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Posted 14 years agoI've been coming up with my own pony design for basically what I would look like as a pony....Pretty standard, of course...White body and brown mane, blue-gray eyes, kinda like my actual coloration...
The problem is...I DUNNO WHAT KIND OF PONY I SHOULD BE ANYMORE!
I originally said Pegasus, because I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE FLYERS!!!! <3 BUT! I already know my special talent is art...My cutie mark would consist of a rainbow coming off of a paintbrush to represent that...When I think about what type of pony would work best for that, I think of unicorns. I mean, Twilight can wright with her magic, and Rarity can sew and design all sorts of stuff. Would it make sense for a Pegasus to hold the brush or colored pencils or whatever in her mouth? O.o I can't see that being very effective for art. That, and it seems like on the show, Pegasus ponies are usually good with weather, sports, flying fast, tricks, etc...You know...Aside from Fluttershy of course...Earth ponies are good with farming, partying, teaching, etc...And unicorns are good with creative stuff. o.o
Soooo....What do you all think? XD I finally am getting to where I won't feel too bad taking a few hours to draw instead of reading for classes and really wanna draw my pony self, but I don't know what type of pony I should beeeee anymore!!!!! XD Please help!
The problem is...I DUNNO WHAT KIND OF PONY I SHOULD BE ANYMORE!
I originally said Pegasus, because I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE FLYERS!!!! <3 BUT! I already know my special talent is art...My cutie mark would consist of a rainbow coming off of a paintbrush to represent that...When I think about what type of pony would work best for that, I think of unicorns. I mean, Twilight can wright with her magic, and Rarity can sew and design all sorts of stuff. Would it make sense for a Pegasus to hold the brush or colored pencils or whatever in her mouth? O.o I can't see that being very effective for art. That, and it seems like on the show, Pegasus ponies are usually good with weather, sports, flying fast, tricks, etc...You know...Aside from Fluttershy of course...Earth ponies are good with farming, partying, teaching, etc...And unicorns are good with creative stuff. o.o
Soooo....What do you all think? XD I finally am getting to where I won't feel too bad taking a few hours to draw instead of reading for classes and really wanna draw my pony self, but I don't know what type of pony I should beeeee anymore!!!!! XD Please help!
I ish so happy! <3
Posted 14 years agoToday and yesterday I hung out with friends I've made in college...I felt completely accepted, and I didn't get ignored or anything....Nobody asked why they were friends with me in front of me...Nobody acted like I was a complete weirdo, or acted like I should act any different than I normally do...Nobody made fun of me...We had a great time doing things, ranging from getting pizza to playing videogames and seeing Harry Potter again...
I actually felt like I belonged! I actually felt normal! I actually felt...Oh my God...*Grabs whoever is standing around with tears in eyes* I'm so happy!!! <3
I actually felt like I belonged! I actually felt normal! I actually felt...Oh my God...*Grabs whoever is standing around with tears in eyes* I'm so happy!!! <3
Oh man, so many furs cooking in the heat!
Posted 14 years agoToo bad for them! I'm sitting here in lovely Northern California, enjoying my lovely summer heatwave of 59F! XD Ain't this heat grand?
/troll
/troll
Is anyone else having Facebook issues?
Posted 14 years agoCurrently my Facebook is stuck telling me that I have 3 new global notifications, won't let me open a chat with ANYONE nomatter how I go about it((Directly clicking on their name/picture or going to their profile and clicking chat BOTH don't work)), and when I try typing anything into the search bar nothing pops down...You know, type in the letter J and it brings down a list of all my friends whose names start with J...etc..
Is anyone else having problems like this? And is there any way I can fix this so I DON'T have these problems? T.T I've had at least one case already where I really wanted to chat with somebody who I only can contact on Facebook and it wouldn't let me...
Is anyone else having problems like this? And is there any way I can fix this so I DON'T have these problems? T.T I've had at least one case already where I really wanted to chat with somebody who I only can contact on Facebook and it wouldn't let me...
A mentor...A parent...Somebody to guide you.
Posted 14 years agoHave you ever stopped and thought about how nice it would be if life had a guide...Somebody to teach you how to act and what to do in certain situations to avoid making a fool out of yourself...Somebody to help you become the competent human being you know you can be but aren't quite sure how? From what I've come to realize....that person is called a parent.
Sometimes coming to terms with that isn't easy...When you realize that you still act between the ages of 9 and 14 in most situations, and that you still cower down from adults as they're "authority figures and therefore higher ranking than you"...Those times when you start thinking about how awesome it would be if life had mentors to help teach you this sort of thing...Then you think back on when you did have life's most valuable mentors, your parents, to learn from....Remembering being told you were an adult from early on...Being expected to be able to do well without being taught....The isolation which prevented learning from observing other kids in school....And then, when what seemed like salvation finally came, the mother figure available only added to the damage, proving herself to be as tyrannical as possible...Being forced into the "child" position for so long, so many attempts to break the fighting spirit....Until it was a true fight...A true battle of the wills....A fight to not be fully broken, and to hang onto those old ways...Until it was all for not! Being 20 and still acting like a bloody CHILD! Having horrifically low self esteem because of this...Feeling like less of a person...Like a broken person...Like everybody MUST see me as special or something...All the friggin emotional problems and such that I will not even BEGIN to touch on here...
Yet there's no mentor for any of that...All you really have is yourself and what you believe in....The constant TRYING to do better...The constant self evaluation and attempts to reform behaviors...The constant struggle when you fall back into old ways of cowering down to a teacher or someone else's parent...It doesn't matter how many times you're reminded by friends that "you're an adult! You can do whatever you want/act however you want/etc!"...It never sinks in...It only makes things harder, because you already KNOW this! You already tell yourself this day in and day out! They don't need to keep saying it! And the relationship problems....Seemingly never having the ability to hold onto a serious relationship...The lack of trust for them, or hell, even FRIENDS! The loss of relationships and friends....The KNOWING that I could be so much more...I could do so much better...I COULD! But why the fuck can't I?! Why...After trying and trying and trying...WHY can't I just get better already?! Why can I still watch actual LITTLE KID SHOWS and still get something out of it? Why? Why can't I just be normal? Or even semi normal? Why?
Just a random vent journal....Will replace it off my page eventually...Tired as hell and everything's a good idea.
Sometimes coming to terms with that isn't easy...When you realize that you still act between the ages of 9 and 14 in most situations, and that you still cower down from adults as they're "authority figures and therefore higher ranking than you"...Those times when you start thinking about how awesome it would be if life had mentors to help teach you this sort of thing...Then you think back on when you did have life's most valuable mentors, your parents, to learn from....Remembering being told you were an adult from early on...Being expected to be able to do well without being taught....The isolation which prevented learning from observing other kids in school....And then, when what seemed like salvation finally came, the mother figure available only added to the damage, proving herself to be as tyrannical as possible...Being forced into the "child" position for so long, so many attempts to break the fighting spirit....Until it was a true fight...A true battle of the wills....A fight to not be fully broken, and to hang onto those old ways...Until it was all for not! Being 20 and still acting like a bloody CHILD! Having horrifically low self esteem because of this...Feeling like less of a person...Like a broken person...Like everybody MUST see me as special or something...All the friggin emotional problems and such that I will not even BEGIN to touch on here...
Yet there's no mentor for any of that...All you really have is yourself and what you believe in....The constant TRYING to do better...The constant self evaluation and attempts to reform behaviors...The constant struggle when you fall back into old ways of cowering down to a teacher or someone else's parent...It doesn't matter how many times you're reminded by friends that "you're an adult! You can do whatever you want/act however you want/etc!"...It never sinks in...It only makes things harder, because you already KNOW this! You already tell yourself this day in and day out! They don't need to keep saying it! And the relationship problems....Seemingly never having the ability to hold onto a serious relationship...The lack of trust for them, or hell, even FRIENDS! The loss of relationships and friends....The KNOWING that I could be so much more...I could do so much better...I COULD! But why the fuck can't I?! Why...After trying and trying and trying...WHY can't I just get better already?! Why can I still watch actual LITTLE KID SHOWS and still get something out of it? Why? Why can't I just be normal? Or even semi normal? Why?
Just a random vent journal....Will replace it off my page eventually...Tired as hell and everything's a good idea.
Well played, Karma, well played.
Posted 14 years agoSo, as some of you may know, I'm a little obsessed with astrology. My main sign is Pisces.
Awhile back I discovered rising signs, and later moon signs...I was very excited by this, finding out that my rising sign was Capricorn and my moon sign was Sagittarius((If you gotta be fire, might as well the Sagittarius!)). I also know that a certain good friend of mine is a Leo....I've grown to have some negative feelings towards Leos. Earlier today, I got into an arguement with said friend and said something along the lines of "I HATE LEOS!!!! HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!"
Well, after things had cooled off a bit, I started rummaging through my email, to where I discovered a link to a zodiac readout site a friend sent me that tells you what signs all the planets were in when you were born and such((Murcury Pisces and such))...I figured that'd be a fun little thing to do, especially since I'd forgotten about it! So I filled out all the info, clicked "Submit" and...
Rising Sign is in 12 Degrees Leo.
....Wait....WHAT?!!?!?!
My first reaction was that the website MUST be wrong! So I went back to the website I'd used for the first time I'd checked mine.....ANNNNNND discovered it used a 24 hour clock....I'd entered in 3am instead of 3pm for birth time by mistake.
So let that be a lesson to all of you out there....If you start dissing somebody for something, you might just find out you're part whatever that something is!
*End geek rant as people who don't believe in this stuff start to wonder WTF is wrong with me* XD
Awhile back I discovered rising signs, and later moon signs...I was very excited by this, finding out that my rising sign was Capricorn and my moon sign was Sagittarius((If you gotta be fire, might as well the Sagittarius!)). I also know that a certain good friend of mine is a Leo....I've grown to have some negative feelings towards Leos. Earlier today, I got into an arguement with said friend and said something along the lines of "I HATE LEOS!!!! HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!"
Well, after things had cooled off a bit, I started rummaging through my email, to where I discovered a link to a zodiac readout site a friend sent me that tells you what signs all the planets were in when you were born and such((Murcury Pisces and such))...I figured that'd be a fun little thing to do, especially since I'd forgotten about it! So I filled out all the info, clicked "Submit" and...
Rising Sign is in 12 Degrees Leo.
....Wait....WHAT?!!?!?!
My first reaction was that the website MUST be wrong! So I went back to the website I'd used for the first time I'd checked mine.....ANNNNNND discovered it used a 24 hour clock....I'd entered in 3am instead of 3pm for birth time by mistake.
So let that be a lesson to all of you out there....If you start dissing somebody for something, you might just find out you're part whatever that something is!
*End geek rant as people who don't believe in this stuff start to wonder WTF is wrong with me* XD
Online IS Real Life.
Posted 14 years agoI have found a new philosophy...And the sad part is, it really isn't that new.
You see, I've had online friends pretty much since I was old enough to go on the internet and chat with people myself. I've been told this was wrong by my mom many a time, repeatedly having it pounded in my head that those WEREN'T my real friends, they were just the person who sent the text. Online friends didn't care about me. They might not even be who they say they are, I could easily be chatting with a 40 year old man looking to come to my house and kidnap me in the night...And what if he took my younger sister or something instead! Did I ever think of that? Anyways...needless to say, I heard this sort of thing fairly frequently...But rather than letting it get to me, I just quit telling her about my online friends. I knew they were real and DID care about me...I knew that by having online relationships, I'd actually learned some of the basics of relationship dynamics. Despite having no real life friends, I knew I DID have friends, and those friends were there even when my family was not. That WAS my real life.
Then came the 11th grade...My junior year...My first year in a public school setting since kindergarten. I recall one day, having a conversation with my mom about socializing once I got there. "Just be friendly and talk to people and you'll make lots of friends" she told me...I eagerly replied to her, saying "So it's just like online!"...She then proceeded to tell me no, it wasn't like the internet at all...You aren't really talking to a person online...In RL you have to face people, deal with conflicts, deal with tone of voice and body language...There were dozens of reasons why I was wrong on this, and the internet was a whole other world besides the one I was going into.
I didn't really believe her, but I was at that awkward age of 17 when I still was pretty impressionable and hearing even something I knew was wrong could influence how I thought and behaved. Most of my junior year went smoothly enough, I managed to make lots of really amazing friends...Though talking to any of them online was really awkward, as I would try to incorporate the awkward, unsure self I had created for real life whereever I had contact with them, sure that they would think I was a freak if I talked in the same, more self-assured way I had learned over the years online. This only got progressively worse over the years...By my senior year I was convinced that everybody probably thought I was slow at school because of some of my behaviors and my lack of communication skills...College didn't help this any, because even though people have been FAR more supportive than in highschool, my own mental image of myself has grown worse and worse. I'd grown to feel that I was basically a failure at socialization, that I had no real skills at talking with others and even at my best I was still awkward. I'd tried thinking of ways I could improve upon this, but never could find any really effective, workable solutions...
That is, until I started taking my Interpersonal Communications class...
I was expecting the usual "we're gonna help you learn to communicate and get a better job!" jargon...But I wasn't actually expecting to make such a strong connection with something in the class. As I was reading through the book, I noticed it made mention of the internet quite a lot. It discussed how chatting online actually provides a great benefit to people, as it expands the number of people they know and communicate with, exposes them to more people of different cultures, and can even help people communicate in general....Shy people can learn skills at being more assertive when chatting online and integrate that into their real lives, friendships can grow stronger faster......Everything I believed about the internet and how it can help you with social skills had been true all along, and I finally have proof of it. I never had to separate my real life from my internet one, or worry so much about people in real life accepting me for me being who I was...It just took me around 3 years to figure that out.
I've had the tools to help myself with this all along, but now I'm aware of it. I'm mostly just posting this journal as a reminder, so it's written down so I can't forget again, just in case...I'm sure this has been obvious to other people too, but hey! Maybe learning that the internet IS real life will help somebody else too! XD *Drags self off to bed because it's almost 4:30am and I have class tomorrow* x.x
You see, I've had online friends pretty much since I was old enough to go on the internet and chat with people myself. I've been told this was wrong by my mom many a time, repeatedly having it pounded in my head that those WEREN'T my real friends, they were just the person who sent the text. Online friends didn't care about me. They might not even be who they say they are, I could easily be chatting with a 40 year old man looking to come to my house and kidnap me in the night...And what if he took my younger sister or something instead! Did I ever think of that? Anyways...needless to say, I heard this sort of thing fairly frequently...But rather than letting it get to me, I just quit telling her about my online friends. I knew they were real and DID care about me...I knew that by having online relationships, I'd actually learned some of the basics of relationship dynamics. Despite having no real life friends, I knew I DID have friends, and those friends were there even when my family was not. That WAS my real life.
Then came the 11th grade...My junior year...My first year in a public school setting since kindergarten. I recall one day, having a conversation with my mom about socializing once I got there. "Just be friendly and talk to people and you'll make lots of friends" she told me...I eagerly replied to her, saying "So it's just like online!"...She then proceeded to tell me no, it wasn't like the internet at all...You aren't really talking to a person online...In RL you have to face people, deal with conflicts, deal with tone of voice and body language...There were dozens of reasons why I was wrong on this, and the internet was a whole other world besides the one I was going into.
I didn't really believe her, but I was at that awkward age of 17 when I still was pretty impressionable and hearing even something I knew was wrong could influence how I thought and behaved. Most of my junior year went smoothly enough, I managed to make lots of really amazing friends...Though talking to any of them online was really awkward, as I would try to incorporate the awkward, unsure self I had created for real life whereever I had contact with them, sure that they would think I was a freak if I talked in the same, more self-assured way I had learned over the years online. This only got progressively worse over the years...By my senior year I was convinced that everybody probably thought I was slow at school because of some of my behaviors and my lack of communication skills...College didn't help this any, because even though people have been FAR more supportive than in highschool, my own mental image of myself has grown worse and worse. I'd grown to feel that I was basically a failure at socialization, that I had no real skills at talking with others and even at my best I was still awkward. I'd tried thinking of ways I could improve upon this, but never could find any really effective, workable solutions...
That is, until I started taking my Interpersonal Communications class...
I was expecting the usual "we're gonna help you learn to communicate and get a better job!" jargon...But I wasn't actually expecting to make such a strong connection with something in the class. As I was reading through the book, I noticed it made mention of the internet quite a lot. It discussed how chatting online actually provides a great benefit to people, as it expands the number of people they know and communicate with, exposes them to more people of different cultures, and can even help people communicate in general....Shy people can learn skills at being more assertive when chatting online and integrate that into their real lives, friendships can grow stronger faster......Everything I believed about the internet and how it can help you with social skills had been true all along, and I finally have proof of it. I never had to separate my real life from my internet one, or worry so much about people in real life accepting me for me being who I was...It just took me around 3 years to figure that out.
I've had the tools to help myself with this all along, but now I'm aware of it. I'm mostly just posting this journal as a reminder, so it's written down so I can't forget again, just in case...I'm sure this has been obvious to other people too, but hey! Maybe learning that the internet IS real life will help somebody else too! XD *Drags self off to bed because it's almost 4:30am and I have class tomorrow* x.x
Random meme!
Posted 14 years agoFrom now on, you can’t tell lies, are you ready?
Do I have a choice? XD
Think back eight months ago, were you single?
I think I was...Not sure XD
What do you carry with you at all times?
Cellphone...Usually keys, wallet, chapstick of some kind, and inhaler too.
Are you a cuddler?
Hellz yes! <3
What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
Cans, bottles, probably some papers and maybe books I forgot about, spiders, dust...
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?
Dane probably. XD
How are you feeling?
I'm doing okay...Kinda anxious and blah on doing homework.
Is something wrong right now?
Kinda.
Are you mad at someone?
I guess you could say that, yeah.
How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
Not much overall, really...I mean, yeah, cute guys are nice.....But what does that matter if the guy is a total ass?
What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
Chatted with some people I'm close to..XD I started summer classes and got roped into going out for dinner with my bio dad because he kinda stalked my car in the parkinglot...x3 LITERALLY...x3
How many TRUE best friends do you have?
3 or more I think.
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
By some people's definitions of sleeping in, yes. XD Don't have to get up until 11am.
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
Several.
Where is your number one friend on your friends list?
Now that ain't fair, is it? XD
Do you have anyone crushing on you?
Iunno...Ask them.
When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
Ohh not too long ago...XD
Do you sleep with the TV on?
Sometimes...If I'm really stressed out it helps keep me calm...Or if there's something REALLY good on I wanna fall asleep to.
Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
Uhhh...No...XD Though I think it would be kinda fun to try to shoot water out of the hole.
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
No, thank god XD
Are you jealous of someone right now?
Not really.
Where is the person you like right now?
In a house...Wait...Which definition of like were we going with? XD
What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
Gum
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Studying for the quiz tomorrow....WE HAVE ONE EVERYDAY NOW...x.x
What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?
Iunno...Cute face + pretty eyes = WIN
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yus.
Could you handle a long distance relationship?
Depends...If it was primarily online and I actually didn't really know them in RL, then probably not...If I knew them in RL and then they moved, sure.
Could you cry right now?
If not now, probably later. XD
Are you okay with the life you live?
Yes, though I know I need to work on a few things right now.
Did you enjoy your day today?
It was okay...A bit irritating in parts, but ehh...Nice enough.
Do you have a tattoo?
Nooope...No plans on getting any either.
Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?
No...I don't like needles and I don't really care about piercings XD
Ever had a song sang about/for you?
Actually yes.....It was interesting. XD
What was the last thing you spent money for?
Snacks at break in my class....They were lovely enough to close the cafeteria an hour before my break time at my college...x.x
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Probably a certain brother of mine. XD
Do you call it fall or autumn?
Fall.
11:11… Make a wish?
Nah, I'll save the wish for when I really need it, either for myself or others.
Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
...I really can't answer that one right now...
What were you up to at 9pm last night?
Probably having some interesting conversations online.
Do you hold grudges?
I wouldn't say grudges...More like after I realize someone is pulling crap on me I just don't wanna deal with them anymore, so I just end contact.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
HELL no...Don't plan on doing it anytime soon either! Sounds horrible.
What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
There have been times when I hoped I was actually a lesbian, but ehh....They have just as many relationship problems XD
Who was your last text from?
Dane
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Yes...Then I found out there was a deeper rock bottom to hit a year or so later.
One thing you’re looking forward to?
Hanging out with somebody/my friends....Getting done with summer classes!
Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
Sometimes, yeah...A few people I can be more outgoing around though...Kinda depends on my mood.
Has anyone ever called you sexy?
Yes...O.o;;;
What color is your camera?
*Actually had to check* Black
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I CAN be to certain people....To my close friends, I'm an open book whether I like it or not...x3
Are you wasting your time on someone?
Yes, I imagine I am....Yet I'm not in a relationship...Isn't life grand? XD
Have you ever overheard a conversation you weren’t supposed to?
Yes.
By the way, what is your name?
Nicky
Are you currently in a relationship?
Noooope.
Do you give out second chances too easily?
Probably.
What color is your favorite hoodie?
Purple...Well...I have two purple ones I love...And an orchid colored one I love....And a pink one I love...And and and....
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
In RL? I'd actually rather remove his lips for him....Does that tell you anything?
Do I have a choice? XD
Think back eight months ago, were you single?
I think I was...Not sure XD
What do you carry with you at all times?
Cellphone...Usually keys, wallet, chapstick of some kind, and inhaler too.
Are you a cuddler?
Hellz yes! <3
What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
Cans, bottles, probably some papers and maybe books I forgot about, spiders, dust...
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?
Dane probably. XD
How are you feeling?
I'm doing okay...Kinda anxious and blah on doing homework.
Is something wrong right now?
Kinda.
Are you mad at someone?
I guess you could say that, yeah.
How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
Not much overall, really...I mean, yeah, cute guys are nice.....But what does that matter if the guy is a total ass?
What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
Chatted with some people I'm close to..XD I started summer classes and got roped into going out for dinner with my bio dad because he kinda stalked my car in the parkinglot...x3 LITERALLY...x3
How many TRUE best friends do you have?
3 or more I think.
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
By some people's definitions of sleeping in, yes. XD Don't have to get up until 11am.
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
Several.
Where is your number one friend on your friends list?
Now that ain't fair, is it? XD
Do you have anyone crushing on you?
Iunno...Ask them.
When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
Ohh not too long ago...XD
Do you sleep with the TV on?
Sometimes...If I'm really stressed out it helps keep me calm...Or if there's something REALLY good on I wanna fall asleep to.
Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
Uhhh...No...XD Though I think it would be kinda fun to try to shoot water out of the hole.
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
No, thank god XD
Are you jealous of someone right now?
Not really.
Where is the person you like right now?
In a house...Wait...Which definition of like were we going with? XD
What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
Gum
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Studying for the quiz tomorrow....WE HAVE ONE EVERYDAY NOW...x.x
What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?
Iunno...Cute face + pretty eyes = WIN
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yus.
Could you handle a long distance relationship?
Depends...If it was primarily online and I actually didn't really know them in RL, then probably not...If I knew them in RL and then they moved, sure.
Could you cry right now?
If not now, probably later. XD
Are you okay with the life you live?
Yes, though I know I need to work on a few things right now.
Did you enjoy your day today?
It was okay...A bit irritating in parts, but ehh...Nice enough.
Do you have a tattoo?
Nooope...No plans on getting any either.
Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?
No...I don't like needles and I don't really care about piercings XD
Ever had a song sang about/for you?
Actually yes.....It was interesting. XD
What was the last thing you spent money for?
Snacks at break in my class....They were lovely enough to close the cafeteria an hour before my break time at my college...x.x
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Probably a certain brother of mine. XD
Do you call it fall or autumn?
Fall.
11:11… Make a wish?
Nah, I'll save the wish for when I really need it, either for myself or others.
Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
...I really can't answer that one right now...
What were you up to at 9pm last night?
Probably having some interesting conversations online.
Do you hold grudges?
I wouldn't say grudges...More like after I realize someone is pulling crap on me I just don't wanna deal with them anymore, so I just end contact.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
HELL no...Don't plan on doing it anytime soon either! Sounds horrible.
What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
There have been times when I hoped I was actually a lesbian, but ehh....They have just as many relationship problems XD
Who was your last text from?
Dane
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Yes...Then I found out there was a deeper rock bottom to hit a year or so later.
One thing you’re looking forward to?
Hanging out with somebody/my friends....Getting done with summer classes!
Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
Sometimes, yeah...A few people I can be more outgoing around though...Kinda depends on my mood.
Has anyone ever called you sexy?
Yes...O.o;;;
What color is your camera?
*Actually had to check* Black
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I CAN be to certain people....To my close friends, I'm an open book whether I like it or not...x3
Are you wasting your time on someone?
Yes, I imagine I am....Yet I'm not in a relationship...Isn't life grand? XD
Have you ever overheard a conversation you weren’t supposed to?
Yes.
By the way, what is your name?
Nicky
Are you currently in a relationship?
Noooope.
Do you give out second chances too easily?
Probably.
What color is your favorite hoodie?
Purple...Well...I have two purple ones I love...And an orchid colored one I love....And a pink one I love...And and and....
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
In RL? I'd actually rather remove his lips for him....Does that tell you anything?
Random Survey
Posted 14 years ago1.) What is your name?
Nicky
2.) Do you find it annoying when surveys ask for your name?
No, I don't really care =P
3.) What do you plan to buy in the future?
Gas? XD Uhhh...Bras because I kinda need a couple new ones....I just don't like bra shopping...x3
4.) Where did you get the underwear you are currently wearing?
Iunno...I think Mervin's before it closed. o.o
5.) How many pairs of Converse do you own?
None...Vans and such, no Converse.
6.) Who is your favorite "That '70s Show" character?
I dunno...Steven maybe?
7.) There is a mummy standing behind you. What do you do?
Chew on it? XD
8.) What do you think of Miley Cyrus?
I love at least one of her songs XD
9.) Do you tend to think that you are always right?
No, not really...Trust me, I get plenty of life lessons that prove I can be VERY wrong.
10.) Top Five Favorite Songs:
Dragostea Din Tei - O-Zone
Forever - Chris Brown
Stamp on the Ground - The Italobrothers
E.T. - Katy Perry
Born This Way - Lady Gaga
((Kinda had to pick some random ones other than Dragostea Din Tei....I have so many favorites! XD))
11.) What was your favorite toy as a child?
A small kitten plushie I named Chalkie <3
12.) Have you thought more about your funeral, or your wedding?
Probably wedding...I haven't really thought about what would happen to my body much after I'm dead.
13.) Dinosaurs or Unicorns?
Unicorns! Especially the Robot Unicorn!
14.) What is your favorite musical?
o.o;;; I haven't really seen a whole lot of musicals...
15.) You need new jeans. Where do you go?
I dunno...Target? MAYBE Khol's if they aren't too expensive.
16.) Do you play the Sims 2?
I did when I was younger...I mostly got it because a close friend online figured out how to download and add YuGiOh characters to her Sims 2 game...I never figured that out, so I made characters of people I knew and made them pee themselves and stuff...XD
17.) Do you think Harry Potter is at all immoral to read?
No XD It's an awesome story!
18.) What do you think of Maroon 5?
Don't know enough by them to make a decision.
19.) What about Coldplay?
They're pretty good.
20.) Fall Out Boy?
I THINK they're good...O.o *Tries to remember songs*
21.) Katy Perry?
Yus!
22.) How about The All-American Rejects?
Hell yes! XD
23.) Have you ever snuck into an R-rated movie when you weren't old enough to see it without parents?
o.o How do you "sneak" into an R-Rated movie these days anyway?
24.) The Wii or Xbox 360?
Wii! Definitely Wii!
25.) Team Demi/Selena or Team Miley?
No XD
26.) Do you know many Emily's?
Not personally I don't think, no...I apparently was almost NAMED Emily. XD
27.) What do you think of the Jonas Brothers?
I don't really care about them. XD
28.) Have you ever slept in a tent, indoors or out?
Outdoors when I was 6...Indoors I TRIED sleeping in a tent I made myself out of blankets and stuff XD Couldn't fall asleep and ended up sleeping in my bed.
29.) What is your favorite kind of Girlscout cookie?
o.o What girlscout cookie DON'T I like?
30.) Do you enjoy surveys?
I like doing them...Yet I get annoyed doing them at the same time sometimes XD
31.) What do you hear at the moment?
Commercials on TV for a water purifier.
32.) Why do you think so many people love myspace?
Dude, nobody loves Myspace anymore...XD
33.) What do you think of people who do illegal drugs?
I think they're mostly looking for an escape from reality for whatever reason.
34.) Do you watch the Olympics?
I used to with my bio mom...Now I OCCASIONALLY do if I remember. XD Didn't last time they were on, though.
35.) What are your top five favorite stores?
Warrior Cats....Just count the first 6 books and you have your top 5 list and more =P
36.) Do you like the new Weezer album?
Don't listen to it, don't know about it, don't care about it.
37.) What did you think of Panic at the Disco taking out the exclamation point in their name?
Uhh...Kinda makes more sense this way. XD A little less original I guess but I like the way this looks better.
38.) What is the worst job you have ever had?
Haven't worked yet...*Is lazy ass*
39.) Have you ever been to Minnesota?
Nope, not yet anyways XD
40.) What is the strangest thing you've ever seen on TV?
Probably something on Tru TV....Just throw a dart, you'll find something weird. XD
41.) Do you watch informercials when there is nothing on?
I HAVE before.....In my defense there was this REALLY awesome one on once that was for some CD's that had a bunch of songs I used to LOVE <3
42.) What is your favorite Disney Show?
Don't watch it, don't want to XD
43.) Have you ever seen the Wedding Singer?
Nope o.o
44.) Top five reasons people rank things:
Isn't this a bit ironic? XD
45.) Have you ever gone camping?
Yus! Once when I was 6! XD
46.) What do you miss most about elementary school?
I wouldn't know...XD
47.) What do you do when you want to fill out a survey, but none of your friends have posted surveys that you have not taken yet?
Usually try to find something else to do XD
48.) What is your favorite kind of DQ Blizzard?
o.o We need a Dairy Queen here....
49.) Has anything funny ever happened to you while in Wendy's?
....I don't remember the last time I was at a Wendy's....
50.) What is your current job? If you are applying anywhere, where?
I'm a student? XD
Nicky
2.) Do you find it annoying when surveys ask for your name?
No, I don't really care =P
3.) What do you plan to buy in the future?
Gas? XD Uhhh...Bras because I kinda need a couple new ones....I just don't like bra shopping...x3
4.) Where did you get the underwear you are currently wearing?
Iunno...I think Mervin's before it closed. o.o
5.) How many pairs of Converse do you own?
None...Vans and such, no Converse.
6.) Who is your favorite "That '70s Show" character?
I dunno...Steven maybe?
7.) There is a mummy standing behind you. What do you do?
Chew on it? XD
8.) What do you think of Miley Cyrus?
I love at least one of her songs XD
9.) Do you tend to think that you are always right?
No, not really...Trust me, I get plenty of life lessons that prove I can be VERY wrong.
10.) Top Five Favorite Songs:
Dragostea Din Tei - O-Zone
Forever - Chris Brown
Stamp on the Ground - The Italobrothers
E.T. - Katy Perry
Born This Way - Lady Gaga
((Kinda had to pick some random ones other than Dragostea Din Tei....I have so many favorites! XD))
11.) What was your favorite toy as a child?
A small kitten plushie I named Chalkie <3
12.) Have you thought more about your funeral, or your wedding?
Probably wedding...I haven't really thought about what would happen to my body much after I'm dead.
13.) Dinosaurs or Unicorns?
Unicorns! Especially the Robot Unicorn!
14.) What is your favorite musical?
o.o;;; I haven't really seen a whole lot of musicals...
15.) You need new jeans. Where do you go?
I dunno...Target? MAYBE Khol's if they aren't too expensive.
16.) Do you play the Sims 2?
I did when I was younger...I mostly got it because a close friend online figured out how to download and add YuGiOh characters to her Sims 2 game...I never figured that out, so I made characters of people I knew and made them pee themselves and stuff...XD
17.) Do you think Harry Potter is at all immoral to read?
No XD It's an awesome story!
18.) What do you think of Maroon 5?
Don't know enough by them to make a decision.
19.) What about Coldplay?
They're pretty good.
20.) Fall Out Boy?
I THINK they're good...O.o *Tries to remember songs*
21.) Katy Perry?
Yus!
22.) How about The All-American Rejects?
Hell yes! XD
23.) Have you ever snuck into an R-rated movie when you weren't old enough to see it without parents?
o.o How do you "sneak" into an R-Rated movie these days anyway?
24.) The Wii or Xbox 360?
Wii! Definitely Wii!
25.) Team Demi/Selena or Team Miley?
No XD
26.) Do you know many Emily's?
Not personally I don't think, no...I apparently was almost NAMED Emily. XD
27.) What do you think of the Jonas Brothers?
I don't really care about them. XD
28.) Have you ever slept in a tent, indoors or out?
Outdoors when I was 6...Indoors I TRIED sleeping in a tent I made myself out of blankets and stuff XD Couldn't fall asleep and ended up sleeping in my bed.
29.) What is your favorite kind of Girlscout cookie?
o.o What girlscout cookie DON'T I like?
30.) Do you enjoy surveys?
I like doing them...Yet I get annoyed doing them at the same time sometimes XD
31.) What do you hear at the moment?
Commercials on TV for a water purifier.
32.) Why do you think so many people love myspace?
Dude, nobody loves Myspace anymore...XD
33.) What do you think of people who do illegal drugs?
I think they're mostly looking for an escape from reality for whatever reason.
34.) Do you watch the Olympics?
I used to with my bio mom...Now I OCCASIONALLY do if I remember. XD Didn't last time they were on, though.
35.) What are your top five favorite stores?
Warrior Cats....Just count the first 6 books and you have your top 5 list and more =P
36.) Do you like the new Weezer album?
Don't listen to it, don't know about it, don't care about it.
37.) What did you think of Panic at the Disco taking out the exclamation point in their name?
Uhh...Kinda makes more sense this way. XD A little less original I guess but I like the way this looks better.
38.) What is the worst job you have ever had?
Haven't worked yet...*Is lazy ass*
39.) Have you ever been to Minnesota?
Nope, not yet anyways XD
40.) What is the strangest thing you've ever seen on TV?
Probably something on Tru TV....Just throw a dart, you'll find something weird. XD
41.) Do you watch informercials when there is nothing on?
I HAVE before.....In my defense there was this REALLY awesome one on once that was for some CD's that had a bunch of songs I used to LOVE <3
42.) What is your favorite Disney Show?
Don't watch it, don't want to XD
43.) Have you ever seen the Wedding Singer?
Nope o.o
44.) Top five reasons people rank things:
Isn't this a bit ironic? XD
45.) Have you ever gone camping?
Yus! Once when I was 6! XD
46.) What do you miss most about elementary school?
I wouldn't know...XD
47.) What do you do when you want to fill out a survey, but none of your friends have posted surveys that you have not taken yet?
Usually try to find something else to do XD
48.) What is your favorite kind of DQ Blizzard?
o.o We need a Dairy Queen here....
49.) Has anything funny ever happened to you while in Wendy's?
....I don't remember the last time I was at a Wendy's....
50.) What is your current job? If you are applying anywhere, where?
I'm a student? XD
RAWR!!! Need help with iTunes!
Posted 14 years agoOkay, so Google didn't help me with this crap....My MOTHERFJISOHDAIHDW:LNDA iTunes occasionally just decides "Haha! You have no music! ^^".....Stupid little...Piece of....RAWR!!!!....Anyways...
This happens anywhere from once a month to once every few months...It will usually say something like "Choose iTunes Library"...And last time I clicked a 2010 one and it DIDN'T delete my music, but this time I was an idiot and clicked a 2011 one.....And it deleted everything....FOR SOME GODDAMN REASON....And I FOUND the freaking folder with all the supposed "saved libraries".....WHICH DID NOTHING WHEN I CLICKED ON THEM OR TRIED OPENING THEM WITH ITUNES!!!! If I didn't know where all my music was saved/If I hadn't JUST backed up all my bought music a couple of weeks ago...OH THERE WOULD BE HELL TO PAY!!!!!
Does ANYBODY know why the HELL THIS FUCKING HAPPENS or HOW IN GOD'S NAME I CAN FIX THIS?! x.x Oh my GOD! I told some RL friends this keeps happening and they were all "Oh it's a virus that gets in when you update your computer...Just don't update and you'll be fine! ^^"....And I WONDERED...I wondered HOW that would work...But it seemed to work, so I didn't! BUT IT JUST RANDOMLY UP AND DECIDED TO KILL ALL MY MUSIC AGAIN!!!!
I use a Toshiba laptop...Satellite I believe is the model...Windows 7....Over a year and a half old...DVD drive broke out of it's own free will about a month after I got it, which probably has nothing to do with the problem but I rant about that enough in RL....And I'm too lazy to get that fixed because I can't fix it myself...x3 Yeah...
HELP PLOX??? x.x;;; If anybody has had this happen before and knows how to fix it, I would be SO GRATEFUL if you could tell me how XD I WILL HUG YOU!!!!!
This happens anywhere from once a month to once every few months...It will usually say something like "Choose iTunes Library"...And last time I clicked a 2010 one and it DIDN'T delete my music, but this time I was an idiot and clicked a 2011 one.....And it deleted everything....FOR SOME GODDAMN REASON....And I FOUND the freaking folder with all the supposed "saved libraries".....WHICH DID NOTHING WHEN I CLICKED ON THEM OR TRIED OPENING THEM WITH ITUNES!!!! If I didn't know where all my music was saved/If I hadn't JUST backed up all my bought music a couple of weeks ago...OH THERE WOULD BE HELL TO PAY!!!!!
Does ANYBODY know why the HELL THIS FUCKING HAPPENS or HOW IN GOD'S NAME I CAN FIX THIS?! x.x Oh my GOD! I told some RL friends this keeps happening and they were all "Oh it's a virus that gets in when you update your computer...Just don't update and you'll be fine! ^^"....And I WONDERED...I wondered HOW that would work...But it seemed to work, so I didn't! BUT IT JUST RANDOMLY UP AND DECIDED TO KILL ALL MY MUSIC AGAIN!!!!
I use a Toshiba laptop...Satellite I believe is the model...Windows 7....Over a year and a half old...DVD drive broke out of it's own free will about a month after I got it, which probably has nothing to do with the problem but I rant about that enough in RL....And I'm too lazy to get that fixed because I can't fix it myself...x3 Yeah...
HELP PLOX??? x.x;;; If anybody has had this happen before and knows how to fix it, I would be SO GRATEFUL if you could tell me how XD I WILL HUG YOU!!!!!
What if we could turn back time?
Posted 14 years agoIf we could turn back time...When would you go back to?
Would you go back to a time when everything was happy and cheery?
Would you go back to when you were ignorant to the evils of the world?
Would you go back before you got your heart broken, or broke the heart of another?
Would you go back so far that you a pup again, not being concerned over love, jobs, school, sexuality, family issues, friend issues, or anything else that you deal with today?
Perhaps there's no place in the past that would be better than now...Perhaps if now is not desirable, the future would be...Perhaps if we shut up and bare it, or if we skipped ahead a few years, we would find what we're looking for....We'd find happiness...Our hopes and dreams...Maybe a family, friends, a great job, finishing up school....Anything...
Who knows, really...Just thoughts...
Would you go back to a time when everything was happy and cheery?
Would you go back to when you were ignorant to the evils of the world?
Would you go back before you got your heart broken, or broke the heart of another?
Would you go back so far that you a pup again, not being concerned over love, jobs, school, sexuality, family issues, friend issues, or anything else that you deal with today?
Perhaps there's no place in the past that would be better than now...Perhaps if now is not desirable, the future would be...Perhaps if we shut up and bare it, or if we skipped ahead a few years, we would find what we're looking for....We'd find happiness...Our hopes and dreams...Maybe a family, friends, a great job, finishing up school....Anything...
Who knows, really...Just thoughts...
What is the point of it all?
Posted 14 years agoOnce I flew way up high above the ground,
But then I realized there was nobody else around.
I searched and searched, but nobody I did find.
Where they all went, was a secret buried deep inside.
Soon the memories came flooding back in,
All the people I'd seen and places I'd been.
I tried to back away, tried to avoid this revelation.
Maybe this temporary ignorance had been my vacation.
There, plain as day, the memories stood before me.
Stretching out as vast and wide as the deep blue sea.
A close friend, almost like a kindred sister.
When the truth came out, I felt stupid that I had missed her.
A passed love who became my shelter from the storm,
I pushed him away because of a love forlorn.
Nowadays, we do not speak,
And I am left unsure of whose negative emotions came to a peak.
Other friends that came and went,
Some who only wanted relations or a person on which to vent.
Some of which gave me newly found hope at first,
But soon enough filled me with enough rage to want to burst.
Then there was the one...
The one whose light shined brightest of all,
who promised to be a beacon of hope within the darkness.
I followed his light like a moth,
blinded, flying higher and higher,
my hope, my expectations,
all of it flooded in.
I believed him, I followed him,
He had to be the one, I was sure of it.
Despite all the terrible crashes,
of all the times I was broken and emotionally slammed around,
I believed that this time would be different.
This time I knew better, this time my feelings would be returned.
This time....
But this time didn't come...
This time he almost took it all,
then left me for dead,
wondering what I did wrong,
wondering if it was all my fault yet again.
This time was just the same as all the other times,
filled with lies and deceit.
I'd seen him lie to so many others,
yet somehow I believed I was above the lies...
Then I discovered he was a monster all along,
And had I known this, I never would have followed the sirens song...
Yet it's too late now, there's no going back.
Physically all together, yet in trust there is a lack.
Now that I've crashed down into this revelation-filled haze,
my world is filled with dozens of different grays.
I used to seek out one to fly alongside me,
Now I lie here in the fog, wondering if I'll ever be free.
Now the world has little purpose, and I hardly know what is true.
I'm lost in the darkness and I really don't know what to do.
I try to deny this, I try to pretend that my world is clear.
Yet most of the time anymore, I just want to disappear.
I stumble around in the darkness, looking for my way.
It's become unclear if it's even night or day.
I start to wonder about my future as I stagger and stumble, my face hits the mud.
Will the path I walk get brighter, or be suffocated in a river of blood?
But then I realized there was nobody else around.
I searched and searched, but nobody I did find.
Where they all went, was a secret buried deep inside.
Soon the memories came flooding back in,
All the people I'd seen and places I'd been.
I tried to back away, tried to avoid this revelation.
Maybe this temporary ignorance had been my vacation.
There, plain as day, the memories stood before me.
Stretching out as vast and wide as the deep blue sea.
A close friend, almost like a kindred sister.
When the truth came out, I felt stupid that I had missed her.
A passed love who became my shelter from the storm,
I pushed him away because of a love forlorn.
Nowadays, we do not speak,
And I am left unsure of whose negative emotions came to a peak.
Other friends that came and went,
Some who only wanted relations or a person on which to vent.
Some of which gave me newly found hope at first,
But soon enough filled me with enough rage to want to burst.
Then there was the one...
The one whose light shined brightest of all,
who promised to be a beacon of hope within the darkness.
I followed his light like a moth,
blinded, flying higher and higher,
my hope, my expectations,
all of it flooded in.
I believed him, I followed him,
He had to be the one, I was sure of it.
Despite all the terrible crashes,
of all the times I was broken and emotionally slammed around,
I believed that this time would be different.
This time I knew better, this time my feelings would be returned.
This time....
But this time didn't come...
This time he almost took it all,
then left me for dead,
wondering what I did wrong,
wondering if it was all my fault yet again.
This time was just the same as all the other times,
filled with lies and deceit.
I'd seen him lie to so many others,
yet somehow I believed I was above the lies...
Then I discovered he was a monster all along,
And had I known this, I never would have followed the sirens song...
Yet it's too late now, there's no going back.
Physically all together, yet in trust there is a lack.
Now that I've crashed down into this revelation-filled haze,
my world is filled with dozens of different grays.
I used to seek out one to fly alongside me,
Now I lie here in the fog, wondering if I'll ever be free.
Now the world has little purpose, and I hardly know what is true.
I'm lost in the darkness and I really don't know what to do.
I try to deny this, I try to pretend that my world is clear.
Yet most of the time anymore, I just want to disappear.
I stumble around in the darkness, looking for my way.
It's become unclear if it's even night or day.
I start to wonder about my future as I stagger and stumble, my face hits the mud.
Will the path I walk get brighter, or be suffocated in a river of blood?
Pleeeaaaase do a very small favor for me? ^^;; I need HELP!
Posted 14 years agoSooo....Tomorrow is 
aristoclese's birthday, and I think he needs to be wished a happy birthday from bunches of people! XD Sooo....Pleeeaaaase just give him a quick happy birthday? Even if you don't know him? ^^;;; Thaaaank you so much if you do it!
A completely epic music video for your time here too! ^^
aristoclese's birthday, and I think he needs to be wished a happy birthday from bunches of people! XD Sooo....Pleeeaaaase just give him a quick happy birthday? Even if you don't know him? ^^;;; Thaaaank you so much if you do it!A completely epic music video for your time here too! ^^
T.T...*Sniff* I thought TV couldn't make me cry....
Posted 14 years agoOriginally this journal was suppose to be a funny story about this guy I know who I've dubbed to be a serious contender for the stupidest person I know((religious because someone he barely knew on a forum told him his fetish was wrong and he needed to be Christian, wants to be different than everyone else by never doing ANYTHING sexual, represses his urges SO much that he ACTUALLY ALMOST CUT OFF HIS PENIS OUT OF FRUSTRATION....Yeah, you get the idea....I'm practically asexual, but COME ON!!!!))....But I saw something on TV that made me lose the will to type up anything funny.....
Now, I will say that VERY RARELY does anything on TV or in movies make me wanna cry...A few rare exceptions are Pokemon episodes((Bye Bye Butterfree...T.T)) and Lion King and such. I ESPECIALLY never would have expected anything on a police show to bother me...But this....This was different o.o;;
I THINK it was something like Las Vegas Jailhouse or something...This hysterical woman was brought in with her brother and his friend...I don't really know what happened, but what I THINK from what they said is that she was being arrested for public intoxication or something and was struggling, so they peppersprayed her...Her brother and his friend THEN decided it was a BRILLIANT idea to bring HER dog out and help her by sicking the dog on the cops. Of course, if you sick an animal on the cops, they WILL shoot it....So what they showed was her bring brought in, crying hysterically, screaming "YOU KILLED MY DOG!!! YOU KILLED MY DOG!!! WHY DID YOU KILL MY DOG?!!"....She got put in a cell because she was flipping out so bad, though I think she wanted to go after her brother too, who was yelling about SOMETHING in the main holding area and smacking his head on the wall....They had to put a helmet on her because she was doing the same, and one of the cops had to talk to her to try to calm her down...It just got to me really bad. Like....I know a chihuahua and a cat are hardly a pitbull, but I can imagine how upset I would be if someone let that happen to one of my animals....Seeing an animal you love die is just...*Shudders*
So yeah...I feel kinda like a pansy girl, but I did tear up from watching that...XD As crazy as most of the people on that show are...I can't help but feel for them XD
Now, I will say that VERY RARELY does anything on TV or in movies make me wanna cry...A few rare exceptions are Pokemon episodes((Bye Bye Butterfree...T.T)) and Lion King and such. I ESPECIALLY never would have expected anything on a police show to bother me...But this....This was different o.o;;
I THINK it was something like Las Vegas Jailhouse or something...This hysterical woman was brought in with her brother and his friend...I don't really know what happened, but what I THINK from what they said is that she was being arrested for public intoxication or something and was struggling, so they peppersprayed her...Her brother and his friend THEN decided it was a BRILLIANT idea to bring HER dog out and help her by sicking the dog on the cops. Of course, if you sick an animal on the cops, they WILL shoot it....So what they showed was her bring brought in, crying hysterically, screaming "YOU KILLED MY DOG!!! YOU KILLED MY DOG!!! WHY DID YOU KILL MY DOG?!!"....She got put in a cell because she was flipping out so bad, though I think she wanted to go after her brother too, who was yelling about SOMETHING in the main holding area and smacking his head on the wall....They had to put a helmet on her because she was doing the same, and one of the cops had to talk to her to try to calm her down...It just got to me really bad. Like....I know a chihuahua and a cat are hardly a pitbull, but I can imagine how upset I would be if someone let that happen to one of my animals....Seeing an animal you love die is just...*Shudders*
So yeah...I feel kinda like a pansy girl, but I did tear up from watching that...XD As crazy as most of the people on that show are...I can't help but feel for them XD
Zombie Apocalypse music meme ^^
Posted 14 years agoThis was, of course, stolen...I just grabbed it quick and forgot who I stole it from so uhh...Might fix that later...Either way, sorry XD
ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE PLAYLIST
put your media player on shuffle, you know the drill:
#1 Overall theme for the Apocalypse
Shiny Toy Guns - Major Tom
#2 What plays when you kill your first zombie
Iyaz - Reply ((Okay! XD Apparently I really liked it!))
#3 Song playing while getting chased by a hoard of zombies
David Archuleta - Something Bout Love ((ROFL!!!!!!!))
#4 Song playing when you have to kill your loved one
Faithless - Miss U Less See U More ((This works!))
#5 Song playing when you find a group of survivors
Chris Brown - Forever
#6 Song playing when you meet a new love interest
Brandon Heath - Give Me Your Eyes
#7 Song playing when you have to make a final stand
Savage Garden - Love Can Move You
#8 Song playing when you think you've survived it all
Robyn - Indestructible ((Could there be a better name on this one? XD))
#9 Song playing when you discover a bite mark on you
Bon Jovi - What Do You Got
#10 Song playing over the end credits
B.O.B - Magic
ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE PLAYLIST
put your media player on shuffle, you know the drill:
#1 Overall theme for the Apocalypse
Shiny Toy Guns - Major Tom
#2 What plays when you kill your first zombie
Iyaz - Reply ((Okay! XD Apparently I really liked it!))
#3 Song playing while getting chased by a hoard of zombies
David Archuleta - Something Bout Love ((ROFL!!!!!!!))
#4 Song playing when you have to kill your loved one
Faithless - Miss U Less See U More ((This works!))
#5 Song playing when you find a group of survivors
Chris Brown - Forever
#6 Song playing when you meet a new love interest
Brandon Heath - Give Me Your Eyes
#7 Song playing when you have to make a final stand
Savage Garden - Love Can Move You
#8 Song playing when you think you've survived it all
Robyn - Indestructible ((Could there be a better name on this one? XD))
#9 Song playing when you discover a bite mark on you
Bon Jovi - What Do You Got
#10 Song playing over the end credits
B.O.B - Magic
Missing Kid!!! O.o
Posted 14 years agoAll the info is here >> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2397916/
COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!
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I had coffee! OwO
That is all!
I had coffee! OwO
That is all!
OH MY GOD!!! THIS IS SO CUTE!!!!! <3 <3 <3
Posted 14 years agoYou GOTTA see this!!! <3
Will anyone help out a kind young girl in distress? T.T
Posted 14 years agoI'm just spreading the word for my sis, 
-ko- who has been having a lot of troubles finding a place to live...She's dealt with terrible room mates who didn't pay their share/messed up the house and their stuff CONSTANTLY, an aunt who was doing drugs and caused the police to bust in and question all of them, a psychotic man who let them in to try to get to her mom then turned on them and started having things shut off/called the police to try to have them arrested/a restraining order put on them so they would be forced to move out, couch surfing whenever she can.....She's gonna be without internet soon too, because their financial situation isn't the best in the world...x.x She only JUST turned 18, so she's experienced a lot of hell already...Now she's being blamed for all of this on top of having tooth problems that are leaving her in pain...here's her journal:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2395004/
If anybody can help, please answer! <3 Even if you can't, maybe spread the word if possible? I loves my sis and I don't wanna see her in bad conditions like this..=<
-ko- who has been having a lot of troubles finding a place to live...She's dealt with terrible room mates who didn't pay their share/messed up the house and their stuff CONSTANTLY, an aunt who was doing drugs and caused the police to bust in and question all of them, a psychotic man who let them in to try to get to her mom then turned on them and started having things shut off/called the police to try to have them arrested/a restraining order put on them so they would be forced to move out, couch surfing whenever she can.....She's gonna be without internet soon too, because their financial situation isn't the best in the world...x.x She only JUST turned 18, so she's experienced a lot of hell already...Now she's being blamed for all of this on top of having tooth problems that are leaving her in pain...here's her journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2395004/
If anybody can help, please answer! <3 Even if you can't, maybe spread the word if possible? I loves my sis and I don't wanna see her in bad conditions like this..=<
We need more happy stuff! ^^
Posted 14 years agoSo here's the end theme of Shin Chan! XD
Is it bad that this song makes me all nostalgic? XD
Is it bad that this song makes me all nostalgic? XD
Does he have ANY right?! ((Rant, I'm pissed ><))
Posted 14 years agoAlright, so I'm gonna list things off that I'm pissed about one by one....The first one is mostly just me ranting, but the others I would actually appreciate some feedback on...
1) Clint((I'm only using his name because he's not on here, he doesn't like furries, and I doubt anybody really knows him on here anyway..><))...After not seeing him for almost a full month, him MYSTERIOUSLY not seeming to get half my texts yet replying to the ones he WANTS to, looking over some more questionable things he's said to me in the past, and a number of other things, I'm starting to really think I was nothing more than a bit of side-fun for him....he's told me how he's never told ANYONE about me, he would get nervous about showing ANY kind of affection in public AND when we were around people he knew he would seem uncomfortable about even KNOWING me, he BARELY showed interest in me before December of 2010...He would pretty much string me along just enough to keep me around, then would back off and wouldn't talk to me for MONTHS on end...And of COURSE my stupid ass was too fucking lovesick to really see any of this...No! My stupid ass thought it was MY fault! I thought it was something I did to make him not like me...I thought maybe if I'd been better, he would have WANTED me as his girlfriend! But no, not even when we were regularly hanging out this year, seemingly as close as can be....He would admit that we acted like and were as close as boyfriend and girlfriend, yet he would quickly add in that he hates adding a title to things...AND YET I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT TWICE ABOUT IT!!!! I've put so much of my time and energy and heart into him...I paid for food for the both of us when we'd hang out when he wouldn't have any money....I made a point of trying to always be strong and never cry or break down around him, even when he'd broken my heart....I never yelled at him or argued with him...I tried to do things his way as best I could...I really and truly loved him, and he didn't give a CRAP about me! I figure once he figured out he wasn't gonna get laid from me, he realized things weren't working again...Hell! He sure hinted towards sex a lot! Even though SUPPOSEDLY he has almost no sex drive and doesn't really care about that stuff....Yeah, I bet...
2) So, last night I got into an argument with a good friend of mine who I get pissed off at a lot....I'm gonna point out several things that REALLY pissed me off about this...The first is actually one of the things that pisses me off the absolute most, and that's him actually having the nards to tell me that I shouldn't follow any crushes I have on people anymore....That I should quite LITERALLY date someone who ISN'T attractive to me and I don't have strong feelings for at all. WHAT THE POINT OF EVEN DATING A PERSON WHO FITS THAT IS BEYOND ME!!!! Apparently he believes that I should be looking for compatibility instead of any kind of superficial qualities. What DIPSHIT doesn't seem to understand is that a LOT of my relationships WERE based on compatibility...Most of them WERE with people who had similar interests, world views, morals, etc, as me...Yes, so far none of them have lasted for varying reasons...some because the other person and I simply couldn't get along or there was some sort of bad trait that one or both of us couldn't work past...Some because I was a stupid teenage girl. But all of this BRILLIANT advice is also coming from somebody who is over 40 and single...To be perfectly honest, while I think my past actions in relationships haven't been anything to be proud of, I'M CURRENTLY ONLY 20! MOST OF THIS CRAP HAPPENED BETWEEN THE AGES OF 15 AND 19! IF YOU EXPECT AN IMMATURE FEMALE IN HIGHSCHOOL TO FIND SOMEONE AND SETTLE DOWN BY THE TIME SHE'S 21, YOU'RE PRETTY DAMN TOUCHED IN THE HEAD YOURSELF!!!! And yes, I'm saying I'm VERY immature! In fact there are times I wonder if I should consider myself to be a "little-fur"((Around age 9)) because I act so damn kid-like and immature. While I find it to be, of course, halfway decent to try to encourage someone to try to look for compatibility and such, I find it WRONG AS ALL HELL to LITERALLY tell them to quit following their heart and try going after someone they don't even really care that much about. Yeah, it's fucking HARD finding someone...I know that...I've seen TONS of relationships that fail REGULARLY....HOWEVER a lot of them DON'T fail...A lot of people fall in love and lead a happy life together! It isn't EASY, but they work together to MAKE it work! If you're gonna just grab any person who you don't even care about, what is the POINT of even dating?! >< Then again, I also recall hearing something about being able to "fall head over heels for whoever he's with" AND statements of not really caring from the same person...I DO believe it was him...So hey! Maybe we can just believe what we want out of this, eh?
3) Now, while I'm all for giving advice to friends who need it...I'm all for trying to help and get someone's life back on track...But when they've specifically requested no advice be given unless asked for, WHICH THE OTHER PERSON AGREED TO, AND the other person asked them WHY they were upset in the first place only to be argumentative? I consider THAT to be wrong! Yes, I had been really down and depressed a couple of nights ago...Thanks to a good friend, I got over it and was fine by the next day...When asked by the person mentioned above what was bothering me AFTER the fact, I answered, and, keep in mind, IT WAS MORE THAN ONE THING...It was actually a string of things. However, he chose to pick out one thing that appealed to HIM the most, because HE was butt-hurt about it, and decided to "try to make me see his point" with it...He claimed he had EVERY right to do this, and that I was taking it too hard by getting mad at him for this. For one, yes, it was based around me being a bit concerned over the POSSIBILITY of me having a crush on someone because I didn't wanna make the same mistakes I'd made in the past...However, I'd very quickly gotten past that and realized "yes, it was me being kinda silly"...PROBLEM FUCKING SOLVED, RIGHT?! Noooo! Not when you talk to HIM! He decided to use THAT to enforce his point that "I get crushes too much" and that "I should just go for people I'm apparently not attracted to" or some crap. This is also coming from the same person who tells me that friends have NO right to request other friends stay awake longer to talk, only mates have that right....Yet somehow he CONSTANTLY thinks he has the right to try to tell me "what is the RIGHT way to live my life"...This is also coming from the person who has told me I should go tell my mom EVERYTHING she's ever done that's pissed me off and EVERYTHING I've done and hidden to avoid getting in trouble because "Hey, the worst she can do is throw you out"...Because I TOTALLY wanna go potentially hurt my mom, get thrown out, lose all respect from my mom, etc.((No, I'm not saying it's right that I hid things, but dude...x.x She's my MOM...She used to be WAY overly strict and threaten to kick me out if I did things wrong, but things are actually DECENT with her now, knock on wood...Now I have more RESPECT for her than fear....She HELPS me do things...She lets me live here whether I give her money to help out with bills or not...While she DOES piss me off sometimes and I probably piss her off too, I'm NOT about to go throwing all that away)) Yes, he's a very close friend of mine, but I still don't think that gives him the right to tell me how wrong I am for living my life the way I want, ESPECIALLY when he doesn't even KNOW my life first hand. We've come to an agreement in the past that if I NEED advice, I will ask him for it, but by request I didn't want it otherwise....He agreed to this because we tend to argue when he just tells me what's wrong with what I'm doing mid-conversation...Yet APPARENTLY that's changed so it no longer applies to him somehow. Go figure.
4) Okay, this one actually applies to more than one person, amazingly enough. Do YOU think it's right for an ex who remains your friend to tell you about them having a crush on someone, or how they're dating someone, then get pissed off at YOU for doing the same? This has happened on more than one occasion...The first told me about liking someone he met online, being VERY surprised I didn't get freaked out over him liking someone else and even going so far as to APPOLOGIZE for acting that way in the past...Yet when I started hanging out with someone I wasn't even MATES with...We're talking CLOSE CLASSROOM FRIEND, HERE...He threatened me, tried to scare me, and even went so far as to get a gun to try to SHOOT HIMSELF WITH...Afterwards telling me that "Maybe I shouldn't run around with random guys...Stupid fucking little slut". The OTHER wasn't nearly as dramatic, but still had the same basic pattern of behavior...We broke up, a couple months later he starts getting several girls he's interested in...He tells me about it, I joke with him about it, we have NO actual arguments about it, we just talk completely civilly like two normal human beings. HOWEVER when I express concern over the POSSIBILITY of having a crush on someone else, which I already got through and dealt with, he starts in with "Well how was THAT any different than the relationship WE had?!"....Suddenly those girls were just a REPLACEMENT for me and I was the one at fault here. I know the answer is probably obvious and consists of "This is why a lot of people refuse to even KNOW their ex's after they break up", but meh...I still don't think they have the right to be such hypocrites...If you're gonna go out with someone else, be prepared for someone else to do the same...><
5) This isn't so much of me being pissed off as just some random afterthoughts on the stuff I've already talked about....Honestly, I'm starting to wonder if dating is even worth it anymore....I mean, you get such CLEAR winners, as was mentioned before...Most guys are after sex, and honestly I'm pretty much asexual in RL as sexual as I can seem online....Sex stuff tends to freak me out, BAD. I would HONESTLY consider becoming a lesbian if I could find myself attracted to girls, but I have my doubts that females are really that much better than males anyway..x.x The sad thing is, I just really don't wanna be alone...I still WANT to find my special someone...I still KNOW he's out there somewhere...I KNOW these are just a few bumps on the road getting there. I just...Sometimes think maybe I should stop trusting people all together with any kind of information about my life....There are a few people I know I can tell who won't turn anything against me and who know how to just listen and let me talk things through to get my head straight((15 minutes of talking, me figuring things out, and maybe a little advice or kind words...As compared to 1-5+ hours of arguing, fighting, feeling worse, wanting to hurt myself or worse, and just overall regretting ever having said anything at all))...I really don't know anymore...Sometimes I wonder how hard it's gonna be to find someone who can be okay with me being asexual, and gets along with me, and can be okay with the fact that I'm INCREDIBLY immature for my age and sometimes don't know when to shut the hell up...Ughh...x.x
I'm think I probably will delete this later...I just really needed to get some of this crap out there to clear my head...x.x Sorry if this offended anyone or annoyed anyone or anything...I'm gonna be amazed if any of you actually read through all this O.o It took me like an hour to write and I can already tell I wouldn't wanna read this much crap if I didn't have to.
1) Clint((I'm only using his name because he's not on here, he doesn't like furries, and I doubt anybody really knows him on here anyway..><))...After not seeing him for almost a full month, him MYSTERIOUSLY not seeming to get half my texts yet replying to the ones he WANTS to, looking over some more questionable things he's said to me in the past, and a number of other things, I'm starting to really think I was nothing more than a bit of side-fun for him....he's told me how he's never told ANYONE about me, he would get nervous about showing ANY kind of affection in public AND when we were around people he knew he would seem uncomfortable about even KNOWING me, he BARELY showed interest in me before December of 2010...He would pretty much string me along just enough to keep me around, then would back off and wouldn't talk to me for MONTHS on end...And of COURSE my stupid ass was too fucking lovesick to really see any of this...No! My stupid ass thought it was MY fault! I thought it was something I did to make him not like me...I thought maybe if I'd been better, he would have WANTED me as his girlfriend! But no, not even when we were regularly hanging out this year, seemingly as close as can be....He would admit that we acted like and were as close as boyfriend and girlfriend, yet he would quickly add in that he hates adding a title to things...AND YET I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT TWICE ABOUT IT!!!! I've put so much of my time and energy and heart into him...I paid for food for the both of us when we'd hang out when he wouldn't have any money....I made a point of trying to always be strong and never cry or break down around him, even when he'd broken my heart....I never yelled at him or argued with him...I tried to do things his way as best I could...I really and truly loved him, and he didn't give a CRAP about me! I figure once he figured out he wasn't gonna get laid from me, he realized things weren't working again...Hell! He sure hinted towards sex a lot! Even though SUPPOSEDLY he has almost no sex drive and doesn't really care about that stuff....Yeah, I bet...
2) So, last night I got into an argument with a good friend of mine who I get pissed off at a lot....I'm gonna point out several things that REALLY pissed me off about this...The first is actually one of the things that pisses me off the absolute most, and that's him actually having the nards to tell me that I shouldn't follow any crushes I have on people anymore....That I should quite LITERALLY date someone who ISN'T attractive to me and I don't have strong feelings for at all. WHAT THE POINT OF EVEN DATING A PERSON WHO FITS THAT IS BEYOND ME!!!! Apparently he believes that I should be looking for compatibility instead of any kind of superficial qualities. What DIPSHIT doesn't seem to understand is that a LOT of my relationships WERE based on compatibility...Most of them WERE with people who had similar interests, world views, morals, etc, as me...Yes, so far none of them have lasted for varying reasons...some because the other person and I simply couldn't get along or there was some sort of bad trait that one or both of us couldn't work past...Some because I was a stupid teenage girl. But all of this BRILLIANT advice is also coming from somebody who is over 40 and single...To be perfectly honest, while I think my past actions in relationships haven't been anything to be proud of, I'M CURRENTLY ONLY 20! MOST OF THIS CRAP HAPPENED BETWEEN THE AGES OF 15 AND 19! IF YOU EXPECT AN IMMATURE FEMALE IN HIGHSCHOOL TO FIND SOMEONE AND SETTLE DOWN BY THE TIME SHE'S 21, YOU'RE PRETTY DAMN TOUCHED IN THE HEAD YOURSELF!!!! And yes, I'm saying I'm VERY immature! In fact there are times I wonder if I should consider myself to be a "little-fur"((Around age 9)) because I act so damn kid-like and immature. While I find it to be, of course, halfway decent to try to encourage someone to try to look for compatibility and such, I find it WRONG AS ALL HELL to LITERALLY tell them to quit following their heart and try going after someone they don't even really care that much about. Yeah, it's fucking HARD finding someone...I know that...I've seen TONS of relationships that fail REGULARLY....HOWEVER a lot of them DON'T fail...A lot of people fall in love and lead a happy life together! It isn't EASY, but they work together to MAKE it work! If you're gonna just grab any person who you don't even care about, what is the POINT of even dating?! >< Then again, I also recall hearing something about being able to "fall head over heels for whoever he's with" AND statements of not really caring from the same person...I DO believe it was him...So hey! Maybe we can just believe what we want out of this, eh?
3) Now, while I'm all for giving advice to friends who need it...I'm all for trying to help and get someone's life back on track...But when they've specifically requested no advice be given unless asked for, WHICH THE OTHER PERSON AGREED TO, AND the other person asked them WHY they were upset in the first place only to be argumentative? I consider THAT to be wrong! Yes, I had been really down and depressed a couple of nights ago...Thanks to a good friend, I got over it and was fine by the next day...When asked by the person mentioned above what was bothering me AFTER the fact, I answered, and, keep in mind, IT WAS MORE THAN ONE THING...It was actually a string of things. However, he chose to pick out one thing that appealed to HIM the most, because HE was butt-hurt about it, and decided to "try to make me see his point" with it...He claimed he had EVERY right to do this, and that I was taking it too hard by getting mad at him for this. For one, yes, it was based around me being a bit concerned over the POSSIBILITY of me having a crush on someone because I didn't wanna make the same mistakes I'd made in the past...However, I'd very quickly gotten past that and realized "yes, it was me being kinda silly"...PROBLEM FUCKING SOLVED, RIGHT?! Noooo! Not when you talk to HIM! He decided to use THAT to enforce his point that "I get crushes too much" and that "I should just go for people I'm apparently not attracted to" or some crap. This is also coming from the same person who tells me that friends have NO right to request other friends stay awake longer to talk, only mates have that right....Yet somehow he CONSTANTLY thinks he has the right to try to tell me "what is the RIGHT way to live my life"...This is also coming from the person who has told me I should go tell my mom EVERYTHING she's ever done that's pissed me off and EVERYTHING I've done and hidden to avoid getting in trouble because "Hey, the worst she can do is throw you out"...Because I TOTALLY wanna go potentially hurt my mom, get thrown out, lose all respect from my mom, etc.((No, I'm not saying it's right that I hid things, but dude...x.x She's my MOM...She used to be WAY overly strict and threaten to kick me out if I did things wrong, but things are actually DECENT with her now, knock on wood...Now I have more RESPECT for her than fear....She HELPS me do things...She lets me live here whether I give her money to help out with bills or not...While she DOES piss me off sometimes and I probably piss her off too, I'm NOT about to go throwing all that away)) Yes, he's a very close friend of mine, but I still don't think that gives him the right to tell me how wrong I am for living my life the way I want, ESPECIALLY when he doesn't even KNOW my life first hand. We've come to an agreement in the past that if I NEED advice, I will ask him for it, but by request I didn't want it otherwise....He agreed to this because we tend to argue when he just tells me what's wrong with what I'm doing mid-conversation...Yet APPARENTLY that's changed so it no longer applies to him somehow. Go figure.
4) Okay, this one actually applies to more than one person, amazingly enough. Do YOU think it's right for an ex who remains your friend to tell you about them having a crush on someone, or how they're dating someone, then get pissed off at YOU for doing the same? This has happened on more than one occasion...The first told me about liking someone he met online, being VERY surprised I didn't get freaked out over him liking someone else and even going so far as to APPOLOGIZE for acting that way in the past...Yet when I started hanging out with someone I wasn't even MATES with...We're talking CLOSE CLASSROOM FRIEND, HERE...He threatened me, tried to scare me, and even went so far as to get a gun to try to SHOOT HIMSELF WITH...Afterwards telling me that "Maybe I shouldn't run around with random guys...Stupid fucking little slut". The OTHER wasn't nearly as dramatic, but still had the same basic pattern of behavior...We broke up, a couple months later he starts getting several girls he's interested in...He tells me about it, I joke with him about it, we have NO actual arguments about it, we just talk completely civilly like two normal human beings. HOWEVER when I express concern over the POSSIBILITY of having a crush on someone else, which I already got through and dealt with, he starts in with "Well how was THAT any different than the relationship WE had?!"....Suddenly those girls were just a REPLACEMENT for me and I was the one at fault here. I know the answer is probably obvious and consists of "This is why a lot of people refuse to even KNOW their ex's after they break up", but meh...I still don't think they have the right to be such hypocrites...If you're gonna go out with someone else, be prepared for someone else to do the same...><
5) This isn't so much of me being pissed off as just some random afterthoughts on the stuff I've already talked about....Honestly, I'm starting to wonder if dating is even worth it anymore....I mean, you get such CLEAR winners, as was mentioned before...Most guys are after sex, and honestly I'm pretty much asexual in RL as sexual as I can seem online....Sex stuff tends to freak me out, BAD. I would HONESTLY consider becoming a lesbian if I could find myself attracted to girls, but I have my doubts that females are really that much better than males anyway..x.x The sad thing is, I just really don't wanna be alone...I still WANT to find my special someone...I still KNOW he's out there somewhere...I KNOW these are just a few bumps on the road getting there. I just...Sometimes think maybe I should stop trusting people all together with any kind of information about my life....There are a few people I know I can tell who won't turn anything against me and who know how to just listen and let me talk things through to get my head straight((15 minutes of talking, me figuring things out, and maybe a little advice or kind words...As compared to 1-5+ hours of arguing, fighting, feeling worse, wanting to hurt myself or worse, and just overall regretting ever having said anything at all))...I really don't know anymore...Sometimes I wonder how hard it's gonna be to find someone who can be okay with me being asexual, and gets along with me, and can be okay with the fact that I'm INCREDIBLY immature for my age and sometimes don't know when to shut the hell up...Ughh...x.x
I'm think I probably will delete this later...I just really needed to get some of this crap out there to clear my head...x.x Sorry if this offended anyone or annoyed anyone or anything...I'm gonna be amazed if any of you actually read through all this O.o It took me like an hour to write and I can already tell I wouldn't wanna read this much crap if I didn't have to.
Something that would make life easier....
Posted 14 years agoIf colored pencil manufacturers put like...3-7 black ones in every pack...And maybe even like 2 grays or other colors that get used commonly....But more black! Definitely more black!!!! XD
I seem to be able to pull off wearing my black colored pencils down really super small in no time while the other ones are almost full length...They need refills for these damn things!!! XD
Who agrees?
I seem to be able to pull off wearing my black colored pencils down really super small in no time while the other ones are almost full length...They need refills for these damn things!!! XD
Who agrees?
What if I was a....(Meme)
Posted 14 years agoYes, I stole this XD From 
zeekthelion
a general airborne species: Barn owl((My wolf spirit friend Midnight would be a raven))
a general aquatic species: Probably an otter
a general invertebrate: Snail or slug? XD I dunno, I just love snails and slugs!
an amphibian: Salamandar I guess XD
a bird: Barn owl((I thought that's what airborne species was o.o;; ))
a canine: Wolf
a caniform carnivore: Ringtail ((Had to google what the hell a caniform carnivore was))
a dinosaur: Iguanadon
a feliform carnivore (excluding felines): *Facepalms and goes to google* I guess a Hyena...Hyenas are cool o.o
a feline: Cat! Oh wait...I'm already a cat...Tiger then maybe? XD Or cougar...
an insect/arachnid: Some sort of big fuzzy tarantula <3
a marsupial: Kangaroo
a microoganism: Waterbear!
a mythical species: Werewolf
a primate: Some kind of lemur...Probably the Ruffed Lemurs or whatever they're called
a reptile: Chemelion! XD
a rodent or lagomorph: Rat
an ungulate: *Dies and goes to look up* Horse...Definitely horse
a mammal in a group not listed above: Crux! <3
zeektheliona general airborne species: Barn owl((My wolf spirit friend Midnight would be a raven))
a general aquatic species: Probably an otter
a general invertebrate: Snail or slug? XD I dunno, I just love snails and slugs!
an amphibian: Salamandar I guess XD
a bird: Barn owl((I thought that's what airborne species was o.o;; ))
a canine: Wolf
a caniform carnivore: Ringtail ((Had to google what the hell a caniform carnivore was))
a dinosaur: Iguanadon
a feliform carnivore (excluding felines): *Facepalms and goes to google* I guess a Hyena...Hyenas are cool o.o
a feline: Cat! Oh wait...I'm already a cat...Tiger then maybe? XD Or cougar...
an insect/arachnid: Some sort of big fuzzy tarantula <3
a marsupial: Kangaroo
a microoganism: Waterbear!
a mythical species: Werewolf
a primate: Some kind of lemur...Probably the Ruffed Lemurs or whatever they're called
a reptile: Chemelion! XD
a rodent or lagomorph: Rat
an ungulate: *Dies and goes to look up* Horse...Definitely horse
a mammal in a group not listed above: Crux! <3
Question! Need answers please! O.O
Posted 14 years agoSo I just got a betta fish today...And I picked out a really nice one who came over to the side of his little bowl to see me and actually responded when I touched the bowl and talked to him...And I named him Numa and he's really pretty and I love him and he's my baby...
BUT! I forgot to get a heat light for him...T.T The instructions say to keep his tank like 75F-85F, but I know my house doesn't stay that temperature, and I really really really don't want anything bad to happen to him! Do you think he'll be okay for a couple of days until I can get it?? Or in general??
My sister got two feeder goldfish a couple of years ago that are basically just kept in a critter keeper in the bathroom, which is pretty much the coldest room in the house...And they seem to be thriving in there...Are betta fish similar enough that Numa will be okay?? T.T I even set up a little tank for him so he can have a nice environment and everything...
I don't wanna be a bad mommy to him! T.T Is my fish gonna be okay?? *Wants to hug the tank to keep it warm*
BUT! I forgot to get a heat light for him...T.T The instructions say to keep his tank like 75F-85F, but I know my house doesn't stay that temperature, and I really really really don't want anything bad to happen to him! Do you think he'll be okay for a couple of days until I can get it?? Or in general??
My sister got two feeder goldfish a couple of years ago that are basically just kept in a critter keeper in the bathroom, which is pretty much the coldest room in the house...And they seem to be thriving in there...Are betta fish similar enough that Numa will be okay?? T.T I even set up a little tank for him so he can have a nice environment and everything...
I don't wanna be a bad mommy to him! T.T Is my fish gonna be okay?? *Wants to hug the tank to keep it warm*
Something that more people need to read! (Worth your time!)
Posted 14 years agohttp://dsc.discovery.com/fansites/d.....timony-04.html
There's 4 short pages, and it does require some reading, but I think it really is worth it!
So much anymore, people are treating what used to be standard jobs, such as electricians, plumbers, people who manufacture things, etc...as manual labor that people shouldn't be doing if they can help it...Anymore, people are going to college and studying to get "real" jobs...And they DO have the ability to get better jobs, but there are a lot of people who simply don't WANT to go to college, or can't force themselves to stay with it for as long as it takes. Those people are looked down upon and don't seek out other options because those other options are seen as "lower end" jobs...But....We need EVERYBODY to run this country! Everything is important to do! Hell! I've wondered myself what happened to the good old days, when people dreamed of finding a mate, having a big, happy family...Making a living wage, getting a decent house...That used to be the American Dream o.o Just being happy like that. In my area the economy sucks in part because the lumber industry was shut down....What was once a lively area filled with people who could have easy lives just getting jobs at the lumber mill after highschool and just enjoying living life has become an area mostly run by pot growers and people trying to figure out a way to make a living. There have been times when I've thought about how sick I am of college classes sometimes, and how if the lumber mill was still open, I would have that as an option, as would the rest of my family.
I'm probably just ranting at this point, and I probably sound like those high and mighty people who ramble on thinking they're right XD But...Well...I DO think that people knock jobs without really thinking of what they do for the country and for people in general o.o
There's 4 short pages, and it does require some reading, but I think it really is worth it!
So much anymore, people are treating what used to be standard jobs, such as electricians, plumbers, people who manufacture things, etc...as manual labor that people shouldn't be doing if they can help it...Anymore, people are going to college and studying to get "real" jobs...And they DO have the ability to get better jobs, but there are a lot of people who simply don't WANT to go to college, or can't force themselves to stay with it for as long as it takes. Those people are looked down upon and don't seek out other options because those other options are seen as "lower end" jobs...But....We need EVERYBODY to run this country! Everything is important to do! Hell! I've wondered myself what happened to the good old days, when people dreamed of finding a mate, having a big, happy family...Making a living wage, getting a decent house...That used to be the American Dream o.o Just being happy like that. In my area the economy sucks in part because the lumber industry was shut down....What was once a lively area filled with people who could have easy lives just getting jobs at the lumber mill after highschool and just enjoying living life has become an area mostly run by pot growers and people trying to figure out a way to make a living. There have been times when I've thought about how sick I am of college classes sometimes, and how if the lumber mill was still open, I would have that as an option, as would the rest of my family.
I'm probably just ranting at this point, and I probably sound like those high and mighty people who ramble on thinking they're right XD But...Well...I DO think that people knock jobs without really thinking of what they do for the country and for people in general o.o
