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At FWA... sort of.
General | Posted 13 years agoActually as I'm writing this I'm waiting with all the patience I can muster for the garage to replace a flat tire I incurred just blocks from the hotel. Stupid high curbs, and stupid downtown traffic forcing me to take one last, unfortunate loop around...
That aside, mixed bag experience at FWA this year. Now being a veteran con-goer I had a good idea what to expect and was able to plan accordingly. So I got done pretty much everything I meant to get done.
The downside, and you may already have heard about this from others, but the new hotel left much to be desired. The rooms themselves were fine, apart from the refrigerator which appears to be more oriented towards charging for its use than actually being useful.
The rest of the hotel had bigger issues. Biggest of all was the parking. We arrived in time to snag a spot in the appallingly small self park lot, which stacks up ten levels and has stair access only. Talk about pushing hard for valet service! And it's not as if the self park lot was even a decent rate. $22/day for a parking structure that didn't even feel safe to be in. Ugh.
The floor space drew a lot of complaints for being spread over five or six floors, but that didn't bother me much. What was more of a bother was the elevator situation. With only 4 elevators serving the lowest 30 floors of rooms, combined with many entry points, the wait for elevators was often painful. Luckily, on the lowest floor of the rooms we found a way to cheat the system, in ways that involved ignoring warnings about alarmed emergency exits. Desperate times...
The good news is that the complaints have been heard and FWA's experiment in "going upscale" will be a one-off thing. Which means I will probably be back next year.
That aside, mixed bag experience at FWA this year. Now being a veteran con-goer I had a good idea what to expect and was able to plan accordingly. So I got done pretty much everything I meant to get done.
The downside, and you may already have heard about this from others, but the new hotel left much to be desired. The rooms themselves were fine, apart from the refrigerator which appears to be more oriented towards charging for its use than actually being useful.
The rest of the hotel had bigger issues. Biggest of all was the parking. We arrived in time to snag a spot in the appallingly small self park lot, which stacks up ten levels and has stair access only. Talk about pushing hard for valet service! And it's not as if the self park lot was even a decent rate. $22/day for a parking structure that didn't even feel safe to be in. Ugh.
The floor space drew a lot of complaints for being spread over five or six floors, but that didn't bother me much. What was more of a bother was the elevator situation. With only 4 elevators serving the lowest 30 floors of rooms, combined with many entry points, the wait for elevators was often painful. Luckily, on the lowest floor of the rooms we found a way to cheat the system, in ways that involved ignoring warnings about alarmed emergency exits. Desperate times...
The good news is that the complaints have been heard and FWA's experiment in "going upscale" will be a one-off thing. Which means I will probably be back next year.
All caught up
General | Posted 13 years agoAnd with the posting of my latest gift art, for the first time in forever, I'm finally caught up on all my FA messages, and posting all my art. I think. Definitely caught up on messages, maybe a piece or two of me around that I've missed. Close enough.
So... now what?
(Glances at my DA stacks that have been accumulating since January 2012.)
Um... anything else??
Seriously, hopefully this is my key to starting to socialize a bit more with the fandom. We'll see how FWA goes next week. Hey, maybe I'll see you there!
So... now what?
(Glances at my DA stacks that have been accumulating since January 2012.)
Um... anything else??
Seriously, hopefully this is my key to starting to socialize a bit more with the fandom. We'll see how FWA goes next week. Hey, maybe I'll see you there!
Winding down and catching up
General | Posted 13 years agoTonight felt like kind of a defeat. Bun 4, PCC nil, if you will. All of us working together to get 
to kick the cigarette habit and none of us could do it. Somehow she found a new way to bargain for another pack of death sticks. There's more to it than I'm saying here and hopefully she's elaborating in her own journal but I'm just talking my point of view and it just flat out feels like I failed.
So anyway I need to do something to get that off my mind, and as the mundane that I usually hang out with on Tuesday is out sick, so I 'm falling back on my last resort: catching up on FA!
Normally I shout back appreciation of every watch but they've gotten so backed up it just would take too much time. So if you've followed me since mid-December then sorry, but it's nothing personal.
Now I just have to get through the mountain of artwork that's piled up so far this year...
to kick the cigarette habit and none of us could do it. Somehow she found a new way to bargain for another pack of death sticks. There's more to it than I'm saying here and hopefully she's elaborating in her own journal but I'm just talking my point of view and it just flat out feels like I failed.So anyway I need to do something to get that off my mind, and as the mundane that I usually hang out with on Tuesday is out sick, so I 'm falling back on my last resort: catching up on FA!
Normally I shout back appreciation of every watch but they've gotten so backed up it just would take too much time. So if you've followed me since mid-December then sorry, but it's nothing personal.
Now I just have to get through the mountain of artwork that's piled up so far this year...
Caught up in the moment
General | Posted 13 years agoSo I'd composed this long journal about how another one of my co-workers from Dallas who had come with me to Birmingham was going back to Dallas, and how I was all, what am I doing still here, I miss Dallas, I want to go back to Dallas, and then I get home and suddenly eff this, let's go to Dallas.
Seriously, that just happened.
It's a nine-plus-hour drive and I'm going to strain my already overtaxed finances even further for this, but hell with it, this time tomorrow Sesame, Lucca and I plan to be last-minute arrivals at TFF in Addison TX for the weekend.
This is crazy, this could get me in trouble, but I've got a ton of time off this year and dammit I'm going to put at least some of it to good use.
Unfortunately this whirlwind exit is probably going to leave the Munk & Skunk behind and I feel bad about that, but this is just something I feel the need to do.
Wish us luck and if you happen to also be TFF bound, I guess we'll see you there!
Seriously, that just happened.
It's a nine-plus-hour drive and I'm going to strain my already overtaxed finances even further for this, but hell with it, this time tomorrow Sesame, Lucca and I plan to be last-minute arrivals at TFF in Addison TX for the weekend.
This is crazy, this could get me in trouble, but I've got a ton of time off this year and dammit I'm going to put at least some of it to good use.
Unfortunately this whirlwind exit is probably going to leave the Munk & Skunk behind and I feel bad about that, but this is just something I feel the need to do.
Wish us luck and if you happen to also be TFF bound, I guess we'll see you there!
Valentine
General | Posted 13 years agoMy goodness. I've gotten so used to dreading and loathing the 14th day of February I almost don't know how to act now. And yes I know all about how it's also called Singles Awareness Day but frankly I never cared for that. I was already very much aware that I was single, I didn't need a special day to help with that.
But all that is behind me now, and I couldn't be happier. Thank you,
for taking a chance on me. I will forever be grateful for you.
But all that is behind me now, and I couldn't be happier. Thank you,
for taking a chance on me. I will forever be grateful for you.Eep
General | Posted 13 years agoIf you've been following my Big Bun Sis's journals today, yeah, those were as scary from here as they probably were wherever you're at. Be assured we're keeping an eye on her and making sure she doesn't do anything too stupid.
I'm not sure if it's been mentioned but one big factor in her erratic behavior lies in the fact that she's trying once again to quit the death sticks. So suffice to say that she's out of it to a very large extent right now.
To my dear Big Bun Sis I can say this: If we all got what we deserved in life we'd all be well and truly fucked. So don't worry about what you deserve or not, is all I'm saying.
journals today, yeah, those were as scary from here as they probably were wherever you're at. Be assured we're keeping an eye on her and making sure she doesn't do anything too stupid.I'm not sure if it's been mentioned but one big factor in her erratic behavior lies in the fact that she's trying once again to quit the death sticks. So suffice to say that she's out of it to a very large extent right now.
To my dear Big Bun Sis I can say this: If we all got what we deserved in life we'd all be well and truly fucked. So don't worry about what you deserve or not, is all I'm saying.
Nationality Meme
General | Posted 13 years agoHeard about it from all over but technically taken from 
aerospacerocks840
BRITISH
[X] You drink a lot of tea.
[] You know what a brolly is.
[] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell."
[X] Fish and chips are yummy.
[] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[] You dislike Emos almost as much as you dislike Chavs.
[] It's football.... Not soccer!
Total = 2/9
AUSTRALIAN
[] You wear flip-flops all year.
[] You call flip-flops "thongs" not flip-flops.
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[X] You love the beach.
[] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[X] You're a sports fanatic.
[] You are tanned.
[] You're a bit of a bogan.
Total = 4/9
ITALIAN
[] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[] You know Italian songs.
[] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[] You speak some Italian.
[] You are under 5'10''
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best foods in the world.
[] You talk with your hands.
Total = 1/9
SPANISH
[] You say 'member' instead of remember.
[] You speak Spanish or some.
[X] You like tacos.
[] YoU TyPe LiKe ThIs On YoUr CoMpUtEr
[] You are dark skinned.
[] You know what a Puta is.
[] You talk fast occasionally.
[] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[] You know what platanos are.
Total = 1/9
RUSSIAN
[] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[X] You have more than one vodka bottle in your house.
[] You know the difference between channel 1 and RTVI.
[] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[X] You don't get cold easily.
[] You get into contests all the time.
[X] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
[] You can speak some Russian.
[] You love listening to techno.
Total = 3/9
POLISH
[] Your parents let you drink.
[] You know what a pizda is.
[] You have Pierogi at least once a week.
[] People always ask to see your "kielbasa" checking if you're Polish.
[X] People randomly call you their best friend.
[] You have made/know what pisanki are.
[X] You laughed when Poland beat the USA in the 2002 World Cup
Total = 2/7
IRISH
[] You think beer is the best.
[] You have a bad temper. (Sometimes)
[] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with ay, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[x] You have blue or green eyes.
[X] You like the colour green.
[] You have been to a St. Patty's day party.
[] You have a family member from Ireland.
[] You have/had red hair.
[] You have/had freckles.
Total = 2/9
ASIAN
[] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[X] You are good at math.
[X] You have played the piano.
[] You have family from Asia
[X] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[] Most people think you're Chinese
[] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[] You go to Baulko.
Total = 4/9
GERMAN
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think American Chocolate is good.
[x] You speak some German
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[] You're under 5'4".
[x] You have been to Germany
Total = 6/8
CANADIAN
[] You like to ride 4 wheelers.
[X] You love beer.
[] You say eh.
[] You know what poutine is.
[X] You speak some French.
[X] You love Tim Horton's.
[] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[] You watch(ed) Degrassi. (watched)
Total = 3/8
FRENCH
[x] You like French toast.
[X] You love wine.
[X] You speak a little or are fluent in French.
[] You have eaten a snail.
[] You like fashion.
[X] You have been to France.
[x] You are either a Catholic, a Muslim, a Protestant or a Jew.
Total = 5/7
AMERICAN
[x] You like fast food.
[x] You call football football and soccer soccer...
[] You can trace your ancestery back to Ellis Island... (Even before that, try the original 13 colonies)
[] You watch way too much TV
[] You are obsessed with the royal wedding
[] You have a dog
[X] You have a cushy job
[X] You were sad when Steve Jobs died
Total = 4/8
NORWEGIAN
[] You know what lefse is.
[] You can speak some Norwegian.
[] You love trolls.
[X] You know what lutefisk is.
[X] You have been whale hunting/seeing.
[X] Food made with potatoes and flour rule.
[] Fish is a huge part of your diet.
[x]You have blue or green eyes and have blonde or brown hair.
[X] You know how to fish or have fished before.
Total = 5/9
BELGIAN
[] You grow some small vegetables in the yard.
[x] You like french fries.
[] You think Belgian chocolate rules.
[] You know that the official best beer in the world is Belgian.
[] You speak both Dutch and French.
[X] You like Belgian waffles.
[] You call a pub or bar a café.
[X] You fully realize and acknowledge that your football team sucks. (except what I call football isn't what the Belgians call football so...?)
[] You drive/own a French or German car.
[X] You have a lot of comments on your government.
Total = 4/10
DUTCH
[] You like the color orange.
[] You are a football enthusiast.
[] You often go to 'coffee shops'.
[] You know what is meant by 'coffee shops'.
[] You tend to overreact and show your emotions.
[x] You have a cheerful nature.
[] You like the sea.
[] You are good at building handiwork projects.
[] You tend to favour the megalomania.
Total = 1/9
ARAB
[] You say "3ngleezy" instead of "english".
[] You laugh at other accents, especially Egyptian
[] You beckon at things with your forehead or eyes.
[] You like seafood, especially fish, more than any other type of food.
[] You are tanned.
[] You have black hair.
[] Your last name starts with "Al" or "bin"
[] You like showing off, especially with new cars and clothes.
[] You dislike reading.
Total = 0/9
RESUME:
British 2/9 - 22.2%
Australian 4/9 - 44.4%
Italian 1/9 - 11.1%
Spanish 1/9 - 11.1%
Russian 3/9 - 33.3%
Polish 2/7 - 28.6%
Irish 2/9 - 22.2%
Asian 4/9 - 44.4%
German 6/8- 75%
Canadian 3/8 - 37.5%
French 5/7 - 71.4%
American 4/8 - 50%
Norwegian 5/9 - 55.6%
Belgian 4/10 - 40%
Dutch 1/9 - 11.1%
Arab 0/9 - 0%
So, French/German primarily but really all over. The level of Norwegian was a surprise, as was the lack of Polish.
Now if the quiz had asked me about pacskis...
aerospacerocks840BRITISH
[X] You drink a lot of tea.
[] You know what a brolly is.
[] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell."
[X] Fish and chips are yummy.
[] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[] You dislike Emos almost as much as you dislike Chavs.
[] It's football.... Not soccer!
Total = 2/9
AUSTRALIAN
[] You wear flip-flops all year.
[] You call flip-flops "thongs" not flip-flops.
[x] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[X] You love the beach.
[] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[X] You're a sports fanatic.
[] You are tanned.
[] You're a bit of a bogan.
Total = 4/9
ITALIAN
[] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[] You know Italian songs.
[] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[] You speak some Italian.
[] You are under 5'10''
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best foods in the world.
[] You talk with your hands.
Total = 1/9
SPANISH
[] You say 'member' instead of remember.
[] You speak Spanish or some.
[X] You like tacos.
[] YoU TyPe LiKe ThIs On YoUr CoMpUtEr
[] You are dark skinned.
[] You know what a Puta is.
[] You talk fast occasionally.
[] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[] You know what platanos are.
Total = 1/9
RUSSIAN
[] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[X] You have more than one vodka bottle in your house.
[] You know the difference between channel 1 and RTVI.
[] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[X] You don't get cold easily.
[] You get into contests all the time.
[X] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
[] You can speak some Russian.
[] You love listening to techno.
Total = 3/9
POLISH
[] Your parents let you drink.
[] You know what a pizda is.
[] You have Pierogi at least once a week.
[] People always ask to see your "kielbasa" checking if you're Polish.
[X] People randomly call you their best friend.
[] You have made/know what pisanki are.
[X] You laughed when Poland beat the USA in the 2002 World Cup
Total = 2/7
IRISH
[] You think beer is the best.
[] You have a bad temper. (Sometimes)
[] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with ay, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[x] You have blue or green eyes.
[X] You like the colour green.
[] You have been to a St. Patty's day party.
[] You have a family member from Ireland.
[] You have/had red hair.
[] You have/had freckles.
Total = 2/9
ASIAN
[] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[X] You are good at math.
[X] You have played the piano.
[] You have family from Asia
[X] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[] Most people think you're Chinese
[] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[] You go to Baulko.
Total = 4/9
GERMAN
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think American Chocolate is good.
[x] You speak some German
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[] You're under 5'4".
[x] You have been to Germany
Total = 6/8
CANADIAN
[] You like to ride 4 wheelers.
[X] You love beer.
[] You say eh.
[] You know what poutine is.
[X] You speak some French.
[X] You love Tim Horton's.
[] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[] You watch(ed) Degrassi. (watched)
Total = 3/8
FRENCH
[x] You like French toast.
[X] You love wine.
[X] You speak a little or are fluent in French.
[] You have eaten a snail.
[] You like fashion.
[X] You have been to France.
[x] You are either a Catholic, a Muslim, a Protestant or a Jew.
Total = 5/7
AMERICAN
[x] You like fast food.
[x] You call football football and soccer soccer...
[] You can trace your ancestery back to Ellis Island... (Even before that, try the original 13 colonies)
[] You watch way too much TV
[] You are obsessed with the royal wedding
[] You have a dog
[X] You have a cushy job
[X] You were sad when Steve Jobs died
Total = 4/8
NORWEGIAN
[] You know what lefse is.
[] You can speak some Norwegian.
[] You love trolls.
[X] You know what lutefisk is.
[X] You have been whale hunting/seeing.
[X] Food made with potatoes and flour rule.
[] Fish is a huge part of your diet.
[x]You have blue or green eyes and have blonde or brown hair.
[X] You know how to fish or have fished before.
Total = 5/9
BELGIAN
[] You grow some small vegetables in the yard.
[x] You like french fries.
[] You think Belgian chocolate rules.
[] You know that the official best beer in the world is Belgian.
[] You speak both Dutch and French.
[X] You like Belgian waffles.
[] You call a pub or bar a café.
[X] You fully realize and acknowledge that your football team sucks. (except what I call football isn't what the Belgians call football so...?)
[] You drive/own a French or German car.
[X] You have a lot of comments on your government.
Total = 4/10
DUTCH
[] You like the color orange.
[] You are a football enthusiast.
[] You often go to 'coffee shops'.
[] You know what is meant by 'coffee shops'.
[] You tend to overreact and show your emotions.
[x] You have a cheerful nature.
[] You like the sea.
[] You are good at building handiwork projects.
[] You tend to favour the megalomania.
Total = 1/9
ARAB
[] You say "3ngleezy" instead of "english".
[] You laugh at other accents, especially Egyptian
[] You beckon at things with your forehead or eyes.
[] You like seafood, especially fish, more than any other type of food.
[] You are tanned.
[] You have black hair.
[] Your last name starts with "Al" or "bin"
[] You like showing off, especially with new cars and clothes.
[] You dislike reading.
Total = 0/9
RESUME:
British 2/9 - 22.2%
Australian 4/9 - 44.4%
Italian 1/9 - 11.1%
Spanish 1/9 - 11.1%
Russian 3/9 - 33.3%
Polish 2/7 - 28.6%
Irish 2/9 - 22.2%
Asian 4/9 - 44.4%
German 6/8- 75%
Canadian 3/8 - 37.5%
French 5/7 - 71.4%
American 4/8 - 50%
Norwegian 5/9 - 55.6%
Belgian 4/10 - 40%
Dutch 1/9 - 11.1%
Arab 0/9 - 0%
So, French/German primarily but really all over. The level of Norwegian was a surprise, as was the lack of Polish.
Now if the quiz had asked me about pacskis...
To All the Squirrels that Shared My Life
General | Posted 13 years agoOnce again it is National Squirrel Day here in the States, which is a bit ironic for me given that the two long-tailed rodents I know best live overseas: my dear cousin 
and her brother 
.
I've heard conflicting reports that chipmunks may or may not be part of this year's holiday. Whether or not that is true, I think I have made it clear to
just how important he has become in my life in the short time he's lived here.
So to all mini-bears and micro-bears (as they call them on the mountain hiking trails here), I hope you all feel most appreciated this fine day.
and her brother 
.I've heard conflicting reports that chipmunks may or may not be part of this year's holiday. Whether or not that is true, I think I have made it clear to
just how important he has become in my life in the short time he's lived here.So to all mini-bears and micro-bears (as they call them on the mountain hiking trails here), I hope you all feel most appreciated this fine day.
Wishes for the new year
General | Posted 13 years agoWow. 2012. What a carazzzy year.
The world may not have ended in 2012, but a world certainly did. The world of Uno the loner is no more. Uno is now and possibly forevermore a family wolf, however unusual a family it might be.
I guess there was never going to be a middle ground, either you have solitude or you don't, but the transition was still a little jarring. I wish there could have been a way Lucca and I could've eased into this relationship, but circumstances being what they were it was all or nothing. I just knew that I had to get Lucca out of the situation she was in and quickly.
While we have some plans for 2013 a lot of next year is a blank slate, and there's something nice about that. Like the proverbial blank canvas we're free to do with it as we wish, and don't have to make up our minds just yet what that is.
I'm not big on resolutions. Honestly those have become jokes. So instead of those I will instead write my wishes for the new year about to begin, addressed to those nearest and dearest to me.
Lucca. I've done my best to give you what you need, but there's one thing only you can get for yourself, and that is patience. Patience with me, patience with others, and most importantly, patience with yourself. You've had a rough time of it and you can't expect to come out of that ready to take on the world as an independent woman. But we'll get you there. It may take more time that you want it to, but we will get you where you want to be. I love you very deeply and I will be there for you all the way.
Sesame. Someone as bright and ambitious as you are won't be held down long. I know what you crave right now is a sense of stability. I know what that is like, as I was there five years ago myself. Hopefully I can keep you out of trouble and get you going where you want to be in life. As for the other big issue in your life, that I can't help so much with, but I do wishes and prayers to offer.
Tavi and Ozzie. Good grief, I can only imagine the number of babyfurs and kidfurs who would do anything to be me, to get to interact with you on a daily basis. And yet, now that I know you for the down-to-earth people you actually are, it feels so... ordinary. Just like a couple of my best friends come to share a house with me. I wonder if this is an inkling of how real celebrities deal with all their fame, in how they're surrounded by it so constantly they just get used to it as normal. Anyway, it is great to have you on board and a privilege to have a hand, even if an indirect one, in making so many cubs around the world so very happy.
Maxi. I've already said a lot of what I want to say but I really just want to emphasize how happy I am for you, that you've found circumstances of joy this holiday season. At your age it is entirely normal for you to be unsure of what you want in life and I'm nothing but glad this change of mind has worked out for you. Let's stay in touch.
Gem. Alas the second half of this year has sort of crowded out a lot of my outreach and as a result I don't feel I've given my baby cousin squiggle the attention she deserves. I know I said I wasn't much for resolutions but I really do intend to make that right in the coming year. And while I'm on the topic of those over the pond I need to get to know your big bro Zee Zee a bit better. Tavi never seems to be able to see a squirrel without mentioning him, so he's got to be a great fellow.
Wish. You can kind of combine parts of what I said for Maxi and Gem and pretty much get what I have to say to you. You have many twists and turns coming up in your life and I'd like to be able to help you navigate some of them, even though in recent months I haven't seemed to have had a lot of time for you. So there's another thing on which I need to find a proper level.
Cody and Bleu. Hope things are going well for you out west and I really do want to get the chance to meet you guys in person someday soon. I hope we can arrange that, but those Rocky Mountains can be quite the barrier sometimes. Again, I need to do a better job of staying in touch.
Llama. We've said most of what we've had to say through other means but I do want to thank you publicly for everything you've done to support us this year, even if often as not it was just lending an ear. Hope things go well for you and that it won't be long before you show your face around here next.
Gus, Jennie, Ari, Aura, and others I've somehow forgotten to mention here. I guess I need to beg your forgiveness for ending up being so distant these past six months. Even though it's been a stressful six months with taking on a new family and dealing with the many issues involving my pre-existing one, I probably should at some point have made the time to get back in touch at least once.
But life wouldn't be the same if you had everything together and nothing to improve upon, so I can at least be grateful that I have some idea of the areas in which I still need to grow. And who knows, maybe one day I will follow through on my dream and actually apply mysef towards learning how to draw properly. A longshot perhaps, but then again I never would have guessed half the things that happened to me this year.
Onward to 2013! Let's see what it has to offer.
The world may not have ended in 2012, but a world certainly did. The world of Uno the loner is no more. Uno is now and possibly forevermore a family wolf, however unusual a family it might be.
I guess there was never going to be a middle ground, either you have solitude or you don't, but the transition was still a little jarring. I wish there could have been a way Lucca and I could've eased into this relationship, but circumstances being what they were it was all or nothing. I just knew that I had to get Lucca out of the situation she was in and quickly.
While we have some plans for 2013 a lot of next year is a blank slate, and there's something nice about that. Like the proverbial blank canvas we're free to do with it as we wish, and don't have to make up our minds just yet what that is.
I'm not big on resolutions. Honestly those have become jokes. So instead of those I will instead write my wishes for the new year about to begin, addressed to those nearest and dearest to me.
Lucca. I've done my best to give you what you need, but there's one thing only you can get for yourself, and that is patience. Patience with me, patience with others, and most importantly, patience with yourself. You've had a rough time of it and you can't expect to come out of that ready to take on the world as an independent woman. But we'll get you there. It may take more time that you want it to, but we will get you where you want to be. I love you very deeply and I will be there for you all the way.
Sesame. Someone as bright and ambitious as you are won't be held down long. I know what you crave right now is a sense of stability. I know what that is like, as I was there five years ago myself. Hopefully I can keep you out of trouble and get you going where you want to be in life. As for the other big issue in your life, that I can't help so much with, but I do wishes and prayers to offer.
Tavi and Ozzie. Good grief, I can only imagine the number of babyfurs and kidfurs who would do anything to be me, to get to interact with you on a daily basis. And yet, now that I know you for the down-to-earth people you actually are, it feels so... ordinary. Just like a couple of my best friends come to share a house with me. I wonder if this is an inkling of how real celebrities deal with all their fame, in how they're surrounded by it so constantly they just get used to it as normal. Anyway, it is great to have you on board and a privilege to have a hand, even if an indirect one, in making so many cubs around the world so very happy.
Maxi. I've already said a lot of what I want to say but I really just want to emphasize how happy I am for you, that you've found circumstances of joy this holiday season. At your age it is entirely normal for you to be unsure of what you want in life and I'm nothing but glad this change of mind has worked out for you. Let's stay in touch.
Gem. Alas the second half of this year has sort of crowded out a lot of my outreach and as a result I don't feel I've given my baby cousin squiggle the attention she deserves. I know I said I wasn't much for resolutions but I really do intend to make that right in the coming year. And while I'm on the topic of those over the pond I need to get to know your big bro Zee Zee a bit better. Tavi never seems to be able to see a squirrel without mentioning him, so he's got to be a great fellow.
Wish. You can kind of combine parts of what I said for Maxi and Gem and pretty much get what I have to say to you. You have many twists and turns coming up in your life and I'd like to be able to help you navigate some of them, even though in recent months I haven't seemed to have had a lot of time for you. So there's another thing on which I need to find a proper level.
Cody and Bleu. Hope things are going well for you out west and I really do want to get the chance to meet you guys in person someday soon. I hope we can arrange that, but those Rocky Mountains can be quite the barrier sometimes. Again, I need to do a better job of staying in touch.
Llama. We've said most of what we've had to say through other means but I do want to thank you publicly for everything you've done to support us this year, even if often as not it was just lending an ear. Hope things go well for you and that it won't be long before you show your face around here next.
Gus, Jennie, Ari, Aura, and others I've somehow forgotten to mention here. I guess I need to beg your forgiveness for ending up being so distant these past six months. Even though it's been a stressful six months with taking on a new family and dealing with the many issues involving my pre-existing one, I probably should at some point have made the time to get back in touch at least once.
But life wouldn't be the same if you had everything together and nothing to improve upon, so I can at least be grateful that I have some idea of the areas in which I still need to grow. And who knows, maybe one day I will follow through on my dream and actually apply mysef towards learning how to draw properly. A longshot perhaps, but then again I never would have guessed half the things that happened to me this year.
Onward to 2013! Let's see what it has to offer.
Unhealthy days in the hub
General | Posted 13 years agoThings are a bit upside down at the Party Cub Hub. Sesame is sleeping at odd hours, Lucca is complaining all the time, Ozzie is stuck at his computer desk... okay, so some things are still normal. But the bottom line is we're not ending 2012 on a particularly well note at the Party Cub Hub. Everyone is either sick or starting to come down with something. I even caught the Munk sniffling and yes I've had a few coughs myself.
But oh well, we still have each other and plenty of soup, so we're going to see this through one way or another. Hopefully I will stay well enough to meet my goals of catching up on my gallery and crafting my year-end journal.
Hope things are doing better at your end. Uno out.
But oh well, we still have each other and plenty of soup, so we're going to see this through one way or another. Hopefully I will stay well enough to meet my goals of catching up on my gallery and crafting my year-end journal.
Hope things are doing better at your end. Uno out.
Merry Cubmas!!
General | Posted 13 years agoSo today we celebrate one of the lesser-known December holidays, known as Cubmas. Lesser known in that we just sorta made it up, but often times those holiday are the best!
Cubmas is similar in many way to Christmas, but it does not fall on any fixed day but it's always a little before Christmas, due to the natural impatience of cubs everywhere, who just can't wait until the 25th to open their presents.
Okay, the real reason for that is less about impatience and more about the fact that starting tonight we start going our separate ways to spend time with our RL families.
Well, most of us, but that's a sad story I will leave to be told by the one affected, in time.
At any rate, Sesame was the most excited of us all as he apparently stayed up all night, and was waiting for me when I woke up at my usual time. We managed to drag the little ones out of bed just a little after 9am and the passing out of presents began.
I hate to suggest that we might have overdone it a bit, but it was well over an hour before we finally got to the really big presents at the bottom.
I will admit, I am rather notoriously hard to buy for; my biological family knows this and my fur family has learned it well too. But they did manage to uncover my Trekkie side, and got me tricorder, a Spock and Kirk mug, and oh, yeah, THE FREAKING COMPLETE SERIES OF DEEP SPACE NINE ON DVD!!!
I will leave my family to highlight their hauls on their own, but suffice it to say that as far as a present opening experience went, it blew out anything I've experienced in a long time, maybe even ever.
Anyways, after all the excitement of the presents, everyone in the house... promptly went back to bed. Well except for Lucca and obviously me. Yeah, the out-of-sync body clocks we have in this house is another journal topic I need to write on sometime, but for now we've learned to cope.
So for those of you out there still waiting for your magic day, sorry to jump the gun on you but sometimes sacrifices need to be made. Hope yours turns out just as swell!
Cubmas is similar in many way to Christmas, but it does not fall on any fixed day but it's always a little before Christmas, due to the natural impatience of cubs everywhere, who just can't wait until the 25th to open their presents.
Okay, the real reason for that is less about impatience and more about the fact that starting tonight we start going our separate ways to spend time with our RL families.
Well, most of us, but that's a sad story I will leave to be told by the one affected, in time.
At any rate, Sesame was the most excited of us all as he apparently stayed up all night, and was waiting for me when I woke up at my usual time. We managed to drag the little ones out of bed just a little after 9am and the passing out of presents began.
I hate to suggest that we might have overdone it a bit, but it was well over an hour before we finally got to the really big presents at the bottom.
I will admit, I am rather notoriously hard to buy for; my biological family knows this and my fur family has learned it well too. But they did manage to uncover my Trekkie side, and got me tricorder, a Spock and Kirk mug, and oh, yeah, THE FREAKING COMPLETE SERIES OF DEEP SPACE NINE ON DVD!!!
I will leave my family to highlight their hauls on their own, but suffice it to say that as far as a present opening experience went, it blew out anything I've experienced in a long time, maybe even ever.
Anyways, after all the excitement of the presents, everyone in the house... promptly went back to bed. Well except for Lucca and obviously me. Yeah, the out-of-sync body clocks we have in this house is another journal topic I need to write on sometime, but for now we've learned to cope.
So for those of you out there still waiting for your magic day, sorry to jump the gun on you but sometimes sacrifices need to be made. Hope yours turns out just as swell!
How does this even happen? (Helping Mrs. Bun)
General | Posted 13 years agoIt's been kind of rare lately that I've truly felt my cubby self, but tonight is one of those times, and unfortunately not in a good way. Grown-up me has a worldly, cynical streak and is hardly shocked by anything anymore.
But this... this just makes me want to cry out HOW CAN ANYONE BE SO MEAN?!?!?!?
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4143381/
Big brother tells me his stepdad had the right to do what he did but right now I just can't accept that. And TBH I'm really scared stepdad's going to come back and take all the money we're sending her now before she can get it. Big bro says stepdad wouldn't do THAT but after what he's already done I don't know how he can be so sure.
Anyway I've given some $ of course but I'm holding some in reserve until we know for sure Mrs. Bun has control of the accounts.
I suppose relative to the awfulness in Newtown this is a much smaller thing, but the difference here is that it has hit personally. I thought I felt sick before, but now...!
But this... this just makes me want to cry out HOW CAN ANYONE BE SO MEAN?!?!?!?
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4143381/
Big brother tells me his stepdad had the right to do what he did but right now I just can't accept that. And TBH I'm really scared stepdad's going to come back and take all the money we're sending her now before she can get it. Big bro says stepdad wouldn't do THAT but after what he's already done I don't know how he can be so sure.
Anyway I've given some $ of course but I'm holding some in reserve until we know for sure Mrs. Bun has control of the accounts.
I suppose relative to the awfulness in Newtown this is a much smaller thing, but the difference here is that it has hit personally. I thought I felt sick before, but now...!
Empty house (plus MFF and other stuff)
General | Posted 13 years agoStuff just keeps on happening...
So right now I'm sitting in a familiar place: alone. Sesame took Lucca to meet his family, and Tavi and Ozzie went back to see Ozzie's clan. As for me, my solitude is only temporary, as by dawn I'll be heading up north to spend Thanksgiving with my mom and sis.
This has been a rough year for mom to say the least, what with her mental state deteriorating so. At least that's what's being reported to me. When she's on the phone with me, or her sister, or sometimes even when she's with my sister, she seems quite lucid and very nearly the woman I've always known. It's kind of vexing, but maybe I will learn something about what's really going on tomorrow.
Anyway, back furside, MFF was quite a good time, if flawed in just a couple of ways. One was the issues they had with the elevators in the part of the hotel we were in. I'm sure those are already quite famous around here. At least we "only" had to climb four floors to bypass the elevators.
The bigger problem was the relative isolation of the hotel site. There were places around, yes, but most of them were very expensive and the one exception was this too-bland-for-words cafeteria across the street. Yes, McDonald's was just a bit over half a mile away but our group is not one for walks of that length. So for the most part we ended up stuck at the hotel and paying through the muzzle for meals, either in-house or delivered.
So we've more or less resolved that until we REALLY get on top of our home finances, we are not going to any more cons that we can't drive to. Which basically means MFM and FWA and definitely not MFF. So, sorry Chicago. It was fun, but it wasn't meant to be.
So anyway that more or less brings things up to date. Here's hoping everyfur's Thanksgiving has at least something to be thankful for.
So right now I'm sitting in a familiar place: alone. Sesame took Lucca to meet his family, and Tavi and Ozzie went back to see Ozzie's clan. As for me, my solitude is only temporary, as by dawn I'll be heading up north to spend Thanksgiving with my mom and sis.
This has been a rough year for mom to say the least, what with her mental state deteriorating so. At least that's what's being reported to me. When she's on the phone with me, or her sister, or sometimes even when she's with my sister, she seems quite lucid and very nearly the woman I've always known. It's kind of vexing, but maybe I will learn something about what's really going on tomorrow.
Anyway, back furside, MFF was quite a good time, if flawed in just a couple of ways. One was the issues they had with the elevators in the part of the hotel we were in. I'm sure those are already quite famous around here. At least we "only" had to climb four floors to bypass the elevators.
The bigger problem was the relative isolation of the hotel site. There were places around, yes, but most of them were very expensive and the one exception was this too-bland-for-words cafeteria across the street. Yes, McDonald's was just a bit over half a mile away but our group is not one for walks of that length. So for the most part we ended up stuck at the hotel and paying through the muzzle for meals, either in-house or delivered.
So we've more or less resolved that until we REALLY get on top of our home finances, we are not going to any more cons that we can't drive to. Which basically means MFM and FWA and definitely not MFF. So, sorry Chicago. It was fun, but it wasn't meant to be.
So anyway that more or less brings things up to date. Here's hoping everyfur's Thanksgiving has at least something to be thankful for.
And up two
General | Posted 13 years agoIn case you somehow haven't heard, yes, it is true. As of last night, and 
are now officially residents of the PCC House.
I'm still not sure I really grasp the implications of housing two of world's most famous babyfurs. All I can say is it's a serious honor and I will do everything I can to provide the best possible environment I can for the duo. And who knows, maybe this will help Tavi wind down his backlog just a little bit.
There's a lot more to say but we still have a lot of work to do. Not to get overly into private details but Tavi and Ozzie brought a small mountain of stuff over with them, not all of which we really have room for here...
and 
are now officially residents of the PCC House.I'm still not sure I really grasp the implications of housing two of world's most famous babyfurs. All I can say is it's a serious honor and I will do everything I can to provide the best possible environment I can for the duo. And who knows, maybe this will help Tavi wind down his backlog just a little bit.
There's a lot more to say but we still have a lot of work to do. Not to get overly into private details but Tavi and Ozzie brought a small mountain of stuff over with them, not all of which we really have room for here...
Down one
General | Posted 13 years agoWhat started and stopped a couple of weeks ago has abruptly happened after all. As of just a few minutes ago, 
packed up his things and left the PCC House, presumably to go live with his parents again for a while.
I don't know exactly why I'm broken up over this, even after two months in the same house we had never really bonded. Maybe it's just my compulsive empathy kicking in to match the mood in the house right now.
Safe journeys and be well, Maximillion Julio Raccoon IV. Believe it or not, you will be missed.
packed up his things and left the PCC House, presumably to go live with his parents again for a while.I don't know exactly why I'm broken up over this, even after two months in the same house we had never really bonded. Maybe it's just my compulsive empathy kicking in to match the mood in the house right now.
Safe journeys and be well, Maximillion Julio Raccoon IV. Believe it or not, you will be missed.
Feeling powerless
General | Posted 13 years agoThe sad part was how this weekend had really been coming together so well for me. Lucca's getting better every day, Mom has settled into her new routine, we seem to be just about over the hump as far as finances go, and dare I say it, I was even getting reacquainted with my cubby side just a little.
Then my big brother had to go and find something to totally ruin his day.
One thing you have to understand is how one of Sesame's main roles around here is that of Morale Officer. This little family unit we have going totally would not work without him. When he's down we're all down.
The silence around the house is just awful, and there don't seem to be enough noise sources to turn on to break it.
Tomorrow is another day and right now we're all hoping just to make it there and find something worth celebrating.
Then my big brother had to go and find something to totally ruin his day.
One thing you have to understand is how one of Sesame's main roles around here is that of Morale Officer. This little family unit we have going totally would not work without him. When he's down we're all down.
The silence around the house is just awful, and there don't seem to be enough noise sources to turn on to break it.
Tomorrow is another day and right now we're all hoping just to make it there and find something worth celebrating.
Uno the ridiculously distracted
General | Posted 13 years agoI've been a bad cub. And I don't mean that in the sense naughtiness or doing mean things or like that. I mean I've just gotten really bad at being a cub.
I guess I have a built-in excuse given how radically my lifestyle has changed in the last two and a half months. First of all, welcoming into my life, then taking and into my home as well. (With more likely to come soon, but that's another journal.) Huge changes for someone who's literally lived just about half his total life and nearly all his adult life as the Lone Wolf. And to be honest I'm still trying to find my footing to a large extent.
I don't want to just disappear. I want to be an active, contributing member of this social circle. I want to love my fur family, all members of it.
(Pause to figure out why the printer won't print Lucca's voter registration form)
So yeah, where was I, oh yeah, things just keep distracting me. It was so much easier to be a friend to everyone when everyone else was on equal footing in my world, all at arm's length from me and all equally accessible.
But it's weird because everyone else in the house seems to have time to keep up on their FA queues. It's just me who never gets caught up. Of course that's partly because I've been the only one in the house working full-time. Thankfully that's changing; supporting myself was easy, supporting three other very hungry adults, not so much.
At least things are more or less squared away with my mother now, and presumably she's getting the helping hand she needs. So that's one less thing for me to worry about.
So apart from that it's basically taking things one day at a time. Hopefully I find my personal space again and get back some semblance of my old routine. Until then, bear with me. I'm still around. I'm still very much well. I'm just... a little harder to reach these days.
I guess I have a built-in excuse given how radically my lifestyle has changed in the last two and a half months. First of all, welcoming
into my life, then taking and into my home as well. (With more likely to come soon, but that's another journal.) Huge changes for someone who's literally lived just about half his total life and nearly all his adult life as the Lone Wolf. And to be honest I'm still trying to find my footing to a large extent.I don't want to just disappear. I want to be an active, contributing member of this social circle. I want to love my fur family, all members of it.
(Pause to figure out why the printer won't print Lucca's voter registration form)
So yeah, where was I, oh yeah, things just keep distracting me. It was so much easier to be a friend to everyone when everyone else was on equal footing in my world, all at arm's length from me and all equally accessible.
But it's weird because everyone else in the house seems to have time to keep up on their FA queues. It's just me who never gets caught up. Of course that's partly because I've been the only one in the house working full-time. Thankfully that's changing; supporting myself was easy, supporting three other very hungry adults, not so much.
At least things are more or less squared away with my mother now, and presumably she's getting the helping hand she needs. So that's one less thing for me to worry about.
So apart from that it's basically taking things one day at a time. Hopefully I find my personal space again and get back some semblance of my old routine. Until then, bear with me. I'm still around. I'm still very much well. I'm just... a little harder to reach these days.
Better... or not
General | Posted 13 years agoOkay first things first. Before I put it off again I want to make it official that and I are once again mates. It's pretty much silly to even pretend otherwise since she's freaking living with me and that pushes it well past the threshold of mate status as I understand it. Anyway I'll update my profile to reflect that soon enough.
Now the reason why my joy at the announcement of the first paragraph is subdued. The situation with my mother remains a total roller coaster. When I arrived home late Thursday afternoon half-panicked and only imagining what i might find, I arrived to my mother calmly making supper. Almost entirely back to 100% physically, which is pretty remarkable given that she'd been released from the hospital hours earlier. I have to confess to mixed emotions, part relief that mom seemed okay, but partly steamed that I'd been driven into a panic over seemingly nothing.
The next day (Friday) was very busy as we had hastily arranged some meetings with lawyers that established me as trustee of mom's estate, among other things. It's more of that icky responsibility stuff but no one else is going to do it if I don't. So here I am. Also we went to the doctor and she increased the dosage of one medicine mom was taking and introduced another... (ominous tones)...
Time passed quietly Saturday, but around midnight Sunday was when the trouble began. The neighbor's house was having some sort of bachelorette party and mom was kept up by it. Then she started getting paranoid for her safety and losing her sense of time of day, starting to demand that my sister get up and get dressed.
My sister reacted, well, let's just say poorly to this, and the two of them went into a feedback loop of panic and upset that even kept me up downstairs for a while.
Come Sunday morning, and mom's mostly forgotten about it all, but sister has not, and she refuses to let the subject go for even a minute. It's still more or less going on even as they drive me to the airport and I get away with what's left of my own sanity.
I call back when I get home and things seem to have finally calmed down, and I even feel optimistic that my mother's awareness seems to be heightened and she might be on her way to consistent mental health as well.
Then just as I'm settling in to report the good news to everyone, a neighbor and friend of mom's calls me. Apparently in the wee hours of this morning mom showed up at said neighbor's house, freaked out that sister was trying to sabotage her efforts to get into a good retirement community, refusing to go back home, and eventually neighbor calls the police to defuse the situation.
I call back home for their side of the story. Sister knows about the walk and the police but nothing of what happened at the neighbor's. Mom remembers the walk but not much else. To me, on the phone, they're both representing that nothing's wrong. Yet I'm pretty sure I know better.
I'm fairly certain the new medication is at fault here but now I seem to be right back to worrying about mom again. They're still working towards getting mom the help she needs on a permanent basis but the process seems agonizingly slow. I guess the consolation is that I've done all anyone could ask of me under the circumstances.
Oh, and meanwhile, I'm on overnight on-call duty at work. Phone call at 1 am is all but certain. I hate to use the "FML" button but right now there are certain aspects of my life that really do suck.
Sigh ... at least I'm not facing this alone.
and I are once again mates. It's pretty much silly to even pretend otherwise since she's freaking living with me and that pushes it well past the threshold of mate status as I understand it. Anyway I'll update my profile to reflect that soon enough.Now the reason why my joy at the announcement of the first paragraph is subdued. The situation with my mother remains a total roller coaster. When I arrived home late Thursday afternoon half-panicked and only imagining what i might find, I arrived to my mother calmly making supper. Almost entirely back to 100% physically, which is pretty remarkable given that she'd been released from the hospital hours earlier. I have to confess to mixed emotions, part relief that mom seemed okay, but partly steamed that I'd been driven into a panic over seemingly nothing.
The next day (Friday) was very busy as we had hastily arranged some meetings with lawyers that established me as trustee of mom's estate, among other things. It's more of that icky responsibility stuff but no one else is going to do it if I don't. So here I am. Also we went to the doctor and she increased the dosage of one medicine mom was taking and introduced another... (ominous tones)...
Time passed quietly Saturday, but around midnight Sunday was when the trouble began. The neighbor's house was having some sort of bachelorette party and mom was kept up by it. Then she started getting paranoid for her safety and losing her sense of time of day, starting to demand that my sister get up and get dressed.
My sister reacted, well, let's just say poorly to this, and the two of them went into a feedback loop of panic and upset that even kept me up downstairs for a while.
Come Sunday morning, and mom's mostly forgotten about it all, but sister has not, and she refuses to let the subject go for even a minute. It's still more or less going on even as they drive me to the airport and I get away with what's left of my own sanity.
I call back when I get home and things seem to have finally calmed down, and I even feel optimistic that my mother's awareness seems to be heightened and she might be on her way to consistent mental health as well.
Then just as I'm settling in to report the good news to everyone, a neighbor and friend of mom's calls me. Apparently in the wee hours of this morning mom showed up at said neighbor's house, freaked out that sister was trying to sabotage her efforts to get into a good retirement community, refusing to go back home, and eventually neighbor calls the police to defuse the situation.
I call back home for their side of the story. Sister knows about the walk and the police but nothing of what happened at the neighbor's. Mom remembers the walk but not much else. To me, on the phone, they're both representing that nothing's wrong. Yet I'm pretty sure I know better.
I'm fairly certain the new medication is at fault here but now I seem to be right back to worrying about mom again. They're still working towards getting mom the help she needs on a permanent basis but the process seems agonizingly slow. I guess the consolation is that I've done all anyone could ask of me under the circumstances.
Oh, and meanwhile, I'm on overnight on-call duty at work. Phone call at 1 am is all but certain. I hate to use the "FML" button but right now there are certain aspects of my life that really do suck.
Sigh ... at least I'm not facing this alone.
Never a good time for it
General | Posted 13 years agoI got news today that my mother's health has taken a serious turn. Frustratingly, nobody's able to tell me exactly what's wrong with her, but she was unable to stand up from a seated position without help, and was generally unresponsive to commands. She's now in the hospital hopefully being diagnosed.
I was hoping to be able to put off taking a trip north a few more weeks, until after the PCC was assembled and settled but that's just not going to be able to wait now. Instead I will hop on a plane tomorrow (thank goodness for accumulated frequent flier miles) with little direction but to deal with whatever there is, when I get there. I think it's the unknown part of all this that's really scaring me right now.
At this end I guess all I can do is hope Lucca will be strong in my absence once again, and apart from that hope and pray for the best.
I was hoping to be able to put off taking a trip north a few more weeks, until after the PCC was assembled and settled but that's just not going to be able to wait now. Instead I will hop on a plane tomorrow (thank goodness for accumulated frequent flier miles) with little direction but to deal with whatever there is, when I get there. I think it's the unknown part of all this that's really scaring me right now.
At this end I guess all I can do is hope Lucca will be strong in my absence once again, and apart from that hope and pray for the best.
Off my game lately (F5)
General | Posted 13 years agoWell it case it hasn't been obvious I've clearly been out of the loop on FA a bit. I haven't been COMPLETELY out of touch, I've been answering texts and active on Formspring and even checking in here every now and then.
But at the same time I finally got what I've wanted for so long -- an animated FA icon -- and for some reason I didn't jump to put it up. (That matter, at least, has been corrected now, and thank you so much to
codytehfox for putting it together.)
I don't think the reasons why are anything new, some of the last few journals have talked about everything I've been going through, and while none of it has been particularly damaging to me, it has had the net effect of suppressing my cubby side big time. So, I've kinda let things go. Sorry about that.
Maybe when this summer is over and everything is settled down and I finally have some help dealing with these issue, Uno will be back in full force. But for now he's gonna come and go and that's pretty much how it has to be.
Until then, keep the faith.
But at the same time I finally got what I've wanted for so long -- an animated FA icon -- and for some reason I didn't jump to put it up. (That matter, at least, has been corrected now, and thank you so much to
codytehfox for putting it together.)I don't think the reasons why are anything new, some of the last few journals have talked about everything I've been going through, and while none of it has been particularly damaging to me, it has had the net effect of suppressing my cubby side big time. So, I've kinda let things go. Sorry about that.
Maybe when this summer is over and everything is settled down and I finally have some help dealing with these issue, Uno will be back in full force. But for now he's gonna come and go and that's pretty much how it has to be.
Until then, keep the faith.
Feed the Bunny (thank you!)
General | Posted 13 years agoUPDATE: I've taken the link down as I think we have enough now, but if you still want to chip in feel free to note me.
Okay, big brother and I are going to have to have a chat about how this managed to get this far. But for now, let's deal with what is.
is out of food and out of cash. And very very hungry. Payday is Friday... of next week.
Under normal circumstances I would cover my big bro but I've got some big expenses of my own tying up my cash at the moment. I can do a little, but I can't do enough.
Big bro is too proud to beg. I can't say I wouldn't be otherwise. But there's nothing saying I can't beg for him. So here I am.
Just ten days' food for him is all we need. That shouldn't be much, even in the northeast. And I will personally see to it that anyone who helps gets something for their troubles once we get past this pinch.
Okay, big brother and I are going to have to have a chat about how this managed to get this far. But for now, let's deal with what is.
is out of food and out of cash. And very very hungry. Payday is Friday... of next week.Under normal circumstances I would cover my big bro but I've got some big expenses of my own tying up my cash at the moment. I can do a little, but I can't do enough.
Big bro is too proud to beg. I can't say I wouldn't be otherwise. But there's nothing saying I can't beg for him. So here I am.
Just ten days' food for him is all we need. That shouldn't be much, even in the northeast. And I will personally see to it that anyone who helps gets something for their troubles once we get past this pinch.
A fur in need
General | Posted 13 years agoSomeone really must need help if they need to sell 300 CDs... http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3653641/
Never be the same
General | Posted 13 years agoOne thing you have to understand about me... I tend to be a very private person. Senior year of college, my dorm roommate failed to show up for reasons I will never know, and I was amazed how great it felt to have a room to myself. In fact, having some private space was a HUGE factor in my early development as a writer.
So now fast forward a couple of decades, give or take, and for the first time in my life I am giving up such a luxury. It's for a very, very good cause, but I still think I underestimated how thoroughly accustomed to having a place of solitude I had become.
I guess what I'm saying is if I seem out-of-sorts these days it's because I'm adjusting my lifestyle in a way it hasn't been in a long time. I hope you'll bear with me, and I dearly hope Lucca will too.
So now fast forward a couple of decades, give or take, and for the first time in my life I am giving up such a luxury. It's for a very, very good cause, but I still think I underestimated how thoroughly accustomed to having a place of solitude I had become.
I guess what I'm saying is if I seem out-of-sorts these days it's because I'm adjusting my lifestyle in a way it hasn't been in a long time. I hope you'll bear with me, and I dearly hope Lucca will too.
Color quiz
General | Posted 13 years agoNot a bad assessment I think...
http://colorquiz.com/index.php
Your Existing Situation
"Feels like his current situation is too demanding on him, but not sure how to say no. Looking for some sort of escape or release from the situation."
Your Stress Sources
Tries to hold back his normal enthusiastic and imaginative self in fear that he may get carried away by it and chase after unrealistic goals. Feels betrayed and used and is staying emotionally distant to keep others from hurting him more. His is distrusting and suspicious of the actions and intentions of other people.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Current events leave him feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.
"Although he is able to find contentment through sexual activity, he feels hopeless to change his problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what he has."
"Insists his hopes and ideas are realistic and achievable, but needs encouragement and support. His self-centeredness can cause him to take things too personally."
Your Desired Objective
"Looking for affectionate, fulfilling, and friendly relationships. Seeks intimacy and personal relationships full of love, self-sacrifice and trust."
Your Actual Problem
"Tends to be too trusting, so he must protect himself from this or he runs the risk of being misunderstood or used by others. Searching for a relationship which provides a safe and understanding environment, one where he knows exactly where he stands with his partner at all times."
Your Actual Problem #2
Disappointed because his hopes have not come to pass and he fears coming up with new goals will only lead to further disappointment. These conflicting emotions lead to a feeling of anxiety and depression. He tries to escape into a peaceful and calm relationship which offers encouragement and protection from further disappointment.
http://colorquiz.com/index.php
Your Existing Situation
"Feels like his current situation is too demanding on him, but not sure how to say no. Looking for some sort of escape or release from the situation."
Your Stress Sources
Tries to hold back his normal enthusiastic and imaginative self in fear that he may get carried away by it and chase after unrealistic goals. Feels betrayed and used and is staying emotionally distant to keep others from hurting him more. His is distrusting and suspicious of the actions and intentions of other people.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Current events leave him feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.
"Although he is able to find contentment through sexual activity, he feels hopeless to change his problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what he has."
"Insists his hopes and ideas are realistic and achievable, but needs encouragement and support. His self-centeredness can cause him to take things too personally."
Your Desired Objective
"Looking for affectionate, fulfilling, and friendly relationships. Seeks intimacy and personal relationships full of love, self-sacrifice and trust."
Your Actual Problem
"Tends to be too trusting, so he must protect himself from this or he runs the risk of being misunderstood or used by others. Searching for a relationship which provides a safe and understanding environment, one where he knows exactly where he stands with his partner at all times."
Your Actual Problem #2
Disappointed because his hopes have not come to pass and he fears coming up with new goals will only lead to further disappointment. These conflicting emotions lead to a feeling of anxiety and depression. He tries to escape into a peaceful and calm relationship which offers encouragement and protection from further disappointment.
OMG this is actually happening
General | Posted 13 years agoA series of boxes have been shipped my way. The owner of the content of those boxes will follow in three days' time.
This is actually happening. For real this time.
Three months almost to the day after and I combined to have a almost sitcom-level misfire (minus anything humorous about it), my dearest kitten is moving in with me.
Am I really ready for this? Financially, no doubt. Emotionally and mentally... I just don't know yet.
No. No. I need to be strong here. She has put her faith in me and I must not fail. This is too important.
Life as I knew it is about to end. Here's to the life ahead.
This is actually happening. For real this time.
Three months almost to the day after
and I combined to have a almost sitcom-level misfire (minus anything humorous about it), my dearest kitten is moving in with me.Am I really ready for this? Financially, no doubt. Emotionally and mentally... I just don't know yet.
No. No. I need to be strong here. She has put her faith in me and I must not fail. This is too important.
Life as I knew it is about to end. Here's to the life ahead.
