For the like two of you that enjoy my ongoing story, the next part of it will likely not be posted until the first bit of the new year. I have a commitment that I need to fulfill for January 1.

Not that I have an upload schedule, but I thought you might like to know.

This part is a scenario that I've struggled to write in the past, but I feel like I'm making good progress. Influenza floored me for a week and a bit, that didn't help.

For 5 years I've been confused or uninspired or something to that effect. Suddenly words come.

I've written a thing but I don't know what to title it, and I'm writing a thing that's nearly done that I do know the title of.

Old ideas are suddenly able to take form.

I'm not sure what happened, but it's enjoyable. I feel a little guilty too, because it feels too self-indulgent to the point that I don't know if anyone else will enjoy it. But I enjoy it.

Also do you want me to write more journals like this? I usually just talk to people on discord, but maybe someone appreciates this. I'm not very good at "being active" or remembering to interact with people which probably translates well to why I'm not very good at consistently uploading.





(Unrelated, but did you know that you can cough so much that you pull a muscle? Now I still need to cough, but it also hurts a bit.)

Three different things are in the works and actually looking like they'll be completed.

As it says in my profile info, that one story that has taken me three years to figure out has actually gained some traction. Its first part's draft is nearing its completion, and then I can move on to editing.

Another story is d&d character backstory that I'm slowly plugging away at. I'm kind of dragging my feet relative to the other two, because I know I'm going to have to rewrite a bunch of what I've written to incorporate another character.

The final piece is a secret. It exists, but you'll only get to find out about it when it's done.

That's all. Also, Yeleena, if you're reading this, I do read your shouts and appreciate them o3o I just feel shy about responding with a note or a corresponding shout. Somehow I feel less shy about a journal, though?

I've been pretty quiet :o

Been writing a lot of one-shots but they're all pretty boring, a fair number incomplete. I've just been writing random crap that comes to mind, mostly about Misha. When I write something actually interesting and complete then I will definitely post it, but for now I'm just waffling about.

For the most part I'm working on assignments or playing magic.

That's about it.

I don't like math assignments :( or doing math

Rather unexpectedly I stumbled upon a sheep tf sequence drawn by LittleNapoleon about 5 years ago and was inspired to write a protagonist I've always wanted to write: an asshole with bigoted views confronted with a sudden change in their life that challenges their views.

Given that this was inspired by a sheep tf sequence, you can probably guess what the sudden change is going to be. I bet you can't guess the views, though!

While I have plans for a long thing I can guarantee a post of about 3200 words.

After being inspired by this I actually read the description box and learned that it was based on a MightySquid story .-. It was a damn fine story. My story goes in a bit of a different direction.

I love writing about life-shattering events that give people an opportunity to grow.

Also that story about the blind person has hit the bin. I couldn't figure out what I wanted from it.

So close and yet so far. Started writing a thing a couple days ago but I'm not liking how I initially approached it. Mostly stuff related to pacing. I keep going back and trying to heavily tweak stuff but I'm going to have to just rewrite it at this rate :|

The slice of life thing I said I was writing 5 days ago is approaching the 7k word mark and I still haven't run out of ideas, so that's some good news. I'm not sure how much I'll edit it or if I'll even edit it before posting. In the event that it does get stuck in development hell I will just post what I have, which will be at minimum 10k words (based on the number of things I still want to do in the story, assuming I only do two of those things).

I don't have a title yet besides "Slice of Life Thing"

I've been slowly writing a thing that keeps growing and pulling in little tidbits of inspiration from random sources. Not sure how good it's going to be. Very slice of life. I'm a bit worried it's boring tbh, though I think the scenario is unusual enough that it carries itself pretty well.

It's not very long yet, but it's very interesting to write. I've always enjoyed writing very unusual things.

After a very long time of posting nothing I'm not sure how many people still follow my activities, so I guess maybe look forward to this? It could just get stuck in development hell for all I know, but I'm pretty attached to the characters.

I've always wanted to create content based on a large mix, but writing doesn't lend itself particularly well to the structured chaos of hardcore techno or tribecore.
Music like this changes too quickly and too erratically for me to properly capture it in a story :| maybe one day, but not today.

This is getting to be a tradition, I swear...

I was driving shifts with my parents home from Prince Edward Island and, yet again, I wrote an amputee-themed story instead of a different, non-amputee themed story.

I seem to be obsessed with restricting my audience .-. also with writing in cars?

The introduction isn't dramatic enough so I'll be editing it over the course of the next "today" after work.

Maybe finally post it? I have a plan for at least two other chapters, a rivalry, and a weird series of challenges, but I'm not sure how I feel about how much I'd likely be alienating potential readers. There are some cool, unique things I can do with my premise, though, so we'll see.

At long last I fucking did it!
Since you probably didn't know...
The opening to The Price of Tea has been irritating me for a long time now.
The pacing was generally horrible, whether too slow or jarringly fast, and I haven't been able to fix it.
UNTIL NOW.
I added one stupid sentence and it fixed the jarringly fast version.

The pdf is now titled ThePriceOfTea_e2 because I've also been editing random bits here and there since it's been posted.
I often forget where I edit (quotev or the actual file) so I'm not sure which changes have survived, but it's nothing major enough to warrant a second read.

It turns out software engineering is hard!
By that I mean I really dislike web development and find it challenging to get interested in the material.
It was bad enough that I dropped the course, but I am still required to take it eventually :|

I was bored one day last month and wrote random sex that I didn't finish.
Besides that, I haven't written anything. Alas!

Wish I could say I was enjoying university - and I feel guilty for saying otherwise - but I'm not.
I am good at being friendly, but bad at making friends, so I feel kind of alone.
I do have a few really good friends that I can regularly exchange messages with, but no one physically present.

One thing that is making this semester particularly bad is I have to miss modern magic every week thanks to a poorly timed calculus lecture q.q
One thing that is making this semester particularly good is I have deepened my relationship with a friend :)
But oh no! He's 400km away! >_< He's not going to be in town until sometime at the end of April.

ULarn has potentially given me a good, solid premise that I can run with.
You know, "Protag goes on a quest to find a cure for someone they love."
Once I get my (pretty small) literature review out of the way perhaps I can develop it further.
Knowing me I'll probably get distracted and end up with something entirely different.
Or nothing.

Oh, and I am finally feeling fully better after losing my last physically-present friend.
7 months - new personal best for "longest time not being truly happy"
I do not really want to discuss that as I am a little embarrassed about how clueless I was O_O
I will say that I assaulted his mind with TMI.

So ends this ramble! I have sources about the integration of Muslims in Western societies to find.

I've written thousands of words over the last month, but none of them are postable!
All of them have been for role-play :3 Currently 65,000 words in and only 2/7 finished the main quest.
Can't post it mostly because it's not my story - it's my friend's story. I'm just playing the protagonist.
I would feel weird about posting something I didn't write, like I always feel weird if I post art I didn't draw.
(not that I draw at all)

Failed to take one idea anywhere interesting, but succeeding with another.
When I get past 7000 words with it I'll post what I have of the draft.

Hey. It's been a while since the few of you who read my journals have received a journal, but this is pretty much why I haven't posted anything recently or really written anything at all in the past month.

On August 3, after much discourse with a good friend of mine, I finally decided to confess my love to my crush and see where things would go from there. Going into it I honestly expected him to be a little weirded out and reject my advances, but I just wanted him to know how much I care about him and would be content after that.

On August 4 this was not the case. I went out with him to try to get a magic card - Shield of the Oversoul - as a cheap replacement for another card in a GW Hexproof I'm running. We had been to one place and were trying to find another, but altogether failed to get it. Originally we had planned to also go out for coffee, but went out to lunch instead. I saw this as the perfect opportunity to invite him over to my place with the reason of wanting to do a puzzle with him and discuss something.

It was a total flop. Not only did I fail to convey how much his friendship meant to me, but I said some other things about roleplaying that I really shouldn't have.

This is the part I didn't anticipate, yet I did. I went into the situation expecting worst case he hates me and never wants to talk to me and best case being he was secretly into me and fairy tale things happen, but really I expected him to have some questions and concerns and we could work through this a little.

What happened was almost a non-reaction, and then absolute silence. No anger, no questions; just pretending I don't exist. That really got to me. I was prepared for an expression of anger or love, but not nothing. For the past month I have been hopeful and pretty depressed, waiting for my friend to talk to me again even just to say, "I never want to see you again."

Over the month I've been talking to my other friend, who is my crush's oldest brother. He was in town for a bit and I got to hang out with him, but he also was able to get my crush to say why he was avoiding me. These reasons can be boiled down to two main things:

1. I had the audacity to think he might be into me considering what I know about him and his faith.
2. I write and browse smut.

I've decided that, as much as I love this guy, if anyone is going to be so much of an asshole that they don't even tell you they don't want to see you anymore then they aren't worth pining over. It's going to take me quite a bit of time to get over him completely and I still want to settle things once and for all - get all the unsaid things said - so I can move on.

That takes me to now. I randomly got the idea for a story I'd never heard of before that actually requires human characters and I've started writing it to see if I like the premise. Just the opening bit to see if I like it and want to continue it, but I love the idea behind it. It is a very angry, aggressive, gory story and sort of suits my mood right now. It also has the potential to be quite long, though I haven't planned out any arcs.

The reason for the human characters is I can't bear to inflict divine retribution upon furs q.q

That's about it.

*loses motivation because a stand-alone story turned into a continuation*

I wrote something that again features Finley and Thalia, only this time with more coffee and less sex.
Also a lot shorter of a story, sort of developing my characters.
Finley is becoming a visual artist .-. He draws with his mouth.
I couldn't think of any other profession for him besides "gives inspirational speeches to highschoolers."

Unfortunately for you people I hand wrote it so I can't easily post. Give me a bit to type it up.
I also need to fix a really shitty transition from "giving inspirational speeches to idiot highschoolers" to "you should try drawing to fill your time and maybe make some money" so the idea of drawing will stick a little better and seem more important.

Next in the storyline seems to feature Rena a bit more, if all goes as planned.
I just love these characters enough that I want to spend time exploring and developing their lives.

I had many, many hours to kill and wanted to try two things.
First is a method of planning I thought of (sort of node-based)
Second is erotic fiction.
The method of planning was a fantastic success, but I've never written smut before.
Erm
Yeah I guess I'll post that after I fix all the tenses. I wasn't sure whether to write in past or present so I did both.
Just figured you people were wondering what I've been doing.

Update on The Price of Tea edit: it's slow and trimming prose is a sad business so I've been putting it off a bit.

So I got a 3DS and Pokemon Y on June 23.
Suddenly I realised today was June 26 O_o I have done pretty much nothing but play pokemon for 3 days...
Even as I write this I'm playing pokemon.

The Price of Tea is COMPLETED!
Now to spend a shitload of time editing...

I have good news and bad news.

The good news is I started my brand of a text-based-adventure with a friend!
It's command and response-based roleplay with a d20 roll to determine results.
One player, one console, one world. It's pretty good fun.

The bad news is I'm having a lot of trouble planning my longer stories, even The Price of Tea,
So production on those has ground to a halt until I can figure out what I actually want out of them.

The main problem with The Price of Tea, though, is that I felt that - despite knowing exactly where the story is headed -
I was just meandering and I even strayed from Mandy's persona q.q
I'm also kind of worried that I changed the style of story pretty drastically from the first to second parts, but we'll see.

To my new followers... hi!
I write stuff!
It's usually sad stuff because I'm into that sort of thing.
I don't write much poetry.

But to all of you who read my shit:

I wrote this thing --> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13492445/
and I think it's kind of meh, reading it over again.
This is why it is now in my scraps.
It also has some silly errors in it
- in part because I rushed it out before I went to work -
but I'm not really willing to put any effort into editing
because I don't feel it's interesting enough.
What do you think?

I changed the wording of a few things in A World to Remember, mainly to make the ideas flow a bit better.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13083152/

It's probably not too noticeable.

Yay so the continuation of "The Price of Tea" is nearly 2000 words now.

A whole pile of stuff needs to happen still, so this might take a while.

However, I do have a plan and am trying to figure out how to get the next thing to happen, which mostly consists of figuring out how much of a leg a character is missing (never mind, I just solved this problem by looking at the skeleton of a *non-specific quadruped*, and I did a bunch of research a while back on limb loss, spinal injuries, and prosthetic limbs just because I wanted to).

This progress may be ever so slightly hindered by the fact that - yay I got a job! As a cashier. In about a month I'll probably say something more like, "Damn jobs..." but, for now, it's nice to know I'll have some income. Only part time. Thank goodness I don't need anything full-time yet, because I don't really want to be a full-time cashier :S but I can't really be picky.

Oh I should probably also think more about getting a picture commissioned for this story, namely what the heck I want the cover to be.

So, besides writing the long story...
I've started mapping out Lucario culture despite knowing basically nothing about Pokemon.

I just felt that, if you've developed communication, that means you're going to communicate.
The people you communicate with first are probably going to be people that look like you or are like you.
When people start to communicate they share ideas, and then they start to think about those ideas
Over time you start to get a whole pile of people all thinking about the same ideas.
And then eventually you call it culture when enough people are acting on those ideas.

So that's why I'm writing Lucario culture.
Also I want to write a story about a Lucario, but it's just fun to write lore.

I can almost guarantee it will be shitty and disorganised, but do you like 3-4 people who actively respond to my journals (and are my guaranteed audience) want to read it when it's done? I figure this is a pretty rhetorical question but the thought that people know this will be happening is good.

Just no critique please :S I like writing shitty lore and I'm a bit insecure about posting the lore specifically, especially in this case because I'm messing with something that's pretty popular and basically telling it to sit down, shut the fuck up, and become something different that I feel makes more sense.

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Oh yeah, and I need to write a short story by the end of Sunday because this is a goal I'm setting for myself.