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General | Posted 10 years agoGuys, I want to talk with you on something. On July 7th, 2015 under the old bank account I had I discovered that a Wal-Mart's $101.74 transaction can really change someone's life.
I've discovered that transaction was gone to a 20 oz. Bottle of Soda and a Cash out of $100.00 towards a Meth dealer named Logan.
My father David, bought it with his 19 year-old Boyfriend named Chris just for increasing on Sexual Activity and such, I know the side effects of what Meth does. After arriving home I was about to talk about with Wal-Mart and I chickened out, due to my father's horrible anger temper issues and how he becomes indenial with me then causes a fight to spur out, all they had in their hands was just the bottle of Soda, after coming back from the gym, they went up stairs and closed the door behind them and my roommate Ed asked if they wanted for Dinner, I knocked and said, No and to leave them alone, I did and such and when Ed told me that they bought Meth while having Dinner, I sighed away from that situation Until Saturday they came out of the bedroom exhausted from it with their pupils dilated and feeling exhausted, even though it was Night time because I came back from Magic The Gathering's Midnight Pre-Release of Orgins, I felt uneasy and their door was left open and of course I checked to see how they were doing and I told them what happen through Midnight after scoring a Promo Goblin Piledriver. I did the dishes they left, really they don't pick up after themselves I have no idea why and helped Ed to get him Fertilizer at Lowes for his Garden. While I played new games that a couple of friends lend me due to a Sale going on PSN so I asked them to barrow money from them to play.
On Monday July 13, if you were wondering about that "Depressed" status of what happen, I'm going to say that I confronted him what I know and he claimed that he bought the Food and the Meth was free and his comment, "You wouldn't be so depressed if you only listened to me
Pay a mind to your own business" -David, is him trying to point me as the bad guy and during that he put me off the Bank Account, Shredded my Checkbooks, Shredded my Debit Card and Sold off my shoes while calling me Monster, Mental Problem, a Bastard, a Fucker, and a Nuisance to disown me, and for me I just lay there on my bed for 3 days not saying a word forcefully to get up to sign the termination letter with him yelling at my ear giving me one hell of a headache.
The uneasy abuse lasted for about 6 to 7 days and seem everything was at ease while was, hiding and confined with in my room watching TV and playing games, I thought everything was fine that I learned his Boyfriend Chris is the one that force dad to put me off the Bank Account, a freaking 19 year-old with a Felon record is Manipulating my Father so he can get a piece of ass. I distrusted him for the week and was very nervous about it, I couldn't get any sleep I've been sleeping for 4 Hours all the time because I know hell might break loose.
Until Yesterday, Dad and his BF Chris drink my Fireball Whiskey and I just lightly teased them with a "Oh no my Fireball is gone!" joke because I know dad would pay back to me until before going into their room to have Gay Sex Dad was mentioning about me with the Bank Account recited of what happen on the 13th, I played the Target board can just let it pass by but when Chris mention of how much of a bad influence I am, I got really mad because he crossed my line of his attitude and I literally had to walk out to get rid of my anger because I couldn't control it, after a Punching section against a Palm Tree and I felt calm and at ease but I really want Chris to apologize of what happen.
Earilar today I did, I didn't yell and I explain when and why in a firm manner, he says no he didn't say that to me, after moments later they left to go clean the Trailer to make a little extra cash and Ed wanted to talk with me and I wait out in the backyard of what happen and he told me it was Dylan that was a bad influence, because they didn't like him, I was calm for a moment and Ed told me to apologize to Chris and I said okay I would, after when they arrived, only my dad arrive with a Glare and gave me a 23 oz Can of Fruit Punch Brisk and I jokely said that I made a Fruit Punch Kool-Aid and told me I upsetted Chris for what happen earilar, I understand and wanted to apologize because of what Ed told me. Dad raised his tone, again, again, higher more angrier that his 45 year-old age was showing with full on Rage challenging me and was going to verbally bash on me and such to break my emotions saying I lost my chances, what chances? You're the one having a bad drug and I was trying to be caring about his health and then I got mad at him for crossing my line even though I told him repeatedly "I am not Targeting you!" until he got my frustration into a higher level and told me get out and kept on tormenting my emotions and trying to get on my nerves, I did almost had a Seizure with my body shaking from the inside, having difficulty breathing thinking my dad I was acting everything out, but I wasn't... I couldn't take it and I utter out "Go Away" or "Leave me Alone" on him because on what he did. Ed Explained everything what I tried to do for him and Dad wanted me out of the house, even though Ed owns the place. Ed was trying to cheer me up and before Dinner and dad used Chris's phone, because his got taken away by the Police, and texted around looking for my grandma he wanted me to leave in 2 Months to be in Vermont with the Brodeur side of my Family, because this was my back up plan to get away from him. I refused because, I like Florida, there is no way I would of leave the place, Florida is an awesome state, he kept objecting and forcing me to contact my Grandmother and I said no while having Hamburger Steak, he slammed and raised his voice saying, that I have to listen to him because he's my father, he's no longer my father, he's just a crazed Gay Meth Head thinking invisible people are after him. Ed was trying to keep the dinner table into a calm environment. He got onto my nerves while I tried to eat, he was trying to make me have a horrible evening and he threaten to call the Police on me to be taken away to a Mental Hopsital, even though he was taken away once for Over Dosing on 16 Hydrocondons and 6 Ambians, even though what he really had was a Bacterial STD from unprotected gay sex and he thought it was the Stalkers that were doing this to him and it driven him out to attempted suicide. I got to made that I slammed the plate with the knife, because he was trying to get on my nerves. He grabbed a phone and say he will lock me up there forever because I'm a child with Autism, due to the fact of my Brain Tumor by the way. He called them and Ed told me to go to my room, I did because he was being a bad influence, he slammed on my door saying the Police is on their way to take me away and pack my shit up. I stand my ground because there was no reason to be taken away, I'm 22 years-old after all, and they talked with my dad first, all I did was sit down on my bed, I went through my phone to check updates and blocking them because I just had about enough with them. When it was my turn, I see 2 police officers and a Psychologist, maybe I think? I normally greeted them politely and told them what was going on and I just told them about the $101.74 Meth Transaction and how this was keeping up into a bad influence. They asked me if they think I was suicidal or was about to hurt someone, I told them that my dad was emotionally bashing me and such and told them about my life, not telling them that I was a Furry because that would of been a weird situation to explain. They understand and then told me to leave and such to make my father to go and take his turn. After many moments, Ed was checking on me to see how was I feeling and I told him I was calm but broken due to my father disowning me again and making me to type this out.
It took me an hour and I got nervous at first because of Witness accounts but, I just need to tell the truth and wanted to let everyone to know, "What the fuck is happening with me." but I need to tell everyone that my dad's Meth Influence got him into this and his Boyfriend is manipulating with him because he was the one that intrusted dad to take me off the bank account, he was the one that grind my gears and forcing dad to fucking bash on me and trying to kick my ass out to the streets because dad thinks he's a perfectionist. Now I'm thinking on something what should I do on my life, I have something to do on January that can help me out through life and try to fit myself in and hopefully it can work out on my future life. I just wish he'd stopped pointing fingers at me and stop taking Meth too much, and I get it you think I should of reported my dad for it, but I don't like being the bad guy sadly enough I partially did. I'm afraid to go upstairs because my medicine is upstairs and I'm worried that he already taken it just for pleasure. I just wish him and his Boyfriend leave already.
Oh and just to let you guys know he's extorting out Ed for money after getting the trailer sold just to move away in Wesley Chapel even though he had a job but quit because he didn't like their attitude and wanted to be a self-righteous perfectionist, thinking he's god and such but he's not. That's my only asshole comment to him, the rest was talking about my struggles with him. So now, I'm going to be on my own and if THOSE TWO discovered this then I am going to die pretty badly, I am going to get hurt by him, this computer I'm typing out destroyed and a lot of law enforcement crap will happen. Oh and to Chris, how dare you to manipulate him to get what you want.
I'm not a fucking bad guy, the bad guy is trying to make me into a bad guy and take advantage over my anger problem. Thank you for reading this and I will have to say Goodbye if they find out, thank you very much...
And since I did this on FA I have to tell a little about myself, my name is Ryan LaShay and I lived in W Richard Dr. of Weeki Wachee, FL just in case...
I've discovered that transaction was gone to a 20 oz. Bottle of Soda and a Cash out of $100.00 towards a Meth dealer named Logan.
My father David, bought it with his 19 year-old Boyfriend named Chris just for increasing on Sexual Activity and such, I know the side effects of what Meth does. After arriving home I was about to talk about with Wal-Mart and I chickened out, due to my father's horrible anger temper issues and how he becomes indenial with me then causes a fight to spur out, all they had in their hands was just the bottle of Soda, after coming back from the gym, they went up stairs and closed the door behind them and my roommate Ed asked if they wanted for Dinner, I knocked and said, No and to leave them alone, I did and such and when Ed told me that they bought Meth while having Dinner, I sighed away from that situation Until Saturday they came out of the bedroom exhausted from it with their pupils dilated and feeling exhausted, even though it was Night time because I came back from Magic The Gathering's Midnight Pre-Release of Orgins, I felt uneasy and their door was left open and of course I checked to see how they were doing and I told them what happen through Midnight after scoring a Promo Goblin Piledriver. I did the dishes they left, really they don't pick up after themselves I have no idea why and helped Ed to get him Fertilizer at Lowes for his Garden. While I played new games that a couple of friends lend me due to a Sale going on PSN so I asked them to barrow money from them to play.
On Monday July 13, if you were wondering about that "Depressed" status of what happen, I'm going to say that I confronted him what I know and he claimed that he bought the Food and the Meth was free and his comment, "You wouldn't be so depressed if you only listened to me
Pay a mind to your own business" -David, is him trying to point me as the bad guy and during that he put me off the Bank Account, Shredded my Checkbooks, Shredded my Debit Card and Sold off my shoes while calling me Monster, Mental Problem, a Bastard, a Fucker, and a Nuisance to disown me, and for me I just lay there on my bed for 3 days not saying a word forcefully to get up to sign the termination letter with him yelling at my ear giving me one hell of a headache.
The uneasy abuse lasted for about 6 to 7 days and seem everything was at ease while was, hiding and confined with in my room watching TV and playing games, I thought everything was fine that I learned his Boyfriend Chris is the one that force dad to put me off the Bank Account, a freaking 19 year-old with a Felon record is Manipulating my Father so he can get a piece of ass. I distrusted him for the week and was very nervous about it, I couldn't get any sleep I've been sleeping for 4 Hours all the time because I know hell might break loose.
Until Yesterday, Dad and his BF Chris drink my Fireball Whiskey and I just lightly teased them with a "Oh no my Fireball is gone!" joke because I know dad would pay back to me until before going into their room to have Gay Sex Dad was mentioning about me with the Bank Account recited of what happen on the 13th, I played the Target board can just let it pass by but when Chris mention of how much of a bad influence I am, I got really mad because he crossed my line of his attitude and I literally had to walk out to get rid of my anger because I couldn't control it, after a Punching section against a Palm Tree and I felt calm and at ease but I really want Chris to apologize of what happen.
Earilar today I did, I didn't yell and I explain when and why in a firm manner, he says no he didn't say that to me, after moments later they left to go clean the Trailer to make a little extra cash and Ed wanted to talk with me and I wait out in the backyard of what happen and he told me it was Dylan that was a bad influence, because they didn't like him, I was calm for a moment and Ed told me to apologize to Chris and I said okay I would, after when they arrived, only my dad arrive with a Glare and gave me a 23 oz Can of Fruit Punch Brisk and I jokely said that I made a Fruit Punch Kool-Aid and told me I upsetted Chris for what happen earilar, I understand and wanted to apologize because of what Ed told me. Dad raised his tone, again, again, higher more angrier that his 45 year-old age was showing with full on Rage challenging me and was going to verbally bash on me and such to break my emotions saying I lost my chances, what chances? You're the one having a bad drug and I was trying to be caring about his health and then I got mad at him for crossing my line even though I told him repeatedly "I am not Targeting you!" until he got my frustration into a higher level and told me get out and kept on tormenting my emotions and trying to get on my nerves, I did almost had a Seizure with my body shaking from the inside, having difficulty breathing thinking my dad I was acting everything out, but I wasn't... I couldn't take it and I utter out "Go Away" or "Leave me Alone" on him because on what he did. Ed Explained everything what I tried to do for him and Dad wanted me out of the house, even though Ed owns the place. Ed was trying to cheer me up and before Dinner and dad used Chris's phone, because his got taken away by the Police, and texted around looking for my grandma he wanted me to leave in 2 Months to be in Vermont with the Brodeur side of my Family, because this was my back up plan to get away from him. I refused because, I like Florida, there is no way I would of leave the place, Florida is an awesome state, he kept objecting and forcing me to contact my Grandmother and I said no while having Hamburger Steak, he slammed and raised his voice saying, that I have to listen to him because he's my father, he's no longer my father, he's just a crazed Gay Meth Head thinking invisible people are after him. Ed was trying to keep the dinner table into a calm environment. He got onto my nerves while I tried to eat, he was trying to make me have a horrible evening and he threaten to call the Police on me to be taken away to a Mental Hopsital, even though he was taken away once for Over Dosing on 16 Hydrocondons and 6 Ambians, even though what he really had was a Bacterial STD from unprotected gay sex and he thought it was the Stalkers that were doing this to him and it driven him out to attempted suicide. I got to made that I slammed the plate with the knife, because he was trying to get on my nerves. He grabbed a phone and say he will lock me up there forever because I'm a child with Autism, due to the fact of my Brain Tumor by the way. He called them and Ed told me to go to my room, I did because he was being a bad influence, he slammed on my door saying the Police is on their way to take me away and pack my shit up. I stand my ground because there was no reason to be taken away, I'm 22 years-old after all, and they talked with my dad first, all I did was sit down on my bed, I went through my phone to check updates and blocking them because I just had about enough with them. When it was my turn, I see 2 police officers and a Psychologist, maybe I think? I normally greeted them politely and told them what was going on and I just told them about the $101.74 Meth Transaction and how this was keeping up into a bad influence. They asked me if they think I was suicidal or was about to hurt someone, I told them that my dad was emotionally bashing me and such and told them about my life, not telling them that I was a Furry because that would of been a weird situation to explain. They understand and then told me to leave and such to make my father to go and take his turn. After many moments, Ed was checking on me to see how was I feeling and I told him I was calm but broken due to my father disowning me again and making me to type this out.
It took me an hour and I got nervous at first because of Witness accounts but, I just need to tell the truth and wanted to let everyone to know, "What the fuck is happening with me." but I need to tell everyone that my dad's Meth Influence got him into this and his Boyfriend is manipulating with him because he was the one that intrusted dad to take me off the bank account, he was the one that grind my gears and forcing dad to fucking bash on me and trying to kick my ass out to the streets because dad thinks he's a perfectionist. Now I'm thinking on something what should I do on my life, I have something to do on January that can help me out through life and try to fit myself in and hopefully it can work out on my future life. I just wish he'd stopped pointing fingers at me and stop taking Meth too much, and I get it you think I should of reported my dad for it, but I don't like being the bad guy sadly enough I partially did. I'm afraid to go upstairs because my medicine is upstairs and I'm worried that he already taken it just for pleasure. I just wish him and his Boyfriend leave already.
Oh and just to let you guys know he's extorting out Ed for money after getting the trailer sold just to move away in Wesley Chapel even though he had a job but quit because he didn't like their attitude and wanted to be a self-righteous perfectionist, thinking he's god and such but he's not. That's my only asshole comment to him, the rest was talking about my struggles with him. So now, I'm going to be on my own and if THOSE TWO discovered this then I am going to die pretty badly, I am going to get hurt by him, this computer I'm typing out destroyed and a lot of law enforcement crap will happen. Oh and to Chris, how dare you to manipulate him to get what you want.
I'm not a fucking bad guy, the bad guy is trying to make me into a bad guy and take advantage over my anger problem. Thank you for reading this and I will have to say Goodbye if they find out, thank you very much...
And since I did this on FA I have to tell a little about myself, my name is Ryan LaShay and I lived in W Richard Dr. of Weeki Wachee, FL just in case...
Okay got my Profile updated
General | Posted 10 years agoFelt like updating the Empty Profile with only just a Pixelated Image of Prossh, Skyraider of Kher sooooo there ya go after many months of ignoring the Profile Info I managed to do it. Heres a random video
https://youtu.be/LKYDGZJvxBI
https://youtu.be/LKYDGZJvxBI
12 Hours of Magic: The Gathering was Maddening
General | Posted 10 years agoSo after my Monthly Magic Recession happend... I heard about Magic: Orgins coming out and paid for the Pre-Release and one of my friends paid for my Standard Play and sure I sucked through the Tornament, but it was a nice refresher and such and then I did the Midnight Release and 34 People Attended to play and I endured 7 Hours of the Pre-Release through Six Rounds XoX;;; Pulled some pretty kick ass rares but damn... 12 Hours of Magic was exhausting! D8
Gonna be Busy with Pokemon
General | Posted 10 years agoOkay so through out this day and the next... I'm going to work a bunch of Fully Trained Pokemon off to friends and I'm going to list this out... This will take a lot of work and I'm not going to stop unless some personal matters like Restroom, Food n Drinks, Chores to get out the way. And I got a 9 Hour Musical Podcast (The Disco Fries and Archie! 8D) ready to go through this hype.
So let me list this out in order so I can keep on task.
Togekiss and Nidoqueen (Part of a team I have to finish for her... '3')
Audino and a Monster Munsune Theme Team
Banette (I'm gonna give it to you so you'll have the Destiny Bond one 8T)
: Noivern
Greninja
Froslass
Okay guys if you got this Message, let me know because I'm going to be [really] occupied because damn 16+ Hours of Pokemon! (\x~x/)
And yeah I have to Update my FA profile but I need to give me friendly friends their Battle-Ready Pokemon! D8 So see you soon!
So let me list this out in order so I can keep on task.
Togekiss and Nidoqueen (Part of a team I have to finish for her... '3')
Audino and a Monster Munsune Theme Team
Banette (I'm gonna give it to you so you'll have the Destiny Bond one 8T)
: Noivern
Greninja
FroslassOkay guys if you got this Message, let me know because I'm going to be [really] occupied because damn 16+ Hours of Pokemon! (\x~x/)
And yeah I have to Update my FA profile but I need to give me friendly friends their Battle-Ready Pokemon! D8 So see you soon!
Coincidences are on my side apparently
General | Posted 10 years agoEver since I reuploaded my Ref Sheet of my redesign on FA, I looked through my Journals and found like four people I'm watching and they were talking about Redesigning their characters too. Looks like I'm Simon on Simon Says Coincidence Edition '3'
Oh hey by the way F5 new icon
General | Posted 10 years agoSince I'm back I'm going to update my FA Profile soon...
Give me about a Week or 2 and I'll get systems running and if you wondering about the age of the current Twi I posted, well if I'm 22 then she's 22 okay? And the old Twi well lets say thats me when I was 19 lol
Give me about a Week or 2 and I'll get systems running and if you wondering about the age of the current Twi I posted, well if I'm 22 then she's 22 okay? And the old Twi well lets say thats me when I was 19 lol
Someone made a Petition to remove the 3rd Party Ads on FA
General | Posted 10 years agohttp://www.ipetitions.com/petition/.....move-adult-ads
I'll be honest with you, for 6 years being on FA... This was the only place that I'm okay with the ads and now since this idiotic 3rd Party ads came in... Everyone is using the Ad-Blocker, and I have to put mine up sadly and that really effected the artists who posted up their ads to make sure the community to notice and hopefully get a Commission from them and its making a being decline with the ad revenue and that will hurt the artists to advertise. And I want to make a word that there is a rule on FA stating,
1.10 - Do not post links to content that is prohibited by any of Fur Affinity’s rules. This includes links to real life pornography, malware, malicious scripts, websites featuring the illegal streaming of copyrighted content, or content in public (journals, profiles) or General Rated (AUP 1.1) areas that leads to Mature/Adult Rated material that is not behind a warning splash page.
So who's idea to decide to kick themselves in the gut and why the hell this is a great idea?! Also I do not want to see a fucking Cougar Ad with the damn SFW tab up okay?!
Please get this around to people and hopefully it'll be notice, plus if they made FA a little bit worse... I'm going to Weasyl and try to learn how to set up Tumblr, hopefully... I can't do InkBunny because I couldn't agree to their AUP...
But please... We need up to 5,000 Signatures and I really hope this issue is taken care of.... I understand FA is hurting but this idea really made the plague worse.
I'll be honest with you, for 6 years being on FA... This was the only place that I'm okay with the ads and now since this idiotic 3rd Party ads came in... Everyone is using the Ad-Blocker, and I have to put mine up sadly and that really effected the artists who posted up their ads to make sure the community to notice and hopefully get a Commission from them and its making a being decline with the ad revenue and that will hurt the artists to advertise. And I want to make a word that there is a rule on FA stating,
1.10 - Do not post links to content that is prohibited by any of Fur Affinity’s rules. This includes links to real life pornography, malware, malicious scripts, websites featuring the illegal streaming of copyrighted content, or content in public (journals, profiles) or General Rated (AUP 1.1) areas that leads to Mature/Adult Rated material that is not behind a warning splash page.
So who's idea to decide to kick themselves in the gut and why the hell this is a great idea?! Also I do not want to see a fucking Cougar Ad with the damn SFW tab up okay?!
Please get this around to people and hopefully it'll be notice, plus if they made FA a little bit worse... I'm going to Weasyl and try to learn how to set up Tumblr, hopefully... I can't do InkBunny because I couldn't agree to their AUP...
But please... We need up to 5,000 Signatures and I really hope this issue is taken care of.... I understand FA is hurting but this idea really made the plague worse.
I'm upset with my Health Insurance
General | Posted 10 years agoSo after like a 8 Month Survival with no Health Insurance I got this "Blue Cross Select" and my god I hate it so fucking much! >~< Like I've been having troubles getting a doctor that prescribed my medicine and still mine was like a One-Hit Wonder and then it'll fail down until I have another chance. Like today, I was supposed to get my yearly MRI done and expected a $25 Co-Pay but then I got turned around and I have to pay $500!! Upfront, no bill recomendations, and not even a partial Payment for a Detailed Scan, with no contrast (Which means my insides glow and it feels warm all around me) and a loud buzzing 30 to an Hour Scan.
What ever you do, if you were having a issue like me. I want to tell you not to get Blue-Cross Select! The $67 a Month sounds nice but you'll be fucked you'll be fucking screwed like your biting your own hand off! If you 're super healthy and stuff, then your fine.
I might have to ask my dad to take part with his Health Insurance, I hate this pain and rationing out my medicine.
What ever you do, if you were having a issue like me. I want to tell you not to get Blue-Cross Select! The $67 a Month sounds nice but you'll be fucked you'll be fucking screwed like your biting your own hand off! If you 're super healthy and stuff, then your fine.
I might have to ask my dad to take part with his Health Insurance, I hate this pain and rationing out my medicine.
Everytime I have a friend over at my Place
General | Posted 10 years agoI always cut off the internet world to not be rude to my guest and become restless from a lot of things I do lol I just went to bed twice in a day just to get everything back on me... THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP MAKES YOU SLEEPLESS!!!
I'm bored
General | Posted 10 years agoHave my Weasyl
General | Posted 10 years agohttps://www.weasyl.com/~twlight05
If some of you don't approve of the New FA, you can find me at Weasyl if you want ^^
If some of you don't approve of the New FA, you can find me at Weasyl if you want ^^
A friend's Friend needs big help 'A'
General | Posted 10 years agoHi there, I have some troubling news... You see a user going by 
that 
told me from an accurate similar issue about my medical complication, which is taken care of, so please could you help this guy to get him well from it
Heres the quote below and thanks for reading
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6599981/
As some of you know about a month ago... I admitted I was Suicidal due to my pain, and well. I've come across a massive problem that has impeded me. I have to now scrounge together nearly $150 for all my monthly meds. Just the Friday... I spent $105 on my pain Medicine alone. Proof: https://www.dropbox.com/s/bv159hwui.....20PM.jpeg?dl=0 And this is ONLY 4 of my 9 monthly meds. The only reason I was able to get this was cause Nicky was just able to get funds.
I hate to do this... But help.... My insurance helps, but obviously... Not enough. *Sighs* This goes to help getting my pain under control, and if you want me to do a Tarot reading in return I will.
Any donation helps: munchietheredfox[at]gmail.com
The main reason I have my dark thoughts is because is I am always in extreme pain. These meds are keep it somewhat at bay. Please guys. I wouldn't be asking for this one if it wasn't something I honestly needed. If you live with any form of pain.... THink of living with it at all times every waking moment, and even feeling it in your sleep. Yes... I feel my pain in my sleep.... *tears up* there are days where I scream at the air because it hurts.
This... is why its been so hard to fight the dark creeping thoughts in my life lately... *cries right now* sorry...
that 
told me from an accurate similar issue about my medical complication, which is taken care of, so please could you help this guy to get him well from it Heres the quote below and thanks for reading
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6599981/
As some of you know about a month ago... I admitted I was Suicidal due to my pain, and well. I've come across a massive problem that has impeded me. I have to now scrounge together nearly $150 for all my monthly meds. Just the Friday... I spent $105 on my pain Medicine alone. Proof: https://www.dropbox.com/s/bv159hwui.....20PM.jpeg?dl=0 And this is ONLY 4 of my 9 monthly meds. The only reason I was able to get this was cause Nicky was just able to get funds.
I hate to do this... But help.... My insurance helps, but obviously... Not enough. *Sighs* This goes to help getting my pain under control, and if you want me to do a Tarot reading in return I will.
Any donation helps: munchietheredfox[at]gmail.com
The main reason I have my dark thoughts is because is I am always in extreme pain. These meds are keep it somewhat at bay. Please guys. I wouldn't be asking for this one if it wasn't something I honestly needed. If you live with any form of pain.... THink of living with it at all times every waking moment, and even feeling it in your sleep. Yes... I feel my pain in my sleep.... *tears up* there are days where I scream at the air because it hurts.
This... is why its been so hard to fight the dark creeping thoughts in my life lately... *cries right now* sorry...
Huh its my 6th Annaversary on FA
General | Posted 11 years ago...Annnnnnnd my journal inbox is like saying their leaving, overreacting about it, about a four letter website I never heard of.
Aw well *sips some root beer*
Aw well *sips some root beer*
Birthday~
General | Posted 11 years agoYaaaaaaaaay~ Twi is Two-Two! =D Me is 22!
10 Days for my Birthday~
General | Posted 11 years agoThe countdown has begin for #22 yay~ 9u6
Pokemon Trades '3'
General | Posted 11 years agoHiyas Twi needs a favor to ask and I'm looking for the following Pokemon I need for Battle Related needs ^^
-Minccino Hidden Ability
-Tyrunt Hidden Ability
-Venipede Hidden Ability
If you want a Pokemon you need just let me know and please... No Legendaries
Thanks ^^
-Minccino Hidden Ability
-
-Venipede Hidden Ability
If you want a Pokemon you need just let me know and please... No Legendaries
Thanks ^^
Something I wanna get off, and thanks to a friend he's right
General | Posted 11 years agoWhen I saw 
's Journal about the issue with Patreon making artists to make it look like a Paid Porn Site for the art and ever since thats been spreading onto other artists that I really enjoy I going to say this personally. "You Patreon Guys are making me very distant..."
And yeah I'm a buyer to buy your art but there are these Cringes that force me to buy Magic: The Gathering Cards over instead of your talented work. And yeah I have some friends that wanted to do those comissions where we pay half and enjoyed a simple pay and awaited from our comissioned request, and yay Artful enjoyment! But my god you wanna know why there wasn't any new stuff on my profile? Cause those Patreons, those YCHs and shit happend... And yeah I get it that you need the Money, but c'mon a YCH is like over kill to me because I noticed that they were like $50 and I can get like a simple Flat Color one for like $30 and the quality is better and oh my god the Auctions... I hate fucking Auctions because they can be super cheap until they go over the pricing range and suddenly someone Hide in the Comments to mess things up! But my god people, when Patreon came in... I looked at it closely and its like a Charity Funraiser for Porn and giving you a chance... A CHANCE and thats in any cost from $5 - $1000 for a CHANCE.
And honestly I agreed with's suggestion of his Patreon Nonsense - The Site is not A Pay Porn Site "...but you got people walling off new content behind it as if it were. Almost makes me wish that Patreon would do an all inclusive adult content ban and close every porn artists Patreon accounts so this nonsense and seeing it advertized everywhere would end.
Of course it could only be me who feels like this.
And now for me and maybe others... This new way of doing Comissions isn't right anymore, it makes me cry to see what I gotta do now to be alike and act like an idiot to do these.
And there you go... This is why I'm not doing anything and I just release my stress thats been boiling and held down to.
's Journal about the issue with Patreon making artists to make it look like a Paid Porn Site for the art and ever since thats been spreading onto other artists that I really enjoy I going to say this personally. "You Patreon Guys are making me very distant..." And yeah I'm a buyer to buy your art but there are these Cringes that force me to buy Magic: The Gathering Cards over instead of your talented work. And yeah I have some friends that wanted to do those comissions where we pay half and enjoyed a simple pay and awaited from our comissioned request, and yay Artful enjoyment! But my god you wanna know why there wasn't any new stuff on my profile? Cause those Patreons, those YCHs and shit happend... And yeah I get it that you need the Money, but c'mon a YCH is like over kill to me because I noticed that they were like $50 and I can get like a simple Flat Color one for like $30 and the quality is better and oh my god the Auctions... I hate fucking Auctions because they can be super cheap until they go over the pricing range and suddenly someone Hide in the Comments to mess things up! But my god people, when Patreon came in... I looked at it closely and its like a Charity Funraiser for Porn and giving you a chance... A CHANCE and thats in any cost from $5 - $1000 for a CHANCE.
And honestly I agreed with
's suggestion of his Patreon Nonsense - The Site is not A Pay Porn Site "...but you got people walling off new content behind it as if it were. Almost makes me wish that Patreon would do an all inclusive adult content ban and close every porn artists Patreon accounts so this nonsense and seeing it advertized everywhere would end.Of course it could only be me who feels like this.
And now for me and maybe others... This new way of doing Comissions isn't right anymore, it makes me cry to see what I gotta do now to be alike and act like an idiot to do these.
And there you go... This is why I'm not doing anything and I just release my stress thats been boiling and held down to.
I'm SIIIIIIIIICK ;^;
General | Posted 11 years agoI think I got the flu and I'm very weak so I have to not be on here for a while
Comission Adverteistment for LilMissBunBun
General | Posted 11 years agoOkay so me friendly friend is in need of help to raise funds in order to move in with me other friendly friend so they can have a lovely life with each other and I'll put the entire journal on quote and if you want to comment and stuff go here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6428552/
As a select few of you might know, I recently had to leave my job due to stress and unstable housing.
I'm in the process of moving in with my mate, in Toronto.
I am completely unfamiliar with this city, and while I am handing out resumes like they're going out of style I have been so far unsuccessful in finding a job. We are currently looking for an apartment in the area, but it's difficult with only one of us working. I need to get rent together, gas money (for moving my things into the city), ect.
I will attempt literally anything to the best of my ability.
(Have a 'weird' fetish? Bring it on! ;3 )
Even if you are unable to commission me, any sort of promo would be very much appreciated.
As of right now, my art is my only hope for some sort of income.
--
all examples can be found on my commission page, but I'm also listing them below.
SKETCHES
Bust: $10
Full Body: $15
(Add a character: +$2)
DETAILED COLOUR
Bust: $30-35
Full body: $45+
Additional characters are +$10-20
Simple bg is an extra $10
(Prices depend on how complicated a character is: any extra limbs/tails/wings/crazy markings/ect.)
CHARACTER REF SHEET
$55-$65+
- Choose what shape you'd like the palette in! (heart/stars/circle/splatter/ect)
- 2 close ups of your choice!
(Close up of the eye is standard, but teeth/ears/butt/genitalia/ect are also available.)
(An alternate hairstyle can also be used instead of a normal close up!)
*additional close ups may be an extra charge.
An outfit can be added (as a separate image) for an additional 10$.
- Simple underwear version is available upon request at no charge.
--
I am also doing some simple animated icons much like these:
for 15-20$ each.
Please send me a note if you can help me out! c:
So would you help a girly out cause c'mon they want a better life with each other and stuff and love maybe difficult onto far away places but this is the only way that things can better and bigger Kyu~~ ^^
is in need of help to raise funds in order to move in with me other friendly friend so they can have a lovely life with each other and I'll put the entire journal on quote and if you want to comment and stuff go here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6428552/As a select few of you might know, I recently had to leave my job due to stress and unstable housing.
I'm in the process of moving in with my mate,
in Toronto.I am completely unfamiliar with this city, and while I am handing out resumes like they're going out of style I have been so far unsuccessful in finding a job. We are currently looking for an apartment in the area, but it's difficult with only one of us working. I need to get rent together, gas money (for moving my things into the city), ect.
I will attempt literally anything to the best of my ability.
(Have a 'weird' fetish? Bring it on! ;3 )
Even if you are unable to commission me, any sort of promo would be very much appreciated.
As of right now, my art is my only hope for some sort of income.
--
all examples can be found on my commission page, but I'm also listing them below.
SKETCHES
Bust: $10
Full Body: $15
(Add a character: +$2)
DETAILED COLOUR
Bust: $30-35
Full body: $45+
Additional characters are +$10-20
Simple bg is an extra $10
(Prices depend on how complicated a character is: any extra limbs/tails/wings/crazy markings/ect.)
CHARACTER REF SHEET
$55-$65+
- Choose what shape you'd like the palette in! (heart/stars/circle/splatter/ect)
- 2 close ups of your choice!
(Close up of the eye is standard, but teeth/ears/butt/genitalia/ect are also available.)
(An alternate hairstyle can also be used instead of a normal close up!)
*additional close ups may be an extra charge.
An outfit can be added (as a separate image) for an additional 10$.
- Simple underwear version is available upon request at no charge.
--
I am also doing some simple animated icons much like these:
for 15-20$ each.Please send me a note if you can help me out! c:
So would you help a girly out cause c'mon they want a better life with each other and stuff and love maybe difficult onto far away places but this is the only way that things can better and bigger Kyu~~ ^^
I'm just here to update
General | Posted 11 years agoMost of you people been asking why I've been quiet lately so since I got a chance. And hell I wished I can say this on FB but he'll be bitching and destroying my shit within my room.
What's been going on that my dad's schizophrenia issue is getting worse and including on me because I've been trying to sleep most of the time and he interrupts me to take care of his problem, I've been trying to get out of the damn house so he wouldn't bother me with this issue and don't get me wrong I'm not trying to ignore you guys. I've been trying to have some peace and quiet away from my dad who's been repeatedly showing me his damn dick saying that those people have been burning it or cutting it and saying he's being inflated by them, while I'm just playing along to endure this.. Hell I've been trying to get a job but my fucking sleeping schedule is fucking broken that I'm up at nights to deal with his yelling all the fucking time!
One time I said no, he fucking involves the cops at me blaming me as the damn invisible stalker, follow by broken crap all over the house so yeah it wasn't really pleasant from it. Oh yeah btw his fucking Tumblr... It looks like a crazy porn account based on the damn 20 year-old picture of him and in reality he's having a fucking Mid-age faggot crisis follow by anxiety and a sweating condition that gets him worked up so easily that I can't even explain about it
I'm just fucking pissed and tired of this countless acts, tried getting him to a mental hospital 3 TIMES and saying nothing is wrong with him. He fucking lies it off and gets out from his 72 Hour business and he was trying to kill himself from it. But this time I'm not gonna help him... I'm gonna find a damn job, hopefully and not bothered by this shit anymore, and move out to a damn apartment. I'm a fucking grown up that's dying anyway and I wanna get out of this really fucking bad because this is giving me a terrible headache, and oh yeah no medical insurance is just fucking lovely =~=;;
So yeah that's what been going on with me lately... I'm just pissed off dealing with and playing along with my father having schizophrenia...
What's been going on that my dad's schizophrenia issue is getting worse and including on me because I've been trying to sleep most of the time and he interrupts me to take care of his problem, I've been trying to get out of the damn house so he wouldn't bother me with this issue and don't get me wrong I'm not trying to ignore you guys. I've been trying to have some peace and quiet away from my dad who's been repeatedly showing me his damn dick saying that those people have been burning it or cutting it and saying he's being inflated by them, while I'm just playing along to endure this.. Hell I've been trying to get a job but my fucking sleeping schedule is fucking broken that I'm up at nights to deal with his yelling all the fucking time!
One time I said no, he fucking involves the cops at me blaming me as the damn invisible stalker, follow by broken crap all over the house so yeah it wasn't really pleasant from it. Oh yeah btw his fucking Tumblr... It looks like a crazy porn account based on the damn 20 year-old picture of him and in reality he's having a fucking Mid-age faggot crisis follow by anxiety and a sweating condition that gets him worked up so easily that I can't even explain about it
I'm just fucking pissed and tired of this countless acts, tried getting him to a mental hospital 3 TIMES and saying nothing is wrong with him. He fucking lies it off and gets out from his 72 Hour business and he was trying to kill himself from it. But this time I'm not gonna help him... I'm gonna find a damn job, hopefully and not bothered by this shit anymore, and move out to a damn apartment. I'm a fucking grown up that's dying anyway and I wanna get out of this really fucking bad because this is giving me a terrible headache, and oh yeah no medical insurance is just fucking lovely =~=;;
So yeah that's what been going on with me lately... I'm just pissed off dealing with and playing along with my father having schizophrenia...
So I got an email from my dad cancelling Christmas...
General | Posted 11 years agoBecause he has another schizophrenia episode and its actually getting worse, seeing invisble people again forcing me to make flyers and spending money to scientists and let him be the laughing stalk about it and I barely got any sleep due to him yelling all day about it vnv;; So yeah there goes my gift exchanging plans... =\ And yeah I'm actually depressed about it but I wanna tell you this because he won't go on here...
Its been 6 Years since this is happening, I've been to foster care twice in my life and I think my tumor came from him from the intensed stress I went to a psych ward for 2 weeks because the last foster care place I went to was a conservitive type and trying to arrest me for brushing my damn teeth because I was wasting water. And to top it all off my dad takes Viccadan, Ambian, and Umisom for medicine. And when he runs out he gets into great pain and sometimes he ODs on Ambian like 6 or 8 Pills, and sometimes when he goes out to have gay sex him and his friends take Meth or Esctasy. There was some times he thinks I'm the invisible person and blames it on my friends too, which is annoying and everytime he goes to a Psych Ward... He lies it all off not even telling the truth on whats wrong and shit. One time I did and he completely destoryed all of my shit in my room.
So yeah christmas is cancelled and I'm pretty damn depressed about it due to having a schizophrenic dad that literly goes to the FBI saying there is people stalking him and trying to kill him with cloaking devices with silent helicopters and stuff that I would tell you that would be nuts... =\
Oh yeah he forced me to make a damn tumblr and put his underwear pic as a profile pic as a meaning and I'm like, they'll think its a porn account idiot. Lets see he made a Gofundme as well and I can tell you how many accounts he did putting as an Anon name for it...
Ugh... I dunno... I should save on money to get a car and try to get the hell outta there to survive, this is like my frustration talking out of me because I am pretty damn pissed about it...
Its been 6 Years since this is happening, I've been to foster care twice in my life and I think my tumor came from him from the intensed stress I went to a psych ward for 2 weeks because the last foster care place I went to was a conservitive type and trying to arrest me for brushing my damn teeth because I was wasting water. And to top it all off my dad takes Viccadan, Ambian, and Umisom for medicine. And when he runs out he gets into great pain and sometimes he ODs on Ambian like 6 or 8 Pills, and sometimes when he goes out to have gay sex him and his friends take Meth or Esctasy. There was some times he thinks I'm the invisible person and blames it on my friends too, which is annoying and everytime he goes to a Psych Ward... He lies it all off not even telling the truth on whats wrong and shit. One time I did and he completely destoryed all of my shit in my room.
So yeah christmas is cancelled and I'm pretty damn depressed about it due to having a schizophrenic dad that literly goes to the FBI saying there is people stalking him and trying to kill him with cloaking devices with silent helicopters and stuff that I would tell you that would be nuts... =\
Oh yeah he forced me to make a damn tumblr and put his underwear pic as a profile pic as a meaning and I'm like, they'll think its a porn account idiot. Lets see he made a Gofundme as well and I can tell you how many accounts he did putting as an Anon name for it...
Ugh... I dunno... I should save on money to get a car and try to get the hell outta there to survive, this is like my frustration talking out of me because I am pretty damn pissed about it...
I feel like a Fatass today
General | Posted 11 years agoI ate too much Thanksgiving Food =3= IT WAS DELICIOUS AND I FEEL HEAVY and it was worth it ^3^ Now Twi needs to rest because me feel very fat and full
Omega Ruby
General | Posted 11 years agoBrb gonna play the shit out of this game and p.s. get your Mystery Gift Beldum~♡
Where to find me Journal
General | Posted 11 years agoYeah I saw FA go boom '3' But you can find me on Twitter, Facebook, Inkbunny, Weasyl and Skype under the same Twlight05 name yay~
Soooooo.... Who wants a Diancie Code? (DONE)
General | Posted 11 years agoRaffles over I tossed my D10 of the number and sadly the ones on FB got their choosen number ^^;
