Ey, I just turned 29. Macrofur brain says 29! is my base size now, deal with it.


Just a couple months ago I made 4 years from starting at my job and it's been a journey (derogatory). I've learned a lot, I can deal better some anxieties and I got diagnosed with ADHD and chronic depression, so I have meds and don't wanna jump off the window as often, yippee.
I've remained living with my parents and honestly I just wanna bounce. At some point I gotta choose between moving out, changing jobs, both, I'll figure it out.

Why the depressing topics? Honestly I'm constantly overworked and that's made my art drive go down and just entirely go dry as time's gone on. It sucks ngl. I get -some- creative endeavor by making ideas of characters (ttrpgs mostly), the odd minecraft build, some painting really occasionally. It feels stupid how I got a slightly less busy period at work as to go sign up at the gym for it to ramp back up as usual, love it.

Anyways, I'm 29, I find more grey hair every day under my giant pandemic-ass ponytail and I have drawn maybe 2 things all year. I might post my commissions I've gotten here and the lewds on my alt or maybe do all my comm'd art in the alt indistinctly and try to put order to my gallery.

How's everyone?

it's a pain tbh, it's all over the place
I do a number of pics not sketched by me, there's a few all from myself, there's commissions I get
it feels really disconnected. I dunno what to do about it
there's also all the backlog too

anyways happy new year

I hate having a backlog, I keep not knowing what I've posted before despite having a tab with my gallery open and I keep posting duplicates. I hate this

I wanna post my recent arts* and commissions I've gotten but it's a wall and I also am discouraged from not wanting to accidentally double post. Yes, FA posting is much faster these days but it is still a chore to my brain and that means not wanting to do it. Work has been slower on recent months so I am not as burnt out on life anymore. I turned 26 a couple months ago and realized that my fursona is like 10.

Anyways I feel less gripe to posting my commissions now but I still don't know if you folks reading or watching me only wanna see my art or my characters regardless of who did the lines.

*recent as scarce as they are


Commissions:
No

I owe some stuff such as a trade involving many stickers with a character I find hard to draw, so I must do a lot of studies already. This also feels like a chore.

Stuff I am aware of owing:
Lineart for Irvine
A comic trade with Alkali that he told me it's fine but that I'd still like to see done someday
[Brain buzz here]

If I owe you something, especially if paid, tell me here to try to discipline myself to draw more already

Cheers

Wheee. Been on it for a month, spent a long time looking. Most of it has been self study and courses for certifications which means I do way too many hours stuudying and feel I have less happiness that in college.

Maybe it will feel better once I'm done with those exams.

Anyways, comms be slow. Slower, even. I have a Trello, yes it's in Spanish. https://trello.com/b/yHgF7pyD/comisiones-victni

I finally began doing my comics and have done a grand total of five pages. I want to make a few more before uploading any.


this looks rather yearly doesn't it? I'll be 25 in a few weeks.

How do I only write two of these a year?

I'm 24 now, and it's been a nice day.

The last couple weeks I've been working somewhat harder on comissions and my friends' kindness has been very well received, I'm thankful that doing some art work for them I've managed to get some money. I know I shouldn't be trigger-happy to spend, but I felt like it was a good idea to get myself something, as I've been taking art a bit more seriously as of late.

It's been one ride of a year. I had an internship at a company for my last school semester, the pandemic struck, so I had to work on it for a couple months from home with a family that did not quite take it seriously and a mentality that didn't either. I'm partially surprised that I did not fail any of my last classes, so I did it, I finished college back in may. I'm an engineer now, yay. I haven't graduated yet which sucks, but that's done.

I ended up rejecting the offer to keep working at the internship's company over how little seriousness I'd been giving it, so I know it wouldn't have worked as a full time job. It wasn't bad, if a bit dull, but I learned a lot and I'm thankful for my time in it. The next challenge has been.. time. I've told myself not to look for a job with some excuses: finish that last college project of the website you were coding, you don't want your parents to get sick, you don't know how to drive.

I guess I?m working on it now. I felt in a slump during june, july, but life isn't as sucky for now, I suppose. I know I cannot burn time all freely and that as much as it looks like I've gotten a decent earning, I have yet to do more. I'm telling myself that I am not too worthless, that I finished a career for a reason, and to just go out there and look for something. I still have the dream of working abroad, get good earnings, enjoy life a little, maybe even do something to improve my ocuntry sometime, that's nice.

I've had lots in mind. Lots. The last couple years I've had some terrible slumps during my birthdays with self-worth issues, but thankfully I took it slow this year, and it was a nice, relaxing day. That's mostly what I look for life, just something quiet with friends and family.

I got a lot of relatives today sending me videomessages to ocngratulate me, I felt extremely awkward about it, as I see most of them yearly at best, but it's some nice gesture, so in the end I'm thankful. And I'm thankful for the congratulations friends online gave me too. It feels nice to be appreciated. I think I spent most of my energy for the day as I am writing this, since I'm not feeling all too positive this moment, but it was still a nice day.

Anyways, I am trying. I'm working backlogged pictures, comissions and hopefully I'll finally get a driver's license sooner than later. I dunno, small steps?

It will be okay.

Hi, I'm alive

I'm in my last college semester and working an internship. The schedule kinda sucks but I have fridays off. Life's been a roller coaster.
I look back 10 years and think it's hillairous how many facades fall and how broken people are. Who teaches us to live, right?

Anyways, my art drive's returning lately, so I've been drawing personal works again. I wanna organize my gallery better. Started making references, might finally tart making my comics.
It's been so long I had the idea that my simple humour from back then is sort of lost, so I look at some old art to see what's good to be redone and what should stay packed forever.

I'm not sure what directionI want with my characters. I've commited to a new reference sheet already but in the end, I don't know. I frankly doubt my fursona is all that important.

Anyways, these days I'm still focusing somewhat on finishing old art before work and finish sketches I've liked in my free time. Been still taking comissions for inks and colors from other folks, so ask if you're interested I guess.

I may edit this to write down my queue.

Yesterday. I had a pretty good time with food and whatnot. Got a couple pics and a nice number of congratulations. I feel warm, even if tired.
Thanks for reading :)

Hey, I feel better since the last journal.
In the end, I didn't clean my room at all, but I cleaned off the gunk from some kitchen laps. It's something, I guess. I started classes last week. Got 5 subjects, early in the day once again. So far they all have their share of interesting topics, but it's been a lot of reading, readjusting to getting up at 6 is annoying with how I don't get sleepy before midnight lol.

As for my arts, I'm still a procrastinator, so homework has kicked my butt a bit, since I still waste time in social media or livestreams, as well as me having some extra things like viits at home or whatnot. Thankfully, my family manages some of the things like my pets, so I'm more happy to work on that when it happens, since it feels like less of a burnt time. Sooo queue has been slow, as I've barely drawn.

I did get artistic drawing as a class, so that's a hype! I've finished a couple old pics as well so that's good.

How are y'all?


queue:
alkali - overdue af trade in progress
princebun - repaying
hegons - repaying
azure - fun idea
fory - linearts
tech - linearts
dialuca - bust

if im missing someone in my queue, message me up

Big wall of text of my state of mind.

Months have come and gone and my social moods have as well. Sometimes I've tried to reconnect with a few folks and the next I'm isolating myself again. I'm not feeling the best.

The year has been interesting. Around february, the domestic employee my family had hired for over 10 years had to leave and since it has been difficult, to say the least. It's pathetic, but I felt exhausted only from cleaning the dogs' and guinea pigs' pens every day, sweeping and dusting parts of the house and having to help cook. It' sbasic. It's ridiculous, but I had not been used to barely any of it throughout many years. As months have gone by, I have made myself the idea and routine as to do it everyday and to appreciate time better, but it's difficult. Very difficult.

I'm more willing to help in things around the house. I'm aware they have to be done. I cannot help to get frustrated or even angry when I see how nonchalantly the rest of my family sometimes do not do as many tasks as I get myself doing, but I feel hypocritical at myself for it a lot. I'm aware of how hard my father works, I'm aware mom keeps looking for jobs and works and how hard it hits her. I'm aware my sister tries to gather experience in making plushies to start getting money from it, but I feel left out in having to do so many things where I could be indeed helping out with art comissions. I know it isn't the case and I try to tell myself that it is not unfair, it just is.

My grades went bad this last semester as I almost did not pass a course. On one side, the amount of content felt overwhelming. I had a hard time navigating through all the files and concepts introduced to the course during the second half of the semester in web Development and I basically only passed due to my final project teammate working on it -job- and knowing how do do it. I barely made the final passing grade thanks to the professor's consideration due to how I did on the exams, and I jonestly did not put enough effort to the class form that same lack of time from the extra work at home.

I've barely done any arts from myself this year. My folder has mostly colorworks to other artists' sketches. The little pics I make are mostly refinements of older pictures that I like. I'm aware my art is better than before, but I've had a hard time wanting to sketch digitally at all. Traditional has been a good return, but I don't do it enough. It's been good to retake it for doodles in paper and it helped me to ease my mind, but I feel my creativity pales out compared to prior years.

I felt supremely anxious at times during the semester, but I have been getting better. The summer period had a rough class that I did not have an easy time as I thought I would. The class was from 16:00 to 20:00 three days a week, and due to my terrible sleep habits, I would wake very late, spend a long time in the daily duties, do the bare minimum as to my project duties whilst it. I would return very late home, annoyed and frustrated, not wanting to know anything from school, and thus losing time in gaming or art. I don't know if I should have passed as I did, in all honesty. I got a big fat eight as a final grade and I don't even know if I deserve it.

As of now, I have been in vacation for a week. I'll resume classes for the regular semester in several weeks and I have time for myself. Cool. Except I'm not feeling the best.

Recently, out of my complaints, both mom and my sister moved a bunch of stuff we have under the stairs to help make me more space for my drumset, as it's always tight. It feels good to practice again after leaving it for so long. As of the house, I've been cleaning and doing other things. Just today though, my mind has been rather struck. We have piles of things that get to the ceiling in many shelves and bookshelves in rooms and aisles. My father scale models to make to a point it feels compulsory. Mom has a terrible habit of piling and saving things from the past from both attachment and possibility of use that both my sister and I have inherited.

Just today, dusting off my room, I started getting anxious looking at -everything-. What do I even use of this? I can name a few things that I honestly appreciate form my room, yet so many are there simple -stored- because of lack of space in other places. The airplane models aren't mine. The submarine models dad bought for me -as I said I prefer ships and he just took that as a sign to buy a bunch of things- are all over my desk. There are piles of VHS tapes, both movies and completely virgin ones that reach to my ceiling. I have so many books from when I was a child. Toys. Plushies. Papers. Machines under my bed. I'm cramped up in stuff and I'm not okay.

How do I even get rid of this? I feel it wrong to only trash them. I want to go out and try a garage sale, but who would even buy them? How do oI detatch from stuff that feels more like scenery than stuff, even?

Two years ago, I wanted to rid myself of old clothes. I felt the same way. I snapped pictures of the old shirts and whatnot and stored them in a folder in the computer. "Photographs I'm aware I'll never look at again". It felt stupid, but it let me let go. Now it's a bunch of wasted space in my drive, but how do I dare delete it? Is it even worth to? What's right to keep? What hinders me? I gave those clothes to that same domestic employee, but she never took them. They have been bagged and folded in the laundry for two years, as well.

I don't know what to do. I left my room from the building anxiety to come type all this. It's only a shout to the void. Maybe I'll think and come up with something. I just need to look away at something else and distract myself from these thoughts for some time. Maybe tomorrow I can figure it.

Anyways, if you got here, thanks for your time.


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Queue:
2x inks
overdue colors
- I owe him payment for being in a pic
- same as above
finishing my part of an art trade
same as above

I'll prolly update my price sheet soon if I dare work my stuff

9 / 9th, I love the number. I'm 22 as of now, nifty.

I'm crrently taking a painting class so I might dare to do backgrounds in the future and my art block might be ending. We'll see what goes.
I'm apparently better at linearting now, as it's what I've been mostly doing, it's a pleasent surprise over how slow I consider it.

As in other news , I've been getting more characters, and have been thinking of making a monkey fursona. We'll see what happens.

Had a long semester with many ups and downs. I did badly in a class and my mood dampened badly for weeks, but in hte end I ´referred to drop it and focus on the rest. I had a nice relaxing time last week and just began the summer ocurse with that same dropped class. It's a bit of a shame with how costly it is but I feel more relaxed now. Gotta focus to not let it down again.

Art wise, I feel I've improved due to taking a human figure drawing class, it was really nice and I worked traditionally again for months. I still plan on do arts on the side and have a few ongoing projects.

I need to catch up pn stuff I haven't yet posted but I might do so soon. Lately I've mostly been linearting and or coloring some sketches done by other artists rather than doing my personal works, I feel I've gotten faster from it.

Lastly, I intend ot set up a trello board and keep more order with my comissions and rades, got a few I still have to finish and might actually have the time for now. Will mention any updates. Thanks for reading :)

Hey y'all,

I've been in break since early december and it's greatly helped me calm down.
My sleep schedule has worsened, I drink less water, and I still do no exercize, but it's been good. I worked on some parts of my queue, so that's something.

I've been making a new ref for my main character and completed some pending stuff I had, aside of playing al ot of assassin's creed 4 and league of legends.

Anyways, I won't be around so I can't write it on the date: merry Christmas :)

Ey, I turned 21 this past saturday.
Went to the movies, got some cd's, had sushi at a restaurant. We went to the theater the day before to watch the state's orchestra play music themes. It was a fantastic set of experiences :)

Also, I'm being slower with arts due to schol. I hope not to cause inconveniences.

As written here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24269677/ , I'll take a few paid drawings , since I need to save up for some stuff.

If interested, don't be shy about sending me a note or an IM message.

SFW stuff, I charge the price of the sketch after it's done. In case you want osmetihng past a sketch, I can work after the payment is received. I'll work on the rest of the pic, and receive the rest of the price afterwards.

I'm a patient guy, but don't overdo it.

Queue:
1. done
2. done
3. done
4. 2 pics done
5. done

It's been 6 months and Im bumping the last journal. I'ts summer period as well, so I might have have some time for arts, I hope.

So, why did you lot follow me?

Hey folks, I said I'd open and now's the time. There's personal arts I wanna make but I also wanna give you peeps the chance to draw your ideas and such.

So, 5 slots for now. I'll work at a decent pace, but bear with me, first time I'm doing this openly.


Digital art:

- Sketches: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22044760/
$5-15 depending on the idea.

- Dark sketching: https://www.dropbox.com/s/lxlzo629h.....f/ex1.PNG?dl=0
$10-15. Not the best quality, but it's faster and allows me to color.

- Dark sketch with colors: https://www.dropbox.com/s/wwa40iwqf.....blarg.png?dl=0
$20 // full body. I don't have examples, but wanted to clear it.

- Inks: https://www.dropbox.com/s/5guh2eyac.....0/ex2.PNG?dl=0
$20 n' up. Can vary depending on character complexity.

- Flat colors: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22045499/
$25. I can slap a simple background or transparency. Both are as fun.

- Colored lines: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22044856/
$30. Only through for inks

- Complex background: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21623570/
+ $10-15. This can take a while. a long one. Background gets inked.

- Shading: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20051177/ - mature for slight gore
+ $5. It's not something I practice often, so I'd prefer skipping this.

Overall, a single character pic could go up to $55-60 dollars if you want something super complex with shades and colored lines. All for this is single character.
Another character is to be discussed, but would up the price some $10 past sketches.


Traditional arts
Buy these. These are fun. Probably won't offer plain sketches since they're almost invisible.

- Ink: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18728536/
$10
- Colored: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19303313/
$15-20
- Complex backgrounds: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19303282/
$25-30
More characters +$5 each, depending on the idea.

Well, that's it for now. Send me a note or a private message either in discord, telegram, twitter. Think well what you want, use my gallery and stuff I've shown before as guidelines to what I'll draw.

I'm not fond of experimenting in stuff I owe others, so please don't take me out of my usual zone. This applies for themes as well.

I'll sketch your idea and go back at you. I'll do some small corrections, but if nothing comes up I'll be open for discussion.

I prefer payments after the sketch is done (for the work done) and at the end.
My bank account is having issues, so I won't be able to pay refunds until further notice, keep that in mind.

I may or not upload your comission.

List:
1. - Colored. Pending colored lines and shades.
2. - Posted.
3. - Pending.
4. - Posted
5. - To be defined
6.

Couple weeks left for the semester to finish. I wanna ditch stuff and draw. I don't wanna draw and feel like I need to sleep. I don't wanna sleep since I got things to do. Fun.

In any case, I gotta delete my notifications here sometime as the pile just grows more and more and makes me wanna not do anything about it altogether.

Anyways, thanks for recent watches and faves, I appreciate it. I wanna be known as a toon artist but apparently I've drawn too many macros and paws. Figures.

Hey peeps,

so, after two months of having only one class, which seriously felt like vacations, and and 3 weeks after I fnished said class where I was sent off the city to help repair part of a house my parents own, I return.

Classes began this week, to my demise, as I couldn't rest as much as I would have liked. This of course means I'll be lazier towards art because of having some less free time. I do hope making more than last time, though, but we'll see.

I'm still srta spiteful of those weeks offline, since I really wanted to try my hand at comissions to see if I could do it. Gonna have to be another time.

So, I'm having a summer class for a few more weeks before being fully free for summer break. Essentially, I have a lot of free time. Soooo, wanna trade, anyone?

If the answer is yes, Imma check your art and tell you if I accept.~

And clear my notifications somehow
but that wont happen

SO MANY AWESOEM ARTISTS AAAAAAIEURJTKLG.FBV

I got 41k submisisons =w=

I got a lot of sketches buuuut they're hard to see because they're on pencil. Shucks

I wont spam I guess, so if anyone wants to see most of my doodles, tumblr is the place

doodlesmonthly.tumblr.com

I've been making some miscellaneous sketches recently. Should I upload any?

Youve been warned

Might scrap some sometime. or make folders, idc

Sooo, 9/9th was my birthday. I had a great time and doodles lots of things for other people and a couple for myself!

I'll be ulpoading stuff this weekend, name it sketches aaaand I got tons of cake. It's a beauty!