Met up with  Fawkes-Softpaw finally and things went great, i really enjoyed my time with him and even my family seems to like him, sad to see him go but i know he will be back <3

there was this artist i saw a while ago, i know they did really good realistic art, dont think anything was porn but it was all really well drawn furry art nearly photo realistic, if you can help me find who i would be soo happy cause i cant fucking remember this and its bugging meeeeee

*stolen from  dragonvee

~Step 1~
Make a post in your journal containing your list of up to 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple to really big. The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real-life things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where folks could get in touch with you.

~Step 2~
Surf around other lists to see who has posted their list. If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream for free--do it. You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special

~Step 3~
The List

(note me if you need any info)

1. someone to hang out with, preferably in person if possible

2. anything to help my mate be able to visit/move up here

3. gift cards/nick nacks(cute little things they make me smile :3)

4. Steam games

5. Black Ops 2

6. itunes points

7. riot points

8. art :3 of me and my mate if possible(can provide refs)

9. any new friends available :3

10. good wishes/prayers for the coming year

(had a hard time filling some of it @.@ i dont like asking for stuff so no one is obliged to give anything but ill do my best to help anyone else out if at all possible)

Well theres a lot im thankful, but when i narrow it down theres one person that deserves it the most,  shininomai is the one person to have changed me for the better more than i can count. If it wasnt for him i dont know where i would be and honestly i dont think i want to know. Hes why i have the friends i do today and has helped me through so much. Hes even the one that led me to my mate that i have today and i couldnt be happier for it.

Thank you shini, thank you so much for helping me go down this path <3

sorry i have been rather absent on here as of late, havent had much to say and havent wanting to go through all my submissions (8253 as of right now)

but i figured i should give you guys a bit of an update how i have been. Its been rough. my weagner's seems to be flaring so doctor bills have been going up substantially, the stress and worry are pretty heavily but mostly it limits me heavy on what i can do.

Its a rough road but i am thankful for a certain handful of friends that have stood by me through all this. I feel i dont need to mention their names cause i know they know who they are and what they have done to help me through this and i cant thank any of them enough, my friends mean the world to me and i wont ever let that change.

But one does stand out, my mate fawkes. Its not just that hes my mate, hes stuck with me harder than ever and somehow he gets to me and always ends up making me happy. He can be hard to deal with sometimes but thats how it goes. good or bad we always end up smiling with each other in the end and thats what matters more than anything,

I apologize for such a sappy journal but i felt the need to do this, and to anyone who hasnt gotten to know me and is reading this you are always welcome to hit me up for a chat about anything you like ^.^ besides theres no such thing as to many friends


PS i have a twitter now incase anyones interested https://twitter.com/KazaOokami

new people keep finding and watching me O3O *shifty eyes* where they come from?
must track...must track them to the source, the source will know, the source knows all, it knows everything
must burn the source, set it ablaze in the firing hell fires of satan and his minions so that is fall into ash by my hand *hides back in this bush*

*pops back out with a ferret on his head*
o btw hi all ^.^ hope you enjoy your stay *poofs*

so i have been sick since tuesday, its been a little more bearable since then but i still have major problems, mostly most my joints are sore as hell and i cant breath out my nose making it hard to swallow anything. the only way i can get these to go down at all is to take what over the counter meds i have but as soon as they were off(4 hours on basically everything, even ny quil thats suppose to last for 6) i did see a doctor on wedensday and she gave me an anti biotic, but things havent been getting better for a few days and im worried and dont know how to get any relieve now. if anyone might have some tips please let me know,

so i just made a twitter, might use it some so feel free to take a peek

https://twitter.com/KazaOokami

I was talking to my grandma when she casually mentioned this to me.

I've been half my life without my father, he died when i was young and still in elementary school one summer due to a heart attack brought on likely by smoking. These days i cant help but wonder what things would be like if he was still around.

What would he think of who I am? What might he have taught me?

one of the things he said he was going to do was buy my great grandma's house, and he was going to help me find a dog i wasnt allergic to and to this day its one of my fondest memories about him as i have always wanted a dog but never could due to an allergy where my face would break out if their dander/saliva got in my eyes.

Since then i have always been envious of people with father figures since i grew up mostly without one, and even when he was alive i only saw him every other weekend due to my parents being divorced.

If i was to be granted one wish, all i would ask for is a chance to talk to my father, tell him who i have become and to just know how he would feel about me...


sorry for the bit of a rant i need to get this out of my system

and spread the word :D
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3804535/

Of monsters and men



:D

i finally have an awesome mate now  fawkes-softpaw he is amazing and i loves him <3

P.S. SPAM HIM WITH LOVE!!!

that i love bunny ears but prefer them on other animals?

like seriously i find them so hot on, in example, otters and dragons!

i also love the layed back style >.>

Hey just letting you guys know that like to play LoL that im active on it now, name should be Tarmas and my main champions are Fiora and Warwick, though im trying to find others im good with anyway let me know if you want to add me and such :D

just got the new DLC for batman arkham city, playing as nightwing right now and *wolf whistles* man is he sexy mmmmm mmm mmmmmmmmm

So i have found a lot of these types of music are really good to game to so im looking to make a playlist(hoping for 100ish songs if possible so it doesnt get to repetitive) im planing to get a lot of Daft Punk songs and im looking at Kaskade at the moment but i wanted to ask you guys for recomendations!

im looking for stuff i can get off itunes mainly but if i can get it from another cheap/free source thats safe im all for it. Youtube links help!

First off i apologize to any artists or those that receive gift art that might take offense to what i say here, this is not to bash on anyone it is merely a rant of things i have observed and sometimes wonder about the fandom

So i see lots of people that get gift art a lot of the time but i always wonder, why? i understand if your mates an artist but some times i see these furs, that dont really do anything, yet they get gift art all the time. What makes them get all of this art? Is it their character? or is it who they are? i just never can fully understand how some people "earn" gift art

And i would be lying if i said i wasnt jealous of those that get gift art. I wish i could myself. Some people get art from some amazing artists for free while people like me are stuck paying for everything we get. with a few wonderful exceptions, everything i post here is stuff i had to pay for, yet theres others with equal popularity that havent payed a cent for their art.

Again im sorry if i offend anyone these are just some random thoughts about this topic i have had recently, i dont hate anyone for giving or receiving gift art, i love seeing it either way.

anyone have a weapon they recommend using?

i have nearly hit the limit of the usefulness of my drake sword, its good but i know i can get better with a little reinforcement but idk what to do it to, i just beat the gaping dragon so im heading into blight town, i have 24 strength and 15 dexterity atm and i nave no good means to farm souls yet to up my stats though i do plan on bumping up dexterity soon.
so anyone have have a weapon they think i should try using?

So i was wanting to ask about what to expect when getting a tattoo, i plan on getting one on my right butt cheek to match that of my sona but i have no clue about how much it'll cost, how long it would take, how much it would hurt and such like that so i figured i would ask you guys if you could help me learn a bit. and if it helps i got a fairly firm rear

also i was wondering what ways might work best for shaving my arms and legs, as in low hassle long lasting and not to hard to do

so im doing amazingly well with a guy one dark souls, level 22, +3 armor, drake sword, killed 4 of the bosses, then, a fucking basilisk FUCKING CRUSED ME, now im stuck with half health, no souls, no easy way back out of this high level area, and THE ONLY way to cure myself is to find this fucking seller back at the bell tower and by a item off him for FOUR THOUSAND souls....YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING HARD IT IS TO FARM SOULS WHEN YOU HAVE LESS THAN 300 LIFE!!! i get killed by ANYTHING

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

x.x

looks like i have to start over....

so few people to talk to!

out of things to do atm x.x stuck on dark souls and have beaten pretty much everything i own that i care to beat, damn it i hate it when i get like this