So Its been some time since i put up a journal here,been to busy and been to lazy to write anything here (DAMN YOU DA!!!!111!!! XDDDDD) SO anyway back to the art,I been working so hard on fixing Defect's look that it toke most of my time,but now that,thats over i can work on other things.

As of now am working on learning some new coloring tech's on PS,and trying to learn how to draw the body a bit better.

Other then that thats all i have to say i guess....

...Just remeber to checkout my DA,for their are pic's i will only put up the.

Got back from my MSI Show and god fucking dame it,it was fucking great,the best show i ever been too. they were just great,i lost my 2 shirts tho XD i threw my pink shirt at urine and my mastermind shirt got lost,but i got him and righ? to sign my IF CD :3 anyway talk more when i get to my house cause am over a friends house cause he went with me to the show and i was to tried to go home.

Later's DF

11:45AM Sunday the 20th

I got up to the sound of my dad walking into my brothers room,for i was sleeping in their for my bro was out sleeping over at his Gf's house, and him just wakening me up,hugging me as he said "She passed away you must me strong now for your mom". I didnt now what it meant by it into it hit me, the fact that my grandma had passed away in our room.


For 17 years now me and my grandma have seeped in the same room,for 17 years i have been watching over her as her old time-ers got worst,aways feeding her,giving her water,helping my mom with her,and just less then 24 hours of me seeing her and giving her her food, she was gone.

I watched as the people around me cry,and i watched as two of the most strongest people in my life,my mom and my brother,just break before my eyes in tears.

to think that only 10 hours ago i was havening the best day ever,to think that everyone in my house was laughing,playing,drinking,and talking,to just have a loved one taken away like that.

5:37pm

Everything is ready,we are set to leave to Puerto rico this Thursday to put her in the ground with her mom,day and sister, she was the last one in her family to die. Am going to miss her a lot,not to be able to hear her in the mornings anymore when i wake up,to not be able to see her smile anymore,but i will never forget all that she has done fore me.

May you rest in peace
Carman
i will aways love and remember what you have done for me
Fabian L.

So i been slowly gettiing out of my art block as you guys can see,i been working on new things and trying out some other things,so as i get out of my block i put up more things^^

Ya am back online now with faster online X3 and a new Da so if you have a Da add me plz ^^ http://defect-fox.deviantart.com/ Also have been have an art block Y~Y anyone got any ideas to help. Maybe a request or something will help get me out of my block :D

Well my mom is going to cut off the internet this WEEK, so i wont be able to get on much anymore. Tho we are going to try to get wireless but not sure. have to wait and see.

Anyway, i will still up load things when im over a friends house and what. We might get wireless tho in 3-4 weeks so it might not really matter XD

ANyway in case i dont up load anything for some time you all know why and who to blame XDDDD

Its been some time since my last updata here, i feel bad for not updataing more here,cause am more on DA then here. AM just really lazy when it comes to uploading things two times,but that will all change. so keep yours eyes open for updata cause you will be seeing them.

Ya its new year and its off to a great start tho am tried as hell from going back to school XD
anyway am going to start puting up more art work here. i be puting up new art when ever i put up art on my DA page and start drawing something more thats well..like FA ;3
anyway hope u guys have a great year.

~Valow~

Well i havent been in the mood of drawing a lot casue of what happen the other wee end.

My Bro,who is like a dad to me even tho i have a dad,was almost killed. This is like the 4 or 5 time he could have been killed and taken away from me and my family.

Ever since then i just been in a sad/bad/ok mood. Its just hard then on that my moms Cos. Died on the same day like.....Its like She was killed by god to let my bro live....its werid.....

well i dont know if when i be ok but in to them i try to draw and upload something................

Updataing and adding pics.might as well XD
and may start drawing pics that more...well u know XD