Just posted a few comms earlier that I got. Gonna post more maybe tonight and tomorrow 💚

Hope all of you creatures have been doing very good 💚🥰

Today was pretty decent! Got a nice raise at my job (had to ask for it but you know still very good) and I feel like I got a lot done today.
More money is nice but obviously not working is the dream... someday maybe 😭

But anyways! commissioning is slowing down a lot. As much as I love getting art everything is getting more expensive so.. it is what it is. But yeah! Spirits are high after today and hopefully my car is getting fixed soon :3
Someone hit it while it was parked at my work but their insurance is paying for the repairs thank goodness.

Hope you are all doing well 💚🥰

Hope you've all been doing well as of late 💚💚

Just came here to talk some things out. Even if no one's reads these the proverbial wall shouting can help me a bit :3

Been dealing with a lot of work burnout lately. My job isn't bad. I just really dislike it. I don't get paid enough to live on my own and get health insurance. And I make too much to use any kind of state assistance or healthcare. I've also noticed a very big decline in the amount of patience I have with people as I've worked in IT more and more as a customer service repair tech. And I don't like that! I want to always be friendly and helpful but lately I haven't even really been able to emotionally support friends when they need it because I'm just so drained every single day.

Something's gotta change. And I know it does. I've been sending out job applications for months now with no luck. No one wants to hire someone in IT without a degree. And school is definitely not in the cards for me. So I persist. I will continue my work and just hope there's an opportunity for change soon. I sure need it.

Maybe someday I'll break free from the wage slave lifestyle and be able to enjoy the time I have every day. I sure hope that can happen 💚

Anyways. I hope you all have a good week. Appreciate the support as always and comments. I do read all of them! 💚💚

Just at work wanted to say hi to y'all 💚

Also big fat tummies on the mind today. Moreso making mine bigger 🥴

Hope you all are doing good :3

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH AAAAAA

Remember to always be true to who you are!! 💚💚

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Doing my best to be productive this weekend. Spending some time with the BF too ;3

Hope you are all having a good weekend too! 🥰

I've been having a nice weekend so far. Staying off social media and spending time with Sven 💚

Its been very nice and relaxing. Exactly what I've needed after the last couple of weeks with work >w<

Hope you are all having a good weekend too :3

The title is a joke lol, I know the site will be restored sometime soon X3

I hope you are all doing well though during this time!💚

Hope you've all been well.
Still dealing with a lot of issues myself but I'm doing my best to keep moving forward.
Thank you all for being around 🫂

Sorry for not posting stuff here for a bit! I got some things to share which I will hopefully get around to posting this week sometime lol.

I hope you have all been well 💚

I really like to come up with like "slice of life" type stuff for my sona and the little like world building stuff I'm doing with her and her fast food job.
Hoping to eventually make some of that come to fruition. I need to actually start trying to learn drawing again.
But living where I do I feel so isolated and creatively dry. Most of the ideas I come up with for art I actually think of when I'm at work or out of the house cause I'm less smothered by BS lol.

Soon, soon I will have my own place 😤

Or at least I hope I will. Maybe I'll win the lottery or something 🤪

As usual this is not cohesive or anything just my thoughts at the moment :3

Hope you all had a good weekend!!

hope everyone is doing well :3

I hope everyone is having a good weekend 🥰

Today is my birthday!!! I'm very thankful for many things today and my heart is full of love and joy 😊

Officially 27 aaaaa getting old.

This is kinda vent ish but I genuinely have never felt worse about being an American up until recently.
I have many friends who live in Canada and Mexico and the way my country has decided to treat our closest allies and neighbors sickens me.
Canadians hate us, their media is all over about us coming after them and rightfully so. The idea that Canada should become another state is incomprehensibly insane. Plus needless tariffs and a pointless trade war... They should hate us for whats going on. Obviously we didn't all want this. But its the hand we've been dealt.
I want out of here badly. But like many others I do not have the means to simply leave and go somewhere better.
I can only hope that things improve. But so long as that orange idiot is in office things are going to get a lot worse before they get better.

This is also a good time to mention that if you FOR SOME REASON support that crazy ass in the white house that you can absolutely fuck off please. I don't want you around, period.

I will be 27 on the 9th! I am becoming old oueghhh *withers away into a pile of dust*

Crazy to think how much has changed for me in just the last year. But it's all mostly been for the better 🥰
Hoping that continues hehe 💚

I hope everyone has a really good weekend!!

Staying up late imagining what it would be like to be Celeste irl and how wonderful it would be.
Getting to be my true self and live life in a body I don't hate.
ughhhhh why can't I just be me.
And VR, where I can be me, has been hard since my old headset is giving out.
Hopefully I'll have that replaced soon... aaaaa
This is what happens when I get time to myself. I get wrapped up in my own head and thoughts and overworry.

If I haven't said it before I am "other-kin". Celeste is the true me. I have the occasional dream at night when I get to be her.
I crave those dreams like nothing else. Looking at my paws and seeing my green scales and womanly body and it makes me so happy.
For a little while I can be free.

Someday I want to get a house on the coast where Sven and I can live together and go for walks on the beach every day. Maybe run a small cafe that we both operate and can make cute little coffee drinks and make friends with the people who live in the town. Close the shop and then go to the beach or go for a walk. Hold hands the whole time and just stop caring about all these problems I make up in my head.

I want to be able to wake up every morning next to him, but as my true self.
Maybe someday I can do that. Or maybe in another life.

Several years ago when I first made this account on here I was so different. I was just going with the flow of life. I had no direction and was just living. I wasn't happy or sad. I was just... "existing"
After discovering so much about myself, falling in love with the man of my dreams, I can say for the first time ever that I am as close to truly happy as I have ever been. But I have also experienced moments of sadness and depression greater than any other I have had before.

Its good. All that I am going through is good. But sometimes on nights like this I just want to curl up in a place where no one can see me and day dream. dream about being my true self. Maybe if I dream hard enough it will become true.

aaaaa this is probably all nonsense but it helps. Getting this all out there. Maybe someday I will have that house on the coast. Sven by my side. And I will look forward to each coming day. Instead of worrying so damn much.

I'm not really looking for advice or anything. These truly are just my late night depressive and anxious thoughts. Dealing with these kinds of things is something I go through often. My living situation is not ideal but its also not all that bad. I am trying my best to get into a different place but everything is getting so expensive. Blegh.
I hope tomorrow is a better day. For all of us.

I hope you all have a wonderful day today 🥰

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

I will be smooching  SV3N all day long :3

Hello cute creatures :3

hello :3

My lovely boyfriend has just opened up for comms!
He makes some very very good fat and hyper art and you should definitely check him out!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59750339/

Today is a very very special day~

My lovely boyfriend  SV3N and I have officially been together for an entire year as of now 🥰

A little over a year ago I was in a pretty dark place. My ex had very recently dumped me. And I was spiraling almost daily. Doing anything I could to escape the worst feeling I'd ever experienced. I was nearly emotionally dead. Using weed and alcohol to forget everything. I would go to work on autopilot. Just going through the day. I won't sugar coat it either. I even contemplated leaving the furry fandom forever. Among other feelings of self harm I won't go into~

And then I started talking to Sven more. We discovered how much we had in common and very quickly became close friends. Finding comfort in each other. He was there for me during my breakup. He kept me upright when all I wanted to do was sleep forever. He saved me. Shortly afterwards Sven went through a similarly hard breakup. And I was there for him. A shared emotional situation brought us both so close together. I'd never felt that close to someone. Felt so emotionally attached and linked to another soul. My ex never gave me that feeling. Sven gives me those feelings every single day.

When he messages me~ I smile so much. My cheeks hurt from laughing and smiling so much when we talk to one another. I get butterflies whenever I see his face. In the times I'm alone I imagine our lives together once we can finally close the distance between us and live together 🥰

2023 was a miserable year. I spent it sad. Depressed. Upset and vulnerable. My ex made me fight for every single interaction. Spending time with him seemed like pulling teeth.

2024 is the first year of my life I feel like I'm living it. It's the first year I really embraced who I am. Became more close to my friends.. and met the love of my life.

I only wish to live forever so I may never have to stop loving Sven. I feel a single lifetime simply isn't enough to give him all the love I feel for him. But I will certainly try 💚🥰

I love you Sven, very very much. Happy anniversary my sweet puppy 💚💘💛

Hope you're all doing good this week 🥰

I'll have some art stuff to post very soon >:3