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Posted 3 months agoHi!
After a long time, it became possible to take a commission with PayPal payment or at least check it.
Payment will be made through LavaTop, I have 3 slots open!
1 character - 25$,
2 characters - 40$
Examples: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61434982/ , https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59976466/
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Send me note! <3
After a long time, it became possible to take a commission with PayPal payment or at least check it.
Payment will be made through LavaTop, I have 3 slots open!
1 character - 25$,
2 characters - 40$
Examples: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61434982/ , https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59976466/
1. Open
2. Open
3. Open
Send me note! <3
Portrait\Icon for $50 (Discount insaid!)
Posted 8 months agoHi, I have 3 slots open for portraits of this type for $50
If you order a double portrait or 2 arts, you will get a $30 discount!
Payment is made on EasyStart, I send you a check by mail for payment.
I draw any furry and humanoids! :)
Exsa.: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59831478/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54751587/
(!NSFW!) https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54221399/
If you order a double portrait or 2 arts, you will get a $30 discount!
Payment is made on EasyStart, I send you a check by mail for payment.
I draw any furry and humanoids! :)
Exsa.: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59831478/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54751587/
(!NSFW!) https://www.furaffinity.net/view/54221399/
Huge discount on sketches and help for my sick cat!
Posted a year agoHi, my beloved cat Yuta suddenly got sick. I rarely ask for help from subscribers or other people, but we found ourselves in a hopeless situation.
I am ready to work overtime, just to help her. In March, I already lost my dear dog Rick and I do not want to lose my baby-girl. If you have the opportunity, order a commission sketch-halfbody from me for $40 for one character, I will be very grateful to you and will draw an icon-sticker with your character additionally. I urgently need any support.
You can see examples here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55365184/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55057720/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46325244/
Payment is available on EasyStart with PayPal
I am ready to work overtime, just to help her. In March, I already lost my dear dog Rick and I do not want to lose my baby-girl. If you have the opportunity, order a commission sketch-halfbody from me for $40 for one character, I will be very grateful to you and will draw an icon-sticker with your character additionally. I urgently need any support.
You can see examples here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55365184/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55057720/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46325244/
Payment is available on EasyStart with PayPal
New X (Twitter) account!
Posted a year agoHi, my X moved and soon I want to make a lottery there, subscribe! https://x.com/_Vektorich_
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Posted a year agoWelcome to my BSky + 3 invite codes
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I have 3 invite codes, if you need it, write me a note with the title "BS CODE"
https://bsky.app/profile/vektorich.bsky.social
https://bsky.app/profile/vektorich.bsky.social
I have 3 invite codes, if you need it, write me a note with the title "BS CODE"
FREE REQUESTS headshots!!! \CLOSED\
Posted 2 years agoHello! I want to practice drawing a little and you can send me here your sharks, dragons and robo\mecha\protogen chars!
Commission discount!
Posted 2 years agoHello, I have 4 sale slots!
Headshot character (cel shade) - 20$30$ (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53215704/)
Sketch halfbody\fullbody - 50$60$ \ 60$ 70$ (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52525668/)
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You can send to me in Note or in Telegram vektorich
Headshot character (cel shade) - 20$
Sketch halfbody\fullbody - 50$
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About my absence and about the operation
Posted 2 years agoHello! Sorry for being less active. I spent the whole month preparing for the operation and collecting tests. I wrote the post below on July 28th, my surgery ended on July 27th and now I can more or less sit at the computer sometimes, although I still have a hard time. I was able to translate it for you.
"I want to write a more extended post about my operation and talk about the consequences.
I discovered the problem two years ago at the beginning of June 2020. My family and I were going to the sea and then just terrible pains did not give me rest. I went urgently and for a fee to the doctor and I was diagnosed with inflammation. Somehow, still at sea, I drank pills, rested, and everything seemed to go away until September. Then the periodic pains continued again and I was told that this would not go away and that I needed to operate. Frightened, I did not do everything at once and thought that I would do it next year. After that, I meet my loved one and leave for another city, where my immunity drops as much as possible and I get sick even more. Very often, almost every day since winter, I felt pain. It turned into an almost daily torture, from which mental health also began to suffer greatly. I simply did not have the mood to live and wake up in the morning due to the complex of physical and moral daily pain, so my depressions became more frequent. In the summer, I planned to return home and decided to have an operation. It was restless from the very beginning, but somewhere deep down I felt that everything would be all right. In early July, I started collecting tests and visiting doctors. Anxiety increased every day and my tests were also not very good. It all dragged on for an insanely long time and was very annoying, the days themselves seemed endless and I was very tired. Insomnia is my personal scourge, if something goes wrong, I immediately lose sleep and almost every night is as painful as possible, attributing here that the pain still did not leave me.
Day X - Operation. For two days, all my senses were blocked and I decided that this was the perfect mood for not thinking about anything. I was just on standby, but on the very night before the operation, I was shaking so wildly with fear. I have never experienced this. When I fell asleep a little, the wildest tremor began, as soon as I woke up in the night - I was fine. You relax - again the tremor. It was a tough night but between 3am and 6am I managed to sleep. I dreamed I was late for my surgery lol. In the morning I went to the hospital on an empty stomach and they had to operate on me first. I felt at ease, calmly donated blood from a vein and I was taken to the ward. This is where the confusion started. I was a little dumb and didn't know what to do. Almost immediately a nurse came to put me in a catheter, and oh shit... The catheter is placed for probably half a minute, and while she was doing everything for me and bandaging me, my head began to spin wildly and I probably began to lose consciousness. Everything in the eyes turned black and even the sounds in the ears became very muffled. When she finished, I lay down on the bed and just took a deep breath. Then my surgeon comes in and, given that she is such a fun women, tells me that soon I will be lucky to operate. I look at her, my head is still spinning and tears are starting to flow, just from nothing. I felt okay in my head, but I was crying stupidly and even barely spoke. My body must have started to give out from stress. I still didn’t hear well, but after 10 minutes they came for me and took me to the operating room. I already felt better and went there with the gait of Doctor Livesey😂. True, I still continued to be dumb and could not understand how I should lie down, the deafness in my ears also did not completely go away and I simply could not hear what they were saying to me. The grand-anesthesiologist asked me something about a childhood illness, I answered that I don’t know about it, he said, well, that’s good. The nurse pulled a tube to my catheter and asked him what and how much I should put. Then I closed my eyes in advance and the last thing I heard was the phrase "10 mL", lightness went through the vein and I just instantly turn off...
Time seemed like a moment, as if I just fell asleep, as you usually fall asleep at night. My female surgeon at some point said, "Wake up." And I opened my eyes. She said that everything had already been done and I was taken to the ward. I dozed a little more on the way there and did not feel like I was going, but in the ward itself I climbed onto the bed and lay down. I no longer fell asleep and even tried to talk. Then I thought about getting some sleep. the site of the operation still hurt and the catheter in the arm burned badly and got in the way.
There was a young girl and an older women with me in the ward, who seemed to me partly harmful, and when I tried to sleep, the women said to this girl: “She is quiet, she breathes there at all?” - it was unpleasant and so tactless. I don’t know, I love it when people behave civilly, although I myself sin with an abundance of obscenities, I always keep 'la class' with strangers. However, this women herself helped me get a drink from my backpack and also my phone. I went away hour after hour, notified my relatives that everything was over and just lay. I needed to eat, but I absolutely could not eat because I did not have the strength to raise my hand. I lay there for a long time, until about one o'clock in the afternoon, until I decided to get up and go to the toilet corny. In the dressing room itself, in front of the mirror, they began to knock me out and again everything went dark before my eyes. Somehow, having returned to bed, I lay down again, my head was spinning and my ears were pawning again. My mother started swearing on WhatsApp and telling me to eat, and in a moment my surgeon came and also told me to eat. I had two baby purees, juice and water with me. I didn't know I could eat well right away. It turned out to be not enough to eat puree, because they have no calories at all (somewhere +200 in both) and dizziness did not stop. At about half past two they said that there would be lunch and it was possible to eat normally. While these women were complaining that the food in the hospital was simply disgusting, I was lucky and for lunch they gave light chicken soup and potatoes with a chicken cutlet (if they had given sauce, it would have been pure fast food from McD, but it was tasty without him). After eating, it became high and I already felt that I could walk without dizziness. After a while, the doctor came again, said everything that was needed, and after lying down for another half an hour, I began to get ready to go home, because I did not have bleeding or any other troubles. The heat is terrible now, but I took a taxi ok and at four o'clock I was at home. Having informed everyone, I went to bed, because I still didn’t have the strength. Also at night, I also went to bed early enough, but it was naturally more logical there, because I still have the tremor.
I don't know what to conclude. It is probably worth saying that you need to monitor your health and nutrition more, go in for sports and visit doctors. And these are not the next default words this is really true.
On the second day after the operation, I walk and eat a little. There is still very little strength and it is even impossible to sit and play on the computer, although I really want to. Drowsiness and slight aching pain still does not go away, but it is still a waste and after a couple of days I think it will be easier.
That's all. I still can't believe that it's over, but it was a big step, although it was very scary at first. Probably something will change in me now, because when you go through such difficulties, it leaves a mark on the soul. But for now, I'll just rest and recover. Immeasurable thanks to my parents and my husband for all the support they have given me. I wouldn't have made it without them. I love their very much and always loved their, no matter what happens in life. Thanks to the people who wrote to me after my posts on VK, you also invest a coin in my morale and it is very encouraging, I really appreciate such indifference to our friendship.
Thank you! I am ok and will delight you with pictures in the near future!"
P.S. For the third day I feel better, but still powerless and often dizzy. I don't know how soon I'll be back to work, but right now I'm very grateful for the anticipation of my clients. Take care of yourself!
"I want to write a more extended post about my operation and talk about the consequences.
I discovered the problem two years ago at the beginning of June 2020. My family and I were going to the sea and then just terrible pains did not give me rest. I went urgently and for a fee to the doctor and I was diagnosed with inflammation. Somehow, still at sea, I drank pills, rested, and everything seemed to go away until September. Then the periodic pains continued again and I was told that this would not go away and that I needed to operate. Frightened, I did not do everything at once and thought that I would do it next year. After that, I meet my loved one and leave for another city, where my immunity drops as much as possible and I get sick even more. Very often, almost every day since winter, I felt pain. It turned into an almost daily torture, from which mental health also began to suffer greatly. I simply did not have the mood to live and wake up in the morning due to the complex of physical and moral daily pain, so my depressions became more frequent. In the summer, I planned to return home and decided to have an operation. It was restless from the very beginning, but somewhere deep down I felt that everything would be all right. In early July, I started collecting tests and visiting doctors. Anxiety increased every day and my tests were also not very good. It all dragged on for an insanely long time and was very annoying, the days themselves seemed endless and I was very tired. Insomnia is my personal scourge, if something goes wrong, I immediately lose sleep and almost every night is as painful as possible, attributing here that the pain still did not leave me.
Day X - Operation. For two days, all my senses were blocked and I decided that this was the perfect mood for not thinking about anything. I was just on standby, but on the very night before the operation, I was shaking so wildly with fear. I have never experienced this. When I fell asleep a little, the wildest tremor began, as soon as I woke up in the night - I was fine. You relax - again the tremor. It was a tough night but between 3am and 6am I managed to sleep. I dreamed I was late for my surgery lol. In the morning I went to the hospital on an empty stomach and they had to operate on me first. I felt at ease, calmly donated blood from a vein and I was taken to the ward. This is where the confusion started. I was a little dumb and didn't know what to do. Almost immediately a nurse came to put me in a catheter, and oh shit... The catheter is placed for probably half a minute, and while she was doing everything for me and bandaging me, my head began to spin wildly and I probably began to lose consciousness. Everything in the eyes turned black and even the sounds in the ears became very muffled. When she finished, I lay down on the bed and just took a deep breath. Then my surgeon comes in and, given that she is such a fun women, tells me that soon I will be lucky to operate. I look at her, my head is still spinning and tears are starting to flow, just from nothing. I felt okay in my head, but I was crying stupidly and even barely spoke. My body must have started to give out from stress. I still didn’t hear well, but after 10 minutes they came for me and took me to the operating room. I already felt better and went there with the gait of Doctor Livesey😂. True, I still continued to be dumb and could not understand how I should lie down, the deafness in my ears also did not completely go away and I simply could not hear what they were saying to me. The grand-anesthesiologist asked me something about a childhood illness, I answered that I don’t know about it, he said, well, that’s good. The nurse pulled a tube to my catheter and asked him what and how much I should put. Then I closed my eyes in advance and the last thing I heard was the phrase "10 mL", lightness went through the vein and I just instantly turn off...
Time seemed like a moment, as if I just fell asleep, as you usually fall asleep at night. My female surgeon at some point said, "Wake up." And I opened my eyes. She said that everything had already been done and I was taken to the ward. I dozed a little more on the way there and did not feel like I was going, but in the ward itself I climbed onto the bed and lay down. I no longer fell asleep and even tried to talk. Then I thought about getting some sleep. the site of the operation still hurt and the catheter in the arm burned badly and got in the way.
There was a young girl and an older women with me in the ward, who seemed to me partly harmful, and when I tried to sleep, the women said to this girl: “She is quiet, she breathes there at all?” - it was unpleasant and so tactless. I don’t know, I love it when people behave civilly, although I myself sin with an abundance of obscenities, I always keep 'la class' with strangers. However, this women herself helped me get a drink from my backpack and also my phone. I went away hour after hour, notified my relatives that everything was over and just lay. I needed to eat, but I absolutely could not eat because I did not have the strength to raise my hand. I lay there for a long time, until about one o'clock in the afternoon, until I decided to get up and go to the toilet corny. In the dressing room itself, in front of the mirror, they began to knock me out and again everything went dark before my eyes. Somehow, having returned to bed, I lay down again, my head was spinning and my ears were pawning again. My mother started swearing on WhatsApp and telling me to eat, and in a moment my surgeon came and also told me to eat. I had two baby purees, juice and water with me. I didn't know I could eat well right away. It turned out to be not enough to eat puree, because they have no calories at all (somewhere +200 in both) and dizziness did not stop. At about half past two they said that there would be lunch and it was possible to eat normally. While these women were complaining that the food in the hospital was simply disgusting, I was lucky and for lunch they gave light chicken soup and potatoes with a chicken cutlet (if they had given sauce, it would have been pure fast food from McD, but it was tasty without him). After eating, it became high and I already felt that I could walk without dizziness. After a while, the doctor came again, said everything that was needed, and after lying down for another half an hour, I began to get ready to go home, because I did not have bleeding or any other troubles. The heat is terrible now, but I took a taxi ok and at four o'clock I was at home. Having informed everyone, I went to bed, because I still didn’t have the strength. Also at night, I also went to bed early enough, but it was naturally more logical there, because I still have the tremor.
I don't know what to conclude. It is probably worth saying that you need to monitor your health and nutrition more, go in for sports and visit doctors. And these are not the next default words this is really true.
On the second day after the operation, I walk and eat a little. There is still very little strength and it is even impossible to sit and play on the computer, although I really want to. Drowsiness and slight aching pain still does not go away, but it is still a waste and after a couple of days I think it will be easier.
That's all. I still can't believe that it's over, but it was a big step, although it was very scary at first. Probably something will change in me now, because when you go through such difficulties, it leaves a mark on the soul. But for now, I'll just rest and recover. Immeasurable thanks to my parents and my husband for all the support they have given me. I wouldn't have made it without them. I love their very much and always loved their, no matter what happens in life. Thanks to the people who wrote to me after my posts on VK, you also invest a coin in my morale and it is very encouraging, I really appreciate such indifference to our friendship.
Thank you! I am ok and will delight you with pictures in the near future!"
P.S. For the third day I feel better, but still powerless and often dizzy. I don't know how soon I'll be back to work, but right now I'm very grateful for the anticipation of my clients. Take care of yourself!
Blocked FurAffinity for me (?)
Posted 2 years agoHello friends! A few days ago, FurAffinity was blocked in my country, I visit this site using VPN.
Others have created a short article about this which you can visit here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50963489/
It is very unpleasant when every month the screws are tightened for ordinary Internet users. I would like to believe that one day the nightmare in the world will end, although it is very difficult. I really condemn today's time, but we have to live in it and it's not our fault that we "spawned in an unfavorable biome".
I leave my social networks here for contact with me in any of the active.
Pay attention to my Telegram, because it is the most active at the moment: https://t.me/vektorich_art
All links: https://vektorichart.carrd.co
Peace for everyone!
Others have created a short article about this which you can visit here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50963489/
It is very unpleasant when every month the screws are tightened for ordinary Internet users. I would like to believe that one day the nightmare in the world will end, although it is very difficult. I really condemn today's time, but we have to live in it and it's not our fault that we "spawned in an unfavorable biome".
I leave my social networks here for contact with me in any of the active.
Pay attention to my Telegram, because it is the most active at the moment: https://t.me/vektorich_art
All links: https://vektorichart.carrd.co
Peace for everyone!
My active social networks(!)
Posted 2 years agoI saw a lot of noise about FA bans in my country, but for some reason I can still visit my account here freely. I am wildly annoyed by hysterical squeals and pure fakes that people are led to. I go here at least once every day. Of all the social networks, this is the second most active for me! Please don't fall for provocations. I am damn tired of the horrors of the present time, this is superimposed on my personal mental experiences in the image of a solid lump of negativity from which even creativity does not save. Just know that I'm always in touch here or my TG.
https://t.me/vektorich_art
https://vektorichart.carrd.co
https://t.me/vektorich_art
https://vektorichart.carrd.co
Reset prices! SALE!
Posted 2 years agoCupid YCH 120$ 100$: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50797719/
Beloveds Multislots YCHs60$ 70$: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50890082/
Beloveds Multislots YCHs
SALE! | Headshots and sketch-halfbody for 50$
Posted 3 years agoHi guys! I have a discount for commission slots, this is a detailed headshot (50$ 60$) and a halfbody-sketch (50$ 70$)
I want to make a good present for my mother for the winter holidays, but due to illness and a move, I did not have time to save enough money .-.
Send me a note if you'd like to place an order.
Deadline - 1 week.
Total available 2-3 slots.
I want to make a good present for my mother for the winter holidays, but due to illness and a move, I did not have time to save enough money .-.
Send me a note if you'd like to place an order.
Deadline - 1 week.
Total available 2-3 slots.
Art-lottery!!!
Posted 3 years agoArt-lottery for three prizes in my Telegram: https://t.me/vektorich_art/67
Art-lottery!!!
Posted 3 years agoArt-lottery for three prizes in my Telegram: https://t.me/vektorich_art/67
Telegram blog + Lottery soon
Posted 3 years agoSubscribe to my Telegram, there will be a winter lottery soon: https://t.me/vektorich_art ❄
Art delay and computer change.
Posted 3 years agoHello! I should have written this post a few days ago, but I couldn't get into computer properly.
I want to apologize for the delay in the arts. My boyfriend gave me new computer and I had to deal with transferring files, but at some point we discovered that there was a defective HDD. The replacement took several days and after that the Internet was turned off for another day. It was very sad. I was only able to start transferring files today (17.07). It remains for me to install the drawing software and set it up, then I can return to work.
Don't lose me, good luck!
I want to apologize for the delay in the arts. My boyfriend gave me new computer and I had to deal with transferring files, but at some point we discovered that there was a defective HDD. The replacement took several days and after that the Internet was turned off for another day. It was very sad. I was only able to start transferring files today (17.07). It remains for me to install the drawing software and set it up, then I can return to work.
Don't lose me, good luck!
My page in Telegram!
Posted 3 years ago#StopWar
Posted 3 years agoThe last few days have been absolute chaos. God, how I worry about my Ukrainian friends and the future. I'm from Russia and I'm ashamed of our "top", none of us wants war. Nobody knew that there would be a war. We are called aggressors, but we all want peace on earth. Everyone is engulfed in fear. I caught 3 panic attacks in 2 days, I'm afraid of losing my job, friends, trust, damn it, because I was born in a country that I did not choose. This is my homeland and we are not bad people, we are hostages of circumstances.
Please support your friends from Ukraine as I support mine. Moral support is very important in these difficult times ☮
Please support your friends from Ukraine as I support mine. Moral support is very important in these difficult times ☮
End of 2021.
Posted 4 years agoHello! Every time I write a "special" post, I don't know what title to come up with. I'm generally uncomfortable with making excuses and talking about the bad things that happened to me. I absolutely don't know how to feel sorry for myself and let go of my feelings.
I wrote short news in my rus-public, but my FA page is the main platform and although it can be hard for me to translate everything, I think that I should not behave negligently and maybe people who are interested in me, will be good at knowing about my plans and experiences.
(Translation dated December 22nd.)
The past year has been tough in terms of creativity. I'm totally dissatisfied with myself as an artist. My art has become a routine and a pursuit of material goals. I lie so deep at the bottom of this whole lake that I cannot distinguish porn from emotional art, and black from white, joy from longing, and water from the earth - all inspiration for me is a gray veil, where sometimes I see "red and white spots" in the form of pieces stories of my characters. Covid has greatly influenced my condition, I'm experiencing depression, although I have no reason for it. Obsessive thoughts and other signs of OCD are constantly storming my head...
(Translation dated December 30th.)
I can't believe how bad December ended up. I would so much like to please you and myself with a beautiful picture, but I feel just... I don't even know how to describe my condition, this is boundless fatigue and just pitch darkness. Last week my friend crashed in an accident and this left an additional imprint on all the burdens. I just don’t know how to come to my senses and how to find the strength in myself for work. It is not ethical to breed whining during the weekend, but all the people and all the support does not bring me satisfaction and I just think that it will become a little easier for me to speak out in public. I haven't slept for two months now and it's just fucked up. Kinktober devastated me, responsibility strangles, I definitely will not participate in it next year. This is a very interesting challenge, but enough, bro, you've done a lot, it's time to stop and find a new niche. After all the events, you understand that the "fictional depression" due to some kind of garbage is just nothing compared to the losses that happen in reality. I, frankly, do not value those around me much and try not to get attached to people, but now I absolutely definitely conclude that it is better to feel even the notorious hatred of a living person than to grieve for the dead. What a nightmare all this is. I would like to help myself, but weekends do not bring me rest, no games, no cheeky behavior, no jokes. Nothing.
Now I'm trying to get out of this state with very small steps, but it is still hard for me to do it. Sometimes I want to cry because it seems to me that I'm losing myself as an artist, although this is my only real vocation and there is no place for me in this world except to paint. It doesn't matter what I paint: fucking porn or a million identical chests for mobile games, animals or people - I don't care, I just want to live in art and be that Art. It’s not the first time for me to rise from my knees, and although it’s insanely difficult, I think that soon, I will be ready to start doing something new, which will also heal me completely. ❤
I wrote short news in my rus-public, but my FA page is the main platform and although it can be hard for me to translate everything, I think that I should not behave negligently and maybe people who are interested in me, will be good at knowing about my plans and experiences.
(Translation dated December 22nd.)
The past year has been tough in terms of creativity. I'm totally dissatisfied with myself as an artist. My art has become a routine and a pursuit of material goals. I lie so deep at the bottom of this whole lake that I cannot distinguish porn from emotional art, and black from white, joy from longing, and water from the earth - all inspiration for me is a gray veil, where sometimes I see "red and white spots" in the form of pieces stories of my characters. Covid has greatly influenced my condition, I'm experiencing depression, although I have no reason for it. Obsessive thoughts and other signs of OCD are constantly storming my head...
(Translation dated December 30th.)
I can't believe how bad December ended up. I would so much like to please you and myself with a beautiful picture, but I feel just... I don't even know how to describe my condition, this is boundless fatigue and just pitch darkness. Last week my friend crashed in an accident and this left an additional imprint on all the burdens. I just don’t know how to come to my senses and how to find the strength in myself for work. It is not ethical to breed whining during the weekend, but all the people and all the support does not bring me satisfaction and I just think that it will become a little easier for me to speak out in public. I haven't slept for two months now and it's just fucked up. Kinktober devastated me, responsibility strangles, I definitely will not participate in it next year. This is a very interesting challenge, but enough, bro, you've done a lot, it's time to stop and find a new niche. After all the events, you understand that the "fictional depression" due to some kind of garbage is just nothing compared to the losses that happen in reality. I, frankly, do not value those around me much and try not to get attached to people, but now I absolutely definitely conclude that it is better to feel even the notorious hatred of a living person than to grieve for the dead. What a nightmare all this is. I would like to help myself, but weekends do not bring me rest, no games, no cheeky behavior, no jokes. Nothing.
Now I'm trying to get out of this state with very small steps, but it is still hard for me to do it. Sometimes I want to cry because it seems to me that I'm losing myself as an artist, although this is my only real vocation and there is no place for me in this world except to paint. It doesn't matter what I paint: fucking porn or a million identical chests for mobile games, animals or people - I don't care, I just want to live in art and be that Art. It’s not the first time for me to rise from my knees, and although it’s insanely difficult, I think that soon, I will be ready to start doing something new, which will also heal me completely. ❤
Upd: Health
Posted 4 years agoHi all! I decided to write a small update according to my health.
I'm feeling better! I drink antiviral drugs and they prescribed me nasal drops, which, I hope, will return the smell to me (I really dream about it). The temperature completely subsided and I even felt lightness. The headaches have receded, it remains to return to normal sleep. Due to the lack of smells, I sometimes feel sick when I eat and very often I feel weak, but in any case, this does not prevent me from functioning normally :)
Thank you very much for your comments and support! Sorry I didn't answer you. On the first two days, I was really scared, because Covid is dangerous for me because I have a chronic disease that can cause complications and it was a little scary to accept it morally. I had a presentiment earlier that sooner or later it would affect me and I was mentally ready for this day without falling into depression.
In my country, there are terrible problems with free medicine and bureaucracy (I can't do the test for several days). Thanks to the universe that my body is coping with this virus, otherwise I’m afraid to think about what could have happened and because of the above problems, I don’t know who would help me. It is very painful to look at such an attitude towards people and I have to be responsible for yourself and the people around myself on your own.
To live without smell and taste is really trash. I cooked food and salted / peppered everything so much that I probably would not have been able to eat it in usual life. There are absolutely no smells, I can't even tell whether the socks stink or not, for wash clothes. I constantly catch cognitive dissonance from what I breathe in through nose, but I don't smell anything. In the taste you feel only primitive notes: fruit drink - a little sweet water, peppered baked potatoes - a little salty, chocolate - insipid and tasteless, oranges - ...I won't say how sickening, sweetish something was. When I just discovered that something was wrong with me, I drank pomegranate juice and, as you know, it is peculiarly tart, and at that moment I even thought that it had deteriorated, because it seemed to me just a little sweet.
I was able to sit down at the tablet again and want to get back to work faster, because I miss my drawn cats and other colorful animals. I'm very pleased with your support, along with the support of my loved ones, and I hope I will quickly return to normal ❤
I'm feeling better! I drink antiviral drugs and they prescribed me nasal drops, which, I hope, will return the smell to me (I really dream about it). The temperature completely subsided and I even felt lightness. The headaches have receded, it remains to return to normal sleep. Due to the lack of smells, I sometimes feel sick when I eat and very often I feel weak, but in any case, this does not prevent me from functioning normally :)
Thank you very much for your comments and support! Sorry I didn't answer you. On the first two days, I was really scared, because Covid is dangerous for me because I have a chronic disease that can cause complications and it was a little scary to accept it morally. I had a presentiment earlier that sooner or later it would affect me and I was mentally ready for this day without falling into depression.
In my country, there are terrible problems with free medicine and bureaucracy (I can't do the test for several days). Thanks to the universe that my body is coping with this virus, otherwise I’m afraid to think about what could have happened and because of the above problems, I don’t know who would help me. It is very painful to look at such an attitude towards people and I have to be responsible for yourself and the people around myself on your own.
To live without smell and taste is really trash. I cooked food and salted / peppered everything so much that I probably would not have been able to eat it in usual life. There are absolutely no smells, I can't even tell whether the socks stink or not, for wash clothes. I constantly catch cognitive dissonance from what I breathe in through nose, but I don't smell anything. In the taste you feel only primitive notes: fruit drink - a little sweet water, peppered baked potatoes - a little salty, chocolate - insipid and tasteless, oranges - ...I won't say how sickening, sweetish something was. When I just discovered that something was wrong with me, I drank pomegranate juice and, as you know, it is peculiarly tart, and at that moment I even thought that it had deteriorated, because it seemed to me just a little sweet.
I was able to sit down at the tablet again and want to get back to work faster, because I miss my drawn cats and other colorful animals. I'm very pleased with your support, along with the support of my loved ones, and I hope I will quickly return to normal ❤
Another bad news..
Posted 4 years agoHmm... Speaking straight away and to the point - I have suspicions of a covid. I have been suffering from a "cold" for more than a week and recently I had a very strong fever, and today I lost my sense of smell and my taste refracted. Otherwise, everything is not entirely bad and the only thing that worries me is wild headaches and insomnia. Tomorrow I'm thinking of taking the test and admitting honestly, I'm a little scared. I don't know exactly how and where I got infected, but I contracted the infection more than one and the second person has exactly the same symptoms as me. In general, the dick knows him, let's see what the test shows.
I'm sorry for Kinktober, I have problems with the deadline every fall :с
I'm sorry for Kinktober, I have problems with the deadline every fall :с
Sorry for the delays in Kinktober
Posted 4 years agoI am so tired of constantly missing the deadline in this challenge, but my drawing level is increasing and I just do not meet the deadline. Now I am ill and constant weakness does not let me out of bed. In any case, I am in touch and can answer you if you have any questions <:")
BOOSTING\PROMOTION FOR MY KINKTOBER!
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Send me note with the title "Promotion" if you are interested in such a proposal. Seats are limited (5-10 slots).
Send me note with the title "Promotion" if you are interested in such a proposal. Seats are limited (5-10 slots).
YCH!
Posted 4 years agoHi! My friend has a big YCH in pool for you! (/ =ω=)/
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