So just as a message to all the people who have commissioned badges and have paid for shipping I sent out the badges on Monday so I hope you guys get them shortly :3

Man I've been away for some time haha.

Okay so since actually nobody took any of the BRObadge slots I kinda wanted to open it again in case somebody was interested still UuU;
I've actually lowered the prices too so that if somebody couldn't afford it then they might now :3

So the prices are

PAIR (two people together) - 18$
EX: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7453850/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7497960/

SINGLE (one badge plus a separate plush animal of your choice) - 12$
EX: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7578720/

And as a side note know that the badges will be approximately
5-7 inches wide and
9-10 inches tall
If you'd like different dimensions then please tell me! Not too big of a difference though haha

Sending the badges out will be 2$ per address aswell.
I do not recommend lamination though as it might interfere with the interlocking, if you'd like it done then please ask me personally.

1.  dixievonfur DONE - LAMINATING
2.  nexus_folf - DONE
3.  darth-kitsu - DONE - SENDING OUT
4.  maynx - DONE - LAMINATING

These are made on pretty thick paper so you shouldn't worry about them ripping easily, but that still doesn't mean it could be thrown around without damage haha. Also the borders are optional and please state in the note whether you'd like them or not! c:

FINALLY
IGMUND HAS TAKEN FLIGHT

At about 1:55 AM Igmund broke out of his cocoon and landed on my finger.
I was video chatting with my friend when this happened and it was unexpected so I panicked a bit and just swiftly moved my hand.
He flew onto one of the plushies on my desk and just sat there <3

I couldn't believe it, he finally became a beautiful moth. <33

I opened my window and took out the screen to let him free so now with the weather getting warmer he could thrive.

Iggy Arnold Squiggles you shall forever be remembered, as the adorable wooly bear caterpillar who one day stood on my finger then randomly at nearly 2 AM changed into the prettiest moth I've ever seen.

I love you :3

Ugh I hate the fact that I tend to jump into things or announce things without thinking it through thoroughly.

About the convention table with more thought I might not even be able to get one.
Mostly pertaining to costs and all that, so that even if I'd be able to afford the ticket I wouldn't be able to afford the table or prints, or even offer anything other than commissions. And even then I don't have that much of a wide range of materials.

Even with this seeing all the artists from last year made me think if I should just wait until next time so I'll at least be better and have more materials to work with. Maybe even get more fans so I could meet them <3

Not to mention there's a project that I've been wanting to work on for some time but never had the time nor the materials. I still don't have all the materials but they aren't too hard to obtain so I'm hoping to start on it soon. I won't even say what it's called though as if I do then I might just let people down or even if people won't care then it'll just be another thing I call out but never get to.

But at least because of my being sick lately I've been drawing whenever I'm not eating or sleeping. I'm still surprised my wrist can handle it without breaking a single sweat haha

I might upload more sketches when it's time for a break again but until theeenn.
My ferret shall keep playing with my Drifloon plushie, aaaa he's so adorable.

Okay so finally after finishing the second ex I'm opening up slots for the BroBadges!
If you don't know what BroBadges are they're a pair of badges for friends or couples where when they arrange the badges together they look as if they're interacting with each other!

The options for poses are as follows if you want an idea that's used;
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/749...../#cid:52957502
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7453850

There are also options for whether you want it borderless or not. Either way it doesn't cost extra so don't worry.

So they will be 20$ per pair for an idea that's been used, and 22$ for a pair of an idea that I haven't done.
Also though if you want it sent out to you it will be 2$ per person.

Unfortunately because of it being made to interact then I won't laminate it but you're free to do so when you get it.

I'll only be opening a few slots and I won't get started on it until Friday though because of other work that I just need to finish up.

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Later on depending how many people want one I might open more slots, as these are actually gonna pay for my table at AnimeNorth haha or at least the ticket.

Well so not long ago I came back from another con haha
It was the one called Con-G in Guelph and it was pretty fun. Like me and my friend only went to one panel since all the panels that we wanted to go to would be tomorrow but we couldn't go then. But we made the most of it with the artist alley and dealers room with really nice people and I even recognized a few vendors and a few even remembered me :3

I also got to meet the voice actor from one of my favorite shows as a kid, 6teen.
I got his autograph and I'm even gonna frame it since he was a favorite character from one of my favorite shows haha.

But once again going to one has got me thinking about getting into the artists alley, I don't know it looks like fun and a great way to meet people but the one thing stopping me is the cost of the table and whether my level of art is good enough to really put it out there like that and what con would be best for it.

Oh but I will also be cosplaying finally haha, it's something simple and from a show I really like so I think it's good. Me and my friend would be doing Mio and Yuko from Nichijou and I've already found a really good wig for it C:<
I'd be Mio and she'd be Yuko, but sadly because of the very small fandom for it Id have to make the uniform haha

Hm well so a few days ago I sat down on my fat ass and decided "I'm going to fucking do something different to my hair for once"
and so I did
I wanted to make it inverted from it's usual colors so the sideburns and middle would be white or close and so the sides were black

So I bleached my hurr but it barely even changed color and only the roots actually changed dramatically (like an inch later it was barely affected), so I gave meself a shrug and bleached again the next day.

But to no avail it barely changed again. And my face dafuqed.

So now I can't decide whether spending moar money on bleach that might barely do anything or just getting a pro to do it and all.

So yea if also anybody has had this happen to em then hit me up.
fuck man I'm tiiiirrreddd
and it's barely 2:30

and finlandia fell asleep in my unicorn, get out finlandia
that's my damn unicorn

I'm almost finished with work now and all!

But about a week ago I found a wooly bear caterpillar inside an indoor tennis court, meaning there was no grass or food for him there
So I took him home also knowing there was gonna be a strong winter in the next few days and I kept him warm and fed him.
I also named him Iggy Arnold Squiggles <3
And now he's starting to cocoon!

Really it was weird haha cause actually while I was eating dinner I let Finlandia run around and when I came back he knocked over Iggy's container. I panicked and searched throughout my whole room looking for him wondering where he could have scurried off to. My first instinct after not finding him was that Finlandia ate him, but for one thing Finlandia never ate anything other than ferret food and was pretty gentle, especially to animals smaller than him.

After a while I just gave up seeing that I'll never find him and I sat down to start on my work. Then my mom came in and I told her what happened, then she searched the room over and looked up the keyboard.
And what do ya know.
He was under the keyboard in a cocoon.

So I just gently took him off trying not to break his cocoon and I put him back in his container with tons of leaves and all so it's dark and so he has tons of food and water.

Now I can't wait till he turns into a moth <3

oh gosh
I haven't been able to really be on in so long or even like browse shit on the internet

Like I'd come here, respond to messages then get back to work pretty much

So I've been pretty busy with school, like I gotta master flash by the end of February, I gotta do a few illustrations for a class, finish up figure drawings and finish up commissions.

so ye I'll be slow on shit no matter how fast or how well I work.
Shit's been mayhem, lol not really.
Just a lot of work to get done is all.

oh but also I got meself a chest x-ray
I can check that off my "kick the bucket" list, under "things that may give me cancer".

But shit son, I been doodling so damn much in class. Just so many ideas that'll sadly have to wait
awww :c

Hey so um
I'm gonna go to the doctor soon again about my heart

my mom called the doctor about the results for my heart scan and he said it was fine

but then when I excercise it takes me much longer than normal to recover
and my endurance is terrible despite the fact that before it was better and I excercise nearly every day so it should be better but it's just

even today while at tennis for the end then we did so much running but after all that I was breathing so fast I just burst out crying
I was even the last one to make it to the finish line when normally I'm around first

so I'll update you guys on that
really though I don't feel pain in my chest or that just really short of breath, even when just sitting around sometimes I'll feel like I need to breathe more even though I'm not doing anything

just

ugu
okay so I was thinking since Valentines day is coming up that I could do *#'*SPECIALL*#'* badges

so the concept of this would be that it'd be of couples or friends
they'd be separate badges but when you put them together it appears like they're hugging
it's not like their arm would be cut off though so then I'm thinking just cut carefully around an arm to make it stand out of it so it could still wrap around but be good on it's own too

I'm gonna make examples of these badges after I finish up commissions so you guys will be able to see it rather than read my terrible explaination haha

well if you're interested or maybe even have a suggestion for it to make it easier or that then feel free to tell me :3

Well so my friend just told me about a con that's near here called Con-G
It's gonna be from February 25-26
She's only gonna be going for one day though but I did want to go another because you know it's only once per year so I should make the best of it :D

I might go with another friend if she can but I wanted to ask if anybody is gonna be going to it?
It's in Toronto by the way haha

Aaahhh cons, where I get to feel like I'm not the weirdest person out there.
I was also gonna get an artists alley table there but it sold out pretty fast since it was cheap.
Maybe next year then!

Hmm well I've been slowly evolving my art more now.
even in art class we've been working a lot of figure drawing so you'll see (hopefully) tons of improvement in anatomy and proportions.

and I might be going to a studio every week to work on it with real models too, fucking progress
but only if I'll be able to quit saturday school

cause I need to start on my college/uni portfolio
and they realllly like it when you got some art of naked women and men that's been right in front of you
shit will be so cash

and I've been looking at dead and diseased bodies more, picking shit off that. Like boils, maggots eating away at flesh and the terrible things that could happen if you walk alone at night.

I might even get a real job though, cause there's so many things that I'm like grabbyhands at but I don't have money and I hate asking my parents for any
probably not though, since I got arts and tennis and school
otherwise I probably wouldn't have one anyways cause I'm a lazy fuck

Gotta write a poem for english, then read it out loud.
and I really like having peoples stomachs churn, so I already got an idea for that.
but eh you know when you're kinda afraid of just making them think even stronger about what they already do about you
cause everybody at school things I'm fackin hardcoare and nothing can get through my barrier
but nope, little bunny rabbits and kittens can but eh
this isn't a big problem
why am I even talking about this

I'm just saying
I like it a lot more
than you
think

tomorrow is just the last day of this semester
I'm gonna miss my teachers, especially my english cause he uses so much sarcasm he literally can't say anything without it
somebody even told him that they weren't here cause their dog died and he was like "oh well, I feel oh so very sorry for you"
Oh, sir, your sarcasm and charm will always have a place in my hall of favorite teachers

Well I was up working on some art when Finlandia started gagging a lot.
I quickly ran over to his cage to see him just hunched over gagging and when he saw me he hid under his blankets.

I lifted the covers so I could at least watch over him a bit and his face was turning red and he looked like he was in pain.

Then when he threw up he just ran out of his cage and lied down on some clothes.
But when I went to clean up the vomit I noticed it had some speckles of blood in it. At least it looked like it.
even if it didn't have blood in it I'd still be pretty concerned, but this has never happened before so I'm only more worried.

Normally I'd just take him to the vet the next day or as soon as possible but I just can't. I mean we don't have the money for a checkup and if it's something serious then we definitely won't have the money for that.

I put him on my bed for now and he's just resting a bit, I'm gonna keep a close eye on him and see if it happens again.
He seemed to be much weaker now, like he's just lying there not even asleep. And normally he doesn't do this.
He doesn't seem to be in pain though.

EDIT: After just a bit of water and some more rest he looked right as rain and he started running around again.
But anyways do you guys know anything then that could help prevent or anything else I could do for him?
I'm still gonna watch over him carefully just in case though

So I've been reading all about newer things that the US government has been doing and along with other things that arej ust happening alongside it.
Many lovable websites that have brought you free things are now being taken down because they contain "copyright imagery/music/ect"
This is complete bullshit.
This is why we should have kept fighting even when the bill was shelved or even put completely down, those companies won't rest until they get what they want.
So we'll have to stand against them as much as we can and fight back!

even just now I've been hearing a bit about America closing it's doors and making it harder to get out of the country, which means pretty much me having a lesser chance of seeing a woman that I've been wanting to for nearly 3 years now <3

Wasn't america built on freedom?
Then what has happened to freedom of speech?
What has happened to the things that country was built on?
I refuse to have any of these things happen, it is blatantly wrong and the people putting up these bills and closing down those websites areonly in it for the money. There is no dignity there just plain old greed and that is what that country needs less of.

As you guys know I live in Canada, we are america's hat. We're their lovely neighbor and we like to look out for them, so I say now. For the sake of their people I won't rest to let the rich take money from the rest of us.

Lets not let this happen.

If you know of any way possible that I can aid in anything like this, please tell me. I want to do as much as I can.

oh oh so I realized how little of friends I have
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all the time
just I'm terrible with trying to be friendly

well so anyways as people who um watch me shower and all we should talk more :3
yea you sitting there with your legs crossed and one of your arms holding your face up
yea you

well so anyways guise add me on skype UuU
horkedtostitos

or just talk to me here if you aren't ready for a commitment
it's okay baby we'll take it slow

As a person against SOPA and the bill regardless of me not even living in the country, I will NOT be using my internet at on Jan 18th to participate in the protest.
I will be offline from 8am-8pm.

This is something that could affect so many people, including many of my friends. I can't do much but I will try.

Fucking shit I've been slow on things haven't I
Well if you guys don't know it is because of school, I don't really see how seeing as I was waking up the same time I normally would come back home from school. So it's pretty much fucked up.
But I also have to go to sleep earlier and man oh man is that fucking it up too, like I can't WAIT till the weekend where I could draw all fucking night man.
Like tennis takes away 3 hours a day, and then I'm just like "what the fuck I barely got anything done now"

The only reason why I even got to post shit too is cause it's from school and I just color it at home. So that saves like TONS of time and that way I could still post shit to keep your guys from seeing through the matrix.
But then when I get home I'm like "I fucking want to play Skyrim but I need to draw" so I haven't been able to even play vidya games. I don't even know what I'm doing with my time anymore cause like it passes by so quickly that it's 5 pm then 10 minutes later it's 11.
Just where the fuck did my hours go?!

Man I'm rambling so much, urgh.

Oh but also I've been watching a panel from MAGfest, first must I say I'm so incredibly jelly that I couldn't go and see SO MANY of my idols. But y'know lol I shall see them eventually, oh yes I shall.

But it did get me to thinking, "hey man, what if I work really really reallllyyyy hard and eventually get like a shop at one of those cons". Not about magfest or a panel haha but just about cons in general. Cause you know whenever somebody would tell me that people admire me in real life, then I blush like fucking hell. Like one of my friends actually showed her teacher my artwork and he REALLY liked it and I got all schoolgirl then.

So you know when I do become a better artist and practice even more and hsithsdfit then I want to get that feeling, just people coming up to me and just meeting me. I wanna meet people like this and just be like "sup brah, want some of my almonds". Cause I only share my almonds with special peopel, and all the people would be special. Maybe even not this year but next year for Anime North I'll get a table, MAYBE. It does depend on if I get popular and how much my art improves really but most likely yea. Cause buttfuck it even if I only have one fan I'd still do it just to meet people.

I gotta stop making journal nobody reads hahaha
I'm going to eat more almonds and fall asleep next to it.

oh oh and before I forget, I got an ultrasound for my heart. Cause apparently there's been extra sounds, so I'll report on that when I get my results. If it isn't anything then it could be something wrong with the valves and that's a no no.

Okay okay so my sleeping schedule is REALLY and I mean REALLY messed up.
I can't fall asleep earlier than 6 am and I've been waking up at 5 PM even though I put alarms.
I need to get back on normal time for school and shit.

So anybody now any pills or something to force me to go to sleep?

Haha inspiration from my deary  ikissa has made me want to do the meme and write down a few resolution of mine. And y'know summarize the year.
Well this year was kind of a doozy, I tried to find more about what I liked and enjoyed it rather than despise it for what it was. It has really helped me like myself more and fuck it made me more creative haha.
Of course there were also disappointments haha, well I did lose a lot of people who enjoyed my artwork probably due to the dramatic change of it but eh....(I'll miss you guys forever -sobsob-) I have also gained new watchers that I secretly make love lives with them and we have many children. Aw yea that's right each and every one of you <3


As for this years resolutions I have 5 C:
1.) To get better in art and especially in like real shit. I've already started a lot but eh I just want to improve more in that.
2.) To gain more friends and admirers aaaa <3
3.) Work more towards my dream and just try to draw as much as possible <:
4.) Get myself more out there by joining contests, doing more art trades and maybe even get customers.
5.) Actually get more than one outfit haha

And the meme that I stole from my sweetie <3

IN 2011 I..

(x) stayed single for the whole year
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween (kind of, I celebrate it every day)
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart (I've rejected every guy to ask me out :I)
( ) had a stalker
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) had a good relationship with someone (kiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaa and just all my peeps <3)
(x) have a relationship with someone you'll never forget (ditto ^)
(x) done something you've regretted
(x) lost faith in love (I've never really had it :I)
( ) kissed under a mistletoe


SCHOOL

( ) took an honours/advanced class
(x) broke the dress code (well I thought the blue in my hair was pretty >:V)
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
( ) got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like ( I met my kindergarden teacher <3333)
( ) met one teacher you really hated
( ) failed a class (ALMOST failed actually, but then I picked my marks up a bit phew)
(x) skipped school
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent ( apparently I'm good at cutting hairrr, but I don't cut any elses :I)
(x) proved yourself an idiot ( AW YEA )
(x) embarrassed yourself in front of the class (story of my life)
(x) fell in love with a teacher ( ugu english teacher, you dazzle me)
( ) intentionally tripped someone at school
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget ( gamer/anime club <3)


OTHER

(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand (but then I smashed the stereo)
(x) went to a sleepover (OHGODILOVESLEEPOVERS but none of my friends like them too much :c )
( ) went camping
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't (lolololololol I'm sorry.)
(x) partied to celebrate the new year (partied as in talked to my bestie and tumbled, so hardcore)
(x) cooked a disastrous meal (RAMEN, I'm a pro cook)
(x) lost something/someone important to you

( ) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back ( just today I cut my hair, though I'm not supposed to and it's shorter than ever before :I)
( ) cried over a broken heart (LOLNOPE)
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
( ) pretended to be happy (bitch I can't be angry at anybody!)
( ) slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution C;
(x) met someone who changed your life
(x) met one of your idols (kinnddaaa but yes)
(x) changed your outlook on life (aaaa yes)
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
( ) left the country
( ) almost died
(x) given up something important to you
( ) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
(x) stayed up 'till sunrise (this isn't normal)
( ) cried over the silliest thing
( ) was never home on weekends
( ) got into a car accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you
(x) had someone close to you die (scotty <3)
( ) had a high cell phone bill
( ) spent most of your money on food
(x) had a fist fight
( )went to the beach with your best friend (BUT WE WILL OH YES WE WILL)
(x) saw a celebrity (kindof :3)
(x) gotten sick
(x) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people

Well it's almost christmas now
I hope all you guys have a great one

me?
I'm a grinch actually, so I'm not really into christmas. Even though my birthday's on it haha
well so yea
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happy birthday to me <3

To be very honest I'm an aphephobic.
This pretty much means I'm afraid of being touched.
I don't mind touching other people much but when somebody would touch me I quickly shoot up in fear.
Normally I wouldn't talk about my fears on here but it's not really the fear.

Just that when people know that I don't like it, like I'll always move away if people get close and if they want to give me a hug then I'd immediately push them away or simply tell them not to.
It's not as bad that I can't be in a crowd because I just put up with it if it's something small. I'll just silently cry it off because when I'm scared I just stand in silence and cry anyways.

It's just I'm tired of people making fun of me for it.
I don't tell people that I'm straight out scared shitless just I tell them not to touch me at all. So my friends and family tend to make fun of me for this. Y'know chasing me trying to hug me or poking me.

Sure I'll let people hug me sometimes just because it's very rude but a lot of the time I just start crying terribly or have to go sit alone to recover mentally. Like one time when I had a bad shoulder, then my couch touched my shoulder and was moving it around to help me cope with the pain for tennis. I just burst out crying and ran into the change room. Thank god my shoulder was bad so I had an excuse.I'm just tired of people poking fun at me for it.

I'm gonna go finish up shit now.

Why
WHY
would you do this

again it happened again
my fucking computer froze while I was working
a weeks worth of drawings, gone
I waited for an hour for it to come back on
I tried to save it just as one program froze but it didn't let me open Photoshop
I really hate this
I really do
All the work on the comic, and trades. I'll have to start over again.

JUST IT HAD TO CRASH WHEN I SPEND AN ENTIRE WEEK ON THE FUCKING COMIC PAGE
IT FUCKING HAD TO WHEN I WAS HALFWAY DONE THE FUCKING LINING THAT TOOK AN ENTIRE DAY FOR ONE PANEL

FUCK.

so um just, there's gonna be a delay. I'm not gonna put lower effort than before just because I didn't save.
I really need to find another bootleg.

My mommy brought home a pigeon today..
She found it while having a walk through the park cause it got attacked by a big black bird and got it's chest badly injured.
I named him Chuck and right now we're waiting for some doctors to come and help Chuck out <3

I kept watching Chuck and he's so cute, but I have to keep him in a box so I can't touch him in case.

Mommy, why are you so nice?

alnfalskfnlkn
so are you guys excited for Christmas?
cause I sure am :I
well because it's my birthday too but also because I'm gonna get a PS3, and the kind that plays PS2 and PS1 games too
and to be honest the PS2 was one of my favorite consoles
it had SO MANY FUCKING GAMES that gave me ladygasms
like every game that I played on it was so enjoying and I've always play them after school when I was a kid
( I didn't own one but my babysitters son did and he let me play it and shit )
So fuck man and I'm also gonna get Skyward Sword
AW FUCKING YEA
and some dude at the vidya game club brought it in to show us and man it was so damn pretty
I was like "holy shit akfjbaskjfbjfkbf I want this"
so pretty much I'm wasting all my money on games, well and maybe like some leftovers on clothes...
BUTIDON'TGIVEAFUCK

By the way I'm still working on trades, and the comic page is taking much more longer than I thought so I'm sorry for that haha.
just I'm trying to work on both equally and stuff.
so ye

OMIGAWRSHIMSOEXCITEDIMGONNAAJBFJKASBJKB