Gonna keep this as brief as I can. But I might vent a little. There is some stuff going on in my life and a lot of family issues. In truth it has been going on for maybe two months now and may not stop any time soon. I won't go into it in detail here as this is a family/private matter.

But the point is with everything going on with my family I have no drive for art, let alone creative projects. I can't even make Characters or lore for my own world I've been working on. Which for context I have always had stuff like that brewing in the back of my head just for the fun of it. But now I just feel a constant sense of dread instead. I can't create anything no matter how bad I want to.

So, for the time being, I am dropping all art and creative things. I intend to return once things work out and my creative drive returns. I don't know when that'll be. May be a few months, or maybe a year +. I really can't say, though honestly my inner pessimist is really not seeing any light at the end of this tunnel. At least anytime soon

That said I'll still be around, kind of. I don't really go online much or talk to anyone anymore, my focus lately has been solely on doing what I can to keep my family from falling appart. But I do try and check things when I have the time.

Stay safe everyone.

Long story short meds aren't working anymore. Starting to think the first week or so they did work was me being overly optimistic and basically placeboed myself into thinking they would help. They aren't and if anything I'm getting worse, especially when it comes to feelings of indirect rage.

As such I am once again going to withdraw from online spaces for the most part. I will post art here when made/whenever I remember to do it. (Though I doubt I'll be doing much art) And to friends who want to reach me I do have discord (though I may not answer all that frequently, especially now). However can guarantee that is better way to reach me then here even if I may not respond for awhile

Quick update. Just wanna apologize for lack of activity on here on my part. In truth past month or so has been a bit rough mental health wise.

Depression is something I'm more or less used to by now. I hate the feeling but most times I can deal with it. However in recent times it has turned into this.... unreasonable and directionless sense of rage and hate. To the point where I began to believe my own family and friends did not care about me and only kept me around for some reason or another.

These feelings I know are unfounded and unreasonable, however that doesn't change that when I fell into these states of irritation these feelings of directionless rage would completely overtake me. As such I've been avoiding being online for the most part lately. I'd rather not say or do something in rage that I will regret later when I'm of sound mind.

That said I was able to talk to a doc and got on some new meds. To be honest there are some adverse side effects (mainly hot flashes) however otherwise it is working great. As such gonna try and be active online again. Or at least more active then I have been lately.

Ay just wanted to post a quick little update about the lack of art this past week. It's been something of a ride. What with gandma falling and being admitted to hospital (she doing fine now thankfully) and then the whole war situation in Ukraine popping off over the weekend, I've kinda had other matters on my mind lately besides art

I am gonna get back into doodling to keep the habit, so expect something maybe later this week. That said hope you're all doing well and staying safe.

Alright long story short, as those who are familiar with me probably can tell, I like bondage. Specifically DiD-GiD, not even explicitly lewd really. Buuuuuut it comes in waves.

Idk, hard to describe. I always like bondage but there are some points where my love of it... increases I suppose is the word? Idk, let's use my sona(s) Null and Void to try and explain this. Normally I'm Null, sure I enjoy it but I don't really try and find it. Theeeen suddenly the inner bondage gremlin surfaces and suddenly it's all my mind seems to focus on. Is this what people call... "horny"? I mean I don't... think it is per se. But I suppose that is the closest sorta parallel to this feeling, even if it's not really outwardly sexual and is more some weird want to be tied up

AAAAAAANYWAY kinda personal stuff aside, when this "bondage gremlin" within rears its head is often when I suddenly also get hit with ideas for did-gid art projects. (For example that Gracie escape comic I never finished was the product of one of these times) A sort of lightening rod if you will as.... well don't know that many people who wanna do that kinda rp, let alone working up the nerve to ask. As for some reason even now that I'm more open about it this kinda thing makes me clam up a bit in shyness. Something I'm working on but I digress

Recently though I've found myself more in the gremlin mood then usual. As such been having ideas for did-gid animations. Like.... not even gifs like an attempt at a proper little animation of a character in distress or otherwise trying to escape bondage. Though I'm hesitant to work on something like that as animation is an undertaking to say the least and my drive can at times be fickle. As such, as much as part of me wants to try something like this, I am also hesitant to take on such a project.


Buuut... well that brings me to why I even made this post. If ya'll would like to see something like this, then maybe I'll see about making one as a test. I can't promise anything as my skill in animation is still admittedly basic and rough and drive can be a while other thing. But honestly part of me wants to give it a shot, and if some of ya'll wanna see it then maybe that'll help drive me to make it. Again no promises but hey wishful thinking yea? Not that I would know how to approach making an actual proper animation like this but hey could prove to be fun long term project to work on every now and then. Ya' know?

Just a quick little update. Haven't had much drive to draw past week or so, so unfortunately nothing new to upload really. Not gonna force myself to draw when I otherwise don't entirely feel like it. Though maybe I'll try and work on a sketch sometime just to keep in practice. Idk

Well, I'm back, kinda. At the very least I'm drawing somewhat frequently again so may as well start occasionally posting again I guess.

I only say 'kind of back' because really only part of the reason why I initially left has been dealt with, that being the artistic side of it. Quite frankly I'm still filled with existential dread, but honestly I don't think that'll change any time soon. But there is only so much good hiding away by myself will do, and getting back in the habit of doing art semi frequently and socializing will probably do me good. Hopefully

That said, I'm sure some are wondering what exactly my art would entail going forwards. As part of my meltdown came from my art and how I wasn't quite happy with it. Well, aside from trying to do more variety, you can probably expect some of the same. After quite a bit of thought and self reflection I realized that it wasn't making did/gid art that was making me anxious. It was this fear gnawing at the back of my mind that if I kept making it, it would become the only thing anyone would ever want from me. And as such some of the other things I want to do would be ignored or never get traction.

That said, while I am going to try and make more regular non-lewd art, I will still make DiD/GiD.

Also, while on the subject, before I left I had an art suggestion box. For now that is going to close down. If only because my artistic drive, while present, is finicky. Sometimes may go a whole week or so without drawing, and at times I struggle to stay motivated on my own projects let alone art requests. So doesn't seem right to subject others to my rather poor creative drive. However that said in the future I may consider opening limited requests for special occasions like holidays and the like. But no guarantees there.

But, yeah. Not exactly back but I am going to start posting again on occasion. Will post some stuff later today. Thank you to those who actually read this rambling. Have a digital cookie

Going to keep this relatively short as I really don't have much to say. In fact let's get to the point; Enough of you have come out and told me one way or another that deleting my account was stupid. Be it friends suggesting I try something else/taking a haitus or otherwise. As such I no longer intend to delete this account or the works on it.

But that said I am still leaving on something that will either be a hiatus or permanent depending on what happenes. Truth is there is something else that is kinda influencing me here, that being my depression. I'm manic depressive, and honestly last two weeks I've been experiencing the worst case of depression I think I ever had. Which, admittedly, I think may have influenced my behavior last few days especially when I first announced the idea of deleting this account. That being said this does not excuse the fact that I've been something of a overdramatic batch last few days, and quite frankly ya'll have the right to rag on me all you want as I need to be better.

Look, I'm gonna be honest with everyone who even bothered to read this: I'm tired. I don't want to feel this way anymore, and... well the way things are going if I can't find a way to cope or improve things I don't think I really wanna live anymore. And that is not a joke or anything of the sort, I genuinely need some fucking help

So... yeah. For now this is it. This account will remain as it is, though other then maybe occasionally checking in with a friend whom I can only contact through this site I will not be active whatsoever. With luck, I will return in maybe a few months. Otherwise.... well if I'm not back in about a year or so and I don't say anything else on the matter by then, then it may be safe to assume I won't return.

Thank you to everybody who even bothered to say anything about this matter the last few days, even the one guy who's comment yesterday may have been a bit harsh when initially reading it (Even though honestly it was sorta the slap in the face I needed to realize my actions were totally self centered and not at all rational.) It... helped to hear the opinions of others on the matter even if I didn't fully agree with them.

A thank you to my friends and everyone else who showed concern at my sudden, admittedly dramatic announcement. I certainly need to think about this before I do anything, as deleting the account is something I can't reverse. In truth I still just might, but idk. But at the very least I feel I should at least explain why I feel like doing such a drastic act.

To put it simply I'm not entirely enjoying it as much anymore. I mean for the most part people do you seem to care about my original works, and only care for the lewd art I draw. Which has kinda become the main thing I've drawn the past few months. Now drawing this kinda stuff isn't bad in of itself. But please understand that I am Asexual, I don't really like sexy stuff as it is so the fact that it seems all anybody wants to see is that stuff is admittedly disheartening. I like drawing did-gid art every now and then, but I don't like the idea of it being the only thing I ever make.

And yes I know, I should focus more on what I want to draw rather than what others want me to draw. But that is kind of also the thing: I don't truly know what I wanna do. To be honest most of the art I have ever made in the past 6 or so years was because I figured a friend would like it or somebody else will. Guess you could say it was my autistic ass attempting to make friends and keep the few that I had. But.... I've been doing art in this mindset for so long that I don't really know what I truly wanna make anymore. Like I don't know who I am or want to be as an artist. And without that general direction in my art... then what business do I have being an artist?

Plus in truth I feel like my characters as of late have been kind of crappy. Like I know I can make better but most of the ones I make now seem to me like they are kinda flat.

This also extends to my writing. As honestly I find my writing style to be atrocious to the point where even I don't wanna read my attempts at a story. Like.... to put it simply my writing feels flat. Like it's just a bland description of events with no real flair or anything to it. Which sure is fine when I am rping with friends, but is kind of abysmal when it comes to writing a story

Honestly it's to the point where I'm having a hard time seeing a reason to keep going. Which is ultimately why I'm considering deleting this account and stopping art altogether. A thought that in of itself is making me extremely depressed. I've always been a creative person, art has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. Be it drawing or just making a bunch of different characters just because it's fun, I have been making things my whole life. So the idea of never making anything again is.... something that genuinely hurts. But I just don't know what else to do as now art is starting to effect my mental health more negatively then positively. So this is kind of a damned if I do, damned if I don't situation.

Sorry for the wall of text. Just kinda dumped my raw thoughts out into text with no real editing. I just figured maybe I should explain how I feel and the thoughts that led to this.

Long story short I am cutting art out of my life completely. It is no longer worth doing as honestly I can't even say I enjoy it anymore. As such this is not only a dead account but a doomed one, as in three days I might actually go as far as to delete this account. So for the few people who actually liked my art (dunno how as it's honestly not that good but to each their own) feel free to download now as it isn't gonna be here much longer.

Been a ride, but this is the end of the line.

Alright I'm starting to run low on steam in terms of drawing ideas. I wanna keep drawing however I am having issues coming up with what exactly to draw.


Sooo I'd like to enlist the help of those watching me, should they be interested. Simply give me an idea of something to try and draw and I will attempt to sketch it out when I can. To keep myself from being overwhelmed by people asking for art will limit it to like 3 or 4 suggestions at any time. So get 'em while you can

Just realized I accidentally labeled the species in the bunny girl Gracie pics as "Pokemon" even though it is totally the fox morph Gracie.

Is fixing right now but fukin' oooof. XD

Ayo sorry for not having anything to post this past week. Birthday was this past Sunday so I sorta been doing stuff for that, so I haven't been drawing as much as I should.

That being said, I've also been messing with how exactly I draw something. Long story short got a new phone with a neat stylus pen and I've been messing with the idea of drawing 100% digital rather than drawing on paper than redoing the sketch digitally to color and such. Don't have much to show as of yet and I'm still trying to learn/get used to doing everything in the little drawing app I use. But otherwise I think it ends up looking better this way and plus the whole process feels a bit easier.

I'll see if I can make a few doodles for ya'll this week. Otherwise hope you all have a great week

Alright, don't have too much to say so let's get to the point.

As I sorta mentioned in the past I want to look into writing stories and the like, maybe even a few comics. Already I've sort of started practicing my writing ability with the "Andrea and Marcel's Date" series of pics.and while I think I have a pretty good grasp on writing as a whole I still need practice and can improve in different areas. Though luckily for me I seem to have a good list of possible story ideas I can write.

Now when it comes to comics I have two ideas on how to go about this. Basically before I even make the pages/panels I plan on writing out the events of a given comic so that there is a sort of framework to work off of when making the actual comic. So I was thinking about doing this one of two ways:
1.) I write out the story draft for the comics and post them here for anyone who wants to read the story in a text format, then later on begin to release the same story in comic form
2.) Write out the story, but don't post the text version and instead just post the comic pages when they are made.

Not sure which to do, so figured I'd ask and see what you all would like in terms of this. I mean idk if many people really care about the stories to begin with but eh may as well ask those who do.

Aaaaanyway, that's about it. If any of you have suggestions on how to improve my writing then by all means let me know. Otherwise see you next time I end up posting a thing

Right so I sorta dropped off on here for a few months. Sorry about that. But honestly those of you who knew me back on DA are probably used to me going dark out of nowhere (Not that it's a good thing as I seriously need to stop doing that but I digress)

To put it simply I had what someone may call an "existential crisis". I questioned if I even liked making art, if what I made could be something I can be proud of, and for a minute there actually considered to stop drawing completely because honestly for a good month or two I couldn't even put pencil to paper to attempt a sketch because I just felt so anxious. Sorta felt like I wasn't drawing because I wanted to, but just because my friends and others seemed to like it.

That all being said, I am back. And happy to say that I am in a much better headspace now. In fact I am probably in a better mindset than I have had in years. Plus not only am I enjoying art again, but I'm taking more time with each sketch as I genuinely enjoy the process. Hell I'm even playing with the idea of writing stories.

Going forward I'm gonna put more emphasis on making stuff I want to create and maybe experiment with some stuff. And yes I fully intend on making DiD/GiD art still, for a minute I wasn't sure but honestly I'd be lying of I said I didn't like making it. Plus hey you guys seem to enjoy it so...

As for that comic I started, "Gracie's Great Escape", I may put that on a small Hiatus. Mainly because I would like to more properly write a storyline for it, but also because I would like to improve my skill before making more. And honestly I would rather not force it out, as I believe the quality of the comic would be damaged should I try and pump pages out inspite of not actually being passionate about the project. I know some people wanted more of that comic, and I am sorry. I will return to it at a later date.

Sorry for not posting anything. But essentially my Bro probably had cancer. And more recently accidentally fired off a 9mm into his upper torso. He is completely fine all things considered. But things have been stressful and I haven't felt like drawing.

If you wanna talk feel free to send a message or whatever. I will try and post at some point. But I just wanted to toss this journal out here so ya'll know why I'm not really posting anything.

By the way lads. If any of you wanna suggest picture ideas or whatever, feel free to.

I will not guarantee that I will do a given request/picture idea, but I might. Like.... 50/50 chance. Idk. Essentially just comment any picture ideas you want me to doodle in this journal or something. Aaaaaaand I may or may not draw it. (Tho I will tell you if I decide to draw the given idea.)

And I can't guarantee that I'll draw it because if I do then there is a chance that I'll get overwhelmed with projects. And having a million different drawings that you need to do is just a headache in it's own right. Soooo.... No guarantees. Think of this like the "Doodle lottery" or something. Idk.

So I may not draw often at times. Buuut I am gonna start posting on this account. Sometimes just character sketches. Otherwise bondage drawings or whatever I happen to have felt like doodling at the time.

Hope ya'll enjoy. Otherwise have fun staring at the random pictures I happen to post. :b

Welp, guess it's time to dive into this. And to start, I guess introductions are in order.

My name is Andrew, and on top of being a autistic clusterfuck, I have manic depression. Something that has been eating away at me for about three years now. Normally I like to be alone and interact with people through Xbox live, DA, and at School. However, It seems this isn't enough now that I go to College and rarely see my friends. Depression worsens here and there, blah blah blah, and we get to the point where I realize that I'm not social enough.

In recent months, I've noticed that I haven't really been talking to people much. And I guess I eventually figured that being a bit more social would help. But before I do that, I have to plant myself somewhere.

So.... I guess this is it. I don't really see myself as a Furry, but I do admit that I like anthropomorphic characters a bit more then is probably normal. Something that I will attribute to the fact that I was a die-hard Sonic The Hedgehog fan when I was younger.

Also figured, sense most of my watchers on DA are some kind of furry, it was only natural to sink deeper into the community. Besides, a have a few friends who are furries. So I really don't have much against the community. It also helps that, for better or worse, there is always something interesting to look at. :b

So.... Yeah, I guess that's about it. Expect more to come and such.