I just got the game today and I'm already fucking pissed at those who like to abuse infinite combos. I'm seriously salty and have only got ONE single win out of all the times I've played it today. I'm trying to make a good team out of Valentine and Parasoul, but I hate that Parasoul has no dashes whatsoever

After a much needed rest, which was oddly 6 hours of it, I made up and got back to the one I broke up with last night. Things are getting back together and im glad for it.

I'm calling out to a certain kid who has commented on my Rping introduction discussion on my Vore <3ers' group.
This kid, before it was changed, said that "Just so you know, Keare, but I believe in capitalism." And this is my revised version of the mispronouncing and incorrect grammar. I was utterly confused what this kid was saying so I asked him privately what does he mean. Before confusing my question about homestuck and Jack Nord, he finally gets to answer that "Capitalism is the religion in believing that like the same gender is wrong." This made me lose my shit.. and im glad it wasn't literally. I'll leave it to you think what happened next..

This group has been growing for a couple of months now, around 100 members, and yet so few are in the chat now schoooool is in session. Hoping we can find some more active members that can either stick in over the school day or at least hang out during the evening, after school. It would be AWESOME to see this group grow even more and for people to find even more friends and possible find some help.
But there is JUST one requirement, be nice. Okay? Is it really that hard to do that? I have seen some asshole in the other groups and it brought me to make a vore fur group on steam, but one that ONLY has nice people, those who can be supportive and constructive.

http://steamcommunity.com/groups/vorelove#

http://steamcommunity.com/groups/vorelove#

http://steamcommunity.com/groups/vorelove#

and those three allll lead to my group on steam.

So I got Skyrim, Legendary Edition for the pc and when I got the code in, steam processes the code a little past half way until it says, NOPE no connection, can't do it.
and so I checked my connection, im online, or else I wouldn't be making this dumb journal, but it says im not online on steam, so I spam clicked the online thing for my account and it would NEVER say im online, only offline.
so wth steam, just wasted 60 dollars on a game and you can't let me play it?

I'm DONE WITH SCHOOL! Thank you all my friends and loves who have stayed with me long enough for me to get through high school. Although I may have started in the later half of my freshman year, it's close enough for me to say that I've been on FA throughout my high school life. Now it is over and I can pursue to accomplish many things I've always wanted to do, some of which have already been accomplished before I graduate but plenty still remain.

Most that come to mind involve more about my personal life than anything, as I always wanted to mine a crystal or gem from the mines in Minnesota. I did actually look it up and saw that there are crystal mines in Minnesota that are open, but exercise caution of course. I may make a profit if I get a crystal that doesn't quite suit me, not sure if that is allowed. I will have to look it up again.

Then there's the matter of business, because I'm sure some agree that business is treated more than a human, or any human for that matter. I'm sick of the world being so hungry for power and money, but with how it has built itself to make it so you can't do much without money, I'll have to get a job. Thankfully I got one already, from June 20th to August 20th, I'll be working with Tree Trust ( http://treetrust.org/ ). If ya checked the link, you can tell what i'll have to do for 2-3 times a week, part time and yet with full time hours (8 hours), thankfully none of those dates take off Saturdays as I hope I can reserve those for meeting with friends and/or going to furmeets.

Speaking of furmeets, earlier this month, I went to my first fur picnic, and I can honestly say I wish I could've been more of a part of it. I was so damn shy >3< but I didn't explain this guy who had a horse head about what the game Ninja is about and how it's played. It's pretty easy, but hard and almost humiliating to play XP Anyways, I wish I can go to more furmeets and perhaps some more like the picnic so I can meet many more people! I really did want to get to know the people, but I do have a problem with smokers, which made me step away from one rather attractive guy. Not only smokers but i'm.. REALLY shy with fursuiters, and I can blame Chuck E. Cheese on that when I was little kid. I could not stand it when I was a little kid and the fear of people in suits grew into me, but it's only to a point where I don't want to be near them or talk to them. No offence to fursuiters, just a irrational fear >3< and I want to get rid of it, but I won't let just anyone help with that.

And my gawd was it fucking awesome. The only problem I had with it was that I didn't feel like I was really bonding with the characters, but then again, the makers probably weren't going for that.

The combat is amazing, and at one time during the cemetery, I got above 1,000 hits and not even realize it till the achievement popped up XD I did manage to do it again, which was pretty cool. I was hoping that Fidget would learn more spells, not sure what you would call them actually, other that just the wind, fire and lightning one. Then again, I guess that's mostly what you get since it's only good with using dust storm.

The ending was almost.. it was just satisfactory. As far as I know, there's one ending and it's good, but.. uhh.. no spoilers, despite how much I want to, but anyways the ending looked 'avoidable', like a certain someone could have done something *staring at ginger* Lifethread calling, my ass. After that moment, it seemed that there may be another game, and I really hope so, as I love the game a lot for it's rather unique story and not to mention FUCKING FURRIES, damn right! I loved it before I even played the game because it was a furry game, no not the sexual furry kind, just furry characters, and scalies too.

I feel that there should be another game and I wish I already went through the education in gaming simulation and programming major that I'm trying to get as of now. I might just play the game again to look through the mechanics and try to dig in as much as I can, despite the little knowledge I have about coding.

Oh yeah! Thank you so much  robak for giving the game to me. I actually didn't buy it, he did and he gave it to me <3

Eh might as well. Last couple of times didn't really work.
Ask me anything and I'll either reply to you via comment, note or skype

He lives in Canada, Winnipeg Manitoba specifically and he needs to live somewhere else.
All his life, he's been living in such shitty conditions, people avoiding him, not helping him, or even talking shit to him. His whole life has been like that apparently, struggling to get by but now he can't get welfare because of how much money he has, but it's not enough to keep him financially stable.

His name is Dallas W. Compston, age 21, will be 22 in july, and he needs to live somewhere else. I suggested him that moving may help him lose the people he hates and may find new people, better people. He has no job, but he has plenty of job experience, but like I said before, people in Winnipeg dont like him so he can't keep a job for long.

He has experience in retail, lottery, customer service, some managerial experience, and inventory. Since he doesn't have a whole lot of money, he can cook and clean for the time till he gets a job. He also has a mate, an umbreon, but he could use friendly loving, like cuddling. <3 being pushed and neglected his whole is starting to get to him now as he's getting pretty damn sick too. He's taking the necessities to recover so he should be fine soon, but not when it comes to everything else. He still needs a home and I hope someone in canada can help him.

And PLEASE if you can PLEASE pimp up this journal, or whatever it's called. my friend seriously needs his life to turn around. His past has beaten it into him that he is worthless and not worth being loved by anyone, and anyone should know that's not true. He hasn't done anything wrong to deserve it.

Again PLEASE spread this journal around, especially to those in canada

..And I couldn't be anymore sad for someone..well actually I can, but DAMNIT, on the last day of my one month trip to Waterfront made me want to bawl out loud (and I would've if my family wasn't around to hear). I really grew to love Tatsuki and I love him a lot, and it pains me greatly that no matter how much I love him and how bad I want him to be with me, he isn't real... and even as i'm writing this, tears are forming and it's getting harder and harder to type out the words...

But I know that I have someone who is even greater than Tatsuki, two people in fact. Those two who've done more for me and have been with me for months now instead of just 6 hours. Two men that are real and alive, and those two are my boyfriends, Chris and Lee.

Still.. I haven't felt this many feels in such a long time, and I wish I never forget all of those feels that I have for such a character like Tatsuki. That drunken craftsman of a dragon, heh..

Gawd I love this game <3 Tatsuki here I come :3
oh yeah, I really wonder if any of the other guys have full english patches. I heard something about Juuichi and Shin not having them for sometime, idk >,< but anyways, i'm gonna start with Tatsuki and probably try Shin after

https://www.weasyl.com/profile/keare

For those anxious to add me, there's the link right there. anyways, im not gonna leave FA until something bad really happens. It's not that i'm ignoring what happened with that griffon girl, the stalker and Neer, but i'm not gonna jump ship because of that when it doesn't have a direct connection to me.
I'm totally siding with her on what happened, and I find it really bull that Neer did it. I don't know what really went on in his mind, but I really hope he stops that before he repeats it. Taking those kind of actions are gonna make a site less popular, and would really wreck how people think of you. I'm sure people haven't seen it and still look up to Neer, and that's fine with me, since one action alone doesn't completely define a person, despite what he did, but doing the same action will define one.

Anyways, i'm gonna post all my stuff from Fa to Weasyl (eventually)

I go on it sometimes, not as often now since I got Dota2, but this server has a good amount of mods and PLENTY of places to explore.
more info:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4323628/

Or whatever you wanna call it.
and Keare's bday will be in 13 days (including today), so if anyone of you guys feel generous enough to draw something or even say something, that'll be cool.

It's been awhile since I really said how my life is going (not that anyone really reads most of my journals anyways)
Anyways, i'll be talking about school, IRL friends, Dota 2 and F-list.
SO I got a F-list and Dota 2, but I'm a total noob so don't hate me >3> and for F-list, you may wanna ask, because I don't want to send out that kind of info to everyone >/////>

so about school, i'm acing in fitness training (basically gym), and since it's mostly just..well fitness, I have an easy A, and I'm sure that'll help my GPA. Other than that, I'm getting a firm hold on my assignments and trying to catch up completely, so then my grades improve. I'm really doing most of this for the sake of looking good when I apply for Rasmussen. I am smarter than my grades are showing, believe me, it's just the assignments that get in the way of that. I even took a entrance exam for a community college and I was AWESOME in reading and writing, just...not good in college math (my only math class for the whole school year isn't going over that kind of math yet).

Along with school, I have just AWESOME friends.. yea-no. I have one friend who kicks my ass 9 out of 10 times in yugioh, wanna know why? Because he's got friends to trade, plenty of money to get the latest stuff and nearly.. 6-9 OP decks. Gem knights, fairies, darkworld, undead, those are the ones I can think right now and each one I can barely even play against. I have the chaos dragons deck and the ONLY thing I need to make this deck even CLOSE to having a fair chance with his decks is just ONE card. A Horus lvl 6, I got the one 4 and 8, but I need the 6 so I have a chance doing a horus/royal decree lockdown, which would be the only OP thing I have against any of his OP decks. I don't have money that I can use for it, and all I have are three, the other two are atlanteans and ancient gears. Problems are, I don't have mermans for the atlanteans, and I don't have many cards I can use to get my stronger Ancient Gears out like engineer, chimera and golem, even the gadgetron dragon or whatever it's spelled.

Now.. enough with ranting about yugioh, anyways my friend wanted my mystical shine ball, and he wouldn't stop mentioning it till yesterday, when I finally gave it to him without getting the level 6 I wanted from him. He wouldn't give it to me because he knows I would use it against him, and he wouldn't let me have a chance... so you can tell how i'm feeling, being the loser of nearly every 90 out of 100 duels and then not having the one single card that I could use to be level with him.. so I decided, 'fuck it, i'll give him what he wants, but I won't duel ever again, not with him at least.." so I gave him that card and since then, I didn't bother dueling, but it only started yesterday. What did piss me off is seeing that today during lunch, he didn't give a shit about it and instead gave one of his decks to a friend and had him duel for the time we had lunch. So you can tell how I feel very.. left out, not just because I made the choice to stop, but because I was easily replaced.. some friend he is..

At that point on today, I was sooooo sad and lonely, even though my friends were just inches away from me. Again, I remember that I have no one to hold, no one to nuzzle or cuddle, not a single guy would really want to come to me and do this, want to know why? Because the only one who's even open enough to do it is already taken.. and besides, why would he ever want to hold me? I scared him several times, it wasn't even any bad like a death threat. It was a threat for sure, but it was something very silly like licking him, and yet he was upset and scared from that..
I just hate being so alone right now.. no one in my school I want to hold because I know that it would be very short lived.. it would be just friendly, not intimate or anything..

Well that's all I got to say for now, glad you actually read all of this, unless you just skimmed or skipped through. Either way, the effort is appreciated..

Noticed that no one gave a shit about the previous two, so last wednesday, I decided to not do it anymore until today

anyways, ask me anything and perhaps give me a request on art or a story.

Seriously.. today was a day that my brother dedicated it to Diablo 2 for some reason and guess who had to play with him..

ME

But the thing is, I was busy with my own shit, having a life of my own, not one of being the family's fucking PET.
You should hear most of the things my brother says to me. He keeps calling my name and telling me what to do as if I really was a fucking pet to him. I even tried my best to stay with my friend as LONG as I could, wanting to spend sunday night with him, but NOOOOO

*sighs* thank goodness that my school got another psychologist, I really missed having one, and I hope this new one doesn't live to my first impressions. I first saw her on friday, as she was talking to one of my teachers. She reminds me quite a bit like my boss from my summer job, and if they're personality is any similar (which I hope not since she's a psychologist) then I just might end up be on my own again.

now what? XD

I need sleep, dood.
the time you gave me those notes was, what, past 1;30 AM? I'm sure I was asleep by then, also while I was asleep, my laptop died on me. Anyways I'm just saying, at that time, PLEASE be patient, and please be glad that I was replying to you that fast last night.
normally notes are for people that don't have my skype, yahoo or msn, and yet don't mind to wait for my reply, but seeing that you sent those messages while I was asleep made me feel like not only should I give you my skype, but I also felt like I shouldn't (weird huh?)
the thing is, I needed that sleep, like i said earlier, I'm not sure what time it is over at your place, but it's central standard time -6:00, so if it's any different from yours, now you'll know why I wasn't replying around that time.

1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2) Tell you a color you remind me of.
3) Tell you my first memory of you.(if I've know you for a good while)
4) Ask you a question.
5) Tell you something I like about you.
6) Tell you the object that is in front of me.
7) Dare you to do this yourself in your Journal

let's see how many people will actually do it

I hate this lil nose I have. I can barely concentrate on my homework, and I bet from missing 4 days of school now, i'll have a hayday with homework when I get back. I should be feeling better tomorrow, but I hope Im more focused as well.

also, boring night, despite that couple of my friends are having a hard time. DX

A sweet draggy of mine has mentioned Planetside 2 and I'm watching a beginners guide on it as we speak and Im just curious if it's really a game I would play. If anything, the most important thing about it to me is if I'll find anyone to play it with me. Anyone playing it and perhaps wanna play it with me?

I'll be talking about my christmas, what I got, what I loved about it, what I didn't and then about the matter of my fucking awesome new laptop.

Starting off, my christmas went pretty damn good, in fact it was very good. I got Persona 4 Arena (fucking love Elizabeth and can some one tell what is the matter with tier lists? because it seems to me that tier lists are just a matter of favoring one over the other, then again, when have things like that haven't?), Blazblue Continuum Shift, I swore it would be CS 2 and not 1, because my mom was talking that the store she was at only had CS 2 and not CSEX, so I was like sure. Oh well, I can just wait for CP while finding out how CT 1 Ragna is so fucking slow. I also got Black Ops 2, which I might not really play. I like it only because of the zombies, especially Tranzit mode. And last, I got XCOM Enemy Unknown for the 360 (like the three I mentioned before), and my biggest pet peeve (other than loosing my best sniper) is that you CANNOT change your soldiers color in the xbox version. I want my A-Team with red armor, not blue (using skeleton armor atm, not sure what the titan looks like). I also got my own fucking laptop, which I LOVE now. I mean the drawback is that it has Windows 8, which took me a couple hours to get used of, while having my little brother caught me in the middle of a skype chat (online chat = NONO in my family, so it scared me shitless seeing him come in). Anyways, I'll explain more of that later.

I got a tablet (drawing tablet) which me and my mom agreed to split like she uses it during the day and I use it during the night. It's got it's own stylus too, so I hope I don't lose it >,< this is also the first ever tablet I'll be using (haven't used it yet during the making of this) and I hope I won't be dissapointed. I got clothes, a wallet from hot topic, a shaver, battery charger for my 360 controllers, and..a LOT of chocolate. I'm surprised I only took a twix from that thing and haven't bothered to touch it since XD

Now what i didn't like is that my mom assumed my wish list was like what I wanted the most and the least. One of the things I wanted the most was at the bottom, and it was a real sword (zombie apocalypse? XD ) and yet since it was the bottom, I didn't get it, but I don't care since I got a fucking awesome laptop, three great games and got to try out that new kind of coffee brewing. That thing with the cups that ya insert and you just press a couples buttons to do it for ya and it does in a fucking minute. That's instant coffee there, and I'm definetly gonna have some in the morning, and it tastes like the coffee I get from Perkins, which is a compliment to the coffee maker and Perkins.

Now about my laptop. It's an Acer Aspire, and I feel rich having this laptop XD 500 GB, which is like... more than what I think I can fill if I ever wanted to try, and it loads things SOOOOO much faster, it's fucking unbelievable. One thing though is that it's a slight bit hard for me to keep skype hidden in case of emergency (Note that I said earlier about online chat with online people = NONO), but I do know how to place it in the background and not in the taskbar, so that I can be all normal and shit on the normal desktop and I can sneak in to the skype app at anytime XD Windows 8 has it pro's and con's and I gotta say that it's not entirely people friendly or damn simple like it's previous kind, but if you actually read and take your time learning it, I think you'll be fine like me. I have a friend who said he hated it before, during and after he tried it, which made me feel cautious when i tried it. It was really nothing, although I think it took out some options that held some slight personal importance.

I made up with a sweet friend and it's great. I think I'll be playing Persona 4A or XCOM the most though, those two are like sooooo addicting. Now you can all go to sleep, like what I'll be doing real soon because it's 3:25 am ^^

they were quite old anyways, not like anyone would go back to read those anyways. *sighs* soon it'll be my third year being in the fur fandom and I just hope it'll be as good as it was my first year. I gotta admit that the first year was the best. I met several great furiends, got my first boyfriend, and yet got dumped by him the year after...

got my next boyfriend, Lee, that year I lost my first, and from Lee I got my hands on a large powerful wolgon, a red fox that works in the military, and a shy yet beautiful cat. Over these 3 years, I think I've learned much more about the world, people, and even myself, more than I ever have before I joined the fandom. It may have caused me to cry so many times, made me wish I was better off gone and never be seen in this fandom again, and even made me want to off myself more than once, but overall I believed that it helped me grow and learn about who I really am. I may have set off bad examples for some of those, like knightrayjack and dallas (canadian fur), but I do wish to make things right with them.. just not sure if they would want to accept it.. *sighs*

well.. here's to a new year, and there'll be no doubt that it'll be like the years prior, full of shit, fun, drama, and new opportunities.

I swear I got about 100 journals with those two words, and I dont wanna bother reading them, not like many people read mine. Heh, I've been neglected quite a bit recently, more so than normal. Then again it IS the holidays, I guess everyone can give a good explanation why they had to be somewhere else.
*sighs and shrugs* oh well, and I do hope that one certain shapeshifter I know of (you know who you are) has a better year, because I know he deserves it. Also, I notice that I have a lot journals..time to clean up.