These past few months I've been suffering from depression due to the circumstances life has presented to me... it had gotten quite bad some days, and it had effected my work ethic for worse. So much so that today I was fired from my job... it feels as if I can never be successful... in any case, besides what I have backlogged, this will likely be the end of my commission posting. I'm not sure when I'll return to art, perhaps if I'm ever given anything but for now, this passion is put to rest.

To those I pledged to on Patreon, I hope to return... maybe when life decides I'm more than a fuck up.

Thought I'd just inform everyone that it will be very likely you will notice a severe decrease in my commissions. Though I won't be losing them, I've run into a financial wall this past week.

I went on vacation on Wednesday to drive two states away. As I got inside P.A., my truck I've had for 8 years finally died and left me stranded on a highway. To repair it would cost more than the car. On top of that, I wound up getting a stomach bug while vacationing which didn't help matters. Had to rent a car to get home. The whole thing turned out to be bittersweet.

So... now I'm in the market for a new car which puts a hell of a damper on my art spending. Not the way I intended to spend the last few days of 2018. Hoping for a better 2019.

I hope you guys have a wonderful New Year Day and that you're at least doing a smidge better than me!

Have a happy and safe holiday!

Hey guys, a good friend of mine is in need of some money and has opened commissions! He is a good artist and could use all the support he can get! His prices are very good too, so please! If you can help him out! I'm sure you'll like what he can do for you!

His name is  neoarcadianx

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8904210/

Wow!! 1,000 watchers is something awfully special! I am amazed so many people have come to like my characters so much that I've amassed such a number. It's humbling! I would have loved to post something other than a journal to celebrate but sadly, I've actually lost my job and got hurt so I'm not doing best financially. Thanks to everyone who has been supporting me this far and I hope to bring you more Sol, Sven, Yami, Shiro and Ren in the future!

Seriously, thank you to everyone for helping me get this far! You're all amazing. <3

Happy Digimon Day to everyone out there! I hope today is filled with goodness and happiness! Even if you're not a digimon fan, I hope it's good for you all the same! If you are a digimon fan, celebrate today by doing something digimon related! HAVE A GOOD ONE!!!!

I turned an age today!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

I also have to work today!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I wonder if I can get away with a lazy birthday at work. :'D

Figured I should get a tweeter, so I did. Follow me if you want! Don't need to if you don't want to, since I got one to support my favorite artists. https://twitter.com/SvenGira is my Twitter.

Hello friends!! Happy New Year!!! Let's make 2018 great! I look forward to the new adventures and hopefully less drama!!! XD

You're all beautiful people!

Some of you may remember a couple weeks back that I announced that and I were separating due to unfortunate circumstance. It was a very hard decision and it broke my heart, and his. We did not fall out of love which made breaking up so difficult to begin with. Being unable to talk to him and call him the silly little nicknames, to know that he was no longer mine put me in a terrible place. Every night I woke up feeling empty and I cried. You don't realize how much something means to you until it is snatched away.

So... I made the decision to get Asa back if he would have me. Of course, he felt the same as I did and even though an ocean and circumstance separates us, with this moment apart, we realized just how little these things mattered when you know how much you love each other. I love my otter boy deeply and even if we can never physically be together, just being able to wake up and say I love you, is all that I need to feel whole.

So... as cheesy as this journal is, and believe me, I know it's probably making some of you cringe, the reason I'm writing is not only to say that we've reunited together, but is also to encourage anyone in a relationship similar to our own. Hardships make you stronger, and show you just where your heart is. I had to lose my love to understand it completely. If you have someone you know you love deeply, don't let them go, because like me you're going to regret every second of it. Hardships are part of relationships, endure them and the other side of it will feel that much greater.

And to my beloved otter boy. To my Asa, I say this, Asa I love you with everything I have. You have made me truly happy in the two decades I've been on this earth. One day I hope circumstances will allow us to live together but for now, just knowing you'll be there to greet me every morning means the world to me and I am looking forward to seeing you real soon. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you, but I do enjoy it when you're flustered~ Thanks for being my partner, and friend and to everyone reading this, who didn't click away, thank you for supporting us. <3 Now before I start crying, I'm going to sign off~

<3

So, I've seen this being done before and I told myself that if I ever reached 450 watches I'd do it. I'm at 449 right now, but it's close enough. So, I'm giving you the opportunity to get to know the me behind the digimon. Ask me anything and if I'm comfortable sharing in public I will, if not, I'll note you my reply!! I don't know how well this will go but I'll give it a shot! I'll probably leave this open for a little while to celebrate all of you guys who allow me to continue to bring you my digimon! So, ask away... :3

ONE RULE!
One Question only. >w>

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8372412/

Click that link if you'd like to hire to color some sketches you might have in your gallery! He's exceptionally good with flat colors and is steadily growing in skill. He did my recent sketches http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24505094/ and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24505087/

As you can see, he is very good at what he does! It will also help him be able to get off the ground! Thank you for taking the time to read this! =D

So, I went and created a secondary FA where I will focus on my novels and artwork pertaining to those novels. I decided my three boys have grown exponentially and as an extension of myself, I'll leave this page as their FA home.

I know that you all love Sol, Yami and Sven and I really really appreciate it! I hope that maybe you'll give my novel a chance and a read! It's been in the works for about 2+ years. Not everything is published but we have a looooooooad of content we're still organizing into a readable format. In fact, we're already done with an entire volume and we're writing volume 2 of a Digital Story: Theos. Of course, uploading Volume 1 has been lengthy and time consuming so we only have 9, soon to be 10 chapters of Volume one posted.

This is also the novel that is being turned into a comic rendition that I have been posting every now and again. I hope to get some of my previous artists I've commissioned to do some artwork for my novels characters. Oh and before you ask, it is digimon related.

To give an idea of what it is, it is a dark romance involving two male digimon. It has a lot of mature themes in later chapters.

DigimonWorldAffairs, which is the name of my writing group, is also working on a couple more stories that are still early going so I hope to bring those here soon.

Anyway! If you're interested and want to support my writing, please give my second page a watch!  DigimonWorldAffairs

Thanks for checking out this journal!

So, as promised, a journal to let everyone know that I was born today! This digi has grown a year older and I'm so happy I get to spend the next ones to come with all of the great furs I've met here. This community has such a big heart and is so accepting (most of the time).

Special thanks to the same people I have come to love and grow attached to! You guys and gals know who you are!

Thanks for being a huge part of my life! You guys are the best B-day present I could have hoped for! =3

So... um... I guess the title says it all. My boss came to me today and stripped me of everything I worked so hard to achieve in the blink of an eye.

A year of devotion and stress did not pay off.... instead I was shut out by my peers and made to stress over and over and over and over.

I was removed supposedly because of a back injury i have been nursing for months but I think it goes far deeper than that. I was ignored all because I wouldn't lie to people and breed mistrust with my clients to achieve the perfect sale.

Though I suppose I'm not surprised. Good is rarely if ever rewarded. I guess integrity is a useless trait to have in the real world.

I work to support my hobbies which revolves around making my friends happy. I love spending my money on my closest friends and making them so happy. I try not to be so negative around them even when I'm feeling depressed. I'm afraid of failing them because they rely so much on me. I want to be there for them when I can but I can't seem to ever help myself.

I'm writing this because it helps me feel better to get it off my chest. Though I am being negative... sorry about that... It really doesn't concern you guys, I'll probably wind up deleting this at some point.

Didn't mean to waste your time. Have a good night/day.

So, a good friend of mine,  heart-of-a-dragoness is in need of commissions and she is really inexpensive. I'm hoping you all can help her out, especially if you like affordable art.

Here's some examples of her work:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23342294/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23269412/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23347819/

She does SFW and NSFW!

Here are her commission prices: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissi.....f-a-dragoness/

I hope you'll consider it and I can't wait to see what you all come up with!

So, the month of May is here and at the end of it, I'll have turned a new age. I wanted to write this journal to express my deep gratitude to all of the community and close personal friends I follow in it.

Starting with my lovely  Esperwolf who brought me here, she helped me along with some other friends accept myself for who I am. I constantly struggled with depression and low self-esteem and I still do from time to time. Though since coming here and meeting all of the great people I have has helped me in my personal life. I can't really be me outside of the internet but it is like a second home coming here where I don't have to wear the mask I put on for the last two decades. I can enjoy myself for the first time and it means so much to me.

Even more, I was able to make friends and talk about all manner of things. Friends I have found that I can tell my self to and not be scared or shunned. I don't have to hide secrets from, and in turn I can be the same pillar to them they are to me. I didn't expect to discover such a warm welcome where me and my digisona's could be so accepted. I haven't been this happy overall in a long time so for that I want to express my deepest thanks.

So, I just wanted to give a very special thanks to a few of the peeps who have made a personal impact and I just enjoy being around and talking to.

 Esperwolf  SSSsnowy  bombly  totodice1  the_secret_cave  lemonynade

Thank you for all your kindness and friendship and love. I know you haven't known me for very long, so I apologize if this might have made things weird between us. I get attached very easily to people I trust. I hope in some way, I've done a little something for your lives as you have done in mine despite the short time.

There are a few who I do speak to time and again that I consider friends and has been a pleasure to do so and I hope we continue to get to know one another.

I don't know how long I'll be here on fA for, I hope it lasts for many more birthdays to come, but I hope that we continue to grow as friends and that I make many more of course~

I also want to say thank you for all the watchers for giving me a reason to bring more of Sven, Sol and Yami here. To share them with all of you~

I look forward to this new year and chapter in my life. Sorry if this was a bit sappy, now I'm all embarrassed....oh well~

From my heart to yours, have a wonderful month of May~

Oh my gosh! I never expected to reach a milestone before!! Thanks to everyone who supports Sven, Yami and Sol and my soon to be Drake!! It means a lot to know how received I am in this community and the close group of friends I keep mean the world to me!!!

I hope to give all of you who watch me much more of the three digi's you came to love!! I'll also be continuing my stories and comic as well for those who have followed my Digital Story: Theos!

I cannot express how much you guys are all awesome!!!!!

So I've been wanting to make a new sona outside of the digimon universe, something that could relate to the majority of the community. Though I'll still be a digimon first at heart~

I took inspiration from , he's been a great model and friend to me since joining. I have nothing to show for this new Furred Drake sona besides a loose description of him. I'd like to bring him to life soon, with concept art and maybe a reference sheet after.

Does anyone know anyone who would be willing to help me bring my new sona to life? No one too expensive please! ^_^

Happy Easter to all my watchers and friends~

Enjoy your day with family and your lovers eat as much chocolate as you can or bbqs or whatever you are going to do today! I wish you all the luck in your egg hunts!

If you're just staying inside today and having a normal day then, have the best darn day you can! =3

*Hands out eggs*

So, I suppose I'm using this really as a way to vent...I've had such a bad day today. Anything that could have went wrong did. My depression flared its ugly head again. I was trapped with thoughts of being useless and amounting to nothing but failure.

Work continued to stress me out. Boss wanting me to do a needless task that wasn't due till end of month and then pushing me to force my employees to do it as well to which I get no support from.

Then my boss tells me that he is going to hire someone to compete with me for my executive position because I missed a few insignificant things....someone outside the company who's never worked a day of his life and could potentially take away all my hard work this past year and cruise on it.

People constantly abuse my kindness and use me for their own gain.... then being a disappointment to my family at home makes my home life difficult.

I feel like I'm in a box suffocating in water. Maybe I am useless and doomed to be abused and fail. I don't know....I honestly feel like breaking down and crying....

I don't even know why I'm writing this... it isn't anyone else's problem...I guess it feels good to just write it instead of bottling it inside like I have done for 25 years.

Sorry for wasting your time if you've read this.... I tend to be annoying....despite my best efforts. Hope you all enjoy your day/night.

So, is a fantastic writer and is doing a raffle to write you your very own pokemon love story, now being the supporting digimon that I am I wanted to help our Ray-nii with spreading the word! So if you really want to try and get one, head on over and participate! I already have!

Here is the link! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8161915/

I hope you guys give it a go! He's probably a better writer then I! X3

So, I am often known in the RP world and anywhere else pertaining to digimon as either being a V-mon named Yami or a Guilmon named Sol.

Having two of the things I love be separate from one another has been a difficulty of mine, so, I went ahead and thought why not combine the two things I love most in this world? My V-mon and my Guilmon?

With the help of my lovely , we made my original digimon character by the name of Giramon. He has his own back story and I will have concept of him in a future submission.

I'm overjoyed that this worked out so well and I'm in love with everything having to do with it. Just to explain a little bit about his backstory:

Giramon is taken from G in Guilmon's name and Ira from the word Viral, so it's essentially Guilmon's Virus attribute.

Yami the V-mon was injected with the virus found inside Sol the Guilmon's DNA, which mutated his body to become Giramon lit. Guilmon Viral Monster.

He has taken on a lot of Guilmon's attributes and even wears gloves with Guilmon's claws. He is good at both mid range and close range combat and is powerful even for a child level digimon. He's able to take on most Adult level digimon with ease.

I'll be posting a full reference sheet once the back concept is completed. The only thing left for me to do now, is give my new sona a name. That is probably the most difficult part!

Anyway, I wanted to share my rediscovery of my sona with anyone who might care! ^_^ Thanks again to my lovely esperwolf for the amazing time she spent helping me with this! Love you dear!