Somebody do an art trade with me maybe??? let me draw you something stupid in return for an icon? The one I have is the first one I ever made for this account and idk I want something new.

deer, ,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when you peed your pants last year in your apartment and I saw you sit on my My Little Pony collection. I'm sure you're middle-class enough to understand that you need a sex change. I'm returning your toe ring, but keeping your neighbor's dog as a memory. You should know that I love your sweet, sweet ass and you should stop picking your nose.

I love Oprah,
Walf


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4855074/

so
some of you may??? know that i'm going to be moving in with and relatively soon. and for those of you who have kept up with my journals for the past couple of years almost, you know how long i've been anticipating my first move.

but i just learned that it may be much sooner than anticipated. personally, i was hoping i had another 2 months. but it turns out that it may be another 2 weeks. we've been searching the ass crack of craigslist trying to find a decent place that fit our budget and it seems like they found one today. by the time i move out, i'll probably have about 3k in my savings and another $500 that my mother will be paying back to me in bi-monthly installments of $50 each deposit (until paid back entirely).

however,
that means i'm going to have to scramble to solidify a new job with lightening speed and somehow figure out how to make do with the small amount in my savings. so far, it's looking like deposits for the house are going to be around $1,000 just for my share alone- a third of my savings. Then the deposit for our electricity... which i'm not quite sure how that will work out. FPL is a confusing company. So, assuming that my electricity deposit is like $200 at most, that leaves $1,800 in my savings. Then, I have little things in my car that need to be replaced at some point or another. But I'm spazzing too hard so I'm gonna put that off for a while. Of course, the initial acquiring of furnishings and kitchen supplies is going to wipe me out quite a bit as well.

So, I'm hoping to at least retain $1,000 of the original $3,000 in my savings.

WOW BEING AN ADULT IS HARD

but, real talk, what do you suggest i do? where do i start? is there any little tips and tricks i should know?
aaahhhhh fuckin hell

i get bored easy and i've been stuck on benson and hedges light menthol (aka old people cigarettes) and i'm ready to try something else!!

tell me why you like the brand and what about the taste makes it so special!!

and just to give you an idea, i've smoked:

marlboro smoothes
marlboro ultra light
marlboro menthol
marlboro black menthol
marlboro skyline
camel light
camel full flavor
camel light menthol
camel no 9
parliament light
parliament menthol
newports
newport smoothes
benson and hedges light menthol

give me something new and exciting!! and will kill me faster!!



p.s.

i had some other obscure brand that i meant to try... gave me one. it was in a white soft pack with like a red block or stripe on it?? i don't remember because i drunkenly gave the pack of cigarettes it was hiding in to somebody. does anybody know what i'm talking about?

wow!!! this was most definitely the most exciting convention i've ever experienced. i was able to meet so many of my favorite artists and meet new people and artists that i should have known a long time ago.

i definitely regret not being so active with my art anymore and it was really nice to meet people who were still encouraging of me.

anyway, the majority of the convention was a shit load of shenanigans from a great group of rowdy shits. if you were there, i'm sure you saw the scooter gang hootin n hollerin down the streets of pittsburgh at one point during your stay. and for that, you should thank , , and who also doubled as really kick-ass roommates!

also that handsome guy but also and who were temporary roommates but also carmates on the way to pa.

and on the subject of people!!!
shout-outs to:

for being an animal crossing character
for being the cutest creature i've ever met
for being his normal hot self
for being a sweet little sweetie pie
for being ultra great and also providing booze!!
for being super humble and drawing tons of shit for me!
for just being a great person to talk to in general
for tearing shit up on the dance front
for tolerating my awkward but frequent "hello"s
for his very educational view on men's rights activism
for kicking ass at cards against humanity
for being totally chill with the fact that the entire room around him was definitely watching some guy shove his finger up his butt out of the window.

there were many more people who i was able to at least converse with for a short while and i wish i could have spent much more time with all of you!! thanks for being wonderful! i hope i was able to smooch the majority of you!

tell me!!
im so excited to go this year and i'm looking forward to meeting you!! UuU

i went to furry weekend atlanta this year and found myself a bit lost. met a lot of really wonderful people but i really cant wait to meet more!!

love always
walf

wow.

for the first time in my life (as far as I can remember- at least within 7 years), my thighs touched today. I wish I could tell you how proud I am of myself or how I worked so hard to become comfortable enough with myself to allow healthy weight gain. but instead, I felt sick and disgusted.

I feel gross. Not only because of my weight gain, but because I can't see any healthiness or beauty in it. I'm disgusted by my thoughts. I've always felt that women with wonderful healthy thighs are beautiful. I've always love the shape of fat on a woman's body. so why is it so disgusting on me?

but I feel foreign in my own body. The one thing I used to fight so hard against is finally claiming me. fat. healthy fat, but fat nonetheless. I thought that if I just started eating what I wanted, felt acceptable of my appearance, and just enjoyed myself, I could gain weight and feel okay.

to put it into perspective, I'm not very confident in myself. I haven't posted art in months because I'm embarassed and disappointed that I couldn't make something better. Fucking Reiker... I've made them so much art but I have avoided posting anything or communicating because I'm not confident on what I've made. So many pieces laying around drawers and crumpled under books. I'm so sorry guys.

anyway, i just don't feel really good about things anymore. and I'm sorry for just sort of avoiding fa in general. I keep falling back into my self harm habits, eating way too much from stupid fucking emotions, and making my fiancé break down from watching me do this to myself. I've just been so weird about life lately, that I'm embarassed to even be on an art site- seeing all of this beautiful work vs my one dimensional shit.

I'm sorry guys. you're all fabulous. and I'm truly, genuinely sorry for not being as involved anymore.

x
walf

ps
sorry for being a weird emotional little shit. but you all deserved to know.

I just got home from a holiday party with my boyfriend.
Sounds great, right?

Well we thought it'd be a great idea to bring our sketchbooks and draw together.

But I just realized I forgot my sketchbook with him
It usually stays in my car, but for some reason, he brought it inside with him.
And I can't get it back until Christmas later in the day.

Why is that awful?
Because I literally just got done telling somebody their work would be uploaded soon.
except for the fact that my work is in that fucking skETCHBOOK AAAHHH./////

I think I have one piece that I took a picture on my phone, but it's for and that will be submitted relatively soon. But everything else will be delayed until at least the 25th or 26th.

/sobs

GOSH
since when did i reach over 400 over you guys?
aaahhh wow

um hello to all of you
/gosh i'm kind of embarrassed because i really don't deserve your attention!!!

anyway,
sorry for lack of art.
i have a ton of finished stuff lying around. but i don't ever like to post it because i never think it's good enough and then get sad and embarrassed about it and never do anything.

but eilavue is making me suck it up and post my sad little drawings.

/cries
i love you furry people. so lovely.

gosh
so expect art tomorrow

sorry for this weird unpredicted hiatus!!!(!!)
i would post stuff tonight but i am dead tired.

work has been giving me a lot of extra hours because im a dedicated worker and all that good stuff.
appparently im one of the few who give a shit.

um anyway im sorry again

as for an update
I found a really nice apartment for $515 a month which i will split with my bf.
we toured it and it was really perfect and ridic/ cheap!
I've also been workin my ass off and I guess my manager saw that and has been giving me substantial hours.

and ive really just become an adult. my 18th is in 8 days, so im prettyyyy stoked about it. UHM I've also experienced a lot of really new things in life that I guess come along with adulthood and relationships and stuff. It's been interesting. However, I've also grown somewhat distant with a lot of those who used to be close to me. I hope to rebuild my personal relationships with people after I get everything sorted out if it's not too late by then.

UwU

Love you
Walf

What lovely information, mom.

What brought this about, you might ask?
Well, fasten your seat belts, kiddies. It's gonna be one crazy ass fucking ride.

So I'm sure you guys know already that my family does a shitty job of handling their finances.

Anyway, my mom shuts down in tough situations so I was forced to go to food banks/do errands/give her $2000 to pay for shit while she sat around being sad. She didn't even get a job until I just started getting angry with her. She kept saying she couldn't work because her wrist hurts. But now that she has one, her wrist problem has magically disappeared.

But back to the point,
the other day, my driving privilege as taken away because I never bought oil to put in our car.
However, I couldn't afford the oil. My boyfriend ended up buying it for me to cover my ass.

But my mom thought it was perfectly fine for her to ask me to go buy her some shit for the house and take the car to go do it the next day, instead of her getting off her ass to do it herself. And didnt she just take my privilege away??

So I told her that I would go buy this shit with my own money like she requested, if I was allowed to drive again (mind you, I pay for all of my own gas).

So she decided to tell me that it wasn't my fucking place to demand an ultimatum. And that she wants to kick me out the day I turn 18. It's just my stepdad who wont let her do that.

Long story short, she owes me $2000 as of right now. The money I was saving to get my ass out of here. The money that went towards supporting this family.

Currently, I have $50 to my name.
So, I'm welcoming all of the commissions I can get.

My boyfriend said it would be fine to room with me, so I would be paying about $600 a month in living expenses. I make $400 a month at work.

current commissions due:
sin. and reiker

It's a bit of an emergency because I have one month to save up enough to get out of here, so I would appreciate anybody who shares this journal.


Commissions range from $15-$40
just note me and we can talk something out.

Thanks
walf

wow so conspiracy theories are scary shit

anyway,
now that there are almost 400 (!!!!) of you, i want to get to know you guys

i'm mostly active on tumblr, so it'd be cool if you guys could drop your url here
i'm walfsworld.tumblr.com

thanks
walf

oh wow is this what happy feels like


aaahhh this is so stupid but hnnggg so wonderful.
i just realized how good things can be.

i know it's stupid and cliche' of a teenage girl, but i really think that my boyfriend has really brought me out of this ridiculous shell i've been living in. he's my first boyfriend, but he's been absolutely fantastic to me. it's strange having somebody so similar to you. somebody you can just talk to and have them completely understand and vice versa.

but it's really wonderful

i always imagined not ever loving somebody.
so i dwelled on that and just kind of put my walls up. because i thought i was destined to be alone anyway.

but it happened.
it took 17 years, but it did.

and god am i happy.

wow sorry for getting all personal and shit but wowowowowowww

hmm
I think I'm ready to start drawing more stuff for you guys.

since my mom currently owes me $2,000 which I won't get back until next year, I think it's appropriate to make some money that she can't fuck with. *u*

plus I still have to get my best friend and my boyfriend birthday presents. :I

anyway-
here's a list of cool shit I can do:

colored character drawing- $15
b/w character drawing- $10
extra character- +$5

if you have other ideas (like icons and large images), then we can discuss a fair price.

love love love

we don't want that happening, do we?

she's got some kick ass commission slots open.
here's her journal for more information on how to help a brotha out:

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3728664/

it would be cool if you guys could give her a signal boost and make a journal for her so she doesn't die or get sick or something ya know.

and I found a glitch.



if you post a journal without writing a subject title, your watchers will get a message saying "this journal has been deleted by poster"

i dare you to try it

HUMANS WHJAT ARE YSOME GOODE BUFFESTS
THANK YIDU

hmm
i have so many things to tell you guys

but as for now,
be prepared to get a bunch of artwork/commission work throughout today and tomorrow

xoxo
walf

All sketches are a go!
Drop me a comment or a note if there's anything you'd like to see and edit.

Thank you for the commissions and the extra help. :)
It's great to have people help you out in a time of need.

Here's the list.

character sketch image (colored) -paid
detailed character image -paid
two character image -paid
two seperate character sketch images -paid

my family's in a bit of a crunch right now, so we can't really afford much. I'm digging into my savings to help my mom out because she's stressing out. she asked me if i could "do that online drawing stuff".

so, i'd really appreciate some commission work so we can pick up some groceries.

i know i have yet to upload sin's commission, so i'm sorry for that. i should be able to whip a better picture up soon.

comment below or send me a note if you're interested.

base price for sketches are $10
base price for detailed realistic images are $15

thank you.
i really appreciate all of the help i can get.

i go on tumblr more than i go on fa and i owe people things guhhh
i just don't like anything enough to actually post it yet

and for those of you who have a tumblr-!!!talk to me!!! walfsworld.tumblr.com because i actually like you guys

My friend is deciding to slam me for my decision, so I'd like to hear some suggestions from you guys! Favorite recipes? Good resources? Tell me!

A little back story-
My school Amnesty International club helped start No Meat March. For a while, I was a vegetarian, but stopped a couple of years ago because of parental differences. I figured that No Meat March would be a good way to get back into vegetarianism. I even convinced my mom to stock meat substitutes in the fridge for me. :)

That being said-
I've always loved meat, even, when I was a vegetarian (I'm more concerned about the treatment of factory farm-raised animals) . It was always more of a textural thing. So if you've got recipes for tofu, chances are I'll probably ignore it. I'm not big on gelatinous consistencies.

Thanks bros!

i could travel to new york all by myself for $32
that's 1,000 miles of traveling from where i am for $32

wow wow wow
i mean, there's a few transfers but

megabus is probably the greatest discovery of my life