My mind is bogged down with so much torment I only write on here because most people wont read this(thank goodness) and if I post it on any other site I will get too many people asking me whats wrong and if I write it in a journal I know Freya will draw all over it(sigh the coloring stages). I thought it was all over with but back and forth to the doctors office and worrying about my baby and the people I care about. I am questioning going to Fanime this year and even getting out of the hoiuse other then to take freya out for a romp here and there I am so tired and low I am trying to stay positive but its hard. I am sorry if this is slightly depressing. Much huggles to any that read this.

It's my birthday!!! yahhhhhs

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17269321/ LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS WHY MUST I BE TEMPTED BY SUCH AMAZING POSE AND ARTS I CRY!!!

I got a new tattoo I'm kind of feeling down I'm not quite sure why but anyways love you all just updating

Omg seriously needed this today... went out to the playground with Freya and we were having a great time laughing running around and "talking" to one another. While I was pushing Freya on the swings I overheard a group of "parents"(nooooo idea why they really were not paying attention to their kids buttttt whatever) talking about the Gay Marriage law thing... well... so... yah... I eavesdropped more. I heard one of the woman say "disgusting how dare that "black" president allow those types of people to ruin the sanity of marriage" another one said "I agree his wife and kids should leave him" still another one say "God, will punish all in the end so we should be glad we will see heaven and they will only see the pits of Hell" mind you this is at a PUBLIC PLAYGROUND!!!... by this time I am sooooo mad my ears are red with rage... I wanna say something but I stay quiet I decide to try to ignore the rest of the conversation(yahhhhh didnt work i continued to listen). A mans voice spoke up "really not sure what the big deal is, people should be happy no matter who or what their race or sexual orientation is, let the be able to sign a paper to prove it. whats wrong with it" they all seem to gasp in shock... I grinned...Another lady spoke up "Seriously hunny(guessing husband or boyfriend or she calls everyone hunny lol) if they can get married its like when the whites got rid of slavery it would ruin our county" ...in an instant I whipped around madder that a hornet you decide to swap at in July(noooo idea if that was a good metaphor probably not but whatever) .... I opened my mouth to yell at the "bitch" for what she said but then I took a deep breath and shut it... I couldn't.... I wouldn't say anything in front of all these kids... but then I got a great idea... I took Freya out of the swings and put her down to play she ran for the slide, I walked towards the group when I got about 5-6 ft away I then whipped out my cell(the still not working I use it for the time lol) I pretended that I had just gotten a vibrated phone call. I started talking "Hey Lovebug,*smiles* No no Im at the park with Freya you could never bother me sweetheart I love you.*blushes* Oh stop you silly thing *pause* Hows work? *concerned face* (by this time some of the group is listening) Oh gosh that's awful *giggles* You would cause trouble like that *shakes head sarcastically* well hey when you get off of work sweetie you wanna come over? *listens intently* No Freya will be asleep by then. By the way sweetie I didn't like waking up alone after what the night we had *ponders* well if you want you can spent the night at the house if you like? (now all the group is staring at me...judging me)*grins blushing* no dont talk like that im in public...*blushes harder* you dirty horny lil git *giggles* ok ill see you tonight my love...(then added smugly) and in the morning... *I then smiled to myself as I said)... I love you Jenny you are my whole world and I cant wait to send the rest of my life proving we are perfect for one another you are the most beautiful woman I have ever know and I so lucky to have you in my life. Bye my beautiful lover and soon to be wife Jen Jen.... It was perfectly planned... perfectly executed... and the reaction was immediate(and perfect). An open of outrage and disgust was plastered on all their faces. Then they gathered their kids calling to me "I was going to Hell"... I shot back "Dears now now... understand two things I'd be happy to go to Hell as long as you guys wont and second that "so called black guy" our President had no say in what Congress does it 2 different branches of the government you need to get some schooling... by the way if you arent gonna be open-minded why live in the most laid back state in the USA."... sigh I was happy to hear as they walked off we wont be coming back to this park since its have "gay germs" on it... I almost and i seriously mean ALMOST pissed myself.... Funniest shit I have heard in a long as time... Best day ever!!!

I NOW OWN... I MEAN I HAVE ADOPTED TWO AMAZING, FUN LOVING AND SUPER EPIC FURS SO BACK OFF THEY ARE MINES!!! MUHAHAHAHHAHA!!! NOW YOU MUST WELCOME MY SLAVES... I MEAN MINIONS... I MEAN ADOPTED CHITLINS/SISTERS/IDK WHAT THEY ARE TO ME... ALL I KNOW IS THEY ARE MIIIIIIIIINE MIIIIIIINE SEE ALL MINE!!!! LOVE YOU GUYS THIS IS GONNA BE A FUN FRIENDSHIP TEEHEE

 Crow-Feather  MouseyK

As some of you know I, in RL as well as my sona Violacey aka V, love beauty and soul and music and well just plain love just look at Violacey aka V.s ref if you dont believe me or look at my profile ID right now but I think I found an up and coming artist that can make my heart soar. I was introduced to this art by a near dear wonderful sweetheart and now I cant wait to see more art from them please show some much needed support to them. look at this beautiful piece this is why I fell in love http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16878345
 deyja-morte  deyja-morte  deyja-morte

These artists need your loves and supports
My UK lover.... cough cough... i mean my awesome friend  robyn_paperdoll her art is wimpy and beautiful just like her.

My talented and loving  fluffy-brat she is a wonderful and sweet artist she has great prices too.

My new UK friend  makarimorph who is the super tits at making you smile at his art. It is frigging epic.

Go give them some loves please

Stream awesomeness and hang out with cool people and an amazing artist  Makarimorph swing by and watch the stream with me...http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16881224/

I was tagged by my sweet  darkmesna

Rules:
1) You must post these rules.
2) Each person has to share 10 facts about themselves.
3) Answer the 10 questions asked by the person who tagged you and make up 10 questions for the 10 you tag.
4) Chose 10 people and put their icon in your journal.
5) You have to legitimately tag 10 people.
6) No tag-bags.
7) You can't say that you don't do tags.
8) You MUST make up a journal entry!

10 Facts:
1.) I'm a happy go lucky mom of a almost 2 year old Freya
2.) I always go to sleep with the TV or the radio on
3.) I am mostly only attracted to white men or Asian woman
4.) I am scared of thunderstorms, clowns, and spiders except for tarantulas
5.) I am Hawaiian, Japanese and Native American
6.) I may be short but I have a big personality
7.) I would give the shirt off my back if someone needed help
8.) I use to have very close friends til they hurt me now i keep alot of people at arms length not to be hurt again. I get hurt easily.
9.) I have been a furry since 2nd grade
10.) I I have travel around alot but California is my home


My questions from :icondarkmesna"
1) Living condition? atm live with my family just moved back to California
2) Laser tag or Paintball? Panitball i cant do flashy lights for a long period of time
3) Do you have a zoo in your house? (More than four pets?) I use to but not anymore
4) Life goals? all over the board not sure quite yet
5) Favorite music genre? anything i can sing to or dance to
6) What do you find attractive? personality and cleverness
7) Whats the cutest little animal you can think of? Think small. ferrets
8) Have you ever made an OP (Overpowered) Character? hmmmmm... no idts only in WoW maybe
9) Who is your oldest character/sona? What relationship did you have with that char? Kylantha I have had her since 2nd grade she was me
10) How are you in RL compared to online? You tell me. we already met.


My questions to the tagged...
1)What is the kindest thing anyone has done for you?
2)How do you want to be remembered?
3)What would you do with a million dollars?
4)If you were on an island, who would you want to be with? Why?
5)What one thing would you change if you had to do it over?
6)If you could go back in time, what year would you travel to?
7)What does your life say about you?
8)How would your friends describe you?
9)Whats most important to you
10)What's you biggest excuse for not doing something


Tagged friends:

I was outbid on something I really wanted and even though there is a few more days I am upset

at 1 a.m. this morning I was rushed back to the hospital I had to call 911 they came and got me and then the doctors told me there were some complications in my gallbladder being removed even though that is like the most trivial surgery in the world but apparently while I was at home something had ruptured not quite sure what or what had happened but I'm going back into surgery in a few minutes I'm nervous as hell I'm scared I'm tired extremely hungry but they won't let me eat I don't know if I'm going to be able to go anytime soon so I do apologize for any inconvenience or is anybody needed to talk to me I will be checking this sooner or later but they won't let me have it during surgery I don't even think I'll be awake but wish me luck

A male sona the artist named him Gage ill keep it but Im adding a last name Graver finally a male I finally got a guy woot!!!

my dear furry friends today I'm going to be prepped for surgery I'm having my gallbladder removed. if you want to talk to me you can message me I note me might be slow getting back to you but I promise I will I love you all

I control you now you are mine happy to be with me for all eternity

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16238367/

So I just got my credit card stolen and before I could cancel the card someone took over $500 of my daughters saving was gone. When I called to figure out what had happened the person from the bank told me they cant refund all the money. So that means most of the money for my daughter and the art I was gonna get is now all gone. My daughter is more important but to all the artists that I was talking to I do apologize for everything. My week has gone from not bad to now worrying about hospital bill and my girl... I am sorry but most likely now I have to figure out what I am going to do. I'm gonna cry.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6578645/ go here to enter

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6561925/ 18 plus raffle check it out

WHY DO I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO SEE VALISSA MY KINGDOM HEART HEARTLESS FENNEC PANTHER LIKE THIS?!?!?!?!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15229747/

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Do what you can... Help me signal boost if you cant commission please!!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6560490/

well check this artist  Syrelie out free raffle here
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6559288/

I have lost 4 people in my life 2 we're deaths and the other 2 were lost friendships for one it seems like the hardest blow of all but to all I wish them all peace. I am now a shell and I'm trying to be positive but I just got through a real rough part of my life just to hit another one I don't know how much more I can hold before losing it completely. I love you all very much.

Free arm earners just go here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6335584/

SINGLE OR NOT put this as your journal & see what you get

♥ = I want a relationship with you

C: = I want to be your friend

:3 = I miss you

;] = i really like you

:* = I want to kiss you

:< = I hate you

: X = I like you

O: = I like you but im in a relationship

:/ = I like you but your in a relationship

:] = You're cute

</3 = I regret leaving you

:b = We should get to know each other

;^) = We should hang out

<3 = I love you.. \o/

<:^ = i want to know you

@FT@=*stalk*

eue= You're hot

<:3 = You're a great friend

^_^ = We're friends

^.^ = We're best friends

>;3 = You look hot in fursuit

>:3 = I want fursuit pictures with you

[@] I want to doa photoshoot with/for you.