you guys know I used to make streams not about art or anything but just as feed back, I have been thinking in doing one lately, but I cant right now, so instead I make a journal, again nothing art related, something more personal.

I know most of you dont know me that much lol but you can still make your input :)
and for those that know me, go ahead

so
what do you think about me?

as lord Eddard Stark said, brace your selves, winter is coming... I say, shave your legs summer is coming...

and summer here can be very brutal, around 122f, no less so I want to change the cabinet of my PC for a better air flow, but still dont know which one to choose, so

here is my doubt

cooler master or thermaltake???

onlything I know is I like thermaltake designgs like thermaltake lvl10 XD but not sure if its good
dont forget to link images!!! :D

just that, go ahead XD

I really can't say much because I started it some hours ago, but so far so good, is not what I was expecting, but I guess is ok since this was a game that started on develpement years ago and compared to todays games, graphicaly talking is not that good as some others out there, how ever I still need to experience the multyplayer, I am sure it will be much fun than solo, still, crushing things with a barbarian feels very satisfying :)

if you can try it go ahead, tho best of luck trying to log in, took me like 4 hours to get in due to servers at full capacity!!!!

as for music well, its not so bad, but not so good either

all and all its a nice game so far, sound FX are strong and satisfying and pops up the action alot


was hoping this one could get me out of skyrim XD but it didnt XD, now if you excuse me, I better get back to skyrim and crush some dragons!!!!!! FUS RO DAH!!!

well just here to tell you I have some more pics, more recent pics in DA, sry cant submit those here for reasons but you can still watched them over there! :D

http://niveus-diabolus.deviantart.com/

also, still going through my old works and deliverating which ones to submit here, damn they are a shitload!! D:

I just finished watching all my old drawings again, damn took me like 4 hours! D:
but it was well worth it, many memories came back to me, most of them good, some of them painful but all and all, it was a great trip to the past.

I am gonna make a selection of the images I consider nice, interesting or just way to weird to post them here and will make a huge mashup of them, I tell you in advance I cant remember when I did some of them but I say its around 2002 or so, with anything else to add, have a good day! and keep an eye on the upcoming nostalgia/crap drawings flood!!!

I just got all my old drawings and my scanner back!!!! D:
who wants to see my crappy old work? XD

every time I see the news, every time I remember all the fucking bullshit thats going on in this shithole country, I get so damn angry, so angry at it, so angry at me....

one can't be a good person in this pit, one cant make new friends...

so much injustice... so I better get back to be a son of a bitch with every one and every thing, it has worked for me so far and I dont see a good reason why I should changed that.

Sorry, is just the way this place has shaped me.

and talking about drawings :P
was talking with a very good friend of mine, he told me he has some of my old drawings! I hradly remember some of these, and they still suck XD
it is ok to laugh, I did.
even tho these are very bad they are very nostalgic and have great meaning to me, they tell me where I was and the abyssal gap I have come across in these last years

many of these dont have a date, a couple do, so I really cant tell when I did them but I am guessing they where around when I was 13 or 14 :S

things are the way they have to be, we loners get to stay alone for good or for bad.

many times I have wished not to be an artist... living in the extremes can be an awesome experience, but on the long run... it sure hurts many times.

sadly for me is the only thing I know how to do, never graduated but I have a nice and stable ecomony in my life isnt that weird?
I really cant complain about my professional life, I like it, I am making a living out of it and I love what I do...

I have never maried but I was about to become a father once, and life took it away from me... so many dark chapters in my life... (I know I am not the only one but still hurts alot)
I wish that at least for a moment I could have a special some one to share all my achievements... my failures... joys and sorrow....

here goes the darkest chapter in my life, to all of you, my kind followers/fans

year 2007 first semester:
I got into university to study what I always wanted, animation, drawing, arts, film making
I met the most beautiful woman there, with soft pale skin, red thin hair, amazing blue sparkling eyes. when I first saw here I got one of these feeling that its like when you are looking at a painting so very well done that you just cant get tired of watching because beside it, everything else is just so simple and boring.
she had a BF by that time, but I liked her so much that I decided to take my chances, and so I did

year 2007 2nd semester:
everything was cool between us, always inviting her to eat or just walk, by that time I was very close to have her as a GF
during that same semester, I went out for the weekend with some friends, out of the city, I got a call from her that night, she only said "good bye jorge"
when I got back she was no where to be found.

year 2008 4th semester:
during one year I was wondering what happened to her, sent her emails and stuff, but I never got an answer, I decided to forget about her and keep going with my life and studies

year 2009 5th semester:
everything was going nice and easy, or so it seamed, by the end of the 5th semester I decided to leave the university due to money problems in the familly, and decided to get a job, fortunately I got a job suitable for me, developing art for a film studio, concepts, 3D and what not, my income was less to none but I was happy working in what I love.

a couple of days before I left school, I got an email from her, I was happy to know that she was still alive :), so I decided to email her back, couple of hours later a friend we had in common gave me her phone number, I called her right away and asked her on a date.

and so it happened that same day at 7pm, I saw her again after almost 2 years, she was looking amazing as always, I still remember that moment, she got out of that taxi, with her beautiful eyes looking at me, smiling at me.
we just walk for hours, catching up with our lives, it was getting late and I walked her home as the gentleman I am, to my surprise she invited me in... and that night... that night we became one for the first time, it was a dream come true, it was so perfect, so many kisses, the sweat, the heavy breathing, I have never made love in such a passionate way. We fell asleep after a long night of love.

when I woke up I still couldnt belive what happened, waking up with an angel only happens once in a life time. since that day we started living together.

that relation lasted for 1year and 6 months, by the end of that time I decided to propouse her, I was bursting in happiness when she told me yes :)
we got our families togther and both where happy about it. soon after that we decided to have a baby!!!
we got a misscarriage 2 times, I have never felt so sad in my life, loosing an unborn son is never easy, I still weap when I think about it.
we decided to try a 3th time, it was going well but in the 3th month we lost it again....
after that one, everything went down the hill, she quit her job and start drinking, heavy drinking
I cant remember a single day where she was sober after that, she became so diferent, she was another person, and no matter how hard I tried, I just couldnt help her, I dont know if I wasnt man enough or good enough for her to make her stop drinking that much.

may 10 2010, mothers day in mexico
my parents decided to visit me at guadalajara, to celebrate my mom the whole day, I really wanted to be with her, didnt saw her for like 10 months, so I just wanted to spend that day with my mother.

that night.... that night I lost everything....
she came home drunk... after an argue, she grabed her car and crashed infront of the our house.

my mom and dad told me to stay inside, that they will take care of it.
that was the last time I saw her. Its been 2 years since then and many times I remember they days we spent together just walking and talking, the nights we spent...

some days I think I havent been able to forget about her... I think I never will

when everything ended I started drawing, working day and night, it kept my mind busy, thats how I became good at this, I guess... I get alot of commissions now, so many I have to decline alot of them, I have a paysite that pays well, have done so much in these 2 years... but I no longer have any one to share all this.


life is a heartless bitch, is it not? who whould have guessed that the happiest days of my life, so far, where when I didnt have a nickle but I had a family, a woman I loved so much and the promise of a child...

things are the way they have to be, we loners get to stay alone for good or for bad... and as hard as it may sound, I think it is better that way.

*street fighter music plays*

more than a challenger a team mate, I am proud and glad to anounce that  pirate-cashoo
has join the crew of www.hentaidevil.com ! developing art just like she knows, with amazing colors and shading!!! its something worth watching :) if you dont know what she is capable of, then you arte missing some sweet stuff!! go check her out! NOW!

just that

on the auction stream it went way better than expected :)

I had 1 littler of tequila1800

bleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa jajajaja

bye

well I thought today was going to be a regular working day but just got a call from my friends and they want to get drunk due to my BD XD so yep gonna get drunk XD

:P
nah just seen alot of futanari/shemale art in DA, didnt know they allow those things in there, is it safe? cuz maybe I will post some there XD

alguien! tiene, puede o sabe donde conseguir el Libro de juegos gigante????

http://img1.mlstatic.com/s_MLA_v_O_.....20415_8611.jpg

lo e encontrado en muy pocos lugares de internet alguien me puede ayudar a conseuirlo, yo estoy dispuesto a pagarlo claro esta

de preferencia en español claro y por lo menos que tenga el aparato de dados electrico, no importa que no tenga las fichas

I managed to take my money from my bank to paypal, tho I am still leting the amount grow a bit more before I refund anything, but I think I will have enough money in 2 weeks (around Feb 14) why I am leting this much time? well basically to have enough money to refund and not starve XD but everything is going smoothly :)

oh and btw, dont think I am ignoring you when I dont answer your note/emails about refunding, I am very aware of them and I read them all, is just that I rather spend the time working than answering, but rest asure I will give you back every penny :)

aight so I need some guidance here, I dont know how to send founds from my bank to paypal, I mean I can go to the bank and that stuff, but any one knows how to do it on internet?

aight so, I am looking for a good figure manufacturer for some future plans, but still cant find any, you guys know of some? if so please link :)

I am looking for a quality like Orchidseed and Megahouse :)

also looking for some one that speaks fluent japanese n.n

and that was the weirdest Xmas ever >_> dont ask....

on other news, the site is doing pretty well!!! :D I will be able to start refunding in a month once I get the money XD and once I fugure out how to send the money from my bank to paypal, but all and all everything is amazing :)

hope you had an awesome Christmas full of presents and all that nifty stuff XD

well that XD
nah really peeps, Im going to spend the christmas with my lil sis, this december was full of amazing surprices, the one I am most eager to witness is that my sister is going to get propoused an wil get married next year !!! XD

I hope the season has bring you happines and warm to your hearts :D

see you next week!

k it seems CCBill had some issues with the login thingie, but its all solved now, so if you wanted to suscribe and couldnt, try again :) it should be working perfectly now :)

http://hentaidevil.com/



still if you find any other bugs, let me know