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possible change in life. not sure where to go with it.
General | Posted 16 years agoin some mental turmoil at the moment. trying to make a life altering decision that will affect not only how people look at me, but many things that i somewhat enjoy. this decision may also affect how i am viewed in the fandom and may bring some hate or discrimination.
i believe that joining the fandom has played a big role in me coming to think about this decision. i know i am not alone but from my position it may seem a little weird.
i am not saying what it is here, so those who care to know can contact me about it.
also i am not sure as to how far i will go with it. so until then i must leave the masses in the dark. this is my decision and i need to figure it out myself.
i believe that joining the fandom has played a big role in me coming to think about this decision. i know i am not alone but from my position it may seem a little weird.
i am not saying what it is here, so those who care to know can contact me about it.
also i am not sure as to how far i will go with it. so until then i must leave the masses in the dark. this is my decision and i need to figure it out myself.
My Fine is $330.1
General | Posted 16 years agoJust some things that I feel like talking about! Why am I doing this!!!
The Rules: This is fun to do. Just read the 'offense' and if you've done it, you owe that fine.
You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.
NOTE: fines to be added once, not for how ever many times you have done it. And be honest.
Smoked weed -- $10
Did acid or pills -- $5
Ever had sex at church -- $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace/Facebook/Bebo/FA? etc -- $25
Had sex for money -- $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- $20
Vandalized something -- $20
Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
Beat up someone -- $20
Been jumped -- $10
Cross dressed -- $10
Given money to stripper -- $25
Been in love with a stripper -- $20
Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- $0.10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
Ever drive and drank -- $20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
Used toys while having sex -- $30
Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
Went skinny dipping -- $5
Had sex in a pool -- $20
Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
Cheated on your significant other -- $10
Masturbated -- $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20
Done oral -- $5
Got oral -- $5
Done / got oral in a vehicle while it was moving -- $25
Stole something -- $10
Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
Made a nasty home video or took pictures -- $15
Had a threesome -- $50
Had sex in public -- $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex --$25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars-- $20
Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
Had sex with someone under the age accepted by rule of thumb (half your age plus 7) -- $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time-- $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
Went streaking -- $5
Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
Been arrested -- $5
Spent time in jail -- $15
Pissed in the pool -- $0.50
Played spin the bottle -- $5
Done something you regret -- $20
Had sex with your best friend -- $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25
Had anal sex -- $80
Lied to your mate -- $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25
Tally it up and put it on your status as: "My Fine Is..." (nothing else) then repost.
a little extra:
separated by age (same questions posted 5 years at a time)
0-5=$?
5-10=$0.1
10-15=$190
15-20=$150
20-now=$70.1
seems the more I learn the better my decisions get
Thanks for reading! \^,=,^/
The Rules: This is fun to do. Just read the 'offense' and if you've done it, you owe that fine.
You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.
NOTE: fines to be added once, not for how ever many times you have done it. And be honest.
Smoked weed -- $10
Did acid or pills -- $5
Ever had sex at church -- $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace/Facebook/Bebo/FA? etc -- $25
Had sex for money -- $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- $20
Vandalized something -- $20
Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
Beat up someone -- $20
Been jumped -- $10
Cross dressed -- $10
Given money to stripper -- $25
Been in love with a stripper -- $20
Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- $0.10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
Ever drive and drank -- $20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
Used toys while having sex -- $30
Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
Went skinny dipping -- $5
Had sex in a pool -- $20
Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
Cheated on your significant other -- $10
Masturbated -- $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20
Done oral -- $5
Got oral -- $5
Done / got oral in a vehicle while it was moving -- $25
Stole something -- $10
Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
Made a nasty home video or took pictures -- $15
Had a threesome -- $50
Had sex in public -- $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex --$25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars-- $20
Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
Had sex with someone under the age accepted by rule of thumb (half your age plus 7) -- $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time-- $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
Went streaking -- $5
Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
Been arrested -- $5
Spent time in jail -- $15
Pissed in the pool -- $0.50
Played spin the bottle -- $5
Done something you regret -- $20
Had sex with your best friend -- $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25
Had anal sex -- $80
Lied to your mate -- $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25
Tally it up and put it on your status as: "My Fine Is..." (nothing else) then repost.
a little extra:
separated by age (same questions posted 5 years at a time)
0-5=$?
5-10=$0.1
10-15=$190
15-20=$150
20-now=$70.1
seems the more I learn the better my decisions get
Thanks for reading! \^,=,^/
new years
General | Posted 16 years agowoo hoo. happy new year. thanks to everyone for making this end of the year the best one ever. nothing like bringing in the new year inside a fursuit. i hope to meet many more of you at the upcoming cons. look for me at FCN, AC and MFF this year.
first journal entry
General | Posted 16 years agowell this is my first journal entry. i just thought id use it to recap the past few months and my entrance into the fandom. my first intro was over a year back on draconity. not really the place for me, so i slowly left. then i decided to build a dragon suit. mostly because i wanted to feel more like how i perceived myself. i started with looking up and designing digit-grade stilts. so i looked at pics of other ones people had made. i figured these were costumers for movies and such, but the more i looked the more diverse and unique they became. i had never seen anything like this in any movies before. i looked at a few websites and when i looked at the site for Anthrocon it hit me. there are a lot of freaks out there just like me on the inside. how did i miss this? so during the summer i spent some time following the event, watching you tube videos and basically studying the fandom just to see if it really fit me.
i learned from all this that this is one of the most diverse groups of people on earth. we each have our differences yet are drawn together by the many aspects of animals and the feelings and symbolism they hold for us. some are perverse, some are cute, some are really strange, and some are deep. each has a place here.
it is about this time i found MIFUR. what do you know, there are a lot of furs around where i live. so i joined and met a lot of people, i would say i tested the water with my toe, then something pushed my from behind and i fell in. the next day i started making a suit. mostly just to to build one but there was the chance that if, if it was good enough i would wear it somewhere, i had high hopes but plenty of motivation to drive me there.
well as the days wore on the designing turned into building and the dragon started to appear. the mask was a mental workout, trying to visualize in my head what i needed and then shape it in RL was harder then i thought it would be. the tail frame was built from scraps. i was budgeting to the penny at first, then i bought the fur and all that changed. 112 for the fur, 20 dollars here, 30 there. glue gun, stapler, needles, thread, it all added up to quite a bit more than anticipated(315). i was left with 20 dollars for food after rent per week. but i managed to survive,
so i spent the next month in my room building, all free time was devoted to it and my social life suffered a little. house mates got a little concerned and eventually learned of my hidden identity that i kept from them for the 2 years i had known them.
that was not as bad as i thought it would be.
then came the final push, Halloween. i wanted to get it ready for that so i could test it out in open. the final night i spent 15 hours straight on it making the body suit and putting 2 stripes on the shoulders. i took it to work the next day and i felt like the Iron Giant hiding from the military in the barn with all the junk just thrown on for a disguise. the thing barely stayed on me. the lower body kept falling down like a loose pair of jeans and you could see all the belts and straps. but it helped to learn what to fix, and the heat was something i did not expect. it was about 70 in the dining hall, and felt like 120 in the suit.
i then kept working at a slower pace as i needed to catch up on studies. i added the rest of the stripes, connected it all together, and redid some popped seams from the quick sewing job i did during that 15 hour push.
then i got some news, my parents moved the thanksgiving party to the next weekend after instead of before. i could not make a bowling meet i was planning on but that opened up...MFF!!!!. oh $%#* i can make it to a con? Yessssss! so i started making plans 2 weeks before it.
found a room in the main hotel, and made plans to leave early from school.
it was strange driving 12 hours in 20 to get there but i made it. after getting lost on some toll road i finally came up to the hotel. really quiet there, in the parking lot. i could not see any furs.. wait, i see a few at the door. i somewhat expected more. but then again it was 10am so things were just getting started.
it was funny seeing the huge building standing there silent, containing furry chaos within.
so i took a stroll inside to registration. and had a 2 min line wait (not bad). good thing no one took my name. i have no idea what to choose if it was taken.
and inside was a wide assortment of people. some in costume, some with ears and tails, and a lot without. i felt out of place. alone. i could not see anyone i saw online. so i decided to just bring everything up to the room. wearing the frame of my wings caused a few comments which made me smile a bit. and up to the 11th floor.
i met my roommates for the first time and all that went great, short though since everyone was doing something.
first day consisted of going to fursuit panels, 2, kage, and after that decided to suit up.
wow was it warm. glad i installed a fan. but worth it. right out of the elevator i was handed cake with 271 on it. people took pictures, i felt awkward for not having any idea what i was doing. but i went along with it.
in this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLiwKtOg970 at about time frame 6:19 you will hear some calling out a con virgin. that's me. and i get the welcome that i will never forget (thanks Damaron). first furs i met in suit that i have seen online.
by the second day i was suiting more. a lot more. still just as warm, but i got used to it.
i had the day planned out but that got trashed as i just went with whatever hanging out and just trying to see everything. getting pics done early without a line (:
put on the wings for the parade. and walked through the narrow hallways, scraping them with the wingtips.
met Cinderelmcreek, Hyper, goldenwolf2879, Lil Chi Wolf, Slayer the Lynx, Syberfox, Taren, Ix the Puppy, Abrahm, Rafferty, Fable, Calygula, Mutant-Serpentina, Damaron, Koinu-kun, and a few others who i cant remember the names of or think of right now.
third day i suited more than not. i needed to be home by 9 am the next morning so i could not stay long. or could i ...
instead of going home i decided to stay and hang out with the new friends i made. best choice i ever made. went to taco bell/KFC with Syber and Slayer, i kept on my body suit and feet. a little kid kept staring at me. was fun just to mess with people like that. Sybers chicken seemed to take forever, stupid KFC. after that was the dead dog dance. i am not much of a dancer so having the suit was good to keep me from feeling embarrassed. by the end of that i was dead. but i still needed to drive home. so i said my goodbys to Slayer, Syber, and Lil Chi and packed up my stuff. felt like i was leaving home and never going back. i never wanted to leave.
i hallucinated on the way home i was so tired. the shadows kept attacking my car. but i managed to swerve around them ad the other headlights to get home.
i finally had a chance to be me. without all the stupid cover and the social mask. i found other furs with similar interests and got some great inspiration. I got a taste of the fandom from the inside. on the outside i was scared and uneasy about associating myself with a group that had had some bad publicity but after that con that all changed.
i had an insane amount of fun that i really cant compare to anything else i have experienced.
cant wait to do it again.
thanks to all the people i met, all the people who commented on my suit (made me proud of my work) and especially Lil Chi, Syber, and Slayer for showing me the real fun behind fur-suiting and making that last night one of the best in my life.
i will hopefully see you all again soon.
i learned from all this that this is one of the most diverse groups of people on earth. we each have our differences yet are drawn together by the many aspects of animals and the feelings and symbolism they hold for us. some are perverse, some are cute, some are really strange, and some are deep. each has a place here.
it is about this time i found MIFUR. what do you know, there are a lot of furs around where i live. so i joined and met a lot of people, i would say i tested the water with my toe, then something pushed my from behind and i fell in. the next day i started making a suit. mostly just to to build one but there was the chance that if, if it was good enough i would wear it somewhere, i had high hopes but plenty of motivation to drive me there.
well as the days wore on the designing turned into building and the dragon started to appear. the mask was a mental workout, trying to visualize in my head what i needed and then shape it in RL was harder then i thought it would be. the tail frame was built from scraps. i was budgeting to the penny at first, then i bought the fur and all that changed. 112 for the fur, 20 dollars here, 30 there. glue gun, stapler, needles, thread, it all added up to quite a bit more than anticipated(315). i was left with 20 dollars for food after rent per week. but i managed to survive,
so i spent the next month in my room building, all free time was devoted to it and my social life suffered a little. house mates got a little concerned and eventually learned of my hidden identity that i kept from them for the 2 years i had known them.
that was not as bad as i thought it would be.
then came the final push, Halloween. i wanted to get it ready for that so i could test it out in open. the final night i spent 15 hours straight on it making the body suit and putting 2 stripes on the shoulders. i took it to work the next day and i felt like the Iron Giant hiding from the military in the barn with all the junk just thrown on for a disguise. the thing barely stayed on me. the lower body kept falling down like a loose pair of jeans and you could see all the belts and straps. but it helped to learn what to fix, and the heat was something i did not expect. it was about 70 in the dining hall, and felt like 120 in the suit.
i then kept working at a slower pace as i needed to catch up on studies. i added the rest of the stripes, connected it all together, and redid some popped seams from the quick sewing job i did during that 15 hour push.
then i got some news, my parents moved the thanksgiving party to the next weekend after instead of before. i could not make a bowling meet i was planning on but that opened up...MFF!!!!. oh $%#* i can make it to a con? Yessssss! so i started making plans 2 weeks before it.
found a room in the main hotel, and made plans to leave early from school.
it was strange driving 12 hours in 20 to get there but i made it. after getting lost on some toll road i finally came up to the hotel. really quiet there, in the parking lot. i could not see any furs.. wait, i see a few at the door. i somewhat expected more. but then again it was 10am so things were just getting started.
it was funny seeing the huge building standing there silent, containing furry chaos within.
so i took a stroll inside to registration. and had a 2 min line wait (not bad). good thing no one took my name. i have no idea what to choose if it was taken.
and inside was a wide assortment of people. some in costume, some with ears and tails, and a lot without. i felt out of place. alone. i could not see anyone i saw online. so i decided to just bring everything up to the room. wearing the frame of my wings caused a few comments which made me smile a bit. and up to the 11th floor.
i met my roommates for the first time and all that went great, short though since everyone was doing something.
first day consisted of going to fursuit panels, 2, kage, and after that decided to suit up.
wow was it warm. glad i installed a fan. but worth it. right out of the elevator i was handed cake with 271 on it. people took pictures, i felt awkward for not having any idea what i was doing. but i went along with it.
in this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLiwKtOg970 at about time frame 6:19 you will hear some calling out a con virgin. that's me. and i get the welcome that i will never forget (thanks Damaron). first furs i met in suit that i have seen online.
by the second day i was suiting more. a lot more. still just as warm, but i got used to it.
i had the day planned out but that got trashed as i just went with whatever hanging out and just trying to see everything. getting pics done early without a line (:
put on the wings for the parade. and walked through the narrow hallways, scraping them with the wingtips.
met Cinderelmcreek, Hyper, goldenwolf2879, Lil Chi Wolf, Slayer the Lynx, Syberfox, Taren, Ix the Puppy, Abrahm, Rafferty, Fable, Calygula, Mutant-Serpentina, Damaron, Koinu-kun, and a few others who i cant remember the names of or think of right now.
third day i suited more than not. i needed to be home by 9 am the next morning so i could not stay long. or could i ...
instead of going home i decided to stay and hang out with the new friends i made. best choice i ever made. went to taco bell/KFC with Syber and Slayer, i kept on my body suit and feet. a little kid kept staring at me. was fun just to mess with people like that. Sybers chicken seemed to take forever, stupid KFC. after that was the dead dog dance. i am not much of a dancer so having the suit was good to keep me from feeling embarrassed. by the end of that i was dead. but i still needed to drive home. so i said my goodbys to Slayer, Syber, and Lil Chi and packed up my stuff. felt like i was leaving home and never going back. i never wanted to leave.
i hallucinated on the way home i was so tired. the shadows kept attacking my car. but i managed to swerve around them ad the other headlights to get home.
i finally had a chance to be me. without all the stupid cover and the social mask. i found other furs with similar interests and got some great inspiration. I got a taste of the fandom from the inside. on the outside i was scared and uneasy about associating myself with a group that had had some bad publicity but after that con that all changed.
i had an insane amount of fun that i really cant compare to anything else i have experienced.
cant wait to do it again.
thanks to all the people i met, all the people who commented on my suit (made me proud of my work) and especially Lil Chi, Syber, and Slayer for showing me the real fun behind fur-suiting and making that last night one of the best in my life.
i will hopefully see you all again soon.
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