So, I've nearly logged in all my hours for my driving test but my glasses broke... go figure, huh?

  pawcha is going into the navy after she graduates so I'm on my own again for a few months once she leaves... I don't want her to go but I support her anyways. At least I get a 'hall pass' while she's gone. heh

Been clubbing, working at the shop, clocking in hours for amtgard, and playing DND with my friends. Went to fort Wayne for a rave last night... had a killer time. Until this chick that I wasn't attracted to hit on me and grabbed my crotch.... then I found out she was a tranny and I had to go cry in a corner. Lol

Been working out and getting ripped... not gonna lie to you guys. I'm looking kinda hot now. XD

Had to chop off my hair and start over AGAIN because the damned pink wouldn't even come out with professional color strip. So my hair is short again and back to the original blonde again. Can't do anything crazy until after my sister's wedding which is in a month. Ugh.

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I'm considering going to college this summer...I'm not sure what for at the moment but I'm just gonna go. I can find a job obviously so I figure I'll try my hand at school again. I'm not sure what to expect but I'm not going to waste my time job hunting anymore if I'm not even going to get so much as one call back from anyone in over a year.

I'm up for suggestions but as far as I know I'm thinking of studying cooking, music, science, arts, and a few others that I seem to have a knack for.

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Just... fuck everything lately. Ugh.

Still revamping my old sona in my head... thinking of making it a porcubadger... thing. Also still need my new/other sona drawn up. (Thresher shark thing)

Fuck being poor and down on luck... it sucks.

Blah blah blah.... don't mind my stupid ranting. I'mcrazy. >~<

So, the wind chill outside is down to -20°. I wann go sledding but I don't wanna get frostbite. WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO HARD TO HAVE FUN AROUND HERE?! ;_;
 pawcha and I have come to the conclusion that if either of us get married (hopefully to each other) that we're getting tattoos on our ring fingers instead of actual rings. Rings are too easy to pawn and get rid of... if it doesn't work out then it's going to be painful to get rid of. I don't want to go through multiple marriages like my sisters seem to be making a trend of. (Plus, I couldn't handle more than one... I'm barely functional already)

I just don't know where to go from here. I've never felt like this for anyone so much. she's my best friend and I literally can't stop thinking of her if I go too long without seeing her. It's almost overwhelming... I think I understand what love is now.

If anyone can help set my thoughts straigh/confirm what I'm feeling then I'd be forever grateful. This confusion and uncertainty is starting to become irksome.

Here's to hoping my vacation in Florida goes well. lol

It's about damn time FA got their shit together. lol
I'm getting another tattoo with my Christmas money. Going sometime this week with Howard when he gets his and I get my Christmas money... signing up for college tonight with him and might be getting my car fixed and my license with the money. (And a laptop if all goes right.)

Might be making a thresher shark sona after I change up Bones. Still have to think up a name and style for the shark. (Probably gonna make it a chick.)

Also, getting a few piercings after I get more money. Still have some people who I owe.


Oh! And I'm going to work out tomorrow. :3 (woot!)

So, this newest update made the site run slow as fuck on my phone and the site also doesn't even load correctly half the time now. I'm having problems replying to comments/posting comments and it keeps force closing the browser on my phone.

Idk wtf is going on but I'm pretty damn sure updates are supposed to fix problems, not create them.

Get your shit together FA. The site was working just fine before this 'update'.

Sincerely,
one very irked badger
AKA Bonez.

I've been thinking of making a few tweeks to Bones and making q couple more furs/scales lately. But, like always, I have a problem of not having money or a way to pay people forcommissions. So yeah... I'm at a new wall that needs knocking down.

Anyone who sees artists looking for practice, are doing raffles, or giving out gift art, PLEASE let me know.

Also, updated my page a bit. Nothing too big but it needed an update.

Later haters.

Not much to look at but I figured another dump was in order. lol
Talk to me more, fuckers. Where my old crew be at? o.o

Of 5 kittens, since the bio-mom got hit. Fuck.

I knew something was up when she didn't pay child support... bitch. >.>

I'm considering coming back to FA because FB is a bunch of bullshit now... I just don't know if it'd be worth my time to invest in this site again because only a few (like 5 people tops) ever post on my shit or message me, aside from therandom watches and comments I get every other month.

Basically I'm curious as to what has changed in the past few years/if my coming back would be worth it.

Fell over in pain about an hour ago. Can't even move without screaming due to pain in my lower back... something wrong with my spine. Updates later.

Need. Most. Skype. Buddies.

Seriously.

So in the past few months I've noticed a few things changing. First off, I've gradually been noticing voices that aren't there. Along with this, I've also been seeing things that aren't there at times too. I'm unsure if I need psychiatric help or what.... I just know that I've been numb and emotionally stagnant for a while now.
The nightmares are getting worse too, but I doubt they'll ever go away at this point.

I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever get back to feeling anywhere remotely close to what I used to be like. (Happy and less encumbered by my feelings)
I'm not a religious person but I really need help, be it prayer or whatever it is you believe in. All I know is I've been on an aggressive downfall for over 3 years now and I'm done waiting on it to get better.

So I went to jail recently for shoplifting... and go figure; it was something I forgot to pay for. Walmart went through their cameras and saw that I hadn't paid for something by accident and called the cops on me after I went in.... so yeah, I'm not in the best mood lately.
Was in jail for about 5 days or so and got released with a year of probation. I also have a lot of fines to pay off now with money that I don't have. I'll have to start working for my neighbor (who I hate) again if I'm gonna pay it off.
Plus, I can't go on vacation with my parents now because of this bullshit.

Fuck my life, right? -.-

Lost all the contacts and stuff on my phone because someone knocked it into a cup of root beer and left it in there. Surprise; nobody knows who did it and they're blaming it on me being drunk.... funny how I've never been -that- drunk, huh?
Less chances that I'll be on here as I don't have internet access anymore unless I borrow a laptop or phone. Not likely to do either since I've been depressed even more than normal lately, and if I get thewrong news back from the doctor then this will be my final journal I post here...

Lately I've been getting used, lied to, or otherwise overlooked by my 'friends'. I used to know who I can trust but they all seem to be using me to brush up on subterfuge or generally turning on me for no reason. Snitching, stealing, vandalizing... I know I sound like I'm using a victim mindset but they've been pulling too much shit for me to not notice what's going on. Sometimes I feel they think I'm not as smart as I am and/or I'm completely naive to what has been happening.

Idk who to talk to anymore... I mean my best friends are basically becoming my enemies... who can you trust when the only people you know start abusing your trust?

Once again I'm back at square one. Go figure, eh?

Got access to Skype again, but I have no people on Skype now. (all you bitches aren't ever on dammit.)

Someone should come talk and vid chat with me. Xp

Blue and red mowhawk
Single (technically taken... it's complicated)
Sick as fuck ;__;
Insomnia (getting worse)
Trust in friends broken
Not eating much (not hungry hardly ever)
Bites and bruises from new love interest (me-fucking-gusta!!!)
Alcoholic (mmmmm..... jager)
Fights (these idiots will never learn; I'm an angry badass)
CLUBBING!
Smoking a hella lot of weed ( marijuana)
too many girls wanting the D ;__;
Getting license soon....ish (if people let me use their damn car)
Wanting to cange the 'sona to a demon badger-bat
Bonezy likes rap now
More idiots on my hitlist
Ex is pregnant (might be mine)
Might have be getting job worth keeping
Got real with parents
Might be moving out
Still need a car (badly)
Went to church... bad idea (WTF is wrong with wearing black?)
Might be in a band now
Life shit


I miss your stupid fuzzbutz... feel special.

So.... halfway into January.... missed new years. o.o
Wazzup fuzzbuttz? ;P

I've had black 2 for a month and I never though to ask on here if anyone on here plays. Kinda getting bored of playing by myself.

Guess what? WE'RE STILL HERE!
End of the world my ass... got my hopes up and shit. Not even so much as one zombie. *pouts*

Sold my soul, I mean started working at McDonalds. Looking for an income based appartment for me and Jen to move into... the lack of privacy where we're currently living is really grinding on my nerves. Plus, I'm treated like shit by some of the housemates. There is WAY too much negative energy there... I hope Jen and I can move soon. I'm tired of leeching off people who don't respect me and treat me like an adult. I'm the only one there with a job... where's the respect I've worked so hard to earn?

Bleh.... it's always something with me, eh? I'm quite used to it by now, though... guess that's a good thing.

Later fuzzbutts.

NO BONESY DRAWINGS FOR YOU!!! >:(