Yeah.. I've hit the height of depression. I don't know how I am functioning right now. I didn't sleep at all really.

I don't have many people on line I consider friends. Much less Friends in RL.

I like to share things with my friends, be it games, groups of people on said games, and so on.

What I don't like is when I show it to them, I'm left in the dust. It's painful to me. To top everything and all of this off, it's getting harder and harder for me to ~make~ friends in RL and online.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

Crossposted from: http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/.....0/recommended/


Okay, after spending about three hours on this infernal game. I have to say. This game is a masterpeice of brutal violence. The timing can be a little iffy but after about the 3rd or 4th chapter of the game, natural reflex and the margin of error that they allow makes the brutality seamless. Transition from close range to long range and vice versa is flawless. You can literally hack an ork's head off, and then blast his buddy right in the face in the next moment. The story is quite in depth, and the characters are fairly rich... for a space marine. This is definately a try and then buy, the demo sums up the gameplay pretty quickly.

Do it. It's worth the 50 bucks.

So.

Chuck Norris once got his ass kicked so hard by Bruce Lee in 1972's Way of the dragon, that he was undefeated.

I'm considering saying fuck it to everything. So tired of everything not working out.. so tired of it..

I'm on the verge of tears.

Those of you on tapestries, who watch me here, and also know me on there.

I idle.. alot. It's nothing against you, I'm not ignoring you. If you start paging me with something along the lines that it seems like I am ignoring you. You can seriously fuck off, I'm tired of that shit. -.-

Commission! I would like to have a commission of one of my characters done. Note me if your interested, or you know someone who would be.

Of all the stuff that I do on vacation I think I hit the all time most badass a few days ago.

I had got it in my head to go Pub crawling with a cousin of mine and some of his friends, here I am: Silly american having no idea show up.

First we go to the store and buy beer, then we wander around a 2000 year old city at night, and then we hit like 5 bars, and somehow I got back home. AWSOME time.

Shadows and dust.

as of late. I have found that the less absurd you look on tapestries. The more Likely you are to get TF play. I have discovered this with my Jackal character Lyeia. Who despite the fact looks like someone from the 80's may possibly be my main TF character. Simply for the fact that she's not absurd like Saja is, and I refuse to take my character Matriarch from f-list to taps. I have enough people pandering for me.

I need to eventually get some artwork going for my characters..

I am lame..

Getting down when my F-list rooms get all jacked up from a restart.
Getting down because I seem to miss all the fun stuff.
Getting down when I loose at a game repeatedly.
Getting down because for the most part I am alone.
Getting down because people seem to think I am some asshole.
Getting down because I seem to miss the cool people, that are nice.
Getting down because I feel unloved.

Yes this is emo, deal with it.

feel somewhat underappreciated? It's not directed at any of you who watch me. But, I just feel like I am either underappreciated, or people don't seem to like to talk to me at all.. or something.

I don't know. I just think about stuff way too damn much it seems.

I think i just need some fluffy time with friends or somesuch. who knows. Yenas are always randoms.

Also.
I decided that I will no longer RP certain things. Those of you who know what they are. Sorry.

Either way. Back to hyenaing.

Alright,

10$ for 2500 words to 4600 words. (short story)

20$ for 4600 words to 7000 words.

Any more than that, is negotiable. (25$ min)
Yes. I write everything. Except necro/pedo/castration that about sums it.

Have a surprise.

I made something on tapestries. I am only going to show it to a few very select people for now.
Hit up Saja if you want a sneak peek.
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/raphiel/ is most likely going to be the first person to get to see it. Once she's seen it, everyone else at the haven or mobius will see it.

What the fuck is a Brony?

Also, As you may have noticed. Submissions have become more frequent as I clean logs and post them.

I hope the few of you that read me enjoy!

So.. Despite all the amazing fun I have been having on taps.

RL blues.. Glargh.

I wish I just fuck them away... Like Saja does.

Nuff of me complaining

on to the meat and potatoes. So to speak.

So my escapades in the Haven have been quite more frequent for sure.

Clone sex... Freaky stretching episodes(Glee!).. Bat fondling... Just to name a few. Oh yeah, and my first time using a 'condom' in RP! Very interesting. These are all but to name a few.
I am still wondering about morph Ideas...

I was thinking either a vulpine.. or a dragon.. or some insane mish-mash of hyena-dragon-vulpine..

So I've been tooling around taps still. This complete, and I mean ~complete~ overhaul I did is quite a success... How ever, it's got a side effect. I get swarmed now. This however is far better than barely being noticed!

The Saja Project is a complete success..

I will post her description here eventually.

Outside of logs, what do you think i should post up here? I mean almost everything I do is text or audio.

There's always descriptions of characters, or character idea-concepts.

(if i do post concepts here, please consult before using if they appeal)

So, lately I've been tooling around on tapestries.

I am an ever changing person, when it comes to certain things. For example my Character, Rhatash on there, is no longer strictly male. Yep, i went herm,

I still like the old stuff i liked.

I started to explore more and more different interesting items on there. Pretty much a complete overhaul.

What does a nasty slutty perverse `yena have to do to get an avatar around here?
I am not an artist but I can write. people throw me bones or boners and I will chew/suck them, as either comissions or trades, or whatever.