I think my most unhinged non-sexual desire is to do a doll restoration, but, like. On a person?

As in I wanna personally scrub them down and spend an hour per hand on manicures and maybe two hours per foot on pedicures

I wanna pluck the sebum off their nose n microplane their face n put a facemask on them while I destroy every knot in their neck, arms, legs and back

this would take a minimum of 12 hours n I can't realistically expect someone to sit still n submit to this for that long

I'm movin some stuff out of scraps, dun mind me

This last bout of inactivity was because of Moving

I will be more active goddamn it

I've been thinking about stuff, and things. Mostly financial things, but also validation things, and risk/reward.

I've been thinking on how to become a more well known artist, basically.

I'm realizing that I am actually a huge baby who is so allergic to rejection that I put the bare minimum effort in anything I do so that I don't feel bad when I don't get any recognition for it. When I receive recognition anyway, my imposter's syndrome prevents me from viewing it as a success.

It takes a lot of tenacity to put yourself and your work out there, y'know? Posting content regularly, actually advertising yourself, getting paid; it can't happen if you don't view you or your work as something of value. Getting validation from favs backfires when you post so irregularly that your content is lost in the sea of the rest of the internet, so you can't use it as fuel to crank out more work. You just gotta keep making content anyway, and that is hard.

I've decided to try to have the confidence of a 59 year old white guy with years of being in the business and just make things without worrying how well they will be received. I feel like I'll have more fun that way, without anxiety constantly holding me back, y'know? I'mma enter my Butch Hartman era.

I'm still an anxious bear tho so sorry in advance -v-; maybe someday I will learn not to apologize for finding worth in myself but thas gonna take a lil more therapy than I can handle rn

Hey all, anyone wanting a commission can check out Boshie's new commission server. It's brand new, so don't expect too much, but we'd be happy to see ya there! -Buddy

https://discord.gg/MvAQcnADHj
https://discord.gg/MvAQcnADHj
https://discord.gg/MvAQcnADHj

Heyyyy

I have gotten very very sick. I resigned from my job cuz I was taking so many sick days, it was sad. So now I am a house spouse, which means I think I can focus more on art again!

Some changes to my modus operandi: I'm setting hard deadlines for commissions. Usually I accept payment after a thing is done but I think I'm gonna flip that since this will probably be my new source of income.

Might make a discord channel just for commissions, depends on how intense the need is? Anyway. I missed y'all! :) Glad to be back.

Hi Hello my name is Boshie and I have social anxiety

I mean

I have other anxieties, but the social one is relevant here, bc it makes it hard 2 communicate

and when ur takin commissions, communication is a thing that needs 2 happen?

So is gonna... help me out? TvT Also prolly kick me in the pants when I'm paralyzed by my brain.

There is prolly a way to set it up so that he takes over the business side of things thru another account but that sounds Tedious n I'mma just let him on here cuz I am lazy

Mmmmmmm I don't thiiiink anyone has confessed anything outrageous in notes but if ya did here is your warning that the contents are no longer BoshieView Exclusives anymore

okloveyoubye~

sorry bout the sudden influx of my crap

I don't even remember what I have and haven't uploaded

:> also hi i'm alive

Got a new job

doin fine

my house is messy

Almost never draw but here are some attempts

I've been gone for months but I've kinda still been drawing, kinda

sorry for spam (´• ω •`)ﾉ

edit: ok there wasn't as much as I was expecting

I really ought to start saving my shit lol