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Posted 9 years agoThe frustration when you try to be there for others but they're unable to return the support due to circumstances out of their control. Just one of those days where you want reassurance.
Just keep doing your best everyone and anyone. I have to just remind myself to be patient again... I don't want to be an inconvenience to anyone....
Just keep doing your best everyone and anyone. I have to just remind myself to be patient again... I don't want to be an inconvenience to anyone....
Well that sorta sucks
Posted 9 years agoUnfortunately, FA's recent update has put on a limit of the iconusername shown on their latest update:
+ Re-implemented the limit on the amount of
username etc. text macros with avatar images that can be embedded per post. The default limit is now 30. All additional macros will be converted into username internally, and parsed as avatar-less links to userpages.
So all the long list of icons I've had was severely cut. I can only have up to 24 artists because my icons not part of the artist' list also counts as well.
So I don't know what to do. I still want to have that long list because I personally want to do it... But I would have to provide a link that would lead to where they can see all of that... So....
I'm completely stump x.x; Any suggestions?
+ Re-implemented the limit on the amount of
username etc. text macros with avatar images that can be embedded per post. The default limit is now 30. All additional macros will be converted into username internally, and parsed as avatar-less links to userpages.So all the long list of icons I've had was severely cut. I can only have up to 24 artists because my icons not part of the artist' list also counts as well.
So I don't know what to do. I still want to have that long list because I personally want to do it... But I would have to provide a link that would lead to where they can see all of that... So....
I'm completely stump x.x; Any suggestions?
Boost signal
Posted 9 years ago
Christmas Holidays
Posted 10 years agoMerry Christmas and Happy holidays everyone!
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Posted 10 years ago....The other 1% are times where it isn't jealously that they all have nice things... It's not the matter of "oh then you should something with your life instead of being jealous of what other people have." ....It's not jealously because it's not that I wish to have what they have.... I am glad to be exposed to so many things and so many people... And I'm glad everyone is unique in their own way...
...It's just one of those days where you don't quite...feel special... Where it just feels overwhelming.... That's all...
I am beginning to feel better... Thank you to those who helped...
Dont' let isolation win…
Posted 10 years agoWhen you feel like pushing everyone away and isolating yourself... That's the moment when you need to keep those important to you close... <3
I will try again.
Posted 11 years agoJust something to replace with since I'm feeling sociable again.
I'm done with the human race....
Posted 11 years agoI hope you're doing well... and I hope that if you're struggling with something going in your life, I pray to God(or hope, if you're not the religious sort) that you'll make it through... Me? I'm done with the human race... Done with the lack of support... Done trying to better myself... Done trying to do good.... Done trying to communicate the best that I can... Done trying to defend myself... Done trying to explain... Done with all the counters towards what I say or do... Done with conflicts that are one-sided or where no closure or win-win is met, only avoided or dropped and forever forgotten... I'm just done...
So now you'll know if I suddenly just stop being social. If I do talk to you, it's only for something necessary, not to make friends, to make peace, and not to try to support you anymore...
So now you'll know if I suddenly just stop being social. If I do talk to you, it's only for something necessary, not to make friends, to make peace, and not to try to support you anymore...
Tumblr blog for Team Spiritfire
Posted 12 years agohttp://teamspiritfireblog.tumblr.com/
Got a Tumblr blog for Team Spiritfire if you wanna check it out~
Team Spiritfire is a Pokemon Mystery Dungeon team featuring my Pokemon characters. A list of the main members, the Elites, of Team Spiritfire is on the blog.
Got a Tumblr blog for Team Spiritfire if you wanna check it out~
Team Spiritfire is a Pokemon Mystery Dungeon team featuring my Pokemon characters. A list of the main members, the Elites, of Team Spiritfire is on the blog.
To a new year~
Posted 12 years agoHappy holidays!
New Year's party (Today but not yet open~)
Posted 12 years agoOkay, now that christmas is over, we're gonna come into New Years. And guess what? That's right, I'm gonna do a New Year's Party as well!
It'll be like the Christmas Party: Anyone can come, friends and OC's can be invited, the party can take place in Skype, DA chat, and Chatzy, and rooms can be made to accommodate to people's wants and needs for a smaller group, naughtiness, etc.
The chatrooms will still be the same, but I won't post the links here until it's party time~
I'll be on my laptop though so I might be slow but I'll try to get it running like before and do an after-party for those who didn't come and others to return~
Till then~
DA Chat: http://chat.deviantart.com/chat/TheHolidayRoom
Skype: -Not Yet- If you're on my skype, message me if you're interested and I'll make a skype group and start bringing people in. If you prefer doing this on skype and you don't have my skype, ask for it here and I'll give it to you in a note.
Chatzy: http://www.chatzy.com/83083369846571
It'll be like the Christmas Party: Anyone can come, friends and OC's can be invited, the party can take place in Skype, DA chat, and Chatzy, and rooms can be made to accommodate to people's wants and needs for a smaller group, naughtiness, etc.
The chatrooms will still be the same, but I won't post the links here until it's party time~
I'll be on my laptop though so I might be slow but I'll try to get it running like before and do an after-party for those who didn't come and others to return~
Till then~
DA Chat: http://chat.deviantart.com/chat/TheHolidayRoom
Skype: -Not Yet- If you're on my skype, message me if you're interested and I'll make a skype group and start bringing people in. If you prefer doing this on skype and you don't have my skype, ask for it here and I'll give it to you in a note.
Chatzy: http://www.chatzy.com/83083369846571
After-Christmas Party~(Rescheduled)
Posted 12 years agoEDIT
Darn it, I gotta go to the movies....Okay, here's what I'll do:
I'm going to see if I'll reschedule this so that, tomorrow, we'll do the after-christmas party where I'll be active and attending and all that good stuff~ You all are welcome to go into DA Chat and Chatzy though and I'll try to come by to see if anyone's there. So, basically, this will span for 3 days in total, with today being day 2.
HOWEVER!!! This may be subject to change. I may not do it tomorrow. Otherwise, let me know what you think. I AM going to do this again VERY SOON though and I'm going to announce what I mean in a new journal.
I'm sorry for all the disorganization so please bear with me. For now, let's enjoy christmas day~
END EDIT
I'm gonna have an after christmas party so that people who didn't go yesterday have a chance and people who were there can return~ I'm gonna have this On Skype, DA chat, and Chatzy so you can pick whichever one is more convenient for you and your friends~ I'll make the room when I go to my aunt's house. However, my laptop will be slow to start up so it may take a bit of time but it's gonna happen~
So feel free to bring in your OC's and your friends too!
I'll also make other rooms within the three, if needed, for those who prefer a particular group, who prefer smaller groups, or who want to be more...naughty
DA chat: http://chat.deviantart.com/chat/TheHolidayRoom
Skype: If you're on my skype, message me if you're interested and I'll make a skype group and start bringing people in. If you prefer doing this on skype and you don't have my skype, ask for it here and I'll give it to you in a note.
Chatzy: http://us11.chatzy.com/83083369846571
Darn it, I gotta go to the movies....Okay, here's what I'll do:
I'm going to see if I'll reschedule this so that, tomorrow, we'll do the after-christmas party where I'll be active and attending and all that good stuff~ You all are welcome to go into DA Chat and Chatzy though and I'll try to come by to see if anyone's there. So, basically, this will span for 3 days in total, with today being day 2.
HOWEVER!!! This may be subject to change. I may not do it tomorrow. Otherwise, let me know what you think. I AM going to do this again VERY SOON though and I'm going to announce what I mean in a new journal.
I'm sorry for all the disorganization so please bear with me. For now, let's enjoy christmas day~
END EDIT
I'm gonna have an after christmas party so that people who didn't go yesterday have a chance and people who were there can return~ I'm gonna have this On Skype, DA chat, and Chatzy so you can pick whichever one is more convenient for you and your friends~ I'll make the room when I go to my aunt's house. However, my laptop will be slow to start up so it may take a bit of time but it's gonna happen~
So feel free to bring in your OC's and your friends too!
I'll also make other rooms within the three, if needed, for those who prefer a particular group, who prefer smaller groups, or who want to be more...naughty
DA chat: http://chat.deviantart.com/chat/TheHolidayRoom
Skype: If you're on my skype, message me if you're interested and I'll make a skype group and start bringing people in. If you prefer doing this on skype and you don't have my skype, ask for it here and I'll give it to you in a note.
Chatzy: http://us11.chatzy.com/83083369846571
Why am I writing this?
Posted 12 years agoI don't know why I'm writing this....I want to say that I'm okay but I'm not....I'm fighting against despair again, but I'm finding it difficult to find the light...I want to break down but I can't...I thought that I'll be alright but I don't feel alright....
I just want everything to be okay...Myself...my friends...my family....But I'm stuck...Because I can be told that I have the power to do something about it...That instead of complaining about it, I should do something about it....Be there for my family...Help out...Get a job....Do something...But not to complain about it on here...Especially when this is an art site, not a place to vent about your problems to people who got their own problems to worry about...especially if they're having it bad...Where their suffering or despair or stress is heavier than mines...
And yet even those around me who do got their problems....I want to be there for them but I feel helpless...Some want to do their own thing even if they don't do anything about it....Some don't trust people because of what they've been through....Some have been beaten pretty bad emotionally that they just don't really care anymore...Their spirit so broken that they don't yield to hope or positivity...Some have the mentality that people can't really be relied on for support because of the disappointment they've been through...
All of the above are just my assumptions though...Everyone's thoughts or circumstances are different and unique to each other...and I understand that....
But I don't want to ignore the suffering....I know I can't help everybody...Heck, once the mistake(s) or wrong(s) I've done onto them makes them mistrust me, then it can be a situation where there's nothing I can do....Even if they were to forgive me, it won't be the same...That trust, which is needed when one discloses personal stuff to someone else, won't be there...
I'm not perfect at all...I make mistakes....I have hurt people, I admit that...So I'm not holier at all nor am I trying to sound like I am anything like that...I can't....I don't want to be considered that I have that mentality....I may explain things too long or I talk in a circle....or I don't make sense at all....So it discourages me when I make people be discouraged to talk to me or listen to me or attempt to try to understand me....and when I'm not acting in the right mind, I make it worse by causing them to close up to me even more...Suddenly, I'm the evil one after everything I've done...because I lashed out in anger or in despair....that I become too overwhelming....Add the fact that they still have problems of them all...and, right there, I lose them.....
I lose the people I wanted to care and love and I also lose people that I can trust....Because I don't want to feel alone...No one does and I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels that way...But it just feels like it might be the way to go because...the BS that comes, sometimes, with that is just not worth it....
I'm not saying this as a know-it-all nor do I mean to come off like this. I'm sorry...Again, I don't know why I'm writing this....Maybe I want to be heard...or understood...I risk the chance of being completely ignored or getting firmly lectured...I risk the chance of pissing or annoying people off for even writing this...But I feel like writing this....even though that I don't know why....What purpose am I trying to fulfill for doing this?....
I'm just...trying to roll along...Trying to be there for others...but also taking care of myself and my sanity...But.....It scares me to think that I can lose myself....That I can become insane...and everything I've been striving for: Gone in an instant....Yet, I don't want to just isolate myself and concentrate only on me...because I want company....Granted, I just gotta go seek it....Seek people irl and/or even if its online....But if I want it, I gotta do something about it, right?
Yeah...I am.....especially irl....It's hard but I'm working on it...But I admit...I don't want people to make snap judgements and tell me to go seek, assuming that i didn't already do something...But, granted, we don't always have the time....But I believe that if there was a situation like that....If someone else was experiencing this sort of thing...I would try to take my time....
But I'm not saying this thinking that everyone's me: I know....Nobody thinks like me or does things like me just like I don't do or think like everyone else...We're all unique that way...regardless how good, bad, or neutral that uniqueness is....
I don't speak like I think other people are stupid or idiots....I just...I always elaborate because I'm both afraid of being misunderstood, but I also want them to be assured that I'm trying to understand them too...But I don't always do that or I don't do a good job doing that....and, sometimes, my apology wouldn't be enough....
So to all that I've hurt or discouraged.......I'm sorry.....for everything....I'm sorry for being so hard...I'm sorry for being so critical...for being an asshole...for being so stubborn-minded....That I talk too much or explain too much or complain too much....
And for those who are suffering in their own way...and to all whom I deemed close, even those who don't expect that I deemed them close to me, please...it's hard...I know...It's really really hard to be hopeful or positive...I'm not trying to act like i know you...I don't. Even through the times when I want to know, I don't know enough...So please don't misunderstand me even if I sound like I am misunderstanding....I can only assume, but I can be wrong...And it's hard to relate to circumstances that I didn't experience myself...So I may not truly value how hard or tiresome or stressful it is to be in that situation....
but you can't give up....We have to fight for our happiness because, otherwise, living in depression and anxiety and stress and anger and bitterness and destructive pride...it sucks....The feeling really sucks...And we sometimes just roll with it...and then, next day, we're just fine....even if we go down again...because, later, right back up again...no matter how hard we fall....Still....it gets to a point that we fall much harder and it gets tougher to get up...especially if you're on your own or you feel like you're on your own...There's only so much we, ourselves, can do....We may feel that we need to do things on our own...But sometimes, there's no crime to unwind with friends, online or irl, whether doing something casual or if we really need a friend or two to disclose something....To talk to someone even if the answer's not found....It just helps to talk it out sometimes...Or even if it's just hanging out...and just that is enough to cheer you up...We were not born to be lonely islands....And in some way....we are connected islands...no matter how far we are...
but I could be making a big deal out of nothing...I could be over exaggerating. I could be making a big drama over nothing and I'm the fool for even writing this....but I just want to say something...I just...wanted to...
That's all....
I just want everything to be okay...Myself...my friends...my family....But I'm stuck...Because I can be told that I have the power to do something about it...That instead of complaining about it, I should do something about it....Be there for my family...Help out...Get a job....Do something...But not to complain about it on here...Especially when this is an art site, not a place to vent about your problems to people who got their own problems to worry about...especially if they're having it bad...Where their suffering or despair or stress is heavier than mines...
And yet even those around me who do got their problems....I want to be there for them but I feel helpless...Some want to do their own thing even if they don't do anything about it....Some don't trust people because of what they've been through....Some have been beaten pretty bad emotionally that they just don't really care anymore...Their spirit so broken that they don't yield to hope or positivity...Some have the mentality that people can't really be relied on for support because of the disappointment they've been through...
All of the above are just my assumptions though...Everyone's thoughts or circumstances are different and unique to each other...and I understand that....
But I don't want to ignore the suffering....I know I can't help everybody...Heck, once the mistake(s) or wrong(s) I've done onto them makes them mistrust me, then it can be a situation where there's nothing I can do....Even if they were to forgive me, it won't be the same...That trust, which is needed when one discloses personal stuff to someone else, won't be there...
I'm not perfect at all...I make mistakes....I have hurt people, I admit that...So I'm not holier at all nor am I trying to sound like I am anything like that...I can't....I don't want to be considered that I have that mentality....I may explain things too long or I talk in a circle....or I don't make sense at all....So it discourages me when I make people be discouraged to talk to me or listen to me or attempt to try to understand me....and when I'm not acting in the right mind, I make it worse by causing them to close up to me even more...Suddenly, I'm the evil one after everything I've done...because I lashed out in anger or in despair....that I become too overwhelming....Add the fact that they still have problems of them all...and, right there, I lose them.....
I lose the people I wanted to care and love and I also lose people that I can trust....Because I don't want to feel alone...No one does and I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels that way...But it just feels like it might be the way to go because...the BS that comes, sometimes, with that is just not worth it....
I'm not saying this as a know-it-all nor do I mean to come off like this. I'm sorry...Again, I don't know why I'm writing this....Maybe I want to be heard...or understood...I risk the chance of being completely ignored or getting firmly lectured...I risk the chance of pissing or annoying people off for even writing this...But I feel like writing this....even though that I don't know why....What purpose am I trying to fulfill for doing this?....
I'm just...trying to roll along...Trying to be there for others...but also taking care of myself and my sanity...But.....It scares me to think that I can lose myself....That I can become insane...and everything I've been striving for: Gone in an instant....Yet, I don't want to just isolate myself and concentrate only on me...because I want company....Granted, I just gotta go seek it....Seek people irl and/or even if its online....But if I want it, I gotta do something about it, right?
Yeah...I am.....especially irl....It's hard but I'm working on it...But I admit...I don't want people to make snap judgements and tell me to go seek, assuming that i didn't already do something...But, granted, we don't always have the time....But I believe that if there was a situation like that....If someone else was experiencing this sort of thing...I would try to take my time....
But I'm not saying this thinking that everyone's me: I know....Nobody thinks like me or does things like me just like I don't do or think like everyone else...We're all unique that way...regardless how good, bad, or neutral that uniqueness is....
I don't speak like I think other people are stupid or idiots....I just...I always elaborate because I'm both afraid of being misunderstood, but I also want them to be assured that I'm trying to understand them too...But I don't always do that or I don't do a good job doing that....and, sometimes, my apology wouldn't be enough....
So to all that I've hurt or discouraged.......I'm sorry.....for everything....I'm sorry for being so hard...I'm sorry for being so critical...for being an asshole...for being so stubborn-minded....That I talk too much or explain too much or complain too much....
And for those who are suffering in their own way...and to all whom I deemed close, even those who don't expect that I deemed them close to me, please...it's hard...I know...It's really really hard to be hopeful or positive...I'm not trying to act like i know you...I don't. Even through the times when I want to know, I don't know enough...So please don't misunderstand me even if I sound like I am misunderstanding....I can only assume, but I can be wrong...And it's hard to relate to circumstances that I didn't experience myself...So I may not truly value how hard or tiresome or stressful it is to be in that situation....
but you can't give up....We have to fight for our happiness because, otherwise, living in depression and anxiety and stress and anger and bitterness and destructive pride...it sucks....The feeling really sucks...And we sometimes just roll with it...and then, next day, we're just fine....even if we go down again...because, later, right back up again...no matter how hard we fall....Still....it gets to a point that we fall much harder and it gets tougher to get up...especially if you're on your own or you feel like you're on your own...There's only so much we, ourselves, can do....We may feel that we need to do things on our own...But sometimes, there's no crime to unwind with friends, online or irl, whether doing something casual or if we really need a friend or two to disclose something....To talk to someone even if the answer's not found....It just helps to talk it out sometimes...Or even if it's just hanging out...and just that is enough to cheer you up...We were not born to be lonely islands....And in some way....we are connected islands...no matter how far we are...
but I could be making a big deal out of nothing...I could be over exaggerating. I could be making a big drama over nothing and I'm the fool for even writing this....but I just want to say something...I just...wanted to...
That's all....
Linking profiles
Posted 12 years agoI've decided to put my two accounts together by allowing people to navigate between one of them.
This is the link to the NSFW account:
Dudeman23
There's not much there just as there's not much here, but if you want to see more matured work, that'll be the place to do it.
This is the link to the NSFW account:
Dudeman23There's not much there just as there's not much here, but if you want to see more matured work, that'll be the place to do it.
Today's my Birthday...
Posted 12 years agoGuess it's my birthday today, huh?.....Ah well, so yeah....
Take a look for those seeking commissions
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4322341/
For
blackmagickfox Go ahead and check this person out. What do you got to lose, yeah? =3
For
blackmagickfox Go ahead and check this person out. What do you got to lose, yeah? =3Requests for my characters.
Posted 13 years agoI am making this journal for the purpose of advertising for my characters to be drawn up. As you know, my gallery is devoid of any art, but at least I want to be able to establish something for my character refs...whether it be just the art or an actual character sheet. At least, that way, it is something for me prior to when I begin making my Origin stories for the Ligardians.
So!...
Links to the characters:
Gomez
Luca
Chaz
Kion
Drake
There's going to be another set of characters, but I'll work on getting their refs before I either make a new journal or just update this one, you know?
I may be asking much or simply just stepping out of line for asking this, so I will understand if no one will do it. I'll have this up nonetheless and I'll still do my Origin stories somehow.
Till then~
So!...
Links to the characters:
Gomez
Luca
Chaz
Kion
Drake
There's going to be another set of characters, but I'll work on getting their refs before I either make a new journal or just update this one, you know?
I may be asking much or simply just stepping out of line for asking this, so I will understand if no one will do it. I'll have this up nonetheless and I'll still do my Origin stories somehow.
Till then~
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Posted 13 years agoI'll just disappear....it's like what Roxas said...No one will miss me...
Xbox~
Posted 13 years agoI have my own xbox console now. Soon will need to get gold but I got minecraft for it....So yeah >w<
...Ummm...Sorry....
Posted 13 years agoI'm sorry....all that I've been doing here is just faving stuff and commenting on things whenever I feel like commenting...I came here with no art skills or writing skills at all...I don't plan to try to work any of those two out though...I just can't find my calling for it...
I came here in..search of friends...in search of bonding and such...I mean sure, fun times are welcome...e-especially if they involve some pervy fun...but don't be fooled by my spam of faves that mostly consists of mature stuff...
*sighs* Yes, fine, yeah, I admit that I am a pervert...I know that I am...but I am the kind that wouldn't just be forward with it...That's why my comments usually involve me stuttering and elisping a lot and blushing a lot...
I'm also shy... This sort of thing is common though (in my opinion). It's the sort of deal where once I've gotten used to someone, I can be myself. Just because I blush or act shy doesn't mean that I don't like it...Even if it's something I've already been exposed to, it happens when it comes to who I'm dealing with as well. Don't ask how that works out because honestly...if I knew, I would mention it right now.
So it's not exactly because I'm...I don't know, spineless or weak or whatever...I may appear that way because of my shyness or when I'm acting dramatically silly, but...even though I don't like to brag...I do see myself as...strong...in a way...
But even if I am strong, I do have my moments of weakness....I don't really have much to often..only my (cyber) company...someone whom you can talk to...someone who would tolerate you or at least try to...someone who may ask a lot of questions, but does so out of interest and care...someone whom...where if you just need some (cyber) physical comfort...I have no problem providing that...
I have my moments though where I won't know what ot do or say...and even moments where I may become hard to deal with...whether it's because of how depress I act or the way that I may snap suddenly or when I'm just in a bad mood...but understand that...no matter what, even if I act like such an asshole...of course, I'm gonna try to own up to what I did (or at least try to) and repent for it...
Still, it's no excuse for the fact that I do need to control myself...Times where I need to restrain myself...and times where it is proper to let myself go...Though...*shakes head* You'll have to excuse me...cause let's say you're dealing with the same problem...I would understand that...
I consider myself as an understanding fox with a decently high tolerance level...like...no matter what you throw at me, I can take it =P Though yeah, if there's something that peeves me, it's a different story...but my point is that you won't have to feel like I may condemn you...
I won't....I want to do good to those who I may happen to meet...or those whom I wish to meet...I want to try to develop something meaningful...whatever that may be...So if you're one of those who may feel misunderstood at times...feel like you have no one to talk to...wanting a friend who's understanding and patient and loyal...wnating someone who won't condemn you...or even someone to talk to for fun or bored...feel free to like..note me up or to ask to exchange messengers...
Just...be aware...while I am shy and and so good at making conversations...I also have asberger's syndrome...so my social skills may come off as...quirky or something like that...but other than that, yeah...I really would like to get to know people...and especially obtain close friends...even if they're off the internet...
Thank you if you happen to take the time to listen...I'm also sorry as well for it...I've been feeling lonely and...well...I just wanted to do something and...after getting inspiried by a friend of mine...I decided to do this...but again...I...appreciate it *blushes with a shy smile* ...
Till then~...
P.S. I can actually play minecraft even though it has its laggy moments...it's not the official minecraft so I won't be able to play with anyone from the official minecraft servers...
I came here in..search of friends...in search of bonding and such...I mean sure, fun times are welcome...e-especially if they involve some pervy fun...but don't be fooled by my spam of faves that mostly consists of mature stuff...
*sighs* Yes, fine, yeah, I admit that I am a pervert...I know that I am...but I am the kind that wouldn't just be forward with it...That's why my comments usually involve me stuttering and elisping a lot and blushing a lot...
I'm also shy... This sort of thing is common though (in my opinion). It's the sort of deal where once I've gotten used to someone, I can be myself. Just because I blush or act shy doesn't mean that I don't like it...Even if it's something I've already been exposed to, it happens when it comes to who I'm dealing with as well. Don't ask how that works out because honestly...if I knew, I would mention it right now.
So it's not exactly because I'm...I don't know, spineless or weak or whatever...I may appear that way because of my shyness or when I'm acting dramatically silly, but...even though I don't like to brag...I do see myself as...strong...in a way...
But even if I am strong, I do have my moments of weakness....I don't really have much to often..only my (cyber) company...someone whom you can talk to...someone who would tolerate you or at least try to...someone who may ask a lot of questions, but does so out of interest and care...someone whom...where if you just need some (cyber) physical comfort...I have no problem providing that...
I have my moments though where I won't know what ot do or say...and even moments where I may become hard to deal with...whether it's because of how depress I act or the way that I may snap suddenly or when I'm just in a bad mood...but understand that...no matter what, even if I act like such an asshole...of course, I'm gonna try to own up to what I did (or at least try to) and repent for it...
Still, it's no excuse for the fact that I do need to control myself...Times where I need to restrain myself...and times where it is proper to let myself go...Though...*shakes head* You'll have to excuse me...cause let's say you're dealing with the same problem...I would understand that...
I consider myself as an understanding fox with a decently high tolerance level...like...no matter what you throw at me, I can take it =P Though yeah, if there's something that peeves me, it's a different story...but my point is that you won't have to feel like I may condemn you...
I won't....I want to do good to those who I may happen to meet...or those whom I wish to meet...I want to try to develop something meaningful...whatever that may be...So if you're one of those who may feel misunderstood at times...feel like you have no one to talk to...wanting a friend who's understanding and patient and loyal...wnating someone who won't condemn you...or even someone to talk to for fun or bored...feel free to like..note me up or to ask to exchange messengers...
Just...be aware...while I am shy and and so good at making conversations...I also have asberger's syndrome...so my social skills may come off as...quirky or something like that...but other than that, yeah...I really would like to get to know people...and especially obtain close friends...even if they're off the internet...
Thank you if you happen to take the time to listen...I'm also sorry as well for it...I've been feeling lonely and...well...I just wanted to do something and...after getting inspiried by a friend of mine...I decided to do this...but again...I...appreciate it *blushes with a shy smile* ...
Till then~...
P.S. I can actually play minecraft even though it has its laggy moments...it's not the official minecraft so I won't be able to play with anyone from the official minecraft servers...
No MC...
Posted 13 years agoI tried to play it, but it plays so slow T^T ...so I can't play it....darn it.......TT.TT
MC~
Posted 13 years agoI think I can play Minecraft. I'm gonna try playing it on monday...More details about this later because....if everything works out well...then I wanna try to find people/furs to play with....like here...s-so..><;
Avengers....
Posted 13 years agoI finally saw it...Twas awesome TwT
Hopefully, I can check out Minecraft and TERA...><
Hopefully, I can check out Minecraft and TERA...><
Hmm...
Posted 13 years agoI'm gonna see if I'll post one or two things from DA to here....though I still don't have something transfer my WAAAY outdated pictures that I took during my Alaska trip so that I can post them here...*sighs* >.<;
Bwaah...I hope I get to see The Avengers this weekend >w<;
Bwaah...I hope I get to see The Avengers this weekend >w<;
Back for b-day
Posted 13 years agoToday's my 20th b-day~
