thats right. so for the new ones who dont know i participated in a month long challange of making SFM posts for a month.
it was called SFMtember. this year is called Yifftember.

this was made by the awesome  foxibiki

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61981994/

here are the prompts.

you dont have to participate just know just a whole month of goodies is coming your way :D

hey folks, so were back after that 'fun' ride x.x

FA is back and people were freaking out about leaving FA. as they said the site was never compromised, but hopefully something like this never Happens again.

as for leaving. im not going anywhere. i maybe using twitter more to show WIPs of textures but other then that im stuck here cause i like it here :D

soooo updates

thank you guys for sharing the ko-fi donations, I'm already surprised on how much we gotten in the first few days honestly thought i would have gotten like $20 total but i am grateful for that <3

commissions are still being worked on. it's just been a bit rough since we got some...unexpecting news.

SO as you know I have been with my wife Twi for a while, and on tuesday it was quite a scare when she realised she couldn't move the left side of her face...
Don't be alarmed. everything is ok. I just feel like people should know. but so far it seems to be a non threatening disease called Bells Palsy.
we went to the emergency room, got pills. we'll worry about the hospital bill when it comes in.

other then that i still want to get the PC for zane first since Twi is fine, she can still feel sensations and stuff, and the pills seem to be working.

it sounds weird just putting all this out here on a journal. but i feel like people should know since it was kinda scary for me, twi and zane. but we managed and im glad we didn't panic.

so if you wanna help out with helping with zanes pc donations here's the link to the post.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57812901/

as for twi's end we don't know the full amount of the hospital bill till it comes like 3 weeks from now.

i feel like that covers it. i think. hope you have a good day/afternoon/night.

love y'all!

anyone know places to store nsfw gifs? i have some that i've been wanting to post but i didnt wanna lower the quality or cut frames,

any suggestions can be here or privatly though dms

sadly wont be doing artfight this year. my mental state is borked atm and its sucks. but i can't due to me mostly using my art for commisions. sadly i got bills to pay.

heres hoping i can attend the next one :P

i decided to do a Q&A for My husband  inzanederg

so here are some of the rules:

try keeping it one question per person:

the question can be about zane or the lore on him.

we have the right to not answer questions.

(this includes the darker themes)

other then that ask Zane Here

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56649061/

im trying to upload some pixel art gifs and im not sure what im doing wrong x.x help would be appreciated.

a buddy of mine had an idea to help me out a bit and they said adopts could be something quick and easy.

so im making this interesting. i decided to put up 6 females for now. ill make a male version soon.

but each one is $20. once all of them are bought each person who bought them will be put into a raffle and will get a full / half drawing of the character that is picked.

i think this would be interesting since one person can walk away with 2 drawings of their character.

other then that ill let you guys know soon, thank you guys again for supporting me.

we made it, thank you to everyone. i cant thank you guys enough and i love every single one of you <3

i made it sound bad but im just tired, im taking it easy for today, the stress toook its toll on me.

soooooo, for those who didnt see the previous post is cause i deleted it. so i have to rewrite everything AGAIN....

so basically my aunt passed in 2020, my brother moved into the house and well has been trying to pay all the past due bills. i move in with my wife 2 months ago. turns out she had a big bill. $758.98. basically the electricbill wanted it all in 2 days, now we have one day.

my brother told me that he was gonna try getting a loan for it and everything would be better / i would pay him and such. i did spend some of the money i gotten but nothing more then gas and registration for a new ID.

but my brother just told me he wasnt able to get the loan. so to charge up everything and hope for the best.

soooo were fucked again. yey...

sigh at this point im just posting it here. im to tired and exhuasted from just stressing over it. I wont be able to work off everything so... yeah ill see you guys when we get the power back.

Good evening everyone. I have an announcement for those who love halloween as much as I do.
for those that dont know i found my calling to pixel art due to horror and gore art and i do miss it sometimes.

thats why i am doing the World of horror YCH!

World of Horror is if Junji Ito made a DnD game. It has a rogue-like element where events prompt you what to do, or fight monsters, while solving the mysteries of your local town to stop an evil god before it's too late.

Why am I talking about this:
Because you can be in the game, as an enemy or event!

if you need any examples you can check here for the mods i currently have.
WARNING: EXAMPLES ARE DARK THEMED.

https://imgur.com/a/YggXrGs

^FYI they do have sound.

an event or a Enemy solt is $60 YCH.
extra details may cost extra.

willing to work a deal for both for $100

this will be posted on all 3 of my FA accounts.

if any questions please message me here, discord, or telegram!

if this is successful. i can release the mod pack just in time for halloween!!!

hope you guys have a wonderful day AND LET SPOOKY MONTH COMMENCE!

hey so its been a bit since i made a post like this, and that's because theres been alot going on.

so in april i moved back to my hometown and back with my parents, safe to say after a few months i started to feel better mentally, heck i got rid of smoking vapes and shit (which i kinda regret.)

so for those who don't know i am fixing and cleaning my aunts old house that my brother is staying it. its a hoarders place, lots of junk and memories, and dust. lots and lots of dust x.x.

but safe to say we are getting it done, we already got 2 of the biggest rooms cleared out so thats a huge win, just need electric and then me and my wife can move in.

of course that means i need to clean and fix the other rooms and its just non stop x.x

which brings me to my point, im kinda just struggling since my parents want me to work on the house and not on my art. which i get it, there old school, they think money is given when you work hard for it. but even then i haven't shown any of my art to my parents (probably never will) and they think i don't draw or anything :P.

but with that i work on the house then to tired to work on art. god i really wish i didn't quit smoking. i could use one rn tbh x.x

and it sucks too cause i know some of you are waiting for coms. don't i have you guys on a list and will finish it asap. but its hard to try to keep up when i need money for stuff like a mattress, phone bills, as well as insurance.

so yeah, just wanted to update everyone since everything is kinda bleh, also trying to get more stuff on subscribestar and just in general. defiantly going back into drawing now more but commissions are packed. so i do not know when they will be opened.

and i'm not gonna ask for donations or anything. yes the title says i may need help but i also don't wanna do this stick again where i beg. i appreciate all you've guys have done for me. means the world to me. and i want to pay it back some way.

anywho, i'm not dead. just struggling. but here's for a better future.

love y'all, stay safe out there.

[Trigger warning: death talk skip paragraph if you don't want to read those parts]

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i wanted to write alot here. writing how shit everything was and how 2023 was starting with us being kicked out then moved, then the trip, then moved again. how my depression was taking over and how i slowly found out i have some sort of ADHD. how i owe money to the irs and other bills since i was basically put under my name. how every year for the past 5 years on my birthday it was all eather bad luck or just death. how it all is coming down and how better it would be if it was just. gone.

im not gonna do anything stupid. trust me. i would love to live to be like 99 years old and be like "ha. your grandpa liked this girl named Loona" "what's a Loona" "oh boy. it all started with a show called friendship is magic". but even then i know that wont happen. death can come out of nowhere. maybe today, maybe tomorrow, is it good to dwell on it? fuck no.

all i know is. you guys are the reason why I'm still here

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every single one of you guys make my day a little better. honestly I love what I do and want to do it for years to come. hopefully get more drawing done someday. even then i cant thank you guys enough for loving my stuff and helping me out through tough times. even those who support me on Patreon and Subscribestar. I know I'm shit with organizing I really am but I hope I can do a decent enough job to make everything go smoothly.

yeah i could go on about how everything sucks during my birthday and how i dont want anything but i honestly just want to make you guys happy.

so there's a thing i said while i was high and i wanted to share with you guys why i love doing art. and trust me i wish i could get high but my paranoia will not let me allow it.
the way I picture my art is opening a window to another world, and when i open it you can see a frame of whats happening. multiple universes means that theres a high chance this is happening. its crazy i know but its also fun to think about.

so thats why i do it. because stoner me said something cool and god damn it i believe it. maybe ill go back to it one day. when i get in better shape. and a better mindset.

just thank you everyone for hearing me out and supporting me. im very stubborn when it comes to these things and i dont like asking for help.

just know when i say "i love you guys" i mean it. every single one of you!

so. with that being said im gonna go move some stuff in a house on my birthday and cook a bbq and get drunk. feel free to text me.

I love you guys. and hope you have a good one. :D

i say "vacation" since we only were in Tennessee for a day.

so first we were suppose to rent 1 big suv. however we couldn't get it because we needed a credit card. then we decided to rent a U-haul and fill it up aswell as my wife's car. we packed and were tired but we left asap. then we started with a 12 hour drive, taking breaks, gas, sleeping. then we got a hotel and rested. well "rested". then we did the same thing the next day with about 9 hours. and went into one of our roomies sisters place. honestly cool gal. frickin funny too. but sadly with the talk with her and her bf (since it was their house) they really couldn't have that many people sleeping there. they can let us sleep tonight but me and my wife wouldn't be able to stay another night.
NOT TO MENTION, for those who don't know im kinda big :P so with the beds they have they were defiantly gonna break with my fat ass. so... i slept on the floor. "slept" i was in so much pain. all i had was a blanket underneath me and a jacket to cover me.
the next day we saw a few places. bays mountain being one of them. honestly really wished we stayed more... however we could have gotten a hotel but we realized that with the time frame we would deplete our money fast. so me and my wife said our goodbyes and left.
took a rest stop at a shit hotel. and i mean shit. like all we did was sleep. no shower cause black mold. and they said non smoking session but we smelled smoke. everywhere. someone was smoking, and smoking alot x.x
got kicked out cause they made a mistake. we got there around 2 am and got kicked out at 11 am cause thats checkout. we said fuck it and decided to leave.
we started driving. and noticed the car made a strange noise. we looked and one of the tires looked like it was about to pop. the threads were showing. so we had to make an emergency stop and replace it.
(thank whoever above that my wife saw it and that it didn't pop at all on the road. plus the fact it was day time)
so went to a Walmart and waited.
drove off afterwards and had to get another hotel. same brand hotel since we got in about 5 am this time. but they were so much better. rested as much as we could. and saw a few places and left. we finally got home about 2 hours from this post.

reason why im writing all this? this event. this whole snafu situation has put a huge, HUGE fucking dent in our "money saving for a rent" deal. so yeah. we had to . HAD TO dig into the savings because of gas, tire, hotel for resting.

i honestly don't know what to do. im just lucky enough my mom is letting me stay with her. however the "week" we were anticipating for finding a new place and getting everything sorted has now turned Fubar. so it may take longer. but I am still gonna do commissions aswell as drawings soon after a few days moving in to my moms place. im just so tired and defeated. honestly.

anyway guys. you stay save out there. love y'all.

alrighty guys im going on a small "vacation". i say "vacation" but its more of a, hey im doing this because i have to. kinda deal. anywho thats all for now untill i come back by thrusday. then we chill till sunday where me and the wife move to my moms place and find a new job and new place to live. :D

thank you to everyone who commissioned me, commented, liked, and supported me. i really cant do what i do if it wasn't for you guys <3.

anyway its getting late for me and i have to do a 18 hour driving trip to Tennessee. anywho. Be safe. I love you all!!

I swear to god i didnt mean to post the dark images to this account!! postybirb kinda messed up...well ok i think it was 100% me x.x I am so so sorry!!!

so i started seeing a Q/A that Judas started doing. bringing lore and such to his character and what he does. etc.

so its free game on what questions to ask there just a few rules.

can be sfw questions or nsfw questions.

try to keep 1 question in one comment. you can ask multiple questions if needed.

Ill try to get to them asap but i got other stuff i need to work on so please be patent.

i know there is another account with darker themed rules and such. you can ask darker themed questions
here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10478672/

other then that. keep it simple. and lets have fun :D.

so yeah i had to get a job. so sadly some of the art and stuff is gonna slow down. i got a job at a supermarket doing night stocking. which is fine since i am a night person.

however i havent been working since around 2021 so my body is sore and hating every hour of this. the job isnt that bad its just my body gets sore as all hell.

but i have to do this. so were staying at my sisters place till we have enough money to move back to my home town and maybe get a place of our own again.
the total is around $5000 saved up and we got roughly around $200 saved. i just started last week so it should be going up relitivly soon.

other then that. i really am anxious about this job. so we get 3 truck days out of the week. and last truck day was thursday last week. and that kinda broke and hurt me.

let me paint the night for you-
go in. started working, about 30 mins in, pants ripped. like front to back ripped. i had to go home and change. not only that i accidently knocked over a locker x.x. that was fun.
come back and did the work per usuall but notice everything was kinda slowing down. not just me but everyone else.
take a break. kinda hoping it would get better.
nope.
trying to get as much done and being told "you got to speed it up," "i need you to hurry up" which i get. thats what we need to do. trying to get truck done in 8 hours.
i have knee pads so they help but not a whole lot. continued feeling like shit cause i dont want to be seen as lazy so trying my damn ness to get shit done.
we leave an hour later then usual. i was suppose to be out by 6 am and drop the car off so my wife can take roomie to work. he was a bit late since i got out later.
but when i did get out i went out to the car, and had a full mental break down.i sobbed and cried for who knows how long. and when i was done i just drove home like nothing happend.

i guess it was a mix of mental strain and pure pain on my body. when i came home and tried to lay in my bed my knees shop up with pain. it made me sob again.

honest to god it hurt.

but i had the night off so i was able to recover. and last night was relively easy. but i dread tonight shift since its a night shift. honestly feeling anxious about the whole thing.

i know its like a thing my body has to get used to but i am just scared of failing.

better news though i only have to do this untill around april. so hopefully i have enough to get out of here..

anywho. i just wanted yall to know the goal at least. heres hoping we reach it sooner.

thank you guys for being here for me. i do love you all <3. i hope you guys have a great year. minds starting off rocky but im hoping to god it gets better.

i want to thank everyone for helping me in this time of need. honestly it was my stupidity that got us here. and i know that. but i want you guys to know. im ok. we're ok.

so. what's the plan.

the plan is my sister is offering us a room in her house for us to stay. basically saving up money so we can move out. the max shes giving us is 3 months. trust me i dont plan on staying that long. i wanna see what i can do in 2 months tops. but here's the thing. im going to be slowly coming back to art because i have to get...a job {dun dun dun} yes and not only that i have a reference to go back to being a manager at retail. FUUUUUUU- anyway. I got to bite the bullet on this one. I know I can make a decent living with art but its not enough.

so as of now everyone that i owe commissions for i will be working on them slowly. trying to finish and get things done. however i will be open and i admit rising the prices was kinda a low ball move. im not like my other amazing artist friends. i have some flaws. so i cant charge what there charging.

so with that i will lower my prices to what they were before with a few adjustments. aswell as thinking about subscribestar. i know i offered patron but patron hates NSFW stuff so i dont post there. and since i dont post there i tend to forget what i need to do. aswell as my discord. subscribe star im able to make tiers and separate albums. meaning i can have all 3 of my accounts General, snuff, and 3d all at the same place. you just choose what you want to see. i already have some tiers that offer sketches instead of just 3d posters since i know a large portion want more drawin stuff (ngl i miss drawing aswell)

also trying to revamp my discord. get everything organize to both parties of the normal and 'wild' side can be there and i can share. honestly maybe a slow proccess but if this works i can keep my prices low for you guys to be able to afford art.

other then that me, my wife, and 2 roomies are slowly moving out by the 6th (we wanna make sure we get out of here) and not gonna lie the landlords kinda a jerk. :P but anywho

thank you everyone. i honestly would not be here if it wasn't for you guys!

also to that person who donated to my ko-fi.
thank you so damn much. but please let yourself be known. i wanna know who you are and draw somthing for you!

I fucked up. I really did.

so for this pass year I have been trying to catch up on a lot of my bills and such. most of my utilities are going except for maybe water and internet since I owe a lot but just today I got an eviction notice from my landlord. I have tried paying rent but everytime I had / saved money it immediately goes to bills. I honestly don't know what to do.

I owe $5600. which I didn't think was that much but I mostly got side tracked with payments on other things. but not only though. we got about 11 days to pack up and get out. January 8th.

I really don't know what to do. I really don't.

so ever since march of this year I got into SFM. you can see some of my stuff in this account. but i didnt get into retexturing till about may. so i counted and i have about 63 retextures of petruz' models.
lord have mercy i need a life. XD but im glad i can share it all with you. just making some final adjustmants and posting soon.

so if you haven't heard I took a break for the thanksgiving weekend aswell as tuesday for my wife's b-day!

now im back and ready to draw. so i wanted to do a sale for the holidays!

the sale will end on 18th of December. Saturday.

other then that i feel alot better after the vacation and just ready! so please hit me up if your interested. i respond faster with my telegram / discord!

link to the post is here:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50032411/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50032411/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50032411/

so i updated my prices which are right here : https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49746717/

but the question is are they right? i had some friends of mine look it over and well i would like to keep it this way im not to sure about it now.

sure right now im doing some things for the halloween sale i did and thats basically losing me money but the question still stands.

so i created a voting deal here:

https://strawpoll.com/polls/kjn1j5o67gQ
https://strawpoll.com/polls/kjn1j5o67gQ
https://strawpoll.com/polls/kjn1j5o67gQ

so please. take your time to vote and let me know where i should go! just know you can vote only once.

thank you guys for supporting me. i love you all <3

So I recently talked to a few friends of mine about pricing and they agreed my pricing was far to low.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49746717/

I updated it with a few new additions of sketches and flats to be able to make them affordable.

though to be honest I do feel bad about raising the pricing but I do feel like this is what I'm worth.

thank you for all your love and support on all my accounts. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for your love and support!

<3 hope you guys have a good day and stay safe.

first I wanna thank every single one of you for fallowing me and my content. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you guys. I love what I do and damn proud of it. sadly it doesnt make the big bucks and I concently have to be begging for help...

but i digress. any who i have a sale going on here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48752794/

i decided to lower the prices to get more people and hopefully make enough for rent this month. its been a really tough few months. honestly its the damn pc and tablet mishap but those are sorted out. i finally payed for my pc fully and don't have to spend another dime on it till i get my shit sorted out.

believe me its hard enough trying to type this out. i know its nearly the end of the month and I know people have their own bills to worry about. i understand that.
please focus on yourselves before me. please.

if you cant please send this around!

thank you for this and I love and apricate you all!

so for the past year i had a XP-Pen - Artist 22 Pro tablet. very nice. big screen. been using this badboy to draw lots of your favorite arts. however now its slowly becoming a problem.

so the problem started a 2 months back where i had a glitch on my pc. this glitch was annoying as fuck. im talking it feels like a button is being pressed down.

like if CTRL or ALT or somthing along those ones are being held down and it makes menus, window boxes act crazy. flashing, closing, etc. especaily the start tab.

usually when you click on it it stays open and shows the program and such. not that big of a deal. but for me its like it pops open, closes, open, closes. multiple times.

i honestly thought it was my pc or my laptop (since the desktop at the time was also messing up i had to switch over to laptop) but it was still there. i thought it was the laptop hard core.

then i got a new pc (thanks mom!) and... its still there. the button pressing stops when i unplug the tablet.

so ok found the source now we can try to fix it. bad news.

https://www.xp-pen.com/download-66.html

so i got windows 11 now. (yeah i dont like it. XD) but i checked when they last update for the drivers were and they were in febuary. FUN!

so i cant use my screen tablet. fan-FUCKING-tastic.

sigh. not to worry though. i got a regular wacom tablet that i stored away just in case. thank god.

but yeah. bitter, pissed, frustrated, stressed as all hell, fun fun fuck fuck fuck!!!

honestly thinking becoming a full time artist was a mistake.