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General | Posted 11 years agoGoing to right Ada her background story and maybe see if I can find someone to make her a ref sheet <3
Besides that, I suppose i'd be up to chat if anyone wants to :v t shouldn't take me that long to write her a pretty lengthy background story since I have the most of it written out mentally. So it should all be good :D and i'll be able to use my mechanical keyboard since Stinku won't be here.
Besides that, I suppose i'd be up to chat if anyone wants to :v t shouldn't take me that long to write her a pretty lengthy background story since I have the most of it written out mentally. So it should all be good :D and i'll be able to use my mechanical keyboard since Stinku won't be here.
feel free to f5 because I GOT THAT NEW ICON
General | Posted 11 years agoSWAGGER :U
Sometimes I think the best thing for me to do is...
General | Posted 11 years agoMaybe sit myself down, think about what I want most in life, where I want myself to be in the future, see that what i'm doing lately isn't good for going for that future. I really need to get my shit together, nothing besides those goals and obtaining that should matter.. just what I want most, everything on the side, is temporary pain, why should I let that slow me down when I can power through it and break these chains :v
CTE, Woe is me, and TDWP
General | Posted 11 years agoWill probably be everything I listen to tonight. Good night everyone :D hope everyone sleeps well and has a wonderful day tomorrow :)
So this morning,
General | Posted 11 years agoI woke up in a heated sweat, threw my pajamas on, threw a t-shirt on, and went on a run at like 4 in the morning, came back an hour later, fell asleep on the floor, woke up stumbled to the couch, woke up, got called into work, and here I am -3- i'm tired, hungry, and IDK what to do right now :v I don't feel like playing a game or anything, maybe I'll write <3 Though I don't know what to write about seeing how I used to only write lovey dovey stuff lol.
if one more person -_-
General | Posted 11 years agoCalls me a fucking puppy or dog today im... I'm soannoyed that two different giris just called me a puppy -_- doglifeforme apparently x_x
guys I lied.
General | Posted 11 years agoI lied, but it was one of those lies to protect something else. I try not to lie, but when it's something stupid, that'll upset the person but doesn't need to. Simply because they don't trust me to talk to girls. I have no interest with getting with anyone, I have other things to get done before I should even start on something like that. So yeah, I'm sorry, I'm probably not going to the housewarming party I was talking to amelie tori and Jason about.
The big D
General | Posted 11 years agoWell me 
and Sean went to the county fair today -3- it was hot, my skins burned and it sucks, and me and Pinku got gross and experienced the big D ;o
She got the bacon maple D, and I got the banana cream D, I feel awful for finishing it but it was so expensive :( either way :D it was fun <3 so thanks for taking me Pinku!
and Sean went to the county fair today -3- it was hot, my skins burned and it sucks, and me and Pinku got gross and experienced the big D ;oShe got the bacon maple D, and I got the banana cream D, I feel awful for finishing it but it was so expensive :( either way :D it was fun <3 so thanks for taking me Pinku!
So out of the two, (Damian and Aspen)
General | Posted 11 years agoWho do you think will be the bigger sloot? o:
So, things just don't work out the way we plan.
General | Posted 11 years agoIt's part of life.
Recently, i've gone through personality changes, my entire view on life has changed, my view on some people has changed entirely, some of these people, not even on FA.
Anyways, the way things are now, are how they were when i first moved down here. My threat levels are at a minimum, so he doesn't have to worry about me, i'll be cleaning, they'll be laughing, i'll listen to music, write, game, chat.
There's certain people, who have been entirely too nice to me, and I want to go ahead and thank you guys for that. I've denied you guys a lot of attention simply because I had it stabbed into my brain that people are bad. But I can't tell who is bad unless I know them. Or if you got some pretty sick shit in your gallery i'll probably not respond >_>
But besides that, I want to thank all my watchers for watching :) all the people who note me, for caring, and all of my friends for sticking by my side during my rough times. Besides that -3- i'm off to work <3 if someone wants to comment or note me i'll be on my phone mostly tonight :D I get to watch children clean things which means I get paid to stand around <3333 so everyone have a nice day, hope everyone had a happy 4th of July. ]
Moral of the story, everyone gets what they, him his friend, her her life. It's for the best most likely.
Recently, i've gone through personality changes, my entire view on life has changed, my view on some people has changed entirely, some of these people, not even on FA.
Anyways, the way things are now, are how they were when i first moved down here. My threat levels are at a minimum, so he doesn't have to worry about me, i'll be cleaning, they'll be laughing, i'll listen to music, write, game, chat.
There's certain people, who have been entirely too nice to me, and I want to go ahead and thank you guys for that. I've denied you guys a lot of attention simply because I had it stabbed into my brain that people are bad. But I can't tell who is bad unless I know them. Or if you got some pretty sick shit in your gallery i'll probably not respond >_>
But besides that, I want to thank all my watchers for watching :) all the people who note me, for caring, and all of my friends for sticking by my side during my rough times. Besides that -3- i'm off to work <3 if someone wants to comment or note me i'll be on my phone mostly tonight :D I get to watch children clean things which means I get paid to stand around <3333 so everyone have a nice day, hope everyone had a happy 4th of July. ]
Moral of the story, everyone gets what they, him his friend, her her life. It's for the best most likely.
My favorite song at the moment :v
General | Posted 11 years agoand fin
General | Posted 11 years agoUpdated my journal a bit more I suppose. and changed my icon again -3-
profile rework <3
General | Posted 11 years agoGuess i'm going to spend the night readjusting my profile lol.
I thinkkkk
General | Posted 11 years agoHaving days off and nothing to look forward too is some of the most useless days -_-
Yeah well
General | Posted 11 years agoI'm giving in -3- someone's going to have to give me some direction.
I think today might be the day!
General | Posted 11 years agoThat I just lock myself up and think -3-
So I had this crazy dream last night
General | Posted 11 years agoAnd it just kind of effected my mood all around today. It was one of those dreams that are like, super real feeling and awful -3-
But basically.
I was sleeping, and was woken up to being kicked in the side. To that point I quickly leaned upwards only to find someones foot being slammed into my throat. and at that point they were just whispering things down at me and telling me to submit while I was gasping for air, eventually going to another scene where I was kneeling next to a chair with my hands tied behind my back -_- to that point I very calmly woke up, opened my eyes, and walked the fuck away from where I was sleeping.
But basically.
I was sleeping, and was woken up to being kicked in the side. To that point I quickly leaned upwards only to find someones foot being slammed into my throat. and at that point they were just whispering things down at me and telling me to submit while I was gasping for air, eventually going to another scene where I was kneeling next to a chair with my hands tied behind my back -_- to that point I very calmly woke up, opened my eyes, and walked the fuck away from where I was sleeping.
have a tmi from vellux c:
General | Posted 11 years agoSo yeah, I'm cooking alive right now and don't know what to do to kill time so I decided to do this. I'll give like a 100 facts most of you don't know about me.
1. I lost my virginity to my dad's friend when I was 6. Rape is a hell of a thing. That made me stop visiting my dad.
2. I lost the other side of my virginity when I was 9, my cousin decided to take advantage of me.
3. My mother abandoned me after my father passed away when I was merely 12.
4. She also stole 23000 dollars from me.
5. All of my girlfriends have been controlling.
6. I've had only 3 "mates" in the furry community since I started.
7. I used to masturbate only when told to.
8. I make cute noises and moan when I fap :v
9. I get off by getting you off.
10. I'm pathetic.
11. I'm useless, apparently.
12. I have moods. Like, one I love cleaning and clean for a long time to make the people I live with happy.
13. A girl a foot and a half shorter than I can get me on my knees instantly.
14. The same girl can have me cause a large amount of pain to wh I ever she wants.
15. I enjoy being hit sometimes. (Not sexually)
16. I'm treated like a dog. (And I enjoy I for the most part)
17. Being called puppy makes me smile.
18. I'm easy to please.
19. I enjoy going down on girls.
20. I used to be suicidal.
21. Me taking a chance st my own life ruined me going to college for kitchen. Design and engineering.
22. I became sexually active when I was 13.
23. I worked a full time 12 hours a day six days a week job during highschool.
24. I rented an apartment from my uncle when I was 14.
25. I have a Nintendo collection worth more than some houses.
26. I'm a Zelda nerd.
27. I love talking to people about life and views.
28. I'm submissive everywhere besides sex, unless put in my place.
29. There's probably videos of me having sex on the internet.
30. It's really hot non my cage.
31. I'm sweating and starving.
32. I will go way out of my way to make someone I care about happy.
33. Money is nit important to me, but it's important to get where I want to be in the future.
34. I've probably ruined my dreams with my actions.
35. I might be in here till I die.
36. My phones burning my hand.
37. I only have two contacts saved in my phone and I consider them both my owners sometimes.
38. I love taking pictures of a lot of things.
39. Frazier farms is my shit.
40. I'm craving IHOP right now.
41. I love reptiles.
42. I want to have a house with kids and a beautiful wife.
43. My wife would always come before anything.
44. She'd probably seem controlling.
45. But I like it.
46. Ugh fuck it's so hot.
47. I eat ass 8D
48. I love it even.
49. If I like you, I'd kill for your forgiveness.
50. I used to get on my knees for multiple women who called themselves my owner and give them a show.
51. I always question what made me a submissive bitch.
52. I like being called an LB. ( Lil bitch)
53. Aspen is my sona.
54. My sonas kinks are basically mine.
55. These giant ads on fa annoy the fuck out of me.
56. I want to sex up sam smith's voice.
57. I feel I'm a submissive gay sometimes. But would never go for guys other wise, unless the other guy just kinda forced himself on me.
58. I become a ezpz slut when I'm drunk.
59. I'm crying right now.
60. And listening to Sam smith.
61. I stream a dream. A stream dream
62. I can't watch movies alone.
63. Diapers are gross guys.
64. So is scat.
65. I'd work so much for my family.
66. I'm sensitive non the inside.
67. I put a hard exterior ass hole act to cover it up.
68. I always question how I got where I am.
69. I'd treat my roommates like gods of they wanted to.
70. She thinks I'm joking about her being a generous god.
71. I have to pee.
72. My phones at 28% D8
73. I bite my lip around a few people
74. If you stabbed me if hug you.
75. I really wanna get to 100 things about me.
76. Almost there though.
77. I love my S5
78. Everyone at work thinks I'm in a relationship.
79. I called out sick tomorrow.
80. I HATE people.
81. Especially fat people.
82. I'm still pretty fat.
83. My teeth are crooked.
84. I think the bullying thing is bullshit. I'd your kids ugly or dat, the parents should do something about it.
85. Onision is my favorite you tuber.
86. I play puzzles and dragons a lot.
87. Money's not on my mind.
88. I'm innings for the love.
89. If she doesn't want it I don't want it
90. Cuddling> sex
91. Disney♡
92. My kids will be raised on it.
93. A dog is not in my dream family.
94. I did all of this on mobile 《3
95. I competed in halo tournaments and won a lot of money from them.
96. I don't play fps games anymore.
97. This took like an hour almost.
98. Maybe I can eat now.
99. Froyo is my dick sucking food.
100. I hope someone actually reads this.
101. I care more than I should about some people.
1. I lost my virginity to my dad's friend when I was 6. Rape is a hell of a thing. That made me stop visiting my dad.
2. I lost the other side of my virginity when I was 9, my cousin decided to take advantage of me.
3. My mother abandoned me after my father passed away when I was merely 12.
4. She also stole 23000 dollars from me.
5. All of my girlfriends have been controlling.
6. I've had only 3 "mates" in the furry community since I started.
7. I used to masturbate only when told to.
8. I make cute noises and moan when I fap :v
9. I get off by getting you off.
10. I'm pathetic.
11. I'm useless, apparently.
12. I have moods. Like, one I love cleaning and clean for a long time to make the people I live with happy.
13. A girl a foot and a half shorter than I can get me on my knees instantly.
14. The same girl can have me cause a large amount of pain to wh I ever she wants.
15. I enjoy being hit sometimes. (Not sexually)
16. I'm treated like a dog. (And I enjoy I for the most part)
17. Being called puppy makes me smile.
18. I'm easy to please.
19. I enjoy going down on girls.
20. I used to be suicidal.
21. Me taking a chance st my own life ruined me going to college for kitchen. Design and engineering.
22. I became sexually active when I was 13.
23. I worked a full time 12 hours a day six days a week job during highschool.
24. I rented an apartment from my uncle when I was 14.
25. I have a Nintendo collection worth more than some houses.
26. I'm a Zelda nerd.
27. I love talking to people about life and views.
28. I'm submissive everywhere besides sex, unless put in my place.
29. There's probably videos of me having sex on the internet.
30. It's really hot non my cage.
31. I'm sweating and starving.
32. I will go way out of my way to make someone I care about happy.
33. Money is nit important to me, but it's important to get where I want to be in the future.
34. I've probably ruined my dreams with my actions.
35. I might be in here till I die.
36. My phones burning my hand.
37. I only have two contacts saved in my phone and I consider them both my owners sometimes.
38. I love taking pictures of a lot of things.
39. Frazier farms is my shit.
40. I'm craving IHOP right now.
41. I love reptiles.
42. I want to have a house with kids and a beautiful wife.
43. My wife would always come before anything.
44. She'd probably seem controlling.
45. But I like it.
46. Ugh fuck it's so hot.
47. I eat ass 8D
48. I love it even.
49. If I like you, I'd kill for your forgiveness.
50. I used to get on my knees for multiple women who called themselves my owner and give them a show.
51. I always question what made me a submissive bitch.
52. I like being called an LB. ( Lil bitch)
53. Aspen is my sona.
54. My sonas kinks are basically mine.
55. These giant ads on fa annoy the fuck out of me.
56. I want to sex up sam smith's voice.
57. I feel I'm a submissive gay sometimes. But would never go for guys other wise, unless the other guy just kinda forced himself on me.
58. I become a ezpz slut when I'm drunk.
59. I'm crying right now.
60. And listening to Sam smith.
61. I stream a dream. A stream dream
62. I can't watch movies alone.
63. Diapers are gross guys.
64. So is scat.
65. I'd work so much for my family.
66. I'm sensitive non the inside.
67. I put a hard exterior ass hole act to cover it up.
68. I always question how I got where I am.
69. I'd treat my roommates like gods of they wanted to.
70. She thinks I'm joking about her being a generous god.
71. I have to pee.
72. My phones at 28% D8
73. I bite my lip around a few people
74. If you stabbed me if hug you.
75. I really wanna get to 100 things about me.
76. Almost there though.
77. I love my S5
78. Everyone at work thinks I'm in a relationship.
79. I called out sick tomorrow.
80. I HATE people.
81. Especially fat people.
82. I'm still pretty fat.
83. My teeth are crooked.
84. I think the bullying thing is bullshit. I'd your kids ugly or dat, the parents should do something about it.
85. Onision is my favorite you tuber.
86. I play puzzles and dragons a lot.
87. Money's not on my mind.
88. I'm innings for the love.
89. If she doesn't want it I don't want it
90. Cuddling> sex
91. Disney♡
92. My kids will be raised on it.
93. A dog is not in my dream family.
94. I did all of this on mobile 《3
95. I competed in halo tournaments and won a lot of money from them.
96. I don't play fps games anymore.
97. This took like an hour almost.
98. Maybe I can eat now.
99. Froyo is my dick sucking food.
100. I hope someone actually reads this.
101. I care more than I should about some people.
Ima write
General | Posted 11 years agoSo, ima prolly spend my night writing c: if someone not completely weird and that is going to creep me out wants to chat in axon i'm up for it :D besides that
my view onnnn
General | Posted 11 years agoDepression.
Depression, in my opinion, never truly goes away. To me, I think it's a dark spot on the brain which Is either calmed down, or its being poked at by a stick. And if you want to skip the stick anD jump to stabbing with a knife then yeah, that's possible too. Either way -_- it's bac on again and driving me insane. The want to be happy, but living everyday depressed or pretending to be happy is the worst.
Depression, in my opinion, never truly goes away. To me, I think it's a dark spot on the brain which Is either calmed down, or its being poked at by a stick. And if you want to skip the stick anD jump to stabbing with a knife then yeah, that's possible too. Either way -_- it's bac on again and driving me insane. The want to be happy, but living everyday depressed or pretending to be happy is the worst.
Sickness
General | Posted 11 years agoIt's honestly amazing what sickness can do to someone x.x I haven't felt an ounce of hunger all day, or eaten anything :\ I really should though. -3- but i'll just wait till dinner now I suppose.
This mood needs to go away x.x
This mood needs to go away x.x
Eh decided to make the guy his own profile.
General | Posted 11 years agoIt's NOT FOR ROLEPLAYING https://www.f-list.net/c/aspen%20shika
It's a profile to show what his interests are for people to use as a reference if I give them full freedom, on anything.
It's also here to prevent a bit of art theft, so here's Aspen's official page 8D
It's a profile to show what his interests are for people to use as a reference if I give them full freedom, on anything.
It's also here to prevent a bit of art theft, so here's Aspen's official page 8D
If it means a lot to you, it means a lot to me.
General | Posted 11 years agoHonestly, a good way to find out how to function your very own Aspen is quite simple. If I like you, I like you. It's that simple, the thing is, it's rare, for me to like you?
So with that said, I guess, it's rare.. for me to like someone, but when I like someone I have a good reason for liking them, and I like the hell out of them. I don't need 20 good friends... I need 1 or 2 great friends. Now with that being said, that's just me LIKING you. As in befriending, or anything like that. There's this whole other thing, which is awful and I feel i'm experiencing for the first time? Which is strange, seeing as how it's nothing i'm new too.
But for me to want, what you want, just so you have what you want, and for me to even lift a fucking finger, to benefit you, is saying you mean a hell of a lot to me. In all honesty, I'm selfish, greedy, lazy, at times. But now, for me to have something to work hard for, to improve everything for, and the want to hand the world to you, I'm pretty content with that. -3-
Fin v:
So with that said, I guess, it's rare.. for me to like someone, but when I like someone I have a good reason for liking them, and I like the hell out of them. I don't need 20 good friends... I need 1 or 2 great friends. Now with that being said, that's just me LIKING you. As in befriending, or anything like that. There's this whole other thing, which is awful and I feel i'm experiencing for the first time? Which is strange, seeing as how it's nothing i'm new too.
But for me to want, what you want, just so you have what you want, and for me to even lift a fucking finger, to benefit you, is saying you mean a hell of a lot to me. In all honesty, I'm selfish, greedy, lazy, at times. But now, for me to have something to work hard for, to improve everything for, and the want to hand the world to you, I'm pretty content with that. -3-
Fin v:
-3- updates and what not.. it's been awhile I guess.
General | Posted 11 years agoSo, as the usual -3- still working at the movie theater, i'm finding a bit more and more self happiness as time goes by.
Again, my life Senpai has helped me out a ton :v
Although, at the same time when I had to cook for myself the other night D: I didn't enjoy cooking at all, or cleaning, or yardwork, I usually enjoy the most of those things when others are around. :\ it was a new feeling for me, and extremely shitty to have, but it went away tonight when I cooked for the two of them >.< IDK what it is haha, I just hope it's nota huge problem for me when I move out, because I need to continue eating well if I want to keep healthy x_x
Again, my life Senpai
has helped me out a ton :v Although, at the same time when I had to cook for myself the other night D: I didn't enjoy cooking at all, or cleaning, or yardwork, I usually enjoy the most of those things when others are around. :\ it was a new feeling for me, and extremely shitty to have, but it went away tonight when I cooked for the two of them >.< IDK what it is haha, I just hope it's nota huge problem for me when I move out, because I need to continue eating well if I want to keep healthy x_x
Uhh help?
General | Posted 11 years agoSO I have this like HUGE problem, where I have a really hard time liking people, or even looking at people in a way besides disgust.
SOMEONE HELP. I kinda like, want to not care how people are.
SOMEONE HELP. I kinda like, want to not care how people are.
