http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2408228/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2408228/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2408228/
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the one person who means more than anything else to me is in very fucking serious trouble. he's lived his whole life with a total shitbag who does nothing but abuse him and hurt him. this fucking "father" would actually kill mikh. kill. he needs to get the fuck out of that house and to some place safe. he can't call the police because his father is "family", and despite my constant pleading he can't bring himself to do anything that might hurt his father, even in self defense.


look, i really can't say anything else about it without freaking out. i've never joked about this kind of thing before and i'm not joking now. if you live anywhere in or near Newport News, Virginia, please try to help him with a place to stay, even if only for a little while. he can't stay in that shithole place any more.
and yes, he's over eighteen. he can't live on his own because his oh-so loving father makes sure to take any money he's able to make on his own, which probably helps pay for his (the father's) booze while he sits around not doing a fucking thing.

i never have actually asked anybody for anything this important in my entire life before, but if anybody can help him (or give this journal to somebody who can help him) i would seriously be indebted to you for life. please.

is fuckin' hilarious. if you haven't heard of him you should totally go check him out on youtube.
3 second videos, little girls flying through the air, thug jedi, big booty bitches (an actual song), grandmas on facebook, little cats doing insanely cute shit, yodelling japanese bathroom stalls with huge faces (what), karate expert politicians, bars literally collapsing, chinese motorbikers doing FUCKIN' NINJA BACKFLIPS WHEN THEY HIT TRUCKS...it really is quality material.

only bad thing about him (besides being so damn handsome?) his I Wanna Fox With You tshirt apparently isn't on sale anymore, and that's one that i was sorta wanting to order. and totally not because it has a foxy fox on it. totally.

RANDOM JOURNALS FOR THE WIN! at least it doesn't have to do with me ranting, right?

this is a serious thing, not a joke. normally i don't randomly link to another person's journal, but even if i don't know who the missing person is i think it's a good idea to spread the word about it and try to get them found as soon as possible...so if it's not too much to ask, try to spread the word around a bit, would ya?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2397916/
the details i got from the journal are that she's about sixteen and has been missing since may 25th of this year. even if you can't help look for her (i can't, being in fucking Texas), at least go give  raikeira your well-wishes, okay?

i think i might just cry. as if i don't have enough shit to deal with already (most of which i'll probably never talk about because i can't get my fucking thoughts in order for any length of time), i have to deal with this fucking asshole



(not me, obviously. i'm talking about the guy in the cowboy hat sitting on a horse who gives ignorant answers).

http://www.lostzombies.com/forum/to.....ource=activity



which one i'm talking about should be obvious. i really don't know who the fuck he is, but he's been hounding me and trolling me for the four or five years i've been a member of the site. he doesn't even read the fucking thread before he responds to it, which pisses me off even more than anything else because he acts like he's always fucking right, like he's so fucking smart. he's a fucking idiot, first of all.
and again i can't fucking continue what i was saying because all the fucking noise in the background (worst of which is people clearing their throats over and over again for no reason and fucking dishwashers) and the stress is making me
fucking forget it. i can't even finish my sentences. in a week i need to go on a fucking trip that i don't want to take, and what's worse is i need to go to a church-related meeting to go on that trip. i hate church. i hate religion. i hate priests of any kind. so that would seem like a good excuse not to go, but apparently i'm required to go on the trip. and it's the summer season. and i'm being controlled and manipulated by everybody. and i can't even spend my time doing what i want to do, because there's always somebody who needs me to do something and i apparently can't do it well enough even though they never do shit themselves to begin with. i still can't get on secondlife, which is doing a lot more damage to me than anyone would believe since that was the only place i could ever really be myself in any capacity. i had a game that somebody spent about thirty dollars for, without my asking, to give to me, and it stopped working after a single day. i feel like shit now, because that person wasted their money. they never needed to get me anything, but they don't ever seem to care that i ask them not to even though i know it's always going to fuck me over in the end since i can't enjoy anything anyone gives me and i'll feel like a fucking asshole for not using what they got me and now i'm going on and on and ranting again.

sorry to everyone watching me for being a stupid ranting bitch all the time, especially since you probably have enough problems of your own, but i just can't hold shit in anymore...so, yeah. feel free to stop watching me if you want, because these are about to arrive by the truckload. not like i really know who's deluded themself into caring enough to watch me anyway.

also, i feel like commiting suicide/slaughtering a schoolbus full of children now that i've seen this website's latest monstrosity of a web banner. what the FUCK is a dragoneer, anyway?

1 - Very first video game.
probably DOOM.

2 - Your favorite character.
Brian Frost. later, he's christened Poet by a friend in the ION PMC (Private Military Company) that he joins after he leaves the British Armed Forces, so you can kind of tell how he pictures things in his mind. he also says "fuck" a lot when he's getting shot at.

3 - A game that is underrated.
Counter-Strike: Condition Zero: Deleted Scenes. it had terrible mission/level design and it didn't really fit the "team-play" bill that Counter-Strike was *supposed* to meet (although normal CS didn't either), but it was a really cinematic and exciting set of miniature stories from beginning to end.

5 - Game character you feel you are most like (or wish you were).
i wish i was most like pretty much any one of the characters from my own series of games that doesn't exist yet, but i feel most like a version of Brian Frost but with boobs.

6 - Most annoying character.
"that kid from engineering" in the first level of Unreal 2.

7 - Favorite game couple.
Mischief and Mayhem from Shark Attack.

8 - Best soundtrack.
Unreal Tournament 2k4, followed by ARMA II: Combined Operations.

9 - Saddest game scene.
That part of the first Splinter Cell where Ramsey (i think that's his name) is killed while he waits for you to show up at the exfil point.

10 - Best gameplay.
ARMA II (unless you're trying to fly an airplane).

11 - Gaming system of choice.
personal computer.

12 - A game everyone should play.
the first Half-Life.

13 - A game you’ve played more than five times.
Bioshock, Half-Life 2, DOOM 3, Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 (the singleplayer).

14 - Current (or most recent) gaming wallpaper.
EVE Online: Tyrannis.

15 - Post a screenshot from the game you’re playing right now.
check my scraps folder for a few screens of the inside of an American helicopter and Russian attack plane in ARMA II.

16 - Game with the best cut scenes.
Heavenly Sword.

17 - Favorite antagonist.
Heavenly Sword's King Bohan.

18 - Favorite protagonist.
the nameless black dude you play as in the new Aliens Versus Predator.

19 - Picture of a game setting you wish you lived in.
i'll get back with a link on that one.

20 - Favorite genre.
post-apocalyptic, science-fiction (mostly space), realistic wargames, or any combination of those three.

21 - Game with the best story.
the entire ARMA II storyline.

22 - A game sequel which disappointed you.
any Sonic game after Sonic and Knuckles (surprise, surprise--i've actually played those games)

23 - Game you think had the best graphics or art style.
best graphics in terms of realism: ARMA II. in terms of art style? probably EVE Online (which is also really high on the realism scale).

24 - Favorite classic game.
whichever Windows 95 game had "Alien Tits" as a useable weapon.

25 - A game you plan on playing.
DUKE NUKEM FOREVER, Black Mesa, the mod me and violent are working on for ARMA II.

26 - Best voice acting.
ARMA II: Private Mercenary Company, Heavenly Sword, Tomb Raider: Underworld

27 - Most epic scene ever.
"Dropped a Mothership on Him".

28 - Favorite game developer.
probably Valve or Bohemia Interactive.

29 - A game you thought you wouldn’t like, but ended up loving.
most casual games/online games (especially the violent-but-cute ones).

30 - Your favorite game of all time.
wpnFire.

I just spent sixty dollars on ARMA II: Combined Operations and its two DLC packs Private Military Company and British Armed Forces for my birthday. So far everything seems really kick-fucking-ass-awesome, but I FUCKING HATE FLYING HELICOPTERS, ESPECIALLY WHEN PEOPLE WANT ME TO DROP THEM OFF OR PICK THEM UP.

Also, Russian T90s apparently attract...jackrabbits. The fuck.

...needs to be punched in the vagina. that is all i will say. so does dragoneer, and so does fender. fender actually pisses me off the worst.

Finished, took all the pictures, although I couldn't cancel my premium account at all, which really pisses the fucking shit out of me. And I went to find Philip Linden's profile so I could complain at his dumb ass and guess what his profile says?
"Blame it all on me :)"
At least they're having fun destroying peoples' faith in them.

Also, I'm celebrating my birthday today. And it's raining, which makes me happy even though I know I can't go anywhere now.

Note that this is not in chronological order. I'll probably end up doing the stuff in the middle first.

1. Find a way to log in to SecondLife again for any length of time and take at least two good quality pictures of each and every avatar I've ever had in their current states, and especially the four main avatars (all of which are fennec foxes, by the way).

2. Figure out how the hell to fix Sarge's V5 Weapons Pack for Ballistic Weapons (mod for Unreal Tournament 2k4) so that it works in modes beyond just Ballistic Conflict (even though I only really like the RPG-7 and IMI Desert Eagle).

3. Get my writing shifted into high gear. My story is long overdue for a healthy amount of attention from me (at least, of the literary kind. i've been thinking about it nonstop for the past few years).

4. Concerning SecondLife again--find some goddamned (<---saying that makes me giddy) to impress upon the powers that be that SecondLife won't ruin the world and that all that shit about the sex in-game and whatnot...well, honestly, it's true that SecondLife is a shithole in that respect. So is real life, big fucking deal. Maybe I like shitholes. Point is, I love SecondLife because it lets me be myself. Y'all goddamned (eeee!) Christains ain't got nothin' on me!

5. Clean up my damned (kekeke) room. It's a mess. A clean room is a clean mind, after all. Well, okay. That's bullshit, especially as the main reason I don't clean my room is because whenever I'm in there, I'm staring either at my LapFox posters or staring at the ceiling (which is already clean).

6. Find a job. Time = Work = Money = Me Slightly Happier = VODKA AND PIZZA, BITCHES (nah, but that would be awesome).

7. Think of more things to add to To-Do List.

i've been complaining a lot. i've also been a total and complete bitch to a lot of you, especially those of you who care. i'm sorry for that, and i'm trying to fix my attitude as well, but i just wanted to say "thank you" to everybody who's put up with my bullshit for this long. all the offers to help, the well-wishes, the willingness to talk...it all means more than you could ever possibly realize, and i am truely grateful for all of the compassion that you all have shown. i know it must be hard when i keep throwing more problems out at you, but...it's always nice to wake up from my insane insomniac sleep and find that somebody--one of you--had sent me a worried email, asking if i was okay; to find that somebody had offered to let me move in if the need arose; even just offering to let me talk to them and vent. it really does mean more than i could possibly express with words. i actually get a bit choked up when i see people do these kinds of things, which i guess is my explanation for why i never respond to your well-wishes and offers. i just don't know what to say because i've never been exposed to real caring before.

again, i just want to say that i'm very grateful for everything that you all have shown me, whether it was attempting to calm me down after a traumatizing incident, or offering me a place to stay, or even just saying you like the weird stuff i occasionally try to share with the world (i have no illusions of my artistic ability), thank you all so very much. i'll try not to keep this bad attitude up. it really isn't something you need to deal with.

as the title says. i'd made this revelation very recently, whilst destroying most of what i thought i'd once stood for. they took it all away. they took my life away. they took my resolution and my purpose. they even took my mind away. my soul is long dead now.

i am a shell. they took me away.

so there really is no point to deluding myself into staying alive any longer than i already have. if there is no reason for existence why am i still trying to survive? is it for others? is it for some other person's sake? fuck them. maybe they think they need some form of support. maybe they think they want to talk to me. maybe they think there's something in this mother fucking world that's worth saving. maybe. no. i can't even say it's a fact they all think that or not because even pretending to know that you think something is false because obviously it is fucking impossible to think something or know that you think something or even suppose that you think something.

well, i say fuck the whole world up the fucking ass. that's what i think. i'm just going to go kill myself now. good-fucking-bye.

...that i accidentally spell 'independent' wrong (independant) more than any other word in my vocabulary. which must contain over 145,000 words by now. and no, i do not want to list them all. maybe i'll make a list of all the big ones or something.

i need a scanner, god damn it. i have at least twenty really good pictures that i want to upload and i can't, plus there's all the other pictures i've drawn tat i also want to upload. like the dragon with the derpy ak-47 i drew yesterday.

more importantly (read this part) if i owe you work of any kind (requests, trades, editing for stories, etc.) then please please please please note me and let me know. i don't want people walking around feeling like they were cheated or something because my memory sucks twelve kinds of ass, okay?

do i really know what to believe anymore? i don't think i do. i can't get myself to see anything straight except for my own "perverted" beliefs and dreams that anyone else would consider nightmares. just an hour ago i convinced myself that the clouds are really the ghosts of my people and that the stars are silent angelic watchers and protectors. go ape shit crazy trying to figure that one out. tomorrow the weekend ends and i must go back to the shitastrophy of a life that's plagued me for so long. and now i'm going through yet another enstrangement. this one should hurt more than the others, it is supposed to hurt more, but somehow i just...can't feel a thing. i think i'm finally truely dead on the inside. and the worst part is that i like it. i know i'm insane, but insanity is a blessing and not a curse. it was never a curse. i know that i'm evil, but looking at me as a person you would never consider this train of thought. 'good' is a disgusting, horrible thing. the churches are 'good'. the crusades were 'good'. priesthoods are 'good'. liberators are 'good'. visionaries like hitler and fidel castro, stalin and kim jong are 'good'. those who consider themselves truely evil inside recognize this. we recognize the world for what it really is and realize that there is no changing how it works. there will always be war. there will always be strife. there will always be heartbreak, always be betrayal, always be death and decay. so shall there always be life, hope, and redemption. and so shall there always be control and imprisonment. it isn't a modern curse, or a human fault. it is merely the way of the fabric of all that is material and immaterial, real and unreal.

i cannot decide on any logical way of presenting the rest of the thoughts searing through my mind...like so many beautiful paper wings...so i am just going to leave it at this. my spirit is shattered enough and my mind can't handle much more at the moment. i wish my soul could at least lift me from this world for a short time.
good night.

- - Handguns - -
.380 - Kicks like a bitch because .380 guns are really fucking small and lightweight, and usually don't have enough of a handle to facilitate four-finger grip (except in the case of Glocks, which redirect the energy of the blast through your arms and body rather than up through the top of the gun, resulting in a strange vibrating feeling but not a lot of recoil).
Weapons used tonight: Sig Saur .380 and Glock 21.

.45 - Pure unadulturated joy to hold and fire, with next to no recoil and solid stopping power that .380 can't really hope to match. Also a lot deeper sounding (if not overtly louder) than .380s, which feels a lot more comfortable.
Weapons used tonight: M1911A1, Colt .45 (not sure which model it was).

- - Rifles - -
.223 - Next to no recoil and a very light if crisp ptat! sound, which while at first uncomfortable your ears will eventually warm up to. Very lightweight feeling as well when in rapid-fire because the heavy rifle tends to push backwards into the crook of your arm rather than up. Only problem I'd had with .223 was honestly with the fact that it has literally no stopping or knock-down power, as its high velocity and small diameter mean it tends to pass straight through a target.
Weapons used tonight: M4A1 Military Sporter/Carbine (NOT an assault weapon).

.270 - This is a beast to behold. While the actual bullet itself isn't much wider than a .22 or .223, it has enough propellant behind it to send it screeching downrange and into the target with a force that they won't soon forget. It also tends to climb really fucking high if you're a crazy enough bastard/bitch to use anything besides bolt-action rifles. Speaking of which, the bolt on a .270 rifle is about four inches long. And it locks in place. Your shoulder will thank you later if you invest in a recoil pad.
Weapons used tonight: Some old-ass Remington rifle (again of uncertain make, but it was really fucking heavy).

Won't be going online in SecondLife. Ever again. For the next three years at least. Don't ask me to explain, but do know that it's not my fucking idea and that I'd do anything to get back to the people I care about. And no, I wasn't banned.

i need to get the fuck out of here, need to move out and find somebody else to live with. i need to do this now.

I've been doing a lot of that lately, and most of it wasn't even intentional but has changed me forever and in too many ways for me to name. I'm different. I am going to seem different. Those of you who knew me will probably notice these differences. And I will probably scare a few of you off. Most of you. Probably. Most definitely. I'm not going to ask you to "bear with me" as this is who I am and it's not going to change.

End of log. Tschau.

First movie I've seen in a long time that doesn't have unstoppable alien adversaries that kill fucking everybody and that (this is more important) shows things from a trained team of military professionals' points of view rather than some whiny incompetent civilian cameraman with an indestructible camera. I like the end part where the Marines make a final stand.

I was going to do this anyway, but it's sort of rude to randomly decide to remove somebody's gallery pieces. Just want to say. A friendly reminder to take them down would have been better.

I DO NOT WANT A BIG DISCUSSION ABOUT THIS. I AM JUST STATING MY OWN OPINION.

Get this right. FurAffinity the (actual art website) is the most well organized, most well set up, most user-friendly, and most on-the-ball furry art website about keeping Mature and Adult pictures off-limits to General-only viewers. It is an amazing piece of work. Even the attitude somehow manages to stay friendly to non-furs, at least on the bouncy cutesy outside.

It's the admins and their rather lax security measures that suck, and suck hard. Everything they do is on a whim and based off their own bad moods and experiences. This type of art is banned at one minute, that user's gallery is half-erased the next, and one guy puts up about twenty-five thousand pictures of his [small] dick on Christmas Eve before he's IP-banned.

The website works. It's got an amazingly large amount of bandwidth for the type of content it posesses (which is art in general, not just porn). It's easy to upload things. And although it's still an unfortunately common occurence for people to download a viewed image and reupload it as their own, the actual website does not try (or even have the capability) to sell the work as prints or anything of that nature that would benefit the seller without the original creator's consent or benefit. It WORKS.

As for the forum...well, it's an online message board. There are only two non-political forums in existence that are considered 100% newb-friendly and allow any and everyone a fair say on any subject (at least that's on topic) without being banned on the spot for having a different opinion than an admin or moderator: The MythBusters website forum and the EVE Online players forum.


Written while listening to EVE Online's 5.9-hour soundtrack (which is just what was on the hard drive and only about 70% of the whole in-game soundtrack).

1.ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Fucking up my arm with my sharp sharp nails.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Renard tshirt and some empty shells.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Some shitty Sprint phone.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Favorite bands are Bush, White Stripes, and 3 Doors Down. Favorite independant musician is Renard (who left).

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Approximately 4:23 a/m.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To somehow (magic or science or whatever the fuck happens to rule reality that we haven't discovered yet) to somehow turn me into a real, honest-to-god anthro coonfox and to do the same for Mikh.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
This is too vague. There are a lot of things I miss, but I'd need more clarification in the question.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
My collar, probably.

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Country smells.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
I'm not scared of closed spaces per se (the meaning of claustrophobia), but I hate not being able to move around in such places. If I had to choose I'd rather be tied up in the open than unconstrained in a tube or box.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?
Not really. Only if I know something else is there.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
Nothing.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON SOMEONE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO?
Long straight hair usually, but it depends more on the individual person. I like dreadlocks, too. I LOVE dreadlocks. I luvvvvs them.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
A gun range?

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Iced coffee.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Pineapple.

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Pineapples.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
I make so many people mad that I don't even remember anymore.

20. DO YOU SPEAK A FOREIGN LANGUAGE?
Ja.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX):
Some chiquita kissed me in elementary school.

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Yeah. Lots of people as friends, and lots of people as in simple attraction.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I wish.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Don't really have one, although if this counts then I like the U.S. Army's combat clothing and Magnum Elite boots.

25. WHAT`S YOUR DREAM CAR?
Humvee or Stryker (although a Stryker would be a hell of a lot harder to get a license for than a Humvee would). Also any Jeep that's got 4x4.

27. WHAT IS ONE OF YOUR DREAMS?
A huge, mind/world/society/quasi-religion-changing game/movie/book-spanned universe I came up with that has similarities to Halo and Unreal, with hints of war movies and such. And it has four species of anthropomorphic animals in it, and both are essentially universal soldier races. Males, females, children are all trained like the frigging U.S. Army and given high-tech, state-of-the-art weaponry and equipment and then they fight wars on whoever's side has the right moral/political ideas behind it. Sounds sort of Gary Sue-ish here, but it's really much deeper than that. Very, very deep and meaningful if you know the actual story. Also, humans tend to be ignorant assholes, but that's really just taking the very same humanity we all know and love in real life and transplanting it.

28?
Eh?

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Be upfront about it.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
30.

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
Mikh's number.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Hard to say.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
Possibly, but I don't remember if I have.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Kryptonite, dark matter, and the power of the unleashed Green Lantern.

36. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE?
Anywhere in Canada, or barring that, in Utah (I like cold, peaceful places).

37. FIRST JOB?
Working odd jobs for people in exchange for below-minimum-wage payment (ugh).

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yes.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
Playing with my Happy Fun Ball and running away from it when it started to heat up and whistle.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Right now, for no cost, and it can be anything?
Canine jaw and ear structure, breasts and a vagina, claws, a long racoon tail (somehow), and canine-appearing eyes (but still with all the visual faculties of humans). And this doesn't strictly count as plastic surgery, but canine fur implants as well.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Because my mate won't shut the fuck up about it <3

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
I get complimented? Seriously?

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Form an underground resistance movement that ran alchohol and protected moonshine runners. In a Firefly. Sorta like Serenity. Which is a Firefly. In Firefly.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Dunno. Ask me in five months.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
...eh.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nada.

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Doesn't work.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
Whut.

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Today.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Not really.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Cajun spiced chicken or alligator.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Fuck yes.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
The five hundred or so blank ones.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
For personality, yes. For any other reason, probably not.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
If it was absolutely neccessary. But that's only happened twice in my entire life.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Sometimes.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I don't because people get hacked at me if I do. So eventually I end up snapping and going totally delusional insane for a few days and collapse from lack of sleep later.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
Can I say Second Life in response?

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Do I look like a fucking dumbass?

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
This random piece from a (at the time, high-tech) vaccuum that I thought looked a lot like the guns that the Marines in StarCraft and Aliens carried.

61. WHAT ARE THE FIRST THREE NUMBERS IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Well, in my last phone I think they were:
1. Mikh.
2. Some corporate lawyer dude I hang out with.
3. Some old old contact called Asshole Andy (I dunno).

62.
Eh?

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Me, use sarcasm?

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
Yep.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A MAN/WOMAN?
Somebody to love who'll love me back.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Meh. If by nickname, you mean what other people call me, then anything along the lines of "asshole" or "furfag" will work. Or "dogbitch". I made that one up myself. I actually LIKE that one.

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Sorta have to untie boots.

69. WHO IS YOUR CRUSH?
Ain't got one.

70. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
I like frozen custard, amigo.

71. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU WENT ON A DATE?
Never.

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Grey, black, red, and green.

73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
What kind of teeth?

74. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
Mikh.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Sort of, but at the same time I think it sort of sets me apart from the people who didn't answer them, and it makes me proud to be different in almost any way.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
My hard drive.

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Shitty pizza.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Mikh.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT A MAN/WOMAN?
Usually their height, as weird as that sounds. I notice skin color (no, I do not discriminate) and clothing next, then hair and all the other stuff.

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
The Queenstons - Our Special Place, Wither - Human Condition, Creed - Bullets, The Queenstons - One Life (feat. Casey LaLonde), and The Queenstons - Going Back (feat. Casey LaLonde). Also Daeva Suite (parts I - VII) by Renard (aka The Queenstons on the other songs in this list).

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE:
Society.

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Coke, Coke Zero, Dr Pepper, and orange juice.

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
Dragon.

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Geaux Saints!

85. HAIR COLOR?
EXTREMELY dark brown.

86. EYE COLOR?
Hazel.

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Yep.

88. SIBLINGS?
Nope.

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
Nada.

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Yep.

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Firefly (the episode where that girl pretends to be an unwilling slave girl to gain the crew's sympathy and then single-handedly beats the Captain and the pilot down, then takes control of the ship and nearly flies it through a giant electromagnetic space ring manned by chop-shop pirates).

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Any day I don't need to work (unless I'm doing art for money).

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
No need to.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hugs (but I like kisses too :3)

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
You reading the other quetshions, right?

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
People who aren't popular on FA.

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Popular people on FA.

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
Terry Pratchett books and Micheal Crichton books. Also WWII/Vietnam books.

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
My furfaggot Mikh <3

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Seems it's the new year. 2011. The big one. Right before 2012. When absolutely nothing will happen. Oh, maybe sea levels will rise by four inches, but within five years they'll probably lower again. It's all a cycle. But that's not what I want to say.

I won't be online as often as I used to be (SecondLife or otherwise) due to certain real-world problems that I need to deal with. By not online as often I mean almost never online. I'll try to get a regular schedule set up for this kind of stuff and when it's finished I'll let everyone know, but until then just assume that I won't be online if you want to talk to me. So...email me or send me a PM instead.

SecondLife is something I've been losing a lot of interest in recently anyway, and although I'll still log on and screw around from time to time I probably won't spend most of my online time there. Unreal Tournament is actually where I do the most stuff, so maybe we could hang out there if you play with Ballistic Weapons installed and don't mind my crazy machinegun-sniper antics.

When I get a computer capable of RUNNING it I'm going to install StarCraft II again and I'll be playing that pretty often as well, and you can all expect me to be much more productive in the artistic field as well. I know for a fact I owe :nightrabbitshinys: a trade picture, and if anyone else is waiting on me (probably) then just PM me and let me know. I'm actually waitiing on a few commisions myself that I'd paid for, so I'll be checking back a fairly frequent amount. FA is still a part of my life even if it pisses me off a lot.

That's pretty mch if for now. I may post more of my contact info if you need to talk to me.

Yeah. Because I opened my gifts at midnight. I got a new iPod Classic (already have a decent amount of pictures, pr0nz, carry-around files, and of course music on it), some sketch pads/books (from various friends), earphones (needed new ones anyway), and a rather humorous book claiming to contain everything men and women know about each other (pretty damn accurate considering there's nothing in it). Also got the standard chocolates (which I'm allergic to or something...I dunno why but I ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS get sick when I eat those) and stocking-stuffers (minus stocking). KF apparently gave me a free LAW achievement for somebody ELSE using a LAW to finish off the Patriarch in one round, so that's nice too (especially as I am never going to use the damn LAW anyway). And, of course, thay lulzy "attack" on FurAffinity last night improved pretty much everybody's mood. yIFF iN hELL FurFAgZ!! was met with, in effect, "Right after I'm done with your mom, dude. Relax."

Also got BioShock II and Assassin's Creed II. And StarCraft II. Surprisingly, my mum gave me StarCraft II.

I really must be going now. Seeya.

P.S.: Shitload of new art is inbound.