So as many of you know I hit a pretty depressing time in my life.

To all the friends that helped and supported me, I love you all.

I'm almost entirely my old bouncy self again. It wont be long until I'm back to my regular insanity, promise!

<3

So these past few weeks have been really stressful and draining and I'm really having a hard time coping.

My hours at work were at risk of being dropped significantly if I didn't change my rota to better suite the company. Obviously losing hours isn't an option, so now I'm working 5 days a week and doing a few more hours. This isn't a big deal, except now I have to be out of bed at 4am to arrive in work at 6am and the constant strain on my body waking so early is getting to be too much.

My health is generally getting worse. I have stress induced IBS and eczema, both of which are giving me an immeasurable amount of trouble right now. I'm getting dry skin all over my face and it's getting harder to hide, which is stressing me out even more and making matters worse. At that to the fact that my stomach is pretty much always in an imense amount of pain and I'm using the toilet like 6 times a day at 15 minutes a piece, you can probably see it's a bit of an issue for me. My blood tests for my thyroid were delayed by an aggressive chest infection that nearly put me in hospital. It was delayed because I was perscribed antibiotics which my doctor said may interfer with the tests. However 3 weeks later the damn infection is coming back so I'll have to delay again.

Family life is getting to me too now. My youngest sister left her fiancé, my middle sister is having problems with her fiancé... My Dad has damaged his back and is offically out of work until his doctor deems him fit enough again.

Recently had a date with a guy who then decided to use me for naughty things... after which he revealed that he had a wife, all of which made me feel just fantastic about myself (sarcasm).

Then as matters get worse I've lost a good friend of mine who for whatever reason doesn't want anything more to do with me, I still don't fully understand his reasoning, but I respect his decision... though it's left me a bit bummed out.

Slowly finding myself to be alone again. And I hate it. My entire world is falling to pieces and I feel so helpless and out of control. Is this all I'm worth, am I just 'meant' to be miserable as hell for my life? Pretending to be happy isn't helping anymore, I just can't do it.

It's been almost 10 years since I was given a second chance, starting to wish I never got it.

So I have a habit of hoarding certain items, mostly 360 games.

Currently I have in the region of 160ish games and they do take up space.

Truth is I buy them and most of them I play for a few minutes until I get bored and then put them away and never use them again.

Part of me thinks I should get rid of most of them except my obvious favourites. But the other part of me keeps saying "no".

It's just semi-annoying knowing that I have enough games here that value around £5k (when brand new)

>.< What do I do? XD

So normally I want to get involved on halloween, but I always end up just alone and watching the odd horror movie or 5 at my place XD

This year I wanna see who has parties going and such, and mooch an invite or two >:3

So who's hosting and has room for an ottie this halloween? :D

Bit of an early journal but meh XD

How many of you guys are planning on attending Confuzzled?

I'm pretty much being forced into being there next time around XD and seeing as getting to regular meets for me is kinda hard because of work this'll be a great chance to meet quite a lot of you UK furs. :3

My gallery is currently limited because part of me didn't want to sully my works by adding "adult" themed stuff along side my poetry.

Sorry to all those who are against adult stuff, please commence your hatred :3

However, I'm moving all of my poetry to a seperate account as I know some of you watch me purely for that.

My poems can now all be found at  Tunuko-Poetry

My MSN contacts list is a bit short lately.

If you have MSN then add me!!

THE OTTER COMMANDS IT! *squeeks*

daron_ashford[at]hotmail.com

:D

I had such an incredible time this past week at eurofurence.

Thanks to everyone who contributed to me having a blast :D

The dead dog party was an incredible time, spilled drinks, squeeky voices, hugs, a fursuit lapdance to yours truely (>.> yes someone gave me a lapdance in suit hehehe) and the stolen handcuffs of fursuit abuse!

It sucks now I'm back home, things really aren't the same. But once again I met some awesome people :3

Well, almost.

Heading toward the airport soon to fly off to Eurofurence.

Bags packed, hair spiked, insanity ready - lets do this.

^_^ See you all soon.

Nope, not talking about Portal :p

I've been a bit less active lately and need to change that. Going to try an write something later once I'm home from work. :3

Also, Jack, I'll send a few ideas your way later too and we'll see what we can do with it :)

I normally try to avoid memes, but this one seemed worthewhile I guess.

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Where are you staying? - The Maritim Hotel

What day are you getting there? - I'm early arrival, so Tuesday

Who will you be with? - This time around I'm rooming with  lycrawolf

Who will you hang out with during the convention? - I honestly don't know :-/ how sad >.<

Are there any panels you might be attending? - I haven't checked what's going on but probably very little.

Are you attending any stage or public performances? - Maybe a couple, depending on what's showing.

Will you be suiting? - Nope, wont have my suit until early next year unfortunately.

Do you do free art? - Last year I did retarded little doodles so if you really want it yeah sure lol

What is your gender? - Tough one, but male :p

How old are you? - 23

How tall are you? - Random question... 6 ft 2in

Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'? - I'm single but can't say I'm actively looking.

Can I talk to you? - If you can deal with my insanity then I'd encourage it :P

Can I touch you? - What a creepy question... but if you really must, keep it above the belt :p

How can I find you? - I'll try to keep connected to wifi for twitter, but just look for a bouncy guy with spikey hair.

Can I visit your room? - Feel free to check if I'm there, but you can't enter as I'm sharing the room.

Can I buy you drinks? - Yep, but if the prices are anything like last year's I'd be surprised if you were buying your own!

Can I give you stuff? - Umm... sure?

Can I hug or snuggle with you? - I'm happy to huggle people but please ask :p

Are you nice? - Probably too nice...

How long are you going? - I'm late departure, so Monday :)

Do you have an artist table? - Nope.

Do you have prints/CDs? - Again, nope.

Will you have art in the Art Show? General or Adult sections? - Third time lucky, nope.

If I see you, how should I get your attention? - Shout "Tunuko" or "T" at me. Or just poke me :3

Where will you be most of the time during the day's? - It depends on who I'm with I guess.

What/where will you be eating? - I'll change it up. My body can't deal with huge amounts of junk food X_X

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc? - Of course you can, just grab a hold of me and we'll go for an adventure :D

Can I look in your sketchbook? - Sure, if I remember to carry it with me... must get a man purse... lol.

Can I draw in your sketchbook? - If you really want to yeah XD

Can I take your picture? - Give me a warning, when I get caught off guard... my days.

Because I'm curious as hell, what's with all the My Little Pony stuff I'm seeing lately? I mean I know it was semi-popular before with some furs but it's had like a mini fan-gasm or something. I don't get it >.< Is there yet another fad I missed? Not that it'd be something I'd want to be involved in lol I really don't like My Little Pony.

So recently I started taking on poetry requests over on SoFurry (and if anyone here wants something note me, I'm doing it all free), and someone requested an Epic.

O.O

My work is going to be cut out for me this time around heh.

I think my currently plan is to start with an epyllion (small epic) because I don't want to get too far ahead of myself and ruin what could turn out to be a wonderful project.

For those who don't know, Epic poems are essentially huge poems that tell a story, and when I say huge, I mean HUGE.

Clearly it wont be something I'll be finishing within a few days, and it will take countless proof readings and adaptations.

I have some major planning to do.

Wish me luck! :D

So some of you may remember problems I was having with a biggot at work. Most of those issues are resolved but it's still an awkward time when I work with him.

I only see him over 1 shift and it's a Sunday.

For almost 4 years now I've been pretty much begging to drop my Sunday shift as I work both Saturday and Sunday which effectively gives me no weekend :( *sad ottie*

Luckily, someone has finally stepped forward to take the shift from me *cue celebration music* which means once they're trained properly in the kitchen I'll never have to work Sunday again!

Woohoo!

:D

So after a really crappy week I'm treating myself in an attempt to cheer me up a little. I registered for EF yay :)

Just wondering how many of you are going? I'd love to meet up with you guys when I'm there :)

Just lately I'm really doubting myself and my performance.

I'm curious as to what you guys think of my poems. I've tried taking on people's feedback and I'm putting it to practice, but I still find myself hating everything I write X_X

Yay...

>.< Just about none of my friends remembered.

I recieved next to no cards, and no gifts at all.

Spent the entire day alone.

Worst birthday ever.

So, my old job in a canteen's kitchen has landed back in my lap. I started there again today and it was lovely having so many warm welcomes. I never knew how much people would miss me :P

It was a good day and it flew by :) Happy to be back there I guess lol.

So, after bouncing around Eurofurence like a complete lunatic I'm back in the UK and chilling out. Although I'm going to miss the furry scene for now it's given me a great outlook on the fandom. I know now this is definately where I belong. Thanks to all those I met at EF16 that made me feel so welcome and accepted!