So, I am not sure exactly how to start this, or truly explain things properly but I am gonna do my best.

So for a while I have been unsure of who I am, this has been a long issue that I often buried, but after an experience with some friends through VRChat something just clicked. In the moment it felt right for probably the first time in my life. It lead me to being quite confused for a while, I talked to a few friends with similar issues and have met many more since. The more I have talked to them it has all just made so much more sense.

So the simple, but crude way to but it, I see myself more comfortable as a cunt boy aka I want a vag between my legs not a dick aka I transgender just dont want to fully become a woman. I see myself as Non binary, possibly even fully gender fluid, but this is something that I will have to iron out over time, but for now male pronouns are preference.

I know some people that have known me for a while might find this all confusing, and that's fine, its not like I fully understand this all either. It is along, confusing journey but I hope by the end of this I can finally feel happy for myself.

I also highly suggest reading this article, it has a ton of useful information regarding gender dysphoria and was a huge help in me understanding what is going on with myself.

https://genderdysphoria.fyi/

So wanting to shot out and ask if there's anyone out there getting into VR gaming on the PC?

I recently picked up and Occulus Rift myself and I am in love with it, but am looking for more users to enjoy games with, or chat about VR games in general, either through discord or telegram chats. ^^

Just, fuck me...

So I turn 26 next month, what this means is I can no longer be on my moms insurance. So since I don't feel I can handle full time with my current work (night security guard) which would allow me to get company insurance. To top it off i am trying to get information i need from them to get insurance (proof of employment and salary) but everything is online and somehow my information on there is wrong...I have spent the last week trying to fix this...

Honestly i really want to find a new job, the publicness of it is getting to me besides these issues i keep having with the company. I would much rather some desk job, or even better, working from home...but i hardly know where to look for that anymore...so if anyone can offer any help please let me know, leave a comment, note me, or can message me on telegram @ Kazaookami

So just posting this here for now as a text description.
I am changing my primary sona to this guy, more details on why in the next journal though
I have a ref sheet in the making and i will likely delete this journal once its finished

Description: He is about 6 feet tall, his body is slim but well toned, compact and strong.
his scales are kind of a silvery blue on most his body ( something like this http://www.carabevan.com/sitebuilde.....as-988x746.jpg ) except for this underbelly, typical chest stomach and down to little bit of inner upper thighs, which is a lighter tone. He also has some black specks along his back, shoulders, and upper arms, it goes down to his upper thighs and on his sides a bit, but none on his fore arms or fore legs.
As for his face, shape is something like this ( http://www.furaffinity.net/full/14230651/ ) minus the fins and nose horn.
His horns are curve inward like this ( http://img00.deviantart.net/cdcd/i/.....ra-d5nt811.jpg )
he also has 3 small facial horns on his chin, the one in the middle being the longest.
his eyes are a sapphire blue
His tail is long and slender and very flexible
His hands and feet are mostly human like, with small claws instead of finger/toe nails

Well considering I haven't done much on here lately I figured I should shout out "I'm not dead!"

Things haven't really changed much, still stuck in Indiana for now, but likely will be moving to Florida in the next few years to live with my mate.

But the big thing happening is I will no longer be using Kaza as my primary sona. I am not getting rid of him, he is still part of me, but as i have matured lately he just does not fit who i am anymore. My new sona is a drake named Krinmalzil, a name I actually made using the dragon language from skyrim. I have a ref sheet coming and plan to start getting art of him in the near future, funds permitting.

Also I now have a telegram if anyone wants to poke me there @ kazaookami
Feel free to drop me a message if you want ^^

Was in Florida this week to visit my boyfriend, finally back home, though today i feel more like i left home.

All and all i had an amazing time

looking for a mono headset with a fair quality mic, im deaf in my left ear so stereo is worthless to me. Any suggestions would be wonderful

this is a good friend of mine he is currently in the hospital in a coma after having a stroke. I just would like to ask if anyone can spread the word, pray for him, or donate to help his close friends and family through this crisis it would be greatly appreciated.

http://www.gofundme.com/mikealmeida

you can go here if you want, anything is appreciated

Wondering if anyone could point me to some artists that do ref sheets and do reptiles fairly well. Id like to keep the price under $100 also would wonder if theres any artist i could have sketch some concepts cause i cant seem to settle on a design in my head.

Any help would be nice ^^

not even an hour ago, we even saw him earlier today, but he hasn't been doing well for a while now and had a pacemaker in his chest, on monday it finally hit him how bad he was and sort of gave up, he just wanted to sleep as much as he could and was in constant pain. Today they started having him on hourly doses of morphine and he agreed to turn off his pacemaker.

Its sad to see him go, he was always fun to talk to even if he did ramble on, but im truly sad, he was suffering and it was his time, im more worried about my grandma and making sure she is ok

anyway needed a small vent if anything and to let anyone that cares know

So yeah havent done this much lately, but right now theres just so much shit happening in my life i need to rant a bit

sooo lets start with my grandpa is stuck in the hospital right now after heart surgery and having trouble recovering. he now keeps getting fluid build up, while im now stuck living with my mom cause my little brother got kicked out of day care(hes 7 years old)

Thats been this year but just his week on saturday while i was visiting my grandmas with my mom one of her tires got a massive shard of metal stuck in it, we managed to fill it up and get home before replacing the tires, so thats about $400 right there.

Well this morning i get woken up by my brother to find out the water heater busted and was flooding the downstairs. so now we had to get a new water heater, and now theres 8 fans and a de humidifier downstairs to dry out the carpet till friday and the insurance is coming around on monday to access the damage, which that same day i hav ea CT scan of my nose cause of some issues ive been having...

and on top of it all i get a few ? about my health atm, but we cant do shit about it still -.-

so yeah...sorry to rant but fuck

So i got titanfall on the PC, but i get a black screen on load up, nothing else other than once i saw a message saying something about IPs(it closed out pretty fast)

so ive been searching for solutions and im either not techy enough to understand or cant find a solution.

I have tried to add new rules to my windows firewall due to some common ports that the game uses that can be blocked, but when i go to fix this i get a message on windows firewall saying "MMC has dectected an error in a snap-in" i get no option to ignore like somethings mention, only to close and report or disable snap in, but either options work. any solution i find is going over my head at this point

So anyone know about these issues? or can help point me to a guide that makes more sense to me or something?

so im wanting to get a commission soon of my new argonian character based of ESO but since there is currently no beta i cant get a reference for the color im wanting. It was this blueish tinted scales with black spots on them. if anyone knows where i may find a picture along though lines to make sure i get the right look please let me know.

So thanks to the upcoming MMO Elder Scrolls online im working on fleshing out an argonian character. He will be a fairly slim but muscular warrior with blueish scales with black spots. Now i just need to decide on a fitting name for him so i figured id reach out here and see if anyone can help me brainstorm some names up. I wish to say away from their Cyrodilic names like Hides-His-Tail

i have found this name generator http://fantasynamegenerators.com/ar.....n_names.php#.U... which seems to help a bit im still looking for the perfect name

also http://www.uesp.net/wiki/Lore:Argonian_Names this helps describe the difference in argonian names

I also would consider a ES dragon name using the dragon tongue considering my choice of class in ESO http://fantasynamegenerators.com/dr.....names.php#.Utc...

http://www.uesp.net/wiki/Lore:Dragon_Language

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5259913/

check it!

So ive been getting worse and worse lately, starting to be able to only count my trusted friends on a single hand as well as the good things in my life. I know i need help but i dont know who to go to, where to find it, i want a change in my life but the choices i have become narrower all the time.

some of the only things that cheer me up thats available to me is to just talk to people, so honestly if anyone wants to chat or anything im around. old friends, new friends, itd just be nice seeing people care

Just a little rant, but ive noticed i tend to find tops that arent really dominate. To put it into a wolf pack perspective, im looking for a try alpha, one that asserts their dominance, but i keep finding tops that want a true omega, completely submissive and obedient. problem is im more of a beta, even without intending to i can make a lot of guys submit to me if they arent willing to prove their dominance. so this begs the question, where are the alphas! xD

Yep im single again, not really a bad thing. It was totally mutual, we just merely dont work as a couple/

I am sorry to a lot of people lately, i havent been myself and havent been very talkative, and i know i have ignored some people. So i wanted to say im sorry.

Lately my emotions have gone to hell, i dont know what to think about a lot people right now. In short my emotions are so wrecked right now i dont know how i should feel. I need more people to talk to. i need to be able to get out of this state of mind...

sorry for the emo rant there a bit, i just, feel really bad and honestly, am kinda desperate for friends right now..

figured i should update here and all, AC was fairly good, had some crap happen but over all enjoyed myself, since then though i have been out of sorts, at first it was just emotionally, but now im having some severe medical problems. worst of which is next to no appetite and i cant do hardly any work without basically being unable to breath. working on getting to my doctors about this but im having issue after issue

on top of this my mates lexus is no longer holding a charge in its battery for more than a few days. hopefully things get fixed up soon.

Heading off to AC starting tomorrow, cant wait! :D anyway ill be staying at the travel lodge, if anyone wants to try to meet up let me know and we can swap contact info or something

Ive been busy with life lately, my mate just recently moved in so things are changing, but im still around if anyone wants to chat :D

Ive been busy with life lately, my mate just recently moved in so things are changing, but im still around if anyone wants to chat :D

i dont normally post these but a good fur needs some help with money to afford and important surgery
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4609926/
at least check it out

so i have hit the point of watching WAYYYY to may people so i have started clearing them out, i appologize if i unwatch someone on accident, i need the space lol