So I decided yesterday I was going to go to a movie today double padded so went today and watched it padded in a public theater. I was nervous the whole time so I couldn't pee pee but I loved it.

I had 2 teeth pulled today they wisdom teeth and on the top of my maw in the back. Woke up 2 hours later and my maw hurt bad they have they have me on 4 bottles of pills. The worst thing now is I can't eat anything I want or drink sodas.

I drank a bottle of vodka, half a cup of whiskey and was drunk but I wanted to feel it longer because my dad exploded today so I am finishing a beer he is going to the VA today and I don't wanna be like him

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Hello so I put on a diapie because My Mommy wanted me on Saturday and used it fully Sunday morning so I have been in it for about 3 days. I also am now my Mommy's lil bitch pet.

So I am at drill right now and hate my life. I really have only one reason pushing me right now.

I went to sleep around 11 to 12 and woke up 2 to 3 and couldn't go back to sleep so I stayed up. Yay! Anyway I probably won't be getting on much today some "friends " coming over I mean I feel like they are we treat each other like it but I don't feel like it sometimes. Anyway I finally got a new phone a few weeks ago and got it working yesterday so I guess life is working better for me. But my parents think just because I am ok with technology they think I can fix a problem on a phone my dad got. Anyway thanks for commenting bye!

So lately my phone has been acting stupid and now it just plain wont work on me. Like a ? when I have the battery in and charging, or just going off on. I have been meaning to get a new one but I am really really bad at money management so I keep using the money I save up, but I should get about $400 this paycheck so hopefully I cant get a good phone I wanted one like my brother has but doesnt look like that is going to happen because I need it right now. And why I am posting this journal because I use my phone a LOT to check fa and fave art and I will be doing that a lot less the next few days I am sorry.

So this weekend was drill again, so I got ready for drill and I get so stressed out like what if I dont get there on time and my mom keeps asking me stuff. But then something happened the morning of my arms and neck started breaking out in a rash then it felt like needles were going into my skin, but it cleared up later. And everytime I go to drill I over think things or I thinking about too much at once and I fuck things up, but then again I am always fuck up, guess its a talent. Plus I am thinking about just trying to get red of my diapers because one I dont get to wear them much and 2 I think they are stressing me out. Everything is stressing me out guess I am just a weakling so if I bothered anyone.

So I couple of weeks ago, about a month I post a journal I shouldnt of just to get some attention, I was getting very stressed out from drill and my family, and I think I hurt someone or maybe some people. I quickly removed it so it would start a issue, but I guess it was in someone's greater interest to hurt me more then I accidentally. So I am posting this to maybe fix it or at least fix some wounds. It just amazed me how when someone ask for help, and no one does a thing, but when I post one thing saying I might do something to an animal that I am not even going to do, every starts taking shoots. So I am going to share my mistake, because its not how you make mistakes its how you make up for them. https://lulz.net/furi/res/3038808.html

How do you tell if a friend is a friend or they are just using you. I feel like a lot of people in my life arent really my friends when they say they are, and I feel like if I somehow remove them for my life and will be better off and I can actually start rebuilding. But I dont want to hurt anyone, and I cant just tell them to fuck off so I guess I will suffer. I am asking this because before I left for AIT I played Destiny if you dont know what it is look it up, I even played the beta, but when I got back all my "friends" had already done everything they could in the game with me, so I was force to play by myself, but the thing is you have to play with other people or you cant beat a part of the game that cant give you stuff to make it harder. Well every single time I reach the lvl they said I could do it on they increased the number, but when someone else needed to do it they let him do it when he was lower then me. And I was yelled for doing something wrong but when other people did it then they werent really yelled at, and I didnt have a mic because I bought a $300 one and it echos when I plug it into chat, but they were complaining that I wasnt talking. And I just feeling like for the mostly of my life most of my so call friends just use me. For money, because I have video games, and other reason, and all I want to do is make people happy, but how can I do that when I am always sad? I would trying to push them out of my life but they are also friend with my twin brother, and when I dont answer them for awhile about them coming over or I come over there house they come over anyway.

>/////////////< So I am just asking and being friendly.......... But I think I have diarrhea and I just came back from a 3 day drill weekend, so what do mew think I should do....... and I know I am going to regret saying this but use de potty wike a good grown up girl, or act wike a widdle sissy kitten and mess my pampers?

I am finally out of AIT after 2 months, and I will no have more time on my hands.

Hi, so tomorrow I am going to be going to school for the military. I will be gone 7 weeks, we will wake up 4 AM and I will have to go to bed around 8 or 9 if I dont want tomorrow to be hell. I will try to get on FA if I can but I wont know how much down time I will have until I get there. So I wont be responding very much over the next 7 weeks, so yall just do as you wish.
P.S. Notes do not show up on my phone, it says I have notes but they aren't there.

I went to the dentist today got two fillings and a root canal, was going to get another filling and a tooth pulled, but they thought I could still use it. And my mouth is hurting so bad right now its killing me. I just took my medicine so it hasnt kicked in yet.

So my mom wants me to go to her therapist with her, and wont leave me alone about it.

I got bored so I though id post a journal from my Xbox One!:p

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First day was pretty ok, I just had to sleep in barracks with other people. Then next day I was told I was shooting, next thing I know I am sitting out in the heat for 4-5 hours, we finally got around to shooting, but when it was way hotter outside. We went out there at like 7-8, and left at about 5 in the after noon. I could only hit a max of about 10 targets then..... It was a bad day, I decide to stay in my own room the last night, all the sudden I needed to pee so I went to pee and completely forgot my room key. Had to run to the place I got my key from barefoot which was about a mile or so. But the person was kind enough to give me a ride had nice enough sleep that night. The day was ok, We went back out to the range 1st and 2nd times I scored a 15, 3rd and 4th I scored a 21 was 2 shots away from passing. Got more sun burnt, I got back to the unit, and my name was called into a formation, and had to take a drug-test for the second drill in a row. Other then tat I made it out of a 3 day drill with only somewhat major sunburnts, and probably little to nothing money from about 12-15 hours for 3 days of drill. And pretty much that all.

So tomorrow I have to wake up around 5 AM to go to Drill and stay about 12 hours, stay the night, do it again, stay the night again, and do it again for the 3rd to get paid around $60 for the whole weekend.

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