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Posted a year agoHey peeps, Umber here. To start I just wanted to thank those who have stuck around and have been checking up on me recently. I'm alright, been mostly focused on stuff in my life so please don't worry. I got a new kick ass job as a chef/ porter at a burger bar down the road from me. It's been a challenge finding what career path I wanna go down and I think cooking is where it's at for me.
It's been a huge boost to my confidence and a pleasure. Nothing makes me happier than the smile I put on people's faces with my cooking I find, it's hard and the kitchen gets hot but I love it! I love the fast paced work. Yes I get home all sweaty and beat up but I end my day knowing that the food I make could have very well made some strangers day. It's what I needed. Just something to be super passionate about besides my usual furry shenanigans. The kitchen is where I belong.
I don't feel as sad anymore and I've gotten a lot of support over the past few months. Depression is like a dragon, and for a while I could not slay it. I struggled with PTSD (that I was officially diagnosed with recently among other things and am now getting help with ) and it caused a lot of people to just up and leave my side. It hurt a lot. Having people you come to love so much write you off as some weirdo or villain because of a disability you can't help.
Not only that, sometimes friends are just fickle and they move on for whatever reason. I think my problem was that I often come to love and grow so very attached to a lot of my friends so...when they leave it hits me hard. But that's just how it is it can't really be helped. If someone ghosts you, let em, it's their loss. The real friends are the ones who stick around and try to understand you. Real friends communicate, tell you when you've upset them and stay true to their words. Having learned this, I'm satisfied. I don't really feel the need to try to break my back to keep the ones who want to leave or feel like I'm some scumbag. I and the people who matter know who I am. I don't care what others think, why should I if they never took the time to get to know me themselves?
That said, again I want to thank those who have stuck around. I know some of ya don't use FA and just peep my stuff to read. I want you to know how thankful I am. I wont vanish again. Another thing getting me down I guess was my plans not going the way I hoped they would. Like for instance the art I've commissioned from a few artist and have not received yet after months of doing so. Hey, we all got a life. Artist are the same, but it does suck that I've seen said artist do pieces for others just fine while my commissions are still in backlog. If you're reading this and you're one of the few I got a split com in the waits with worry not, I can pay you back today or we can find another artist to get our stuff with. That's kinda all you can do when you put money up front but the other doesn't follow through. You move on. A lesson has been learnt and I now know who to trust. So note me and we'll get to planning the nasties and safe stuff we had planned! ^^
The animation I been hyping up with some of you in private is still coming, it's just taking a while however I'm unsure if I wanna share it here publicly given the type of content it is (A bit of a noncon thing some discord buds and I were having done), regardless tho it's coming. The artist doing it is having some health issues as I was told. My written content however is being shared on Discord!
Yes again I write, and given how things have been looking up I'm going to slowly start posting my works here at my own pace. People were happy with the request I've done too so I might do more of those, I know some of yall suggested I do story commissions but I'm not that confident in my writing ability yet so I'm sticking to request for now. Nothing stopping you from paying me anyway however. I know I sure as hell can't lmao.
On another note, I'm going to be looking for an artist who can do some streamer stuff for me. Like a banner, channel art and whatever else I'd like done. I haven't the time to do it myself and I'm already learning how to edit videos and such. If you're new to my page and interested please do shoot me a note. My discord will be given upon request as well I just don't share it publicly for personal reasons.
I'm also working on my own Analog horror series! Something else I'm super passionate about is horror and given it's the spooky month I thought I'd try my hand at it so if that's something that interests you keep a lookout for that stuff. I'll likely share any links if I upload anything regarding my series too. Spoilers of course, I won't say what it's about. When it happens it happens. Just know it's gonna be good and that I'm super excited for it and the quality. >:3
Bye for now, if any art that I got is finished I'll slap it up here. Love ya'll!
It's been a huge boost to my confidence and a pleasure. Nothing makes me happier than the smile I put on people's faces with my cooking I find, it's hard and the kitchen gets hot but I love it! I love the fast paced work. Yes I get home all sweaty and beat up but I end my day knowing that the food I make could have very well made some strangers day. It's what I needed. Just something to be super passionate about besides my usual furry shenanigans. The kitchen is where I belong.
I don't feel as sad anymore and I've gotten a lot of support over the past few months. Depression is like a dragon, and for a while I could not slay it. I struggled with PTSD (that I was officially diagnosed with recently among other things and am now getting help with ) and it caused a lot of people to just up and leave my side. It hurt a lot. Having people you come to love so much write you off as some weirdo or villain because of a disability you can't help.
Not only that, sometimes friends are just fickle and they move on for whatever reason. I think my problem was that I often come to love and grow so very attached to a lot of my friends so...when they leave it hits me hard. But that's just how it is it can't really be helped. If someone ghosts you, let em, it's their loss. The real friends are the ones who stick around and try to understand you. Real friends communicate, tell you when you've upset them and stay true to their words. Having learned this, I'm satisfied. I don't really feel the need to try to break my back to keep the ones who want to leave or feel like I'm some scumbag. I and the people who matter know who I am. I don't care what others think, why should I if they never took the time to get to know me themselves?
That said, again I want to thank those who have stuck around. I know some of ya don't use FA and just peep my stuff to read. I want you to know how thankful I am. I wont vanish again. Another thing getting me down I guess was my plans not going the way I hoped they would. Like for instance the art I've commissioned from a few artist and have not received yet after months of doing so. Hey, we all got a life. Artist are the same, but it does suck that I've seen said artist do pieces for others just fine while my commissions are still in backlog. If you're reading this and you're one of the few I got a split com in the waits with worry not, I can pay you back today or we can find another artist to get our stuff with. That's kinda all you can do when you put money up front but the other doesn't follow through. You move on. A lesson has been learnt and I now know who to trust. So note me and we'll get to planning the nasties and safe stuff we had planned! ^^
The animation I been hyping up with some of you in private is still coming, it's just taking a while however I'm unsure if I wanna share it here publicly given the type of content it is (A bit of a noncon thing some discord buds and I were having done), regardless tho it's coming. The artist doing it is having some health issues as I was told. My written content however is being shared on Discord!
Yes again I write, and given how things have been looking up I'm going to slowly start posting my works here at my own pace. People were happy with the request I've done too so I might do more of those, I know some of yall suggested I do story commissions but I'm not that confident in my writing ability yet so I'm sticking to request for now. Nothing stopping you from paying me anyway however. I know I sure as hell can't lmao.
On another note, I'm going to be looking for an artist who can do some streamer stuff for me. Like a banner, channel art and whatever else I'd like done. I haven't the time to do it myself and I'm already learning how to edit videos and such. If you're new to my page and interested please do shoot me a note. My discord will be given upon request as well I just don't share it publicly for personal reasons.
I'm also working on my own Analog horror series! Something else I'm super passionate about is horror and given it's the spooky month I thought I'd try my hand at it so if that's something that interests you keep a lookout for that stuff. I'll likely share any links if I upload anything regarding my series too. Spoilers of course, I won't say what it's about. When it happens it happens. Just know it's gonna be good and that I'm super excited for it and the quality. >:3
Bye for now, if any art that I got is finished I'll slap it up here. Love ya'll!
It begins. Massive update + Things to come!!!!
Posted 2 years agoBefore I get into where I've been and anything else. Here's what I got planned. :3
I'll be streaming after the start of next year starting March! - A lot of my friends been suggesting I start streaming and making youtube content so I've been messing around with a bunch of editing software. My channel art is currently 50% done. I'll share more when I have more on this to share but it's nothing too special. Occasional goofing off with the bros, hardcore gayming and your usual back and fourth rivalry. All for fun of course!~ Either that or I'll have a set of games for peeps to make me play. I'll likely set up a poll for it. The plan is to be streaming every Sunday night and upload one youtube video every Thursday. Been really wanting to play through the entire God of War series on hardest difficulty. (Or whenever I'm off and not chopping meat. I'm a butcher now.)
New art and animations incoming! - I've been getting real busy. Keeping a good bit of you busy. Really REALLY busy >W>, my fingers are aching from all the typing! Totally worth it though with all these salacious pieces the chaos is spawning. There's four split coms done already I just haven't had a chance to post them (also asking for permission to post them), I have two new characters in the works. One that'll be completed in a week or so, the other one will be finished later :3 Nine more split comms in the works, then three artist I have to get back to as they need information and five on freeze as it's tied to a book I'm trying to write and I want illustrations for it. More on that later. I plan on buying more commissions on top of these now that my life is unfucked and actually in a much more stellar place! (Don't worry I plan to get back to some of you and get our comms/ ideas started as well.)
Last thing I got coming is a big animation from one of my fav artist, I won't spoil the surprise but it's gonna be gay as hell. Much noise. Much sloppy. I have another slot for the second animation I have planned so do let me know if you want in. We'll have a nice l e n g t h y talk about it.
Now I know I said I was gonna start drawing, and I did. I started practicing but then I realized something. If I wanna get anywhere with it I'll have to put some years aside to learn and be patient with myself on it, and that's a problem in itself because I just feel the urge to move onto one creative project to the next. Sorta adhd in thr sense that I nevet end up finishing anything. That said, I'm gonna narrow my focus down to what I know I'm already alright at and revisit drawing when I have the passion for it agsin. Gonna stick to writing and maybe something music related since I used to make drills/ beats.
I've been learning base as well, kinda getting good at it and I wanna fool around in garage band and shit like I used to and make cool things again. Might not be for everyone but feel free to give whatever I post a listen. If ya want. I also plan on either posting unedited roleplay logs for funzies or rewritten stories based off of them. Unsure which but I like the idea of the latter more and a friend's been wsnting me to get to rewriting a rp we did a while ago. So expect a hot sloppy noncon story featuring my bun getting his wood pecked (with potential added illustration).
That pretty much sums it up. As to where I've been. To put it short I was left in a rut after some dumb drama in my personal life. I had to detach from social media some and start from zero. Had to get away from some awful people and reevaluate my relationships with people/ cut free from toxic ones. Didn't take me too long to get to where I am now, and with nothing in my way I'm back and bigger than ever.
Though I would have never gotten this far without the help of my friends who helped me through this rough year also. To those who stuck around after everything thanks. I'm
sorry I let myself be so manipulated and hemmed up for so long. I learned a lot though and without your support, your love and guidance I don't know where I'd be. Thank you for helping me move on. Thanks for loving on this bunny so much!!! I love you all tons! ♡♡♡♡ >///< You all motivate me that much harder to improve and to keep going, especially in my writing endeavors. My endless thanks and appreciations to both old and newest of buds!
These were truly some of my darkest days and you stuck by my side until the end where others abandoned me. Your loyalty, our bond, we'll immortalize it here together. I don't wanna upload everything at once so soon but rest assured I'm not going anywhere. I'm back, and I look forwards to the many days of lewdness & fun we have ahead of us. Expect more journals and activity in general from me too.
I'll be streaming after the start of next year starting March! - A lot of my friends been suggesting I start streaming and making youtube content so I've been messing around with a bunch of editing software. My channel art is currently 50% done. I'll share more when I have more on this to share but it's nothing too special. Occasional goofing off with the bros, hardcore gayming and your usual back and fourth rivalry. All for fun of course!~ Either that or I'll have a set of games for peeps to make me play. I'll likely set up a poll for it. The plan is to be streaming every Sunday night and upload one youtube video every Thursday. Been really wanting to play through the entire God of War series on hardest difficulty. (Or whenever I'm off and not chopping meat. I'm a butcher now.)
New art and animations incoming! - I've been getting real busy. Keeping a good bit of you busy. Really REALLY busy >W>, my fingers are aching from all the typing! Totally worth it though with all these salacious pieces the chaos is spawning. There's four split coms done already I just haven't had a chance to post them (also asking for permission to post them), I have two new characters in the works. One that'll be completed in a week or so, the other one will be finished later :3 Nine more split comms in the works, then three artist I have to get back to as they need information and five on freeze as it's tied to a book I'm trying to write and I want illustrations for it. More on that later. I plan on buying more commissions on top of these now that my life is unfucked and actually in a much more stellar place! (Don't worry I plan to get back to some of you and get our comms/ ideas started as well.)
Last thing I got coming is a big animation from one of my fav artist, I won't spoil the surprise but it's gonna be gay as hell. Much noise. Much sloppy. I have another slot for the second animation I have planned so do let me know if you want in. We'll have a nice l e n g t h y talk about it.
Now I know I said I was gonna start drawing, and I did. I started practicing but then I realized something. If I wanna get anywhere with it I'll have to put some years aside to learn and be patient with myself on it, and that's a problem in itself because I just feel the urge to move onto one creative project to the next. Sorta adhd in thr sense that I nevet end up finishing anything. That said, I'm gonna narrow my focus down to what I know I'm already alright at and revisit drawing when I have the passion for it agsin. Gonna stick to writing and maybe something music related since I used to make drills/ beats.
I've been learning base as well, kinda getting good at it and I wanna fool around in garage band and shit like I used to and make cool things again. Might not be for everyone but feel free to give whatever I post a listen. If ya want. I also plan on either posting unedited roleplay logs for funzies or rewritten stories based off of them. Unsure which but I like the idea of the latter more and a friend's been wsnting me to get to rewriting a rp we did a while ago. So expect a hot sloppy noncon story featuring my bun getting his wood pecked (with potential added illustration).
That pretty much sums it up. As to where I've been. To put it short I was left in a rut after some dumb drama in my personal life. I had to detach from social media some and start from zero. Had to get away from some awful people and reevaluate my relationships with people/ cut free from toxic ones. Didn't take me too long to get to where I am now, and with nothing in my way I'm back and bigger than ever.
Though I would have never gotten this far without the help of my friends who helped me through this rough year also. To those who stuck around after everything thanks. I'm
sorry I let myself be so manipulated and hemmed up for so long. I learned a lot though and without your support, your love and guidance I don't know where I'd be. Thank you for helping me move on. Thanks for loving on this bunny so much!!! I love you all tons! ♡♡♡♡ >///< You all motivate me that much harder to improve and to keep going, especially in my writing endeavors. My endless thanks and appreciations to both old and newest of buds!
These were truly some of my darkest days and you stuck by my side until the end where others abandoned me. Your loyalty, our bond, we'll immortalize it here together. I don't wanna upload everything at once so soon but rest assured I'm not going anywhere. I'm back, and I look forwards to the many days of lewdness & fun we have ahead of us. Expect more journals and activity in general from me too.
