Today seems like a good day to say something I've wanted to for a while now. I haven't really shown it much, at least imo but then again I'm always hard on myself, but I just wanted to say thank you. To anyone who favorites my works, who gives my art the time of day, or even leaves a comment. I'm not very good when it comes to communication due to major anxiety issues. So I wanted to take the time today to say thank you to you all! I appreciate every little bit of support that I receive, I'm just not the best at showing that.



So I thank you all, hope you have a nice day, and whether you celebrate it or not, have a Happy Thanksgiving!

since I could hold my head up high.

Staind joke aside, it has been far too long since I posted any sort of update. Last journal was nearly...a year ago at this point holy shit. I was going through a bit of a tough time then, having got out of a shitty job run by your typical brand of asshole. But you didn't come here to hear me rant, so I'll leave it at that. Since then, I've gotten a better job that pays more and the staff there is much better, especially the higher ups. Had my first sick day recently, more on that in a bit, but when I came back and my voice was gravely everyone was wishing me well and expressing genuine concern. As opposed to the previous one where I was working sick and got criticism for my slowed pace.

Now for that illness. Started as a sore throat Saturday, Sunday it got worse but was still just the throat, then I wake up Monday and my nose is dripping, my head is cloudy, and my voice was gone. Fun stuff. Dunno what it was exactly, saw a doctor who said it might have been a sinus infection made worse by allergies (evidently the last two weeks of Sep and first two weeks of Oct are the worst for some kinda weed around my area. Didn't know that.) So I'm dealing with that atm which is always annoying, but it's been ages since I was last sick so I'm hoping this'll be it for a while as well.

Onto the work load. So ever since I posted that poem, I've been struggling big time trying to get anything done writing-wise. I would write a few sentences, then just lose interest and move on to something else. It wasn't until recently that I felt some kind of inspiration again that genuinely drove me to write. But it feels nice. I've got some ideas I wanna work on and I actually started and finished a story again. In the intermediary I only finished things that I'd already worked on. I also wrote another story that's kind've different from what I normally write, more vore than squashing, but I'll post it anyway. A lot of the reason I haven't posted in a while is because I get in my own head a lot of the time. What I mean by that is I'll make something, but then worry so much about reception and if people will like it, that I just sort of psyche myself out of posting altogether. Anxiety sure is fun...

So moving forward, I know I say this all the time, but I'll try and post more consistent updates. I've got something I wanna do for Halloween both art and story-wise, so I'll try my best to get those done on time. I'll also start posting those stories that I mentioned, so apologies for the rapid posting in advance. Thanks for your time and I hope you all have a wonderful day!

Howdy folks, Vamp here. I know I haven't posted anything in a while but life's been a bit of a roller coaster since I last posted something. For starters, been a bit hard to find my creative groove which is always a pain. I've been writing something recently, but it's slow going due to just how I'm tackling it. It's also a rather large project that I'd rather wait to upload in bits when it's all written out and I've had time to iron out the kinks.

I'm also getting over an anxiety spike. Something happened (nothing serious) that caused me a LOT of stress and had me beating myself up a lot, the works. It wasn't a fun time and lasted at least a week. Thankfully it's gone for the most part, only get the occasional moment that goes away quickly enough. So that's good at least.

So with the year wrapping up, I'm going through what feels like a rebuilding stage of my life. I'll do my best to create some content before the year wraps up. I've got a few ideas floating around and I'm sure I can make something happen. Til then, just bear with me because as we all know, I've got the work ethic of a sloth.

Tomorrow I'll be leaving for a week-long vacation, so I'll try and do some writing during down time and during the trip itself. With all that said, thank you if you took the time to read this, and I hope you all have a wonderful holiday next week.

Hello, folks. I know I haven't posted anything in a while, and I'm sorry about that. Writing has been kinda slow the last few months and my anxiety makes posting journals like this kinda problematic. Anyhoo, I didn't make this journal to complain, I wanted to let everyone know what I've been up to since I last posted.

There was a period of low productivity, but I recently managed to finish a couple of stories and I have a couple more in the works. I'll get around to posting them soon, although one of them I'm hesitant on as it's a little different than what I normally write. I'll likely post it, as letting it sit around without posting it anywhere feels kinda like I waste. I'm also really proud of it, as I had an itch and wrote the story to scratch that itch.

In addition, I've recently gotten a new piece of hardware that's going to enable me to draw digitally a LOT easier. I drew and finished a piece just yesterday and it's going to tie in to one of the stories currently in progress.

So that's what I've been up to. Just a short progress update on where I've been the past few months. I'm sorry for always going radio silent for so long, but it's just how I am unfortunately. I hope everyone has a great day!

Heya folks, me again. Realized it's been a month since my last post so thought I'd put out a journal as a sort of status update. Currently I'm going through some bad times. Nothing's really wrong per say, but nothing's really right either. I won't bore with details, but the TL;DR is my anxiety has been really bad due to some circumstances I allowed myself to get into and I'm attempting to fix it, but it's something not exactly under my control. So until I can fix this or find another solution I'm probably not gonna get out of this mental storm of sorts. I'll try to get SOMETHING done, there's a few projects in progress that would take a few small pushes to finish, but I'm not gonna promise anything.


Apologies for not putting anything out, but my spark for writing is more like a tiny wisp at the moment. I shall do my best to get things back on track, but if I don't post anything for a while you'll know why. As always, I hope you all have a nice day and stay safe out there.

Howdy ladies, gents, and those in-between. First off lemme just wish everyone a happy pride month. I hope those of you that are a part of the LGBTQ+ community have had a great month thus far. So this is me trying to keep everyone updated as to what I'm doing, what's going on, etc.

So for starters, I'm doing fine. Since my last post I had...something. Dunno if it was a cold, sinus infection, just know that I felt like hell for a few days but it passed and I'm feeling much, much better. As for what's going on, not much, but I have been quite busy For the past I want to say 6 or 7 weeks, I've had my weekend taken up by something or another. Now, that's not everything so I have had time to write, but the fact that it kept happening kinda drained me a bit. I'm not much of an outdoorsy type, hardly go outside much anymore, so to have so much going on on such a consistent basis it's kinda gotten to me.

Now for some positive news. I have been working on a brand new story, but I've kinda hit a snag. One of those things where I'm struggling to come up with what comes next and how to make it unique from what I've already done before. That said, all I need is a bit of inspiration to strike and I'm sure I can get it done. Also, there's a short little series of stories that I've written that I'm hesitant to post, namely because they're kinda personal works. While Lilith and Alexa are my main characters and who I try to write the most, they aren't who I'd say best represents myself. That'd be Shane, one of the wolves who frequents my stories. He's sorta who I use as an insert for myself from time-to-time. I try to write him as his own character, but sometimes I want to write like it were me in his place. Hence why I'm a little hesitant to post. It's mostly self ship stuff. But then I think what's the point in writing it if only I'm gonna see it? So I'm going to be posting those periodically to hopefully tide you folks over until I can get a new story written. Fingers crossed inspiration will strike and I can finish something in the works or a brand new story.

Right, that's all for now everyone. Hope you all have a nice day and stay safe in this crazy world.

Good evening ladies and germs! Time for my annual update!...I really need to get better about these things...

First off, let's clear the air. The reason that I'm so god awful when it comes to posting updates is simply put I'm an introvert with major anxiety issues. From my perspective, if I miss posting something or it's been a while, my rationalization is that I should just ignore it and let it be rather than confront the issue. I'm someone who doesn't like conflict and avoid it whenever possible. On top of this, I have an issue where my mind will make up opinions about myself from the perspective of others. Simply put I've been worrying about what the public will think about me. I worry and make up opinions about myself whether they be rational or irrational and it all just builds up like a tidal wave that crushes me mentally. I don't mean to say this as an excuse, merely an explanation for why I do the things I do. It's not good, and I'm going to try working on this going forward, but it is what it is.

Anyway, here's what's been new with me since I last posted anything. I have since found a therapist who's helping me talk through the tangled mess that is my mind and while it's a slow progress, progress is progress no matter how small. So while my mental health isn't akin to an athlete yet, I would say I'm definitely in a better place now than before I met my therapist. Physically speaking I'm doing fine aside from a few things being over or under normal parameters, but I'm taking some vitamin supplements to help compensate so that should get me back in line. I haven't gotten Covid which is a plus, and I hope everyone out there is doing well in that avenue as well. These are still scary times we live in and I don't think normalcy has come back just yet.

Now then, I've addressed my health, but how does that translate to my work? Well, I've actually been quite busy. For the latter part of last year I didn't get much done, but I made slow progress. Since the beginning of 2022 however, I've gotten a lot done. Off the top of my head I believe I've finished 4 or 5 stories as of a few minutes ago so I'll be working on uploading those. Might only get one or two up today because I'm gonna be occupied traveling all day tomorrow. Traversing multiple states in a car can be surprisingly exhausting.

So going forward, I'm just going to be writing at my own pace and doing what I feel like/what inspiration strikes me. It's been working out for me and the lack of pressure of feeling like I have to do something is helping. I'm still going to do my best to write those stories that won my final Patreon poll, just don't know when those will get done. My writing lately has been kinda linked to what inspiration strikes me. Speaking of, the Patreon is still up: https://www.patreon.com/starknightproductions . However, I think I'm just going to treat it as a tip jar for the time being. Like I said before, inspiration is what's driving me from a writing perspective and getting locked into a 'must do' story might be a bad idea. Also, I've kinda felt bad about the whole 'few days earlier' thing and don't want to do that anymore. I know it's like the one thing I had going for me, but doing that and then having to remember to post the story again a few days later kinda wore on me to an extent and often lead to me forgetting to post it on every site I'm on (Apologies to my FA watchers). So for now, it's 100% optional. If you wanna toss me a couple dollars it'd be appreciated. If not then don't worry you won't be missing anything. I'll still post stories to there so I don't break TOS or something, but it's just going to be there if anyone wants to support me.

That's all for now, folks. Thank you for being patient with me. I'm a very flawed human being but I hope to fix some of those flaws in the future. If you read through this then thank you. I hope all of you have a nice day and wish you nothing but the best.

Hey everyone, it's me. If you want a longer explanation, then go here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/53247958 .

The TL;DR is this: my mental health has been in bad shape for several months now and it's made writing next to impossible for me. I've done more writing in the past two days doing simple personal stuff than I have in the past 3 or 4 months as a whole. So I'm going to be taking a bit of a break and just writing when I feel like it. Any story I promised will be made just at a huge delay. I'm sorry about all of this and I can't thank you enough if you're still watching me and being patient.

Thanks for reading and I hope you all have a nice day.

https://www.patreon.com/posts/50913545

Here's the link everyone. It lasts until 10pm EST on May 12th and there will be two winners this time with four prompts. So vote over there or if you can't vote in the poll, comment below. So have a nice day and take care everyone!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/50247624

For the full story you can follow the link to the full post. But for the cliff notes, I'm going to try and get my butt in gear and get things done. April and May's polls will be combined into one with 4 prompts with 2 winners and will go up May 1st. And I apologize for my lack of updates and works posted.

Thank you all for being patient with me as I try and deal with my mental hang ups and I wish you all a nice day.

https://www.patreon.com/posts/48877446

Here we go again folks. Follow the link and vote, or if you don't have an account, comment below and I'll add you to the final tally. Hope you all have a nice day!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/47602152

Title says it all. So visit the link and cast your vote! Or if you're lacking a Patreon account comment below and I'll add your vote to the final tally.

https://www.patreon.com/posts/45929922

I'm sorry for not putting up journals for some of the recent months, as well as not posting recent stories, but I'm going to get better at that going forward. So with that said, please follow the link above and vote if you have an account, and if you don't, then please comment below and I'll add you to the final tally. And remember! You may vote for more than one!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/42757159

Follow the link and lemme know which monster you'd like to see in this month's story! If you don't have a Patreon, then comment below with your choice and I'll add it to the final tally. I just ask that if you can, please don't vote for the same thing more than once. OK? Awesome! Have a nice day and stay safe folks!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/41503672

Apologies for not doing a poll for last month, but I'm back and ready to write! So head on over to the link and place your vote! And as always, stay safe and have a nice day!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/story.....-june-38275820

Here it is folks! Go ahead and vote on which story you'd like to see

https://www.patreon.com/posts/37011991

Apologies for not doing one last month, some mental hangups kinda got in the way, but take a look and feel free to vote folks.

https://www.patreon.com/posts/34743083
Like the title says, I put up my poll for this month's voted on story. Subjects include waking up a hibernating bear, crossing the wrong person in the gym, and a giant dinosaur facing off against a Saiyan. So please head on over and vote if you'd like, and have a nice day!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/33669251

So I know this is earlier than I usually put the poll out, but I'm looking to finish the sponsored story prior to Valentine's Day as love is the theme of my story prompts. Worry not though, for while that story won't go up til a week after said story is finished, I'm working on another that if all goes well, it will go up on the actual day to the public. With that said, head on over to the link and cast your vote and have a nice day!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/33046909

So I'm making polls for Patreon stories public now. This month is going to be based on the Monster Hunter world, and the monster is what's up for the vote. So if you want to participate please stop on by and feel free to drop a vote for your favorite monster(s).