I am nearing the end of my rope. I've had to pay for things more than what I earn. my job at panda express has only allowed me to work one day a week currently, I feel my manager is trying to get rid of me. my gf's expensive taste's has put a great toll on me. she pitch's in every here and there but I know she wants to give up on me, saying rude things to me such as "your holding me back" and she won't talk to my family, practically alienated them even though my sister got her Christmas gifts and recently tickets for me and her to go see Jeff Dunham "still not canceled". I've done everything I can for her. Worked at a fast food job with a bachelor's degree in corporates communication, I was only hired because of my height. I've neglected myself greatly by putting my dreams on hold, dreams I may never get to achieve, yet she as achieved hers greatly with getting a promotion for a salary raise and wants me to still pay half, while I have struggled to get an entry level job with no experience, but company's nowadays want someone with a master's degree for below what they worked so hard to earn their diploma.

I occasionally remind her I am struggling greatly now that my money is getting lower than what I was hoping it would be. lyft has helped me keep afloat, but my expense's have not helped. I think if/when we break up I might as well go crash at my mom's place, my older brother has to do the same because he went through something similar but he went through hell last year when some jack ass started a fire and caused a small explosion. My brother's studio didn't catch on fire e but there are cracks in the foundation making it unstable. along with is blood clot and shocks that caused him to stay in the hospital through thanksgiving. His studio is blue dog ceramic studio ( based off our favorite blue healer that passed away a long time ago but meant a lot to him and me.
https://www.click2houston.com/news/.....ys-after-fire/

He is living with my mom after his ex refused to help him recover because she didn't want to care for him nor cook soup or anything of the matter, after getting a pace maker when he was dead to the world for 15 min's.

If things don't work out I may have to live with my mom to restart my life or find friends who can take me in till I get my feet back on.


I've struggled greatly getting another job. I have experience helping my mom flip a house my grandma left to rent it. I've tried greatly to do lyft but gas expense's have not been kind to me. I would/could have gone to college again but I feared I would be in the same situation only with less income for another piece of paper that won't do anything for me.

I have been with my gf for 8 yrs, supported her for 3 by keeping a shitty fast food job just to support her, dealt with shitty managers here and there. I ask for so little, all I ask for her is to watch movies and shows with me, play video games like we used to, and please just talk to my mom about your frustrations with her, she doesn't know what she did, she has asked me what did I do to your gf to make her so mad at me. Now I feel she will end up like those women that demand so much for a house, wants kids, just to dump me, claim false accusations against me for the icing on top.

I am more tired these day's but I can rarely sleep, I am only in peace when I am asleep. I try to apply, create tailored resume's to stand out more, job boards and websites lately seem to be scam artist that want your money's without offering anything in return

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10317793/


a while back I got her honey bun for a good deal then tweaked holly gradually. the best thing I have come to terms with plain looking adopts is you can adjust them and I am glad I got the honey one

I don't know anything about this person but I greatly understand when money is tight and you have to wait for pay day and scrap by


https://www.gofundme.com/f/medical-.....pd+share-sheet

So today is my birthday I'm turning 31. I've learned a lot about myself recently and I found out I have trouble opening up and I apparently put walls around myself sometimes even those close to me.

My dad passed away last year October 7th 2020 I've had to celebrate my first Halloween Thanksgiving and Christmas without him, now I will be celebrating my birthday without him.

Despite some headaches he's giving me in the past he's done a lot for me and I wouldn't trade him for any other dad in the world. I still miss him. I'm writing this year because I can't seem to tell others on other Discord chat rooms about my struggles and my loss.

This year I'm going to work on opening up more to others that I am close to and semi close to.

I hope everyone's year in 2021 is going better than last year

Heyo, so I've recently finally got into drawing. Im currently using sonar pen and a drawing software called ibispaint x pro and Im slowly getting the hand of it. There's still a few things I need to learn, if you or anyone has a sketch they would like colored fill free to send them to me. Im not best and there's a lot I need to learn such as god rays, glow effects etc

So I'm considering giving other artists Who I don't normally commission this year. If you or someone you know is interested let me know, I can't commission everyone and they have to be reliable I'm currently waiting for some artist's to get back to me on the mones I've sent.

Things I'm not a fan of is gore, scat/diapers and digestion vore

Everything else depends

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/10237669/

https://www.google.com/search?q=orc.....PvGLEQ&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwj_rJSF4_znAhVSRKwKHVtOBqYQ9QEwA3oECAoQGA#imgrc=csf4h35weKuNmM:


https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29096357/
the gold/yellow stripes and highlights would be a nice design

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/12423234/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/986913/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/8620019/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31045014/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/12538571/

I think I have enough refs. look over for final commish with rampant
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34928312/

The tail is a must that needs to be looked at

Look into white patterns with the gold trim

Hey , so I would like to see about getting my sona tweaked as much as possible. The first image from naughtymorg was okay there's a few things I would like to improve on.

if you or know anyone who is good at drawing orca's let me know so I can finnaly get this guy ready

Hey, so to all the people, friends etc. I lost access to my discord because my phone's screen got messed up and I lost stuff. So I've decided to create a temporary new discord user.

My new discord user is ViewtifulDRoy #9335. I'll keep this for now. I'll try to get back with my friends and groups from discord.

So I recently got Sea of thieves on windows because it was on sale and it is far better than steam's Shudder black wake. I have had a few good players but I wouldn't mind having more friends, or at least decent friends. I especially would like to have actual people friends on steam. Lately I have received friend request's from bots begging me to trade and Other people asking me to broadcast their gambling sites. Long story short that's all I will do for now. So if anyone wants an actual human being on steam or Microsoft windows

my steam tag is Viewtiful D. Roy WIth Prime soundwave as a profile icon

my xbox console companion is Viewtiful D Roy minus the Dot.

I don't know if xbox one users can add me, If you can that's awesome.

I wish I could join others on discord but sadly, I need to get my phone repaired in order to access it again but again long story short I had a 2 step access on my phone and I can't login in. Next time I am getting rid of that 2 step access

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9190824/

I don't know much about the guy or anything at all but I do have a sister who's going through a divorce unfortunately I can't donate as much so if anyone has spare change or spread the word to help this guy and his father out do what you can I'll put a link down below

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9179115/

xaxoqual is selling some characters, if your interested ask who they are selling and how much

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/xaxoqual/

Since I haven't done these journals and a very very very long time oh, I figured I might as well put my thoughts down here and just get him out of my head.

So I may be new to this but I'm pretty sure a lot of you know why artists do this to their account. I know it's not a new topic but I am curious why artist decide to disable, deactivate, or just flat out get rid of their accounts. For example this artist / commissioner deactivated their account. There are some other people I have watched that are deactivating or disabling their account and I don't understand why they would do this.

I'm no artist like everyone else I'm not experienced enough with drawing on paint tool Sai mostly a Sketcher.

If anyone's reading this can you give me a clear understanding why people do this to their accounts some of them I have seen have great details and Design like http://www.furaffinity.net/user/blaqink/ who had really good talent but decided to deactivate their account and sell their characters. ( kind of regretting I didn't get the chance to get Porsche lemon ). So why would you do this? I'm not complaining I'm not being nosey I'm just curious.

( I'll probably created another Journal either today or this week in regards to something else)

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8821906/
This artist is having a hard time and could use some love and support, his art style is unique and wonderful. He has been drawing since 2005 and has cool art. Lots of gorgeous beautiful women and has a great multi verses with magic, sci fi and more. He is not bound by traditional or digital, he can do it all.

If anyone has time to give this artist some support they would appreciate it
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/jay.....torburudragon/

I just go a nicer new tablet and I was wondering if anyone could recomend a great software. I know that Paint tool sai is good but I hear manga studio ex5 is good. Can anyone bring me some clarity?

I am using a sketch from one of my favorite artist Iorn-oxide, he has made a few lady bow pics with massive and beautiful melons. One in particular caught my eye and I thought to my self I am gonna add color to that. I am using draw serif X5 it's been okay at some time but other times it falls apart and I have to recover my last save. I honestly have to say I am doing pretty good so far. This is all me using a mouse, I could use a draw tablet but the one I have is not that great. I will submit it with blending shading and 100% approved by me.


If you have read this far I appreciate it, I had a lot of fun siiting at my laptop and just adding color to this beautiful art work.