You all must hate me by now haha

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Gotta think of a name.

After a while on an account, for some reason I get this weird urge to make a new account to start over fresh.

I'm huge on change, and changing accounts every so often actually makes me feel better.

I have no idea why I'm like this, but I am. I've been getting the urge to make a new account for quite a bit now. Urn was a name I picked when my mind was in a rather unhealthy place.

I kinda wanna bounce back to Bizaara but I don't wanna deal with all my old art.

This is just like when I had my New Character Syndrome when I played WoW a lot. Never made it past level 20 because I always felt the need to start a new character.

But I'm pretty sure you guys would hate me if I moved again, and frankly I lost quite a bit of people from the beginning because of my rampart account switching.

I do apologize for those who get frustrated with me :( Just understand for me it's not that it's to annoy it's a compulsion.

So idk what to do

make an account, or no. FUUUUUU

Man, I never knew how fun it is to bathe dogs.

It was my second day at the dog salon today, and already I have a new appreciation for toy breeds. I bathed this red poodle beauty today. I got to play with an Old English Bulldog named Dante. <3 I fucking LOVE bulldogs!

anyway, Hooray! I have a source of income! I'm actually an official employee, though I'm basically part time.

So I decided until the Cavalier gets fixed and I take over the truck, commissions will be my secondary source of income. Meaning I'm going to take more time on artwork, and sorry but my prices are going up. Not too much, though don't worry :3

Still have the ref sheets and the badge to do, but I should be done before the weekend. Then I shall open up commissions!

Going to see about getting an ad on FA for commissions when I get the funds for it.

Republican Chris Smith introduced a bill that will change the meaning of rape from, without consent, to "must have physical evidence of violence".

This is pretty outrageous. :/ So if you wanna help stop the bill you can check out:

http://pol.moveon.org/smithbill/?rc=tw

To sign a petition to stop it, and find more information.

Going to be opening up commissions soon. Saving up for Neverender, and either a piercing or tattoo.

Haven't quite kicked the art block :P getting there though!

I'm working on art that I owe, gonna get those out of the way first. :B


Also, tomorrow is the 3rd month for me and <3 I'm gonna surprise him with something!

I feel like making a website with my commission info lol or at least updating the website I have :x

Always ruining shit :T

ALWAYS WHEN I OWE ART.

ALWAYS WHEN I REALLY WANNA DRAW SHIT.

HNNGGGGH.....

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*scribbles viciously*

Due to a recent scare, my mind has been all over the place.

Everything I draw I end up deleting.

I feel really bad that Calph may not get his badge in time. Art blocks always seem to hit at the most inconvenient times.

I have so much art to freaking draw ; ; and Vanca's badges are sitting on the desk waiting to be shipped out.

I miss a lot of people. Mostly all my Texas friends. Especially Brittnay.

I've met quite a few awesome people living here, and I even get to hang out with my favorite little gaybro, but I can't help but feel like I'm missing friends.

My hamster nips me and my rats are getting a lot more bored lately. Where the hell did my inspiration go?

Ugh. Idk guys. I'll try to beat this stupid art block.

Stolen idea from lol

1. I like playing with earthworms.

2. I have an addiction to owning pets. There was a time in my life where I had no pets at all, and I remember being miserable.

3. I only engaged in online relationships because I thought I was too fat and ugly for anyone who's near me to like.

4. I have self esteem problems. I was bullied for over 10 years. I know it shouldn't affect me, but it's made me feel like a hideous human being over the decade. No one wants to hear how undesirable they are. I crush I had once referred to me as "That overweight girl"

5. I believe I am a bad omen for one of my friends family. Every tie I would go over to spend time with my friend, something bad would happen. Last time her brother attempted suicide.

6. I'll never be over Brittnay's death. It's affected me more than I thought.

7. What I really want to do with my life is create visual affects and prostheses for movies.

8. Deep down I wish I was as talented as my favorite artists.

8. I preach that practice makes perfect, but I fail to see myself improving.

9. I owe people art but it feels like I'll never get it done for them. When I work on it I see it as a messup and start all over again. Especially on reference sheets.

10. I'm not scared of heights, I'm fascinated by them. It's the falling part that scares the ever living daylights out of me.

11. I have a fear of never getting married and living life with my other half.

12. I came to terms with my abused past ages ago, and it still makes me laugh when people see how nonchalant I can be about it.

13. I'm afraid of ending up like my bad. Three failed marriages before finding the right one.

14. I remember cursing God when I was still in elementary school.

15. I have a fear of touching lizards.

16. I really actually hate how all my art turns out "cute" and "adorable".

17. I can't take a compliment. But I say thanks anyway.

18. I used to question my gender, and sometimes I still do.

19. Windows? I can't look out them at night.

20. Last but not least, I'll smoke weed like a chimney but I will refuse to smoke cigarettes. I wouldn't smoke them for a million dollars.

Because

Because..

BAWWWW

http://www.elfwood.com/~bizaara

and sometimes I have to share what I'm feeling or thinking of, so random journals like this are going to pop up in the future.

I'm a good ol' cajun woman, but deep down I feel my spirit is Celtic or something of the sort. An Irish heart or something. It's hard to really explain it. I have an immense love and draw to everything about the medieval and renaissance eras. But more of the supernatural side, the fae or something like that.

Er. Ok. I feel like I have an elven soul. What kind of elf, well I haven't found it yet.

Ok yeah that makes me sound like an otherkin *cringes* Dammit.

This goes with the idea



Maybe I've been researching the stuff too much, I dunno. It's just something I've been feeling and sure of since I was a kid :T

*sigh*

I'm lost my mojo for some reason. I need a break, so doing personal work. But I'll finish Calph's badge too.

I'm G Fondue :3

I have no idea what I'm doing.

Driver Whiz wants me to buy the fucker for it to fix all my out of date drivers :T and it's like, 30 bucks wtf.

Someone help? I'm not very savvy at this driver thing.

Because I get bored when I can't play WoW :<

Because

I can't get IVES's design out of my head.

I've had a thing for big cats since I was a kid (I even still have this Panther toy I got way back when, over 10 years ago). And the subtle colors just.. URGH. I LOVE IT OK?

I would LOVE to thank and for participating!
You gets get consolation pictures! :D Because I feel bad for not giving you guys anything. Since it was only three of you who entered lol

We could always do a popular vote among the people if you guys really want to xD

But either way, I'm going for 's design. Hope you guys aren't too disappointed! D:>

Last day to enter the contest!

Hurrryy hurry! Midnight is gonna mark the beginning of voting.

HURR DURR

Who cares? Just laugh at her craziness.

You honestly can't be so mad when a furry goes on tv. It's not like furry is a secret or anything. People are going to do what they gonna do.

Plus, ever seen those creepy 30+ year old otakus? Lolis and shit, and they get way more obsessed with it than furries with their furry shit.

So, you angry bitches, please shut the fuck up.

The world isn't going to end. The furry fandom isn't being extorted.

When a furry goes on tv is about the individual, not the entire fandom.

You can say "But she represents us as a whole!" all you want to, but deep down you know people at home are thinking "This CHICK is insane." Not "These PEOPLE must be insane!"

Furry is just as normal as BDSM or a foot fetish. Everyone has a weird quirk or have SOME form of weird hobby.

Stop thinking furry is special.

Because it's not.

Shut up, and don't turn on TLC.

Tomorrow is the last day to submit your entries!

So far we only have three entries, which will be voted on by the public because I can't choose which one ;w;

So hurry hurry!

If the deadline needs to be extended, please let me know.

You guys have three days left!

Or Ives wins by default :P

That isn't on this lists?

Commissions:
-lephaid / Reference Sheet
-lemurlexi / Reference Sheet
-s_kuma / Badge
-pensive / Badge
-CRIMSON_FIREKAT / SHADED FULL (THIS JOURNAL WAS A GOOD IDEA)
-Calph / Badge

Trades:
-Crimson_firekat / Now You're Using Portals
-Floebean / Surprise

I keep getting this feeling I owe more art but I'm not entirely sure. Just wanted to see if I missed anyone.

Imma take a shower and try and see how much I can blast through before I pass out or my burr needs porch time.

I've already got one submitted <3

Entry Showcase:
IVES - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5080786

I'll keep this journal up and add entries as they come in :)

Generally if I commission an artist for something, it's usually an icon, badge, or something of the small sort. Every now and then I commission someone for a sketch or regular picture.

I make sure the artist is open for commissions and the sort. They're even uploading a decent amount of pictures all the time...


yet.....


I rarely actually get my commission :I

Do I make people not want to draw? :c Is my characters really that undesireable to draw?? Wtf is going on???

I'm pretty sure there's an artist I've been waiting for months for a commission from.
And another who keeps uploading drawings yet not my commission or the other person who commissioned her's.

:I

Wtf. I want my drawing.

I know I can take a lot of time on a drawing, but at least I get it done and try my best to let the commissioner know of any progress.

Which reminds me. Owed babyfur badges will get done this week, and I'll be going back to those two ref sheets I owe (now that I have the means of creating them again).

Chea. idk.. Jimmy's playing Black Ops and it's distracting.

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A Guideline Refresher
-Contestants are allowed only two entries.
-Fur colors must include shades of green, orange, and/or brown.
-Can be any species of animal: from furry to scaley to hairless.
-Irises must be black.
-Must include hemp necklace with mushroom pendant.
-Size 14 or bigger gages in each ear, extra piercing in right lobe, usually a fake plug.
-Must include something rasta, whether it be bandana, bracelet, etc.
-Hrybrids and mythical creatures are allowed.
-If styling in clothing, please nothing too girly and pink. I'm a tomboy who loves oversized hoodies.
-Fluff for hair, wavy long hair, curly short, or long (I mean LONG) dreadlocks.
-Extra limbs, heads, eyes and ears are acceptable. Missing limbs as well.

You guys have until the 20th!

Extra information:: Body type doesn't matter. I'm chubby irl! Please do not make her obese or grotesquely obese. I'm not a fat fur, and I find it to be disgusting and a form of self hate (to let yourself go like that). Also, I might add it can be female or androgynous. Lol Please no massive tits.

making my shit lag.

Streaming later.

In the mean time, going to some housework

GUYS, YOU HAVE UNTIL TOMORROW TO SIGN UP FOR THE CONTEST!

So far we have a beautiful bunch:
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Contestants must send their entry via email before Jan. 20
Voting will commence after all entries have been received and last until Jan 23

Send entries to: lich.gnome[at]gmail.com

A Guideline Refresher
-Contestants are allowed only two entries.
-Fur colors must include shades of green, orange, and/or brown.
-Can be any species of animal: from furry to scaley to hairless.
-Irises must be black.
-Must include hemp necklace with mushroom pendant.
-Size 14 or bigger gages in each ear, extra piercing in right lobe, usually a fake plug.
-Must include something rasta, whether it be bandana, bracelet, etc.
-Hrybrids and mythical creatures are allowed.
-If styling in clothing, please nothing too girly and pink. I'm a tomboy who loves oversized hoodies.
-Fluff for hair, wavy long hair, curly short, or long (I mean LONG) dreadlocks.
-Extra limbs, heads, eyes and ears are acceptable. Missing limbs as well.