I might just take a break from FA for a while. I'm in a really rough spot. I got a storage unit for all my stuff and a friend is taking me in. I just need to focus on life for a little while...

I hate to be a downer, but sometimes I just need to vent...

A few months ago, my mom gave me an ultimatum to move out. I found a place, the cheapest place I could get. No one wanted to move in with me, share a room, no one wanted to take me in. I had a fair amount in my savings, then. But my mom knew that I had severe depression and anxiety issues that can impair my ability to work, and that I'd been trying to find a job but had been unsuccessful. Either way, she wanted my space for her boyfriend, so that he could have a third area to watch his TV.

She forced me out, and now I've been living on my own for the past four months or so.
It's been really hard on my anxiety and depression. Living alone doesn't agree with me. I've already tried to kill myself once and have idealized about it more times than I can count, just in the past few months.

My savings has dwindled and I now only have a few hundred dollars to my name. And anyone who knows me knows that I'm extremely careful with how I spend my money; I don't squander it. My possible new roommate may not work out, and I don't have any other plans for decreasing my monthly rent. I've been trying so hard to get a job but the best I ever get is an interview but never a call back.

It's at times like these when I can't see a future for myself and just want it to end. My mom won't take me back, and even if she did I would either have to keep paying rent until my lease is up or pay the $6000 it would take to release me from it. Neither of those seems to be an option for me...No one wants an inexperienced employee, they won't take on someone who doesn't know all the ropes, so how am I supposed to get a job?

People tell me that it's going to get better, but when? After I've lost my apartment? After I have to freeload at a friend's house because I can't afford to house myself? After I no longer have the money to pay for my medication? Because at that point I might as well be dead.

I know that no one here can solve my problems. I'm not asking you to...I just needed to get this off my back. I feel betrayed by my mother and I don't even know how much longer I'll be able to afford to keep my apartment, and I'm so lost...I'm just so lost...

I stole
Never giving her back!
Also her bun o u o

can't focus on anything today
I'm so fucking lonely all my friends work fulltime jobs and have boyfriends and I have jack shit
I fucking hate my life
-rolls around-

Today I drove 40 minutes to a second interview for a potential job, was rejected, drove 40 minutes back, got my car checked out and was told it needs $900 or work done, and then got a call from a potential employer who interviewed me yesterday and was told that she would not be hiring me.

I'm still applying to jobs because I don't make enough doing fursuits to have money for all my rent, not to mention things like internet, electric, gas (both for my apartment and for my car) and other such necessities.

I would open up art commissions but I'm struggling to finish fursuits as it is. =n=

Life have mercy on me...

I have a friend who has THE CUTEST ART and she is doing some freebies right now to fill out her gallery a little!
You guys should go and also commission her because her art is adorbs

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5921912/

There is some sort of weird design war going on. It's like, if one person has a certain character with certain colors and is a certain animal, automatically anyone who makes a similar character with similar colors and with a similar animal is copying them.

Does anyone else find this just weird and childish?

I don't think that anyone should have the right to copyright a character unless it's necessary (like in the case of Telephone), and then if someone creates a character that is similar to yours? Tough luck. Shit happens. Guess you just have to deal with it like a mature human being.

I'm also similarly done with "omg it's a dragon character and has brown in it it's Telephone and I'm going to tell everyone that you're an art thief".

People need to learn to chill out. I know that your characters mean a lot to you, but there are only so many designs out there. And if you have a simple design, some people are going to come up with it just like you did, and they may not even know you exist. It doesn't mean they're copying you, it's called a coincidence.
Not that I'm saying it's always a coincidence, but half the time it is, and you really don't need to go over the deep end because of it either way.

The mature thing to do is let the person know that it looks like your character and ask them if they would mind changing the design so it looks less similar. Is that so hard to do? And if they say they would prefer not to, you swallow your childish need to start petty fights and say, "Okay, after all, my character isn't copyrighted and thus I have no control over what you do." Don't blog about it so that everybody gangs up on someone who was just trying to design an OC.

Shout out if you feel the same way.

<b>NOTE: If you start harassing me about this journal, I will block you. Everyone is entitled to his or her own opinion. Don't assume that I am talking about you if you are all up in this mess. It's just a journal. If you don't have anything nice or constructive (not passive-aggressive disguised as constructive) to say, don't say anything.

I snatched this from  xxmingxxo
Whether you're single or not, copy and paste one or more of these in a comment! X3 Let me know how you feel about me!

♥ = I want a relationship with you

C: = I'm falling for you

:3 = I miss you

;] = I really like you

:* = I want to kiss you

:< = I hate you

: X = I like you

:] = you're cute

:b = we should get to know each other (as friends or as more)

;^) = we should hang out

<3 = love you

<:^ = I want to know you

f@ = *stalk*

IT WAS THE FUCKING BEST

GO SEE IT

GO SUPPORT THE MOTHAFUCKIN' ANIMATION INDUSTRY BITCHES

Also I kind of forgot to put one of my rats away before I left and I got back and I was like getting on the computer and I see him crawl out from under my bed and I was like "ohhh...oh hi..."
|D

Even though I just posted it today, I'm not getting any interest in my fursuit commission slots that I have open.
I'm hurting for money real bad right now so signal boosts would be highly appreciated <3

This is the journal that explains everything:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5839610/

Thank you guys ;u;

c: First come first serve!

My updated price sheet: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13679774/

I don't care if my only patron tells me that I won't get support on Patreon.
I'm going to keep trying.
//cries
All I want is to feel like people give a shit about my art...And to also have food because that's a thing...
Damn popular people getting all the patrons...
//rolls away

I've been trying really really hard to get my shit together, I promise.
But now I'm literally just struggling to keep myself from just committing suicide.
I can't actually make any promises as to what will happen next, so for the time being, I am refunding everyone.
If I make it through this and get to a safe place in my life I will contact you again and see if you're still interested in the art. I'm really sorry you guys.

From this day forth, I shall no longer be posting personal art as it is finished upon my whims!
Instead, I shall be saving up my personal art all moth and posting it to Patreon on the last day of each month.
http://www.patreon.com/whaleosaur
In order to view said art upon that day, thou must supporteth me with a payment of one dollar or more per update.
The next day I shall post this art en masse to my blog.
http://madeinchernobyl.tumblr.com
Then and only then shall my personal art for the previous month be posted to my FA and DA pages.

On the morrow I shall create a more public announcement.
Until then...

NOTE: All commissions shall be posted to FA and/or DA upon their completion as normal.

New icon by  pankeye <3333

My gf just broke up with me...in a really awful way...
And I'm just not feeling okay right now.
I'm going to just be taking a couple days to recover from this...
I'm sorry to my commissioners; I promise I'll start your commissions as soon as I feel better...

Okay, so I now have some time to be doing a few commissions, but I don't have TOO MUCH TIME, so I'm limiting it to just three slots for right now. These slots will be filled on a first-come first-serve basis. Comment to claim. C: Then later you can pay me and note me the specifics.

I've also edited my prices a wee bit. Now they are as such:
sketch: $5
colored sketch: $7
shaded sketch: $10
(extra char. +$2)
lined: $10
colored lines: $13
shaded lines: $15
(extra char. +$4)
lined w/ background: $15
colored w/ background: $25
shaded w/ background: $30
(extra char. +$7)

I'm sorry I raised my prices but I'm super broke atm ;n; and I need the money badly...Also the background pictures were pretty underpriced and I felt like I put more effort into them than I got paid for.


1.  lonelypride
2.  AndriasSch
3.  mrservi

Haha, no one is interested in being my patron...but in case you secretly are, I've updated a few things.
http://www.patreon.com/whaleosaur
Thanks for looking ; u ;

If you don't know what Patreon is, it's basically like an ongoing kickstarter for artists. You pay a monthly fee set by you and support the artist that way, while getting cool rewards from the artist in the process!

http://faconfess.tumblr.com/

I thought that FurAffinity needed a non-affiliated confession tumblr for all your anonymous confession needs. C:

I have an Instagram account now, guys! Check it out ouo My username is Whaleosaur, naturally. |D

Right now I only have a stupid picture of myself and a photo of my ratty rat up there and idk how often I'll use it, but I'm kind of excited \Q u Q/

http://www.patreon.com/whaleosaur

What is Patreon? It's like an ongoing kickstarter for artists! Unlike commissions or the like, you become a patron of an artist that you like and pledge money to their cause! My cause is to better myself as an artist and experiment by doing my own personal work, rather than relying on commissions to sustain me. You can pledge as little or as much as you want to an artist, either per month or per project. Mine is set to "per completed piece", which means both digital art, fursuits, and other crafts, for me.

Please consider pledging, if not to me, then to another artist that you think deserves it! C:

Does anyone else play? Because be my friend!!! <3
My username there is - you guessed it! - Whaleosaur

Thinking of doing one. Potential free art/fursuit parts/cosplay stuff/money/etc. See http://madeinchernobyl.tumblr.com/p.....ing-a-giveaway for details!

I'm not banished any more! My mom felt bad. It was mostly her bf who wanted me out and he went back to his house for a while, and she came to her senses lol. I still want to move out, but now I have time to prepare and stuff.

Welp, I refused to pay my mom's $265 electricity bill and now I'm getting kicked out of the house.
To boot, all of my friends are huge disappointing flakes who won't let me stay with them or consider getting a place with me.
I feel really disappointed in my life right now. I thought I had friends who would be there to catch me when I fell, but I guess that's the kind of shit fairytales are made up of.

I don't know where I'll go. I have a couple weeks to figure things out. If anyone knows someone in the Minneapolis/St. Paul area of Minnesota who could use a nice, dependable female roommate, let me know...