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General | Posted 13 years agoThis account is no longer frequented. It's dead. Dead, dead, dead. Dead like my head on a bed in a shed with Uncle Fred.
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General | Posted 13 years agoJust... really out of it.
Corey left on Tuesday (so a week ago) and it's been weird. To think that he isn't in town anymore is just a foreign thought to me. But I think this next part of the journal will explain why I'm not devastated.
I had been talking to Corey for a long time up until the night he left, about Florida and him and his fiancee having a two bedroom apartment together down there when they get there. He offered it to me, and I took a lot of time to think about it. Leaving Montana for Florida was not a light decision.
But after thinking for a while, I accepted the proposal. I'll be moving down to Florida in August of this year. I've got two months to get everything straightened out before I head out. I'm going to be getting my finances in order to have a steady and reliable vehicle to get there in. Yes, I'll be driving, and I know I'm insane. It's going to take roughly 4-5 days to get there, mostly because I'm making it into a road trip of sorts to meet people along the way, and to see some local bands in other states I've been meaning to see for years. I'll be driving just a tad over 3,000 miles (3,032 to be exact), and I really can't wait to do this. My goal is to get a sturdy vehicle that is economically friendly that I won't want to dump the moment we get to Florida. Haha.
I'm really stoked to be doing this. Here is the map of my path I'm taking, if anybody is interested. http://goo.gl/maps/VLqA
Corey left on Tuesday (so a week ago) and it's been weird. To think that he isn't in town anymore is just a foreign thought to me. But I think this next part of the journal will explain why I'm not devastated.
I had been talking to Corey for a long time up until the night he left, about Florida and him and his fiancee having a two bedroom apartment together down there when they get there. He offered it to me, and I took a lot of time to think about it. Leaving Montana for Florida was not a light decision.
But after thinking for a while, I accepted the proposal. I'll be moving down to Florida in August of this year. I've got two months to get everything straightened out before I head out. I'm going to be getting my finances in order to have a steady and reliable vehicle to get there in. Yes, I'll be driving, and I know I'm insane. It's going to take roughly 4-5 days to get there, mostly because I'm making it into a road trip of sorts to meet people along the way, and to see some local bands in other states I've been meaning to see for years. I'll be driving just a tad over 3,000 miles (3,032 to be exact), and I really can't wait to do this. My goal is to get a sturdy vehicle that is economically friendly that I won't want to dump the moment we get to Florida. Haha.
I'm really stoked to be doing this. Here is the map of my path I'm taking, if anybody is interested. http://goo.gl/maps/VLqA
Blah.
General | Posted 13 years agoSo while 
aeroshino is off in LA at E3 having the time of his life, I'm going to chill here and eat goldfish crackers and watch YouTube videos.
Corey leaves in the morning. Going to cry a lot.
aeroshino is off in LA at E3 having the time of his life, I'm going to chill here and eat goldfish crackers and watch YouTube videos.Corey leaves in the morning. Going to cry a lot.
Monday.
General | Posted 13 years agoI'm going to be in an absolutely terrible mental state, and I won't be on here for a bit after that.
My best friend of five years (When you're from a military family, that is a LONG time), and the one person I consider my brother, is moving to Florida with his fiancee (whom I am really close with as well). He and I have been best friends since the moment we met. Within an hour of knowing one another, we were talking Pokemon and goofing off at the local park, preaching to children and being idiots.
It hasn't hit me that he's leaving and I realized how much of a wreck I'm going to be. I might just have to call into work if it gets bad enough... he is quite literally the closest person to me that isn't family, and I've never had a blood-related brother, and he might as well be. My family has taken him in as one of our own, and to see him go is going to be the hardest thing I've done in a while.
He and I spent the last three hours of our hang out session just sitting in his car in my driveway until 3AM, talking about life, politics, football, and the things we've always wanted to tell each other. We reminisced about the old days, and looked forward to the future. He's graduating high school tomorrow, and I'll be right there cheering him on, along with his mom and grandmother (his mom flew in from Japan to be here, and we're really close as well). Needless to say, I have never been such good friends with a person. Most of you should know how this works with that one person. He's forever going to be my domestic partner that I never had an official relationship with, mostly because his fiancee won't let us get married.
Damn her. c:
In all seriousness, we have the most legit bromance that you could ever imagine. Part of me is leaving with him. It's going to take all that I have to keep myself together when he goes...
...and something tells me it's not going to end the way I hope it will. :(
My best friend of five years (When you're from a military family, that is a LONG time), and the one person I consider my brother, is moving to Florida with his fiancee (whom I am really close with as well). He and I have been best friends since the moment we met. Within an hour of knowing one another, we were talking Pokemon and goofing off at the local park, preaching to children and being idiots.
It hasn't hit me that he's leaving and I realized how much of a wreck I'm going to be. I might just have to call into work if it gets bad enough... he is quite literally the closest person to me that isn't family, and I've never had a blood-related brother, and he might as well be. My family has taken him in as one of our own, and to see him go is going to be the hardest thing I've done in a while.
He and I spent the last three hours of our hang out session just sitting in his car in my driveway until 3AM, talking about life, politics, football, and the things we've always wanted to tell each other. We reminisced about the old days, and looked forward to the future. He's graduating high school tomorrow, and I'll be right there cheering him on, along with his mom and grandmother (his mom flew in from Japan to be here, and we're really close as well). Needless to say, I have never been such good friends with a person. Most of you should know how this works with that one person. He's forever going to be my domestic partner that I never had an official relationship with, mostly because his fiancee won't let us get married.
Damn her. c:
In all seriousness, we have the most legit bromance that you could ever imagine. Part of me is leaving with him. It's going to take all that I have to keep myself together when he goes...
...and something tells me it's not going to end the way I hope it will. :(
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General | Posted 13 years agoHappy Memorial Day to any of you who happen to be serving/have served in our United States Armed Forces. You give all of us the right to live in freedom, and you give those like me who plan on joining up the courage and motivation to do so.
God bless.
God bless.
Have you ever...
General | Posted 13 years ago...had the sudden urge to spend your money?
I limited myself to $30 that I can spend online. What should I buy? Commission an artist? Do something stupid with it? Haha, I don't know. Link me to things.
I limited myself to $30 that I can spend online. What should I buy? Commission an artist? Do something stupid with it? Haha, I don't know. Link me to things.
5:20AM
General | Posted 13 years agoI work at 4PM. I need to go to the bank, the clinic, and to the mall to get my haircut. Need to be up at 9AM to accomplish all this. c:
Haha. Hope everyone is doing alright. No sleep for me and that's quite alright with me.
Haha. Hope everyone is doing alright. No sleep for me and that's quite alright with me.
Yup.
General | Posted 13 years agoGood weekend. Good show, went camping, almost got shot by some drunk rednecks, and had a great Mother's Day with my mom and sisters.
Also talking to this guy who's really cute and ugh <3
Also talking to this guy who's really cute and ugh <3
MAKING MY WAY DOWNTOWN
General | Posted 13 years agoWALKING FAST,
FACES PASS,
AND I'M HOMEBOUND.
(I love this song. I need to find somewhere to belt it loudly without people hating me. Covering it with my band hopefully. It'll be pop-punky and hardcore and heavy.)
FACES PASS,
AND I'M HOMEBOUND.
(I love this song. I need to find somewhere to belt it loudly without people hating me. Covering it with my band hopefully. It'll be pop-punky and hardcore and heavy.)
My thoughts on things.
General | Posted 13 years ago(I'm not a huge fan of emotionally fueled journals about relationships. That's why this one is going to be about them in general, and not just about me. But it applies, really hard right now.)
Companionship.
It's something most of us a human beings strive for (We're all fucking humans, you faggots). I have never really felt the need to have a significant other in my life, mostly due to the fact that I feel the time will come when the right person WILL come along for you. It's the way the balance of nature works.
As of late, I've noticed that I've had my attractions towards people. I've found myself wondering what it would be like to be with a person. To be by their side, to be able to call them the other half of my life. As of late, I've been wanting somebody to fill that role that I didn't ever think I was searching for.
I don't know if it's the bisexuality being all bipolar or what... but I've more recently been wanting to get with a dude. I want to have somebody to hang out with, to hold hands with, to sleep next to at night... it's the little things that I see far too often, and don't get to experience.
I've also been rather self-conscious as of late. I'm constantly worrying about my appearance and if people will like me for what I am. It's eating away at me. My life has been going fairly steady as of late, and I'm still trying to work a lot of things out, but I just want something secure. I want a man that will give me the time of day. A man that will treat me like I'm the guy he wants to be around. The guy who likes who I am, no matter how ridiculous I may be.
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I don't know, guys. Maybe I'm trying too hard. Most of the gay dudes in this town either sleep around way too much to be stable, or don't give me the time of day. I don't know what to do bros. I'm totally clueless in the entire dating scene.
Companionship.
It's something most of us a human beings strive for (We're all fucking humans, you faggots). I have never really felt the need to have a significant other in my life, mostly due to the fact that I feel the time will come when the right person WILL come along for you. It's the way the balance of nature works.
As of late, I've noticed that I've had my attractions towards people. I've found myself wondering what it would be like to be with a person. To be by their side, to be able to call them the other half of my life. As of late, I've been wanting somebody to fill that role that I didn't ever think I was searching for.
I don't know if it's the bisexuality being all bipolar or what... but I've more recently been wanting to get with a dude. I want to have somebody to hang out with, to hold hands with, to sleep next to at night... it's the little things that I see far too often, and don't get to experience.
I've also been rather self-conscious as of late. I'm constantly worrying about my appearance and if people will like me for what I am. It's eating away at me. My life has been going fairly steady as of late, and I'm still trying to work a lot of things out, but I just want something secure. I want a man that will give me the time of day. A man that will treat me like I'm the guy he wants to be around. The guy who likes who I am, no matter how ridiculous I may be.
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I don't know, guys. Maybe I'm trying too hard. Most of the gay dudes in this town either sleep around way too much to be stable, or don't give me the time of day. I don't know what to do bros. I'm totally clueless in the entire dating scene.
NOT TIRED
General | Posted 13 years agoNOT GOING TO BED
Hello I miss you all. <3 I have work in like 5 hours so I might as well just not go to bed.
Hello I miss you all. <3 I have work in like 5 hours so I might as well just not go to bed.
Border Collies <3 (Free suit raffle!)
General | Posted 13 years agoWhy hello new watchers.
General | Posted 13 years agoI got like 5 new watchers in like two hours. How are you guys doing? Better yet, how did you find me?
Feel free to talk to me! Ask a question, tell me how the weather is where you are, anything! I'm with some friends, watching as they break another world record. 110 hours of Skyrim straight. I'll be up for a very long time.
So, leave a comment! I'll reply as soon as possible. :)
Feel free to talk to me! Ask a question, tell me how the weather is where you are, anything! I'm with some friends, watching as they break another world record. 110 hours of Skyrim straight. I'll be up for a very long time.
So, leave a comment! I'll reply as soon as possible. :)
Our first music video.
General | Posted 13 years agoOur video for 120 In A 75. Please share, favorite and like. <3
Mizzou.
General | Posted 13 years agoMissoula was insane. Wish I could have seen all of you guys while I was over there, but sadly, we only really had time for the show and going back to the hotel.
The band and I had a great time. Our set went AWESOME, even if we didn't advance to the next round of the Battle of the Bands. We got the most votes out of ANY out of town band, and got 2nd out of all of the bands in the first round. Pretty damn good, if you ask me. We gained a lot of fans and definitely played one of our best sets ever.
Going to bed now. It's been a long day, haha.
The band and I had a great time. Our set went AWESOME, even if we didn't advance to the next round of the Battle of the Bands. We got the most votes out of ANY out of town band, and got 2nd out of all of the bands in the first round. Pretty damn good, if you ask me. We gained a lot of fans and definitely played one of our best sets ever.
Going to bed now. It's been a long day, haha.
holy busy batman
General | Posted 13 years agoSHOWS
SO MANY SHOWS
We play tonight here in town, head out to Missoula tomorrow to play The Connection, and back in town to play a show next weekend, and then the weekend after that, and THEN TO BILLINGS TO PLAY A SHOW THE WEEKEND AFTER THAT AND-
Dear god I feel like there is too much going on. Haha. Between work and shows, my life is hectic. But I love it.
SO MANY SHOWS
We play tonight here in town, head out to Missoula tomorrow to play The Connection, and back in town to play a show next weekend, and then the weekend after that, and THEN TO BILLINGS TO PLAY A SHOW THE WEEKEND AFTER THAT AND-
Dear god I feel like there is too much going on. Haha. Between work and shows, my life is hectic. But I love it.
Somber.
General | Posted 13 years agoJamie's mom, whom was my landlord for quite some time and such an amazing person in my life, passed away this morning.
The little header here on FA is for such a good cause. Cancer is a fucking bitch of a disease that takes those who deserve it least. Robin was one of the only people in this world that I honestly could call one of my family when she wasn't blood related. I love those girls to death and my heart is broken in ways it's never been before.
Rest in peace, mama Robin. I am going to miss you more than words will ever be able to describe. You were one of the strongest, kindest and most beautiful women I ever had the fortune of having in my life. I'll always be "white boy" to ya. <3
I'm so tired from crying, god damn it. Nobody deserves what she got.
The little header here on FA is for such a good cause. Cancer is a fucking bitch of a disease that takes those who deserve it least. Robin was one of the only people in this world that I honestly could call one of my family when she wasn't blood related. I love those girls to death and my heart is broken in ways it's never been before.
Rest in peace, mama Robin. I am going to miss you more than words will ever be able to describe. You were one of the strongest, kindest and most beautiful women I ever had the fortune of having in my life. I'll always be "white boy" to ya. <3
I'm so tired from crying, god damn it. Nobody deserves what she got.
4/20 BROS
General | Posted 13 years agoYOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS
Happy birthday, Mike Portnoy! The legendary ex-drummer of Dream Theater turns 45 today. Hope it's a great one, bud.
Happy birthday, Mike Portnoy! The legendary ex-drummer of Dream Theater turns 45 today. Hope it's a great one, bud.
My rant on being a faggot.
General | Posted 13 years agoHaha. Made you look.
In all seriousness, since I came out over two months ago, things indeed HAVE gotten easier for me, and I gained a lot of acceptance from my family and friends. But, I can't help but wonder about something.
It's still really awkward to mention that another guy is attractive to ANYONE, unless they are also gay, but I don't ever speak to most of the gay population in this town. They're either too flamboyant and slightly annoying, or just too socially awkward. I hold a very redneck job and don't feel like I fit the gay stereotype, haha.
The main reason I don't discuss things like other dudes around my friends is because I'm afraid that it'll become way too weird. I don't want them to shy away from me because of the way I talk about people. But I have come to notice that even if I so much as hint to another dude being attractive, I'm shut down. Usually jokingly, with a "Stop being such a faggot" and a laugh, but I have had moments that some of my closest friends have said "Dude, that's too weird for me."
I don't blame them. But I can't help but feel sort of resentful that I live in a world where I can't be like everybody else. I can't talk about my attractions as openly as somebody who is straight. A dude can talk all he wants about a woman's body, and be praised for it, but if I so much as speak of another guy, I'm shut out and it doesn't happen.
I don't know if I'm being to sensitive, or if this makes any sense.
In all seriousness, since I came out over two months ago, things indeed HAVE gotten easier for me, and I gained a lot of acceptance from my family and friends. But, I can't help but wonder about something.
It's still really awkward to mention that another guy is attractive to ANYONE, unless they are also gay, but I don't ever speak to most of the gay population in this town. They're either too flamboyant and slightly annoying, or just too socially awkward. I hold a very redneck job and don't feel like I fit the gay stereotype, haha.
The main reason I don't discuss things like other dudes around my friends is because I'm afraid that it'll become way too weird. I don't want them to shy away from me because of the way I talk about people. But I have come to notice that even if I so much as hint to another dude being attractive, I'm shut down. Usually jokingly, with a "Stop being such a faggot" and a laugh, but I have had moments that some of my closest friends have said "Dude, that's too weird for me."
I don't blame them. But I can't help but feel sort of resentful that I live in a world where I can't be like everybody else. I can't talk about my attractions as openly as somebody who is straight. A dude can talk all he wants about a woman's body, and be praised for it, but if I so much as speak of another guy, I'm shut out and it doesn't happen.
I don't know if I'm being to sensitive, or if this makes any sense.
LET'S PLAY MINECRAFT
General | Posted 13 years agohttp://youtu.be/BlxDPcbKJNM
http://youtu.be/BlxDPcbKJNM
http://youtu.be/BlxDPcbKJNM
Aero and I play Minecraft. Subscribe, favorite, thumb up and share, please? <3
http://youtu.be/BlxDPcbKJNM
http://youtu.be/BlxDPcbKJNM
Aero and I play Minecraft. Subscribe, favorite, thumb up and share, please? <3
hi furaffinaffity.
General | Posted 13 years agoIt's been a while, eh?
Sorry for my prolonged absence. It's been an eventful year for me, and the fandom has taken a (massive) backseat to family, friends, work and life in general.
I no longer work at McDonald's. I'm employed through the Mountain View Co-op now. MUCH better job. :)
I now live with aeroshino. It's legit.
I'm still working towards Air Force enlistment.
That's about it, for now. I'm sorry I haven't been around much to respond to notes and comments. Life has been insane. I'm probably going to nuke 90% of my journals and submissions and start over. New account, perhaps?
ALSO PLEASE
IF YOU HAVE A FACEBOOK: Please give my band (BETTER WORDS FOR A FAREWELL) a vote in this poll! We'd appreciate it!
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Sorry for my prolonged absence. It's been an eventful year for me, and the fandom has taken a (massive) backseat to family, friends, work and life in general.
I no longer work at McDonald's. I'm employed through the Mountain View Co-op now. MUCH better job. :)
I now live with
aeroshino. It's legit.I'm still working towards Air Force enlistment.
That's about it, for now. I'm sorry I haven't been around much to respond to notes and comments. Life has been insane. I'm probably going to nuke 90% of my journals and submissions and start over. New account, perhaps?
ALSO PLEASE
IF YOU HAVE A FACEBOOK: Please give my band (BETTER WORDS FOR A FAREWELL) a vote in this poll! We'd appreciate it!
http://www.facebook.com/questions/3.....93/?qa_ref=qts
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LOOK AT ME [F5]
General | Posted 13 years ago
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General | Posted 13 years agoI've been crying for the past two hours. Man this sucks dude.
My landlord, Jamie's mom and my honorary mother-in-law, is going to be put on life support. I said goodbye tonight because she's going to give a "Do Not Resuscitate" order. She has been one of the strongest people and greatest parents I have ever known. Hearing her tell me that she loved me and was proud of what I've done brought me to tears. I told her that I was proud of her strength and the family that she raised.
Having her tell me that she was dying was the hardest thing... she still remains positive, but I know I won't see her again. I need to sleep. I guess I needed to type out my emotions to kind of think them over.
Sorry for the emotional journal.
My landlord, Jamie's mom and my honorary mother-in-law, is going to be put on life support. I said goodbye tonight because she's going to give a "Do Not Resuscitate" order. She has been one of the strongest people and greatest parents I have ever known. Hearing her tell me that she loved me and was proud of what I've done brought me to tears. I told her that I was proud of her strength and the family that she raised.
Having her tell me that she was dying was the hardest thing... she still remains positive, but I know I won't see her again. I need to sleep. I guess I needed to type out my emotions to kind of think them over.
Sorry for the emotional journal.
