As part of the raffle I was holding for the past few days, Sini is the winner!
So will be expecting a story done by me for him within the week!

I'm willing to give this a try and want to spread the word here from Bluesky. So details first!

If you want in on this raffle, reply below with:
* 1-2 Characters of your choice (18+ already, please no aged up)
* 1 Setting (meaning the story takes place in this setting/area and doesn't shift. This will only change if needed)
* 1-4 kinks involved in said story, can be categorized by saying which kinks are Main or secondary kinks (It can be more depending, but starting 1-4 for now so that I'm not overloaded with how to balance kinks)
* And be a profile that actually has life in it. Blank profiles, suspiciously bot looking accounts and recently made ones will not be accepted.

And if you prefer not to write all the details down, just reply below if you want in still. Just know that the above and below rules still apply.

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End date is October 20th at 7 am CST

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There are hard no's which include:
Gore, Scat, Pedo, Snuff, WS, Racism, Sexism, Rape, or Slurs and potentially more depending on how extreme they may be.

Besides the No's listed above, if I find that the winner's request is uncomfortable to me then I will decline it and roll again. This is free after all and this is a test of my writing skills, but I'm not willing to go completely outside my comfort zone for this. I know digestion in vore can involve snuff and CNC/Dubcon exist too which will be the exceptions. Anything else can be discussed for further clarification.

And mind you that this is my first time doing this sort of thing. I'm way more used to doing RPs so please be warned that the length and detail of this story may not be on the same level as those that take on story commissions. I am trying this out as I am hoping to potentially make this into a commission sorta deal and while I do want to try art that is going to take way too much time for me to draw art in a way that I feel is worth being paid for. So for now we will be doing this.

Thank you for reading.

All five sessions of my Silent Hill f streams are now out on Youtube!
Please give them a watch, especially if you weren't there to watch it live and please subscribe to the channel, give the videos a like, a comment and share it around!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjB95z_P5UY&list=PLWrGBcyW9dueUaFTLmDTzgJfR51tHyxBv

Since it's been a bit since I've made a more positive journal I wanted to explain a few things about my personal life before talking about the YT videos.

With my life so far:
I did lose my job as a security professional about a month ago and while I was upset over it, I did thankfully save up enough money to start moving so I can live with one of my BFs, namely Worrin. Moving all the way from Minnesota to Texas was quite the ordeal, especially when Uhaul was making things harder for us with their conflicting services. Not only that but what was said to be a 17 hour drive ended up as about 24 hours and took way more time than we had expected. Thankfully that was only the worst of it and when it came to unloading and unpacking my belongings that was all done relatively quickly. Since then I've been living in a small but very much growing town near Houston and had already met with several furries in the area. They all seem like a lovely bunch of people and would love to spend more time to get to know them all more. The only problem is though...

I've yet to get a job yet since I moved in with Worrin and so far I've not heard back from the couple of jobs I've applied to. The main goal in this situation is really getting a job in the nearby university and Worrin's helped spruce my resume to make it more condensed to what is needed for said university. If/when I do get a job there then hopefully I'll be living stable enough to help split costs with Worrin and have us both save up more efficiently so then come March next year we can live in a better place for rent. My personal goal there is to eventually get a house for myself and all my BFs and it's been a long time in the making, but after.. 15 years I'm finally taking the first steps to making that main life goal more of a reality than just a dream.

NOW onto the Youtube stuff:
Since I have all this free time I've gotten around to streaming Silent Hill f and even finished my first playthrough of it. As for any other playthroughs I've done all those off stream. I DID also just recently upload my playthrough of the recently remastered OFF game and uploaded the full playthrough of Silent Hill 2 Remake. It certainly has been weeks and months since I've finished these playthroughs and finally got around to posting them onto YT, but now that I'm living in a more clean and healthy living space I feel way more motivated to get back to working on my content.

So finally the end part where I just give you the TLDR:
My OFF (2025) playlist is here: https://youtu.be/JOVrZcG7lY8?si=gm-j7RbYpcYSdLlh
And my Silent Hill 2 Remake playlist is here: https://youtu.be/gMLEQMv97nU?si=DDCbi9lsEcKxmF8B
It would be really awesome if you all could subscribe to this channel as I'll be using this specifically for uploading raw vods from Twitch to Youtube (though not using the export option as it tends to fail mid process more often than not). Commenting and liking the videos would be a great help too, and especially if you all could share the videos to others who might be interested too!

With that said, thank you for reading this far and hope things get better for all of us.

Avoiding YT and Bsky for now because of what's going on.
For anyone not familiar, governments across the US/UK/EU and pushing to enforce everyone to give up personal information to people who shouldn't have access to them. UK and EU are already past the line with KOSA and it may not be much longer till USA follows. In response to this I'm pulling away from platforms that do follow in line and will be focusing on the dwindling online spaces I CAN stay safe in.

For anyone thinking that this may be a huge leap: please understand that this is all happening under Trump. If you think even that is a stretch, look at what he's been doing. He's been following Project 2025 to a T and all of his defenders said he wouldn't do it and yet here he is. I can assure you that because Trump has the seat it's been giving a lot more conservatives and the 1% far more room to fuck around and not enough finding out.

I can only imagine that once people are pushed off from using the internet, people will start taking to the streets more, which I hope is the case. Whether that's in the form of protesting, rioting or going to the capitols and try to push out the corruption from within, I just hope it comes in all forms because this corruption has also been acting in many forms.

If it weren't for the fact that I'll be moving to start living with my BFs some time early next year I would be trying to do the same thing in the local government, trying to do SOMETHING to make sure we all have rights and freedoms still.

And to those that said I was being too harsh when Trump won. I sure hope you all ate the biggest fucking humbleberry pie because I, like many others, called this shit.

Anyways, since I'll be on discord and telegram even more often you can see my DMs in my profile and feel free to note me or whichever.

During this time at night is when I often find so few people awake so I wanna throw more nets out and see who would I can catch ;V

I'll start with base requirements.
1. anthro male or masculine leaning
2. switch preferred
3. no humans/adjacent

what im generally looking for is:
HP/MP draining, vore, kissing, sucking, milking, rpg setting, game overs, kidnapping, multiple characters, one-time characters, hypno, tf

In short I am looking for a 'DM' to do a one on one tabletop rp.

This is a copy pasta from a server I'm in and admittedly have only found a small few.

I ask that this will also be in private DMs like Discord or Telegram (or in a private server between us) if you choose to give this a shot.

Thank you for your time.

Yeeeeah it's my 30th bday now ^^
The past 24 hours have been hectic funny enough too as I was running late to my own bday party because it was set on the 4th and not today and I almost slept past it.
I was late to it, but did make up for it. Played quite a lot at Dave and Busters and got some nice gifts from my family x3

And then after that I was running on 3 hours of sleep and was trying to get as much rest as I could until work, but then it resulted in me being awake for 18 hours and with just 3 hours of sleep. By the time I was back home I was soooo exhausted.

Sooo yeah, just got a nap in because my body just can't seem to get any more sleep than 3-4 hours now, but im feeling better now!

But besides all that, it's been really nice seeing so many messages from all the friends and peeps I know. It does warm my heart knowing so many people do take notice and I wanna show my appreciation to that.
I don't really feel bad at all being 30 either. I used to think my life would be already half way over at 30 back when I was in school, like I didn't even see 40 as the mid life crisis, but I saw 30 or even 20 as that point. The longer I've been living though the more I believe that while I may have less time, I still have time and still have goals I want to achieve with the life I have. With how well I've improved myself this year alone I feel like I'm really taking the steps I need to do what I always wanted with my life.

Whew, what a year, yeah? I won't go on about what happened and I'll make this pretty short, but I hope that everyone has a great day regardless of whether they celebrate Christmas or not. If there was ever a day we can spend time with friends and family then it's a day most of us can have off so we can actually do it.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays <3

Just because Orange Hitler won doesn't mean shit. There are things we can still do. We CAN and SHOULD fight back!

I'll be doing that myself by getting involved in the community im in, getting involved to help others and support for others that are in need. We need to stand strong, proud and not keel over and let these fuckers get the better of us.

And for anyone who voted for him too, fuck off. If I see any of you who voted for him, you're as good as dead in my eyes. I don't want anything to do with you, you have no idea how much you are harming others around you and you will only know the dangers when everyone you know and love is dead in front of your eyes. Even then I'll even doubt it because according to statistics conservatives are less empathic, less educated and less conscientious. You will likely not know the damages you've let happen until it's far too late. Too many of us can't teach you how to be better, you need to do that yourself. Open your fucking eyes to the world and see that the people you hold so high are the reason that others suffer.

I'm going to prevent more conservatives from being born by reaching out and will aim to teach younger minds that it's better to be compassionate and caring for your neighbor. We live in this world and it'll die if we let these shitty people continue what they do.

Edit:
For the people who couldn't handle my metaphor prior and think im just alienating people. I have a whole list of reasons how Trump being president is going to hurt us so why should I accept that people who voted for him are just "people who just don't agree with me"? News have covered Trumps actions over and over. Jan 6, two cases involving DOZENS of charges, all of which found guilty, being funded by the super rich that have every desire to see themselves high above the waters they'll make everyone else drown in. How can you just sit there and think that the millions of people who voted for him are entirely innocent? They are at the very least ignorant for voting for a dangerous man if not callous or uncaring for knowing what he is and still voting for him.

https://youtu.be/t-FQLn9oRrU?si=NFJPRNKX-wcMfXc7

You can misread my words, you can be on a high horse towards me, I don't fucking care. I want a world I can live happily in and I will help others and prevent more people from falling for rich conmen, grifters and genociders. Im gonna do more than you ever will if all you're gonna do is tell me im just mad, scared and alienating others.

And if I ever do die it will be either because of some one who "just didn't agree with me", or because this world isnt worth living in anymore.

And if you're this far into my indignant posting then my discord server is largely open for people (provided I know you or you can show that you are at least a person with an account)
https://discord.com/invite/k3eH5TQbeb

And here it is
https://bsky.app/profile/kearecryos.bsky.social

Figured I'd send this here in case others wanna connect on it. I wanna have it replace Twitter so badly.
Also this is an additional extension to say I'm down for chatting to peeps still. My DMs should be easy to find, but feel free to ask if ya wanna.

So there is now someone who is pestering friends of mine in regards to making contact with me. If he is reading, he should know that blocks and bans exist for a reason, do not approach my friends to try and get around it. I'm done with you and you need to stop. If anyone is approached by this person asking to contact me let me know first before blocking him yourself.

Thanks

Yeah, over a year in fact!
27 as of a week and so ago and I've been making more of a name of myself.
Like hell I've:
Worked for Activision for about 18 months (my dream job to literally beta test games, but of course wasn't for the allegations and the shitstorm they're causing)
Got to meet up with people I've slightly crushed on and made friends with them.
Got to be part of Tribal Hunter!
Got raided by FUCKING JONAH SCOTT, VA for Legoshi!

And just overall been feeling like I've improved a lot as a person. I even looked back through my FA notes and just saw all the many many many notes i've had with people, especially the first few years I've been a furry. To think now that I've been a furry for 12 years and still my love for the fandom has stayed, if not grown more. Even with the world burning to hell and politics hurting more than doing any good, I know I wouldn't be here if it were for all the friends I've made and all the support they've given me. I recently had a good long time friend become a boyfriend who I'll never wanna let go and now i'm making plans to save up and get a house for me and my BFs to live in. Finally the biggest goal, or at least one of them, is within sight and all I have to do is work for it. It'll be one helluva thing, but I'm gonna make it happen.

That said I've always been up for DMs and im up for meeting new people! Course I prefer to know the person i'm talking to before doing anything like RPing and stuff, I know too many people that like to just get into it. And if you're reading this, you're great and lovely <3

Look at my new icon!

I'm totally not sober atm, so i'm gonna say love all ya peeps and enjoy yourself. Learn that there are grays in between black and white and that's all right~ Learn to love more and especially love yourself.

I ain't gonna give names, but for any of you who has been in my social circles may well know what I'm about to say here.

If you see anything posting art of Jreidariux Slimetail, Ryuto Dariux, or any art that pertains to a golden rubber/latex dragon, report them. The only exception will obviously be artists that I commissioned or have those who are included in my commissions of these characters. I will assume that they also will mention my FA name in the desc. of the picture. If you find anyone that may be suspect, please send links to me so I'm aware and I'll tell you if they are someone I trust or not. It is clear now that there is a person who used to own Jreidariux and is so butthurt that he no longer owns him that he is going so far to illegally claim him. I cannot name his profile obviously, but those in my social circles will know who I am talking about. For those that know me well and know the situation, I will say that you should definitely keep an eye on him because he is disregarding selling the character to me as well as the contract that covers the purchase of the character, the suit AND the copyright of the character.

He is by no means allowed to use the character no matter how hard he may whine, argue, and flat out ignore logic and proof. You can feel free to speak to him, tell him he's wrong, he will shut you out because he loves his echo chamber way too much. I do allow for a fair arguement with him, but when he is too childish to talk to me face to face and hides into the any corner of the internet I haven't been to (yet) to lie and convince people he's somehow a victim in this, he cannot actually take any fairness in any of this as any fairness, any logic, any REAL PROOF will show that I bought the character from him and he is only upset about it NOW.

I am making this journal to make it really clear that his childish behavior is not to be tolerated and he needs to be told that he cannot just steal a character he no longer owns. I can even provide links to his Twitter as he started to use my character there. This person is even specifically using a PFP cropped from the refsheet I got for Jreid, from an artist he is blacklisted from. Comes to show how immature he can be when he disregards human decency and goes against peoples wishes.

If you are reading this and you are somehow on his side; please reconsider. No doubt he's only just telling you that he's a victim, that he was haggled, abused, any sort of word that can somehow relate to his narrative. The only thing that did happen was consulting the price of the character as he had already done things that sullied his name and he FULLY ACCEPTED selling Jreid at a lower price when it was made clear to him that what he did deserves Jreid to be sold at a lower price. He will deny this fact, but it is true. There was no enforcing as he was able to back out of this up until selling the character, he had every moment to think this over and now that he cannot get him back by just simply talking to me, he is trying to convince anyone and everyone that doesn't know his past to join his side and harass me and condone him stealing a character and thus stealing artwork.

He needs to be stopped and he needs to understand what he is doing.

For those that may not know, i've been game streaming on twitch for over a year now and I've dragged a good lot of my friends to come watch. They've been great for sticking to my streams almost every time I do it and I really do appreciate all the followers and especially my subscribers. The main subject here though is about my YT channel, where I post most of my twitch sessions on. I've recently been playing Paper Mario: TTYD and for one of my sessions, I have given it such a title that.. I honestly should've known it was going to get views because of it. Lemme show you a cut out of the video's thumbnail with its title.
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....66/unknown.png

You can kinda tell now how it got that many views, granted it's not many to begin with, but still! I do like it that these videos are getting some attention, even if it's a little bit.

With that said, I will most likely open up a kofi account so I can hopefully get some donations from generous friends and strangers. I hope to be able to use the money to improve my own performance when streaming and maybe even one day help support me in making my dream goal of living into reality.

I actually have a Let's Stream YT channel going on? It's right here, actually. https://www.youtube.com/user/Weskerama/
This is where I post my twitch streams and try to beat games one at a time. For those who've not been able to see the streaming pics I sometimes post and then close, this is also my twitch channel as well. https://www.twitch.tv/whiskerama/
Just during my last stream I gained my first two subscribers and that alone wanted me to put a lot more effort into my hobby so that I can make this far more than just a hobby. Just like a lot of people who do this, they all want to be entertaining to viewers and most of those out there don a sort of persona. I try to be as natural as possible while still trying to be entertaining and these videos I post are raw stream videos so there isn't any editing or cutting whatsoever and I think there's a certain charm to that.
As of now I'm working on The Legend of Heroes: Trails of Cold Steel on mondays and wednesdays I'll be finishing up the extra content for Parasite Eve as I just finished it this wednesday of this post. For Friday, I tend to make it for more horror/horror-survival games and thanks to a fan and his input, I'll be starting my 2nd run of Clock Tower 3 on fridays, so if that game hits you as a cult classic or in some other form, please take the time to watch or listen my stream then ^^

I'll try to set up my streaming to allow more viewer interaction as well as better aesthetics to really stand out from the others, but that part will take time and money so it might not happen soon ^^:

Regardless, I hope you have a good night/day.

Honestly I want/need money. I've been trying to hold off on this cause I seriously don't want to ask or beg people to pay me. I rather have people pay me back on what they owe me instead, but sadly I've not had much luck on that part. I've actually been without a job for a couple weeks now and after paying off all but this month's rent.. I just barely have a little over 100. Since I was doing contract work and wasn't fired because of my own doing I'm getting a bonus by the end of this month, but I'll be using it for the rent so I'm unsure how much I'll have remaining. This is fucking me up and I've never been in a situation like this before in my entire life. I do have a job lined up for me, but for reasons even I'm unsure of they won't let me work until new years, which is why I want to ask for money ONLY to keep me afloat till I work and get my first paycheck. I just need enough to keep my bank account and to afford small payments, and in case there might be any more monthly payments that haven't been slapped onto my account already.

I seriously don't want to ask for much, even just 5 dollars or 10 from each of ya would be awesome. Again, I'm only asking for enough to stay till I start working again within 2-3 weeks. I already got myself food the other day so I won't need to go for another grocery run for at least another week if I stick to like two meals a day. I honestly hate asking for this when it's december of all months, but I was shafted by my former workplace removing me before the very end of the contract work. I would still be at work and I may even have a thousand dollars now if it wasn't for their decision to kick me out early. I can't stress it enough that I'm terribly sorry to ask for money cause I never wanted to be in this situation where I had to rely on others in this fashion. I was doing just fine up until a month ago and if I could go back to stop myself from going to the con, getting so depressed I actually drank to the point of passing out (which doesn't take much for me) and having to- fuck.. I just remembered the stupid road tolls in Illinois too. I think I paid all the tolls, if not they would've probably knocked on my door or in some similar fashion already. I digress, I seriously just want about.. maybe 100 dollars total or maybe 200 so that I'm able to stay where I am till I can start working again. If you want me to pay you back, please let me know, I'll do it as soon as the 2nd or maybe even the 1st paycheck.

(Edit: I was reminded this was a thing so I'm placing this link here. paypal.me/AnthonyIngalls )

Thank you for reading.


Evening update: I got a call with the temp agency now and convinced the new work place to have my start working as soon as next wednesday. Thank goodness that's happening sooner than later. Some people have already donated quite a bit now too so I believe I have enough, but do feel free. I'll probably close this journal by the end of this week.

Leave a girl hanging?






Let's just say I got to the real section of Doki Doki Literature Club.


Ain't it great? XD

Check out my latest video on YT and feel free to subscribe to me <3
It'd be nice to get more viewers.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VkcZBMcInr8

Today I had a situation where it made me realize just how bad humans can be. This isnt even about murder or politics, but our own inability, our lack of will, willingness to change/improve. At work, i was brought over to the main branch building of my workplace to fix one of the machines that i assemble. Upon arriving, I examined the machine and found out that yet another part of it was broken, but it was due to someone using force. For those who know, im talking about when a drawer has a slider on both ends, and this slider that we use here has a tendency to lock itself or go unhinge, but its all on the person handling it. Ive had enough experience with these sliders to figure out what the problem is and how to solve it. Ive been called to go over to this building many times over the course of my year contract, and i have eventually told these people that if there is a problem with it: its best to let me handle it and not force it by yourself. In thia case, not ONLY did someone force it, but the person in charge of the station wouldnt fess up who did it. I only want to find out who did to tell them not to do it again as well as to let me handle it. During our conversation of whodunnit and how to resolve this, he would even say that I, of all people, could have cause this problem to happen. I know for sure I cant be the one and I even proved it to him, but when he said it, it was like this. "Maybe you did it?" And even said this, "They all blame you on this." Who is this 'they', who is blaming me for something I didn't do (which over the course of my life, this has happened a myriad amount of times). On top of this, when I told an acquantance/friend about this right after I was done fixing the problem. He told me to 'not worry over it and let it be'. Why should I let someone's misconceptiok of me be? Why should I let things slide (no pun intended) when things could be avoided, things could be improved? Why should I just shrug whenever someone gives me shit that isnt needed? All of these questions and more came to my mind and eventually I would walk away more angry than before. Why are people unwilling to change. Why are people unwilling to talk things through? I eventually began to think that this is just how we are as humans. Humans being so flawed that we deny our mistakes and blame it on others, deny what is in front of our faces so that we can just relax and live a lighter, more 'free' life. These thoughts eventually became what I want to ask you now.

Do you think we should have something like a machine to work for us, maybe even to govern over us? Are we too flawed as sentient beings that we need to rely on something more absolute to really make things right? Can we really change or do we just make excuses? Im sorry that this is awfully negative, but i'm someone who bears as much as I can take and I am beginning to hate humans as a whole..

Im not sure if the whole 'going to X con journal' meme isnstill around, but I felt like posting to see if anyone wanted to meet up with me during it. I will be my Bf  robak and will spending most of my time with him, but i can still make time to meet up with others ^^ and im sure my Wolgon wont mind either.
Im rooming with my Bf, my roommate Arren and a fox friend of his. (Ill later edit this tkwith their profiles if they dont mind it.)
And for those who might be wondering, no, I dont have a fursuit and dont plan on getting one anytime soon. I donno about being a handler for a fursuiter either cause i dont want to lose that much time that I could have with my Bf or doing something else.
And again, if ya wanna meet up, shout at this journal, note me, or message me on discord or telegram and we can talk about it.

Typing this up during first break at work today so i'm gonna make this pretty quick. Lately the news about how my work and job basically means little as it will be outsourced by the end of the year makes me wonder more and more about my future and it kinda scares me. The temp agency im with may not help me and leave me with nothingnor the worst job I could possibly have. You can kinda guess as to what my other thoughts are relating to it, but that's not what I wanna mainly talk about.

I wanna ask a question to those that think about what's beyond earth, beyond our solar system. If you have ever heard about the simulation theory then this might make more sense(?). Is it possible that our universe was fabricated to escape from what is beyond it? Is it really just antimatter past it or something even bigger? The universe is constantly growing, much like gmail's memory space (or at least it did last time I checked). That idea alone inspired me to make a story, and I almost wish to make it on par to Kojima's story telling.

And then my thought process went back to my world story, the canon story of my characters, Keare, Anthony, Argus, Margaret, Ravenal, and more characters. These were the characters I had made first before getting characters like Iitan and Maxwell. Knowing that I never truly written down my story and thinking that at any point I could die and no one would know what my story was... well.. i at least want to tell someone about it, even if it isnt entirely finished. Sadly most of my story was inspired, but I want to believe it is still good and has meaning. If anyone wants to hear or talk about it, i'd love to tell

https://8values.github.io/results.html?e=61.0&d=62.8&g=66.2&s=71.8

results kinda speak for themselves.

Help me decided who I should get more art of!

https://goo.gl/lSkVOy Use this link to vote!

https://goo.gl/ooHrzD And use this to see the results. (I think?)

If you need to read into my characters a little, go here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7960952/

I dont got much time till break is over but im willing to find new peeps to talk and play with.
WARNING: if you are thinking if RPing with me, NSFW is a must and please have some decent skills when rping. Also dont poke me EVERY DAY if you want an rp. I will most likely not respond then.

https://t.me/KeareCryos

Discord: Keare#7495