rough week, forgive me for not being online very much.

We've spent all of this week saying goodbye to our friend, staying together, celebrating his life.

So many changes and so many things to accept now.

All we need is time and we can get back to ourselves and lives.

-- Tsu

A long time family friend has taken his own life.

He was a good person and will be missed so so much.
May god bless his family in this time.

I can't believe this has happened.
I wish we could have done more for him.

I will always remember you buddy.

-- Tsu

Sorry about- my dumb feelings.

Thank you to everyone who left me such nice comments, I'm sorry to worry you.

I spent a lot of my morning today losing myself in old photos and video of Breakdown and I.
We were so close.

He was always in my lap or in my arms, on my shoulder, just always around me.
Looking back on it we were hardly ever separated, I was either always holding him or he was following me around.

It's coming up on almost a year since I lost him.
Feels like he passed away not so long ago.

I still miss him, sometimes more than I can stand and I get angry at myself because I know Breaky isn't coming back and there is no way I could ever replace him. He was special, from the very beginning.

Sigh, I have some housework to do, come to me distractions.

-- Tsu

All my decisions are bad decisions.

I'm such a moron.
I just want to continue to draw, I LOVE drawing, I love sharing my work, I love making people happy.

Why did I think it would work.
Ignore me ignore me I made the final decision.

I just wish things would work out every once and a while, you know?
(hugs)

-- Tsu

I know I have notes and emails to read but I'm trying to get everything in working order.

I'm working on formatting my old laptop so I can go back to using it and returning my mom's laptop to her. She so graciously let me borrow it but it's been over a year or two now and I can't keep using it without completely overtaking it for my own needs and it's been bearing down terribly on my conscious for so long now.

I had two options, somehow get three hundred and buy a new, basic PC that can handle all my art needs (streaming, video editing, etc.) or reformat my old laptop and hope for the best.

I've been continually stressed over this for so long now.

I know I can't afford a whole new PC, so I'm hoping for the best with my old laptop.
He's a good laptop, I'm backing up everything important on him now.

I know this must sound so stupid but it's so stressful and makes me so anxious to work on a PC that isn't mine.
I really hope this all works out. I've been so messed up these past few weeks having to do all of this.

Let this work please. ;A;

-- Tsu

So I'm just going to make this short, vague journal about all the bad things in my brain and other stuff and not really talk about it because it's too overwhelming and physically exhausting and I'm super sorry I'm so bad at talking to people when it comes to helping myself or venting.

-- Tsu

Sorry I haven't been active as much as I promised.

I got sick on Sunday and only now am I feeling back to my old Tsu self.

A friend had been sick at LARP on Saturday and by Sunday I had caught whatever he had, mostly been sleeping and medicating myself. Being sick isn't fun, especially when I also need to do housework and cooking. ;w;

But I'm feeling so much better now, I'm hoping to get some things scanned and a few minor pieces done for my Patreon for the end of the month and post a few older things here to FA.

I hope everyone else has been doing well, hope you didn't get sick like me and that you've all been safe! -hugs and kisses-

-- Tsu

Gah, I hate doing this but I'm desperate.

I'm politely asking for donations.
We don't have any toiletries or drinking water (which we use for cooking,drinking, etc.)

Pay day isn't for another week and, as much as we're praying for that income tax, I know it isn't going to get here soon.

All I'm asking is ten dollars at the least, if you can't you can't, that's fine, I'm at the end of my rope and thought I would give posting a journal a shot.

It pisses me off so much that I turn to doing this in the first place, well, last place. I've been sewing hoping to sell things at LARP but that is a no go and I'm only so fast at drawing.

But thank you so much for taking the time to read this, I appreciate the booty out of it! (hugs and kisses) ;w;

Donate: www.paypal.me/SimplyTsuperb
-- Tsu

My depression seems to be worsening.

I can't get out of bed for long, the only thing I can force myself to do is cook for my husband, I hardly eat much or at all. And my mom just told me that my dad had a fall today.

My dad is- he had surgery a few years back to remove a tumor from his throat, so now he has to eat through a tube and he's diabetic, my mom takes him out to walmart and such to have little outings. When they came home his legs gave out and he couldn't get up.

My mom and little brother had to carry him in, my mom says he's fine, nothing is broken but he can't hold himself up, she told me she might end up taking him to the emergency room. My dad is a stubborn old man but we all love him and more for my mom's sake than anyones I really hope and pray he will be okay.

I'm trying really hard to look for something positive to hold onto, everything lately is just- so terrible.
I feel awful for feeling so depressed and unmotivated.

I just want everything to be okay again but that sounds so selfish. I need to push through it.

-- Tsu

I've been hearing a lot about Discord, anyone that has used it before, how is it?

I really don't want to go back to Skype and if this is a better option than I'm willing to give it a go. :>

Also sorry about the slow down in- everything, health business kept me busy this week, along with a huge spike in depression, doing my best tho. Forcing meds into my body and trying to rest my brainy parts.

But hey, chatting with people again after all these years sounds fun, so let me know how Discord stacks up, I mean sure the website can tell me but hey they WANT me to super use it right X>

(hugs and kisses)

-- Tsu

WOW those slots filled up fast and I still have people waiting! I will not let you down my peoples!

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Well, now that the holidays are over and I relaxed not at all over them, it's time to open commissions again because Tsu is a lady what needs to pay for things to live!

I will be doing things as slots and taking only three clients at a time, don't want to burn out. @3@
Each client will be limited to two images at a time, again, not to burn myself out, I tend to take on more than I can handle because, well, things cost money. ;w;

Out of the three slots one has already been taken, which means two slots are remaining!

I will update whenever I have open slots. :>

Prices are listed below but they are baseline prices which means we can always work things out depending on what you commission, commissions will be posted publicly, after being posted to my Patreon, unless stated as private but that does come with an additional cost.

Thank you for your interest in commissioning me I look forward to working with you! ^3^

-- Tsu

Available slots-

1.) taken
2.) taken
3.) taken

Feel free to note me or send me an email!

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Oh shit I forgot!
Check out my Patreon!

https://www.patreon.com/SimplyTsuperb

If you can't commission than you can help support me by becoming a patron!
For as little as a dollar a month you too can see Tsu brand Julien smut that I might 100% forget to post other places lol

Thank you!

I haven't drawn or done anything art related in over a week because people keep thinking if we do social hanging out shit it will stop my depression.

You know what makes me super depressed and livid?

NOT BEING ABLE TO DRAW OR WORK.

Excuse me please, my anger is at the forefront right now and I don't know how to express it or diffuse it, parents would just lock me in my room when my temper flared, kind of why I shove it deep down and sometimes end up hurting myself when it comes out over sharing sorry just I will not sleep tonight until I get some work done.

Sorry for my lack of product.

-- Tsu

So that's a plus in my book!

Spent the day at my parents, my mom took me out for Chinese food and surprised me with a homemade chocolate flan cake. :>

Came home after and just watched Disney sequels for a while, everyone is asking if I'm going to end up drinking tonight. I'm not sure, I can't mix my medication with alcohol but I really feel the need to do something. I guess.

Nice birthday.
No birthday money or gifts but that's the way it goes. :>

Really need to scan some things and post to my Patreon, doodle, draw- do the thing with my hand and create smut, the good stuff.

I feel weird.

-- Tsu

My birthday is on the 13th and I'm going to be 30.

And I've gone through all the plans, from suicide to depression and back again.
I can't really think of anything positive because- my birthdays have never been that.

Tons of horribly depressing stories I really don't want to share but I do not foresee anything good for me.

I think I'll balance it between cake and a lot of crying.
Maybe just crying, lord knows I can't afford a cake.

-- Tsu

That if I could somehow become Julien or find the universe they exist in that I wouldn't want to get the shit fucked out of me by Uncle King Julien.

I want him to wreck me, so hard.
lol

-- Tsu

Season four of All Hail King Julien was surprisingly really good!

The writing improved, only one visual vomit joke, animation errors and foreshortening was improved on or almost fixed entirely, references and jokes were out of their repetitive formula, this season is 100% improvement from the mess that was season two and three.

I actually enjoyed it!
Hopefully Dreamworks is finally getting on the ball with their issues and I'm actually looking forward to the next season, before I watched this one I wanted nothing more for the show to end because of what it had turned into and because of a lot of hostility and negative energy surrounding the production of the show and in the fandom.

And this season, I swear to god, these people know I exist!
There was a ton of the good shit in there that gets Tsu all happy in her places!

Working on a season review video, but if you can check it out, I'm sure you'll be able to spot the scenes and such that will make you think of me! (hugs)

-- Tsu