So I'm back from my eye doctor appointment. It seems I may be at risk of randomly losing a retina. Which is apparently permanent blindness of the eye. Boy being near-sighted sure comes with a freaky risk.

I'm starting to feel very self-conscious again, and fearing my own existence again. Maybe I just don't like summers anymore, maybe summers don't like me anymore. I may also just be getting old early.

Whatever, I'm getting depressed, and want to hang out with people more often. I never even met my girlfriend in person, and I don't want her to have to find out late that I may have died of despair and stress.

Another issue is I'm starting to have sensitive elbows again. I have an appointment to the doctor for this, but it's still over a month off. In the meantime, I'm just rocking my computer chair, watching videos to try to mask the pain, and I haven't been able to roleplay properly due to arm fatigue, do pixel art / read / watch movies due to eye fatigue, and I think I am not handling my social life properly, as I may have people complaining about me and my behavior in public. Right now if there's anything I want to do is sleep, but it won't make any of my problems better, it just masks them. I'm stressed, and nothing will help me for a long time.

My work program is over, I've tried to keep a temporary job for 5 months. I couldn't come half the time due to my stupid sleep schedule, and I won't be able to get support again until I can manage 20 hours a week.

All I want is to sleep forever, so I can have clear dreams and a sane mind. It's a shame half my dreams feature nightmare fuel from my past... x_x

Alternatively, I may pick up writing. I'll try to condense my stories once again so I can finally write them down properly and make them readable. The synopsis I wrote took me 3 hours to write, and takes a long time to read as well. Problem is, who'd read that shit.

Ever since I got Windows reinstalled, I try to connect to Skype, and for some reason, not a single one of my passwords work. YES, I tried resetting my password. The problem? It sends me to a screen telling me I have NO account. I've no idea what is wrong, and how to fix it!

--> Good, I found an alternative, and it fixed it. Yay!

I've been affected by accident, but now I can't seem to get rid of it.

One website asked me to delete it manually from my programs list with the add/remove programs function. Done.

They then asked me to remove it from my Firefox addons page. Done.

Now it asks me to remove it from my registry. There's no help on how to do that. Or what it is.

Can someone help guide me on here?

Today had more than 20 uploads, just so I could empty my uploads folder at last. It took about 2 weeks to completely upload this, isn't that amazing.

Now that I've done this, I got a ton of new watchers, and even some people asking me if I took commissions...

*sigh*

Anyway, now I shouldn't be flooding inboxes anymore, but at the same time, it might be some time before I start uploading again, since I am not a very productive person as a whole, especially in the furry art community. Is that a community? Whatever.

I'm done. If you like my characters, shout it out. If you want to get involved with some of them, get me on Skype. But for fuck's sake, explain yourself when you add me, or else I'm not gonna add you. Reason: Spambots.

I hope you're getting sick of me and my art by now. I'm done with the Vicks and Neru stuff, tomorrow will be the Dixie and Sparky beginning flood.

I have a LOT of pics... I prepped them up and am ready to start a massive upload. It could take a long time, but I don't know if people would be interested. There're pics of Vicks, Neru, Dixie, the Quetzen, Sparky, Dusters, and Faeberry.

https://www.dropbox.com/s/1c8ybbl1z.....tchen.JPG?dl=0

Caught this little fucker in my bedroom. Was making a racket in my kitchen, might have been for a long time.
It's 3 am, and I don't know what to do with this thing. Torture tools? The great evil winter outside? Feed it to lizards? The death penalty for not paying rent in my room can be severe. o.o

May be related to my bank account, but for some reason, the link that usually leads to adding funds to my paypal account just does nothing anymore. It just stays on the same page and nothing happens. What do? o.o

I've been thinking about Faeberry's development, my Sylveon character... I've had no problem giving no specifics to the Pokemon itself before the ultimate transformation, except for one detail: I don't know what gender Faeberry was before it became a herm. I'd like some input about that...

Same thing goes for Toffee Muffins. I stated a while ago that shi became a shemale due to an unfortunate smelting accident, in a magical chocolate faactory... But no details about the gender prior. Maybe some brainstorming would help? I'd like to go some ways with this! I might do the same for little Renee too.

Sanic confirmed for Brawl!

http://www.nintendoworldreport.com/.....ash-bros-brawl

you heard it here first!!

What the fuck is Patreon, why's every artist doing something to it, and why's it so important to give money to it? Can someone brief me on what it is?

There is no cable outlet in my room, nor is there a phone jack. I'm very limited in my internet choices, and I can not wait for my landlord any more. Also my hand keeps hurting again, and my elbows hurt. I'm sleepy, and tired. :< i'm having a bad time, and it's only more and more frustrating. How can I get anyone to come help me out? Someone needs to come help me, I may have even accidentally disabled my drivers... I'm not entirely sure, but maybe.

On the plus side, I made tons of spritework and will be uploading some tomorrow.

I didnt come online for 2 days and I got over a thousand images to cycle through, it took me an hour and a half to go through it all endlessly. This could've easily taken me all my net time, if I only had one hour. And the next day I'd have twice as much. Fuck, people. Fuck.

This calls for an artist purge. Those who don't interest me much will be removed and unwatched soon.

Also, I've been working on getting new internet at home., Once this is done, i'll upload my new spritework.

I'm still not sure about new character design ideas. Renee and Toffee Muffins.

Should Renee be a Renamon, or a Taomon?
Should Toffee be a Lopunny, or a permanent Mega Lopunny?

Not a big issue about Renee, but Toffee might need a new body design. I'd work it out and make a sexy reference.
Also NES style sprites. I'm gonna upload more.

I might extend the Eukaria canon, since I am using recurring characters to accompany Faeberry. Renee, Plague, Eukaria, and Toffee Muffins, who might have a mega evolution in the works. I hope I can cook up something good with that

F5 for new icon. Or something. If anyone has a better icon in mind for me, let me know, and try to contribute!!

Today I have an appointment at the hospital. On the way there, I'll make sure to know exactly what happens with my arms from now on. It's been 2 nightmarish weeks, and I still feel terrible, uncontrollable pains in my elbows and lower arms. Plus, my legs are killing me. Speaking of which, walking to the hospital ought to kill them again. Well, see you this evening.

I'll need surgery to my wrists! I might not make it back! Ever! But who's to care. I dunno when it'll happen, but I was also told I need to do arm stretches and exercises. NO I NEED FUCKING FOOD SO I CAN GET ELBOW FAT!

I haven't started yet, but I'm going to soon. I was wondering, as it will be a large story, I might need some help. Anyone want to help brainstorm a type of narration or something?

I'll be 30. Changes to my personal characters will be set in stone. I will also start drwaing again, although I have no scanner. I'd like some arts please. :)

So, back in 2000 I had my own personal characters and stories fleshed out, yadda yadda whee wee yay. Things went smooth until I joined the Furry Fandom in order to further write down one of my characters, to flesh him out.

Eventually, Vicks became my 'fursona'. People called me Vicks and I responded as the character. The problem however, is that Vicks was a story character, and was not a representation of how I would act to everything. It was an established character. Many people didn't like me because I acted in an antagonizing manner. It just wasn't me, and the character did not really embody me, but I started embodying the character. Not really how social life works.

Regardless of this, I had been mentioned briefly in my stories, as 'the master', the one entity no one ever saw, no one knew was the master, but WAS around looking and supervising them. This hinted that my fursona, or at least my avatar from the furry fandom, was no longer Vicks.

By 2006, in my stories, Vicks died. I made it clear he was not coming back... While the aftermath of his death was good and well written already, well... Shit. I had to keep all my account names and emails, named after him... This was kind of a blow, as he was now only a support character in my stories, one that eventually disappeared and lost most if not all his importance after a while. So by the end of 2006, I 'rerolled' a fursona. I already had avatar characters elsewhere, such as Victor and Blitzer in my Megaman fan stories, but those stories were also over, and the characters pending continuities. The reason I did not keep Vicks was that I was done using him at the time, and didn't want to keep making a new, changing personality for him, as he was already all written out.

So at the time, I was playing Pokemon Mystery Dungeon, yeah, the first one. And I thought, 'what if my fursona was not really what I WANTED, but more what I BECOME. I did not choose my gender at birth. Nor my birthplace, the year I was born, the color of my hair and skin, and the state of my mentality, my family members, my train of education, my social partners. Those were consequences of circumstances. So I literally took several franchises I liked. I rolled randomly. After a lot of random rolls and some sensical picking, I ended up with Murkrow. Hey, I should be a Murkrow. Why? Ask the one who gave life to me why he picked me the way I am.

And that's how I stopped caring about Vicks on a personal level, and focused on this new 'Duster' persona. At first, I wanted to keep that singularly for myself, and did not slip him into any stories, although I did have those fantasy stories where he had friends. I was still focusing my stories around Sparky, and Dixie, hinting that I was good enough to leave my Mary-Sue character behind and develop the story around his consequences, leading into a pair of separate stories, one with Sparky, one with Dixie.

Then one day, I was tired of this. the pressure was too much. EITHER I would squish the canons together, or I would just wipe out the Quetzen stories. I was THIS close to closing the Quetzens and giving them a terminal story. Then I saw some inspirational content that made me want to continue them. So I made a third and final chapter to the Dixie story. This is also the one and ONLY time my fursona Duster appeared in any of my stories. Still referred to as the Master, the plot was about me killing off the Quetzen, when Sparky's canon merged in and foiled my plans, giving a complete new chance for the Quetzen to go their own way. After promising to leave them the way they are and let them evolve 'on their own', I led to a massive purge among the race, and I concluded the Story, only using my Quetzens in spinoffs and crossovers. (Until I decided they were all canon and put a finale chapter trilogy to completely conclude the story, but that was years later)



TL;DR
I made my first fursona in 2012. 7 years later I changed the sotries along with my social life. It's been another 7 years and I feel I seriously need it again.

The good stuff now:

I'm changing my fursona again. This time, it is NOT:
1- Something everyone seems to like, that would look awesome, that would embody my desires and fantasies.
2- Something random that just excrete consequences.
3- Something designed just to satisfy everyone I meet.

I have an idea! I'll ask you guys what I should change about some of my current characters!

I'm done with that selfish, personal approach to my characters. That huge story of mine? It's never been written. It's still in MY head, and I'm the only one who changes it. And Duster fell right into what happened to Vicks: He developed a tumor-like storyline that just grew around him, made him friends and enemies, and led to his death. And twice, at that. So I've decided that my 'fursona' would change depending on what story I put it in. In a sense, this means I'll have several 'species', as differnet fandoms and franchises will have different representations of characters. (e.g. I'm not gonna be a pokemon if I'm in the Warcraft fanbase) On the otehr hand, I'll put some suggestions to it, and come my birthday next month, I'd like to see if people would like to see some changes done to my characters (Assuming you know them, or have interacted with them) whether they are from my Vicks stories, or my Duster stories.

Planned changes:

Vicks Story:

- Solidify and simplify the realm around which the events happen (changed from real life Earth but with Furries in one time period)
- write a complete timeline of every event and fork out all the side stories and spinoffs / crossovers
- Main character graphical design changes for the following: Vicks, Neru, Dante, Zelda, Katrina, Sparky, Sonja and Sabrina, Mercy.
- Purge useless stories and summarize them into subplots (Bye bye Nazi partnerships with the Quetzens) along with others.
- Get fresh new ref sheets, and write several chapters. Several of the story arcs are written like video games, I shall script them. A few of them are written like an anime series, I shall write the episode synopsis down.


Duster Story:

- Add protagonists. That story has way more potential than it looks (Was akin to 'antagonists: The Sitcom')
- Write a timeline again. Make sure to polish it and solidify it.
- Solidify character stories, intertwine related characters together.
- Main characters graphical changes for the following: Fraise Carrigan, Duster, Eukaria, Renee, Toffee Muffins, Calbert, Plague, Sludge
- Get ref sheets, script the story, and continue it. It has potential, but isn't fleshed out. So I guess fleshing out is an idea too.


So far, this is what I need input for. I'm changing many of my characters, and need some suggestions for some of them.

Vicks - Add actual anatomy to him. He's just a pair of legs and arms strapped to what looks like a snake.
Neru - Add clothes and a better face. Shi doesn't even LOOK like a dragon.
Dante - Redesign his face and outfit. He looks badass already. Let's make him even more badass.
Zelda - Same as Vicks and Dante. Add clothes, an anatomy, and more badass.
Katrina - Gender and species still intermixed and fucked up. Come up with a nice species design to match her sea pirate theme.
Sparky - Add 10 years to her life. What changed for her, physically and mentally?
Sonja and Sabrina - Those have been protagonists, antagonists, support characters, and sidekicks. Their designs could use some spice, too.
Mercy - Not much is said about this guy. He's a big, buff lizard man with two hydraulic piston-like robot arms.
Fraise Carrigan - She only appeared ONCE in the story she's from. I plan to use her more. She's a Kangolat. I'm too lazy right now to link to it, but they're colorless glowy creatures.
Duster - He's an already well established guy. He's had his days. I'm entirely removing him. IF YOU can give me a reason to keep him in, I'll keep him. It BETTER be a good one.
Eukaria - Giving it more mobility, at long last. It will be able to walk around and not need an avatar anymore.
Renee - No longer fat, no longer bootleg. Will be a real renamon.
Toffee Muffins - Fuck that caramel bullshit.
Calbert - No longer a Wormmon, will remain as a Stingmon.
Plague - Already well designed, some of the mushrooms will disappear. Hir hair will be different too. Dress code as well, maybe.
Sludge - Not a big titted bimbo crux anymore. She'll be more up and about after the story events related to Eukaria and the tragedy involving Renee's death in one of her stories.

New fursona... What would you suggest? So far, I think I want to try a Sylveon. Although, this seems to be favoritism towards Pokemon. I'm not even a hardcore Pokemon fan. Even in-character, Renee is not at all into Digimon, and likes Pokemon more.


Once everyone is done with suggestions, I will try to adapt to it all. I will undergo those changes on my 30th birthday next month. Thanks in advance! (Not that I expect many people to read this or comment)

So yesterday I spilled coffee over my keyboard (Cause I was being a dumb fuck) and usually, nothing happens. But this time, it screwed my keyboard bad.

It had gone onto the circuit cards inside and stuck some keys together. For a while, a ctrl key was jammed and never let itself go. I had to wipe it all clean, open the keyboard, and scrub those circuits clean, and now it works.


For how long, well I think that's another story...

Press Ctrl, volume is muted. Press Alt, it goes on standby. Reinstalled drivers, now it acts as if ctrl was always being held down.

In other words, I can't do ANYTHING, so, posting from my DS. Help!

I got it gifted to me, and no matter what I try, either the game crashes, does not play right, or has a horrid slow gameplay with little to no framerate.

Every guide asking how to fix it has failed to deliver half a smile of satisfaction to me, and as time goes, people just love the game more and more, and keep trying to motivate me to play it with them.

I'm very upset. My pc sucks. But who cares.

By my friend

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5270791/

I've spent the last 20 years thinking up a massive story. Over the last 5 years though, I've perfected and completed that story, and came with the idea for a game. I'm not gonna spill any details about it, but...

I can't program. Code. Get any game work done. I can't make a game, or any aspects of it. I can come up with the story and concept for it, but that's literally it.

And if I give someone esle the idea they're gonna take that idea and claim it as their own. They'll make it their own way, and I won't get a sliver of credit for it. So I'm not spilling any details about it.

Yeah, I can hear you programmers curse under your breaths, I can see your silly schemes, and I hold onto my ideas. But I need to get this game done. If there's one game I'd love to put my hands on, it would be that game I have in mind. How do I get around to programming a game? Flash, java, anything? Is there anyone who CAN help me with this? I really need it out of my system, I need it to!