So I've been told that an artist I like has been having issues, and is a touch underappreciated in my opinion. Gentleman is  solutionWCS, give them a looked. They do some wonderful stuff and are good people!

So a friend of mine,  mynaleth, is rather new to the furry community, and is looking to do some more writing styled commissions. She charges $15 per 1000 words (about $7 a page), and I'd like to think she does a pretty awesome job!

She's also looking for some friends or cool people to hang out with, and is super sweet and a fun person to talk to~

Exactly what it says on the tin. It'd be a LOT more helpful if I know you and we know each other rather well. I need to get out of where I'm living before I lose my marbles. <.>

I live in Montana, and really I am just trying to get away from here, if that makes sense. I'll answer any questions down below.

So... I'm kinda better and home now. Bad thing is that the net was shut off at my home by my mother sooooo... I'm gonna be MIA for a while... Sorry guys

So, first and foremost. Whatever you read here, don't panic. Stay calm and all that.


At 4am this morning, I was committed to a crisis home for mental issues. I did so voluntarily to protect myself and especially those around me. I have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia, and it is relatively intense.

All of that said, I am ok. I am getting the help I need, and it is help for not only this, but every mental issue I have had over the past couple of months. Each of my mental issues are linked to this, and now that we finally have it pinned down, I can get the help I need. I trust the doctors and nurses here, and I have a lot of support from my family and the community I am a part of here.

I am not sure how long I will be here, or what the end result will be. I do know that this is going to be a very important time for me, and I wanted to make this journal for those close to me here to read, and for me to show to people so I don't have to explain it a million times.

So, there's that. Thank you all for the support you've given me in the past. I may not always be vocal about it, but I always greatly appreciate it.

Cheers guys

So, I lost my job and my mental state is deteriorating, woooooo

But whatever, I made this journal for one reason:

I made a Patreon. I'm planning on writing a lot, and with my job gone I wanted to see if maybe I can help tide things over until I find another. You can find it here: https://www.patreon.com/WhiteTatsu

Any support is appreciated, I don't wanna give the impression that anything I post there won't come here too. It's just I will post things there a few days early, AND, there's rewards. Wow

So yeah! There's that

It's not a huge secret that I have a habit of disappearing or not talking to people a lot. I want to make it clear that this isn't on purpose, I am often easily distracted. I wanted to make this journal to tell everyone something.

Don't feel like you're being a bother when poking me, if anything I encourage people to do that, as I have a habit of not poking people.

This also goes for those of you who maybe want to poke me but haven't. Trust me, I am a nice guy, and am always up for meeting people.

With that, my contact info is in the header and footer. Feel free to hit me up

So, I have been on this site and in the fandom for a while now, and I have a good deal of people watching me (for one reason or another), and with recent goings on in the world, I've had this idea growing in my head and I'd like your opinions on it.

Over the past four or so years, and last year especially, there has been increasingly intense social and political separation. A prime example would be the elections, and how everyone was at each others throats for a full year. Another example would be drama with people like the 'Hugh Mungus' guy who was railed for 'sexually harassing' a crazy woman over what was essentially a dad joke.

Now, I have been relatively quiet on things like this because I am semi-afraid of backlash (seeing as I am a white Christian male and all). However, the more time passes, the more and more I feel the need to voice my opinion and what I see and what can be done to fix it. Obviously my opinion may upset others, and there's a big chance most people won't even read it or take it seriously.

So my question is, should I make something like this? I'm on the fence about it and am honestly not sure what it'd even do. Vote here please; http://www.strawpoll.me/12453054 and thanks for your time

TL;DR, I'm a selfish prick

I go for long periods of time without talking to anyone, and usually when I do talk to people, it's because I'm horny or bored. I have several masters/mistresses because I want to get what I want easily.

This doesn't mean I don't love them. I just don't give nearly as much as I receive and I am often hard to reach, sometimes cuz of work, sometimes because I am gaming.

So what does this mean? Well, my father, who I take after a lot unfortunately, left my mother because he lost interest and someone else caught their eye. I am now worried that I am heading down that same path, and the realization that I am rather selfish and that I could turn into my father terrifies me and upsets me to no end.

My selfishness already cost me a relationship. It caused me to hurt someone else due to me not thinking about what I was doing.

Sorry for this. I needed an outlet

Starting today, I will be doing commissions for stories! This is to, for this month anyway, help me get Christmas stuff for friends and family, but after that it'll be to help me save up to move from my current place!

Stories can be about anything, but will be on the shorter side for the beginning. So, prices range from $5 for two pages, and $10 for four pages! PLEASE NOTE THAT FOUR PAGES IS THE ABSOLUTE MAX. Any more and it starts getting repetitive...

So, please consider it if you can! And feel free to let your friends know, you don't need to watch me to commission

Also, please contact me in the comments or through notes. Makes everything much easier n.n

Thanks guys!

So I am currently commissioning Glitchxcity on YouTube to do a theme of White. This, mixed with the recent art I got of White will very likely get me off my arse so I can WRITE HER STORY! If not, well... Hey, least she's got pretty art and a theme ay?

So, after six years of hiding it, I came out to my mother as a SINFUL FURRY. And... She fucking knew already, and she thought I knew. She knew who  raichupuppy was when I told her I was visiting her so...

I have been dying over nothing! We laughed like idiots and I feel great. Awesome :D




Sorry for crying at ya'll for so long, I think this is the end of that. Finally

No I am not hacked this time. I am... Having a very very hard time focusing on anything positive, and the negative is eating me alive. I will make this absolutely clear. I AM NOT GOING TO KILL MYSELF. EVER. PERIOD. However, if I come to the conclusion that my life here is negatively effecting me, I will drop from the fandom. This is so everyone knows what is happening.

Hey, I am home! And have been for a couple weeks, I have just been a lazy CUNT and didn't update ya'll cx

So, I had fun over at  handsdownhound and  raichupuppy's house, and have returned to Montana. Only to have them have snow BEFORE ME! How rude.

Anyway, I'm back, so... IDK, expect more of what's already been happening these two weeks? xD

I apologize for my previous journal guys. Rest assured that I am getting better, and am my normal, cancerous meme snuffing self.

As I'm typing this, I am boarding a flight to visit  Raichupuppy and  handsdownhound and the HYPE is overruling my lack of sleep. Cuz waking up at 3:45 am is not always a fun thing, ya know?

I will be posting regular updates, pics and videos to my twitter account, so if ya'll wanna stalk me, feel free to do so :P

And of course, I do have a habit of sometimes posting some spicy and tasty memes, so there's that appeal as well

https://twitter.com/White_Tatsu

I don't think I can continue on like I am. No one helps. No one listens. No one is around and no one seems to care. So, if no one cares, why should I? I feel like I am a sex toy, being passed around and ignored when I need something. When I am not there to help someone out, I feel like I let them down, and I don't ever fully recover. No one helps me. No one gives a FUCK what's wrong with me or how to fix it. No one is ever around. No one offers me an ear, I force it on people and they view me as a whiny bitch.

I do not know if I am going to continue on. I can't fucking go on like this. I don't feel joy any more. I only feel darkness and disappointment. I am not going to commit suicide, I do not want to put anyone through that. But it has been a long fucking time since I've had to say that to myself

Or commission rather, I think I'm gonna get a pic of White in a fight styled pic. So, robed and armored, with her Keyblade

Anyone know of anyone I can bother for that?

Why? Cuz I can :p


A. If I’m in love
 espinoth :v

B. Last person I talked on the phone with
Not sure 100% but I think it was  raichupuppy

C. How long has it been since I’ve kissed?
Shit, um... Well I live with my mom so a couple hours
If not mom-kisses, since high school. So three or four years

D. If I have a preference for boys or girls?
Girls definitely have a huge leg up in irl terms

E. How many piercings?
Zero. I'd rather not be stabbed thanks >|c

F. Give me any options like “hot or cold”
You guys can give me options in the comments, and I'll reply with my choice.

G. Last person said “I love you” to
My pet  soniclawyer

H. Last person I hugged
Mom
Or ex gf a long time ago

I. Last time I felt jealous and why
That's a hard one... I think it was my buddy from church here, who got married to a woman he deeply loves. I was a touch jealous of him getting to marry the woman he loves so.much, but I'm super happy for him as well

J. Are you insecure? What about?
Shiiiiiiiit. I have General Anxeity Disorder and Severe Depression. What am I NOT secure about?
Except my bits... I'm exhibitionist

K. My full name
My Internet name is White Tatsu-Arktandr. My irl full name is Ryan Christian Allen
Why am I sharing that? It's actually a common full name cx

L. Siblings?
Two younger brothers!

M. If I forgive betrayal?
It...kinda depends on the type of betrayal...? There are some things I will never likely fully forgive

N. Favorite animal?
Domestic Dogs. I grew up with dogs all my life

O. Where I’d like to travel?
Japan, Gemany, Scandinavia, aaaaand the Holy Land. Assuming it isn't glassed

P. Music I like
I like a multitude of things. Normally it's gotta have a good beat, but I like a lot of piano and violin music too. More recently I've been listening to some Electro Swing and bands like Sabaton

Q. Favorite flower
No idea

R. Is cheating ever okay?
Fuck. No.

S. 2 hobbies
Video games and role playing.

T. 3 things you love unconditionally
My family, father included, even though he left. My church. I will always be a strong follower of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (you muggles call us "Mormon"). And my pets

U. Favorite time of the year and why?
Summer. Cuz I live up north and it's always fucking cold in the winter

V. Big dreams?
I just wanna be somewhat well off. Not rich. Just well off

W. If I’ve done something I regret
I hit my mother once when I was younger, due to emotions snapping and tensions boiling over. I have since apologized and we are close now but... Yeah

X. 3 turn ons
1 Proportional bits. Cuz if they are huge I think you're a whore whoops
2 Confidence. Just, yes
3 Feet/Paws. I'ma pawslut k?

Y. 3 turn offs
Scat. Ech
Vomit. ECH
Being a fucking prick. UGH NO GROSS

Z. Ask any question you want
Go ahead and ask me anything in the comments. I'll reply with an answer :D

Is me streaming myself writing smut a weird? Cuz I may do it...

I redid the poll cuz the last one sucks whoops http://www.strawpoll.me/11463684

MY NET. HAS RETURNED. AFTER MORE THAN A YEAR OF FUCKING OFF AND I AM EXCITED AND LITERALLY ABOUT TO CRY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlFd3EXodgc < THIS IS ME

Anyway, with that out of the way, I'm gonna seriously start writing today or tomorrow. But, I am unsure what to do. So, here's a broad category to chose from http://www.strawpoll.me/11463684 and I'll check it through the day. Keep in mind, I will be narrowing ideas down; if story wins, I'll ask what parts first, if it's smut, what kind, if its dank memes ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) I will ask if you'd rather kys or watch Leafyishere for three days straight

I hope to be more active everywhere now that Internet is back, but I will need to adapt to having it back. So it may be a bit x3

So for context, I am a huge history nerd, and I've thought about writing stories of White and her canon mixing with different times in history. This particular one is set in 1452, a time when Christians weren't exactly the most tolerant folks. It's even in Spain, which... Well, one doesn't expect the tolerant inquisition to bust down the door do they?

In case that wasn't clear; this story isn't exactly kind to Christanity. Keep in mind it's just due to the times, and as a Christian myself, I don't actually view Christianity as "barbaric" :p

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Four days he had been down here, four days with only dirty water and bread harder than the stone that surrounded him. Not counting the three days prior where he was dragged across the bloody ocean. Or the full day of battle before that... Lord Ado was certain he'd have bled out from the wound in his stomach, if not the fact for the strange purple glow around the wound and the curious tingling... If he had not seen it applied with his own eyes, he'd have sworn it was the Devil's work, and that he had been cursed
He still wasn't entirely positive on that account
The battle of Porto had gone very much the same as the war against the "demons from the west". Arriving on the backs of seafaring and airborne creatures alike, they had come promising peace and free trade between their nation and the mighty Portugal. But the clergy were adamant that these creatures were the Devil's spawn, and were here to bring about apocalypse. And following a formal declaration from the Pope in March of 1452, all pious Christian nations were to take arms against this new menace... The results were disastrous.
The noble Kingdoms of Portugal, Castile, Aragon, Naples, France, England, Scotland and the Dukes of Ireland united against a common foe... Within a year Ireland was all but subdued. The Scottish and British were being pushed into the Highlands, the Hispanic Kingdoms were being pushed back to Sevilla and Granada, and France was being blockaded all along her Atlantic borders... The leaders in Hispania had met in Porto to discuss strategy and counter attacks, and were set upon from the sea and the air... The major leaders escaped, Lord Ado had stayed behind to lead the defense...
He was jolted from the recollection by the sound of the door opening, and not for the first time, he had felt that wound burn... This time, however, he was face to face with the one who commanded it's power, and as his knees shook and struggled to hold him, he wished the wound had sent him into the arms of the Lord... He reached up to grasp at the beads around his neck, leaning on the wall for support as he uttered the Lord's prayer.
The creature stood two heads above him, and had eyes that glowed a vibrant purple. It's fur seemed to gleam white in the moonlight through the barred window, and showed off the strange sword on her hip... The creature had female features, but was built better than any man he had ever seen, and looked as if she could take on ten men without any trouble...
And he was alone with it... The spawn that had lead the charge in so many other battles... He'd heard the stories of the evil magics she could inflict on her enemies, how she could send whole battalions fleeing for their lives, or turn them against their own kin... How lightning seemed to bend to her will, and become her enemies bane...
Curiously, she was silent as he went through the prayer, silent and immobile as the walls that held him captive...
He stuttered when the prayer was over, tensing and clutching the beads as she took another step toward him "N-No, I will not allow the Devil's daughter to curse me!"
She tilted her head, pulling the hand that had been extending towards him... When she spoke, her voice was... Soft, motherly but hiding a commanding, sure tone to it
She spoke perfect Portuguese
"Devil? Is that what you people think we are? After you butchered and hung the heads of our traders on the walls of your stone "forts"" She chuckled, and faster than he could follow, moved forward, grabbing his chin and leaning down to go face to face with him
Her grip was like steal, and even at full strength, he'd never escape her... But her gaze, now full of anger and resentment, filled him with more fear than anything had ever before "I did not come to this dark and dreary place to be lectured by a barbarian. I came to get information. And you will give it"
She released his chin and stepped back, smirking again as her eyes glowed and a force come upon him, grabbing his limbs and shoving him to the ground! He howled in dispair, sure that the Devil was holding him down on his hands and knees... The creature before him was silent, waiting for his wails to stop before speaking again "Where are your leaders, barbarian? Where is this "Pope" and these self proclaimed Kings? Do they hide in more of the stone tombs you people make?"
Outside of a couple whimpers, Lord Ado was silent... The creature let out a sigh, and flicked her wrist, the bonds on his limbs relaxing as she spun on her heel "I will come back tomorrow, until then... My friend will keep you company."
Something like a dog slipped passed her and sat in front of the door. Spikes adorned it's head and liquid fire seemed glued to its midriff...
Its gaze was unwavering, and it had fire in the place of eyes
"Don't try and sit down, Barbarian. My friend wouldn't be too happy about that... Enjoy your night" She smirked, closing the door as the 'demon-dog' snarled at him, leaning forward as that liquid fire dripped from its maw...

There has been some drama surrounding myself and a couple others. I will not be calling anyone from any side out by name, and anyone who does will get their comment deleted.

First. Since distancing myself with this individual, I, nor anyone I know has spoken about or attacked this person. All "fights" have been instigated by the person I distanced from, and they have called me and others out by name on social media. We have not, barring one I made similar to this one on another site where I defended myself

Second. This person has been accusing me of leaking my own porn, and accusing them of it. While a video I made for only a few people should have seen was leaked, and I did assume they did it, I have since apologized and retracted my accusation several times, even making a video to do so. They still bring it up and tell people I do not apologize and that I leaked my own nudes. Which is as crazy as one can get, in my opinion.

And finally. From this point on, I will not speak about this person again, unless I am forced to defend myself. I will not answer anyone who asks me who this is, it has spread far enough of their own accord, and if it blows up farther, it is on them

Now back to your regularly scheduled meme-cancer Lucario

I am flying out to visit  Raichupuppy and  handsdownhound on Oct 26th! I will be flying home on Nov 8th! While I do not imagine I will just drop off the face of the Internet for that time, I WILL be slower and not on as often on IM's and the like. I BOUGHT THE TICKETS TODAY. IT IS HAPPENIN' MY NI- BROTHER

ALSO, we're gonna be like, taking pics and stuff.

No nothing like that

And if anyone asks for ANY kind of pic that is even sliiiiightly lewd, I will promptly block you >|c

BUT, expect pics of crazy shenanigans such as A MONTANA KID GOING TO THE CITY AHHHHHHHHHHHH

Hey, I got a Twitter! https://twitter.com/White_Tatsu

Come for HILARIOUS posts about...! ...IDK, memes and irl stuff?

I will be posting pics and shit from irl, so keep that in mind. No art will be posted there.... Usually