I suppose I may as well get into it. Is it weird that I kinda grieve for a fictional character? I played through the second chapter of Life is Strange a few days back and I wasn't able to save Kate Marsh. She killed herself because of cruel people who filmed her being raped making fun of her for it. It really got to me, and i've felt sad about it for the last few days, probably because I empathise with her, for something I won't get into here. Anyway I haven't really been able to talk about it with anyone, so i'm coming here. Don't know if anyone will see this but It's probably better to yell into the void than pent it up till I cry.

Yeah! Taken from  defiance Got bored and my mind don't want to write for me, SO i'm doing this in the hopes it kick starts my creativity. LET'S BEGIN!

Character Profile Worksheet

Basic Statistics

Name: Venlios Nitrocias
Age: (currently) 19
Occupation: Freelance Tinkerer, currently working for Fontis, open to small tasks for individuals too.
Talents/Skills: Inventing various useful and deadly machines, can manipulate fire, to a small extent.
Parents: Robert and Debbat Nitrocias
Siblings: Zitch (younger brother), Qeb (older brother)
Spouse: None
Children: None


Physical Characteristics

Height: 5'8"
Race: Raccoon. Hasn't delved too far into the family history to find out more.
Eye Color: Hazel
Hair Color: Brown
Skin color: Pink? Brown? Black? Who knows...
Shape of Face: Face-like. With a nose and eyes and ears and teeth.
Distinguishing features: Lack of left eye. Possession of gem for eye instead.
Hobbies: Creative tinkering, creative revenge, sitting on a cliff and being reflective and stuff.
Style (Elegant, shabby etc.): Mostly plain clothes, with his favourite lab coat draped over them. Rough looking even when making an effort.
Greatest flaw: Doesn't care too much about anything at various times.
Best quality: Those who he knows tend to stick in his memory, and he tries to help them using whatever skills he has.


Intellectual/Mental/Personality Attributes and Attitudes

Educational Background: Self taught tinkerer, played in a junkyard outside his town for much of his early life, discovered his aptitude for tinkering and, when he was banished from his family, learned from Girenzo Cogspinner, one of the world's greatest inventors.
Intelligence Level: 110-119 IQ. Doesn't care much about intelligence, even though he has quite a high IQ. He just understands how things fit together, and makes them work in dramatic and interesting ways.
Any Mental Illnesses? Pyromania means he sometimes wants to set things on fire just to watch them burn. But he has, for the most part, found ways of coping with this, through his work and his inner reflections.
Learning Experiences: Good at seeing how things work with each other, this means he is both able to engineer his devices effectively, and see how people react with each other, though the latter is more of a minor hobby.
Character's short-term goals in life: Create displays of grandeur in the sky with fire, help his friends with things they need help with using his knowledge.
Character's long-term goals in life: Find a way to get the world to remember him, be it through his work or through himself.
How does Character see himself/herself? He sees himself as trying to find a place for himself, though he may have material possessions, and a lab and a house, he never quite sees himself as having fit in, and suffers in his endeavors for it.
How does Character believe he/she is perceived by others? Weird. He knows others find him weird, but he embraces it.
How self-confident is the character? He will rise to an occasion and act confident and eccentric and all manner of blustering, but he has never been truly confident, he just blunders his way through social events like this.
Does the character seem ruled by emotion or logic or some combination thereof? He is ruled by some strange logic, that seems entwined with emotion, trying, on the surface, to have fun but, deeper down, to find the reason to do things.

Emotional Characteristics


Strengths/Weaknesses: Has no trouble distancing himself from a situation in order to examine it, but occasionally seems cold doing this.
Introvert or Extrovert? Introvert
How does the character deal with anger? If it is just a minor inconvenience, creative revenge, if he experiences true anger though, he is a sight to behold in dealing with it, often using weeks or months of meticulous planning to truly hurt someone.
With sadness? He sits alone, on a cliff, and thinks about why he is sad.
With conflict? He plans what to do in advance, then attempts to implement a solution, altering it as the situation itself changes.
With change? Doesn't like large amounts of change, and hides from it, or tries to change it back, but smaller amounts he can cope with easily.
With loss? Crying, at first, but then reflection on the cliff again.
What does the character want out of life? He doesn't plan his life in terms of his long term ambitions, but if the world remembers him, he would be at peace when his time comes.
What would the character like to change in his/her life? To see his whole family on friendly terms again, even for a minute.
What motivates this character? A need to see why this life has placed him where he is, and to see what he can get out of it.
What frightens this character? Deep water.
What makes this character happy? Seeing the sky, and his friend's faces, light up with laughter of happiness or both.
Is the character judgmental of others? Not particularly, he only judges those who are a**holes.
Is the character generous or stingy? Generous, when he has a reason to be.
Is the character generally polite or rude? Rude without realizing it, but he always attempts to be polite when he thinks about it.


Spiritual Characteristics

Does the character believe in God? Agnostic, if there is some greater force in the universe, it seems to have sh*t on him so far.
What are the character's spiritual beliefs? If some all powerful being existed in the great blue sky, why would it waste it's time getting a bunch of tiny people on a little rock floating in space to be nice to each other.
Is religion or spirituality a part of this character's life? Not at all, he thinks about it sometimes, but it never incorporates itself into his decisions or his character.

Hello Everyone! I am back! ish! I've been gone a while because of reason that I don't actually know. Cosmic forces? Sabotage? An Inexorable desire by some godlike being for me specifically not to be on this specific website? Who knows! But anyway, I'm back(ish) now, and I feel I should update you on stuff that happened recently. I have, over the last few months:
- Gone back to school (blechh)
-Gone to MCM comicon birmingham (Yee!)
-Started watching the anime Bleach (Yeah!)
-Not a whole lot else (Meh)

My life really isn't that interesting. But I am considering writing more short stories as a side project, because I haven't really been very creative this month. Oh well, i'm sure you great people, whoever you are, have much more interesting lives than me, so tell me, what have you been up to?

Stole this from  Ainoko

Are you afraid of:

[] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[] spiders
[] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 1

[] being touched
[] fire
[x] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[x] girlfriends/boyfriend's dad
[] girlfriends/boyfriend's mom
[] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[] snow
Total so far: 4

[] rain
[] wind
[] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[] heaven
[] being robbed
[x] falling
[] clowns
[x] dolls
[] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes
Total so far: 7

[] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[] friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[] poverty
[] halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[x] becoming blind
[] becoming deaf
[x] growing up
Total so far: 12

[x] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[x] falling in love
[] super secrets
Total: 14


If you wish to post this journal, it's been requested that you title it, "I'm afraid of __ out of 72 fears"

if you get more than 30, I highly suggest counseling
if you get more than 20, you're paranoid
if you get 10-20, you're normal.
if you get under 10, you're fearless.

Basically i'm writing up sort of a Biography of Venlios, and i would like you people (that's you, yeah you, those other guys suck, it's your opinion i want) to give me a one line description of Venlios. It would be greatly appreciated, because i'm not good at making up other peoples words. Thank you in advance and if you don't that's ok too!

I've been in Greece for the past week, and i'm coming home tomorrow, and I felt i must complain in a comically long winded list. The food tasted as though it had been slathered in a layer of sweat before it was served to the chumps in the dining area who ate that swill because they wanted the 'authentic greek experience', the wifi was nonexistant (nuff said), the staff were always there, when you didn't need them, the boat trip i took to see turtles ended when some lardcake landed in the water, because he truly believed he was allowed to swim with the turtles during the turtles mating season, it was constantly hot enough to make everyone sweat, meaning everyone smelled like arse after a few days of marinating in their own juices and considering the pool (likely filled with pee) as a giant bath (it was not), the high point of the day was breakfast, where I indulged in the only edible food there, croissants bought from the nearest supermarket and last but not least the nearest town and, ergo, nearest wifi was quite a while away, which I had to walk as i only took enough euros for a trip to the hotel and then back to the airport, which i foolishly believed was the only money i needed here. But I will say this. Their ice cubes weren't half bad.

He guessed my fursona. It's amazing, like a 20q that you can't fool, cause it's on the internet

Stolen from http://www.furaffinity.net/user/defiance/ who stole it from http://www.furaffinity.net/user/lornarosefox. Thus the circle of interesting writing continues. And I really need to learn the codes i can use to make linking simpler. Anyway, on with the show.

1. Choose one of your OC's.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Journal title should be "OC Interview".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you wish. Feel free to steal if you want!
5. Have fun!

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
"Hi! I'm Venlios, but my friends call me Tick!"

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
"I'm 16 as of right now, but some people say i'm immature. To them I say "hehe... mature..."

3. Uh-huh. What's your favorite food?
"Sweet Chilli Chicken Wings! Flame Grilled! With HOT SAUCE!!! HAHAHAHAH!" *Maniacal Laughter continues*

4. And your favorite drink?
"That's an easy one! Mead, cause it tastes like burning honey! Mmmm..."

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
"My true love is the searing ashen dance of the flames, i can unabashedly say that fire will persist when people are gone. Literally, when you burn people!"

6. Aww! Have you kissed yet?
"Yes! Once. It hurt my mouth."

7. Classic question! What's your favourite colour?
"The violent cobalt of the hottest part of the fire!"

8. Who's your favourite author?
"Christie Golden!, she makes fantasy worlds leap from the page into your mind!"

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
"Deep water, with no-one around."

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing... *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
"Just two, but they disowned me long ago..."

11. Almost done, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
"My mentor, Girenzo Cogspinner, rest his soul"

12. Okay, who's your worst enemy?
"Corrupt Officials"

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
"Well my mentor is dead, and a corrupt official, who was also a necrophiliac, started making out, I would probably have to kill him, and his family, and everything in a 50 mile radius. Then I would take a shower."

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Some sort of God? Or my father? Cause i met my dad once, before he got put away for pick pocketing, but he was a pretty jovial guy, as for meeting a God, i'd probably ask it if it wanted a drink, anything to avoid their bad side I guess. It doesn't pay to piss off an omnipotent being, as my dad always said."

15. Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
"Well, i'm already a tinkerer, so I guess burning things and inventing things in order to burn more things for a living is... pretty much already what I want to be!"

16. What's your worst nightmare?
"All the fire going out, that would be worse than deep water, if only because we'd all die from lack of oxygen and the planet would destabilize and we'd all get flash sun burnt. All those things suck too, but mostly because THE FIRE DISAPPEARED, WHAT WOULD I DO TO PASS THE TIME?! AAAGHHH!" *waves arms incoherently*

17.What's your life-long dream?
"Not too high of an aspiration, but I'd like to have friends, and a home that's permanent."

18.What would you do if your life-long dream came true?
"Take a nap"

19. Okay, where's your favourite place to relax?
"The forests, because they're so much fun to watch build up, before I tear them down, and their ashes feed then next generation. From death comes life, and such. Beautiful when you think about it."

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
"Testing new weapons or gadgets, drinking, working on my fire flyer (72 prototypes and counting), walking around Fontis, laughing, or eating!"

I have decided to just write a few short stories when i'm bored, i still have the big saga epic mac daddy cheese story going on, i just haven't been inspired enough to continue as of yet. But this new reference sheet has sent waves of inspiration into my brain places! So i shall write a few short stories, likely set in the same world, maybe about different people, so expect that.

I decided to order a couple of random alcoholic beverages that you don't normally find in the wilderness. So far i have tried the absinthe (Painful and bitter) the sake (smooth and crisp) and i have not yet had my mead delivered, but i decided this was noteworthy so i would put it on here.

Absinthe is an Aniseed-flavoured bitter herb drink comprised of grand wormwood, hence the name Absinthe (Latin name for grand wormwood is Artemisia Absinthium) and is most famous for being banned over a large part of the world due to rumours spread that it's active ingredient, Thujone, was psychoactive, which is true, but absinthe itself is no more hallucinogenic than any other alcoholic drink, due to the process in which it is made.
I tried absinthe, a brand from Germany called Antitoxin. It was 89.9%. I was knocked flat on my ass after one shot. As it turns out, you aren't supposed to drink shots of Absinthe, you are supposed to dilute it with sugar and water, and drink it as any other drink. Anyway, my throat burns now and i can't walk straight, so i am going to bed. Moral of the story, read up on things before you do anything that could turn your throat into pure undiluted pain.

I realised a couple of days ago as i sat down exhausted after an Exam, that i was not a Tiger. My fursona should reflect me, because i only have one, and i was looking around on varied and interesting websites, about spirit animals. Spirit animals may be nonsense. Spirit animals may dictate the course of our lives. Whether or not they exist, i realised i had a heartfelt connection to Raccoons. Not necessarily because of what they do, but because they are me, in another way. Curious, insatiable lust for knowledge of interesting things, excitable. All me. So Venlios is now a raccoon, which is useful because i haven't actually had any art drawn of him, and i can still edit all the stuff i've had him in. So, make of this statement what you will. *Waves*

Sorry i haven't been on much in the last week or so. Been in Ireland for my Nan's 70th birthday. Ain't no party like an Irish party 'cause an Irish party only stops when the booze runs out or everyone is dead. So i have a raging headache. Good times.

Nyxis doesn't have sonar, yelling works too. Growth attacks are random, possible deus ex machina if I ever get that desperate for plot (not likely)

Yeah, i have recently joined and made a few friends with stream chat, i think, and so i will probably start to write a story, as that is what i do, i can't draw and i don't own a fur suit and i can't dance or sing or juggle chainsaws. So i shall spin a tale, a tale of Adventure and wonder, a tale of action and steel glinting in the sun, prepare yourselves for the tale of the Tinkerer's Apprentice!

Fulfilling the contract of question 12, i have no idea why i filled out the questions yet i am glad i did. I am new to this site and hope for great times ahead filled with warmth and color.