Sorry for the inactivity. I have been nostalgic lately about many things. I am young and have a very long road of life still ahead of me, but 21 years of existence have given me a lot to look back on. This one in particular is focused on the time I stepped into the internet, reminiscing all the things I have done to get to where I am right now.

I started when I was 13. A young boy who was fascinated by Flash animations and games.

I got into Neopets, the first internet game I ever played.

The moment my first issue got published in that site's "newspaper", I got to join my first forum.

I had been a catboy.

I had been a pretend-father to a girl about the same age as I was.

The next year, I started drawing, posting everything on DeviantART.

The moment high school started, I had been wayward, and threatened to leave the forum in a fit of childish rage and misunderstanding.

At the age of 15, I found out about porn.

The same year, I had my teen time consumed by the birth of MMO games: Ragnarok Online and Gunbound spearheading my discovery of love for videogames.

I got into a specific game, osu!, where I eventually got to be a moderator for the first time.

At 16, I became more aware of what I can be doing: I started drawing more, and dabbed into making animations as well as trying out other art crafts.

The migration into Canada has left me with a lot to explore: FurAffinity, InkBunny and 4chan just among the countless list I surfed in.

At the age of 19, I got swept along the birth of social networking, joining Facebook to connect with my relatives.

Just a few months ago, I realized I can voice-act, and started making good use of my voice to explore more of what I can do.

And right now, at the age of 21, I'm chatting with you guys. I look back at all the things I have done, and I can only say it's been one hell of a ride... and it's definitely not ending anytime soon.

Hello! I'm looking for someone who can go to Anthrocon (http://www.anthrocon.org/) to buy a comic on my behalf. I'm looking particularly for someone who's already planning to go there and wouldn't mind doing something extra along their trip. I will pay for the comic, shipping and extra fees for the deed, but I am open to negotiations. Contact me via e-mail (vytalibus@yahoo.com) for specifics, details and interests.

Because I fucking told you!

Help quench my friend's thirst for virtual items, and you might please him long enough to please you as well!

(This is also the best opportunity to hurl all your unwanted crates his way.)

This is mainly another try on a new stream site. It's really great for quick streams, though the lack of chatrooms forced me to get a new one from Chatango, so for the best experience open both links!

Stream: http://www.veemi.com/watch?v=vytdraws

Chat: http://vytdraws.chatango.com/

I'll be doing some sketches of some requests I've obtained for the last few weeks.

EDIT: STREAM IS OFFLINE, but I'm saving this journal for future use.

Even someone who knows a lot about the perverted side of the fandom such as myself just isn't capable of making a general consensus on which character has received the biggest amount of Rule 34 goodness. Because of that (and since my list of things to draw right now seems to lean on the unheard-of), I'd like to hear YOUR opinion on who that character may be.

Since we're in a site with an affinity to fur, I'd like to restrict the scope to only furry characters. I understand that there is a LOT of non-furry characters, and it'd be easier to find a certain trend if a limitation on the range is implemented.

Even if the character is too obvious (I'm looking at you, Krystal fans), post it still! There's nothing much consistent than several people nominating the same character.

And one more thing? I normally don't do this, but if you know someone who might be able to give their opinions, send them to this journal entry. Their input will certainly be appreciated, and I ask for nothing more.

EDIT: I'd like to comment that OC (original creation) characters will not be included. Even if they've received a huge amount of porn, either the thing they belong to or the characters themselves have to be known by the general public to be considered (that being said, OC characters based on well-known characters will also be excluded).

The list right now (in no particular order):
Renamon (Digimon)
Krystal (Star Fox)
Lucario (Pokemon)
Gadget Hackwrench (Chip 'n Dale Rescue Rangers)

Some mentions (would like some more confirmation OR added by myself from searching):
Amy Rose (Sonic)
Rouge the Bat (Sonic)
Sally Acorn (Sonic)
Guilmon (Digimon)
Gatomon (Digimon)
Pikachu (Pokemon)
(Disney's Robin Hood) <Which character?>
(My Little Pony) <Assumably "Friendship is Magic"? Which character?>
Gardevoir (Pokemon) <Added by myself, needs confirmation>
Flamedramon (Digimon) <Added by myself, needs confirmation>

I set up some goals at the start of 2011, and now I look back to see if I've done them. Why do it in the middle of November? Because considering everything that's about to happen to me in a few weeks, I won't be able to finish any remaining goals.


** Upload an (actual) animation **
If you've followed me for a few months, I think this is a given. I've made four short animations which really helped me visualize how to animate a lot.

** Create a comic **
Sadly, this has not gone very well. This was supposed to help me create a proper mindset for doing long-term projects, but it seems I still haven't gotten the knack of it.

** Learn to shade **
I think this year has been considerably grateful for me in terms of shading. With the help of tutorials and friend advices, I'm well on my way to understanding light sources and shadows. I may have not implemented a mastery of it yet, but I'm pretty confident to say I'm on the right track.

** Post a short story **
Unlike my dilemma with comics, this is simply a case of not being able to whip up a good story. Either it's too cliche or too generic, which to admit is something I have not been able to get out of.

** Get the attention of a famous artist **
And by that, I only meant "get a watch from someone I watched", and I did. This is a very shallow goal, but I wouldn't be happier to have finished it.

** Finish a commission **
About five different people asked me for a commission, and I never got to finish even one of them. It's really hard to get inspired to finish when your only motivation is monetary.


But hey, 2012 is just around the corner, and I still have a lifetime to complete those remaining goals as well as new ones that I will be making and promising myself.

I'd like to stray from my usual serious journals to bring you an astounding text-based adventure game. Enter Flexible Survival.

If you are aware of Fenoxo's Corruption of Champions or Xadera's Nimin - Fantasy Fetish Game, or would just like a challenging "survival" text-based game with similar features, then I highly recommend you give Flexible Survival a shot. Here's the game's intro, to give you a mental image:

"You remember how it went down. Satellite, gone, Internet, offline. The power was the last thing to go, just a precious hour later. People wandered the streets, confused, panicked. Then they came. Monsters, freaks. They'd grab people. Some got mauled on the spot. Some fought back. You did what you could, but you managed to get here, to safety. The bunker. You remember seeing that stupid bunker sign for years, who knew remembering it would save your life? You waited for others to come. Surely you were not the only one to remember?
No one else ever arrived. Ah well, you're an American of the 21st century. What's a little Apocalypse to keep you down? Steeling your nerves and readying what little supplies you have, you break the seal and set out."

Of course, the whole game is literally cluttered with sexual themes and fetishes, but what really attracted me to this is how fleshed-out the game is right now. Different difficulties and a WHOLE LOT of areas and NPCs to encounter make every attempt different and engaging. From abandoned lots to the Red Light District, from the dry plains to a hideout for hyenas, the possibilities are endless in terms of what and who you meet. It takes quite awhile to get used to the "keyword" system they use to control the game, but once you're out of that awkward phase, you're bound to actually go for the game's goals and/or reach your own goals (I personally am trying to beat the game without actually losing on any fight; call me weird for that).

If you're looking for an engaging text-based adventure full of fetishes, this game will cater to your interest. And with an active and growing list of people who contribute to additional content, who wouldn't have their fill?

So a curious Google search landed my drawings into scrutiny with some online communities, mostly with the NSFW ones I made. I kind of expected it since not many people appreciate them, and I don't mind them voicing their disgust at my works (considering they don't like their "fandom" being destroyed by mere depictions of sexual gratification).

However, to go as far as to convince people that this should stop... Well, I think that's going a bit too far.

I don't know about how the artists around me react to this, but my personal claim is simple: if you don't want it, don't look at it. Don't get me wrong: it's not my intention to isolate those who appreciate my work from those who don't. In fact, I appreciate any constructive comments and criticism, positive or negative, that anyone might have on my works, and I'll do my best to answer to them or at least keep them in mind.

However, to simply tell one to stop what they're doing requires one to justify and bring up a convincing reason why. And I honestly believe that what I am doing right now harms no one but the ones who force themselves to believe they are being harmed by my work. It may come off as stubborn, but my take is that the only ones who really are offended by viewing my work are the ones who viewed it without actually considering what the nature of my work is. This is the same reason why I take the time to make those thumbnails, and actually put in them tags of what they contain. With these in mind, I have yet to be totally convinced by anyone that what I do actually does sufficient harm to create the notion to stop it.

I draw what comes at me, whether from my own imagination or that of others. I respect the notion that not all people will appreciate my work, and take every precautions necessary to warn my viewers. I try to do my part, no matter how questionable the themes are, in a professional and respectful way. I know I cannot ask everyone to smarten up while viewing my works, but at least one has to look at themselves first before they act and react.

I don't understand why some of the artists I've seen post their works online, then yank them off afterwards. A lot of us (including me) put our old works on a different gallery for various reasons. However, to show one's works in public, and then remove them completely seems a bit unreasonable. It brings no benefits for the artist and the public, and undermines the whole point of showing your works to the public in the first place.

I don't know about you, but I find it very unprofessional, even inconsiderate for one to hide what they have once shown to everyone around. Even ignoring the responses it gets from the people around, I'm not sure what to make up with the reasons the artist has for themselves. To me, it looks like one is abhorring their own works, the same works that they have poured time and effort on. It's almost a spit on the process to create those works, and the process that we undergo to have them seen by those around.

This is especially so on the internet; anything can spread like wildfire. If one's public work get posted on another site, and they think it shouldn't be there, who is there to blame? Is it the fault of the poster, who just merely happened to encounter their work and decided to distribute it somewhere else? Not unless that poster starts claiming it's their work, which I won't cover here for the sake of my argument's scope. If something that has been publicly-accessed is taken down, there will be someone who at least remembers it. The result is either the work gets uploaded (against the will of the artist) by those who have it, or the source is simply scrutinized and questioned for their reasons on making them public on the first place.

I am not here to scold those who hide their works after keeping them in public for some time. They are entitled to do whatever they want with their own works. My point here is that everyone who posts their works (or anyone else's) for the public to see must be aware of the consequences and feedback they will be receiving before they actually proceed with the post. Because once something is visible to the public, it remains in their mind even when it's gone. An artist must have no regrets once they have completely understood the events that might happen to their public works.

A line is but a line.

It can straighten and curve
It can be shortened or extended
It can be of one or more colors
And it can connect with other lines.

The connection forms other things
Lines make letters, lines make shapes
Lines make words, lines make objects
Multitude of lines create.

Lines harmonize and take life
Perspective and imagination
Knowledge and opinion
It knows no boundaries, no limits.

But where it all comes down, a line is but a line
Yet where it can take us, only you can define.

If either you noticed it or are frantically searching for some stuff, I moved them to the Scraps. I will be doing this occasionally just to clean up.

Coco Bandicoot
Flamedramon
Almighty Tallest Miyuki (Invader Zim)
Katia Managan from PREQUEL
Nidoqueen/Kangaskhan
Big Top, Agent S, Kid Cat
Sweet Valerian
Mametchi / Chamametchi
Swadloon
Buffalo Bell (The Japanese Baseball Mascot, mind you)
Shots of each guy getting into it with you-know-who
や。。。　やめて。。。
抜いて下さい。。。
Moogles and Pookas.
Tristana (League of Legends)

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If you understood why I have this list, you can ask for me to do one of them.

Telling someone to stop criticizing other people just because they can't do what said people do seems to be a questionable thought. Each and every single one of us are different from the other; we will have our own different views on different things. Calling someone out just because they think differently from their views is an ignorance on the differences between people.

But what's more appalling is that people do this with the reason that they are unable to do it, so they should not say anything about it. I say, if we only filter opinions just so we would hear it from those who we claim have the capability to do the same thing, we not only lull ourselves into a false sense of security and compliment, but also believe that someone who does not do the same thing cannot simply comprehend what is going on.

Comprehensive criticisms do not need a requirement that the critic does the same thing. Because otherwise, there would be no comprehensive criticisms at all; just the same view that the originator has.

I find it confusing that fictional pornography (those dealing with entirely fictional characters on a variety of mediums) is filtered by government laws and codes as if they're connected to real pornography. They're two completely-different sides, yet they're given the same treatment. This especially comes in full effect whenever a legal case is brought up against people who possess these pornographic materials of fiction.

I've always thought that we have already established a sense of suspended disbelief whenever we encounter fiction of any kind: that we know it could be based of, but never the actual reality. We've had fictional books, films and stories containing murder, political corruption and the likes, and they're judged solely from their fictional aspect. And yet whenever we talk about pornography, we put each and every single material that appeals to the sensual side of the mind in one huge umbrella. I know their purposes are the same, but that does not mean they must be subjected to the same kind of rules that must be followed.

I do understand that in most countries, fictional pornography containing widely-accepted sexual norms is allowed. However, while this caters to the majority of the population, this seems to create a huge rift between them and the minority, simply because those who think otherwise are subjected to rude judgment and, at worst, legal cases. All because they are shown to be infatuated towards objects created by the fragments of the mind.

I am also aware of the fact that people connect these into real-life crimes; that they are motivations for criminals to do their bidding. While I will admit that there have been real cases such as this (rapists who admitted that they 'learned' their way are not uncommon), just removing that possibility does not really, in any way, stop those criminals. It's feeble and immature to conclude that this kind of filtering will prevent them from getting encouraged. Personally, I believe this is more on the part of those in authority to educate these people. We keep confusing the innocent term "imagination" with the politically-degraded term "motivation", and instead use the media as a "scapegoat" for the incompetence of those in authority to educate.

Fiction comes from millions of alternate worlds; several are based from the real world, but nonetheless all are woven by the nigh-limitless boundaries of imagination. Yet as of today, there is one overlooked aspect of it that is still subjected to worldly laws and rules. We may have already abolished the stoning and persecution of so-called "witches", but here we are, doing the same thing to people who imagine too much.

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EDIT (10-02-11): It's sad to see that some of those who support censoring pornography in general goes on to say "pornography is bad". I honestly think that this is not an issue of morality, but that of expression. If we let our morality go into the way of expression, we are surrendering our will to decide. Are we that dumb enough that we need someone else to interfere with our decisions?

Censorship in general does little to solve the moral issues that are supposedly tied with the lack of it, anyway. Those who do not follow the medium being censored are simply unaffected (or in a negative connotation, uneducated by its contents). Those who do follow it are simply informed of their contents; it is up to them to decide whether to act according to it or not. It is a slippery slope argument to say that the medium will certainly shape us into what they represent; it is simply based on "assumptions" that we hide behind so-called "morals". People do not do stuff because they are told or informed about it; they do so because they decided to. Influence does not equal reason.

I'd like to leave this topic with a quote from a professor in Ohio: ""I remember a news story in central Ohio from more than 30 years ago. A middle-aged man was arrested for having adult pornography in his home. He killed himself. Isn't it time we stop tormenting people for what they do in private and which harms no one?"

I can already feel the effects of aging growing on me. I'm a usually naive and persistent person who will try to think otherwise, but even I know it's an inevitable process.

So what's with this opening? I figured now that I entered my 20s half a year ago, I will be constantly busy minding my own life (university, work) to be able to do what I used to do during the past few years. I'm not one to suck myself into the downward spiral of monotonous work and university studies, but I do have to prioritize what is important for me to maintain a stable lifestyle.

That is to say, I have already begun on my sporadic activity on the internet. I don't even play video-games as hard and long as I used to be.

In advance, I'd like to thank you all for watching me and favoriting/commenting on my artworks. Saying this makes it feel like a farewell statement, but I'm just reassuring you that your input, whatever it is, has been very much appreciated. Whenever I do get the time to do my internet thing, I always look back to my past works and the experiences I got from showing them to the public.

This isn't the end of my run. I do have a couple more decades to go before I start to lose my touch. Before then, I'd like to do the things I love and the things I need to accomplish.

All I know of these games is the release dates: EverQuest II was released on 2004, and The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion was released on 2006. Whenever I look around FA for random pictures, I see lots of references to these games and the races in them. I'm no big fan of RPG games, but constant prods from the pictures just made me curious about these games.

Perchance someone can tell me what makes these games so interesting?

I have had it with you and your ignorance. You think you’re doing yourself a favor by standing idly and letting every opportunity get past you? Just look at you. You have done so little, yet think so highly of yourself. You keep on repeating to yourself “Tomorrow will come!” as an excuse not to go with your plan today. And you let it all to regret by the end!

You always had to rely on so-called “inspiration”, thinking you can only do your stuff if something just kicked you on the head and basically handed everything to you on a silver platter. Well that’s some lazy shit you’re going through now! Heck, you even lie to yourself by setting up excuses so no one can question your inactivity! Look at yourself now, just brooding about things like “I’M NOT IN THE MOOD” or “I HAVE REAL-LIFE THINGS TO HANDLE” (which, by the way, is such a shitty reason to hear). You think your goals are a joke? Snap out of it and get back to reality, you moron!

Get a grip. Opportunities are made, not found. They will rarely pass by you and give you a hint of what to do. You yourself will have to create your own opportunities. You say you want to be an artist. An animator. A video game programmer. A writer. But all of those need constant effort from you, and frankly you aren’t putting enough to reach that goal.

You obviously are undermining the value of hard work. Just because someone makes something look easy does not mean you can replicate it. I do not know if you’re just thinking too highly of yourself, but I can certainly tell you yourself are not catching up to your own standards. And no, not doing it does not give you an excuse at all. It only tells us you are not doing anything at all.

Take a good look at yourself. And take a good look at what you say you wanted to be. You have to really hit yourself by the head and get to work. No one can help you reach that but yourself.

I've been planning on taking commissions in for quite some time now. I'm pretty aware that my level of art proficiency really isn't on par with most artists that offer commissions, but to be honest I'm not really worried about that.

I'm more worried about commissions breaking my pace.

I don't usually draw stuff because people asked me to. The few times that I did, it was because I was interested in the idea AND I found the time to do it. But most of the time, I let my own self judge if I'm really up to drawing at that particular moment. A lot of people might call it laziness, but my principle is never to force myself to draw if I can't really bring myself up to do it.

It's because of that principle that keeps me from taking commissions.

However, I am open to the discussion of the possibility of taking commissions. I do drawings as a hobby, but the fact that I can earn some pocket money doing it if I wanted to has always intrigued me for awhile. I keep thinking that taking commissions might ruin how I perceive my drawing procedures, though.

So to you readers that actually spent time looking at this journal, perhaps you can offer me some encouraging words on this? I want to take commissions, but I don't want to get myself depressed over the idea. Maybe you've done commissions before, so your experience might calm my confused mind down.

I always find a way for me to keep my Japanese comprehension skills fresh, may it be reading articles written in Japanese or listening to unsubbed Japanese shows. Lately, I've been wanting to try this out, and today I've decided to at least start with it: translating doujins.

This image shows better what I'm trying to say:
http://img822.imageshack.us/i/ts01f.jpg/

First of all, I do not claim ownership of the image. I am merely a novice translator for this doujin, simply because no one has ever thought of translating it as of yet (seeing as this does not have a mainstream following, I might have a lot of time before someone else thinks of translating the comic).

We'll see how this goes.

(I'm not sure if posting a link of that image in this journal violates any FA rule; since it's a redirect to a source outside the site, I figured it's probably fine)

EDIT: Done with the rough script. Apparently it's the end of the world, and Klonoa's to blame.

You've seen them in cereal boxes. You've seen them in batteries. You've even seen them in FIFA World Cups. But have you seen them in all their nude/erotic glory?

I always think of new stuff to engage in, and for now, I've thought of drawing Rule 34 for commercial mascots. Why Rule 34? Because I am the self-proclaimed expert of it.

Got any mascots you want to be 34'd? Post them here! I will very much prefer it if you post a reference image to it, as well as what you want to see in it. Keep the fetishes minimal, though; I'm still not used to drawing most of the stuff I see.

And sorry, I'm not talking about blood donations...

I've been... strangely fascinated by horror games lately. Fascinated to a point that I want to build an interactive story off of it. Of course, with me being completely directionless in terms of building something up, I figured I might want to get some input from you.

But first of all, I'll have to explain where I want to go. You know how some people make it so that readers have perspective of a character in a story, and how they are able to at least give suggestions to them? It's obviously not possible in traditional mediums (books can't take suggestions! Well, except for those "Choose Your Own Adventure" ones), but they are in stuff like imageboards and such. In fact, if you've heard of Ruby Quest, you probably already know what I'm talking about.

I'm not asking for what kind of horror story I should be implementing though, 'coz that means I'm being too dependent. In fact, I only have a simple question.

What makes a horror/suspense story captivating to you/the viewers?

It's a very general question; one that lets me pool up all the possible answers and see where I can go from there. It'll tremendously help me figure out a backstory to a potentially-interesting story.

On a side note, I should really stop looking around Youtube for "Demonophobia death scenes". As much as I am strangely irked out and non-sensually aroused by them at the same time, it does not help my cause.

EDIT: Hopefully I'm not being attacked with Ryona fetish. That'd be disgusting...

As you might have heard, an 8.9-magnitude earthquake struck Japan at around 3 o'clock PM (as what I heard in some sources) in their time. Because of me meeting some Japanese teachers last year, I can't help but feel worried about their safety. So first of all, I'd like to send my condolences to those affected by the earthquake and the tsunami: not just the Japanese people, but everyone else as well.

That being said, I think I had a heads-up on the news.

I was browsing Pixiv (a Japanese art gallery site, for those who do not know) past midnight when something strange was going on. Pixiv, a site that rarely gets errors, went down for most parts (strangely, their main page is still up, but judging by how it is translated in English I'm thinking it's set up internationally). It was around 1 AM in my time when it happened.

And knowing that we're 15 hours away from Japan, I thought something was going on. Too bad I didn't really know how grave it was, but it did give me a fair warning.

Everyone in my Japanese class was depressed by the news, really. Some of us were in the D-level (one level higher than mine) and met other Japanese teachers and students that I didn't get the chance to. They were extremely worried about them as well.

Here's to hoping this disaster will be resolved and acted upon sooner.

EDIT: Looking around other sites for reaction, I find it... more depressing... that people talk about "the end of the world" rather than the disaster itself. Preachings here, scares there... I'm especially furious of the ones that talk of "the second coming", as if they're certain about it happening right now. I'm not going to dwell into it any further, but I'm just infuriated that people aren't reaching out to the victims and instead fend for themselves.

It's too early for that.

EDIT: Looks like amidst all the trouble in Japan, Pixiv has gone back up. I'm pretty sure things aren't still stable in there, but for the internet community it seems to be going back to business... 皆さんが　大丈夫といいです。。。

Many of you might not know, but I've been learning Japanese for six months now. I consider myself a beginner when it comes to the Japanese language, but nonetheless I'm trying my best to understand it, along with the Japanese culture.

As a result, I've started posting some of my stuff on Pixiv, a Japanese art gallery site. Originally, I only made an account there for following some of the Japanese artists, but lately I find myself learning more about their language the more time I spend there. I'm hoping this will further broaden my knowledge about Japan and its culture, as well as getting to know some people from there.

If you're interested, you can check my page here.

EDIT: Looks like I'll have to do some extra work if I ever decide to post my adult stuff in there, what with the censorship in Japan and all.

Not many know this, but I am a collector of rare Japanese R-18 comics, namely "doujin" (for those with characters from known anime/manga) or "manga" (for those with original characters). While I focus on digital works posted online (distributing them with prior permission), I've been thinking about buying some no-digital-copy works for awhile.

I'm wondering if anyone around here has an idea of what I'm talking about, and if they might be able to help me out with international shipping of certain works that are not commercially available in my place (Toronto, Canada).

Anyway, to business, I'm currently looking for a way to order "マニュ様がアレやコレやされる本" by someone named "Black Fang" on Pixiv. I'm aware they aren't accepting orders yet until March 20th, but I'm hoping someone can answer me with desirable replies.

Information about my current hunt:
http://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=62804
http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust......st_id=16353651

UPDATE #1: I just received a direct reply from the artist at Pixiv, and they've confirmed that international mail ordering is not available. Looks like they're distributing it locally, which means I'll either have to get a middleman (preferably someone who lives in Japan and can ship them off) or wait for someone else to get the copy themselves. I usually follow the latter part, but the drawing style made me curious about buying a copy myself.

UPDATE #2: Fur-st, a Japanese kemono doujinshi event, is coming up (currently listed to happen in March 20, but will probably change due to the ongoing incident in Japan), and it turns out that Black Fang will be there to sell copies of their work locally. WHY MUST THEY TAUNT ME SO?!

I'm still looking for a middleman, though.

UPDATE #3:!!! (NSFW)

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