So its the first of July... My birthday

Ok so I just got back from work... its 3:30 AM x.x

Ok so this is the first time in a long time where I have had absolutely no one to talk to... It sucks so much x.x

my family sucks

Ok Now I'm just out right annoyed... Things people everything
wrong wrong wrong! Its all going wrong... I'm an unhappy camper! I'm sure your sick of hearing me whine, well too bad your the one reading this! J/K

I feel ignored and... Well sometimes I feel that talking to me is like listening to fingernails on a chalkboard so I can't really blame people for ignoring me...

Can you tell I only write here when I'm feeling down?
Its because writing here helps to make me feel better.
Anyway today I'm gunna whine about how I'm surrounded by my friends and family, but for some reason still feel lonely... I don't know why... I just feel like no one gets me? No thats not it... Hmm maybe I'm an egomaniac that has to always be the center of attention? Possibly, or perhaps I just spend too much time dwelling on my own faults, and isolating myself... I should try not to do that anymore.




Gag me with a spoon I should write a self help book. :p





All that being said... I still feel lonely.

Are people ever mean to you for no reason that you can tell? Well it happens to me quite often, and it is a contributing factor to my poor mood lately.

Everything is upside down in my life right now, its kinda weird

Been kinda sad lately, and feeling kinda dejected

I feel ignored today

I got a haircut, my two foot long hair has been cut down to two inches... A good summer cut. ^^

Hmm its amazing to me how many different reasons people find to ignore me... u.u

I'm soo~ bored x.x

I hate it when people avoid me... 6.6

Errrrrrrf!

So I slept in today... I feel quite a bit better too. I think stress at work, and with my friends and family just overwhelmed me a bit. Hopefully the rest of the day will be a good one.

I'm not a happy camper at the moment, it seems I have a gift for saying the one word that will ruin a good time, and make people upset with me... This sucks, I have no one to talk to now, and I'm tearing myself up over it...

About an hour ago two guys broke into my apartment building, and beat up my next door neighbor. I got out of bed, and dressed as quickly as I could, then I screamed out my door. "What the hell is going on out here!?" I didn't see them, but I heard them running down stairs, and slam the door...

I'm ok, but I have had quite a bit of booze, and had to talk to the police about what I heard. It's always bad to try to talk to the police when drunk. I didn't get in trouble, but it still makes me uneasy.

My neighbor had to go to the hospital, I don't know him all that well, but I still hope he will be ok...

It seems ever since the so called Beautification of Newport project has started the sleaze-bags have been much more active, and I'm watching once peaceful neighborhoods turn into places where you can get mugged if your out after dark or your car can get stolen for being on the street... Hmm beautification indeed... Well I'm going back to bed with a sword on my nightstand.