After years of being stuck with an awkward username I have finally changed it, thanks to the immaculate power of the fully functional display name option FA put out recently c:
Now you all should refer to me properly as Cotton without further complications

that was a whole turn of events

I cannot describe exactly what just happened, at least not as well as i can but uhhhh
You probably already know the news by now so

we're back i guess

I finally caved and made an itaku account (why)

Follow me there if you wish
https://itaku.ee/profile/cottonbuzzkill

am turning the big 22
reaching closer to death's sweet embrace

Before 2024, I said to myself, "keep your expectations low. 2023 wasn't really your biggest year, so hopefully if you play your cards right, you won't be disappointed with how 2024 will turn out."

I was wrong.
Right around the end of December some so-called ex-mutual (and I use the term "mutual" very loosely because from my perspective, that word disgusts me to no end) made a FULL-BLOWN DOCUMENT about me, which included heinous stuff I did in the past (stuff I refuse to mention, or if you're one of those folks who read the document you already know what they are) , from top to bottom, he gathered every bit of information they found, from images to screenshots, EVERYTHING, and then proceeded to post it all to Twitter. And the worst part was, almost EVERYBODY I KNEW read the whole fucking thing, and then all of a sudden they immediately turned against me, JUST like that. I lost followers, my posts begin to get spammed with the link to the document, meme images and nasty comments telling me to leave the Internet, most of which I have blocked. I couldn't use ANY kind of site without some jackoff appearing every two hours and shoving that goddamn document in my presence, while also misgendering me completely on purpose. I almost came CLOSE to being doxxed on Twitter when I told someone off for trying to expose me on one of my drawings. I couldn't take any more of it so I had to relocate to Discord and Bluesky until the nonsense died down, which was damn near impossible since the Internet is pretty much full of people trying to cancel you for stuff you did years ago.

And to add insult to injury, one person from twitter dm'ed on discord to tell me that they wanted full custody of my characters after I decide to leave the Internet for good. I told them no, and when they wouldn't get off my case, I had to block them. I then found out soon after hearing from a mutual that people on Twitter were trying to claim one of my Pokemon characters for themselves, and I was just about ready to blow my top. These people wanted me gone SO bad that now they'll resort even STEALING MY OWN CHARACTERS AWAY FROM ME. And all because of one. Fucking. Google. Document.

Now I will admit what I did was horribly, horribly wrong beyond all comprehension. There was so much I've done that I still think about and physically CRINGE to this very day and I wish I could take it all back if I could. That much I can say.

But now I'm really starting to question the general moral of all the people who've broken away from because of what I did. On one hand I'm aware that this is the Internet and that not everyone on it is as genuine as they seem, but on the other hand it's kinda hypocritically insane how a good chunk of those people think they're doing the right thing by exposing someone, only to turn around and do something even more horrible right behind their back, and even THEN, people will still applaud them.

When you get right down to it, the internet really is that awful of a place to to be in. Double crossers, doxxers, pedos, fake friends, etc., it's just one big bad influence.
But somehow, for SOME reason, we're all still so dependent on it to the point where without it, we'd all suffocate. It's really sad.

Anyways long story short, what a great start to 2024. I thought 2023 was godawful in terms of activity, but I guess the worst was already ahead of me as soon as 2024 started.

Okay thanks for reading.

if you can't tell by the title, i have just made the biggest mistake of my life. Probably so big that I may have to leave the internet for good if gets worse than ever.

Basically last week i told y'all about the person who's been stealing our information and is now making strange calls to my family about where our location is, and now they've sent fake gmails to my family using our real names and whatnot. And why is that? It's because, according to my family, that I've been hanging out with people who don't respect me and see me as a personal toy for them to play with, and thus all of that negative influence began to shape me and treat my family like shit, and for what? Because I wanted friends? Because I wanted to be seen as more than just someone people can push around? Whatever the reason was, it didn't justify me doing what I did and it cost my family their entire lives, because now my parents are worried that someone is gonna come by and finish us off. Worst part is that I didn't even think to research what kind of people these are before getting onto the internet. White supremacists, incels, everything.

What I'm trying to say here is, because of my lack of common sense, my family is now at risk of getting hurt or worse. Perhaps this experience as a whole has showed me that if I had just stayed off the internet and not interacted with strangers and treated my family poorly, this would never have happened. I'm probably better off leaving while I still have the chance, if I least hope that no other stranger tries to contact us this time

I implore you all to look out for this creep named shutup303030. They leaked ALL of my personal information in my notes (real name, date of birth, address and everything) for no particular reason other than to scare me. Whatever you do, don't fall for their schemes. Protect yourself as much as possible.

Since Twitter has pretty much gone down the shithole with its mass suspension of countless accounts everywhere I've decided to completely jump ship before they got to me next. My socials are right here if anyone wants to talk to on those platforms.

Discord: CloudeeToonz#6991

DeviantArt: CloudChuArtz

Newgrounds: TheNatechuZone

YouTube: CloudeeChuToonz

Tumblr: cloudee-crap-toonz

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10552819

Congratulations FA. Here I was thinking your site couldn't possibly take a turn for the worst, and then BAM. You hit us with this.
First you add a banner that absolutely nobody asked for and now this.
I may end up having to leave the site entirely if it comes to this, cuz HOO BOY did they fumble the bag to death on this one. I hate it here.

Am 21 now

Yippee

Check it out if you want
https://www.pillowfort.social/CloudeeToonz

With lots of love to go around

To those of you watching me, keep on the lookout for a guy named Supermanman13. He's an art thief who takes the art of others and edits them onto large nude bodies. I tried calling him out but then he began to make fun of me and flood my dms with random insults. If you see him, block him immediately.

special thanks to mimi.marumasan for giving me the heads up

It's all.... disorganized. there are underlines everywhere the banners don't fit. who approved of this? who thought that updating this site was a good idea? i want names.

If you're one of those people who are looking to request someone for commissions, don't expect that someone to be me

I'm very terrible with counting money half the time and the expectations of getting them done is very, very tiring. Like imagine someone requesting you a commission and you take it, then you immediately forget about it for a while until they finally remind you and you end up having to explain yourself on why it's taking so damn long for you to do just ONE simple commission. Also I find the idea of doing art for money extremely heinous. You're basically just selling your own creativity out to all the folks who paid good money to see you work yourself to death without taking any breaks whatsoever. It's grueling and I cannot for the life of me think of a single person who would even WANT to go down that path. I only intend to do art for fun, and I will stick by that notion if I have to.

So yeah, don't think of ever commissioning me if you don't want me to disappoint you even more lmao

20 years to be exact

Happy birthday to me

Lol

Burned my thumb real bad making cookies, and now it hurts like a bitch completely. Not even cold water or ice packs are making it stop, so until further notice art may be on hold for a while

In case someone does or says something bad on the internet, or if they didn't do it but still get in trouble for it, then it would be a good idea to keep your FUCKING MOUTH shut. Or at the very least, talk to them about it in DMs and hear their side of the story instead of just RECKLESSLY EXPOSING THEM IN PUBLIC. That shit has happened to me too many times and I can't even BEGIN to feel the need to give out a lot of people's names.
Case in point, there's a way to talk to people without making an ass out of them, or, more likely, yourself. I cannot stress that enough and I will not tolerate the excuses that come from such behavior. Ever. Ya dig?

So Twitter - being Twitter - took one look at a comment I made on someone else's post and decided to lock me out of one of my accounts for 12 hours straight. So that means I cannot send tweets until after the 12 hours are up. Once again Twitter has done their task of pissing me off once more.

Be prepared lads

EDIT: IT IS TIME

It's true what they say folks, everything you touch just dies.

Which is exactly the saying that applies to FurAffinity with the traditional work I post. Seriously, every waking moment of the traditional art I put here is wasted thanks to FurAffinity's unspeakably bullshit submission system. Apparently they have the nerve to turn your drawings sideways if they're not at a required size. And since most of the traditional drawings I post are up to 2000×3000, that makes it infinitely harder to post them. It'd even take forever to have to optimize them.

I hope something is done about this action because I really won't take it

Why does FurAffinity's submission system keep fucking up and turning my traditional pieces sideways instead of vertically
Is the site trying to troll me or is it just broken

Imma have to stay the fuck away from Twitter and/or Discord for god knows how long. And for reasons why, I will not tell you. For my sanity and for hopefully for yours as well.