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General | Posted 14 years agoSo, yes. Seems like in about a month, I shall be moving back to California. Been thinking about this decision for about a week, taking in the pros and cons, and decided that it would be best to move back home with my parents. Seems like in the end, I wasn't prepared for moving away from my family. At least, clear across the country. So with that, I'll be spending my last month in Maryland before the move.
The time being spent with Sera will be...Well, I suppose a bit difficult, knowing that I'll be leaving her with just her parents, though I trust that her mate will support her though it. We'll still be friends, of course, though living together wasn't exactly the best choice that I've made. Prematurely, perhaps. Not exactly ready for the real world, so, AS A LOSER, going back with ma and pa.
Though won't be all bad. I'll be able to see my buds again from San Jacinto and the next town over, so it'd be nice to drop by to let them know I'm back. That'll be great. Talk for a bit, play some games, and who knows. MAYBE I'll get back to drawing. Like I SHOULD. Bah, we'll see.
With all that said, I should probably get to bed. It's 7AM and I should try to get as much sleep as I can, with what little I get anyways, ha ha. So then. I'll see you all later.
The time being spent with Sera will be...Well, I suppose a bit difficult, knowing that I'll be leaving her with just her parents, though I trust that her mate will support her though it. We'll still be friends, of course, though living together wasn't exactly the best choice that I've made. Prematurely, perhaps. Not exactly ready for the real world, so, AS A LOSER, going back with ma and pa.
Though won't be all bad. I'll be able to see my buds again from San Jacinto and the next town over, so it'd be nice to drop by to let them know I'm back. That'll be great. Talk for a bit, play some games, and who knows. MAYBE I'll get back to drawing. Like I SHOULD. Bah, we'll see.
With all that said, I should probably get to bed. It's 7AM and I should try to get as much sleep as I can, with what little I get anyways, ha ha. So then. I'll see you all later.
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General | Posted 14 years agoYep, I finally got one. Tumblr.
General | Posted 14 years agoOr two.
http://askvetom.tumblr.com/
http://askstellar.tumblr.com/
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Shameless advertisement for the win.
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General | Posted 14 years agohttp://www.livestream.com/vetomstudio
BECAUSE CHERRY DREW ME SOMETHING AND I WANNA COLOR IT SO BAD, ASDFLANLDNLFNMKLGNAEKGKNFLGANLGKBDSNKLFEGSNKBRSNBL
BECAUSE CHERRY DREW ME SOMETHING AND I WANNA COLOR IT SO BAD, ASDFLANLDNLFNMKLGNAEKGKNFLGANLGKBDSNKLFEGSNKBRSNBL
GUESS WHOES BIRTHDAY IT IS
General | Posted 14 years ago...No, it's not mine.
It's
psychoshadow's birthday.
SO GO TO HIS PAGE AND WISH HIM A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. NAO.
It's
psychoshadow's birthday.SO GO TO HIS PAGE AND WISH HIM A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. NAO.
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General | Posted 14 years agohttp://www.livestream.com/vetomstudio
Because it's for a bud of mine. His birthday is coming up, soooooo YEEEEAH.
Because it's for a bud of mine. His birthday is coming up, soooooo YEEEEAH.
A quiz thingy of fetishes
General | Posted 14 years agoBECAUSE I NEED AN ACTUAL JOURNAL ABOUT STUFF.
...This totally counts, shush.
also, I added in one fetish thingy because I think it should count. e3e
Don't hate me, bro.
[KEY]:
(+++) LOVE!!!
(++) Like A lot.
(+) Like.
(~) undecided
(-) Dislike.
(--) Dislike A lot.
(---) HATE!!
(?) Never seen / Don't know what the name refers to
Anal on Males (+++++++)
Anal on Females (++++++) Ahahaha. Haha. Ha. Haaaaa. Yes <3
Hotdogging (+++++++)
Breasts (+)
Breast Expansion (-)
Weight Gain (-)
Bondage (~) Ehhhhh not one for it
Clothing (~) Sure, why not, get clothes all nice and messy. *Shrugs*
Leather (~)
Stockings (+)
Shoe/Boots (~)
Suit and Tie (~)
Muscle, Male (-) Not really one for muscles >o>
Muscle, Female (--) ESPECIALLY NOT FEMALES.
Herm (+++) <3
Cub (~) It's eh, really.
Baby/Diaper (--) x-x Nyeh, just born and having fun? Ick.
Transformation (~) Ermmm.
Macro/Micro (~) Never really did anything like that, seen a few pics that were nice though
Impregnation (~)
Pregnancy (~)
Lactation (~)
Anal Vore (-) I WANT to say I like it. But. Um. I'm scared of it, really.
Soul Vore (-)
Cock Vore (
) DON'T EVEN SPEAK OF IT.
Standard Soft Vore (-)
Standard Hard Vore (-) I'm not one for vore, really. >.o
Paw/Foot (++) Slowly getting more and more into it <3
Incest (+) Tis good. o:
Yuri (F/F) (+++) *Looks at Stellar*
Yaoi (M/M) (+++) *Looks at Vetom*
Hetero (M/F) (++) *Looks at Ste- SLAPPED* x3x' *Looks at Vetom*
Bi (+++) *Looks at Vetom. AGAIN* Duuuuude..You're a w- *SLAPPED HARD*
Girly Boys (+++++)AHAHAHA-yeah.
Butch Girls (?)
Mind Control (~)
Rape (~) Suppose it depends.
Uniform (~)
Orgy (~) Kinda okay with it, though..Nyeh.
Subbing/Doming (+)
Biting (+)
Cheesecake (?) O-o huh.
Solo Masturbation; Male (+)
Solo Masturbation; Female (++)
Scat (---) FUCK YOU.
Inflation (-)
Fat/Pudge (~)
Tech (?)
Watersports (-)
Glasses (~)
Tentacles (~)
Oviposition (?)
Masochism (?)
Sadism (-)
Multiple body parts (~) Suppose it matters what parts o-o
Partial Nudity (~)
Gore/guro (--)
Snuff (?)
Hyper (~)
Zoophilia (~)
Electricity (?)
She-males (+++)
Cross-dressing (+)
Skunk spray (---)
Oral (+)
Asphyxiation (?)
Wet-look (?)
Mud/Quicksand etc (...) Hooooooooow
Sinking (-) O-o Really. wtf.
Spooge (+++) Hehe....I do hope it means, like, messy endings and whatnot. >o> Yummy <3
Body Paint (~)
Pants (~)
Tickling (~)
Adrenaline (?)
Licking (+)
Kissing (++)
Hugging (+)
And that ends that.
...This totally counts, shush.
also, I added in one fetish thingy because I think it should count. e3e
Don't hate me, bro.
[KEY]:
(+++) LOVE!!!
(++) Like A lot.
(+) Like.
(~) undecided
(-) Dislike.
(--) Dislike A lot.
(---) HATE!!
(?) Never seen / Don't know what the name refers to
Anal on Males (+++++++)
Anal on Females (++++++) Ahahaha. Haha. Ha. Haaaaa. Yes <3
Hotdogging (+++++++)
Breasts (+)
Breast Expansion (-)
Weight Gain (-)
Bondage (~) Ehhhhh not one for it
Clothing (~) Sure, why not, get clothes all nice and messy. *Shrugs*
Leather (~)
Stockings (+)
Shoe/Boots (~)
Suit and Tie (~)
Muscle, Male (-) Not really one for muscles >o>
Muscle, Female (--) ESPECIALLY NOT FEMALES.
Herm (+++) <3
Cub (~) It's eh, really.
Baby/Diaper (--) x-x Nyeh, just born and having fun? Ick.
Transformation (~) Ermmm.
Macro/Micro (~) Never really did anything like that, seen a few pics that were nice though
Impregnation (~)
Pregnancy (~)
Lactation (~)
Anal Vore (-) I WANT to say I like it. But. Um. I'm scared of it, really.
Soul Vore (-)
Cock Vore (
) DON'T EVEN SPEAK OF IT.
Standard Soft Vore (-)
Standard Hard Vore (-) I'm not one for vore, really. >.o
Paw/Foot (++) Slowly getting more and more into it <3
Incest (+) Tis good. o:
Yuri (F/F) (+++) *Looks at Stellar*
Yaoi (M/M) (+++) *Looks at Vetom*
Hetero (M/F) (++) *Looks at Ste- SLAPPED* x3x' *Looks at Vetom*
Bi (+++) *Looks at Vetom. AGAIN* Duuuuude..You're a w- *SLAPPED HARD*
Girly Boys (+++++)AHAHAHA-yeah.
Butch Girls (?)
Mind Control (~)
Rape (~) Suppose it depends.
Uniform (~)
Orgy (~) Kinda okay with it, though..Nyeh.
Subbing/Doming (+)
Biting (+)
Cheesecake (?) O-o huh.
Solo Masturbation; Male (+)
Solo Masturbation; Female (++)
Scat (---) FUCK YOU.
Inflation (-)
Fat/Pudge (~)
Tech (?)
Watersports (-)
Glasses (~)
Tentacles (~)
Oviposition (?)
Masochism (?)
Sadism (-)
Multiple body parts (~) Suppose it matters what parts o-o
Partial Nudity (~)
Gore/guro (--)
Snuff (?)
Hyper (~)
Zoophilia (~)
Electricity (?)
She-males (+++)
Cross-dressing (+)
Skunk spray (---)
Oral (+)
Asphyxiation (?)
Wet-look (?)
Mud/Quicksand etc (...) Hooooooooow
Sinking (-) O-o Really. wtf.
Spooge (+++) Hehe....I do hope it means, like, messy endings and whatnot. >o> Yummy <3
Body Paint (~)
Pants (~)
Tickling (~)
Adrenaline (?)
Licking (+)
Kissing (++)
Hugging (+)
And that ends that.
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General | Posted 14 years agoYou...ALL...Have heard about the news, right...?
General | Posted 14 years agoHmm?
You know, the news?
The awareness of it all?
If not, then... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pFperCVCDM
You know, the news?
The awareness of it all?
If not, then... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1pFperCVCDM
Update.
General | Posted 14 years agoThought I should do a bit of an update on my current status right now.
As of now, I am living in Maryland, away from my parents and all the drama they're going through. For those who don't know, my stepmother decided to take her kids and leave my dad while I was out to Vegas with him last week. So as of now, my dad lives alone with my brother, yet still talking to her. I don't know what's going to happen between the two, though it's touch and go. Might come back to him, or go through a divorce and live elsewhere.
Which made leaving my dad and brother harder to bear. Weird to hear that coming from someone, I'm sure. Guess when it comes down to it, I did care for my family...Or perhaps I feel so sorry for my dad that leaving him would just hurt him more so. But speculating this now isn't healthy for ones mind, I'm sure. Though of course I'll always have my phone on me, so at the very least I can still contact them if anything happens.
And in the current situation of where I am...I dunno what to say, really. With all that's been going on within one month, there's been a lot of changes that's hard to take in such a short amount of time. While getting use to the different time zone and rules around the house isn't much of an issue, everything else seems to be a tad harder to control. One being how people seems to be acting differently towards me...Looking for a job or sign up for college...Free time to myself, and so on and so forth. What I really need to do as of now is concentrate on what's going on around me rather the internet, hence the lack of me being online. I figure once I can get some control, I can spend more time on here and back to drawing once I can get some inspiration again.
And that seems to be all that I want to say. Have a good day, everyone.
As of now, I am living in Maryland, away from my parents and all the drama they're going through. For those who don't know, my stepmother decided to take her kids and leave my dad while I was out to Vegas with him last week. So as of now, my dad lives alone with my brother, yet still talking to her. I don't know what's going to happen between the two, though it's touch and go. Might come back to him, or go through a divorce and live elsewhere.
Which made leaving my dad and brother harder to bear. Weird to hear that coming from someone, I'm sure. Guess when it comes down to it, I did care for my family...Or perhaps I feel so sorry for my dad that leaving him would just hurt him more so. But speculating this now isn't healthy for ones mind, I'm sure. Though of course I'll always have my phone on me, so at the very least I can still contact them if anything happens.
And in the current situation of where I am...I dunno what to say, really. With all that's been going on within one month, there's been a lot of changes that's hard to take in such a short amount of time. While getting use to the different time zone and rules around the house isn't much of an issue, everything else seems to be a tad harder to control. One being how people seems to be acting differently towards me...Looking for a job or sign up for college...Free time to myself, and so on and so forth. What I really need to do as of now is concentrate on what's going on around me rather the internet, hence the lack of me being online. I figure once I can get some control, I can spend more time on here and back to drawing once I can get some inspiration again.
And that seems to be all that I want to say. Have a good day, everyone.
Packing and moving
General | Posted 14 years agoAs the title says.
In short, I'm packing up to move out of the house, being around 21 hours as of right now. Will be online less often till I get accustom to things over in Maryland. So take care, everyone.
In short, I'm packing up to move out of the house, being around 21 hours as of right now. Will be online less often till I get accustom to things over in Maryland. So take care, everyone.
Came home from Las Vegas
General | Posted 14 years agoAs the title says. So in short.
Friday - Got to my uncle's place and went to the Pinball museum or whatever it was called. Not bad, fun to see my dad play the games.
Saturday - Enjoyed the morning at my uncle's play, went out to eat in the afternoon and got to meet
derek8121 Had a great time with him.
Sunday - Slept till it was about 2:30PM, then went out to see the Auto Museum. Loooots of car. Enjoyed dinner, and headed out. Now home and found out that my Stepmother decided to ditch us, leaving my brother here by himself as she took the Van, the Trailer we had, and some of her stuff. So as of now, it'll leave me, my brother, and my father that lives here now. Though I should say my dad and brother since I'll be leaving this Saturday.
Well damn. Who would have thought she'd pull this off? D'ooooh well.
Friday - Got to my uncle's place and went to the Pinball museum or whatever it was called. Not bad, fun to see my dad play the games.
Saturday - Enjoyed the morning at my uncle's play, went out to eat in the afternoon and got to meet
derek8121 Had a great time with him.Sunday - Slept till it was about 2:30PM, then went out to see the Auto Museum. Loooots of car. Enjoyed dinner, and headed out. Now home and found out that my Stepmother decided to ditch us, leaving my brother here by himself as she took the Van, the Trailer we had, and some of her stuff. So as of now, it'll leave me, my brother, and my father that lives here now. Though I should say my dad and brother since I'll be leaving this Saturday.
Well damn. Who would have thought she'd pull this off? D'ooooh well.
Out of Vegas
General | Posted 14 years agoThat...sounds like a sign I'd want to own.
Alright, in all seriousness. for the weekend, I shall be in New Vegas with my dad in the last Father/Son moment we'll be sharing for awhile. So with that, I shall be online less for the next few days.
So take care for all those that are out there reading this~
Alright, in all seriousness. for the weekend, I shall be in New Vegas with my dad in the last Father/Son moment we'll be sharing for awhile. So with that, I shall be online less for the next few days.
So take care for all those that are out there reading this~
Updates upon life, pizza, and Mountain Dew.
General | Posted 14 years agoBecause I thought a lil update about my life is something to write about. People should know everything I do. e3e ALWAYS....*slapped*
Okay, on a serious note. Mountain Dew and Pizza. Freaking awesome.
And yes, that's what I'm eating at this time.
Yes, you can be jealous. *slapped hard*
x3x'' Alright alright, ANYWAYS.
In about a week, my dad thought it'd be nice if we can have one more father/son moment, so he's gonna take me to Las Vegas for a bit. If I'm lucky, I might see a friend while I'm out there.
Then after, my parents plan on flying me out to Maryland. Soooooo till then, I'm gonna be busy with doing little things here and there, so I might respond slow or not respond at all while I'm online. :V Prolly because I'm doing something, sooo yeah.
On top of that, I'm trying to get back into drawing for myself, rather then to take other lineart and color for myself. Because if I wanna draw better, well...I NEED to draw to get better at it. Still can use some coloring practice, but I'll learn that along the way.
Dear lord, mountain dew is soooo goooood....Mmmm...Huh, wait, what? o3o'' OH, getting off track. SORRY.
I should be talking about the pizza rather then the drink. =3= Right right....*slapped harder*
x3x' FINE, FINE. So with all that, I'll probably be trying to get some more personal time for myself, which might include me playing games on a game system, drawing, or family blah. So if I'm slow, well there's your reason. .o. Will try to be on MSN and Skype as much as I can, but as the week strolls by, I'll probably be less available.
So with that, farewell, God bless, and...Um.... +3+ Gonna have some alone time with some more drinks and a certain game that's terrible, but so much fun to play on mah little lunchbox....I MEAN, Gamecube. WHEWT.
Okay, on a serious note. Mountain Dew and Pizza. Freaking awesome.
And yes, that's what I'm eating at this time.
Yes, you can be jealous. *slapped hard*
x3x'' Alright alright, ANYWAYS.
In about a week, my dad thought it'd be nice if we can have one more father/son moment, so he's gonna take me to Las Vegas for a bit. If I'm lucky, I might see a friend while I'm out there.
Then after, my parents plan on flying me out to Maryland. Soooooo till then, I'm gonna be busy with doing little things here and there, so I might respond slow or not respond at all while I'm online. :V Prolly because I'm doing something, sooo yeah.
On top of that, I'm trying to get back into drawing for myself, rather then to take other lineart and color for myself. Because if I wanna draw better, well...I NEED to draw to get better at it. Still can use some coloring practice, but I'll learn that along the way.
Dear lord, mountain dew is soooo goooood....Mmmm...Huh, wait, what? o3o'' OH, getting off track. SORRY.
I should be talking about the pizza rather then the drink. =3= Right right....*slapped harder*
x3x' FINE, FINE. So with all that, I'll probably be trying to get some more personal time for myself, which might include me playing games on a game system, drawing, or family blah. So if I'm slow, well there's your reason. .o. Will try to be on MSN and Skype as much as I can, but as the week strolls by, I'll probably be less available.
So with that, farewell, God bless, and...Um.... +3+ Gonna have some alone time with some more drinks and a certain game that's terrible, but so much fun to play on mah little lunchbox....I MEAN, Gamecube. WHEWT.
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General | Posted 14 years agoUpdates and blaaaah
General | Posted 14 years agoCause I haven't made an actual journal in at least 100 days. :V
Plus, I feel like writing a journal, just for teh lulz.
-I have the tendency to lose everything and find them all in the next day. Only to lose them once again and spend forever on finding it once again. That's it. They need to make leashes for a DS.
-Obsession with Tali still going strong, so beware with more pics of her in the future. |3 Yes, I suck like that.
-Gonna try heading off to college tomorrow to sell all my books. Hope I can make a few bucks since I have, like, 10. I'm sure I should earn AT LEAST $20. PERFECT FOR DR.PEPPER.
-Emotions going aaaall crazy. First second I'm as happy as can be, then the next, I'M PO AT YOUR FACE, then the next moment, I'm trying to find a way to crawl up onto the roof. IF THERE'S SUCH A THING FOR A MAN TO BE ON HIS PERIOD....
-I liiiiiiiike Guitar Hero, Dr.Pepper, and Lucarios. DID YOU KNOW THAT, EVERYONE? HA, NOW YOU DO. *Slapped hard*
So, what's up with everyone else? o-o I know I haven't been talking a lot to anyone, so sorry if I haven't. D|''' This cario needs to get his butt in gear with keeping a conversation going other then "Mm" or just a text face.
Plus, I feel like writing a journal, just for teh lulz.
-I have the tendency to lose everything and find them all in the next day. Only to lose them once again and spend forever on finding it once again. That's it. They need to make leashes for a DS.
-Obsession with Tali still going strong, so beware with more pics of her in the future. |3 Yes, I suck like that.
-Gonna try heading off to college tomorrow to sell all my books. Hope I can make a few bucks since I have, like, 10. I'm sure I should earn AT LEAST $20. PERFECT FOR DR.PEPPER.
-Emotions going aaaall crazy. First second I'm as happy as can be, then the next, I'M PO AT YOUR FACE, then the next moment, I'm trying to find a way to crawl up onto the roof. IF THERE'S SUCH A THING FOR A MAN TO BE ON HIS PERIOD....
-I liiiiiiiike Guitar Hero, Dr.Pepper, and Lucarios. DID YOU KNOW THAT, EVERYONE? HA, NOW YOU DO. *Slapped hard*
So, what's up with everyone else? o-o I know I haven't been talking a lot to anyone, so sorry if I haven't. D|''' This cario needs to get his butt in gear with keeping a conversation going other then "Mm" or just a text face.
College done
General | Posted 14 years agoKicking old ranty journal.
Finished college today, just waiting for my check to come in, then I can finally plan on moving out. When, what time, all that jazz.
And...That's about all I can say. As of right now, I have, like, no money, so till I get that check, I can't go anywhere.
Feeling starting to pick up a bit. Still sorta scowling over everyone and everything in sight, but not taking in out on anyone. So thanks for all for your kind words.
Finished college today, just waiting for my check to come in, then I can finally plan on moving out. When, what time, all that jazz.
And...That's about all I can say. As of right now, I have, like, no money, so till I get that check, I can't go anywhere.
Feeling starting to pick up a bit. Still sorta scowling over everyone and everything in sight, but not taking in out on anyone. So thanks for all for your kind words.
Rant
General | Posted 14 years agoWell, in the past week or so, things have been...Well, really bad for me.
Probably shouldn't make a journal about this, since I'm sure there are plenty of people out there who has enough people making journals and being depressed about their own life, but...Better then to repeat over and over again for everyone.
Last Friday, as a surprise, my older sister decided to "take me out to dinner." So I though, hey, why not. I joined her, and off we drove. Course it took about 20 minutes to figure out that they had something else planned since we were still in the car and haven't stopped anywhere to eat, so I asked where we were going, and she told me that we were going to my mothers place.
She already knew that I was going to move soon enough, so she thought that going to go see my real mother might have been a good idea. And at the time, so did I. So we arrived, greeted each other, and spent some time together. Now this was when things got bad. My mother decided to pound question after question about why I'm leaving. Now...Call me heartless, but knowing that I only get to see her once a year, if I'm lucky, why would she be concern about me going elsewhere? If the answer was so that she could see me more, well she hasn't really done anything to come to me. Rather, she's been getting drunk, going suicidal, and have a rather pissy attitude...Though I suppose this means that she cares about me, since she's so concern about me and everything. Hell, she sounded like she was going to burst out crying at any moment while we were talking.
I'm a sucker at someone getting emotional. When I heard that she was about to cry over me moving, well...Great, more pressure for me moving out. Yeah, that's just what I need. Not to mention I can still feel the tension when she's around her "girlfriend" as they would love to fight right in front of me and my brother ever since I was 7. So that didn't help at all.
Though I suppose I should have saw this coming, after all. It is clear across the country so seeing her would be nearly impossible. So as of right now, I'm in the middle of either feeling glad that I'm getting away from her, or feel guilty that I'm getting away .
And then a day later, I found out that my sister, my "caring, loving sister" has posted about me moving out on Facebook. Shouldn't be a big deal, I suppose, hm? Yeah, well it went from "Steve's moving" to "Steve's running away because he thinks no one loves him, his stepmother is a druggie, etc etc." Now this horribly pisses me off.
First off, I wouldn't want my life being brought out anywhere public on facebook. Especially from my sister, knowing she's the one that likes to bring drama and unfortunately has the trait of my mother. Love to fight with her girlfriend, and can't take care of her only baby who uses permanent marker to "color" her expensive Mac computer and getting staples in her own head. So I can only imagine if she had friends who were the same way, gossiping about the "what if's" out in the public. Humiliation doesn't even begin it.
Second, not only her, and my mother's girlfriend were both back talking about my stepmother, bring a drug and alcohol addict. And then my mother's girlfriend confronted my dad, on facebook, to tell him that he should have learned after his first wife. Great. All out war with my family. All because I wanted to leave.
So now, I'm pissed off at my sister and my mother's girlfriend for saying such shit. And if I would have known any of this while I was visiting my mother, I would have told them all "Fuck you."
Yeah, so stress stress stress. Still trying to get college over with while all this fussing was going on. Little things here and there, like people easily annoying me, probably because I wasn't in the mood to do anything other then play games and try to forget what's going on around me.
Then not too long ago, my stepmother want to talk to me for a second. She said once I'm gone, she's going to divorce my father, because she can't take the abuse anymore. Now this I can understand. I've lived with him my whole life. He's a bad alcoholic, loves to yell out towards anyone who has a problem and will only raise it higher and higher till you can shut the fuck up, and has a problem with gambling. Losing $1300+ in one day is just to begin with, try being "missing" for the whole night. Not to mention I hate people who cusses a lot. Every other word is either "Fuck" or "Dumb ass" since he constantly talks down to everyone, even his own wife.
So I can understand why she would want to move, and personally, I would encourage this.
Yet I still can't feel anything but pity for him. Once I'm gone, all he's going to have is my brother in this house with four bedrooms. Two people isn't going to fill the house. And since grandma is already dead, he'd have almost nothing left once I'm gone. I shouldn't really feel guilty over this, because I saw this coming from a long shot. But he did raise me...Somewhat. Gave me a house to live in and continue through school up to college. It almost makes me wanna stay home so he wouldn't be alone. Gah, if only life was simple, huh?
For anyone who has read all this, I'm sorry if I'm just adding in more pressure in your everyday life. I know I'm not the only one who isn't feeling like this, and I'm sure this wouldn't be what you'd want to hear.
But for now, I'm going to be in a fowl mood for awhile while life runs its course.
..For the record, I'm not saying life sucks. It's difficult. And right now I think I'm going through the most difficult part of it right now, so sorry to everyone out there. MSN, DA, FA, and anywhere else.
Probably shouldn't make a journal about this, since I'm sure there are plenty of people out there who has enough people making journals and being depressed about their own life, but...Better then to repeat over and over again for everyone.
Last Friday, as a surprise, my older sister decided to "take me out to dinner." So I though, hey, why not. I joined her, and off we drove. Course it took about 20 minutes to figure out that they had something else planned since we were still in the car and haven't stopped anywhere to eat, so I asked where we were going, and she told me that we were going to my mothers place.
She already knew that I was going to move soon enough, so she thought that going to go see my real mother might have been a good idea. And at the time, so did I. So we arrived, greeted each other, and spent some time together. Now this was when things got bad. My mother decided to pound question after question about why I'm leaving. Now...Call me heartless, but knowing that I only get to see her once a year, if I'm lucky, why would she be concern about me going elsewhere? If the answer was so that she could see me more, well she hasn't really done anything to come to me. Rather, she's been getting drunk, going suicidal, and have a rather pissy attitude...Though I suppose this means that she cares about me, since she's so concern about me and everything. Hell, she sounded like she was going to burst out crying at any moment while we were talking.
I'm a sucker at someone getting emotional. When I heard that she was about to cry over me moving, well...Great, more pressure for me moving out. Yeah, that's just what I need. Not to mention I can still feel the tension when she's around her "girlfriend" as they would love to fight right in front of me and my brother ever since I was 7. So that didn't help at all.
Though I suppose I should have saw this coming, after all. It is clear across the country so seeing her would be nearly impossible. So as of right now, I'm in the middle of either feeling glad that I'm getting away from her, or feel guilty that I'm getting away .
And then a day later, I found out that my sister, my "caring, loving sister" has posted about me moving out on Facebook. Shouldn't be a big deal, I suppose, hm? Yeah, well it went from "Steve's moving" to "Steve's running away because he thinks no one loves him, his stepmother is a druggie, etc etc." Now this horribly pisses me off.
First off, I wouldn't want my life being brought out anywhere public on facebook. Especially from my sister, knowing she's the one that likes to bring drama and unfortunately has the trait of my mother. Love to fight with her girlfriend, and can't take care of her only baby who uses permanent marker to "color" her expensive Mac computer and getting staples in her own head. So I can only imagine if she had friends who were the same way, gossiping about the "what if's" out in the public. Humiliation doesn't even begin it.
Second, not only her, and my mother's girlfriend were both back talking about my stepmother, bring a drug and alcohol addict. And then my mother's girlfriend confronted my dad, on facebook, to tell him that he should have learned after his first wife. Great. All out war with my family. All because I wanted to leave.
So now, I'm pissed off at my sister and my mother's girlfriend for saying such shit. And if I would have known any of this while I was visiting my mother, I would have told them all "Fuck you."
Yeah, so stress stress stress. Still trying to get college over with while all this fussing was going on. Little things here and there, like people easily annoying me, probably because I wasn't in the mood to do anything other then play games and try to forget what's going on around me.
Then not too long ago, my stepmother want to talk to me for a second. She said once I'm gone, she's going to divorce my father, because she can't take the abuse anymore. Now this I can understand. I've lived with him my whole life. He's a bad alcoholic, loves to yell out towards anyone who has a problem and will only raise it higher and higher till you can shut the fuck up, and has a problem with gambling. Losing $1300+ in one day is just to begin with, try being "missing" for the whole night. Not to mention I hate people who cusses a lot. Every other word is either "Fuck" or "Dumb ass" since he constantly talks down to everyone, even his own wife.
So I can understand why she would want to move, and personally, I would encourage this.
Yet I still can't feel anything but pity for him. Once I'm gone, all he's going to have is my brother in this house with four bedrooms. Two people isn't going to fill the house. And since grandma is already dead, he'd have almost nothing left once I'm gone. I shouldn't really feel guilty over this, because I saw this coming from a long shot. But he did raise me...Somewhat. Gave me a house to live in and continue through school up to college. It almost makes me wanna stay home so he wouldn't be alone. Gah, if only life was simple, huh?
For anyone who has read all this, I'm sorry if I'm just adding in more pressure in your everyday life. I know I'm not the only one who isn't feeling like this, and I'm sure this wouldn't be what you'd want to hear.
But for now, I'm going to be in a fowl mood for awhile while life runs its course.
..For the record, I'm not saying life sucks. It's difficult. And right now I think I'm going through the most difficult part of it right now, so sorry to everyone out there. MSN, DA, FA, and anywhere else.
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General | Posted 14 years agoWell, long story short, went to go see my mother. Visit wasn't so good once she heard the news. So trying to get my mind off of things with the pic from before.
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General | Posted 14 years agoMeme thing
General | Posted 14 years agoPosting a meme for anyone who has the time to do it, ,o, If not, ah well. *shrugs*
1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?(a peck on the cheek is fine :p)
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Would you consider meeting up with me?
13) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?(a peck on the cheek is fine :p)
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Would you consider meeting up with me?
13) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
Last week info. Ooooh jeez, what a week.
General | Posted 14 years agoHaven't been in the best of mood for awhile, so gonna try to cheer myself up by writting in the most tarded way possible with what I did last week.
NOTE. YOU JUST MIGHT LEARN A LIFE LESSON AFTER READING ALL THIS
Saturday
"O BOI, THE DAY STEF COMES OVER. OMGOMGOMG, IT'S 1:20PM, I SHOULD LEAVE NOW FOR THAT 2 HOURS WALK." *Leaves the house*
So with that, I left the house to meet up with my friend at the metrolink. I printed out the direction Mapquest gave me to the address Stef gave me. So with that, I left the house around 1:20PM, about 2 hours of a walk would give me plenty of time to wait, maybe eat, and all that jazz, right?
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell.... Let's just say...
Destination = Metrolink
Mapquest Destination ends up = A University
....Mapquest..I wasted 2 hours walking to meet up with Stef, not to apply to a college my parents wants me to go to. SO WITH THAT...I was...KINDA..SORTA.... >3>''' Loooost. Called stef, told me it was downtown, and that's when I went to the nearest bus station.
Worst part, well the closes bus station was the exact same bus I take to go to college. Even better, it goes to the Metrolink. Soooooo I walked for 2 hours for nothing but for my health.
FUCK YOU, MAPQUEST. Hoooooow daaaare yooooooou call me fat. e3e ...Or...SOMETHING.
So after meeting up with Stef after an hour of her waiting, about 5 PM, we met up...I dunno if she was thrill to see me, or she wanted to strangle me for waiting forever... |D But uh...I'm alive so...She couldn't be THAT angry, huh...?
Yes well, anyways, we went home, and we both agreed. I suck at taking directions and that I couldn't find my way out of a box even if there was two different opening. But still, she was with me, we settled in and slept.
Note to self. Never go to that university again. I swear I saw someone getting mugged in there.
Sunday
So we woke up and...well with my baaaaaad memory, I saw Stef and I didn't know it was her. I thought she was...I had no idea, some stranger or something....Buuut then my mind kicked in and said "HEY DUMBASS, IT'S YO FRIEND, FOO. WAKE THE HELL UP AND DROWN YOURSELF IN DR.PEPPER NAO. DOITDOITDOITDOITDOIT." And I was like "...OH HI STEF... @3@ ....Yeees, maaaasteeeeerrrrr *Goes to the kitchen and get the nutritious nectar I needed*" After we fully awaken, we went to the mall. <w> Nothing much, just bought myself some energy drinks and food, and she got some...Ahem....Alcohol. Got home, watched some movies, and played, ah, "Strip Poker". So here's what was going on
Me: 3 clothed items
Her: ....Prolly 10 or something.
Odds were against me. e3e BUT I HAD TO PULL THROUGH. The reward would be graaaand~
The results:
Me: 0
Her: Fully clothed and laughing at me with her FLAWLESS VICTORY.
Dude, I hate strip poker with all my heart now. D|
Monday
Woke up, tried to get myself into gear as per usual, did what I need to do around the house and went bowling.
OOOOOH THE STORY FOR THIS ONE. AHA. HA....haaaa...Ahhhh.....
So when I stepped out of the house...
"Of couuurse I know where it is! oUo I've seen it all the time down this road. Can't be THAT far. Let's goooooo! *And off we went*"
30 Minutes later...
"(...Wheeeeere the fuck are we going?)"
So..We were..KINDA SORTA LOST. AGAIN. >3>'''''''' This isn't going well on my side of her vacation.
Another 30 minutes later, and still no sign of the bowling ally. Was getting tired from walking for soooo ling. D|
AND YET ANOTHER THIRTY MINUTES LATER. We were getting restless, there was one last stoplight down the road, and if we didn't see it, then we would have turned back and guess our way back home.....But of couuuurse when we were juuust about to turn back, we suddenly see the bowling ally.... e3e 1.5 hours of a walk, ARE YOU SERIOUS....
|D'' Ah well, better to do some bowling then to walk aimlessly for awhile. So we bowled, had fun, got a few strikes, felt good. Dun like using bumpers though. >3> Happened for the first two games...But then we learned out to take it down. BY KICKING THE BUMPERS. ouo ...Goes to show violence is ALWAYS the answer.
Then we went home, broke out some alcohol, watch some movies, sleeeeeeep.
[bTuesday][/b]
....Lazy day. Stayed home for the most part, talked to a friend on skype, Dance Central, some Guitar Hero....Guess really the only thing that was interesting was that we started to sleep in the same bed. In my parents room. DEAR GOD, THAT ROOM WAS COMFY.
...In fact, I should be sleeping right now. IN THAT ROOM.
...I'll do that when I get home from college today. Meeeeh.
Wednesday
Went to the movies that day. Didn't know exactly what to see, but Transformers seemed like an alright choice. Though we sorta went in blindly without seeing the time. Saw one was about 40 minutes off, though it was the 3D show, so it was much more expensive then regular, but I say the movie was worth it.
Overall, the 3D in that movie wasn't really something to google your eyes onto. The beginning of the movie was breath-taking. All the little details of the planet and the robots with the whole war going on, and the flying scene was awesome~ But that's all that was cool for the 3D part. Movie still good, just not really much 3D parts that stood up more then the movie itself.
Then we went home, but with pizza~ So we ate, blah blah, sleeeeeeep.
Thursday
This time, we set off to the pool.. D| I had to take off my shiiiirt. IT WAS TORTUUUURE. But refreshing~ c|
When we left, we stopped at Starbucks because I needed my Java chips. e3e I swear it's not an addiction.
Then slept for the last time together. .w.
Friday
Weeeeee had to find a way to get her back to LAX. So one way to do that was to get my sister to take us to Disneyland for the day, and when she head home, she'd drop Stef off and we'd head home. So that's what we did.
We rode a few rides, and I can safely say that with all my fears that makes me think how much of a wimp I am, I HAVE SOMETHING TO TEASE HER ABOUT. She hates...Rollercoasters... xD Now I can't handle loops or really big ones...But she can hardly handle Thunder Mountain, and I looove that ride. AAAAHAAAAAA- *Slapped*
Anyways, we hung out....Oh but a better surprise was that my real dad, my biological father, came for a visit.
Soooo I got to be with him for the time he was there, and was gonna have a great time~
...Till...I figured out hoooow much of an ass he can be. >-> ....Guess I shouldn't judge him too hard...Good guy...But god, he can say something unintentional that can hurt me or her in a way...Probably making it a bigger deal then it is, but guess it doesn't help that even he doesn't like the idea of me moving. Him and my sister pretty much nagged at me time and time again and blah, adding in even more weight then what I have on me already. >.o Blarg....Anyways, getting away from the stress talk. We enjoyed our last day together, sent her to LAX, and we had our fun together. .w.
Saturday
Well it was yesterday, so...Played Mass Effect 2 for a bit, did some lying around, and sorta did some things I wish I didn't. Those who knows, sorry again for worrying you all for that...Won't happen again.
And with that, nooow for the important part....
LIFE LESSON
-I suck at taking directions. After getting lost twice, this just goes to show that Point A would turn to Point 1, then to Point Alpha before I could even get one step close to Point B
-PEOPLE. REALLY LIKE TO TOUCH AND PLAY WITH MY HAIR. GAIES. C'MON, NAO. THAT'S LIKE MOLESTATION TO THE THIRD DEGREE.
-I can't bowl that well. =n= Wii Sports, yooooou didn't help with my training.
-I'm apparently the family jewel of the people around me...Or something...Really, they usually push the idea of me doing something with my life, and yet when I put my foot down, noooooow they're backing off and trying to talk my way out of it..... I don't get my family. D|
-I guess I dance out in public when I'm nervous, from what people have told. me. e3e Sooo I like Dance Central A BIT TOO MUCH...
-My life is a sitcom. I swear. Even when me and Stef were about to sleep for the night, we'd stay up for about another 2 hours, laughing our asses off because I can't keep my mouth shut and I'd feel like I'm on laughing gas. xD But dear god, it was awesome.
- Smirnoff ice, good. Champagne, good. Daiquiris. good. Rum, not my thing. Whisky is okies. Budweiser. FUUUUUUUCK YOOOOOOU.
For those who actually took their time to read the whoooole thing and not just skim it, thaaaank you for reading~
For those who didn't...Well you're probably not even going to read this, sooooo......ewe ...*SLAPPED*
x3x''' Okay okay, carry on with your lives. I just wasted about 20 minutes writing something most don't read. Though hope in some way you laughed at something. Good day to you all.
NOTE. YOU JUST MIGHT LEARN A LIFE LESSON AFTER READING ALL THIS
Saturday
"O BOI, THE DAY STEF COMES OVER. OMGOMGOMG, IT'S 1:20PM, I SHOULD LEAVE NOW FOR THAT 2 HOURS WALK." *Leaves the house*
So with that, I left the house to meet up with my friend at the metrolink. I printed out the direction Mapquest gave me to the address Stef gave me. So with that, I left the house around 1:20PM, about 2 hours of a walk would give me plenty of time to wait, maybe eat, and all that jazz, right?
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeell.... Let's just say...
Destination = Metrolink
Mapquest Destination ends up = A University
....Mapquest..I wasted 2 hours walking to meet up with Stef, not to apply to a college my parents wants me to go to. SO WITH THAT...I was...KINDA..SORTA.... >3>''' Loooost. Called stef, told me it was downtown, and that's when I went to the nearest bus station.
Worst part, well the closes bus station was the exact same bus I take to go to college. Even better, it goes to the Metrolink. Soooooo I walked for 2 hours for nothing but for my health.
FUCK YOU, MAPQUEST. Hoooooow daaaare yooooooou call me fat. e3e ...Or...SOMETHING.
So after meeting up with Stef after an hour of her waiting, about 5 PM, we met up...I dunno if she was thrill to see me, or she wanted to strangle me for waiting forever... |D But uh...I'm alive so...She couldn't be THAT angry, huh...?
Yes well, anyways, we went home, and we both agreed. I suck at taking directions and that I couldn't find my way out of a box even if there was two different opening. But still, she was with me, we settled in and slept.
Note to self. Never go to that university again. I swear I saw someone getting mugged in there.
Sunday
So we woke up and...well with my baaaaaad memory, I saw Stef and I didn't know it was her. I thought she was...I had no idea, some stranger or something....Buuut then my mind kicked in and said "HEY DUMBASS, IT'S YO FRIEND, FOO. WAKE THE HELL UP AND DROWN YOURSELF IN DR.PEPPER NAO. DOITDOITDOITDOITDOIT." And I was like "...OH HI STEF... @3@ ....Yeees, maaaasteeeeerrrrr *Goes to the kitchen and get the nutritious nectar I needed*" After we fully awaken, we went to the mall. <w> Nothing much, just bought myself some energy drinks and food, and she got some...Ahem....Alcohol. Got home, watched some movies, and played, ah, "Strip Poker". So here's what was going on
Me: 3 clothed items
Her: ....Prolly 10 or something.
Odds were against me. e3e BUT I HAD TO PULL THROUGH. The reward would be graaaand~
The results:
Me: 0
Her: Fully clothed and laughing at me with her FLAWLESS VICTORY.
Dude, I hate strip poker with all my heart now. D|
Monday
Woke up, tried to get myself into gear as per usual, did what I need to do around the house and went bowling.
OOOOOH THE STORY FOR THIS ONE. AHA. HA....haaaa...Ahhhh.....
So when I stepped out of the house...
"Of couuurse I know where it is! oUo I've seen it all the time down this road. Can't be THAT far. Let's goooooo! *And off we went*"
30 Minutes later...
"(...Wheeeeere the fuck are we going?)"
So..We were..KINDA SORTA LOST. AGAIN. >3>'''''''' This isn't going well on my side of her vacation.
Another 30 minutes later, and still no sign of the bowling ally. Was getting tired from walking for soooo ling. D|
AND YET ANOTHER THIRTY MINUTES LATER. We were getting restless, there was one last stoplight down the road, and if we didn't see it, then we would have turned back and guess our way back home.....But of couuuurse when we were juuust about to turn back, we suddenly see the bowling ally.... e3e 1.5 hours of a walk, ARE YOU SERIOUS....
|D'' Ah well, better to do some bowling then to walk aimlessly for awhile. So we bowled, had fun, got a few strikes, felt good. Dun like using bumpers though. >3> Happened for the first two games...But then we learned out to take it down. BY KICKING THE BUMPERS. ouo ...Goes to show violence is ALWAYS the answer.
Then we went home, broke out some alcohol, watch some movies, sleeeeeeep.
[bTuesday][/b]
....Lazy day. Stayed home for the most part, talked to a friend on skype, Dance Central, some Guitar Hero....Guess really the only thing that was interesting was that we started to sleep in the same bed. In my parents room. DEAR GOD, THAT ROOM WAS COMFY.
...In fact, I should be sleeping right now. IN THAT ROOM.
...I'll do that when I get home from college today. Meeeeh.
Wednesday
Went to the movies that day. Didn't know exactly what to see, but Transformers seemed like an alright choice. Though we sorta went in blindly without seeing the time. Saw one was about 40 minutes off, though it was the 3D show, so it was much more expensive then regular, but I say the movie was worth it.
Overall, the 3D in that movie wasn't really something to google your eyes onto. The beginning of the movie was breath-taking. All the little details of the planet and the robots with the whole war going on, and the flying scene was awesome~ But that's all that was cool for the 3D part. Movie still good, just not really much 3D parts that stood up more then the movie itself.
Then we went home, but with pizza~ So we ate, blah blah, sleeeeeeep.
Thursday
This time, we set off to the pool.. D| I had to take off my shiiiirt. IT WAS TORTUUUURE. But refreshing~ c|
When we left, we stopped at Starbucks because I needed my Java chips. e3e I swear it's not an addiction.
Then slept for the last time together. .w.
Friday
Weeeeee had to find a way to get her back to LAX. So one way to do that was to get my sister to take us to Disneyland for the day, and when she head home, she'd drop Stef off and we'd head home. So that's what we did.
We rode a few rides, and I can safely say that with all my fears that makes me think how much of a wimp I am, I HAVE SOMETHING TO TEASE HER ABOUT. She hates...Rollercoasters... xD Now I can't handle loops or really big ones...But she can hardly handle Thunder Mountain, and I looove that ride. AAAAHAAAAAA- *Slapped*
Anyways, we hung out....Oh but a better surprise was that my real dad, my biological father, came for a visit.
Soooo I got to be with him for the time he was there, and was gonna have a great time~
...Till...I figured out hoooow much of an ass he can be. >-> ....Guess I shouldn't judge him too hard...Good guy...But god, he can say something unintentional that can hurt me or her in a way...Probably making it a bigger deal then it is, but guess it doesn't help that even he doesn't like the idea of me moving. Him and my sister pretty much nagged at me time and time again and blah, adding in even more weight then what I have on me already. >.o Blarg....Anyways, getting away from the stress talk. We enjoyed our last day together, sent her to LAX, and we had our fun together. .w.
Saturday
Well it was yesterday, so...Played Mass Effect 2 for a bit, did some lying around, and sorta did some things I wish I didn't. Those who knows, sorry again for worrying you all for that...Won't happen again.
And with that, nooow for the important part....
LIFE LESSON
-I suck at taking directions. After getting lost twice, this just goes to show that Point A would turn to Point 1, then to Point Alpha before I could even get one step close to Point B
-PEOPLE. REALLY LIKE TO TOUCH AND PLAY WITH MY HAIR. GAIES. C'MON, NAO. THAT'S LIKE MOLESTATION TO THE THIRD DEGREE.
-I can't bowl that well. =n= Wii Sports, yooooou didn't help with my training.
-I'm apparently the family jewel of the people around me...Or something...Really, they usually push the idea of me doing something with my life, and yet when I put my foot down, noooooow they're backing off and trying to talk my way out of it..... I don't get my family. D|
-I guess I dance out in public when I'm nervous, from what people have told. me. e3e Sooo I like Dance Central A BIT TOO MUCH...
-My life is a sitcom. I swear. Even when me and Stef were about to sleep for the night, we'd stay up for about another 2 hours, laughing our asses off because I can't keep my mouth shut and I'd feel like I'm on laughing gas. xD But dear god, it was awesome.
- Smirnoff ice, good. Champagne, good. Daiquiris. good. Rum, not my thing. Whisky is okies. Budweiser. FUUUUUUUCK YOOOOOOU.
For those who actually took their time to read the whoooole thing and not just skim it, thaaaank you for reading~
For those who didn't...Well you're probably not even going to read this, sooooo......ewe ...*SLAPPED*
x3x''' Okay okay, carry on with your lives. I just wasted about 20 minutes writing something most don't read. Though hope in some way you laughed at something. Good day to you all.
