Hey there! It is that time to let you know that I am reaching further down my greymuzzle-ness and have hit 45.

My only advice is work out so that you can keep your body in good shape for as long as you cam.

Beyond that, be as hyper as you can be.

I don't know if I will be meeting anyone there, but I will be heading to MFF Thursday night and leaving Sunday morning. Come say hi! I should be around rhythm games.

Hey there!

Just wanted to give a little update on stuff. I have updated the profile on my FA page, which I needed to do for a while now. I basically just condensed it as I don't know really how much I'll be updating it. I do have a few more pictures that I have received, but waiting until I get them all do one more upload.

If you have sent a note to me, I apologize for not getting back to them. I've really just... have had a rough couple of months, even part of my birthday was really rough, despite the fact it shouldn't have been. But, yeah, I updated the profile as far as RPing as I just have had no real interest as of late. I have wanted to RP slice of life stuff because that's my jam, but it seems like everyone wants it bigger, everyone wants it downright massive, sex is a must, and I have reached the point with my asexuality that I really love hyper, but I have kinda just pushed back into a slight hyper as opposed to a massive hyper. I'm back to waning a story moreso than just sex.

Anyway, I just wanted to give you all an update. I hope you all are doing well and continue to be supportive of each other.

I have uploaded all the rest of my art, saving the best for last. I still have a few pieces I am waiting on and will upload those when I get them, but, yeah, this is everything I wanted to upload. I am working on learning how to do art at the moment, and maybe one day I'll be able to post stuff when I feel comfortable doing so, but until then, I hope you all enjoy everything I've uploaded. I have had so many phases and enjoyed so much of the art I've bought and, right now, I have just come full circle to just being a musuclar/hyper cock/balls Venor. I still love every form I've gotten, it's just hard to really figure out what I really am at the end of the day. Still, I hope you all like what I've put up.

You all take it easy!

So, I have finished uploading the Fat folder I have, and I have some more to go, basically

Sumo
Muscle
Femboy
Hyper Cock
The Good Stuff

Basically, the final art dump will be the good stuff with the best art I have left to upload, imo. But, yeah, I might do one more tonight if I'm bored, but just giving a heads up.

Good morning! I have uploaded a bunch of art, but I'm going to be uploading a lot more today, so there will be plenty of stuff to show off!

Well, I finally uploaded some of my art again! This time I went with all the sex that Venor has had. The next ones I have will either be blueberry art or my femboy stuff. Do you have a preference? Let me know!

Today, I received my last commission that I'm going to be getting for a while. I'm going to be uploading stuff in the March month and trying to get the rest of my stuff up so you can see all the art I've accumulated all of these years.

But... it's not that I don't want to get more commissions, but for the last few comms I've gotten, they have been nothing that I wanted. I would ask for something, only for it to be subverted and not being done the way I wanted. Examples are a YCH that was done wrong, a badge that depicted my fursona as the wrong species entirely, and more recently, a picture that had very little of what I asked for with the picture, leaving me just unhappy about spending money on something I don't like. It's a hard thing for me to toss $100 on a comm that won't bring me joy when I could do stuff that could just improve the quality of my life.

I think the thing is that I just want is a better connection with furs. It's hard to say "I love hyper cocks." and then trying to go "I like listening to They Might Be Giants." because the fact is that furs on my FA see all the hyper and not the person behind it. VR has disillusioned me moreso on the idea of that the people I've hung out with never want to talk about life or casually chat, they just want to stay in the illusion of the story they've made for themselves and escape reality. I can understand that 100%. Still, I just need something real. It's just... rough. I like pretending that I have hyper bits, but I think right now I just want more connections in life in regards to interests and just exploring life.

But, to all of you that read this, you all are awesome, whether we have chatted once or many times or you just like looking at the art I've accumulated. I hope we all can have a good ending through this all as we all work to better our lives. We just need to keep moving.

I have finally uploaded the last of the female art that I have and have officially shown off what I have received.

You might wonder why I am now doing this. Well, tldr, I don't really feel much for it anymore. I do like it and enjoy what I've gotten, but it feels far removed from what I've wanted to have Venor be. I have had various reasons to get them: horny purchases, buying pieces just to have conversations with friends, striving for attention, etc.

I will still buy some pieces here or there depending (Because I can't stop horny purchases), but I do like my Bustyboy form, but it doesn't seem like there's a group of people who appreciate that kind of stuff, unless you're a famous artist who draws it well. So, it feels fruitless to do so. I dunno. It's been a struggle for a bit.

The other thing is just feeling defeated in getting more art for either bustyboy Venor or Venita (female Venor). I do appreciate chances to get art, but I've been shut out so much that I have lost interest in getting things like that anymore, and have relied on spontaneous streams to get art. There are quite a few artists I would love to get stuff from, but money/artist's interest keeps me from it.

I dunno. I could just be talking out of my ass. But, I have a lot of stuff going on in my head. I just felt that getting back to my roots could be for the best. So, in a bit, I will be working on art. I'm not any good at it, and don't know if I will ever post anything that I draw, but, right now, if I want the stuff I want, I need to work on it. So, here's hoping to a new start.

Here we go, now I am working to upload my female art. After that, I am going to see what side of my male art I will upload. I have so much to upload <:(

Geez, that took longer than expected, but it's all up there now! Pretty soon I will be uploading my female art, but after the trudge of getting everything out last week, will try and disperse it out in the next couple of weeks.

So, I have decided that it is time to just dump all the art I have received over the years. I'd rather people enjoy and see what all I've received as opposed to hiding it. This week, I am going to be throwing out my busty boy art I've collected. Next week, will be all the female stuff I've received, and then, finally, a random assortment of stuff I've received over the years.

There is a reason I'm doing this dump, and I'll go over it after the dump in a few weeks.

I feel like I've done so much wrong in my furry life in the last three years that figuring out the next step to make things right is the tough part. I have continually bought art for Venor, but I have reached the point that I have no clue about what Venor is, anymore. I always feel like I make acquaintances and then, after they're done with me, I just am off on my own again. It's part of the reason I'm stepping off F-list again as I just am looking for more permanence in my friends and less RPing that leads to nothing but a few seconds of a good time.

I think I hit this realization trying to just think what I want to get. The truth is, I need no more art. I have all that I need, and I still need to post it all, as I haven't done any stories for any of it, and I know that any story I write will just be words that mean nothing. The truth is, the only way to chat with some people is to show them art and then they'll talk to me again for a while, and then they fade.

I really don't know what the next step is going to be, but for now, I'm just going to pretend that I'm just starting back to ground zero. I might rewrite Venor a bit, I'm not sure. I do know that he'll still have his athletic form and he's still a red furred white tiger, but, trying to find the right way to present him in the future will be my goal. I think, due to having so many interests, that I've just floated around the fandom, but not able to grasp at any big friends.

I dunno, I could just be writing gibberish. I do know I want things to feel like they're going the right direction. Trying to get off the computer more, get away from social media, work on things, avoid being envious of what others have. I feel it will be a long process. We'll see where it goes from here.

Also, if people feel like I've let them go instead of the other way around, please reach out. I would like to right the wrongs I have done here and makes things a little better.

FWA is under two weeks away! Anyone here going to be there?

So, because it seems like I miss out on a TON of artwork and the like, I have set up a twitter for Venor.

https://twitter.com/FormsOfVenor

Because I can't really take this account seriously as I'm just in it for raffles and to see all the missing art, I will be posting tweets as Venor.

So, if you're curious what the life of a Venor entails, just follow!

Also, I will try and post up more pictures ><

First off, thanks to every watcher! I don't know why you watch this account (I assume it's big things), but thank you!

Secondly, right now, I'm kinda in a lull about what I want to post next. Is there anything you all want me to post? I have Blueberry, Hyper, Fat, Bustyboy, sexy stuff. Just let me know!

I'm going to be finishing up the ball bed series with one more image, then going to be posting female/busty boy stuff, then some more fat and hyper stuff. That's the 'current' plan. We'll see how long that takes :) Hope you all are doing well!

I hope you all are enjoying the holidays as much as possible! Don't worry, 2021 will be here soon enough!

Although I have some more human art of me, it's not worth uploading, imo. But yeah, that's the first part of my uploads. I'll probably be uploading some female OCs in the future, but just unsure of what's really worth uploading and what's not. Makes you think what really was worth the money you spend on some things.

Try as I may, I just can't get the gumption to write anything, despite wanting to. So, I'm thinking of just doing a flood and upload all my arts, with Venor being on the main and my scraps getting all my other OCs that I don't use on it. So, in the following week, if you see a bunch of my images go up, you'll know why.

Well, my last journal was 'supposed' to be fishing for questions I could answer to all you young people out there, however, you all wished me an early Happy Birthday instead, to which, I say, thank you. ^^

Sadly, this also meant I really don't have anything really post about as far as advice that I've gotten from living on this earth for those 40 years, so I'll just say a couple things.

Keep any friends you have. You need every single one.
Always keep in touch with friends. You never know when saying hi and chatting can instantly improve someone's day.
Try not to deny stuff when you're younger. The older you get, the more complacent you become and won't try newer things.
Saving in important, but treat yourself every now and again.
Always be objective. Never just stick to one viewpoint or else you will become ignorant of how others think and feel about certain topics.

Anyway, don't really have any super sage advice for you all other than continue to work on being happy. Lord knows it's still a struggle for me.

Get off my lawn.

Or, to be more serious, and sagely advice you want to hear from someone of my age? Any questions to the monk of the hill (not on the mount yet)

I keep trying to do F-List over and over again and it just doesn't feel like there is anything that feels right to me. I always wonder if I'm doing something wrong or what not.

As much as things go on it, I do like having fun with RP, but I also would rather try and develop friendships moreso, but that doesn't seem like the place to find it there and it's been hard to keep anything I have on here. I always wonder if I expect too much, don't do enough, or just what is the formula for actually finding friends around here.

I dunno. I guess that everyone is already in the groups that they are in and it's just hard to try and join them. That has been the story of my life with any group, furries nonwithstanding.

Sorry for the minor little rant. You all are awesome.

I uploaded some art! Will try and do better with that, I apologize. I just decided to do some small writing since sequences are kinda made for some smaller stuff. Not great, but does feel good to type some more.

There is an artist that does bara work and has two YCHs up. They do really good art and the YCH is a really good deal for what they do. Go and bid and help him and spread the word!

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/blueglueclue/